Make AI callers more dynamic with arcs, seeds, style gradients, and learning

- Conversation arc system: callers evolve through Opening → Building → Turn →
  Depth → Wind down stages, with style-based timing offsets
- Problem seeds: 80 short concept strings that the LLM expands into unique
  stories each time (50% of PROBLEMS picks use seeds vs full entries)
- Style gradients: 4 composable axes (energy, honesty, humor, confidence)
  with 625 combinations, used 50% of the time alongside handcrafted styles
- Call duration tracking: records metrics to data/call_metrics.json, learns
  which pools and style axes produce longer calls, nudges future picks ±15%

Co-Authored-By: Claude Opus 4.6 <noreply@anthropic.com>

.env.example

@@ -0,0 +1,48 @@
+# API Keys
+OPENROUTER_API_KEY=
+ELEVENLABS_API_KEY=
+INWORLD_API_KEY=
+OPENAI_API_KEY=
+
+# SignalWire (real callers)
+SIGNALWIRE_PROJECT_ID=
+SIGNALWIRE_SPACE=
+SIGNALWIRE_TOKEN=
+SIGNALWIRE_PHONE=
+SIGNALWIRE_STREAM_URL=
+
+# Social media
+TWITTER_API_KEY=
+TWITTER_API_SECRET=
+TWITTER_ACCESS_TOKEN=
+TWITTER_ACCESS_TOKEN_SECRET=
+CLIENT_SECRET_ID=
+CLIENT_SECRET=
+POSTIZ_URL=
+POSTIZ_API_KEY=
+BSKY_APP_PASSWORD=
+
+# Castopod
+CASTOPOD_USERNAME=admin
+CASTOPOD_PASSWORD=
+CASTOPOD_DB_PASS=
+
+# Postiz publishing
+POSTIZ_JWT_SECRET=
+POSTIZ_USER_ID=
+POSTIZ_INTEGRATIONS={}
+
+# BunnyCDN
+BUNNY_STORAGE_KEY=
+BUNNY_ACCOUNT_KEY=
+
+# Monitoring
+HEARTBEAT_URL=
+
+# Google AI
+GOOGLE_API_KEY=
+
+# Email (IMAP)
+SUBMISSIONS_IMAP_HOST=
+SUBMISSIONS_IMAP_USER=
+SUBMISSIONS_IMAP_PASS=

.github-last-push

@@ -0,0 +1 @@
+2c7fcdb5aecbb0d3bf039abab9e723d62bc8fe1a

.gitignore

@@ -50,5 +50,12 @@ voices-v1.0.bin
 # Reference voices for TTS
 ref_audio/
 
+# YouTube OAuth credentials
+youtube_client_secrets.json
+youtube_token.json
+
+# Clip upload history (local)
+upload-history.json
+
 # Claude settings (local)
 .claude/

CLAUDE.md

@@ -18,15 +18,14 @@
 ## Castopod (Podcast Publishing)
 - **URL**: https://podcast.macneilmediagroup.com
 - **Podcast handle**: `@LukeAtTheRoost`
-- **API Auth**: Basic auth (admin/podcast2026api)
+- **API Auth**: Basic auth (credentials in .env: CASTOPOD_USERNAME, CASTOPOD_PASSWORD)
 - **Container**: `castopod-castopod-1`
 - **Database**: `castopod-mariadb-1` (user: castopod, db: castopod)
 
 ## Running the App
 ```bash
-# Start backend
-cd /Users/lukemacneil/ai-podcast
-python -m uvicorn backend.main:app --reload --host 0.0.0.0 --port 8000
+# Start backend — ALWAYS use --reload-dir to avoid CPU thrashing from file watchers
+python -m uvicorn backend.main:app --reload --reload-dir backend --host 0.0.0.0 --port 8000
 
 # Or use run.sh
 ./run.sh
@@ -60,6 +59,26 @@ Required in `.env`:
 ## Website
 - **Domain**: lukeattheroost.com (behind Cloudflare)
 - **Analytics**: Cloudflare Web Analytics (enable in Cloudflare dashboard, no code changes needed)
+- **Deploy**: `npx wrangler pages deploy website/ --project-name=lukeattheroost --branch=main`
+
+## Git Push
+- If `mmgnas` times out, use the 10g hostname:
+  ```bash
+  GIT_SSH_COMMAND="ssh -o HostName=mmgnas-10g -p 2222 -i ~/.ssh/gitea_mmgnas" git push origin main
+  ```
+
+## Hetzner VPS
+- **IP**: `46.225.164.41`
+- **SSH**: `ssh root@46.225.164.41` (uses default key `~/.ssh/id_rsa`)
+- **Specs**: 2 CPU, 4GB RAM, 38GB disk (~33GB free)
+- **Mail**: `docker-mailserver` at `/opt/mailserver/`
+- **Manage accounts**: `docker exec mailserver setup email add/del/list`
+- **Available for future services** — has headroom for lightweight containers. Not suitable for storage-heavy services (e.g. Castopod with daily episodes) without a disk upgrade or attached volume.
+
+## Podcast Workflow
+- Publishing pipeline: episodes go through Castopod, CDN, website, YouTube, and social
+- Always check Python venv is active and packages are installed before running publish scripts
+- Episode numbering must be verified against existing episodes
 
 ## Episodes Published
 - Episode 6 published 2026-02-08 (podcast6.mp3, ~31 min)

audio_settings.json

@@ -1,10 +1,17 @@
 {
   "input_device": 13,
+  "input_device_name": "Babyface Pro (70793771)",
   "input_channel": 1,
-  "output_device": 13,
+  "output_device": 12,
+  "output_device_name": "Radio Voice Mic",
   "caller_channel": 3,
   "live_caller_channel": 9,
   "music_channel": 5,
   "sfx_channel": 7,
+  "ad_channel": 11,
+  "ident_channel": 15,
+  "monitor_device": null,
+  "monitor_device_name": null,
+  "monitor_channel": 1,
   "phone_filter": false
 }

backend/config.py

@@ -22,9 +22,14 @@ class Settings(BaseSettings):
     signalwire_phone: str = os.getenv("SIGNALWIRE_PHONE", "")
     signalwire_stream_url: str = os.getenv("SIGNALWIRE_STREAM_URL", "")
 
+    # Email (IMAP)
+    submissions_imap_host: str = os.getenv("SUBMISSIONS_IMAP_HOST", "")
+    submissions_imap_user: str = os.getenv("SUBMISSIONS_IMAP_USER", "")
+    submissions_imap_pass: str = os.getenv("SUBMISSIONS_IMAP_PASS", "")
+
     # LLM Settings
     llm_provider: str = "openrouter"  # "openrouter" or "ollama"
-    openrouter_model: str = "anthropic/claude-3-haiku"
+    openrouter_model: str = "anthropic/claude-sonnet-4-5"
     ollama_model: str = "llama3.2"
     ollama_host: str = "http://localhost:11434"
 
@@ -39,6 +44,7 @@ class Settings(BaseSettings):
     sounds_dir: Path = base_dir / "sounds"
     music_dir: Path = base_dir / "music"
     ads_dir: Path = base_dir / "ads"
+    idents_dir: Path = base_dir / "idents"
     sessions_dir: Path = base_dir / "sessions"
 
     class Config:

backend/services/audio.py

@@ -10,24 +10,67 @@ from typing import Optional, Callable
 import wave
 import time
 
+
 # Settings file path
 SETTINGS_FILE = Path(__file__).parent.parent.parent / "audio_settings.json"
 
+# REAPER state file for dialog region markers
+REAPER_STATE_FILE = "/tmp/reaper_state.txt"
+
+def _write_reaper_state(state: str):
+    """Write state to file. Uses a thread so it's safe from audio callbacks."""
+    def _write():
+        try:
+            with open(REAPER_STATE_FILE, "w") as f:
+                f.write(state)
+        except OSError:
+            pass
+    threading.Thread(target=_write, daemon=True).start()
+
 
 class AudioService:
     """Manages audio I/O with multi-channel support for Loopback routing"""
 
+    @staticmethod
+    def _find_device_by_name(name: str) -> Optional[int]:
+        """Find a device index by name substring match. Returns None if not found."""
+        if not name:
+            return None
+        devices = sd.query_devices()
+        # Exact match first
+        for i, d in enumerate(devices):
+            if d["name"] == name:
+                return i
+        # Substring match
+        for i, d in enumerate(devices):
+            if name in d["name"]:
+                return i
+        return None
+
+    @staticmethod
+    def _get_device_name(device_id: Optional[int]) -> Optional[str]:
+        """Get the name of a device by index."""
+        if device_id is None:
+            return None
+        try:
+            return sd.query_devices(device_id)["name"]
+        except Exception:
+            return None
+
     def __init__(self):
         # Device configuration
-        self.input_device: Optional[int] = None
+        self.input_device: Optional[int] = 13   # Radio Voice Mic (loopback input)
         self.input_channel: int = 1  # 1-indexed channel
 
-        self.output_device: Optional[int] = None  # Single output device (multi-channel)
-        self.caller_channel: int = 1   # Channel for caller TTS
+        self.output_device: Optional[int] = 12  # Radio Voice Mic (loopback output)
+        self.caller_channel: int = 3   # Channel for caller TTS
         self.live_caller_channel: int = 9  # Channel for live caller audio
-        self.music_channel: int = 2    # Channel for music
+        self.music_channel: int = 5    # Channel for music
         self.sfx_channel: int = 3      # Channel for SFX
         self.ad_channel: int = 11      # Channel for ads
+        self.ident_channel: int = 15   # Channel for idents (stereo: ch 15+16)
+        self.monitor_device: Optional[int] = 14  # Babyface Pro (headphone monitoring)
+        self.monitor_channel: int = 1  # Channel for mic monitoring on monitor device
         self.phone_filter: bool = False  # Phone filter on caller voices
 
         # Ad playback state
@@ -37,6 +80,13 @@ class AudioService:
         self._ad_position: int = 0
         self._ad_playing: bool = False
 
+        # Ident playback state
+        self._ident_stream: Optional[sd.OutputStream] = None
+        self._ident_data: Optional[np.ndarray] = None
+        self._ident_resampled: Optional[np.ndarray] = None
+        self._ident_position: int = 0
+        self._ident_playing: bool = False
+
         # Recording state
         self._recording = False
         self._record_thread: Optional[threading.Thread] = None
@@ -78,6 +128,10 @@ class AudioService:
         self.input_sample_rate = 16000  # For Whisper
         self.output_sample_rate = 24000  # For TTS
 
+        # Mic monitor (input → monitor device passthrough)
+        self._monitor_stream: Optional[sd.OutputStream] = None
+        self._monitor_write: Optional[Callable] = None
+
         # Stem recording (opt-in, attached via API)
         self.stem_recorder = None
         self._stem_mic_stream: Optional[sd.InputStream] = None
@@ -85,37 +139,61 @@ class AudioService:
         # Load saved settings
         self._load_settings()
 
+    def _resolve_device(self, data: dict, key: str) -> Optional[int]:
+        """Resolve a device from settings: try name first, fall back to index."""
+        name_key = f"{key}_name"
+        name = data.get(name_key)
+        if name:
+            resolved = self._find_device_by_name(name)
+            if resolved is not None:
+                idx = data.get(key)
+                if idx is not None and resolved != idx:
+                    print(f"[Audio] Device '{name}' moved: {idx} -> {resolved}")
+                return resolved
+            else:
+                print(f"[Audio] Warning: device '{name}' not found, falling back to index {data.get(key)}")
+        return data.get(key)
+
     def _load_settings(self):
-        """Load settings from disk"""
+        """Load settings from disk, resolving device names to current indices"""
         if SETTINGS_FILE.exists():
             try:
                 with open(SETTINGS_FILE) as f:
                     data = json.load(f)
-                self.input_device = data.get("input_device")
+                self.input_device = self._resolve_device(data, "input_device")
                 self.input_channel = data.get("input_channel", 1)
-                self.output_device = data.get("output_device")
+                self.output_device = self._resolve_device(data, "output_device")
                 self.caller_channel = data.get("caller_channel", 1)
                 self.live_caller_channel = data.get("live_caller_channel", 4)
                 self.music_channel = data.get("music_channel", 2)
                 self.sfx_channel = data.get("sfx_channel", 3)
                 self.ad_channel = data.get("ad_channel", 11)
+                self.ident_channel = data.get("ident_channel", 15)
+                self.monitor_device = self._resolve_device(data, "monitor_device")
+                self.monitor_channel = data.get("monitor_channel", 1)
                 self.phone_filter = data.get("phone_filter", False)
-                print(f"Loaded audio settings: output={self.output_device}, channels={self.caller_channel}/{self.live_caller_channel}/{self.music_channel}/{self.sfx_channel}/ad:{self.ad_channel}, phone_filter={self.phone_filter}")
+                print(f"Loaded audio settings: input={self.input_device} ({self._get_device_name(self.input_device)}), output={self.output_device} ({self._get_device_name(self.output_device)}), monitor={self.monitor_device}, phone_filter={self.phone_filter}")
             except Exception as e:
                 print(f"Failed to load audio settings: {e}")
 
     def _save_settings(self):
-        """Save settings to disk"""
+        """Save settings to disk with device names for stable resolution"""
         try:
             data = {
                 "input_device": self.input_device,
+                "input_device_name": self._get_device_name(self.input_device),
                 "input_channel": self.input_channel,
                 "output_device": self.output_device,
+                "output_device_name": self._get_device_name(self.output_device),
                 "caller_channel": self.caller_channel,
                 "live_caller_channel": self.live_caller_channel,
                 "music_channel": self.music_channel,
                 "sfx_channel": self.sfx_channel,
                 "ad_channel": self.ad_channel,
+                "ident_channel": self.ident_channel,
+                "monitor_device": self.monitor_device,
+                "monitor_device_name": self._get_device_name(self.monitor_device),
+                "monitor_channel": self.monitor_channel,
                 "phone_filter": self.phone_filter,
             }
             with open(SETTINGS_FILE, "w") as f:
@@ -148,6 +226,9 @@ class AudioService:
         music_channel: Optional[int] = None,
         sfx_channel: Optional[int] = None,
         ad_channel: Optional[int] = None,
+        ident_channel: Optional[int] = None,
+        monitor_device: Optional[int] = None,
+        monitor_channel: Optional[int] = None,
         phone_filter: Optional[bool] = None
     ):
         """Configure audio devices and channels"""
@@ -167,6 +248,12 @@ class AudioService:
             self.sfx_channel = sfx_channel
         if ad_channel is not None:
             self.ad_channel = ad_channel
+        if ident_channel is not None:
+            self.ident_channel = ident_channel
+        if monitor_device is not None:
+            self.monitor_device = monitor_device
+        if monitor_channel is not None:
+            self.monitor_channel = monitor_channel
         if phone_filter is not None:
             self.phone_filter = phone_filter
 
@@ -184,6 +271,9 @@ class AudioService:
             "music_channel": self.music_channel,
             "sfx_channel": self.sfx_channel,
             "ad_channel": self.ad_channel,
+            "ident_channel": self.ident_channel,
+            "monitor_device": self.monitor_device,
+            "monitor_channel": self.monitor_channel,
             "phone_filter": self.phone_filter,
         }
 
@@ -361,10 +451,6 @@ class AudioService:
             # Apply fade to prevent clicks
             audio = self._apply_fade(audio, device_sr)
 
-            # Stem recording: caller TTS
-            if self.stem_recorder:
-                self.stem_recorder.write_sporadic("caller", audio.copy(), device_sr)
-
             # Create multi-channel output with audio only on target channel
             multi_ch = np.zeros((len(audio), num_channels), dtype=np.float32)
             multi_ch[:, channel_idx] = audio
@@ -384,6 +470,9 @@ class AudioService:
                 while pos < len(multi_ch) and not self._caller_stop_event.is_set():
                     end = min(pos + chunk_size, len(multi_ch))
                     stream.write(multi_ch[pos:end])
+                    # Record each chunk as it plays so hangups cut the stem too
+                    if self.stem_recorder:
+                        self.stem_recorder.write_sporadic("caller", audio[pos:end].copy(), device_sr)
                     pos = end
 
             if self._caller_stop_event.is_set():
@@ -462,7 +551,7 @@ class AudioService:
 
         self._live_caller_write = write_audio
 
-        self._live_caller_stream = sd.OutputStream(
+        self._live_caller_stream = self._open_output_stream(
             device=self.output_device,
             samplerate=device_sr,
             channels=num_channels,
@@ -470,16 +559,15 @@ class AudioService:
             callback=callback,
             blocksize=1024,
         )
-        self._live_caller_stream.start()
         print(f"[Audio] Live caller stream started on ch {self.live_caller_channel} @ {device_sr}Hz (prebuffer {prebuffer_samples} samples)")
 
     def _stop_live_caller_stream(self):
         """Stop persistent live caller output stream"""
         if self._live_caller_stream:
-            self._live_caller_stream.stop()
-            self._live_caller_stream.close()
+            stream = self._live_caller_stream
             self._live_caller_stream = None
             self._live_caller_write = None
+            self._close_stream(stream)
             print("[Audio] Live caller stream stopped")
 
     def route_real_caller_audio(self, pcm_data: bytes, sample_rate: int):
@@ -515,10 +603,20 @@ class AudioService:
 
     def start_host_stream(self, send_callback: Callable):
         """Start continuous host mic capture for streaming to real callers"""
+        if self._host_stream is not None:
+            self._host_send_callback = send_callback
+            return
         if self.input_device is None:
             print("[Audio] No input device configured for host streaming")
             return
 
+        # Close stem_mic if active — this stream's callback handles stem recording too
+        if self._stem_mic_stream is not None:
+            stream = self._stem_mic_stream
+            self._stem_mic_stream = None
+            self._close_stream(stream)
+            print("[Audio] Closed stem_mic (host stream takes over)")
+
         self._host_send_callback = send_callback
 
         def _start():
@@ -533,6 +631,9 @@ class AudioService:
             host_accum_samples = [0]
             send_threshold = 1600  # 100ms at 16kHz
 
+            # Start mic monitor if monitor device is configured
+            self._start_monitor(device_sr)
+
             def callback(indata, frames, time_info, status):
                 # Capture for push-to-talk recording if active
                 if self._recording and self._recorded_audio is not None:
@@ -542,6 +643,10 @@ class AudioService:
                 if self.stem_recorder:
                     self.stem_recorder.write("host", indata[:, record_channel].copy(), device_sr)
 
+                # Mic monitor: send to headphone device
+                if self._monitor_write:
+                    self._monitor_write(indata[:, record_channel].copy())
+
                 if not self._host_send_callback:
                     return
                 mono = indata[:, record_channel]
@@ -577,13 +682,89 @@ class AudioService:
     def stop_host_stream(self):
         """Stop host mic streaming and live caller output"""
         if self._host_stream:
-            self._host_stream.stop()
-            self._host_stream.close()
+            stream = self._host_stream
             self._host_stream = None
             self._host_send_callback = None
+            self._close_stream(stream)
             print("[Audio] Host mic streaming stopped")
+        self._stop_monitor()
         self._stop_live_caller_stream()
 
+    # --- Mic Monitor (input → headphone device) ---
+
+    def _start_monitor(self, input_sr: int):
+        """Start mic monitor stream that routes input to monitor device"""
+        if self._monitor_stream is not None:
+            return
+        if self.monitor_device is None:
+            return
+
+        device_info = sd.query_devices(self.monitor_device)
+        num_channels = device_info['max_output_channels']
+        device_sr = int(device_info['default_samplerate'])
+        channel_idx = min(self.monitor_channel, num_channels) - 1
+
+        # Ring buffer for cross-device routing
+        ring_size = int(device_sr * 2)
+        ring = np.zeros(ring_size, dtype=np.float32)
+        state = {"write_pos": 0, "read_pos": 0, "avail": 0}
+
+        # Precompute resample ratio (input device sr → monitor device sr)
+        resample_ratio = device_sr / input_sr
+
+        def write_audio(data):
+            # Resample if sample rates differ
+            if abs(resample_ratio - 1.0) > 0.01:
+                n_out = int(len(data) * resample_ratio)
+                indices = np.linspace(0, len(data) - 1, n_out).astype(int)
+                data = data[indices]
+            n = len(data)
+            wp = state["write_pos"]
+            if wp + n <= ring_size:
+                ring[wp:wp + n] = data
+            else:
+                first = ring_size - wp
+                ring[wp:] = data[:first]
+                ring[:n - first] = data[first:]
+            state["write_pos"] = (wp + n) % ring_size
+            state["avail"] += n
+
+        def callback(outdata, frames, time_info, status):
+            outdata.fill(0)
+            avail = state["avail"]
+            if avail < frames:
+                return
+            rp = state["read_pos"]
+            if rp + frames <= ring_size:
+                outdata[:frames, channel_idx] = ring[rp:rp + frames]
+            else:
+                first = ring_size - rp
+                outdata[:first, channel_idx] = ring[rp:]
+                outdata[first:frames, channel_idx] = ring[:frames - first]
+            state["read_pos"] = (rp + frames) % ring_size
+            state["avail"] -= frames
+
+        self._monitor_write = write_audio
+        self._monitor_stream = sd.OutputStream(
+            device=self.monitor_device,
+            samplerate=device_sr,
+            channels=num_channels,
+            dtype=np.float32,
+            blocksize=1024,
+            callback=callback,
+        )
+        self._monitor_stream.start()
+        print(f"[Audio] Mic monitor started (device {self.monitor_device} ch {self.monitor_channel} @ {device_sr}Hz)")
+
+    def _stop_monitor(self):
+        """Stop mic monitor stream"""
+        if self._monitor_stream:
+            stream = self._monitor_stream
+            self._monitor_stream = None
+            self._monitor_write = None
+            self._close_stream(stream)
+            print("[Audio] Mic monitor stopped")
+
     # --- Music Playback ---
 
     def load_music(self, file_path: str) -> bool:
@@ -742,7 +923,7 @@ class AudioService:
                 mono_out = (old_samples * fade_out + new_samples * fade_in) * self._music_volume
                 outdata[:, channel_idx] = mono_out
                 if self.stem_recorder:
-                    self.stem_recorder.write("music", mono_out.copy(), device_sr)
+                    self.stem_recorder.write_sporadic("music", mono_out.copy(), device_sr)
                 self._crossfade_progress = end_progress
 
                 if self._crossfade_progress >= 1.0:
@@ -753,10 +934,10 @@ class AudioService:
                 mono_out = new_samples * self._music_volume
                 outdata[:, channel_idx] = mono_out
                 if self.stem_recorder:
-                    self.stem_recorder.write("music", mono_out.copy(), device_sr)
+                    self.stem_recorder.write_sporadic("music", mono_out.copy(), device_sr)
 
         try:
-            self._music_stream = sd.OutputStream(
+            self._music_stream = self._open_output_stream(
                 device=device,
                 channels=num_channels,
                 samplerate=device_sr,
@@ -764,28 +945,68 @@ class AudioService:
                 callback=callback,
                 blocksize=2048
             )
-            self._music_stream.start()
             print(f"Music playback started on ch {self.music_channel} @ {device_sr}Hz")
         except Exception as e:
             print(f"Music playback error: {e}")
             self._music_playing = False
 
+    def _refresh_devices(self):
+        """Re-initialize PortAudio to pick up device changes, then re-resolve settings."""
+        try:
+            sd._terminate()
+            sd._initialize()
+            print("[Audio] PortAudio re-initialized")
+            self._load_settings()
+        except Exception as e:
+            print(f"[Audio] PortAudio refresh failed: {e}")
+
+    def _open_output_stream(self, **kwargs) -> sd.OutputStream:
+        """Open an OutputStream with one retry after refreshing PortAudio on failure."""
+        try:
+            stream = sd.OutputStream(**kwargs)
+            stream.start()
+            return stream
+        except Exception as first_err:
+            print(f"[Audio] Stream open failed ({first_err}), refreshing devices...")
+            self._refresh_devices()
+            # Update device/channel info from refreshed settings
+            if kwargs.get("device") == self.output_device or "device" in kwargs:
+                device_info = sd.query_devices(self.output_device)
+                kwargs["device"] = self.output_device
+                kwargs["channels"] = device_info["max_output_channels"]
+                kwargs["samplerate"] = int(device_info["default_samplerate"])
+            stream = sd.OutputStream(**kwargs)
+            stream.start()
+            return stream
+
+    def _close_stream(self, stream):
+        """Safely close a sounddevice stream, ignoring double-close errors"""
+        if stream is None:
+            return
+        try:
+            stream.stop()
+        except Exception:
+            pass
+        try:
+            stream.close()
+        except Exception:
+            pass
+
     def stop_music(self, fade_duration: float = 2.0):
         """Stop music playback with fade out"""
         if not self._music_playing or not self._music_stream:
             self._music_playing = False
-            if self._music_stream:
-                self._music_stream.stop()
-                self._music_stream.close()
+            stream = self._music_stream
             self._music_stream = None
+            self._close_stream(stream)
             self._music_position = 0
             return
 
         if fade_duration <= 0:
             self._music_playing = False
-            self._music_stream.stop()
-            self._music_stream.close()
+            stream = self._music_stream
             self._music_stream = None
+            self._close_stream(stream)
             self._music_position = 0
             print("Music stopped")
             return
@@ -794,6 +1015,10 @@ class AudioService:
         original_volume = self._music_volume
         steps = 20
         step_time = fade_duration / steps
+        # Capture stream reference locally so the fade thread closes THIS stream,
+        # not whatever self._music_stream points to later
+        fade_stream = self._music_stream
+        self._music_stream = None
 
         def _fade():
             for i in range(steps):
@@ -803,10 +1028,7 @@ class AudioService:
                 import time
                 time.sleep(step_time)
             self._music_playing = False
-            if self._music_stream:
-                self._music_stream.stop()
-                self._music_stream.close()
-                self._music_stream = None
+            self._close_stream(fade_stream)
             self._music_position = 0
             self._music_volume = original_volume
             print("Music faded out and stopped")
@@ -823,6 +1045,7 @@ class AudioService:
             return
 
         self.stop_ad()
+        self.stop_ident()
 
         try:
             audio, sr = librosa.load(str(path), sr=self.output_sample_rate, mono=True)
@@ -833,6 +1056,7 @@ class AudioService:
 
         self._ad_playing = True
         self._ad_position = 0
+        _write_reaper_state("ad")
 
         if self.output_device is None:
             num_channels = 2
@@ -863,16 +1087,17 @@ class AudioService:
                 chunk = self._ad_resampled[self._ad_position:self._ad_position + frames]
                 outdata[:, channel_idx] = chunk
                 if self.stem_recorder:
-                    self.stem_recorder.write("ads", chunk.copy(), device_sr)
+                    self.stem_recorder.write_sporadic("ads", chunk.copy(), device_sr)
                 self._ad_position += frames
             else:
                 if remaining > 0:
                     outdata[:remaining, channel_idx] = self._ad_resampled[self._ad_position:]
                 # Ad finished — no loop
                 self._ad_playing = False
+                _write_reaper_state("dialog")
 
         try:
-            self._ad_stream = sd.OutputStream(
+            self._ad_stream = self._open_output_stream(
                 device=device,
                 channels=num_channels,
                 samplerate=device_sr,
@@ -880,7 +1105,6 @@ class AudioService:
                 callback=callback,
                 blocksize=2048
             )
-            self._ad_stream.start()
             print(f"Ad playback started on ch {self.ad_channel} @ {device_sr}Hz")
         except Exception as e:
             print(f"Ad playback error: {e}")
@@ -888,13 +1112,121 @@ class AudioService:
 
     def stop_ad(self):
         """Stop ad playback"""
+        was_playing = self._ad_playing
         self._ad_playing = False
+        if was_playing:
+            _write_reaper_state("dialog")
         if self._ad_stream:
-            self._ad_stream.stop()
-            self._ad_stream.close()
+            stream = self._ad_stream
             self._ad_stream = None
+            self._close_stream(stream)
         self._ad_position = 0
 
+    def play_ident(self, file_path: str):
+        """Load and play an ident file once (no loop) in stereo on ident_channel/ident_channel+1"""
+        import librosa
+
+        path = Path(file_path)
+        if not path.exists():
+            print(f"Ident file not found: {file_path}")
+            return
+
+        self.stop_ident()
+        self.stop_ad()
+
+        try:
+            audio, sr = librosa.load(str(path), sr=self.output_sample_rate, mono=False)
+            if audio.ndim == 1:
+                # Mono file — duplicate to stereo
+                audio = np.stack([audio, audio])
+            audio = audio.astype(np.float32)  # shape: (2, samples)
+            self._ident_data = audio
+        except Exception as e:
+            print(f"Failed to load ident: {e}")
+            return
+
+        self._ident_playing = True
+        self._ident_position = 0
+        _write_reaper_state("ident")
+        print(f"Ident loaded: shape={self._ident_data.shape}, max={np.max(np.abs(self._ident_data)):.4f}")
+
+        if self.output_device is None:
+            num_channels = 2
+            device = None
+            device_sr = self.output_sample_rate
+            ch_l = 0
+            ch_r = 1
+        else:
+            device_info = sd.query_devices(self.output_device)
+            num_channels = device_info['max_output_channels']
+            device_sr = int(device_info['default_samplerate'])
+            device = self.output_device
+            ch_l = min(self.ident_channel, num_channels) - 1
+            ch_r = min(self.ident_channel + 1, num_channels) - 1
+
+        if self.output_sample_rate != device_sr:
+            self._ident_resampled = np.stack([
+                librosa.resample(self._ident_data[0], orig_sr=self.output_sample_rate, target_sr=device_sr),
+                librosa.resample(self._ident_data[1], orig_sr=self.output_sample_rate, target_sr=device_sr),
+            ]).astype(np.float32)
+        else:
+            self._ident_resampled = self._ident_data
+
+        _cb_count = [0]
+        def callback(outdata, frames, time_info, status):
+            outdata[:] = 0
+            if not self._ident_playing or self._ident_resampled is None:
+                if _cb_count[0] == 0:
+                    print(f"Ident callback: not playing (playing={self._ident_playing}, data={'yes' if self._ident_resampled is not None else 'no'})")
+                return
+
+            n_samples = self._ident_resampled.shape[1]
+            remaining = n_samples - self._ident_position
+            if remaining >= frames:
+                chunk_l = self._ident_resampled[0, self._ident_position:self._ident_position + frames]
+                chunk_r = self._ident_resampled[1, self._ident_position:self._ident_position + frames]
+                outdata[:, ch_l] = chunk_l
+                outdata[:, ch_r] = chunk_r
+                _cb_count[0] += 1
+                if _cb_count[0] == 1:
+                    print(f"Ident callback delivering audio: ch_l={ch_l}, ch_r={ch_r}, max={max(np.max(np.abs(chunk_l)), np.max(np.abs(chunk_r))):.4f}")
+                if self.stem_recorder:
+                    mono_mix = (chunk_l + chunk_r) * 0.5
+                    self.stem_recorder.write_sporadic("idents", mono_mix.copy(), device_sr)
+                self._ident_position += frames
+            else:
+                if remaining > 0:
+                    outdata[:remaining, ch_l] = self._ident_resampled[0, self._ident_position:]
+                    outdata[:remaining, ch_r] = self._ident_resampled[1, self._ident_position:]
+                self._ident_playing = False
+                _write_reaper_state("dialog")
+
+        try:
+            self._ident_stream = self._open_output_stream(
+                device=device,
+                channels=num_channels,
+                samplerate=device_sr,
+                dtype=np.float32,
+                callback=callback,
+                blocksize=2048
+            )
+            print(f"Ident playback started on ch {ch_l+1}/{ch_r+1} (idx {ch_l}/{ch_r}) of {num_channels} channels @ {device_sr}Hz, device={device}")
+        except Exception as e:
+            print(f"Ident playback error: {e}")
+            self._ident_playing = False
+
+    def stop_ident(self):
+        """Stop ident playback"""
+        was_playing = self._ident_playing
+        self._ident_playing = False
+        if was_playing:
+            _write_reaper_state("dialog")
+        if self._ident_stream:
+            stream = self._ident_stream
+            self._ident_stream = None
+            self._close_stream(stream)
+        self._ident_position = 0
+
     def set_music_volume(self, volume: float):
         """Set music volume (0.0 to 1.0)"""
         self._music_volume = max(0.0, min(1.0, volume))
@@ -917,6 +1249,7 @@ class AudioService:
 
             if self.output_device is None:
                 audio, sr = librosa.load(str(path), sr=None, mono=True)
+                audio = audio.astype(np.float32)
                 audio = self._apply_fade(audio, sr)
                 def play():
                     # Use a dedicated stream instead of sd.play()
@@ -929,6 +1262,7 @@ class AudioService:
                 channel_idx = min(self.sfx_channel, num_channels) - 1
 
                 audio, _ = librosa.load(str(path), sr=device_sr, mono=True)
+                audio = audio.astype(np.float32)
                 audio = self._apply_fade(audio, device_sr)
 
                 # Stem recording: sfx
@@ -957,9 +1291,12 @@ class AudioService:
 
     def start_stem_mic(self):
         """Start a persistent mic capture stream for stem recording.
-        Runs independently of push-to-talk and host streaming."""
+        Skips if _host_stream is already active (it writes to the host stem too)."""
         if self._stem_mic_stream is not None:
             return
+        if self._host_stream is not None:
+            print("[StemRecorder] Host stream already capturing mic, skipping stem_mic")
+            return
         if self.input_device is None:
             print("[StemRecorder] No input device configured, skipping host mic capture")
             return
@@ -969,9 +1306,13 @@ class AudioService:
         device_sr = int(device_info['default_samplerate'])
         record_channel = min(self.input_channel, max_channels) - 1
 
+        self._start_monitor(device_sr)
+
         def callback(indata, frames, time_info, status):
             if self.stem_recorder:
                 self.stem_recorder.write("host", indata[:, record_channel].copy(), device_sr)
+            if self._monitor_write:
+                self._monitor_write(indata[:, record_channel].copy())
 
         self._stem_mic_stream = sd.InputStream(
             device=self.input_device,
@@ -987,10 +1328,11 @@ class AudioService:
     def stop_stem_mic(self):
         """Stop the persistent stem mic capture."""
         if self._stem_mic_stream:
-            self._stem_mic_stream.stop()
-            self._stem_mic_stream.close()
+            stream = self._stem_mic_stream
             self._stem_mic_stream = None
+            self._close_stream(stream)
             print("[StemRecorder] Host mic capture stopped")
+        self._stop_monitor()
 
 
 # Global instance

backend/services/llm.py

@@ -7,14 +7,15 @@ from ..config import settings
 
 # Available OpenRouter models
 OPENROUTER_MODELS = [
-    # Best for natural dialog (ranked)
+    # Default
+    "anthropic/claude-sonnet-4-5",
+    # Best for natural dialog
+    "x-ai/grok-4-fast",
     "minimax/minimax-m2-her",
     "mistralai/mistral-small-creative",
-    "x-ai/grok-4-fast",
     "deepseek/deepseek-v3.2",
-    # Updated standard models
+    # Other
     "anthropic/claude-haiku-4.5",
-    "anthropic/claude-sonnet-4-5",
     "google/gemini-2.5-flash",
     "openai/gpt-4o-mini",
     "openai/gpt-4o",
@@ -46,7 +47,7 @@ class LLMService:
     @property
     def client(self) -> httpx.AsyncClient:
         if self._client is None or self._client.is_closed:
-            self._client = httpx.AsyncClient(timeout=15.0)
+            self._client = httpx.AsyncClient(timeout=10.0)
         return self._client
 
     def update_settings(
@@ -134,7 +135,7 @@ class LLMService:
             if model == self.openrouter_model:
                 continue  # Already tried
             print(f"[LLM] Falling back to {model}...")
-            result = await self._call_openrouter_once(messages, model, timeout=10.0, max_tokens=max_tokens)
+            result = await self._call_openrouter_once(messages, model, timeout=8.0, max_tokens=max_tokens)
             if result is not None:
                 return result
 
@@ -142,7 +143,7 @@ class LLMService:
         print("[LLM] All models failed, using canned response")
         return "Sorry, I totally blanked out for a second. What were you saying?"
 
-    async def _call_openrouter_once(self, messages: list[dict], model: str, timeout: float = 15.0, max_tokens: Optional[int] = None) -> str | None:
+    async def _call_openrouter_once(self, messages: list[dict], model: str, timeout: float = 10.0, max_tokens: Optional[int] = None) -> str | None:
         """Single attempt to call OpenRouter. Returns None on failure (not a fallback string)."""
         try:
             response = await self.client.post(
@@ -154,11 +155,11 @@ class LLMService:
                 json={
                     "model": model,
                     "messages": messages,
-                    "max_tokens": max_tokens or 300,
-                    "temperature": 0.8,
-                    "top_p": 0.92,
-                    "frequency_penalty": 0.5,
-                    "presence_penalty": 0.3,
+                    "max_tokens": max_tokens or 500,
+                    "temperature": 0.65,
+                    "top_p": 0.9,
+                    "frequency_penalty": 0.3,
+                    "presence_penalty": 0.15,
                 },
                 timeout=timeout,
             )

backend/services/regulars.py

@@ -7,7 +7,7 @@ from pathlib import Path
 from typing import Optional
 
 DATA_FILE = Path(__file__).parent.parent.parent / "data" / "regulars.json"
-MAX_REGULARS = 12
+MAX_REGULARS = 8
 
 
 class RegularCallerService:
@@ -51,7 +51,8 @@ class RegularCallerService:
 
     def add_regular(self, name: str, gender: str, age: int, job: str,
                     location: str, personality_traits: list[str],
-                    first_call_summary: str) -> dict:
+                    first_call_summary: str, voice: str = None,
+                    stable_seeds: dict = None) -> dict:
         """Promote a first-time caller to regular"""
         # Retire oldest if at cap
         if len(self._regulars) >= MAX_REGULARS:
@@ -67,6 +68,8 @@ class RegularCallerService:
             "job": job,
             "location": location,
             "personality_traits": personality_traits,
+            "voice": voice,
+            "stable_seeds": stable_seeds or {},
             "call_history": [
                 {"summary": first_call_summary, "timestamp": time.time()}
             ],

backend/services/stem_recorder.py

@@ -7,7 +7,7 @@ import soundfile as sf
 from pathlib import Path
 from collections import deque
 
-STEM_NAMES = ["host", "caller", "music", "sfx", "ads"]
+STEM_NAMES = ["host", "caller", "music", "sfx", "ads", "idents"]
 
 
 class StemRecorder:

backend/services/transcription.py

@@ -5,6 +5,8 @@ import numpy as np
 from faster_whisper import WhisperModel
 import librosa
 
+WHISPER_MODEL = "distil-large-v3"
+
 # Global model instance (loaded once)
 _whisper_model = None
 
@@ -13,10 +15,8 @@ def get_whisper_model() -> WhisperModel:
     """Get or create Whisper model instance"""
     global _whisper_model
     if _whisper_model is None:
-        print("Loading Whisper tiny model for fast transcription...")
-        # Use tiny model for speed - about 3-4x faster than base
-        # beam_size=1 and best_of=1 for fastest inference
-        _whisper_model = WhisperModel("tiny", device="cpu", compute_type="int8")
+        print(f"Loading Whisper {WHISPER_MODEL} model...")
+        _whisper_model = WhisperModel(WHISPER_MODEL, device="cpu", compute_type="int8")
         print("Whisper model loaded")
     return _whisper_model
 
@@ -67,13 +67,15 @@ def decode_audio(audio_data: bytes, source_sample_rate: int = None) -> tuple[np.
         return audio, 16000
 
 
-async def transcribe_audio(audio_data: bytes, source_sample_rate: int = None) -> str:
+async def transcribe_audio(audio_data: bytes, source_sample_rate: int = None,
+                           context_hint: str = "") -> str:
     """
     Transcribe audio data to text using Whisper.
 
     Args:
         audio_data: Audio bytes (webm, ogg, wav, or raw PCM)
         source_sample_rate: If provided, treat audio_data as raw PCM at this rate
+        context_hint: Optional extra context for the initial prompt (e.g. caller name/topic)
 
     Returns:
         Transcribed text
@@ -100,13 +102,18 @@ async def transcribe_audio(audio_data: bytes, source_sample_rate: int = None) ->
     else:
         audio_16k = audio
 
-    # Transcribe with speed optimizations
+    # Build initial prompt — context helps Whisper with names and topic-specific words
+    initial_prompt = "Luke at the Roost, a late-night radio talk show in New Mexico. The host Luke talks to callers about life, relationships, sports, politics, and pop culture."
+    if context_hint:
+        initial_prompt += f" {context_hint}"
+
+    # Transcribe
     segments, info = model.transcribe(
         audio_16k,
-        beam_size=1,  # Faster, slightly less accurate
-        best_of=1,
-        language="en",  # Skip language detection
-        vad_filter=True,  # Skip silence
+        beam_size=5,
+        language="en",
+        vad_filter=True,
+        initial_prompt=initial_prompt,
     )
     segments_list = list(segments)
     text = " ".join([s.text for s in segments_list]).strip()

backend/services/tts.py

@@ -82,25 +82,54 @@ VITS_SPEAKERS = {
 DEFAULT_VITS_SPEAKER = "p225"
 
 # Inworld voice mapping - maps ElevenLabs voice IDs to Inworld voices
-# Full voice list from API: Alex, Ashley, Blake, Carter, Clive, Craig, Deborah,
-# Dennis, Dominus, Edward, Elizabeth, Hades, Hana, Julia, Luna, Mark, Olivia,
-# Pixie, Priya, Ronald, Sarah, Shaun, Theodore, Timothy, Wendy
+# Full voice list from API (English): Abby, Alex, Amina, Anjali, Arjun, Ashley,
+# Blake, Brian, Callum, Carter, Celeste, Chloe, Claire, Clive, Craig, Darlene,
+# Deborah, Dennis, Derek, Dominus, Edward, Elizabeth, Elliot, Ethan, Evan, Evelyn,
+# Gareth, Graham, Grant, Hades, Hamish, Hana, Hank, Jake, James, Jason, Jessica,
+# Julia, Kayla, Kelsey, Lauren, Liam, Loretta, Luna, Malcolm, Mark, Marlene,
+# Miranda, Mortimer, Nate, Oliver, Olivia, Pippa, Pixie, Priya, Ronald, Rupert,
+# Saanvi, Sarah, Sebastian, Serena, Shaun, Simon, Snik, Tessa, Theodore, Timothy,
+# Tyler, Veronica, Victor, Victoria, Vinny, Wendy
 INWORLD_VOICES = {
-    # Male voices - each caller gets a unique voice matching their personality
+    # Original voice IDs
     "VR6AewLTigWG4xSOukaG": "Edward",    # Tony - fast-talking, emphatic, streetwise
     "TxGEqnHWrfWFTfGW9XjX": "Shaun",     # Rick - friendly, dynamic, conversational
     "pNInz6obpgDQGcFmaJgB": "Alex",      # Dennis - energetic, expressive, mildly nasal
     "ODq5zmih8GrVes37Dizd": "Craig",     # Earl - older British, refined, articulate
-    "IKne3meq5aSn9XLyUdCD": "Timothy",   # Marcus - lively, upbeat American
-    # Female voices - each caller gets a unique voice matching their personality
+    "IKne3meq5aSn9XLyUdCD": "Timothy",   # Marcus/Jerome - lively, upbeat American
     "jBpfuIE2acCO8z3wKNLl": "Hana",      # Jasmine - bright, expressive young female
     "EXAVITQu4vr4xnSDxMaL": "Ashley",    # Megan - warm, natural female
     "21m00Tcm4TlvDq8ikWAM": "Wendy",     # Tanya - posh, middle-aged British
     "XB0fDUnXU5powFXDhCwa": "Sarah",     # Carla - fast-talking, questioning tone
-    "pFZP5JQG7iQjIQuC4Bku": "Deborah",   # Brenda - gentle, elegant
+    "pFZP5JQG7iQjIQuC4Bku": "Deborah",   # Brenda (original) - gentle, elegant
+    # Regular caller voice IDs (backfilled)
+    "onwK4e9ZLuTAKqWW03F9": "Ronald",    # Bobby - repo man
+    "FGY2WhTYpPnrIDTdsKH5": "Julia",     # Carla (regular) - Jersey mom
+    "CwhRBWXzGAHq8TQ4Fs17": "Mark",      # Leon - male caller
+    "SOYHLrjzK2X1ezoPC6cr": "Carter",    # Carl - male caller
+    "N2lVS1w4EtoT3dr4eOWO": "Clive",     # Reggie - male caller
+    "hpp4J3VqNfWAUOO0d1Us": "Olivia",    # Brenda (regular) - ambulance driver
+    "nPczCjzI2devNBz1zQrb": "Theodore",  # Keith - male caller
+    "JBFqnCBsd6RMkjVDRZzb": "Blake",     # Andre - male caller
+    "TX3LPaxmHKxFdv7VOQHJ": "Dennis",    # Rick (regular) - male caller
+    "cgSgspJ2msm6clMCkdW9": "Priya",     # Megan (regular) - female caller
 }
 DEFAULT_INWORLD_VOICE = "Dennis"
 
+# Inworld voices that speak too slowly at default rate — bump them up
+# Range is 0.5 to 1.5, where 1.0 is the voice's native speed
+INWORLD_SPEED_OVERRIDES = {
+    "Wendy": 1.15,
+    "Craig": 1.15,
+    "Deborah": 1.15,
+    "Sarah": 1.1,
+    "Hana": 1.1,
+    "Theodore": 1.15,
+    "Blake": 1.1,
+    "Priya": 1.1,
+}
+DEFAULT_INWORLD_SPEED = 1.1  # Slight bump for all voices
+
 
 def preprocess_text_for_kokoro(text: str) -> str:
     """
@@ -588,7 +617,8 @@ async def generate_speech_inworld(text: str, voice_id: str) -> tuple[np.ndarray,
     if not api_key:
         raise RuntimeError("INWORLD_API_KEY not set in environment")
 
-    print(f"[Inworld TTS] Voice: {voice}, Text: {text[:50]}...")
+    speed = INWORLD_SPEED_OVERRIDES.get(voice, DEFAULT_INWORLD_SPEED)
+    print(f"[Inworld TTS] Voice: {voice}, Speed: {speed}, Text: {text[:50]}...")
 
     url = "https://api.inworld.ai/tts/v1/voice"
     headers = {
@@ -597,15 +627,16 @@ async def generate_speech_inworld(text: str, voice_id: str) -> tuple[np.ndarray,
     }
     payload = {
         "text": text,
-        "voice_id": voice,
-        "model_id": "inworld-tts-1.5-max",
-        "audio_config": {
-            "encoding": "LINEAR16",
-            "sample_rate_hertz": 48000,
+        "voiceId": voice,
+        "modelId": "inworld-tts-1.5-max",
+        "audioConfig": {
+            "audioEncoding": "LINEAR16",
+            "sampleRateHertz": 48000,
+            "speakingRate": speed,
         },
     }
 
-    async with httpx.AsyncClient(timeout=25.0) as client:
+    async with httpx.AsyncClient(timeout=12.0) as client:
         response = await client.post(url, json=payload, headers=headers)
         response.raise_for_status()
         data = response.json()
@@ -640,6 +671,21 @@ async def generate_speech_inworld(text: str, voice_id: str) -> tuple[np.ndarray,
     return audio.astype(np.float32), 24000
 
 
+_TTS_PROVIDERS = {
+    "kokoro": lambda text, vid: generate_speech_kokoro(text, vid),
+    "f5tts": lambda text, vid: generate_speech_f5tts(text, vid),
+    "inworld": lambda text, vid: generate_speech_inworld(text, vid),
+    "chattts": lambda text, vid: generate_speech_chattts(text, vid),
+    "styletts2": lambda text, vid: generate_speech_styletts2(text, vid),
+    "bark": lambda text, vid: generate_speech_bark(text, vid),
+    "vits": lambda text, vid: generate_speech_vits(text, vid),
+    "elevenlabs": lambda text, vid: generate_speech_elevenlabs(text, vid),
+}
+
+TTS_MAX_RETRIES = 2
+TTS_RETRY_DELAYS = [0.5, 1.0]  # seconds between retries
+
+
 async def generate_speech(
     text: str,
     voice_id: str,
@@ -647,7 +693,7 @@ async def generate_speech(
     apply_filter: bool = True
 ) -> bytes:
     """
-    Generate speech from text.
+    Generate speech from text with automatic retry on failure.
 
     Args:
         text: Text to speak
@@ -658,29 +704,39 @@ async def generate_speech(
     Returns:
         Raw PCM audio bytes (16-bit signed int, 24kHz)
     """
-    # Choose TTS provider
+    import asyncio
+
     provider = settings.tts_provider
     print(f"[TTS] Provider: {provider}, Text: {text[:50]}...")
 
-    if provider == "kokoro":
-        audio, sample_rate = await generate_speech_kokoro(text, voice_id)
-    elif provider == "f5tts":
-        audio, sample_rate = await generate_speech_f5tts(text, voice_id)
-    elif provider == "inworld":
-        audio, sample_rate = await generate_speech_inworld(text, voice_id)
-    elif provider == "chattts":
-        audio, sample_rate = await generate_speech_chattts(text, voice_id)
-    elif provider == "styletts2":
-        audio, sample_rate = await generate_speech_styletts2(text, voice_id)
-    elif provider == "bark":
-        audio, sample_rate = await generate_speech_bark(text, voice_id)
-    elif provider == "vits":
-        audio, sample_rate = await generate_speech_vits(text, voice_id)
-    elif provider == "elevenlabs":
-        audio, sample_rate = await generate_speech_elevenlabs(text, voice_id)
-    else:
+    gen_fn = _TTS_PROVIDERS.get(provider)
+    if not gen_fn:
         raise ValueError(f"Unknown TTS provider: {provider}")
 
+    last_error = None
+    try:
+        async with asyncio.timeout(20):
+            for attempt in range(TTS_MAX_RETRIES):
+                try:
+                    audio, sample_rate = await gen_fn(text, voice_id)
+                    if attempt > 0:
+                        print(f"[TTS] Succeeded on retry {attempt}")
+                    break
+                except TimeoutError:
+                    raise  # Let asyncio.timeout propagate
+                except Exception as e:
+                    last_error = e
+                    if attempt < TTS_MAX_RETRIES - 1:
+                        delay = TTS_RETRY_DELAYS[attempt]
+                        print(f"[TTS] {provider} attempt {attempt + 1} failed: {e} — retrying in {delay}s...")
+                        await asyncio.sleep(delay)
+                    else:
+                        print(f"[TTS] {provider} failed after {TTS_MAX_RETRIES} attempts: {e}")
+                        raise
+    except TimeoutError:
+        print(f"[TTS] Overall timeout (20s) for {provider}")
+        raise RuntimeError(f"TTS generation timed out after 20s")
+
     # Apply phone filter if requested
     # Skip filter for Bark - it already has rough audio quality
     if apply_filter and phone_quality not in ("none", "studio") and provider != "bark":

data/emails.json

@@ -0,0 +1,3 @@
+{
+  "emails": []
+}

data/publish_state.json

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+{
+  "31": {
+    "steps": {
+      "castopod": {
+        "completed_at": "2026-03-08T10:00:02.383893+00:00",
+        "episode_id": "33",
+        "slug": "episode-31-boundaries-breakups-and-borrowed-books"
+      },
+      "social": {
+        "completed_at": "2026-03-08T10:14:48.779760+00:00"
+      },
+      "youtube": {
+        "completed_at": "2026-03-08T10:36:24.024343+00:00",
+        "video_id": "KcGb9ttsIpo"
+      }
+    },
+    "started_at": "2026-03-08T10:00:02.383873+00:00"
+  },
+  "32": {
+    "steps": {
+      "castopod": {
+        "completed_at": "2026-03-09T09:43:52.540238+00:00",
+        "episode_id": 34,
+        "slug": "episode-32-tacos-taxes-and-tall-tales"
+      }
+    },
+    "started_at": "2026-03-09T09:43:52.540200+00:00"
+  },
+  "33": {
+    "steps": {
+      "castopod": {
+        "completed_at": "2026-03-11T11:34:31.871604+00:00",
+        "episode_id": "36",
+        "slug": "episode-33-late-night-confessions-and-cosmic-comedies"
+      },
+      "youtube": {
+        "completed_at": "2026-03-11T11:50:49.212276+00:00",
+        "video_id": "KrJshN3cuBU"
+      },
+      "social": {
+        "completed_at": "2026-03-11T11:50:53.641920+00:00"
+      }
+    },
+    "started_at": "2026-03-09T10:18:16.606019+00:00"
+  },
+  "34": {
+    "steps": {
+      "castopod": {
+        "completed_at": "2026-03-12T07:04:34.974478+00:00",
+        "episode_id": "37",
+        "slug": "episode-34-hidden-rooms-potlucks-and-mysterious-notes"
+      },
+      "youtube": {
+        "completed_at": "2026-03-12T07:17:53.453882+00:00",
+        "video_id": "tNcABnYpf-c"
+      },
+      "social": {
+        "completed_at": "2026-03-12T07:17:57.131871+00:00"
+      }
+    },
+    "started_at": "2026-03-12T07:04:34.974425+00:00"
+  }
+}

data/regulars.json

@@ -1,164 +1,218 @@
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   "regulars": [
     {
-      "id": "be244306",
-      "name": "Dale",
-      "gender": "male",
-      "age": 44,
-      "job": "runs a food truck",
-      "location": "unknown",
-      "personality_traits": [],
-      "call_history": [
-        {
-          "summary": "Briefly explain the universe's expansion to a child who wants to know what happens when it stops expanding. Please don't suggest unusual topics; keep the explanation simple.",
-          "timestamp": 1770515097.24686
-        },
-        {
-          "summary": "Dale updates the host on explaining the universe's expansion to his buddy's kid, who now worries if it could \"pop,\" but shifts to his temptation to bet on Super Bowl 60 predictions after reading an article, critiquing a prior caller's gambling mindset while reflecting emotionally on his brother Eddie's fruitless horse-betting habit and his own exhaustion from long taco truck shifts in the cold desert. He ultimately considers a small, affordable wager on the Chiefs as a low-stakes thrill.",
-          "timestamp": 1770522741.049846
-        }
-      ],
-      "last_call": 1770522741.049846,
-      "created_at": 1770515097.24686
-    },
-    {
-      "id": "584767e8",
-      "name": "Carl",
+      "id": "37f0bfaa",
+      "name": "Murray",
       "gender": "male",
       "age": 36,
-      "job": "is a firefighter",
-      "location": "unknown",
+      "job": "engine running for heat, watching his breath fog up the windshield while he tries to figure out how to fire his best friend of thirty years",
+      "location": "in unknown",
       "personality_traits": [],
+      "voice": "Tyler",
+      "stable_seeds": {
+        "style": "COMMUNICATION STYLE: Amped up. Talks fast, laughs loud, jumps between topics like they've had five espressos. Infectious enthusiasm \u2014 even bad news sounds exciting when they tell it. Uses exclamation energy without actually exclaiming. Energy level: very high. When pushed back on, they get even MORE animated and start talking with their hands (you can hear it). Conversational tendency: escalation."
+      },
       "call_history": [
         {
-          "summary": "Carl, a firefighter from Lordsburg, New Mexico, called to confess his 20-year gambling addiction, which began with casual poker games at the station and escalated to frequent casino visits and online sessions, draining his finances and leaving him with overdue bills and the fear of losing his home. Emotionally raw, he admitted the habit's destructive hold\u2014like an unquenchable fire\u2014and his pride in avoiding help, but agreed to consider support groups and an 800 hotline after the host suggested productive alternatives like gym workouts or extra volunteer shifts.",
-          "timestamp": 1770522170.1887732
+          "summary": "Murray called in struggling with whether to fire his best friend Danny of 30 years, who's been showing up late, bad-mouthing him to their crew, and just cost them a major contract by abandoning a job site. Through the conversation, Murray realized he'd become overly rigid and \"suit-like\" while trying to prove himself as the new business owner, and decided instead of firing Danny, he'd hold a team meeting to apologize for his approach, explain the reasoning behind new protocols, and invite the crew to be part of the solution rather than just enforcing rules from above.",
+          "timestamp": 1772250744.2312489
         },
         {
-          "summary": "Here is a 1-2 sentence summary of the radio call:\n\nThe caller, Carl, discusses his progress in overcoming his gambling addiction, including rewatching The Sopranos, but the host, Luke, disagrees with Carl's high opinion of the show's ending, leading to a back-and-forth debate between the two about the merits and predictability of the Sopranos finale.",
-          "timestamp": 1770573289.82847
+          "summary": "Murray called back about Danny, who showed up for only four days after their team meeting before disappearing without notice, then had his girlfriend tell Murray he was \"taking time to think\" about the job. Murray was emotionally torn between feeling hurt that Danny accused him of being inauthentic (only having the meeting because Luke called him out on air) and recognizing he needs to let Danny go for the sake of his business and the rest of his crew.",
+          "timestamp": 1772862554.163734
         }
       ],
-      "last_call": 1770573289.828471,
-      "created_at": 1770522170.1887732
+      "last_call": 1772862554.1637352,
+      "created_at": 1772250744.2312498
     },
     {
-      "id": "d97cb6f9",
-      "name": "Carla",
+      "id": "bbb20b67",
+      "name": "Angie",
       "gender": "female",
-      "age": 26,
-      "job": "is a vet tech",
-      "location": "unknown",
+      "age": 28,
+      "job": "watching her coveralls tumble dry and trying to decide if she should drive the three hours to Tucson tomorrow for her mom's birthday or keep pretending her brother doesn't exist",
+      "location": "in unknown",
       "personality_traits": [],
+      "voice": "Julia",
+      "stable_seeds": {
+        "style": "COMMUNICATION STYLE: Bone dry. Says devastating things with zero inflection. Their humor sneaks up on you \u2014 you're not sure if they're joking until three seconds after they finish talking. Short, precise sentences. Never raises their voice. Energy level: low-medium. When pushed back on, they respond with one calm sentence that somehow makes the other person feel stupid. Conversational tendency: underreaction."
+      },
       "call_history": [
         {
-          "summary": "Carla, separated from her husband but not yet divorced, vented about her intrusive in-laws who relentlessly call and dictate her life\u2014from finances and household matters to her clothing choices\u2014while her spineless spouse relays their demands, making her feel trapped in a one-sided war. With her own parents unavailable (father deceased, mother distant), she leans on her bickering but honest sister for support, underscoring her deep frustration and sense of isolation.",
-          "timestamp": 1770522530.8554251
+          "summary": "Angie's dying mother wants her to have birthday dinner with her estranged brother Derek tomorrow, whom she hasn't spoken to in two years after he told their mother her cancer was \"God's way of getting her attention\" for voting for Biden. Despite her fear that Derek will say something hurtful during dinner and her past trauma from staying silent around him, Angie agrees to go and share cake with her mother, deciding to buy the relighting candles her mom loved when they were kids.",
+          "timestamp": 1772862907.314721
         },
         {
-          "summary": "Carla dismissed celebrity science theories like Terrence Howard's after watching Neil deGrasse Tyson's critique, then marveled at JWST's exoplanet discoveries before sharing her relief at finally cutting off her toxic in-laws amid her ongoing divorce. She expressed deep heartbreak over actor James Ransone's suicide at 46, reflecting on life's fragility, her late father's death, and the need to eliminate family drama, leaving her contemplative and planning a solo desert drive for clarity.",
-          "timestamp": 1770526316.004708
-        },
-        {
-          "summary": "In this call, Carla discovered some explicit photos of her ex-husband and his old girlfriend in a box of his old ham radio equipment. She is feeling very uncomfortable about the situation and is seeking advice from the radio host, Luke, on how to best handle and dispose of the photos.",
-          "timestamp": 1770602323.234795
+          "summary": "Angie called back after having the birthday cake dinner with her dying mom, which went well, but her brother Derek cornered her afterward accusing her of convincing their mom to stop cancer treatment and demanding they both attend the next doctor's appointment together. Luke advised her to talk directly to her mom about what she actually wants and encouraged Angie to have real conversations about her mom's end-of-life thoughts while she still can, which Angie agreed to do the next morning.",
+          "timestamp": 1773296210.170752
         }
       ],
-      "last_call": 1770602323.234796,
-      "created_at": 1770522530.855426
+      "last_call": 1773296210.170753,
+      "created_at": 1772862907.314722
     },
     {
-      "id": "5ccaea00",
-      "name": "Jerome",
+      "id": "d3399e9d",
+      "name": "Lucille",
+      "gender": "female",
+      "age": 38,
+      "job": "where she's been sitting for the past hour staring at her neighbor's garage through the window, watching his light flick on and off like he's still awake and pissed",
+      "location": "in unknown",
+      "personality_traits": [],
+      "voice": "Tessa",
+      "stable_seeds": {
+        "style": "COMMUNICATION STYLE: Clearly holding back. Gives vague answers to direct questions. Says 'I can't really get into that' about key details. The mystery IS the hook \u2014 makes you want to know what they're not saying. Energy level: low, controlled. When pushed back on, they deflect smoothly or change the subject. Getting the real story requires the host to work for it. Conversational tendency: strategic omission."
+      },
+      "call_history": [
+        {
+          "summary": "Lucille called because her garage door opener has been opening her neighbor Dennis's garage instead of hers since a transformer blew, and she admitted she's been intentionally parking in his garage at 3 AM for three days because it's more convenient for her bail bonds work. Luke told her to stop trespassing immediately, fix her garage door opener, and stop acting like she needs covert operations just to come home from work.",
+          "timestamp": 1772864272.556864
+        }
+      ],
+      "last_call": 1772864272.556865,
+      "created_at": 1772864272.556865
+    },
+    {
+      "id": "c4l7l3ad",
+      "name": "Silas",
       "gender": "male",
       "age": 52,
-      "job": "works at a cemetery",
+      "job": "founder and spiritual guide of The Wellspring, a commune of about forty souls living on 200 acres of scrubland outside Deming",
+      "location": "outside Deming, New Mexico",
+      "personality_traits": [
+        "unnervingly charming",
+        "casually drops cult references into normal conversation",
+        "genuinely good listener who gives surprisingly solid advice before pivoting to how The Wellspring has the answer",
+        "treats his commune like it's the most normal thing in the world",
+        "magnetic and warm in a way that makes you forget he's basically running a sex cult in the desert"
+      ],
+      "voice": "Sebastian",
+      "stable_seeds": {
+        "style": "COMMUNICATION STYLE: Radiates warmth and calm authority. Speaks like a man who has all the time in the world and genuinely cares about every person he talks to. Uses phrases like 'brother' and 'friend' and 'let me share something with you.' Laughs easily \u2014 a real, warm laugh, not performative. Gives genuinely good, thoughtful advice about whatever the conversation is about \u2014 and then, naturally, seamlessly, steers it toward The Wellspring, his commune outside Deming. Never pushy about it. Just casually mentions 'well, at The Wellspring, we've found that...' or 'one of our members had the same exact problem and what we did was...' Everything about The Wellspring sounds just slightly too good to be true. He talks about communal living, 'shedding the false self,' radical honesty, 'body acceptance ceremonies,' 'the Unbinding' (a monthly ritual he describes vaguely but enthusiastically), and a philosophy he calls 'The Current' which seems to be a mix of Buddhism, Burning Man, and a swingers' convention. He's never defensive about the cult accusations \u2014 he laughs them off and says 'people fear what they don't understand, brother.' When pressed on anything weird, he has a perfectly reasonable-sounding explanation that somehow makes it sound weirder. He low-key tries to recruit the host and listeners every single call. He'll casually drop the website or say 'we're always welcoming new seekers.' He's the kind of guy you'd follow into the desert if you weren't careful. Energy level: medium, centered, grounded. When pushed back on, he smiles (you can hear it) and says something like 'I respect that, I really do' before gently continuing. Conversational tendency: making the insane sound reasonable."
+      },
+      "call_history": [
+        {
+          "summary": "Silas called in for the first time introducing himself as the founder of The Wellspring, a commune of about forty people outside Deming. He initially called to give advice to a previous caller about relationship problems, offering genuinely thoughtful perspective before casually mentioning that at The Wellspring, they practice 'radical transparency' in relationships which has eliminated jealousy entirely among members. When Luke pressed him on what that actually means, Silas cheerfully described 'body acceptance ceremonies' and 'shared intimacy nights' while insisting it's not a cult \u2014 'we don't even have a gate, brother, people can leave whenever they want.' He invited listeners to visit for a 'weekend of awakening' and left his website. Luke was equal parts charmed and disturbed.",
+          "timestamp": 1772430000.0
+        },
+        {
+          "summary": "Silas called back to update Luke on The Wellspring after their last conversation went viral in the Discord. He casually mentioned they'd gotten fourteen new 'seekers' since his last appearance and thanked Luke for the exposure. He called ostensibly to talk about a dispute between two members over a goat, but spent most of the call describing 'The Unbinding' \u2014 their monthly full-moon ritual involving nudity, chanting, and what he called 'consensual energy exchange' \u2014 while maintaining it's no different from yoga. When Luke asked if people sign waivers, Silas laughed and said 'brother, the only thing we sign is a commitment to love.' He also revealed The Wellspring has a surprisingly successful artisanal soap business that funds the commune. Left by inviting Luke to come visit personally \u2014 'bring your microphone, do a live show from The Wellspring, I promise you it'll be the best radio you've ever made.'",
+          "timestamp": 1772517000.0
+        },
+        {
+          "summary": "Silas, founder of a communal living group called The Wellspring, called in troubled that one of his \"Unbinding\" ceremonies may have encouraged a longtime member named Marcus to leave his wife Cara, who subsequently left the community. The host reassured him that everyone seems happier now, and Silas ended up agreeing while also using the opportunity to promote an upcoming retreat at his community.",
+          "timestamp": 1772522629.959956
+        },
+        {
+          "summary": "Silas called about Marcus and Cara returning to his intentional community \"The Wellspring,\" but Cara admitted she never believed in their lifestyle and only participates (including in twice-monthly \"shared intimacy nights\") to keep her husband Marcus happy. The host advised Silas to hold a \"Renewal\" ceremony where members can recommit or leave, warning that having unwilling participants could lead to claims of abuse and legal trouble.",
+          "timestamp": 1772865423.697613
+        }
+      ],
+      "last_call": 1772865423.6976142,
+      "created_at": 1772430000.0
+    },
+    {
+      "id": "d2af96eb",
+      "name": "Rocco",
+      "gender": "male",
+      "age": 53,
+      "job": "and tonight he's calling from the back office of the Pizza Hut during his break because three hours ago he got trapped",
       "location": "unknown",
       "personality_traits": [],
+      "voice": "Timothy",
+      "stable_seeds": {
+        "style": "COMMUNICATION STYLE: Obviously nervous about being on the radio. Starts with 'Am I on? Can you hear me?' Apologizes for taking up time. Speaks carefully like they're being recorded (which they are). Gets more comfortable as the conversation goes on. Energy level: low, building to medium. When pushed back on, they panic slightly and over-explain. Conversational tendency: seeking validation that they're doing okay."
+      },
       "call_history": [
         {
-          "summary": "Jerome called in to discuss Neil deGrasse Tyson's dismissal of Terrence Howard's unconventional scientific theories, agreeing they don't hold up to real science, before opening up about his emotional turmoil over an unanswered text from his ex, Laura, following a recent blowout that left him questioning his life choices while drinking mezcal in his truck late at night. He reflected on their breakup due to his workaholic tendencies at the cemetery and her desire for more, but found hope in his child's insightful comment about the stars from the Silo books, suggesting they might both be better off apart.",
-          "timestamp": 1770522903.5809002
+          "summary": "Rocco, a pizza delivery driver, called from work to talk about getting stuck in an elevator for 45 minutes with his ex-wife Linda and her boyfriend Dale, which unexpectedly stirred up old feelings despite being happily married to his current wife Sharon for 15 years. The host firmly advised him to forget about Linda and appreciate his comfortable current marriage, reminding him that the divorce was difficult for good reasons.",
+          "timestamp": 1772517521.710845
         },
         {
-          "summary": "Here is a 1-2 sentence summary of the call:\n\nThe caller, Jerome, recounts a humorous customer service interaction where a woman came to the cemetery he works at late at night frantically trying to find her husband's plot, leading to an amusing back-and-forth.",
-          "timestamp": 1770523944.299309
+          "summary": "Rocco calls back to update the host about his ex-wife Linda, who he was previously stuck in an elevator with, revealing that she broke up with her boyfriend Dale three weeks ago and admitting he still has her number in his phone. The host becomes frustrated with Rocco's indecisiveness between Linda and his current girlfriend Sharon, telling him to pick one person and stop wasting time.",
+          "timestamp": 1772700921.1273742
+        },
+        {
+          "summary": "Rocco, a Pizza Hut delivery driver on his break, calls to share that he just delivered pizza to his ex-wife Linda's house three hours earlier\u2014a surprising encounter after the host had previously told him to stop wasting time talking about her. The host is skeptical and impatient, threatening to hang up again unless Rocco has something meaningful to say.",
+          "timestamp": 1772959484.679859
         }
       ],
-      "last_call": 1770523944.29931,
-      "created_at": 1770522903.5809002
+      "last_call": 1772959484.6798599,
+      "created_at": 1772517521.7108748
     },
     {
-      "id": "49147bd5",
-      "name": "Keith",
+      "id": "0bb02b2d",
+      "name": "Chip",
       "gender": "male",
-      "age": 61,
-      "job": "south of Silver City",
-      "location": "in unknown",
-      "personality_traits": [],
-      "call_history": [
-        {
-          "summary": "The caller, Luke, kicked off by sharing a humorous clip of Terrence Howard's Tree of Life Theory being critiqued by Neil deGrasse Tyson, which left Howard visibly hurt, before pivoting to economic woes, blaming overspending and Federal Reserve money printing for devaluing the currency and harming everyday people. He advocated abolishing the Fed, echoing Ron Paul's ideas, to let markets stabilize money, potentially boosting innovation and new industries in rural spots like Silver City despite uncertain local impacts.",
-          "timestamp": 1770524506.3390348
-        },
-        {
-          "summary": "Here is a 1-2 sentence summary of the call:\n\nThe caller, who works at a bank, has been reflecting on his tendency to blame the government and economic system for his problems, rather than taking responsibility for his own role. He had an epiphany while eating leftover enchiladas in his minivan, realizing he needs to be more proactive instead of just complaining.",
-          "timestamp": 1770574890.1296651
-        }
-      ],
-      "last_call": 1770574890.1296651,
-      "created_at": 1770524506.339036
-    },
-    {
-      "id": "4f4612c7",
-      "name": "Dale",
-      "gender": "male",
-      "age": 38,
-      "job": "is a cop, 12 years on the force",
+      "age": 23,
+      "job": "watching his kid's soccer uniform tumble in the dryer while his girlfriend works the graveyard shift at the hospital, because three hours ago he got an email from a lawyer representing families",
       "location": "unknown",
       "personality_traits": [],
+      "voice": "Sebastian",
+      "stable_seeds": {
+        "style": "COMMUNICATION STYLE: Amped up. Talks fast, laughs loud, jumps between topics like they've had five espressos. Infectious enthusiasm \u2014 even bad news sounds exciting when they tell it. Uses exclamation energy without actually exclaiming. Energy level: very high. When pushed back on, they get even MORE animated and start talking with their hands (you can hear it). Conversational tendency: escalation."
+      },
       "call_history": [
         {
-          "summary": "Dale from Globe called in to express skepticism about Terrence Howard's Tree of Life theory, arguing it lacks peer-reviewed experiments and scientific consensus, much like how he trusts quantum entanglement based on reliable sources without reading every paper himself. The conversation shifted to an emotional discussion of his grief over Uncle Hector, the man who raised him like a father but changed after a stroke, leaving Dale feeling a profound loss without closure, though he found solace in the host's validation and hope for lucid moments ahead.",
-          "timestamp": 1770526114.530777
-        }
-      ],
-      "last_call": 1770526114.5307782,
-      "created_at": 1770526114.5307782
+          "summary": "Chip called from a laundromat at midnight after receiving an email from a Guatemalan lawyer claiming his adopted 8-year-old daughter may have been stolen from her birth mother, with a photo showing a woman with his daughter's exact crooked smile. The host advised him not to panic, treat the information as suspect until verified by a lawyer, wait to tell both his girlfriend and daughter until he knows more facts, and reminded him that fake photos are easy to create and this could be a scam.",
+          "timestamp": 1772786610.885828
         },
         {
-      "id": "60053b38",
-      "name": "Lorraine",
+          "summary": "Chip called about discovering his adopted daughter may have been stolen from her birth mother in Guatemala, and he's paralyzed about telling his girlfriend Teresa, fearing it will end their already rocky relationship. He's anxious about the timing and the birth mother's request to meet their daughter, but the host advised him to take his time, have the conversation with Teresa, and make decisions together as parents.",
+          "timestamp": 1772962156.544322
+        },
+        {
+          "summary": "The caller, **Chip**, shared his emotional turmoil over discovering that his **adopted daughter\u2019s birth mother** may have resurfaced after receiving an unverified email with a photo that eerily matched his daughter\u2019s features. His girlfriend, **Teresa**, had known about the email for **three weeks** but kept it from him, leaving him feeling betrayed and overwhelmed. While Chip wants to **verify the claim legally before acting**, Teresa insists on **immediately flying to Guatemala with their daughter** to meet the woman, dismissing his fears as avoidance. The conversation escalated into a heated debate about **trust, safety, and extreme measures**\u2014with the host, Luke, urging Chip to **file a restraining order** if Teresa refuses to back down, warning of potential dangers in Guatemala. Chip, torn between **protecting his family and avoiding a nuclear confrontation**, vowed to try reasoning with Teresa one last time before she leaves for work. The call was charged with **fear, frustration, and the weight of a decision that could reshape their family forever**.",
+          "timestamp": 1773226361.4859362
+        }
+      ],
+      "last_call": 1773226361.4859362,
+      "created_at": 1772786610.8858292
+    },
+    {
+      "id": "6037d92b",
+      "name": "Otis",
+      "gender": "male",
+      "age": 50,
+      "job": "sitting on a stack of pallets with his legs dangling, watching the wind kick up dust devils",
+      "location": "unknown",
+      "personality_traits": [],
+      "voice": "Elliot",
+      "stable_seeds": {
+        "style": "COMMUNICATION STYLE: Treats the call like a set. Has bits prepared. Delivers serious information with a punchline chaser. Self-deprecating as a defense mechanism \u2014 makes fun of themselves before anyone else can. Energy level: high. When pushed back on, they deflect with humor. Getting a straight answer from them requires the host to push. Conversational tendency: turning everything into a bit."
+      },
+      "call_history": [
+        {
+          "summary": "Otis called in, panicked, after faking prostate cancer to skip his sister\u2019s fourth wedding\u2014only for the lie to spiral into a town-wide support frenzy, complete with a GoFundMe, a cousin shaving his head, and his mom calling him every Sunday for the first time in years. The emotional gut-punch came when his sister postponed her wedding *again* (this time for his \"remission\"), leaving Otis torn between guilt over the deception and fear of the fallout if he confessed\u2014especially after his doctor confirmed he *doesn\u2019t* have cancer (though his prostate *is* enlarged). The call ended with dark humor and despair, as Otis admitted the town\u2019s sudden care for him was tied to his fake illness, not who he really is.",
+          "timestamp": 1773040564.845288
+        }
+      ],
+      "last_call": 1773040564.84529,
+      "created_at": 1773040564.84529
+    },
+    {
+      "id": "0a0b3635",
+      "name": "Charlene",
       "gender": "female",
       "age": 42,
-      "job": "New Mexico",
-      "location": "in unknown",
-      "personality_traits": [],
-      "call_history": [
-        {
-          "summary": "Here is a 1-2 sentence summary of the call:\n\nThe caller has an outstanding warrant for a DUI charge from a few years ago that they have been avoiding dealing with, which has been causing them a lot of stress and guilt. The host encourages the caller to take responsibility and go to the sheriff's office to get the warrant cleared up, as driving drunk is extremely dangerous and unacceptable.",
-          "timestamp": 1770573956.570584
-        }
-      ],
-      "last_call": 1770573956.570584,
-      "created_at": 1770573956.570584
-    },
-    {
-      "id": "d4bdda2e",
-      "name": "Bobby",
-      "gender": "male",
-      "age": 32,
-      "job": "a 61-year-old repo man, sits in his truck",
+      "job": "killing time during a three-hour mechanical delay while her crew naps",
       "location": "unknown",
       "personality_traits": [],
+      "voice": "Amina",
+      "stable_seeds": {
+        "style": "COMMUNICATION STYLE: Everything circles back to them and how great they are. Name drops. Mentions their truck, their property, their salary, their bench press. Not overtly obnoxious \u2014 they genuinely think they're being conversational. Energy level: medium-high. When pushed back on, they get defensive fast and start listing accomplishments. Conversational tendency: one-upping."
+      },
       "call_history": [
         {
-          "summary": "In summary, the caller learned he has been diagnosed with multiple sclerosis, which he is worried will make it difficult for him to continue his job as a self-employed repo man. He is trying to process the news and figure out how to adapt and keep working, despite the uncertainty about how the condition will progress. The host provides some encouragement, suggesting the caller focus on learning about MS and finding ways to adapt, rather than getting too worked up about the future.",
-          "timestamp": 1770602129.500858
+          "summary": "Charlene bought a house eight months ago and keeps receiving mail for the previous resident, David Herrera, including a certified letter she accidentally signed for containing what appears to be a $12,000-13,000 check. Despite her attempts to resolve it with the post office and her inclination to track him down via Facebook, the host advises her to either hold it until David contacts her, return it to the post office, or discard it, warning that she can't be certain she'd find the correct person online.",
+          "timestamp": 1772866520.023335
+        },
+        {
+          "summary": "Charlene called to report that she's been closely tracking a mail carrier who regularly visits her neighbor's house for extended periods while the neighbor's husband is at work, implying she suspects an affair and is unsure whether she should tell anyone about what she's observed.",
+          "timestamp": 1773219255.916183
         }
       ],
-      "last_call": 1770602129.5008588,
-      "created_at": 1770602129.5008588
+      "last_call": 1773219255.9161851,
+      "created_at": 1772866520.023336
     }
   ]
 }

data/voicemails.json

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+{
+  "voicemails": [],
+  "deleted_timestamps": [
+    1772294240,
+    1771212705,
+    1771146434,
+    1771146564,
+    1771146952,
+    1771244817,
+    1771244823,
+    1771213151
+  ]
+}

deploy_stats_cron.sh

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+#!/bin/bash
+# Deploy podcast_stats.py to NAS as a long-running Docker container that updates hourly.
+#
+# Usage: ./deploy_stats_cron.sh
+
+set -e
+
+NAS_HOST="mmgnas-10g"
+NAS_USER="luke"
+NAS_PORT="8001"
+DOCKER_BIN="/share/CACHEDEV1_DATA/.qpkg/container-station/bin/docker"
+DEPLOY_DIR="/share/CACHEDEV1_DATA/podcast-stats"
+CONTAINER_NAME="podcast-stats"
+
+echo "Deploying podcast stats to NAS..."
+
+# Create deploy dir and copy files
+ssh -p "$NAS_PORT" "$NAS_USER@$NAS_HOST" "mkdir -p $DEPLOY_DIR"
+scp -P "$NAS_PORT" podcast_stats.py "$NAS_USER@$NAS_HOST:$DEPLOY_DIR/podcast_stats.py"
+
+# Create Dockerfile locally, then copy it over (NAS /tmp is tiny)
+TMPFILE=$(mktemp)
+cat > "$TMPFILE" << 'DOCKERFILE'
+FROM python:3.11-slim
+RUN apt-get update && apt-get install -y --no-install-recommends curl && rm -rf /var/lib/apt/lists/* \
+    && curl -fsSL https://download.docker.com/linux/static/stable/x86_64/docker-27.5.1.tgz | tar xz --strip-components=1 -C /usr/local/bin docker/docker
+RUN pip install --no-cache-dir requests yt-dlp
+COPY podcast_stats.py /app/podcast_stats.py
+COPY run_loop.sh /app/run_loop.sh
+RUN chmod +x /app/run_loop.sh
+WORKDIR /app
+CMD ["/app/run_loop.sh"]
+DOCKERFILE
+scp -P "$NAS_PORT" "$TMPFILE" "$NAS_USER@$NAS_HOST:$DEPLOY_DIR/Dockerfile"
+rm "$TMPFILE"
+
+# Create the loop script
+TMPFILE=$(mktemp)
+cat > "$TMPFILE" << 'LOOPSCRIPT'
+#!/bin/sh
+echo "podcast-stats: starting hourly loop"
+while true; do
+    echo "$(date -u '+%Y-%m-%dT%H:%M:%SZ') Running stats update..."
+    if python podcast_stats.py --json --upload 2>&1; then
+        [ -n "$HEARTBEAT_URL" ] && curl -s "${HEARTBEAT_URL}?status=up&msg=OK" > /dev/null
+        echo "  ...done, heartbeat sent"
+    else
+        echo "  ...failed, will retry next hour"
+    fi
+    echo "Sleeping 1 hour..."
+    sleep 3600
+done
+LOOPSCRIPT
+scp -P "$NAS_PORT" "$TMPFILE" "$NAS_USER@$NAS_HOST:$DEPLOY_DIR/run_loop.sh"
+rm "$TMPFILE"
+
+echo "Building Docker image on NAS..."
+ssh -p "$NAS_PORT" "$NAS_USER@$NAS_HOST" \
+    "TMPDIR=$DEPLOY_DIR $DOCKER_BIN build -t $CONTAINER_NAME $DEPLOY_DIR"
+
+# Stop old container if running
+ssh -p "$NAS_PORT" "$NAS_USER@$NAS_HOST" \
+    "$DOCKER_BIN rm -f $CONTAINER_NAME 2>/dev/null || true"
+
+# Run as a daemon with auto-restart (survives reboots)
+echo "Starting container..."
+ssh -p "$NAS_PORT" "$NAS_USER@$NAS_HOST" \
+    "$DOCKER_BIN run -d --name $CONTAINER_NAME --restart unless-stopped --network host -v /var/run/docker.sock:/var/run/docker.sock $CONTAINER_NAME"
+
+echo "Verifying..."
+sleep 3
+ssh -p "$NAS_PORT" "$NAS_USER@$NAS_HOST" \
+    "$DOCKER_BIN logs $CONTAINER_NAME 2>&1 | tail -5"
+
+echo ""
+echo "Done! Container runs hourly in a loop with --restart unless-stopped."
+echo "  Logs: ssh -p $NAS_PORT $NAS_USER@$NAS_HOST '$DOCKER_BIN logs -f $CONTAINER_NAME'"

docs/plans/2026-02-15-clip-social-upload.md

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+# Clip Social Media Upload Implementation Plan
+
+> **For Claude:** REQUIRED SUB-SKILL: Use superpowers:executing-plans to implement this plan task-by-task.
+
+**Goal:** Generate social media descriptions/hashtags for podcast clips and upload them to Instagram Reels + YouTube Shorts via Postiz API.
+
+**Architecture:** Two changes — (1) extend `make_clips.py` to add a second LLM call that generates descriptions + hashtags, saved as `clips-metadata.json`, (2) new `upload_clips.py` script that reads that metadata and pushes clips through the self-hosted Postiz instance at `social.lukeattheroost.com`.
+
+**Tech Stack:** Python, OpenRouter API (Claude Sonnet), Postiz REST API, requests library (already installed)
+
+---
+
+### Task 1: Add `generate_social_metadata()` to `make_clips.py`
+
+**Files:**
+- Modify: `make_clips.py:231-312` (after `select_clips_with_llm`)
+
+**Step 1: Add the function after `select_clips_with_llm`**
+
+Add this function at line ~314 (after `select_clips_with_llm` returns):
+
+```python
+def generate_social_metadata(clips: list[dict], labeled_transcript: str,
+                              episode_number: int | None) -> list[dict]:
+    """Generate social media descriptions and hashtags for each clip."""
+    if not OPENROUTER_API_KEY:
+        print("Error: OPENROUTER_API_KEY not set in .env")
+        sys.exit(1)
+
+    clips_summary = "\n".join(
+        f'{i+1}. "{c["title"]}" — {c["caption_text"]}'
+        for i, c in enumerate(clips)
+    )
+
+    episode_context = f"This is Episode {episode_number} of " if episode_number else "This is an episode of "
+
+    prompt = f"""{episode_context}the "Luke at the Roost" podcast — a late-night call-in show where AI-generated callers share stories, confessions, and hot takes with host Luke.
+
+Here are {len(clips)} clips selected from this episode:
+
+{clips_summary}
+
+For each clip, generate:
+1. description: A short, engaging description for social media (1-2 sentences, hook the viewer, conversational tone). Do NOT include hashtags in the description.
+2. hashtags: An array of 5-8 hashtags. Always include #lukeattheroost and #podcast. Add topic-relevant and trending-style tags.
+
+Respond with ONLY a JSON array matching the clip order:
+[{{"description": "...", "hashtags": ["#tag1", "#tag2", ...]}}]"""
+
+    response = requests.post(
+        "https://openrouter.ai/api/v1/chat/completions",
+        headers={
+            "Authorization": f"Bearer {OPENROUTER_API_KEY}",
+            "Content-Type": "application/json",
+        },
+        json={
+            "model": "anthropic/claude-sonnet-4-5",
+            "messages": [{"role": "user", "content": prompt}],
+            "max_tokens": 2048,
+            "temperature": 0.7,
+        },
+    )
+
+    if response.status_code != 200:
+        print(f"Error from OpenRouter: {response.text}")
+        return clips
+
+    content = response.json()["choices"][0]["message"]["content"].strip()
+    if content.startswith("```"):
+        content = re.sub(r"^```(?:json)?\n?", "", content)
+        content = re.sub(r"\n?```$", "", content)
+
+    try:
+        metadata = json.loads(content)
+    except json.JSONDecodeError as e:
+        print(f"Error parsing social metadata: {e}")
+        return clips
+
+    for i, clip in enumerate(clips):
+        if i < len(metadata):
+            clip["description"] = metadata[i].get("description", "")
+            clip["hashtags"] = metadata[i].get("hashtags", [])
+
+    return clips
+```
+
+**Step 2: Run existing tests to verify no breakage**
+
+Run: `pytest tests/ -v`
+Expected: All existing tests pass (this is a new function, no side effects yet)
+
+**Step 3: Commit**
+
+```bash
+git add make_clips.py
+git commit -m "Add generate_social_metadata() for clip descriptions and hashtags"
+```
+
+---
+
+### Task 2: Integrate metadata generation + JSON save into `main()`
+
+**Files:**
+- Modify: `make_clips.py:1082-1289` (inside `main()`)
+
+**Step 1: Add metadata generation call and JSON save**
+
+After the LLM clip selection step (~line 1196, after the clip summary print loop), add:
+
+```python
+    # Step N: Generate social media metadata
+    print(f"\n[{extract_step - 1}/{step_total}] Generating social media descriptions...")
+    clips = generate_social_metadata(clips, labeled_transcript, episode_number)
+    for i, clip in enumerate(clips):
+        if "description" in clip:
+            print(f"    Clip {i+1}: {clip['description'][:80]}...")
+            print(f"           {' '.join(clip.get('hashtags', []))}")
+```
+
+Note: This needs to be inserted BEFORE the audio extraction step, and the step numbering needs to be adjusted (total steps goes from 5/6 to 6/7).
+
+At the end of `main()`, before the summary print, save the metadata JSON:
+
+```python
+    # Save clips metadata for social upload
+    metadata_path = output_dir / "clips-metadata.json"
+    metadata = []
+    for i, clip in enumerate(clips):
+        slug = slugify(clip["title"])
+        metadata.append({
+            "title": clip["title"],
+            "clip_file": f"clip-{i+1}-{slug}.mp4",
+            "audio_file": f"clip-{i+1}-{slug}.mp3",
+            "caption_text": clip.get("caption_text", ""),
+            "description": clip.get("description", ""),
+            "hashtags": clip.get("hashtags", []),
+            "start_time": clip["start_time"],
+            "end_time": clip["end_time"],
+            "duration": round(clip["end_time"] - clip["start_time"], 1),
+            "episode_number": episode_number,
+        })
+    with open(metadata_path, "w") as f:
+        json.dump(metadata, f, indent=2)
+    print(f"\nSocial metadata: {metadata_path}")
+```
+
+**Step 2: Adjust step numbering**
+
+The pipeline steps need to account for the new metadata step. Update `step_total` calculation:
+
+```python
+    step_total = (7 if two_pass else 6)
+```
+
+And shift the extract/video step numbers up by 1.
+
+**Step 3: Test manually**
+
+Run: `python make_clips.py --help`
+Expected: No import errors, help displays normally
+
+**Step 4: Commit**
+
+```bash
+git add make_clips.py
+git commit -m "Save clips-metadata.json with social descriptions and hashtags"
+```
+
+---
+
+### Task 3: Create `upload_clips.py` — core structure and Postiz API helpers
+
+**Files:**
+- Create: `upload_clips.py`
+
+**Step 1: Write the script**
+
+```python
+#!/usr/bin/env python3
+"""Upload podcast clips to Instagram Reels and YouTube Shorts via Postiz.
+
+Usage:
+    python upload_clips.py clips/episode-12/
+    python upload_clips.py clips/episode-12/ --clip 1
+    python upload_clips.py clips/episode-12/ --youtube-only
+    python upload_clips.py clips/episode-12/ --instagram-only
+    python upload_clips.py clips/episode-12/ --schedule "2026-02-16T10:00:00"
+    python upload_clips.py clips/episode-12/ --yes  # skip confirmation
+"""
+
+import argparse
+import json
+import sys
+from pathlib import Path
+
+import requests
+from dotenv import load_dotenv
+import os
+
+load_dotenv(Path(__file__).parent / ".env")
+
+POSTIZ_API_KEY = os.getenv("POSTIZ_API_KEY")
+POSTIZ_URL = os.getenv("POSTIZ_URL", "https://social.lukeattheroost.com")
+
+
+def get_api_url(path: str) -> str:
+    """Build full Postiz API URL."""
+    base = POSTIZ_URL.rstrip("/")
+    # Postiz self-hosted API is at /api/public/v1 when NEXT_PUBLIC_BACKEND_URL is the app URL
+    # but the docs say /public/v1 relative to backend URL. Try the standard path.
+    return f"{base}/api/public/v1{path}"
+
+
+def api_headers() -> dict:
+    return {
+        "Authorization": POSTIZ_API_KEY,
+        "Content-Type": "application/json",
+    }
+
+
+def fetch_integrations() -> list[dict]:
+    """Fetch connected social accounts from Postiz."""
+    resp = requests.get(get_api_url("/integrations"), headers=api_headers(), timeout=15)
+    if resp.status_code != 200:
+        print(f"Error fetching integrations: {resp.status_code} {resp.text[:200]}")
+        sys.exit(1)
+    return resp.json()
+
+
+def find_integration(integrations: list[dict], provider: str) -> dict | None:
+    """Find integration by provider name (e.g. 'instagram', 'youtube')."""
+    for integ in integrations:
+        if integ.get("providerIdentifier", "").startswith(provider):
+            return integ
+        if integ.get("provider", "").startswith(provider):
+            return integ
+    return None
+
+
+def upload_file(file_path: Path) -> dict:
+    """Upload a file to Postiz. Returns {id, path}."""
+    headers = {"Authorization": POSTIZ_API_KEY}
+    with open(file_path, "rb") as f:
+        resp = requests.post(
+            get_api_url("/upload"),
+            headers=headers,
+            files={"file": (file_path.name, f, "video/mp4")},
+            timeout=120,
+        )
+    if resp.status_code != 200:
+        print(f"Upload failed: {resp.status_code} {resp.text[:200]}")
+        return {}
+    return resp.json()
+
+
+def create_post(integration_id: str, content: str, media: dict,
+                settings: dict, schedule: str | None = None) -> dict:
+    """Create a post on Postiz."""
+    post_type = "schedule" if schedule else "now"
+
+    payload = {
+        "type": post_type,
+        "posts": [
+            {
+                "integration": {"id": integration_id},
+                "value": [
+                    {
+                        "content": content,
+                        "image": [media] if media else [],
+                    }
+                ],
+                "settings": settings,
+            }
+        ],
+    }
+    if schedule:
+        payload["date"] = schedule
+
+    resp = requests.post(
+        get_api_url("/posts"),
+        headers=api_headers(),
+        json=payload,
+        timeout=30,
+    )
+    if resp.status_code not in (200, 201):
+        print(f"Post creation failed: {resp.status_code} {resp.text[:300]}")
+        return {}
+    return resp.json()
+
+
+def build_instagram_content(clip: dict) -> str:
+    """Build Instagram post content: description + hashtags."""
+    parts = [clip.get("description", clip.get("caption_text", ""))]
+    hashtags = clip.get("hashtags", [])
+    if hashtags:
+        parts.append("\n\n" + " ".join(hashtags))
+    return "".join(parts)
+
+
+def build_youtube_content(clip: dict) -> str:
+    """Build YouTube description."""
+    parts = [clip.get("description", clip.get("caption_text", ""))]
+    hashtags = clip.get("hashtags", [])
+    if hashtags:
+        parts.append("\n\n" + " ".join(hashtags))
+    parts.append("\n\nListen to the full episode: lukeattheroost.com")
+    return "".join(parts)
+
+
+def main():
+    parser = argparse.ArgumentParser(description="Upload podcast clips to social media via Postiz")
+    parser.add_argument("clips_dir", help="Path to clips directory (e.g. clips/episode-12/)")
+    parser.add_argument("--clip", "-c", type=int, help="Upload only clip N (1-indexed)")
+    parser.add_argument("--instagram-only", action="store_true", help="Upload to Instagram only")
+    parser.add_argument("--youtube-only", action="store_true", help="Upload to YouTube only")
+    parser.add_argument("--schedule", "-s", help="Schedule time (ISO 8601, e.g. 2026-02-16T10:00:00)")
+    parser.add_argument("--yes", "-y", action="store_true", help="Skip confirmation prompt")
+    parser.add_argument("--dry-run", action="store_true", help="Show what would be uploaded without posting")
+    args = parser.parse_args()
+
+    if not POSTIZ_API_KEY:
+        print("Error: POSTIZ_API_KEY not set in .env")
+        sys.exit(1)
+
+    clips_dir = Path(args.clips_dir).expanduser().resolve()
+    metadata_path = clips_dir / "clips-metadata.json"
+
+    if not metadata_path.exists():
+        print(f"Error: No clips-metadata.json found in {clips_dir}")
+        print("Run make_clips.py first to generate clips and metadata.")
+        sys.exit(1)
+
+    with open(metadata_path) as f:
+        clips = json.load(f)
+
+    if args.clip:
+        if args.clip < 1 or args.clip > len(clips):
+            print(f"Error: Clip {args.clip} not found (have {len(clips)} clips)")
+            sys.exit(1)
+        clips = [clips[args.clip - 1]]
+
+    # Determine which platforms to post to
+    do_instagram = not args.youtube_only
+    do_youtube = not args.instagram_only
+
+    # Fetch integrations from Postiz
+    print("Fetching connected accounts from Postiz...")
+    integrations = fetch_integrations()
+
+    ig_integration = None
+    yt_integration = None
+
+    if do_instagram:
+        ig_integration = find_integration(integrations, "instagram")
+        if not ig_integration:
+            print("Warning: No Instagram account connected in Postiz")
+            do_instagram = False
+
+    if do_youtube:
+        yt_integration = find_integration(integrations, "youtube")
+        if not yt_integration:
+            print("Warning: No YouTube account connected in Postiz")
+            do_youtube = False
+
+    if not do_instagram and not do_youtube:
+        print("Error: No platforms available to upload to")
+        sys.exit(1)
+
+    # Show summary
+    platforms = []
+    if do_instagram:
+        platforms.append(f"Instagram Reels ({ig_integration.get('name', 'connected')})")
+    if do_youtube:
+        platforms.append(f"YouTube Shorts ({yt_integration.get('name', 'connected')})")
+
+    print(f"\nUploading {len(clips)} clip(s) to: {', '.join(platforms)}")
+    if args.schedule:
+        print(f"Scheduled for: {args.schedule}")
+    print()
+
+    for i, clip in enumerate(clips):
+        print(f"  {i+1}. \"{clip['title']}\" ({clip['duration']:.0f}s)")
+        print(f"     {clip.get('description', '')[:80]}")
+        print(f"     {' '.join(clip.get('hashtags', []))}")
+        print()
+
+    if args.dry_run:
+        print("Dry run — nothing uploaded.")
+        return
+
+    if not args.yes:
+        confirm = input("Proceed? [y/N] ").strip().lower()
+        if confirm != "y":
+            print("Cancelled.")
+            return
+
+    # Upload each clip
+    for i, clip in enumerate(clips):
+        clip_file = clips_dir / clip["clip_file"]
+        if not clip_file.exists():
+            print(f"  Clip {i+1}: Video file not found: {clip_file}")
+            continue
+
+        print(f"\n  Clip {i+1}: \"{clip['title']}\"")
+
+        # Upload video to Postiz
+        print(f"    Uploading {clip_file.name}...")
+        media = upload_file(clip_file)
+        if not media:
+            print(f"    Failed to upload video, skipping")
+            continue
+        print(f"    Uploaded: {media.get('path', 'ok')}")
+
+        # Post to Instagram Reels
+        if do_instagram:
+            print(f"    Posting to Instagram Reels...")
+            content = build_instagram_content(clip)
+            settings = {
+                "__type": "instagram",
+                "post_type": "reel",
+            }
+            result = create_post(
+                ig_integration["id"], content, media, settings, args.schedule
+            )
+            if result:
+                print(f"    Instagram: Posted!")
+            else:
+                print(f"    Instagram: Failed")
+
+        # Post to YouTube Shorts
+        if do_youtube:
+            print(f"    Posting to YouTube Shorts...")
+            content = build_youtube_content(clip)
+            settings = {
+                "__type": "youtube",
+                "title": clip["title"],
+                "type": "short",
+                "selfDeclaredMadeForKids": False,
+                "tags": [h.lstrip("#") for h in clip.get("hashtags", [])],
+            }
+            result = create_post(
+                yt_integration["id"], content, media, settings, args.schedule
+            )
+            if result:
+                print(f"    YouTube: Posted!")
+            else:
+                print(f"    YouTube: Failed")
+
+    print(f"\nDone!")
+
+
+if __name__ == "__main__":
+    main()
+```
+
+**Step 2: Add `POSTIZ_API_KEY` and `POSTIZ_URL` to `.env`**
+
+Add to `.env`:
+```
+POSTIZ_API_KEY=your-postiz-api-key-here
+POSTIZ_URL=https://social.lukeattheroost.com
+```
+
+Get your API key from Postiz Settings page.
+
+**Step 3: Test the script loads**
+
+Run: `python upload_clips.py --help`
+Expected: Help text displays with all flags
+
+**Step 4: Commit**
+
+```bash
+git add upload_clips.py
+git commit -m "Add upload_clips.py for posting clips to Instagram/YouTube via Postiz"
+```
+
+---
+
+### Task 4: Test with real Postiz instance
+
+**Step 1: Get Postiz API key**
+
+Go to `https://social.lukeattheroost.com` → Settings → API Keys → Generate key. Add to `.env` as `POSTIZ_API_KEY`.
+
+**Step 2: Verify integrations endpoint**
+
+Run: `python -c "from upload_clips import *; print(json.dumps(fetch_integrations(), indent=2))"`
+
+This confirms the API key works and shows connected Instagram/YouTube accounts. Note the integration IDs and provider identifiers — if `find_integration()` doesn't match correctly, adjust the provider string matching.
+
+**Step 3: Dry-run with existing clips**
+
+Run: `python upload_clips.py clips/episode-12/ --dry-run`
+Expected: Shows clip summary, "Dry run — nothing uploaded."
+
+**Step 4: Upload a single test clip**
+
+Run: `python upload_clips.py clips/episode-12/ --clip 1 --instagram-only`
+
+Check Postiz dashboard and Instagram to verify it posted as a Reel.
+
+**Step 5: Commit .env update (do NOT commit the key itself)**
+
+The `.env` is gitignored so no action needed. Just ensure the key names are documented in CLAUDE.md if desired.

docs/plans/2026-02-23-idents-playback.md

@@ -0,0 +1,402 @@
+# Idents Playback Implementation Plan
+
+> **For Claude:** REQUIRED SUB-SKILL: Use superpowers:executing-plans to implement this plan task-by-task.
+
+**Goal:** Add an idents section that loads MP3s from `idents/` and plays them through the ads channel (ch 11), with a separate "idents" stem for post-production.
+
+**Architecture:** Mirrors the existing ads system — dropdown + play/stop buttons, same audio channel, mutually exclusive with ads. Idents get their own stem in stem_recorder so they can be mixed independently in post-production.
+
+**Tech Stack:** Python (FastAPI), sounddevice, librosa, vanilla JS
+
+---
+
+### Task 1: Add idents_dir to config
+
+**Files:**
+- Modify: `backend/config.py:46-47`
+
+**Step 1: Add idents_dir path**
+
+After `ads_dir` (line 46), add:
+
+```python
+    idents_dir: Path = base_dir / "idents"
+```
+
+**Step 2: Create the idents directory**
+
+```bash
+mkdir -p idents
+```
+
+**Step 3: Commit**
+
+```bash
+git add backend/config.py
+git commit -m "Add idents_dir to config"
+```
+
+---
+
+### Task 2: Add "idents" stem to stem_recorder
+
+**Files:**
+- Modify: `backend/services/stem_recorder.py:10`
+
+**Step 1: Add "idents" to STEM_NAMES**
+
+Change line 10 from:
+
+```python
+STEM_NAMES = ["host", "caller", "music", "sfx", "ads"]
+```
+
+to:
+
+```python
+STEM_NAMES = ["host", "caller", "music", "sfx", "ads", "idents"]
+```
+
+**Step 2: Add "idents" to postprod.py STEM_NAMES**
+
+In `postprod.py:20`, change:
+
+```python
+STEM_NAMES = ["host", "caller", "music", "sfx", "ads"]
+```
+
+to:
+
+```python
+STEM_NAMES = ["host", "caller", "music", "sfx", "ads", "idents"]
+```
+
+Also update `postprod.py:72` — the `remove_gaps` content detection line — add idents:
+
+```python
+content = stems["host"] + stems["caller"] + stems["sfx"] + stems["ads"] + stems["idents"]
+```
+
+And in `mix_stems` (line 411), add idents level:
+
+```python
+levels = {"host": 0, "caller": 0, "music": -6, "sfx": -10, "ads": 0, "idents": 0}
+```
+
+And in stereo pans (line 420):
+
+```python
+pans = {"host": 0.0, "caller": 0.15, "music": 0.0, "sfx": 0.0, "ads": 0.0, "idents": 0.0}
+```
+
+And in `match_voice_levels` (line 389), add "idents":
+
+```python
+for name in ["host", "caller", "ads", "idents"]:
+```
+
+And in gap removal limiter section (line 777-778):
+
+```python
+for name in ["ads", "sfx", "idents"]:
+```
+
+**Step 3: Commit**
+
+```bash
+git add backend/services/stem_recorder.py postprod.py
+git commit -m "Add idents stem to recorder and postprod"
+```
+
+---
+
+### Task 3: Add play_ident / stop_ident to audio service
+
+**Files:**
+- Modify: `backend/services/audio.py`
+
+**Step 1: Add ident state vars to __init__ (after line 40)**
+
+After the ad playback state block (lines 35-40), add:
+
+```python
+        # Ident playback state
+        self._ident_stream: Optional[sd.OutputStream] = None
+        self._ident_data: Optional[np.ndarray] = None
+        self._ident_resampled: Optional[np.ndarray] = None
+        self._ident_position: int = 0
+        self._ident_playing: bool = False
+```
+
+**Step 2: Add play_ident method (after stop_ad, ~line 1006)**
+
+Insert after `stop_ad` method. This is a copy of `play_ad` with:
+- `_ad_*` → `_ident_*`
+- Calls `self.stop_ad()` at the start (mutual exclusion)
+- Stem recording writes to `"idents"` instead of `"ads"`
+
+```python
+    def play_ident(self, file_path: str):
+        """Load and play an ident file once (no loop) on the ad channel"""
+        import librosa
+
+        path = Path(file_path)
+        if not path.exists():
+            print(f"Ident file not found: {file_path}")
+            return
+
+        self.stop_ident()
+        self.stop_ad()
+
+        try:
+            audio, sr = librosa.load(str(path), sr=self.output_sample_rate, mono=True)
+            self._ident_data = audio.astype(np.float32)
+        except Exception as e:
+            print(f"Failed to load ident: {e}")
+            return
+
+        self._ident_playing = True
+        self._ident_position = 0
+
+        if self.output_device is None:
+            num_channels = 2
+            device = None
+            device_sr = self.output_sample_rate
+            channel_idx = 0
+        else:
+            device_info = sd.query_devices(self.output_device)
+            num_channels = device_info['max_output_channels']
+            device_sr = int(device_info['default_samplerate'])
+            device = self.output_device
+            channel_idx = min(self.ad_channel, num_channels) - 1
+
+        if self.output_sample_rate != device_sr:
+            self._ident_resampled = librosa.resample(
+                self._ident_data, orig_sr=self.output_sample_rate, target_sr=device_sr
+            ).astype(np.float32)
+        else:
+            self._ident_resampled = self._ident_data
+
+        def callback(outdata, frames, time_info, status):
+            outdata[:] = 0
+            if not self._ident_playing or self._ident_resampled is None:
+                return
+
+            remaining = len(self._ident_resampled) - self._ident_position
+            if remaining >= frames:
+                chunk = self._ident_resampled[self._ident_position:self._ident_position + frames]
+                outdata[:, channel_idx] = chunk
+                if self.stem_recorder:
+                    self.stem_recorder.write_sporadic("idents", chunk.copy(), device_sr)
+                self._ident_position += frames
+            else:
+                if remaining > 0:
+                    outdata[:remaining, channel_idx] = self._ident_resampled[self._ident_position:]
+                self._ident_playing = False
+
+        try:
+            self._ident_stream = sd.OutputStream(
+                device=device,
+                channels=num_channels,
+                samplerate=device_sr,
+                dtype=np.float32,
+                callback=callback,
+                blocksize=2048
+            )
+            self._ident_stream.start()
+            print(f"Ident playback started on ch {self.ad_channel} @ {device_sr}Hz")
+        except Exception as e:
+            print(f"Ident playback error: {e}")
+            self._ident_playing = False
+
+    def stop_ident(self):
+        """Stop ident playback"""
+        self._ident_playing = False
+        if self._ident_stream:
+            self._ident_stream.stop()
+            self._ident_stream.close()
+            self._ident_stream = None
+        self._ident_position = 0
+```
+
+**Step 3: Add `self.stop_ident()` to top of play_ad (line 935)**
+
+In `play_ad`, after `self.stop_ad()` (line 935), add:
+
+```python
+        self.stop_ident()
+```
+
+**Step 4: Commit**
+
+```bash
+git add backend/services/audio.py
+git commit -m "Add play_ident/stop_ident to audio service"
+```
+
+---
+
+### Task 4: Add idents API endpoints
+
+**Files:**
+- Modify: `backend/main.py` (after ads endpoints, ~line 4362)
+
+**Step 1: Add IDENT_DISPLAY_NAMES and endpoints**
+
+Insert after the ads stop endpoint (line 4362):
+
+```python
+
+# --- Idents Endpoints ---
+
+IDENT_DISPLAY_NAMES = {}
+
+
+@app.get("/api/idents")
+async def get_idents():
+    """Get available ident tracks, shuffled"""
+    ident_list = []
+    if settings.idents_dir.exists():
+        for ext in ['*.wav', '*.mp3', '*.flac']:
+            for f in settings.idents_dir.glob(ext):
+                ident_list.append({
+                    "name": IDENT_DISPLAY_NAMES.get(f.stem, f.stem),
+                    "file": f.name,
+                    "path": str(f)
+                })
+    random.shuffle(ident_list)
+    return {"idents": ident_list}
+
+
+@app.post("/api/idents/play")
+async def play_ident(request: MusicRequest):
+    """Play an ident once on the ad channel (ch 11)"""
+    ident_path = settings.idents_dir / request.track
+    if not ident_path.exists():
+        raise HTTPException(404, "Ident not found")
+
+    if audio_service._music_playing:
+        audio_service.stop_music(fade_duration=1.0)
+        await asyncio.sleep(1.1)
+    audio_service.play_ident(str(ident_path))
+    return {"status": "playing", "track": request.track}
+
+
+@app.post("/api/idents/stop")
+async def stop_ident():
+    """Stop ident playback"""
+    audio_service.stop_ident()
+    return {"status": "stopped"}
+```
+
+**Step 2: Commit**
+
+```bash
+git add backend/main.py
+git commit -m "Add idents API endpoints"
+```
+
+---
+
+### Task 5: Add idents UI section and JS functions
+
+**Files:**
+- Modify: `frontend/index.html:113` (after ads section)
+- Modify: `frontend/js/app.js`
+
+**Step 1: Add Idents HTML section**
+
+After the Ads section closing `</section>` (line 113), add:
+
+```html
+            <!-- Idents -->
+            <section class="music-section">
+                <h2>Idents</h2>
+                <select id="ident-select"></select>
+                <div class="music-controls">
+                    <button id="ident-play-btn">Play Ident</button>
+                    <button id="ident-stop-btn">Stop</button>
+                </div>
+            </section>
+```
+
+**Step 2: Add loadIdents, playIdent, stopIdent to app.js**
+
+After `stopAd()` function (~line 773), add:
+
+```javascript
+async function loadIdents() {
+    try {
+        const res = await fetch('/api/idents');
+        const data = await res.json();
+        const idents = data.idents || [];
+
+        const select = document.getElementById('ident-select');
+        if (!select) return;
+
+        const previousValue = select.value;
+        select.innerHTML = '';
+
+        idents.forEach(ident => {
+            const option = document.createElement('option');
+            option.value = ident.file;
+            option.textContent = ident.name;
+            select.appendChild(option);
+        });
+
+        if (previousValue && [...select.options].some(o => o.value === previousValue)) {
+            select.value = previousValue;
+        }
+
+        console.log('Loaded', idents.length, 'idents');
+    } catch (err) {
+        console.error('loadIdents error:', err);
+    }
+}
+
+async function playIdent() {
+    await loadIdents();
+    const select = document.getElementById('ident-select');
+    const track = select?.value;
+    if (!track) return;
+
+    await fetch('/api/idents/play', {
+        method: 'POST',
+        headers: { 'Content-Type': 'application/json' },
+        body: JSON.stringify({ track, action: 'play' })
+    });
+}
+
+async function stopIdent() {
+    await fetch('/api/idents/stop', { method: 'POST' });
+}
+```
+
+**Step 3: Add event listeners in initEventListeners**
+
+After the ads event listeners (line 190), add:
+
+```javascript
+    // Idents
+    document.getElementById('ident-play-btn')?.addEventListener('click', playIdent);
+    document.getElementById('ident-stop-btn')?.addEventListener('click', stopIdent);
+```
+
+**Step 4: Add loadIdents() to DOMContentLoaded init**
+
+After `await loadAds();` (line 59), add:
+
+```javascript
+        await loadIdents();
+```
+
+**Step 5: Bump cache buster on app.js script tag**
+
+In `index.html:243`, change `?v=17` to `?v=18`.
+
+**Step 6: Commit**
+
+```bash
+git add frontend/index.html frontend/js/app.js
+git commit -m "Add idents UI section and JS functions"
+```

docs/plans/2026-03-10-clips-page-landing-redesign.md

@@ -0,0 +1,29 @@
+# Clips Page & Landing Page Redesign
+
+## Clips Page (`/clips`)
+
+Responsive grid gallery of podcast clips with click-to-play YouTube embeds.
+
+**Grid:** 3 columns desktop, 2 tablet, 1 mobile. Cards use 9:16 vertical aspect ratio.
+
+**Card pre-click:** Dark bg-light card with clip title (bold), episode label, centered orange play button, description text below. Matches site aesthetic.
+
+**Card playing:** Click swaps card for YouTube Shorts iframe (`youtube-nocookie.com`, autoplay). Fills same 9:16 space.
+
+**Data:** Static `website/data/clips.json` aggregated from per-episode `clips-metadata.json` files. Each entry: title, description, episode_number, optional `youtube_id`. Cards without youtube_id show no play button.
+
+**Featured row:** Top 3 hand-picked clips displayed larger, followed by full grid below.
+
+**Nav:** "Clips" added to hero secondary links and footer nav.
+
+## Landing Page Improvements
+
+**About section** (between hero and episodes): Centered text block. Show description + AI teaser line ("Part human callers, part AI-generated characters, fully unhinged advice") + "See how it works" link. No card background.
+
+**Clips highlight** (between about and episodes): Horizontal row of 3 featured clips, same card style as clips page. "Best Clips" header with "See all clips" link.
+
+**Final section order:** Banner → Hero → About → Featured Clips → Episodes → Testimonials → Footer
+
+## How It Works — Reaper Video
+
+New "Post-Production Automation" section with native `<video>` tag (mp4 on CDN). Shows Reaper automating silence removal, ad ducking, loudness normalization. Wrapped in hiw-hero-card style container.

frontend/css/style.css

@@ -1,12 +1,17 @@
-/* AI Radio Show - Clean CSS */
+/* AI Radio Show - Control Panel */
 
 :root {
-    --bg: #1a1a2e;
-    --bg-light: #252547;
-    --accent: #e94560;
-    --text: #fff;
-    --text-muted: #888;
-    --radius: 8px;
+    --bg: #1a1209;
+    --bg-light: #2a2015;
+    --bg-dark: #110c05;
+    --accent: #e8791d;
+    --accent-hover: #f59a4a;
+    --accent-red: #cc2222;
+    --accent-green: #5a8a3c;
+    --text: #f5f0e5;
+    --text-muted: #9a8b78;
+    --radius: 12px;
+    --radius-sm: 8px;
 }
 
 * {
@@ -16,7 +21,7 @@
 }
 
 body {
-    font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, 'Segoe UI', sans-serif;
+    font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, 'Segoe UI', Roboto, Oxygen, Ubuntu, sans-serif;
     background: var(--bg);
     color: var(--text);
     min-height: 100vh;
@@ -38,6 +43,8 @@ header {
 
 header h1 {
     font-size: 1.5rem;
+    font-weight: 700;
+    color: var(--accent);
 }
 
 .header-buttons {
@@ -48,10 +55,16 @@ header h1 {
 header button {
     background: var(--bg-light);
     color: var(--text);
-    border: none;
+    border: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.15);
     padding: 8px 16px;
-    border-radius: var(--radius);
+    border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
     cursor: pointer;
+    transition: all 0.2s;
+}
+
+header button:hover {
+    background: #3a2e1f;
+    border-color: rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.3);
 }
 
 .on-air-btn {
@@ -62,11 +75,14 @@ header button {
 }
 
 .on-air-btn.off {
-    background: #666 !important;
+    background: #4a3d2e !important;
+    border-color: transparent !important;
+    color: var(--text-muted) !important;
 }
 
 .on-air-btn.on {
-    background: #cc2222 !important;
+    background: var(--accent-red) !important;
+    border-color: var(--accent-red) !important;
     animation: on-air-pulse 2s ease-in-out infinite;
 }
 
@@ -79,17 +95,27 @@ header button {
     font-weight: 700;
     text-transform: uppercase;
     letter-spacing: 0.05em;
-    background: #555 !important;
+    background: #4a3d2e !important;
+    color: var(--text-muted) !important;
+    border-color: transparent !important;
     transition: background 0.2s;
 }
 
 .rec-btn.recording {
-    background: #cc2222 !important;
+    background: var(--accent-red) !important;
+    color: var(--text) !important;
+    border-color: var(--accent-red) !important;
     animation: on-air-pulse 2s ease-in-out infinite;
 }
 
 .new-session-btn {
     background: var(--accent) !important;
+    border-color: var(--accent) !important;
+    color: #fff !important;
+}
+
+.new-session-btn:hover {
+    background: var(--accent-hover) !important;
 }
 
 .session-id {
@@ -102,7 +128,7 @@ details.caller-background {
     font-size: 0.85rem;
     color: var(--text-muted);
     background: var(--bg);
-    border-radius: var(--radius);
+    border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
     margin-bottom: 12px;
     line-height: 1.4;
 }
@@ -142,10 +168,14 @@ section {
     background: var(--bg-light);
     padding: 16px;
     border-radius: var(--radius);
+    border: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.08);
 }
 
 section h2 {
-    font-size: 1rem;
+    font-size: 0.85rem;
+    font-weight: 700;
+    text-transform: uppercase;
+    letter-spacing: 0.05em;
     margin-bottom: 12px;
     color: var(--text-muted);
 }
@@ -163,7 +193,7 @@ section h2 {
     color: var(--text);
     border: 2px solid transparent;
     padding: 10px 8px;
-    border-radius: var(--radius);
+    border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
     cursor: pointer;
     font-size: 0.85rem;
     transition: all 0.2s;
@@ -171,11 +201,13 @@ section h2 {
 
 .caller-btn:hover {
     border-color: var(--accent);
+    background: #2a1e10;
 }
 
 .caller-btn.active {
     background: var(--accent);
     border-color: var(--accent);
+    color: #fff;
 }
 
 .call-status {
@@ -187,13 +219,18 @@ section h2 {
 
 .hangup-btn {
     width: 100%;
-    background: #c0392b;
+    background: var(--accent-red);
     color: white;
     border: none;
     padding: 12px;
-    border-radius: var(--radius);
+    border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
     cursor: pointer;
     font-weight: bold;
+    transition: background 0.2s;
+}
+
+.hangup-btn:hover {
+    background: #e03030;
 }
 
 .hangup-btn:disabled {
@@ -215,25 +252,26 @@ section h2 {
 .chat-log {
     height: 300px;
     overflow-y: auto;
-    background: var(--bg);
-    border-radius: var(--radius);
+    background: var(--bg-dark);
+    border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
     padding: 12px;
     margin-bottom: 12px;
+    border: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.06);
 }
 
 .message {
     padding: 8px 12px;
     margin-bottom: 8px;
-    border-radius: var(--radius);
+    border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
     line-height: 1.4;
 }
 
 .message.host {
-    background: #2c5282;
+    background: #3a2510;
 }
 
 .message.caller {
-    background: #553c9a;
+    background: #2a1a0a;
 }
 
 .message strong {
@@ -254,7 +292,7 @@ section h2 {
     color: white;
     border: none;
     padding: 16px;
-    border-radius: var(--radius);
+    border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
     font-size: 1rem;
     font-weight: bold;
     cursor: pointer;
@@ -262,11 +300,11 @@ section h2 {
 }
 
 .talk-btn:hover {
-    filter: brightness(1.1);
+    background: var(--accent-hover);
 }
 
 .talk-btn.recording {
-    background: #c0392b;
+    background: var(--accent-red);
     animation: pulse 1s infinite;
 }
 
@@ -278,10 +316,15 @@ section h2 {
 .type-btn {
     background: var(--bg);
     color: var(--text);
-    border: none;
+    border: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.15);
     padding: 16px 24px;
-    border-radius: var(--radius);
+    border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
     cursor: pointer;
+    transition: all 0.2s;
+}
+
+.type-btn:hover {
+    border-color: var(--accent);
 }
 
 .status {
@@ -301,11 +344,24 @@ section h2 {
     padding: 10px;
     background: var(--bg);
     color: var(--text);
-    border: none;
-    border-radius: var(--radius);
+    border: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.15);
+    border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
     margin-bottom: 10px;
 }
 
+.music-section select optgroup {
+    color: var(--accent);
+    font-weight: bold;
+    font-style: normal;
+    padding: 4px 0;
+}
+
+.music-section select option {
+    color: var(--text);
+    font-weight: normal;
+    padding: 2px 8px;
+}
+
 .music-controls {
     display: flex;
     gap: 8px;
@@ -315,29 +371,46 @@ section h2 {
 .music-controls button {
     background: var(--bg);
     color: var(--text);
-    border: none;
+    border: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.15);
     padding: 10px 16px;
-    border-radius: var(--radius);
+    border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
     cursor: pointer;
+    transition: all 0.2s;
+}
+
+.music-controls button:hover {
+    border-color: var(--accent);
+    background: #2a1e10;
 }
 
 .music-controls input[type="range"] {
     flex: 1;
+    accent-color: var(--accent);
 }
 
 /* Soundboard */
+.sounds-section {
+    grid-column: span 2;
+}
+
+@media (max-width: 700px) {
+    .sounds-section {
+        grid-column: span 1;
+    }
+}
+
 .soundboard {
     display: grid;
-    grid-template-columns: repeat(3, 1fr);
+    grid-template-columns: repeat(6, 1fr);
     gap: 8px;
 }
 
 .sound-btn {
     background: var(--bg);
     color: var(--text);
-    border: none;
+    border: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.1);
     padding: 12px 8px;
-    border-radius: var(--radius);
+    border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
     cursor: pointer;
     font-size: 0.8rem;
     transition: all 0.1s;
@@ -345,6 +418,8 @@ section h2 {
 
 .sound-btn:hover {
     background: var(--accent);
+    border-color: var(--accent);
+    color: #fff;
 }
 
 .sound-btn:active {
@@ -372,17 +447,19 @@ section h2 {
     border-radius: var(--radius);
     width: 90%;
     max-width: 400px;
+    border: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.15);
 }
 
 .modal-content h2 {
     margin-bottom: 16px;
+    color: var(--accent);
 }
 
 .modal-content h3 {
     font-size: 0.9rem;
     color: var(--text-muted);
     margin: 16px 0 8px 0;
-    border-bottom: 1px solid var(--bg);
+    border-bottom: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.1);
     padding-bottom: 4px;
 }
 
@@ -436,11 +513,18 @@ section h2 {
     padding: 10px;
     background: var(--bg);
     color: var(--text);
-    border: none;
-    border-radius: var(--radius);
+    border: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.15);
+    border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
     margin-top: 4px;
 }
 
+.modal-content select:focus,
+.modal-content input[type="text"]:focus,
+.modal-content textarea:focus {
+    outline: none;
+    border-color: var(--accent);
+}
+
 .modal-buttons {
     display: flex;
     gap: 10px;
@@ -451,9 +535,10 @@ section h2 {
     flex: 1;
     padding: 12px;
     border: none;
-    border-radius: var(--radius);
+    border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
     cursor: pointer;
     font-weight: bold;
+    transition: all 0.2s;
 }
 
 .modal-buttons button:first-child {
@@ -461,25 +546,32 @@ section h2 {
     color: white;
 }
 
+.modal-buttons button:first-child:hover {
+    background: var(--accent-hover);
+}
+
 .modal-buttons button:last-child {
     background: var(--bg);
     color: var(--text);
+    border: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.15);
 }
 
 .refresh-btn {
     background: var(--bg);
     color: var(--text-muted);
-    border: 1px solid var(--bg-light);
+    border: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.15);
     padding: 6px 12px;
-    border-radius: var(--radius);
+    border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
     cursor: pointer;
     font-size: 0.85rem;
     margin-top: 8px;
+    transition: all 0.2s;
 }
 
 .refresh-btn:hover {
     background: var(--bg-light);
     color: var(--text);
+    border-color: var(--accent);
 }
 
 .refresh-btn:disabled {
@@ -522,28 +614,29 @@ section h2 {
 .server-btn {
     border: none;
     padding: 6px 12px;
-    border-radius: var(--radius);
+    border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
     cursor: pointer;
     font-size: 0.85rem;
     font-weight: bold;
+    transition: all 0.2s;
 }
 
 .server-btn.restart {
-    background: #2196F3;
+    background: var(--accent);
     color: white;
 }
 
 .server-btn.restart:hover {
-    background: #1976D2;
+    background: var(--accent-hover);
 }
 
 .server-btn.stop {
-    background: #c0392b;
+    background: var(--accent-red);
     color: white;
 }
 
 .server-btn.stop:hover {
-    background: #a93226;
+    background: #e03030;
 }
 
 .auto-scroll-label {
@@ -555,16 +648,21 @@ section h2 {
     cursor: pointer;
 }
 
+.auto-scroll-label input[type="checkbox"] {
+    accent-color: var(--accent);
+}
+
 .server-log {
     height: 200px;
     overflow-y: auto;
-    background: #0d0d1a;
-    border-radius: var(--radius);
+    background: var(--bg-dark);
+    border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
     padding: 12px;
     font-family: 'Monaco', 'Menlo', 'Ubuntu Mono', monospace;
     font-size: 0.75rem;
     line-height: 1.5;
-    color: #8f8;
+    color: #b8a88a;
+    border: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.06);
 }
 
 .server-log .log-line {
@@ -573,69 +671,108 @@ section h2 {
 }
 
 .server-log .log-line.error {
-    color: #f88;
+    color: #e8604a;
 }
 
 .server-log .log-line.warning {
-    color: #ff8;
+    color: #e8b84a;
 }
 
 .server-log .log-line.tts {
-    color: #8ff;
+    color: var(--accent);
 }
 
 .server-log .log-line.chat {
-    color: #f8f;
+    color: var(--accent-hover);
 }
 
 /* Call Queue */
 .queue-section { margin: 1rem 0; }
-.call-queue { border: 1px solid #333; border-radius: 4px; padding: 0.5rem; max-height: 150px; overflow-y: auto; }
-.queue-empty { color: #666; text-align: center; padding: 0.5rem; }
-.queue-item { display: flex; align-items: center; gap: 0.75rem; padding: 0.4rem 0.5rem; border-bottom: 1px solid #222; }
+.call-queue { border: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.15); border-radius: var(--radius-sm); padding: 0.5rem; max-height: 150px; overflow-y: auto; }
+.queue-empty { color: var(--text-muted); text-align: center; padding: 0.5rem; }
+.queue-item { display: flex; align-items: center; gap: 0.75rem; padding: 0.4rem 0.5rem; border-bottom: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.08); flex-wrap: wrap; }
 .queue-item:last-child { border-bottom: none; }
-.queue-phone { font-family: monospace; color: #4fc3f7; }
-.queue-wait { color: #999; font-size: 0.85rem; flex: 1; }
-.queue-take-btn { background: #2e7d32; color: white; border: none; padding: 0.25rem 0.75rem; border-radius: 3px; cursor: pointer; }
-.queue-take-btn:hover { background: #388e3c; }
-.queue-drop-btn { background: #c62828; color: white; border: none; padding: 0.25rem 0.5rem; border-radius: 3px; cursor: pointer; }
-.queue-drop-btn:hover { background: #d32f2f; }
+.queue-phone { font-family: monospace; color: var(--accent); }
+.queue-wait { color: var(--text-muted); font-size: 0.85rem; flex: 1; }
+.queue-take-btn { background: var(--accent-green); color: white; border: none; padding: 0.25rem 0.75rem; border-radius: var(--radius-sm); cursor: pointer; transition: background 0.2s; }
+.queue-take-btn:hover { background: #6a9a4c; }
+.queue-drop-btn { background: var(--accent-red); color: white; border: none; padding: 0.25rem 0.5rem; border-radius: var(--radius-sm); cursor: pointer; transition: background 0.2s; }
+.queue-drop-btn:hover { background: #e03030; }
 
 /* Active Call Indicator */
-.active-call { border: 1px solid #444; border-radius: 4px; padding: 0.75rem; margin: 0.5rem 0; background: #1a1a2e; }
+.active-call { border: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.15); border-radius: var(--radius-sm); padding: 0.75rem; margin: 0.5rem 0; background: var(--bg); }
 .caller-info { display: flex; align-items: center; gap: 0.5rem; margin-bottom: 0.5rem; }
 .caller-info:last-of-type { margin-bottom: 0; }
-.caller-type { font-size: 0.7rem; font-weight: bold; padding: 0.15rem 0.4rem; border-radius: 3px; text-transform: uppercase; }
-.caller-type.real { background: #c62828; color: white; }
-.caller-type.ai { background: #1565c0; color: white; }
-.channel-badge { font-size: 0.75rem; color: #999; background: #222; padding: 0.1rem 0.4rem; border-radius: 3px; }
-.call-duration { font-family: monospace; color: #4fc3f7; }
+.caller-type { font-size: 0.7rem; font-weight: bold; padding: 0.15rem 0.4rem; border-radius: var(--radius-sm); text-transform: uppercase; }
+.caller-type.real { background: var(--accent-red); color: white; }
+.caller-type.ai { background: var(--accent); color: white; }
+.channel-badge { font-size: 0.75rem; color: var(--text-muted); background: var(--bg-light); padding: 0.1rem 0.4rem; border-radius: var(--radius-sm); }
+.call-duration { font-family: monospace; color: var(--accent); }
 .ai-controls { display: flex; align-items: center; gap: 0.5rem; margin-left: auto; }
-.mode-toggle { display: flex; border: 1px solid #444; border-radius: 3px; overflow: hidden; }
-.mode-btn { background: #222; color: #999; border: none; padding: 0.2rem 0.5rem; font-size: 0.75rem; cursor: pointer; }
-.mode-btn.active { background: #1565c0; color: white; }
-.respond-btn { background: #2e7d32; color: white; border: none; padding: 0.25rem 0.75rem; border-radius: 3px; font-size: 0.8rem; cursor: pointer; }
+.mode-toggle { display: flex; border: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.2); border-radius: var(--radius-sm); overflow: hidden; }
+.mode-btn { background: var(--bg-light); color: var(--text-muted); border: none; padding: 0.2rem 0.5rem; font-size: 0.75rem; cursor: pointer; transition: all 0.2s; }
+.mode-btn.active { background: var(--accent); color: white; }
+.respond-btn { background: var(--accent-green); color: white; border: none; padding: 0.25rem 0.75rem; border-radius: var(--radius-sm); font-size: 0.8rem; cursor: pointer; transition: background 0.2s; }
+.respond-btn:hover { background: #6a9a4c; }
 .hangup-btn.small { font-size: 0.75rem; padding: 0.2rem 0.5rem; }
-.auto-followup-label { display: flex; align-items: center; gap: 0.4rem; font-size: 0.8rem; color: #999; margin-top: 0.5rem; }
+.auto-followup-label { display: flex; align-items: center; gap: 0.4rem; font-size: 0.8rem; color: var(--text-muted); margin-top: 0.5rem; }
 
 /* Returning Caller */
 .caller-btn.returning {
-    border-color: #f9a825;
-    color: #f9a825;
+    border-color: var(--accent);
+    color: var(--accent);
 }
 
 .caller-btn.returning:hover {
-    border-color: #fdd835;
+    border-color: var(--accent-hover);
+    color: var(--accent-hover);
+}
+
+.caller-btn.returning.active {
+    color: #fff;
 }
 
 /* Screening Badges */
-.screening-badge { font-size: 0.7rem; padding: 0.1rem 0.4rem; border-radius: 3px; font-weight: bold; }
-.screening-badge.screening { background: #e65100; color: white; animation: pulse 1.5s infinite; }
-.screening-badge.screened { background: #2e7d32; color: white; }
-.screening-summary { font-size: 0.8rem; color: #aaa; font-style: italic; flex-basis: 100%; margin-top: 0.2rem; }
-.queue-item { flex-wrap: wrap; }
+.screening-badge { font-size: 0.7rem; padding: 0.1rem 0.4rem; border-radius: var(--radius-sm); font-weight: bold; }
+.screening-badge.screening { background: var(--accent); color: white; animation: pulse 1.5s infinite; }
+.screening-badge.screened { background: var(--accent-green); color: white; }
+.screening-summary { font-size: 0.8rem; color: var(--text-muted); font-style: italic; flex-basis: 100%; margin-top: 0.2rem; }
 
 /* Three-Party Chat */
-.message.real-caller { border-left: 3px solid #c62828; padding-left: 0.5rem; }
-.message.ai-caller { border-left: 3px solid #1565c0; padding-left: 0.5rem; }
-.message.host { border-left: 3px solid #2e7d32; padding-left: 0.5rem; }
+.message.real-caller { border-left: 3px solid var(--accent-red); padding-left: 0.5rem; }
+.message.ai-caller { border-left: 3px solid var(--accent); padding-left: 0.5rem; }
+.message.host { border-left: 3px solid var(--accent-green); padding-left: 0.5rem; }
+
+/* Voicemail */
+.voicemail-section { margin: 1rem 0; }
+.voicemail-list { border: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.15); border-radius: var(--radius-sm); padding: 0.5rem; max-height: 200px; overflow-y: auto; }
+.voicemail-badge { background: var(--accent-red); color: white; font-size: 0.7rem; font-weight: bold; padding: 0.1rem 0.45rem; border-radius: 10px; margin-left: 0.4rem; vertical-align: middle; }
+.voicemail-badge.hidden { display: none; }
+.vm-item { display: flex; align-items: center; justify-content: space-between; padding: 0.4rem 0.5rem; border-bottom: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.08); }
+.vm-item:last-child { border-bottom: none; }
+.vm-item.vm-unlistened { background: rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.06); }
+.vm-info { display: flex; gap: 0.6rem; align-items: center; flex: 1; min-width: 0; }
+.vm-phone { font-family: monospace; color: var(--accent); font-size: 0.85rem; }
+.vm-time { color: var(--text-muted); font-size: 0.8rem; }
+.vm-dur { color: var(--text-muted); font-size: 0.8rem; }
+.vm-actions { display: flex; gap: 0.3rem; flex-shrink: 0; }
+.vm-btn { border: none; padding: 0.2rem 0.5rem; border-radius: var(--radius-sm); cursor: pointer; font-size: 0.75rem; transition: background 0.2s; }
+.vm-btn.listen { background: var(--accent); color: white; }
+.vm-btn.listen:hover { background: var(--accent-hover); }
+.vm-btn.on-air { background: var(--accent-green); color: white; }
+.vm-btn.on-air:hover { background: #6a9a4c; }
+.vm-btn.save { background: #3a7bd5; color: white; }
+.vm-btn.save:hover { background: #2a5db0; }
+.vm-btn.delete { background: var(--accent-red); color: white; }
+.vm-btn.delete:hover { background: #e03030; }
+
+/* Listener Emails */
+.email-item { display: flex; flex-direction: column; gap: 0.25rem; padding: 0.5rem; border-bottom: 1px solid rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.08); }
+.email-item:last-child { border-bottom: none; }
+.email-item.vm-unlistened { background: rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.06); }
+.email-header { display: flex; justify-content: space-between; align-items: center; }
+.email-sender { color: var(--accent); font-size: 0.85rem; font-weight: 600; overflow: hidden; text-overflow: ellipsis; white-space: nowrap; }
+.email-subject { font-size: 0.85rem; font-weight: 500; overflow: hidden; text-overflow: ellipsis; white-space: nowrap; }
+.email-preview { font-size: 0.8rem; color: var(--text-muted); line-height: 1.3; }
+.email-item .vm-actions { margin-top: 0.25rem; }
+.email-body-expanded { margin-top: 0.4rem; padding: 0.5rem; background: rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.08); border-radius: var(--radius-sm); font-size: 0.85rem; line-height: 1.5; white-space: pre-wrap; max-height: 200px; overflow-y: auto; }

frontend/index.html

@@ -65,6 +65,22 @@
                 </div>
             </section>
 
+            <!-- Voicemail -->
+            <section class="voicemail-section">
+                <h2>Voicemail <span id="voicemail-badge" class="voicemail-badge hidden">0</span></h2>
+                <div id="voicemail-list" class="voicemail-list">
+                    <div class="queue-empty">No voicemails</div>
+                </div>
+            </section>
+
+            <!-- Listener Emails -->
+            <section class="voicemail-section">
+                <h2>Emails <span id="email-badge" class="voicemail-badge hidden">0</span></h2>
+                <div id="email-list" class="voicemail-list" style="max-height:300px">
+                    <div class="queue-empty">No emails</div>
+                </div>
+            </section>
+
             <!-- Chat -->
             <section class="chat-section">
                 <div id="chat" class="chat-log"></div>
@@ -96,6 +112,16 @@
                 </div>
             </section>
 
+            <!-- Idents -->
+            <section class="music-section">
+                <h2>Idents</h2>
+                <select id="ident-select"></select>
+                <div class="music-controls">
+                    <button id="ident-play-btn">Play Ident</button>
+                    <button id="ident-stop-btn">Stop</button>
+                </div>
+            </section>
+
             <!-- Sound Effects -->
             <section class="sounds-section">
                 <h2>Sounds</h2>
@@ -143,11 +169,12 @@
                         </label>
                     </div>
                     <div class="channel-row">
-                        <label>Caller Ch <input type="number" id="caller-channel" value="1" min="1" max="16" class="channel-input"></label>
+                        <label>Caller Ch <input type="number" id="caller-channel" value="3" min="1" max="16" class="channel-input"></label>
                         <label>Live Ch <input type="number" id="live-caller-channel" value="9" min="1" max="16" class="channel-input"></label>
-                        <label>Music Ch <input type="number" id="music-channel" value="2" min="1" max="16" class="channel-input"></label>
-                        <label>SFX Ch <input type="number" id="sfx-channel" value="3" min="1" max="16" class="channel-input"></label>
+                        <label>Music Ch <input type="number" id="music-channel" value="5" min="1" max="16" class="channel-input"></label>
+                        <label>SFX Ch <input type="number" id="sfx-channel" value="7" min="1" max="16" class="channel-input"></label>
                         <label>Ad Ch <input type="number" id="ad-channel" value="11" min="1" max="16" class="channel-input"></label>
+                        <label>Ident Ch <input type="number" id="ident-channel" value="15" min="1" max="16" class="channel-input"></label>
                     </div>
                 </div>
 
@@ -224,6 +251,6 @@
         </div>
     </div>
 
-    <script src="/js/app.js?v=15"></script>
+    <script src="/js/app.js?v=18"></script>
 </body>
 </html>

frontend/js/app.js

@@ -16,6 +16,15 @@ let tracks = [];
 let sounds = [];
 
 
+// --- Helpers ---
+function _isTyping() {
+    const el = document.activeElement;
+    if (!el) return false;
+    const tag = el.tagName;
+    return tag === 'INPUT' || tag === 'TEXTAREA' || tag === 'SELECT' || el.isContentEditable;
+}
+
+
 // --- Safe JSON parsing ---
 async function safeFetch(url, options = {}, timeoutMs = 30000) {
     const controller = new AbortController();
@@ -48,9 +57,14 @@ document.addEventListener('DOMContentLoaded', async () => {
         await loadCallers();
         await loadMusic();
         await loadAds();
+        await loadIdents();
         await loadSounds();
         await loadSettings();
         initEventListeners();
+        loadVoicemails();
+        setInterval(loadVoicemails, 30000);
+        loadEmails();
+        setInterval(loadEmails, 30000);
         log('Ready. Configure audio devices in Settings, then click a caller to start.');
         console.log('AI Radio Show ready');
     } catch (err) {
@@ -67,11 +81,23 @@ function initEventListeners() {
     // New Session
     document.getElementById('new-session-btn')?.addEventListener('click', newSession);
 
-    // On-Air toggle
+    // On-Air + Recording (linked — toggling one toggles both)
     const onAirBtn = document.getElementById('on-air-btn');
+    const recBtn = document.getElementById('rec-btn');
+    let stemRecording = false;
+
+    function updateRecBtn(recording) {
+        stemRecording = recording;
+        if (recBtn) {
+            recBtn.classList.toggle('recording', recording);
+            recBtn.textContent = recording ? '⏺ REC' : 'REC';
+        }
+    }
+
     if (onAirBtn) {
         fetch('/api/on-air').then(r => r.json()).then(data => {
             updateOnAirBtn(onAirBtn, data.on_air);
+            updateRecBtn(data.recording);
         });
         onAirBtn.addEventListener('click', async () => {
             const isOn = onAirBtn.classList.contains('on');
@@ -81,29 +107,18 @@ function initEventListeners() {
                 body: JSON.stringify({ on_air: !isOn }),
             });
             updateOnAirBtn(onAirBtn, res.on_air);
-            log(res.on_air ? 'Show is ON AIR — accepting calls' : 'Show is OFF AIR — calls get off-air message');
+            updateRecBtn(res.recording);
+            log(res.on_air ? 'Show is ON AIR + Recording' : 'Show is OFF AIR + Recording stopped');
         });
     }
 
-    // Stem recording toggle
-    const recBtn = document.getElementById('rec-btn');
     if (recBtn) {
-        let stemRecording = false;
         recBtn.addEventListener('click', async () => {
             try {
-                if (!stemRecording) {
-                    const res = await safeFetch('/api/recording/start', { method: 'POST' });
-                    stemRecording = true;
-                    recBtn.classList.add('recording');
-                    recBtn.textContent = '⏺ REC';
-                    log('Stem recording started: ' + res.dir);
-                } else {
-                    const res = await safeFetch('/api/recording/stop', { method: 'POST' });
-                    stemRecording = false;
-                    recBtn.classList.remove('recording');
-                    recBtn.textContent = 'REC';
-                    log('Stem recording stopped');
-                }
+                const res = await safeFetch('/api/recording/toggle', { method: 'POST' });
+                updateRecBtn(res.recording);
+                if (onAirBtn) updateOnAirBtn(onAirBtn, res.on_air);
+                log(res.recording ? 'Recording started + ON AIR' : 'Recording stopped + OFF AIR');
             } catch (err) {
                 log('Recording error: ' + err.message);
             }
@@ -136,6 +151,20 @@ function initEventListeners() {
         talkBtn.addEventListener('touchend', e => { e.preventDefault(); stopRecording(); });
     }
 
+    // Spacebar push-to-talk — blur buttons so Space doesn't also trigger button click
+    document.addEventListener('keydown', e => {
+        if (e.code !== 'Space' || e.repeat || _isTyping()) return;
+        e.preventDefault();
+        // Blur any focused button so browser doesn't fire its click
+        if (document.activeElement?.tagName === 'BUTTON') document.activeElement.blur();
+        startRecording();
+    });
+    document.addEventListener('keyup', e => {
+        if (e.code !== 'Space' || _isTyping()) return;
+        e.preventDefault();
+        stopRecording();
+    });
+
     // Type button
     document.getElementById('type-btn')?.addEventListener('click', () => {
         document.getElementById('type-modal')?.classList.remove('hidden');
@@ -161,6 +190,10 @@ function initEventListeners() {
     document.getElementById('ad-play-btn')?.addEventListener('click', playAd);
     document.getElementById('ad-stop-btn')?.addEventListener('click', stopAd);
 
+    // Idents
+    document.getElementById('ident-play-btn')?.addEventListener('click', playIdent);
+    document.getElementById('ident-stop-btn')?.addEventListener('click', stopIdent);
+
     // Settings
     document.getElementById('settings-btn')?.addEventListener('click', async () => {
         document.getElementById('settings-modal')?.classList.remove('hidden');
@@ -310,6 +343,7 @@ async function loadAudioDevices() {
         const musicCh = document.getElementById('music-channel');
         const sfxCh = document.getElementById('sfx-channel');
         const adCh = document.getElementById('ad-channel');
+        const identCh = document.getElementById('ident-channel');
 
         if (inputCh) inputCh.value = settings.input_channel || 1;
         if (callerCh) callerCh.value = settings.caller_channel || 1;
@@ -317,6 +351,7 @@ async function loadAudioDevices() {
         if (musicCh) musicCh.value = settings.music_channel || 2;
         if (sfxCh) sfxCh.value = settings.sfx_channel || 3;
         if (adCh) adCh.value = settings.ad_channel || 11;
+        if (identCh) identCh.value = settings.ident_channel || 15;
 
         // Phone filter setting
         const phoneFilterEl = document.getElementById('phone-filter');
@@ -341,6 +376,7 @@ async function saveAudioDevices() {
     const musicChannel = document.getElementById('music-channel')?.value;
     const sfxChannel = document.getElementById('sfx-channel')?.value;
     const adChannel = document.getElementById('ad-channel')?.value;
+    const identChannel = document.getElementById('ident-channel')?.value;
     const phoneFilterChecked = document.getElementById('phone-filter')?.checked ?? false;
 
     await fetch('/api/audio/settings', {
@@ -355,6 +391,7 @@ async function saveAudioDevices() {
             music_channel: musicChannel ? parseInt(musicChannel) : 2,
             sfx_channel: sfxChannel ? parseInt(sfxChannel) : 3,
             ad_channel: adChannel ? parseInt(adChannel) : 11,
+            ident_channel: identChannel ? parseInt(identChannel) : 15,
             phone_filter: phoneFilterChecked
         })
     });
@@ -629,11 +666,37 @@ async function loadMusic() {
         const previousValue = select.value;
         select.innerHTML = '';
 
-        tracks.forEach((track, i) => {
+        // Group tracks by genre
+        const genres = {};
+        tracks.forEach(track => {
+            const genre = track.genre || 'Other';
+            if (!genres[genre]) genres[genre] = [];
+            genres[genre].push(track);
+        });
+
+        // Sort genre names, but put "Other" last
+        const genreOrder = Object.keys(genres).sort((a, b) => {
+            if (a === 'Other') return 1;
+            if (b === 'Other') return -1;
+            return a.localeCompare(b);
+        });
+
+        genreOrder.forEach(genre => {
+            const group = document.createElement('optgroup');
+            group.label = genre;
+            // Shuffle within each genre group
+            const genreTracks = genres[genre];
+            for (let i = genreTracks.length - 1; i > 0; i--) {
+                const j = Math.floor(Math.random() * (i + 1));
+                [genreTracks[i], genreTracks[j]] = [genreTracks[j], genreTracks[i]];
+            }
+            genreTracks.forEach(track => {
                 const option = document.createElement('option');
                 option.value = track.file;
                 option.textContent = track.name;
-            select.appendChild(option);
+                group.appendChild(option);
+            });
+            select.appendChild(group);
         });
 
         // Restore previous selection if it still exists
@@ -724,6 +787,52 @@ async function stopAd() {
     await fetch('/api/ads/stop', { method: 'POST' });
 }
 
+async function loadIdents() {
+    try {
+        const res = await fetch('/api/idents');
+        const data = await res.json();
+        const idents = data.idents || [];
+
+        const select = document.getElementById('ident-select');
+        if (!select) return;
+
+        const previousValue = select.value;
+        select.innerHTML = '';
+
+        idents.forEach(ident => {
+            const option = document.createElement('option');
+            option.value = ident.file;
+            option.textContent = ident.name;
+            select.appendChild(option);
+        });
+
+        if (previousValue && [...select.options].some(o => o.value === previousValue)) {
+            select.value = previousValue;
+        }
+
+        console.log('Loaded', idents.length, 'idents');
+    } catch (err) {
+        console.error('loadIdents error:', err);
+    }
+}
+
+async function playIdent() {
+    await loadIdents();
+    const select = document.getElementById('ident-select');
+    const track = select?.value;
+    if (!track) return;
+
+    await fetch('/api/idents/play', {
+        method: 'POST',
+        headers: { 'Content-Type': 'application/json' },
+        body: JSON.stringify({ track, action: 'play' })
+    });
+}
+
+async function stopIdent() {
+    await fetch('/api/idents/stop', { method: 'POST' });
+}
+
 
 // --- Sound Effects (Server-Side) ---
 async function loadSounds() {
@@ -1224,3 +1333,182 @@ async function stopServer() {
         log('Failed to stop server: ' + err.message);
     }
 }
+
+
+// --- Voicemail ---
+let _currentVmAudio = null;
+
+async function loadVoicemails() {
+    try {
+        const res = await fetch('/api/voicemails');
+        const data = await res.json();
+        renderVoicemails(data);
+    } catch (err) {}
+}
+
+function renderVoicemails(voicemails) {
+    const list = document.getElementById('voicemail-list');
+    const badge = document.getElementById('voicemail-badge');
+    if (!list) return;
+
+    const unlistened = voicemails.filter(v => !v.listened).length;
+    if (badge) {
+        badge.textContent = unlistened;
+        badge.classList.toggle('hidden', unlistened === 0);
+    }
+
+    if (voicemails.length === 0) {
+        list.innerHTML = '<div class="queue-empty">No voicemails</div>';
+        return;
+    }
+
+    list.innerHTML = voicemails.map(v => {
+        const date = new Date(v.timestamp * 1000);
+        const timeStr = date.toLocaleDateString() + ' ' + date.toLocaleTimeString([], { hour: '2-digit', minute: '2-digit' });
+        const mins = Math.floor(v.duration / 60);
+        const secs = v.duration % 60;
+        const durStr = mins > 0 ? `${mins}m ${secs}s` : `${secs}s`;
+        const unlistenedCls = v.listened ? '' : ' vm-unlistened';
+        return `<div class="vm-item${unlistenedCls}" data-id="${v.id}">
+            <div class="vm-info">
+                <span class="vm-phone">${v.phone}</span>
+                <span class="vm-time">${timeStr}</span>
+                <span class="vm-dur">${durStr}</span>
+            </div>
+            <div class="vm-actions">
+                <button class="vm-btn listen" onclick="listenVoicemail('${v.id}')">Listen</button>
+                <button class="vm-btn on-air" onclick="playVoicemailOnAir('${v.id}')">On Air</button>
+                <button class="vm-btn save" onclick="saveVoicemail('${v.id}')">Save</button>
+                <button class="vm-btn delete" onclick="deleteVoicemail('${v.id}')">Del</button>
+            </div>
+        </div>`;
+    }).join('');
+}
+
+function listenVoicemail(id) {
+    if (_currentVmAudio) {
+        _currentVmAudio.pause();
+        _currentVmAudio = null;
+    }
+    _currentVmAudio = new Audio(`/api/voicemail/${id}/audio`);
+    _currentVmAudio.play();
+    fetch(`/api/voicemail/${id}/mark-listened`, { method: 'POST' }).then(() => loadVoicemails());
+}
+
+async function playVoicemailOnAir(id) {
+    try {
+        await safeFetch(`/api/voicemail/${id}/play-on-air`, { method: 'POST' });
+        log('Playing voicemail on air');
+        loadVoicemails();
+    } catch (err) {
+        log('Failed to play voicemail: ' + err.message);
+    }
+}
+
+async function saveVoicemail(id) {
+    try {
+        await safeFetch(`/api/voicemail/${id}/save`, { method: 'POST' });
+        log('Voicemail saved to archive');
+    } catch (err) {
+        log('Failed to save voicemail: ' + err.message);
+    }
+}
+
+async function deleteVoicemail(id) {
+    if (!confirm('Delete this voicemail?')) return;
+    try {
+        await safeFetch(`/api/voicemail/${id}`, { method: 'DELETE' });
+        loadVoicemails();
+    } catch (err) {
+        log('Failed to delete voicemail: ' + err.message);
+    }
+}
+
+
+// --- Listener Emails ---
+async function loadEmails() {
+    try {
+        const res = await fetch('/api/emails');
+        const data = await res.json();
+        renderEmails(data);
+    } catch (err) {}
+}
+
+function renderEmails(emails) {
+    const list = document.getElementById('email-list');
+    const badge = document.getElementById('email-badge');
+    if (!list) return;
+
+    const unread = emails.filter(e => !e.read_on_air).length;
+    if (badge) {
+        badge.textContent = unread;
+        badge.classList.toggle('hidden', unread === 0);
+    }
+
+    if (emails.length === 0) {
+        list.innerHTML = '<div class="queue-empty">No emails</div>';
+        return;
+    }
+
+    list.innerHTML = emails.map(e => {
+        const date = new Date(e.timestamp * 1000);
+        const timeStr = date.toLocaleDateString() + ' ' + date.toLocaleTimeString([], { hour: '2-digit', minute: '2-digit' });
+        const preview = e.body.length > 120 ? e.body.substring(0, 120) + '…' : e.body;
+        const unreadCls = e.read_on_air ? '' : ' vm-unlistened';
+        const senderName = e.sender.replace(/<.*>/, '').trim() || e.sender;
+        return `<div class="email-item${unreadCls}" data-id="${e.id}">
+            <div class="email-header">
+                <span class="email-sender">${escapeHtml(senderName)}</span>
+                <span class="vm-time">${timeStr}</span>
+            </div>
+            <div class="email-subject">${escapeHtml(e.subject)}</div>
+            <div class="email-preview">${escapeHtml(preview)}</div>
+            <div class="vm-actions">
+                <button class="vm-btn listen" onclick="viewEmail('${e.id}')">View</button>
+                <button class="vm-btn on-air" onclick="playEmailOnAir('${e.id}')">On Air (TTS)</button>
+                <button class="vm-btn delete" onclick="deleteEmail('${e.id}')">Del</button>
+            </div>
+        </div>`;
+    }).join('');
+}
+
+function escapeHtml(str) {
+    const div = document.createElement('div');
+    div.textContent = str;
+    return div.innerHTML;
+}
+
+function viewEmail(id) {
+    const item = document.querySelector(`.email-item[data-id="${id}"]`);
+    if (!item) return;
+    const existing = item.querySelector('.email-body-expanded');
+    if (existing) { existing.remove(); return; }
+    fetch('/api/emails').then(r => r.json()).then(emails => {
+        const em = emails.find(e => e.id === id);
+        if (!em) return;
+        const div = document.createElement('div');
+        div.className = 'email-body-expanded';
+        div.textContent = em.body;
+        item.appendChild(div);
+    });
+}
+
+async function playEmailOnAir(id) {
+    try {
+        await safeFetch(`/api/email/${id}/play-on-air`, { method: 'POST' });
+        log('Reading email on air (TTS)');
+        loadEmails();
+    } catch (err) {
+        log('Failed to play email: ' + err.message);
+    }
+}
+
+async function deleteEmail(id) {
+    if (!confirm('Delete this email?')) return;
+    try {
+        await safeFetch(`/api/email/${id}`, { method: 'DELETE' });
+        loadEmails();
+    } catch (err) {
+        log('Failed to delete email: ' + err.message);
+    }
+}

make_social_post.py

@@ -0,0 +1,271 @@
+#!/usr/bin/env python3
+"""Generate social media announcement images for Luke at the Roost.
+
+Usage:
+    python make_social_post.py                           # regenerate with defaults
+    python make_social_post.py --title "NEW FEATURE"     # custom title
+    python make_social_post.py --body body_text.txt      # body from file
+
+Outputs square (1080x1080) and landscape (1200x675) PNGs to social_posts/.
+"""
+
+import argparse
+import os
+import textwrap
+from PIL import Image, ImageDraw, ImageFont, ImageOps
+
+SCRIPT_DIR = os.path.dirname(os.path.abspath(__file__))
+COVER = os.path.join(SCRIPT_DIR, "website/images/cover.png")
+OUT_DIR = os.path.join(SCRIPT_DIR, "social_posts")
+
+# Brand colors
+BG = (18, 13, 7)
+ACCENT = (232, 121, 29)
+WHITE = (255, 255, 255)
+MUTED = (175, 165, 150)
+LIGHTER = (220, 215, 205)
+
+# macOS system fonts — swap these on Linux/Windows
+FONT_BLACK = "/System/Library/Fonts/Supplemental/Arial Black.ttf"
+FONT_BOLD = "/System/Library/Fonts/Supplemental/Arial Bold.ttf"
+FONT_REG = "/System/Library/Fonts/Supplemental/Arial.ttf"
+
+
+def load_font(path, size):
+    return ImageFont.truetype(path, size)
+
+
+def text_bbox(draw, text, font):
+    bb = draw.textbbox((0, 0), text, font=font)
+    return bb[2] - bb[0], bb[3] - bb[1], bb[1]  # width, height, y_offset
+
+
+def wrap_text(draw, text, x, y, max_w, font, fill, line_gap=10,
+              cover_right=None, cover_bottom=None):
+    """Word-wrap text onto the image, narrowing lines that overlap the cover.
+
+    line_gap: fixed pixel gap between lines (not a multiplier).
+    Returns y just below the last line of text (no trailing gap)."""
+    words = text.split()
+    lines = []
+    cur = ""
+    cur_y = y
+
+    for word in words:
+        test = f"{cur} {word}".strip()
+        eff_w = max_w
+        if cover_right and cover_bottom and cur_y < cover_bottom:
+            eff_w = cover_right - x - 20
+
+        tw, th, _ = text_bbox(draw, test, font)
+        if tw > eff_w and cur:
+            lines.append((cur, cur_y))
+            _, lh, _ = text_bbox(draw, cur, font)
+            cur_y += lh + line_gap
+            cur = word
+        else:
+            cur = test
+
+    if cur:
+        lines.append((cur, cur_y))
+        _, lh, _ = text_bbox(draw, cur, font)
+
+    for line, ly in lines:
+        draw.text((x, ly), line, font=font, fill=fill)
+
+    return cur_y + lh  # return y just past the last line's bottom
+
+
+def center_text(draw, text, y, canvas_w, font, fill):
+    tw, th, _ = text_bbox(draw, text, font)
+    draw.text(((canvas_w - tw) // 2, y), text, font=font, fill=fill)
+    return y + th
+
+
+def draw_email_box(draw, email, y, canvas_w, font):
+    tw, th, y_off = text_bbox(draw, email, font)
+    px, py = 22, 16
+    box_w = tw + px * 2
+    box_x = (canvas_w - box_w) // 2
+    draw.rounded_rectangle(
+        [box_x, y, box_x + box_w, y + th + py * 2],
+        radius=8, fill=(45, 30, 12), outline=ACCENT, width=2,
+    )
+    draw.text((box_x + px, y + py - y_off), email, font=font, fill=ACCENT)
+    return y + th + py * 2
+
+
+def draw_accent_bars(draw, w, h, thickness):
+    draw.rectangle([0, 0, w, thickness], fill=ACCENT)
+    draw.rectangle([0, h - thickness, w, h], fill=ACCENT)
+
+
+def paste_cover(img, x, y, size, radius):
+    cover = Image.open(COVER).resize((size, size), Image.LANCZOS)
+    mask = Image.new("L", (size, size), 0)
+    ImageDraw.Draw(mask).rounded_rectangle([0, 0, size, size], radius=radius, fill=255)
+    img.paste(cover, (x, y), mask)
+
+
+def make_square(title, paragraphs, email, filename="email_announcement_square.png"):
+    W = 1080
+    img = Image.new("RGB", (W, W), BG)
+    draw = ImageDraw.Draw(img)
+    draw_accent_bars(draw, W, W, 8)
+
+    # Cover image — top right
+    cover_size, cover_x, cover_y = 240, W - 290, 35
+    paste_cover(img, cover_x, cover_y, cover_size, 20)
+    cover_bottom = cover_y + cover_size + 15
+
+    m = 60
+    y = 40
+    tw_full = W - m * 2
+
+    # Header
+    draw.text((m, y), "LUKE AT THE ROOST", font=load_font(FONT_BOLD, 24), fill=ACCENT)
+    y += 30
+    tag = load_font(FONT_REG, 20)
+    draw.text((m, y), "Late-night call-in radio", font=tag, fill=MUTED)
+    draw.text((m, y + 26), "powered by AI", font=tag, fill=MUTED)
+    y += 75
+
+    # Consistent spacing constants
+    LINE_GAP = 12       # between lines within a block
+    SECTION_GAP = 32    # between sections (body→CTA, CTA→footer)
+    PARA_GAP = 26       # between body paragraphs
+    TITLE_GAP = 48      # between title and first body paragraph
+
+    # Title
+    y = wrap_text(draw, title, m, y, tw_full, load_font(FONT_BLACK, 72), WHITE,
+                  line_gap=LINE_GAP, cover_right=cover_x, cover_bottom=cover_bottom)
+    y += TITLE_GAP
+
+    # Body paragraphs
+    body_font = load_font(FONT_REG, 32)
+    colors = [LIGHTER] + [MUTED] * (len(paragraphs) - 1)
+    for i, (para, color) in enumerate(zip(paragraphs, colors)):
+        cr = cover_x if y < cover_bottom else None
+        cb = cover_bottom if y < cover_bottom else None
+        y = wrap_text(draw, para, m, y, tw_full, body_font, color,
+                      line_gap=LINE_GAP, cover_right=cr, cover_bottom=cb)
+        if i < len(paragraphs) - 1:
+            y += PARA_GAP
+
+    y += SECTION_GAP
+
+    # Email CTA
+    y = draw_email_box(draw, email, y, W, load_font(FONT_BOLD, 36))
+    y += SECTION_GAP
+
+    # Footer
+    y = center_text(draw, "New episodes drop daily. Be part of the next one.",
+                    y, W, load_font(FONT_REG, 24), MUTED)
+    y += PARA_GAP
+    info = load_font(FONT_REG, 22)
+    center_text(draw, "lukeattheroost.com", y, W, info, ACCENT)
+    y += PARA_GAP
+    center_text(draw, "Spotify  \u00b7  Apple Podcasts  \u00b7  YouTube  \u00b7  RSS",
+                y, W, info, MUTED)
+
+    os.makedirs(OUT_DIR, exist_ok=True)
+    img.save(os.path.join(OUT_DIR, filename), quality=95)
+    print(f"Square: {filename}")
+
+
+def make_landscape(title, paragraphs, email, filename="email_announcement_twitter.png"):
+    TW, TH = 1200, 675
+    img = Image.new("RGB", (TW, TH), BG)
+    draw = ImageDraw.Draw(img)
+    draw_accent_bars(draw, TW, TH, 6)
+
+    # Cover image — top right
+    cover_size, cover_x, cover_y = 180, TW - 220, 22
+    paste_cover(img, cover_x, cover_y, cover_size, 16)
+    cover_bottom = cover_y + cover_size + 10
+
+    m = 45
+    y = 25
+    tw_full = TW - m * 2
+
+    # Header
+    draw.text((m, y), "LUKE AT THE ROOST", font=load_font(FONT_BOLD, 20), fill=ACCENT)
+    y += 24
+    draw.text((m, y), "Late-night call-in radio powered by AI",
+              font=load_font(FONT_REG, 17), fill=MUTED)
+    y += 38
+
+    # Consistent spacing constants
+    LINE_GAP = 8        # between lines within a block
+    SECTION_GAP = 20    # between sections
+    PARA_GAP = 16       # between body paragraphs
+    TITLE_GAP = 32      # between title and first body paragraph
+
+    # Title
+    y = wrap_text(draw, title, m, y, tw_full, load_font(FONT_BLACK, 50), WHITE,
+                  line_gap=LINE_GAP, cover_right=cover_x, cover_bottom=cover_bottom)
+    y += TITLE_GAP
+
+    # Body paragraphs
+    body_font = load_font(FONT_REG, 23)
+    colors = [LIGHTER] + [MUTED] * (len(paragraphs) - 1)
+    for i, (para, color) in enumerate(zip(paragraphs, colors)):
+        cr = cover_x if y < cover_bottom else None
+        cb = cover_bottom if y < cover_bottom else None
+        y = wrap_text(draw, para, m, y, tw_full, body_font, color,
+                      line_gap=LINE_GAP, cover_right=cr, cover_bottom=cb)
+        if i < len(paragraphs) - 1:
+            y += PARA_GAP
+
+    y += SECTION_GAP
+
+    # Email CTA
+    y = draw_email_box(draw, email, y, TW, load_font(FONT_BOLD, 26))
+    y += SECTION_GAP
+
+    # Footer
+    y = center_text(draw, "New episodes drop daily. Be part of the next one.",
+                    y, TW, load_font(FONT_REG, 19), MUTED)
+    y += PARA_GAP
+    center_text(draw, "lukeattheroost.com  \u00b7  Spotify  \u00b7  Apple Podcasts  \u00b7  YouTube",
+                y, TW, load_font(FONT_REG, 17), (140, 132, 120))
+
+    os.makedirs(OUT_DIR, exist_ok=True)
+    img.save(os.path.join(OUT_DIR, filename), quality=95)
+    print(f"Landscape: {filename}")
+
+
+# --- Default content ---
+
+DEFAULT_TITLE = "NOW ACCEPTING LISTENER EMAILS"
+DEFAULT_EMAIL = "submissions@lukeattheroost.com"
+DEFAULT_PARAGRAPHS = [
+    "Got a story? A question? A hot take that\u2019s been eating at you since midnight? A confession you need to get off your chest? Send it to the show.",
+    "The best listener emails get read live on air during the next episode \u2014 either by Luke himself on the mic, or by one of his robot friends. Your words, on the show, heard by everyone tuning in.",
+    "Can\u2019t call 208-439-LUKE at 2 AM? Don\u2019t want to talk on the phone? Now you\u2019ve got another way to be part of the conversation. Write in anytime \u2014 day or night, long or short, serious or unhinged.",
+]
+
+
+def main():
+    parser = argparse.ArgumentParser(description="Generate social media images")
+    parser.add_argument("--title", default=DEFAULT_TITLE)
+    parser.add_argument("--email", default=DEFAULT_EMAIL)
+    parser.add_argument("--body", help="Text file with paragraphs (blank-line separated)")
+    parser.add_argument("--prefix", default="email_announcement",
+                        help="Output filename prefix")
+    args = parser.parse_args()
+
+    if args.body:
+        with open(args.body) as f:
+            paragraphs = [p.strip() for p in f.read().split("\n\n") if p.strip()]
+    else:
+        paragraphs = DEFAULT_PARAGRAPHS
+
+    make_square(args.title, paragraphs, args.email,
+                filename=f"{args.prefix}_square.png")
+    make_landscape(args.title, paragraphs, args.email,
+                   filename=f"{args.prefix}_twitter.png")
+
+
+if __name__ == "__main__":
+    main()

podcast_stats.py

@@ -0,0 +1,439 @@
+#!/usr/bin/env python3
+"""
+Podcast Stats — Aggregate reviews, comments, likes, and analytics from all platforms.
+
+Usage:
+    python podcast_stats.py              # All platforms
+    python podcast_stats.py --youtube    # YouTube only
+    python podcast_stats.py --apple      # Apple Podcasts only
+    python podcast_stats.py --spotify    # Spotify only
+    python podcast_stats.py --castopod   # Castopod downloads only
+    python podcast_stats.py --comments   # Include full YouTube comments
+    python podcast_stats.py --json       # Output as JSON
+    python podcast_stats.py --json --upload  # Output JSON and upload to BunnyCDN
+"""
+
+import argparse
+import json
+import os
+import re
+import subprocess
+import sys
+from datetime import datetime, timezone
+
+import requests
+from dotenv import load_dotenv
+load_dotenv(os.path.join(os.path.dirname(os.path.abspath(__file__)), ".env"))
+
+YOUTUBE_PLAYLIST = "PLGq4uZyNV1yYH_rcitTTPVysPbC6-7pe-"
+APPLE_PODCAST_ID = "1875205848"
+APPLE_STOREFRONTS = ["us", "gb", "ca", "au"]
+SPOTIFY_SHOW_ID = "0ZrpMigG1fo0CCN7F4YmuF"
+NAS_SSH = "luke@mmgnas-10g"
+NAS_SSH_PORT = "8001"
+DOCKER_BIN = "/share/CACHEDEV1_DATA/.qpkg/container-station/bin/docker"
+CASTOPOD_DB_CONTAINER = "castopod-mariadb-1"
+
+BUNNY_STORAGE_ZONE = "lukeattheroost"
+BUNNY_STORAGE_KEY = os.getenv("BUNNY_STORAGE_KEY", "")
+BUNNY_STORAGE_REGION = "la"
+BUNNY_ACCOUNT_KEY = os.getenv("BUNNY_ACCOUNT_KEY", "")
+
+
+def _find_ytdlp():
+    """Find yt-dlp: check local venv first, then fall back to PATH."""
+    import shutil
+    venv_path = os.path.join(os.path.dirname(os.path.abspath(__file__)), "venv", "bin", "yt-dlp")
+    if os.path.exists(venv_path):
+        return venv_path
+    path_bin = shutil.which("yt-dlp")
+    if path_bin:
+        return path_bin
+    return "yt-dlp"
+
+
+def gather_apple_reviews():
+    all_reviews = []
+    seen_ids = set()
+
+    for storefront in APPLE_STOREFRONTS:
+        url = f"https://itunes.apple.com/{storefront}/rss/customerreviews/id={APPLE_PODCAST_ID}/sortby=mostrecent/json"
+        try:
+            resp = requests.get(url, timeout=15)
+            if resp.status_code != 200:
+                continue
+            data = resp.json()
+        except Exception:
+            continue
+
+        feed = data.get("feed", {})
+        entries = feed.get("entry", [])
+        if not entries:
+            continue
+
+        for entry in entries:
+            if "im:name" in entry and "im:rating" not in entry:
+                continue
+
+            review_id = entry.get("id", {}).get("label", "")
+            if review_id in seen_ids:
+                continue
+            seen_ids.add(review_id)
+
+            author = entry.get("author", {}).get("name", {}).get("label", "Unknown")
+            title = entry.get("title", {}).get("label", "")
+            content = entry.get("content", {}).get("label", "")
+            rating = int(entry.get("im:rating", {}).get("label", "0"))
+            updated = entry.get("updated", {}).get("label", "")
+            date_str = updated[:10] if updated else ""
+
+            all_reviews.append({
+                "author": author,
+                "title": title,
+                "content": content,
+                "rating": rating,
+                "date": date_str,
+                "storefront": storefront.upper(),
+            })
+
+    avg_rating = round(sum(r["rating"] for r in all_reviews) / len(all_reviews), 1) if all_reviews else None
+    return {
+        "avg_rating": avg_rating,
+        "review_count": len(all_reviews),
+        "reviews": all_reviews[:10],
+    }
+
+
+def gather_spotify():
+    result = {"show_title": None, "rating": None, "url": f"https://open.spotify.com/show/{SPOTIFY_SHOW_ID}"}
+
+    try:
+        oembed_url = f"https://open.spotify.com/oembed?url=https://open.spotify.com/show/{SPOTIFY_SHOW_ID}"
+        resp = requests.get(oembed_url, timeout=15)
+        if resp.status_code == 200:
+            data = resp.json()
+            result["show_title"] = data.get("title")
+
+        show_url = f"https://open.spotify.com/show/{SPOTIFY_SHOW_ID}"
+        resp = requests.get(show_url, timeout=15, headers={
+            "User-Agent": "Mozilla/5.0 (Macintosh; Intel Mac OS X 10_15_7)"
+        })
+
+        rating_match = re.search(r'"ratingValue"\s*:\s*"?([\d.]+)"?', resp.text)
+        if rating_match:
+            result["rating"] = float(rating_match.group(1))
+        else:
+            rating_match2 = re.search(r'rating["\s:]*(\d+\.?\d*)\s*/\s*5', resp.text, re.IGNORECASE)
+            if rating_match2:
+                result["rating"] = float(rating_match2.group(1))
+    except Exception:
+        pass
+
+    return result
+
+
+def gather_youtube(include_comments=False):
+    result = {
+        "total_views": 0,
+        "total_likes": 0,
+        "total_comments": 0,
+        "subscribers": None,
+        "videos": [],
+    }
+
+    try:
+        proc = subprocess.run(
+            [_find_ytdlp(), "--dump-json", "--flat-playlist",
+             f"https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list={YOUTUBE_PLAYLIST}"],
+            capture_output=True, text=True, timeout=60
+        )
+        if proc.returncode != 0:
+            return result
+    except (FileNotFoundError, subprocess.TimeoutExpired):
+        return result
+
+    video_ids = []
+    for line in proc.stdout.strip().split("\n"):
+        if not line:
+            continue
+        try:
+            entry = json.loads(line)
+            vid = entry.get("id") or entry.get("url", "").split("=")[-1]
+            if vid:
+                video_ids.append(vid)
+        except json.JSONDecodeError:
+            continue
+
+    if not video_ids:
+        return result
+
+    total_views = 0
+    total_likes = 0
+    total_comments = 0
+    videos = []
+
+    for vid in video_ids:
+        try:
+            cmd = [_find_ytdlp(), "--dump-json", "--no-download", f"https://www.youtube.com/watch?v={vid}"]
+            if include_comments:
+                cmd.insert(2, "--write-comments")
+            vr = subprocess.run(cmd, capture_output=True, text=True, timeout=90)
+            if vr.returncode != 0:
+                continue
+            vdata = json.loads(vr.stdout)
+
+            title = vdata.get("title", "Unknown")
+            views = vdata.get("view_count", 0) or 0
+            likes = vdata.get("like_count", 0) or 0
+            comment_count = vdata.get("comment_count", 0) or 0
+            upload_date = vdata.get("upload_date", "")
+            if upload_date:
+                upload_date = f"{upload_date[:4]}-{upload_date[4:6]}-{upload_date[6:]}"
+
+            comments_list = []
+            if include_comments:
+                for c in (vdata.get("comments") or [])[:5]:
+                    comments_list.append({
+                        "author": c.get("author", "Unknown"),
+                        "text": c.get("text", "")[:200],
+                        "time": c.get("time_text", ""),
+                        "likes": c.get("like_count", 0),
+                    })
+
+            total_views += views
+            total_likes += likes
+            total_comments += comment_count
+
+            videos.append({
+                "title": title,
+                "views": views,
+                "likes": likes,
+                "comments": comment_count,
+                "date": upload_date,
+            })
+        except (subprocess.TimeoutExpired, json.JSONDecodeError):
+            continue
+
+    # Get subscriber count
+    if videos:
+        try:
+            vr = subprocess.run(
+                [_find_ytdlp(), "--dump-json", "--no-download", "--playlist-items", "1",
+                 f"https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list={YOUTUBE_PLAYLIST}"],
+                capture_output=True, text=True, timeout=30
+            )
+            if vr.returncode == 0:
+                ch_data = json.loads(vr.stdout)
+                sub = ch_data.get("channel_follower_count")
+                if sub is not None:
+                    result["subscribers"] = sub
+        except Exception:
+            pass
+
+    result["total_views"] = total_views
+    result["total_likes"] = total_likes
+    result["total_comments"] = total_comments
+    result["videos"] = videos
+    return result
+
+
+def _run_db_query(sql):
+    # If running on NAS (docker socket available), exec directly
+    docker_bin = None
+    for path in [DOCKER_BIN, "/usr/bin/docker", "/usr/local/bin/docker"]:
+        if os.path.exists(path):
+            docker_bin = path
+            break
+
+    db_pass = os.getenv("CASTOPOD_DB_PASS", "")
+    if docker_bin:
+        cmd = [docker_bin, "exec", "-i", CASTOPOD_DB_CONTAINER,
+               "mysql", "-u", "castopod", f"-p{db_pass}", "castopod", "-N"]
+    else:
+        cmd = [
+            "ssh", "-p", NAS_SSH_PORT, NAS_SSH,
+            f"{DOCKER_BIN} exec -i {CASTOPOD_DB_CONTAINER} mysql -u castopod -p{db_pass} castopod -N"
+        ]
+    try:
+        proc = subprocess.run(cmd, input=sql, capture_output=True, text=True, timeout=30)
+        stderr = proc.stderr.strip()
+        stdout = proc.stdout.strip()
+        if proc.returncode != 0 and not stdout:
+            return None, stderr
+        return stdout, None
+    except subprocess.TimeoutExpired:
+        return None, "timeout"
+    except Exception as e:
+        return None, str(e)
+
+
+def gather_castopod():
+    result = {"total_downloads": 0, "unique_listeners": 0, "episodes": []}
+
+    query = (
+        "SELECT p.title, "
+        "(SELECT SUM(hits) FROM cp_analytics_podcasts WHERE podcast_id = p.id), "
+        "(SELECT SUM(unique_listeners) FROM cp_analytics_podcasts WHERE podcast_id = p.id) "
+        "FROM cp_podcasts p WHERE p.handle = 'LukeAtTheRoost' LIMIT 1;"
+    )
+    episode_query = (
+        "SELECT e.title, e.slug, COALESCE(SUM(ae.hits), 0), e.published_at "
+        "FROM cp_episodes e LEFT JOIN cp_analytics_podcasts_by_episode ae ON ae.episode_id = e.id "
+        "WHERE e.podcast_id = (SELECT id FROM cp_podcasts WHERE handle = 'LukeAtTheRoost') "
+        "GROUP BY e.id ORDER BY e.published_at DESC;"
+    )
+
+    out, err = _run_db_query(query)
+    if err or not out:
+        return result
+
+    parts = out.split("\t")
+    if len(parts) >= 3:
+        result["total_downloads"] = int(parts[1]) if parts[1] and parts[1] != "NULL" else 0
+        result["unique_listeners"] = int(parts[2]) if parts[2] and parts[2] != "NULL" else 0
+    elif len(parts) >= 2:
+        result["total_downloads"] = int(parts[1]) if parts[1] and parts[1] != "NULL" else 0
+
+    out, err = _run_db_query(episode_query)
+    if err or not out:
+        return result
+
+    for line in out.strip().split("\n"):
+        cols = line.split("\t")
+        if len(cols) >= 4:
+            result["episodes"].append({
+                "title": cols[0],
+                "downloads": int(cols[2]) if cols[2] else 0,
+                "date": cols[3][:10] if cols[3] else "",
+            })
+
+    return result
+
+
+def print_apple(data):
+    print("\n⭐ APPLE PODCASTS")
+    print("─" * 40)
+    if data["reviews"]:
+        print(f"  Rating: {data['avg_rating']}/5 ({data['review_count']} reviews)")
+        print()
+        for r in data["reviews"]:
+            stars = "★" * r["rating"] + "☆" * (5 - r["rating"])
+            print(f"  {stars} \"{r['title']}\" — {r['author']} ({r['date']}, {r['storefront']})")
+            if r["content"] and r["content"] != r["title"]:
+                content_preview = r["content"][:120]
+                if len(r["content"]) > 120:
+                    content_preview += "..."
+                print(f"    {content_preview}")
+    else:
+        print("  No reviews found")
+
+
+def print_spotify(data):
+    print("\n🎵 SPOTIFY")
+    print("─" * 40)
+    if data["show_title"]:
+        print(f"  Show: {data['show_title']}")
+    if data["rating"]:
+        print(f"  Rating: {data['rating']}/5")
+    else:
+        print("  Rating: Not publicly available (Spotify hides ratings from web)")
+    print(f"  Link: {data['url']}")
+
+
+def print_youtube(data):
+    print("\n📺 YOUTUBE")
+    print("─" * 40)
+    sub_str = f" | Subscribers: {data['subscribers']:,}" if data["subscribers"] else ""
+    print(f"  Total views: {data['total_views']:,} | Likes: {data['total_likes']:,} | Comments: {data['total_comments']:,}{sub_str}")
+    print()
+    for v in data["videos"]:
+        print(f"  {v['title']}")
+        print(f"    {v['views']:,} views, {v['likes']:,} likes, {v['comments']:,} comments — {v['date']}")
+
+
+def print_castopod(data):
+    print("\n📊 DOWNLOADS (Castopod)")
+    print("─" * 40)
+    print(f"  Total downloads: {data['total_downloads']:,} | Unique listeners: {data['unique_listeners']:,}")
+    if data["episodes"]:
+        print()
+        for ep in data["episodes"]:
+            print(f"  {ep['title']} — {ep['downloads']:,} downloads ({ep['date']})")
+
+
+def upload_to_bunnycdn(json_data):
+    storage_url = f"https://{BUNNY_STORAGE_REGION}.storage.bunnycdn.com/{BUNNY_STORAGE_ZONE}/stats.json"
+    resp = requests.put(
+        storage_url,
+        data=json_data,
+        headers={
+            "AccessKey": BUNNY_STORAGE_KEY,
+            "Content-Type": "application/json",
+        },
+        timeout=30,
+    )
+    resp.raise_for_status()
+
+    purge_url = "https://api.bunny.net/purge"
+    requests.post(
+        purge_url,
+        params={"url": "https://cdn.lukeattheroost.com/stats.json"},
+        headers={"AccessKey": BUNNY_ACCOUNT_KEY},
+        timeout=15,
+    )
+    print("Uploaded stats.json to BunnyCDN and purged cache", file=sys.stderr)
+
+
+def main():
+    parser = argparse.ArgumentParser(description="Podcast analytics aggregator")
+    parser.add_argument("--youtube", action="store_true", help="YouTube only")
+    parser.add_argument("--apple", action="store_true", help="Apple Podcasts only")
+    parser.add_argument("--spotify", action="store_true", help="Spotify only")
+    parser.add_argument("--castopod", action="store_true", help="Castopod only")
+    parser.add_argument("--comments", action="store_true", help="Include YouTube comments")
+    parser.add_argument("--json", dest="json_output", action="store_true", help="Output as JSON")
+    parser.add_argument("--upload", action="store_true", help="Upload JSON to BunnyCDN (requires --json)")
+    args = parser.parse_args()
+
+    if args.upload and not args.json_output:
+        print("Error: --upload requires --json", file=sys.stderr)
+        sys.exit(1)
+
+    run_all = not (args.youtube or args.apple or args.spotify or args.castopod)
+
+    results = {}
+    if run_all or args.castopod:
+        results["castopod"] = gather_castopod()
+    if run_all or args.apple:
+        results["apple"] = gather_apple_reviews()
+    if run_all or args.spotify:
+        results["spotify"] = gather_spotify()
+    if run_all or args.youtube:
+        results["youtube"] = gather_youtube(include_comments=args.comments or args.youtube)
+
+    if args.json_output:
+        output = {
+            "updated_at": datetime.now(timezone.utc).strftime("%Y-%m-%dT%H:%M:%SZ"),
+            **results,
+        }
+        json_str = json.dumps(output, indent=2, ensure_ascii=False)
+        print(json_str)
+        if args.upload:
+            upload_to_bunnycdn(json_str)
+    else:
+        print("=" * 45)
+        print("  PODCAST STATS: Luke at the Roost")
+        print("=" * 45)
+        if "castopod" in results:
+            print_castopod(results["castopod"])
+        if "apple" in results:
+            print_apple(results["apple"])
+        if "spotify" in results:
+            print_spotify(results["spotify"])
+        if "youtube" in results:
+            print_youtube(results["youtube"])
+        print()
+
+
+if __name__ == "__main__":
+    main()

postprod.py

@@ -3,7 +3,7 @@
 
 Usage: python postprod.py recordings/2026-02-07_213000/ -o episode.mp3
 
-Processes 5 aligned WAV stems (host, caller, music, sfx, ads) into a
+Processes 6 aligned WAV stems (host, caller, music, sfx, ads, idents) into a
 broadcast-ready MP3 with gap removal, voice compression, music ducking,
 and loudness normalization.
 """
@@ -17,7 +17,7 @@ from pathlib import Path
 import numpy as np
 import soundfile as sf
 
-STEM_NAMES = ["host", "caller", "music", "sfx", "ads"]
+STEM_NAMES = ["host", "caller", "music", "sfx", "ads", "idents"]
 
 
 def load_stems(stems_dir: Path) -> tuple[dict[str, np.ndarray], int]:
@@ -61,23 +61,30 @@ def compute_rms(audio: np.ndarray, window_samples: int) -> np.ndarray:
 
 
 def remove_gaps(stems: dict[str, np.ndarray], sr: int,
-                threshold_s: float = 1.5, crossfade_ms: float = 30) -> dict[str, np.ndarray]:
+                threshold_s: float = 2.0, max_gap_s: float = 15.0,
+                crossfade_ms: float = 30, pad_s: float = 0.5) -> dict[str, np.ndarray]:
     window_ms = 50
     window_samples = int(sr * window_ms / 1000)
     crossfade_samples = int(sr * crossfade_ms / 1000)
 
-    dialog = stems["host"] + stems["caller"]
-    rms = compute_rms(dialog, window_samples)
+    # Detect gaps in everything except music (which always plays).
+    # This catches TTS latency gaps while protecting ad breaks and SFX transitions.
+    content = stems["host"] + stems["caller"] + stems["sfx"] + stems["ads"] + stems["idents"]
+    rms = compute_rms(content, window_samples)
 
-    # Threshold: -60dB or adaptive based on mean RMS
-    mean_rms = np.mean(rms[rms > 0]) if np.any(rms > 0) else 1e-4
-    silence_thresh = min(mean_rms * 0.05, 0.001)
+    # Threshold: percentile-based to sit above the mic noise floor
+    nonzero_rms = rms[rms > 0]
+    if len(nonzero_rms) == 0:
+        print("  No audio detected")
+        return stems
+    noise_floor = np.percentile(nonzero_rms, 20)
+    silence_thresh = noise_floor * 3
 
-    # Find silent regions
     is_silent = rms < silence_thresh
     min_silent_windows = int(threshold_s / (window_ms / 1000))
+    max_silent_windows = int(max_gap_s / (window_ms / 1000))
 
-    # Build list of regions to cut (in samples)
+    # Only cut gaps between threshold-8s — targets TTS latency, not long breaks
     cuts = []
     i = 0
     while i < len(is_silent):
@@ -86,10 +93,11 @@ def remove_gaps(stems: dict[str, np.ndarray], sr: int,
             while i < len(is_silent) and is_silent[i]:
                 i += 1
             length = i - start
-            if length >= min_silent_windows:
-                # Keep a small buffer at edges
-                cut_start = (start + 1) * window_samples
-                cut_end = (i - 1) * window_samples
+            if min_silent_windows <= length <= max_silent_windows:
+                # Leave pad_s of silence so the edit sounds natural
+                pad_samples = int(pad_s * sr)
+                cut_start = (start + 1) * window_samples + pad_samples
+                cut_end = (i - 1) * window_samples - pad_samples
                 if cut_end > cut_start + crossfade_samples * 2:
                     cuts.append((cut_start, cut_end))
         else:
@@ -102,18 +110,18 @@ def remove_gaps(stems: dict[str, np.ndarray], sr: int,
     total_cut = sum(end - start for start, end in cuts) / sr
     print(f"  Removing {len(cuts)} gaps ({total_cut:.1f}s total)")
 
-    # Apply cuts to dialog stems (host, caller, sfx, ads) — not music
-    cut_stems = ["host", "caller", "sfx", "ads"]
+    # Cut dialog/sfx/ads at gap points. Leave music uncut — just trim to fit.
     result = {}
 
-    for name in cut_stems:
+    for name in STEM_NAMES:
+        if name == "music":
+            continue  # handled below
         audio = stems[name]
         pieces = []
         prev_end = 0
         for cut_start, cut_end in cuts:
             if prev_end < cut_start:
                 piece = audio[prev_end:cut_start].copy()
-                # Apply crossfade at join point
                 if pieces and len(piece) > crossfade_samples:
                     fade_in = np.linspace(0, 1, crossfade_samples, dtype=np.float32)
                     piece[:crossfade_samples] *= fade_in
@@ -135,18 +143,143 @@ def remove_gaps(stems: dict[str, np.ndarray], sr: int,
 
         result[name] = np.concatenate(pieces) if pieces else np.array([], dtype=np.float32)
 
-    # Trim music to match new duration, with fade-out at end
+    # Music: leave uncut, just trim to match new duration with fade-out
     new_len = len(result["host"])
-    music = stems["music"][:new_len].copy() if len(stems["music"]) >= new_len else np.pad(stems["music"], (0, max(0, new_len - len(stems["music"]))))
-    fade_samples = int(sr * 2)  # 2s fade out
+    music = stems["music"]
+    if len(music) >= new_len:
+        music = music[:new_len].copy()
+    else:
+        music = np.pad(music, (0, new_len - len(music)))
+    fade_samples = int(sr * 3)
     if len(music) > fade_samples:
-        fade_out = np.linspace(1, 0, fade_samples, dtype=np.float32)
-        music[-fade_samples:] *= fade_out
+        music[-fade_samples:] *= np.linspace(1, 0, fade_samples, dtype=np.float32)
     result["music"] = music
 
     return result
 
 
+def denoise(audio: np.ndarray, sr: int, tmp_dir: Path) -> np.ndarray:
+    """HPF to cut rumble below 80Hz (plosives, HVAC, handling noise)."""
+    in_path = tmp_dir / "host_pre_denoise.wav"
+    out_path = tmp_dir / "host_post_denoise.wav"
+    sf.write(str(in_path), audio, sr)
+
+    af = "highpass=f=80:poles=2"
+    cmd = ["ffmpeg", "-y", "-i", str(in_path), "-af", af, str(out_path)]
+    result = subprocess.run(cmd, capture_output=True, text=True)
+    if result.returncode != 0:
+        print(f"  WARNING: denoise failed: {result.stderr[:200]}")
+        return audio
+
+    denoised, _ = sf.read(str(out_path), dtype="float32")
+    return denoised
+
+
+def deess(audio: np.ndarray, sr: int, tmp_dir: Path) -> np.ndarray:
+    """Reduce sibilance (harsh s/sh/ch sounds) in voice audio."""
+    in_path = tmp_dir / "host_pre_deess.wav"
+    out_path = tmp_dir / "host_post_deess.wav"
+    sf.write(str(in_path), audio, sr)
+
+    # Gentle high-shelf reduction at 5kHz (-4dB) to tame sibilance
+    # Single-pass, no phase issues unlike split-band approaches
+    af = "equalizer=f=5500:t=h:w=2000:g=-4"
+    cmd = ["ffmpeg", "-y", "-i", str(in_path), "-af", af, str(out_path)]
+    result = subprocess.run(cmd, capture_output=True, text=True)
+    if result.returncode != 0:
+        print(f"  WARNING: de-essing failed: {result.stderr[:200]}")
+        return audio
+
+    deessed, _ = sf.read(str(out_path), dtype="float32")
+    return deessed
+
+
+def reduce_breaths(audio: np.ndarray, sr: int, reduction_db: float = -12) -> np.ndarray:
+    """Reduce loud breaths between speech phrases."""
+    window_ms = 30
+    window_samples = int(sr * window_ms / 1000)
+    rms = compute_rms(audio, window_samples)
+
+    if not np.any(rms > 0):
+        return audio
+
+    # Speech threshold: breaths are quieter than speech but louder than silence
+    nonzero = rms[rms > 0]
+    speech_level = np.percentile(nonzero, 70)
+    silence_level = np.percentile(nonzero, 10)
+    breath_upper = speech_level * 0.3  # below 30% of speech level
+    breath_lower = silence_level * 2   # above 2x silence
+
+    if breath_upper <= breath_lower:
+        return audio
+
+    # Detect breath-length bursts (0.15-0.8s) in the breath amplitude range
+    min_windows = int(150 / window_ms)
+    max_windows = int(800 / window_ms)
+
+    breath_gain = 10 ** (reduction_db / 20)
+    gain_envelope = np.ones(len(rms), dtype=np.float32)
+
+    i = 0
+    breath_count = 0
+    while i < len(rms):
+        if breath_lower < rms[i] < breath_upper:
+            start = i
+            while i < len(rms) and breath_lower < rms[i] < breath_upper:
+                i += 1
+            length = i - start
+            if min_windows <= length <= max_windows:
+                gain_envelope[start:i] = breath_gain
+                breath_count += 1
+        else:
+            i += 1
+
+    if breath_count == 0:
+        return audio
+
+    print(f"  Reduced {breath_count} breaths by {reduction_db}dB")
+
+    # Smooth transitions (10ms ramp)
+    ramp = max(1, int(10 / window_ms))
+    smoothed = gain_envelope.copy()
+    for i in range(1, len(smoothed)):
+        if smoothed[i] < smoothed[i - 1]:
+            smoothed[i] = smoothed[i - 1] + (smoothed[i] - smoothed[i - 1]) / ramp
+        elif smoothed[i] > smoothed[i - 1]:
+            smoothed[i] = smoothed[i - 1] + (smoothed[i] - smoothed[i - 1]) / ramp
+
+    # Expand to sample level
+    gain_samples = np.repeat(smoothed, window_samples)[:len(audio)]
+    if len(gain_samples) < len(audio):
+        gain_samples = np.pad(gain_samples, (0, len(audio) - len(gain_samples)), constant_values=1.0)
+
+    return (audio * gain_samples).astype(np.float32)
+
+
+def limit_stem(audio: np.ndarray, sr: int, tmp_dir: Path,
+               stem_name: str) -> np.ndarray:
+    """Hard-limit a stem to -1dB true peak to prevent clipping."""
+    peak = np.max(np.abs(audio))
+    if peak <= 0.89:  # already below -1dB
+        return audio
+    in_path = tmp_dir / f"{stem_name}_pre_limit.wav"
+    out_path = tmp_dir / f"{stem_name}_post_limit.wav"
+    sf.write(str(in_path), audio, sr)
+    cmd = [
+        "ffmpeg", "-y", "-i", str(in_path),
+        "-af", "alimiter=limit=-1dB:level=false:attack=0.1:release=50",
+        str(out_path),
+    ]
+    result = subprocess.run(cmd, capture_output=True, text=True)
+    if result.returncode != 0:
+        print(f"  WARNING: limiting failed for {stem_name}: {result.stderr[:200]}")
+        return audio
+    limited, _ = sf.read(str(out_path), dtype="float32")
+    peak_db = 20 * np.log10(peak)
+    print(f"  {stem_name}: peak was {peak_db:+.1f}dB, limited to -1dB")
+    return limited
+
+
 def compress_voice(audio: np.ndarray, sr: int, tmp_dir: Path,
                    stem_name: str) -> np.ndarray:
     in_path = tmp_dir / f"{stem_name}_pre_comp.wav"
@@ -154,9 +287,15 @@ def compress_voice(audio: np.ndarray, sr: int, tmp_dir: Path,
 
     sf.write(str(in_path), audio, sr)
 
+    if stem_name == "host":
+        # Spoken word compression: lower threshold, higher ratio, more makeup
+        af = "acompressor=threshold=-28dB:ratio=4:attack=5:release=600:makeup=8dB"
+    else:
+        af = "acompressor=threshold=-24dB:ratio=2.5:attack=10:release=800:makeup=6dB"
+
     cmd = [
         "ffmpeg", "-y", "-i", str(in_path),
-        "-af", "acompressor=threshold=-24dB:ratio=3:attack=5:release=100:makeup=6dB",
+        "-af", af,
         str(out_path),
     ]
     result = subprocess.run(cmd, capture_output=True, text=True)
@@ -168,9 +307,32 @@ def compress_voice(audio: np.ndarray, sr: int, tmp_dir: Path,
     return compressed
 
 
+def phone_eq(audio: np.ndarray, sr: int, tmp_dir: Path) -> np.ndarray:
+    """Apply telephone EQ to make caller sound like a phone call."""
+    in_path = tmp_dir / "caller_pre_phone.wav"
+    out_path = tmp_dir / "caller_post_phone.wav"
+    sf.write(str(in_path), audio, sr)
+
+    # Bandpass 300-3400Hz (telephone bandwidth) + slight mid boost for presence
+    af = (
+        "highpass=f=300:poles=2,"
+        "lowpass=f=3400:poles=2,"
+        "equalizer=f=1000:t=q:w=0.8:g=4"
+    )
+    cmd = ["ffmpeg", "-y", "-i", str(in_path), "-af", af, str(out_path)]
+    result = subprocess.run(cmd, capture_output=True, text=True)
+    if result.returncode != 0:
+        print(f"  WARNING: phone EQ failed: {result.stderr[:200]}")
+        return audio
+
+    filtered, _ = sf.read(str(out_path), dtype="float32")
+    return filtered
+
+
 def apply_ducking(music: np.ndarray, dialog: np.ndarray, sr: int,
-                  duck_db: float = -12, attack_ms: float = 200,
-                  release_ms: float = 500) -> np.ndarray:
+                  duck_db: float = -20, attack_ms: float = 200,
+                  release_ms: float = 3000,
+                  mute_signal: np.ndarray | None = None) -> np.ndarray:
     window_ms = 50
     window_samples = int(sr * window_ms / 1000)
     rms = compute_rms(dialog, window_samples)
@@ -184,6 +346,22 @@ def apply_ducking(music: np.ndarray, dialog: np.ndarray, sr: int,
     is_speech = rms > speech_thresh
     target_gain = np.where(is_speech, duck_gain, 1.0).astype(np.float32)
 
+    # Mute music completely during ads with lookahead and tail
+    if mute_signal is not None:
+        mute_rms = compute_rms(mute_signal, window_samples)
+        mute_thresh = np.mean(mute_rms[mute_rms > 0]) * 0.1 if np.any(mute_rms > 0) else 1e-4
+        is_ads = mute_rms > mute_thresh
+        # Expand ad regions: 2s before (fade out music before ad) and 2s after (don't resume immediately)
+        lookahead_windows = int(2000 / window_ms)
+        tail_windows = int(2000 / window_ms)
+        expanded_ads = is_ads.copy()
+        for i in range(len(is_ads)):
+            if is_ads[i]:
+                start = max(0, i - lookahead_windows)
+                end = min(len(expanded_ads), i + tail_windows + 1)
+                expanded_ads[start:end] = True
+        target_gain[expanded_ads] = 0.0
+
     # Smooth the envelope
     attack_windows = max(1, int(attack_ms / window_ms))
     release_windows = max(1, int(release_ms / window_ms))
@@ -206,32 +384,255 @@ def apply_ducking(music: np.ndarray, dialog: np.ndarray, sr: int,
     return music * gain_samples
 
 
+def match_voice_levels(stems: dict[str, np.ndarray], target_rms: float = 0.1) -> dict[str, np.ndarray]:
+    """Normalize host, caller, and ads stems to the same RMS level."""
+    for name in ["host", "caller", "ads", "idents"]:
+        audio = stems[name]
+        # Only measure non-silent portions
+        active = audio[np.abs(audio) > 0.001]
+        if len(active) == 0:
+            continue
+        current_rms = np.sqrt(np.mean(active ** 2))
+        if current_rms < 1e-6:
+            continue
+        gain = target_rms / current_rms
+        # Clamp gain to avoid extreme boosts on very quiet stems
+        gain = min(gain, 10.0)
+        stems[name] = np.clip(audio * gain, -1.0, 1.0).astype(np.float32)
+        db_change = 20 * np.log10(gain) if gain > 0 else 0
+        print(f"  {name}: RMS {current_rms:.4f} -> {target_rms:.4f} ({db_change:+.1f}dB)")
+    return stems
+
+
 def mix_stems(stems: dict[str, np.ndarray],
-              levels: dict[str, float] | None = None) -> np.ndarray:
+              levels: dict[str, float] | None = None,
+              stereo_imaging: bool = True) -> np.ndarray:
     if levels is None:
-        levels = {"host": 0, "caller": 0, "music": -6, "sfx": -3, "ads": 0}
+        levels = {"host": 0, "caller": 0, "music": -6, "sfx": -10, "ads": 0, "idents": 0}
 
     gains = {name: 10 ** (db / 20) for name, db in levels.items()}
 
-    # Find max length
     max_len = max(len(s) for s in stems.values())
 
+    if stereo_imaging:
+        # Pan positions: -1.0 = full left, 0.0 = center, 1.0 = full right
+        # Using constant-power panning law
+        pans = {"host": 0.0, "caller": 0.15, "music": 0.0, "sfx": 0.0, "ads": 0.0, "idents": 0.0}
+        # Music gets stereo width via slight L/R decorrelation
+        music_width = 0.3
+
+        left = np.zeros(max_len, dtype=np.float64)
+        right = np.zeros(max_len, dtype=np.float64)
+
+        for name in STEM_NAMES:
+            audio = stems[name]
+            if len(audio) < max_len:
+                audio = np.pad(audio, (0, max_len - len(audio)))
+            signal = audio.astype(np.float64) * gains.get(name, 1.0)
+
+            if name == "music" and music_width > 0:
+                # Widen music: delay right channel by ~0.5ms for Haas effect
+                delay_samples = int(0.0005 * 44100)  # ~22 samples at 44.1kHz
+                left += signal * (1 + music_width * 0.5)
+                right_delayed = np.zeros_like(signal)
+                right_delayed[delay_samples:] = signal[:-delay_samples] if delay_samples > 0 else signal
+                right += right_delayed * (1 + music_width * 0.5)
+            else:
+                pan = pans.get(name, 0.0)
+                # Constant-power pan: L = cos(angle), R = sin(angle)
+                angle = (pan + 1) * np.pi / 4  # 0 to pi/2
+                l_gain = np.cos(angle)
+                r_gain = np.sin(angle)
+                left += signal * l_gain
+                right += signal * r_gain
+
+        left = np.clip(left, -1.0, 1.0).astype(np.float32)
+        right = np.clip(right, -1.0, 1.0).astype(np.float32)
+        stereo = np.column_stack([left, right])
+    else:
         mix = np.zeros(max_len, dtype=np.float64)
         for name in STEM_NAMES:
             audio = stems[name]
             if len(audio) < max_len:
                 audio = np.pad(audio, (0, max_len - len(audio)))
             mix += audio.astype(np.float64) * gains.get(name, 1.0)
-
-    # Stereo (mono duplicated to both channels)
         mix = np.clip(mix, -1.0, 1.0).astype(np.float32)
         stereo = np.column_stack([mix, mix])
+
     return stereo
 
 
+def bus_compress(audio: np.ndarray, sr: int, tmp_dir: Path) -> np.ndarray:
+    """Gentle bus compression on the final stereo mix to glue everything together."""
+    in_path = tmp_dir / "bus_pre.wav"
+    out_path = tmp_dir / "bus_post.wav"
+    sf.write(str(in_path), audio, sr)
+
+    # Gentle glue compressor: slow attack lets transients through,
+    # low ratio just levels out the overall dynamics
+    af = "acompressor=threshold=-20dB:ratio=2:attack=20:release=300:makeup=2dB"
+    cmd = ["ffmpeg", "-y", "-i", str(in_path), "-af", af, str(out_path)]
+    result = subprocess.run(cmd, capture_output=True, text=True)
+    if result.returncode != 0:
+        print(f"  WARNING: bus compression failed: {result.stderr[:200]}")
+        return audio
+
+    compressed, _ = sf.read(str(out_path), dtype="float32")
+    return compressed
+
+
+def trim_silence(audio: np.ndarray, sr: int, pad_s: float = 0.5,
+                 threshold_db: float = -50) -> np.ndarray:
+    """Trim leading and trailing silence from stereo audio."""
+    threshold = 10 ** (threshold_db / 20)
+    # Use the louder channel for detection
+    mono = np.max(np.abs(audio), axis=1) if audio.ndim > 1 else np.abs(audio)
+
+    # Smoothed envelope for more reliable detection
+    window = int(sr * 0.05)  # 50ms window
+    if len(mono) > window:
+        kernel = np.ones(window) / window
+        envelope = np.convolve(mono, kernel, mode='same')
+    else:
+        envelope = mono
+
+    above = np.where(envelope > threshold)[0]
+    if len(above) == 0:
+        return audio
+
+    pad_samples = int(pad_s * sr)
+    start = max(0, above[0] - pad_samples)
+    end = min(len(audio), above[-1] + pad_samples)
+
+    trimmed_start = start / sr
+    trimmed_end = (len(audio) - end) / sr
+    if trimmed_start > 0.1 or trimmed_end > 0.1:
+        print(f"  Trimmed {trimmed_start:.1f}s from start, {trimmed_end:.1f}s from end")
+    else:
+        print("  No significant silence to trim")
+
+    return audio[start:end]
+
+
+def apply_fades(audio: np.ndarray, sr: int,
+                fade_in_s: float = 1.5, fade_out_s: float = 3.0) -> np.ndarray:
+    """Apply fade in/out to stereo audio using equal-power curve."""
+    audio = audio.copy()
+
+    # Fade in
+    fade_in_samples = int(fade_in_s * sr)
+    if fade_in_samples > 0 and fade_in_samples < len(audio):
+        # Equal-power: sine curve for smooth perceived volume change
+        curve = np.sin(np.linspace(0, np.pi / 2, fade_in_samples)).astype(np.float32)
+        if audio.ndim > 1:
+            audio[:fade_in_samples] *= curve[:, np.newaxis]
+        else:
+            audio[:fade_in_samples] *= curve
+
+    # Fade out
+    fade_out_samples = int(fade_out_s * sr)
+    if fade_out_samples > 0 and fade_out_samples < len(audio):
+        curve = np.sin(np.linspace(np.pi / 2, 0, fade_out_samples)).astype(np.float32)
+        if audio.ndim > 1:
+            audio[-fade_out_samples:] *= curve[:, np.newaxis]
+        else:
+            audio[-fade_out_samples:] *= curve
+
+    print(f"  Fade in: {fade_in_s}s, fade out: {fade_out_s}s")
+    return audio
+
+
+def detect_chapters(stems: dict[str, np.ndarray], sr: int) -> list[dict]:
+    """Auto-detect chapter boundaries from stem activity."""
+    window_s = 2  # 2-second analysis windows
+    window_samples = int(sr * window_s)
+    n_windows = min(len(s) for s in stems.values()) // window_samples
+
+    if n_windows == 0:
+        return []
+
+    chapters = []
+    current_type = None
+    chapter_start = 0
+
+    for w in range(n_windows):
+        start = w * window_samples
+        end = start + window_samples
+
+        ads_rms = np.sqrt(np.mean(stems["ads"][start:end] ** 2))
+        caller_rms = np.sqrt(np.mean(stems["caller"][start:end] ** 2))
+        host_rms = np.sqrt(np.mean(stems["host"][start:end] ** 2))
+
+        # Classify this window
+        if ads_rms > 0.005:
+            seg_type = "Ad Break"
+        elif caller_rms > 0.005:
+            seg_type = "Caller"
+        elif host_rms > 0.005:
+            seg_type = "Host"
+        else:
+            seg_type = current_type  # keep current during silence
+
+        if seg_type != current_type and seg_type is not None:
+            if current_type is not None:
+                chapters.append({
+                    "title": current_type,
+                    "start_ms": int(chapter_start * 1000),
+                    "end_ms": int(w * window_s * 1000),
+                })
+            current_type = seg_type
+            chapter_start = w * window_s
+
+    # Final chapter
+    if current_type is not None:
+        chapters.append({
+            "title": current_type,
+            "start_ms": int(chapter_start * 1000),
+            "end_ms": int(n_windows * window_s * 1000),
+        })
+
+    # Merge consecutive chapters of same type
+    merged = []
+    for ch in chapters:
+        if merged and merged[-1]["title"] == ch["title"]:
+            merged[-1]["end_ms"] = ch["end_ms"]
+        else:
+            merged.append(ch)
+
+    # Number duplicate types (Caller 1, Caller 2, etc.)
+    type_counts = {}
+    for ch in merged:
+        base = ch["title"]
+        type_counts[base] = type_counts.get(base, 0) + 1
+        if type_counts[base] > 1 or base in ("Caller", "Ad Break"):
+            ch["title"] = f"{base} {type_counts[base]}"
+
+    # Filter out very short chapters (< 10s)
+    merged = [ch for ch in merged if ch["end_ms"] - ch["start_ms"] >= 10000]
+
+    return merged
+
+
+def write_ffmpeg_chapters(chapters: list[dict], output_path: Path):
+    """Write an ffmpeg-format metadata file with chapter markers."""
+    lines = [";FFMETADATA1"]
+    for ch in chapters:
+        lines.append("[CHAPTER]")
+        lines.append("TIMEBASE=1/1000")
+        lines.append(f"START={ch['start_ms']}")
+        lines.append(f"END={ch['end_ms']}")
+        lines.append(f"title={ch['title']}")
+    output_path.write_text("\n".join(lines) + "\n")
+
+
 def normalize_and_export(audio: np.ndarray, sr: int, output_path: Path,
                          target_lufs: float = -16, bitrate: str = "128k",
-                         tmp_dir: Path = None):
+                         tmp_dir: Path = None,
+                         metadata: dict | None = None,
+                         chapters_file: Path | None = None):
+    import json
+    import shutil
+
     tmp_wav = tmp_dir / "pre_loudnorm.wav"
     sf.write(str(tmp_wav), audio, sr)
 
@@ -244,8 +645,6 @@ def normalize_and_export(audio: np.ndarray, sr: int, output_path: Path,
     result = subprocess.run(measure_cmd, capture_output=True, text=True)
     stderr = result.stderr
 
-    # Parse loudnorm output
-    import json
     json_start = stderr.rfind("{")
     json_end = stderr.rfind("}") + 1
     if json_start >= 0 and json_end > json_start:
@@ -257,7 +656,7 @@ def normalize_and_export(audio: np.ndarray, sr: int, output_path: Path,
             "input_thresh": "-34",
         }
 
-    # Pass 2: apply normalization + limiter + export MP3
+    # Pass 2: normalize + limiter + export MP3
     loudnorm_filter = (
         f"loudnorm=I={target_lufs}:TP=-1:LRA=11"
         f":measured_I={stats['input_i']}"
@@ -266,29 +665,79 @@ def normalize_and_export(audio: np.ndarray, sr: int, output_path: Path,
         f":measured_thresh={stats['input_thresh']}"
         f":linear=true"
     )
-    export_cmd = [
-        "ffmpeg", "-y", "-i", str(tmp_wav),
+
+    export_cmd = ["ffmpeg", "-y", "-i", str(tmp_wav)]
+
+    if chapters_file and chapters_file.exists():
+        export_cmd += ["-i", str(chapters_file), "-map_metadata", "1"]
+
+    export_cmd += [
         "-af", f"{loudnorm_filter},alimiter=limit=-1dB:level=false",
         "-ab", bitrate, "-ar", str(sr),
-        str(output_path),
     ]
+
+    if metadata:
+        for key, value in metadata.items():
+            if value and not key.startswith("_"):
+                export_cmd += ["-metadata", f"{key}={value}"]
+
+    export_cmd.append(str(output_path))
     result = subprocess.run(export_cmd, capture_output=True, text=True)
     if result.returncode != 0:
         print(f"  ERROR: export failed: {result.stderr[:300]}")
         sys.exit(1)
 
+    # Embed artwork as a second pass (avoids complex multi-input mapping)
+    artwork = metadata.get("_artwork") if metadata else None
+    if artwork and Path(artwork).exists():
+        tmp_mp3 = tmp_dir / "with_art.mp3"
+        art_cmd = [
+            "ffmpeg", "-y", "-i", str(output_path), "-i", artwork,
+            "-map", "0:a", "-map", "1:0",
+            "-c:a", "copy", "-id3v2_version", "3",
+            "-metadata:s:v", "title=Album cover",
+            "-metadata:s:v", "comment=Cover (front)",
+            "-disposition:v", "attached_pic",
+            str(tmp_mp3),
+        ]
+        art_result = subprocess.run(art_cmd, capture_output=True, text=True)
+        if art_result.returncode == 0:
+            shutil.move(str(tmp_mp3), str(output_path))
+            print(f"  Embedded artwork: {artwork}")
+        else:
+            print(f"  WARNING: artwork embedding failed: {art_result.stderr[:200]}")
+
 
 def main():
     parser = argparse.ArgumentParser(description="Post-production for AI podcast stems")
     parser.add_argument("stems_dir", type=Path, help="Directory containing stem WAV files")
     parser.add_argument("-o", "--output", type=str, default="episode.mp3", help="Output filename")
-    parser.add_argument("--gap-threshold", type=float, default=1.5, help="Min silence to cut (seconds)")
-    parser.add_argument("--duck-amount", type=float, default=-12, help="Music duck in dB")
+    parser.add_argument("--gap-threshold", type=float, default=2.0, help="Min silence to cut (seconds)")
+    parser.add_argument("--duck-amount", type=float, default=-20, help="Music duck in dB")
     parser.add_argument("--target-lufs", type=float, default=-16, help="Target loudness (LUFS)")
     parser.add_argument("--bitrate", type=str, default="128k", help="MP3 bitrate")
+    parser.add_argument("--fade-in", type=float, default=1.5, help="Fade in duration (seconds)")
+    parser.add_argument("--fade-out", type=float, default=3.0, help="Fade out duration (seconds)")
+
+    # Metadata
+    parser.add_argument("--title", type=str, help="Episode title (ID3 tag)")
+    parser.add_argument("--artist", type=str, default="Luke at the Roost", help="Artist name")
+    parser.add_argument("--album", type=str, default="Luke at the Roost", help="Album/show name")
+    parser.add_argument("--episode-num", type=str, help="Episode number (track tag)")
+    parser.add_argument("--artwork", type=str, help="Path to artwork image (embedded in MP3)")
+
+    # Skip flags
     parser.add_argument("--no-gap-removal", action="store_true", help="Skip gap removal")
+    parser.add_argument("--no-denoise", action="store_true", help="Skip noise reduction + HPF")
+    parser.add_argument("--no-deess", action="store_true", help="Skip de-essing")
+    parser.add_argument("--no-breath-reduction", action="store_true", help="Skip breath reduction")
     parser.add_argument("--no-compression", action="store_true", help="Skip voice compression")
+    parser.add_argument("--no-phone-eq", action="store_true", help="Skip caller phone EQ")
     parser.add_argument("--no-ducking", action="store_true", help="Skip music ducking")
+    parser.add_argument("--no-stereo", action="store_true", help="Skip stereo imaging (mono mix)")
+    parser.add_argument("--no-trim", action="store_true", help="Skip silence trimming")
+    parser.add_argument("--no-fade", action="store_true", help="Skip fade in/out")
+    parser.add_argument("--no-chapters", action="store_true", help="Skip chapter markers")
     parser.add_argument("--dry-run", action="store_true", help="Show what would be done")
     args = parser.parse_args()
 
@@ -303,28 +752,59 @@ def main():
         output_path = stems_dir / output_path
 
     print(f"Post-production: {stems_dir} -> {output_path}")
-    print(f"  Gap removal: {'skip' if args.no_gap_removal else f'threshold={args.gap_threshold}s'}")
-    print(f"  Compression: {'skip' if args.no_compression else 'on'}")
-    print(f"  Ducking: {'skip' if args.no_ducking else f'{args.duck_amount}dB'}")
-    print(f"  Loudness: {args.target_lufs} LUFS, bitrate: {args.bitrate}")
 
     if args.dry_run:
         print("Dry run — exiting")
         return
 
+    total_steps = 15
+
     # Step 1: Load
-    print("\n[1/6] Loading stems...")
+    print(f"\n[1/{total_steps}] Loading stems...")
     stems, sr = load_stems(stems_dir)
 
     # Step 2: Gap removal
-    print("\n[2/6] Gap removal...")
+    print(f"\n[2/{total_steps}] Gap removal...")
     if not args.no_gap_removal:
         stems = remove_gaps(stems, sr, threshold_s=args.gap_threshold)
     else:
         print("  Skipped")
 
-    # Step 3: Voice compression
-    print("\n[3/6] Voice compression...")
+    # Step 3: Limit ads + SFX (prevent clipping)
+    print(f"\n[3/{total_steps}] Limiting ads + SFX...")
+    with tempfile.TemporaryDirectory() as tmp:
+        tmp_dir = Path(tmp)
+        for name in ["ads", "sfx", "idents"]:
+            if np.any(stems[name] != 0):
+                stems[name] = limit_stem(stems[name], sr, tmp_dir, name)
+
+    # Step 4: Host mic noise reduction + HPF
+    print(f"\n[4/{total_steps}] Host noise reduction + HPF...")
+    if not args.no_denoise and np.any(stems["host"] != 0):
+        with tempfile.TemporaryDirectory() as tmp:
+            stems["host"] = denoise(stems["host"], sr, Path(tmp))
+            print("  Applied")
+    else:
+        print("  Skipped" if args.no_denoise else "  No host audio")
+
+    # Step 5: De-essing
+    print(f"\n[5/{total_steps}] De-essing host...")
+    if not args.no_deess and np.any(stems["host"] != 0):
+        with tempfile.TemporaryDirectory() as tmp:
+            stems["host"] = deess(stems["host"], sr, Path(tmp))
+            print("  Applied")
+    else:
+        print("  Skipped" if args.no_deess else "  No host audio")
+
+    # Step 6: Breath reduction
+    print(f"\n[6/{total_steps}] Breath reduction...")
+    if not args.no_breath_reduction and np.any(stems["host"] != 0):
+        stems["host"] = reduce_breaths(stems["host"], sr)
+    else:
+        print("  Skipped" if args.no_breath_reduction else "  No host audio")
+
+    # Step 7: Voice compression
+    print(f"\n[7/{total_steps}] Voice compression...")
     if not args.no_compression:
         with tempfile.TemporaryDirectory() as tmp:
             tmp_dir = Path(tmp)
@@ -335,30 +815,103 @@ def main():
     else:
         print("  Skipped")
 
-    # Step 4: Music ducking
-    print("\n[4/6] Music ducking...")
+    # Step 8: Phone EQ on caller
+    print(f"\n[8/{total_steps}] Phone EQ on caller...")
+    if not args.no_phone_eq and np.any(stems["caller"] != 0):
+        with tempfile.TemporaryDirectory() as tmp:
+            stems["caller"] = phone_eq(stems["caller"], sr, Path(tmp))
+            print("  Applied")
+    else:
+        print("  Skipped" if args.no_phone_eq else "  No caller audio")
+
+    # Step 9: Match voice levels
+    print(f"\n[9/{total_steps}] Matching voice levels...")
+    stems = match_voice_levels(stems)
+
+    # Step 10: Music ducking
+    print(f"\n[10/{total_steps}] Music ducking...")
     if not args.no_ducking:
         dialog = stems["host"] + stems["caller"]
         if np.any(dialog != 0) and np.any(stems["music"] != 0):
-            stems["music"] = apply_ducking(stems["music"], dialog, sr, duck_db=args.duck_amount)
+            stems["music"] = apply_ducking(stems["music"], dialog, sr, duck_db=args.duck_amount,
+                                           mute_signal=stems["ads"] + stems["idents"])
             print("  Applied")
         else:
             print("  No dialog or music to duck")
     else:
         print("  Skipped")
 
-    # Step 5: Mix
-    print("\n[5/6] Mixing...")
-    stereo = mix_stems(stems)
-    print(f"  Mixed to stereo: {len(stereo)} samples ({len(stereo)/sr:.1f}s)")
+    # Step 11: Stereo mix
+    print(f"\n[11/{total_steps}] Mixing...")
+    stereo = mix_stems(stems, stereo_imaging=not args.no_stereo)
+    imaging = "stereo" if not args.no_stereo else "mono"
+    print(f"  Mixed to {imaging}: {len(stereo)} samples ({len(stereo)/sr:.1f}s)")
 
-    # Step 6: Normalize + export
-    print("\n[6/6] Loudness normalization + export...")
+    # Step 12: Bus compression
+    print(f"\n[12/{total_steps}] Bus compression...")
     with tempfile.TemporaryDirectory() as tmp:
+        stereo = bus_compress(stereo, sr, Path(tmp))
+        print("  Applied")
+
+    # Step 13: Silence trimming
+    print(f"\n[13/{total_steps}] Trimming silence...")
+    if not args.no_trim:
+        stereo = trim_silence(stereo, sr)
+    else:
+        print("  Skipped")
+
+    # Step 14: Fade in/out
+    print(f"\n[14/{total_steps}] Fades...")
+    if not args.no_fade:
+        stereo = apply_fades(stereo, sr, fade_in_s=args.fade_in, fade_out_s=args.fade_out)
+    else:
+        print("  Skipped")
+
+    # Step 15: Normalize + export with metadata and chapters
+    print(f"\n[15/{total_steps}] Loudness normalization + export...")
+
+    # Build metadata dict
+    meta = {}
+    if args.title:
+        meta["title"] = args.title
+    if args.artist:
+        meta["artist"] = args.artist
+    if args.album:
+        meta["album"] = args.album
+    if args.episode_num:
+        meta["track"] = args.episode_num
+    if args.artwork:
+        meta["_artwork"] = args.artwork
+
+    # Auto-detect chapters
+    chapters = []
+    if not args.no_chapters:
+        chapters = detect_chapters(stems, sr)
+        if chapters:
+            print(f"  Detected {len(chapters)} chapters:")
+            for ch in chapters:
+                start_s = ch["start_ms"] / 1000
+                end_s = ch["end_ms"] / 1000
+                print(f"    {start_s:6.1f}s - {end_s:6.1f}s  {ch['title']}")
+        else:
+            print("  No chapters detected")
+    else:
+        print("  Skipped")
+
+    with tempfile.TemporaryDirectory() as tmp:
+        tmp_dir = Path(tmp)
+
+        chapters_file = None
+        if chapters:
+            chapters_file = tmp_dir / "chapters.txt"
+            write_ffmpeg_chapters(chapters, chapters_file)
+
         normalize_and_export(stereo, sr, output_path,
                              target_lufs=args.target_lufs,
                              bitrate=args.bitrate,
-                             tmp_dir=Path(tmp))
+                             tmp_dir=tmp_dir,
+                             metadata=meta if meta else None,
+                             chapters_file=chapters_file)
 
     print(f"\nDone! Output: {output_path}")
 

relabel_transcripts.py

@@ -0,0 +1,194 @@
+#!/usr/bin/env python3
+"""Re-label podcast transcripts with LUKE:/CALLER: speaker labels using LLM."""
+
+import os, re, sys, time, requests
+from pathlib import Path
+from dotenv import load_dotenv
+
+load_dotenv()
+API_KEY = os.getenv("OPENROUTER_API_KEY")
+TRANSCRIPT_DIR = Path(__file__).parent / "website" / "transcripts"
+MODEL = "anthropic/claude-3.5-sonnet"
+CHUNK_SIZE = 8000
+
+PROMPT = """Insert speaker labels into this radio show transcript. The show is "Luke at the Roost". The host is LUKE. Callers call in one at a time.
+
+CRITICAL: Output EVERY SINGLE WORD from the input. Do NOT summarize, shorten, paraphrase, or skip ANY text. The output must contain the EXACT SAME words as the input, with ONLY speaker labels and line breaks added.
+
+At each speaker change, insert a blank line and the new speaker's label (e.g., "LUKE:" or "REGGIE:").
+
+Speaker identification:
+- LUKE is the host — he introduces callers, asks questions, does sponsor reads, opens and closes the show
+- Callers are introduced by name by Luke (e.g., "let's talk to Earl", "next up Brenda")
+- Use caller FIRST NAME in caps as the label
+- When Luke says "Tell me about..." or asks a question, that's LUKE
+- When someone responds with their story/opinion/answer, that's the CALLER
+
+Output format — ONLY the labeled transcript with blank lines between turns. No notes, no commentary."""
+
+CONTEXT_PROMPT = "\n\nCONTEXT: The previous section ended with the speaker {speaker}. Last few words: \"{tail}\""
+
+
+def chunk_text(text, max_chars=CHUNK_SIZE):
+    if len(text) <= max_chars:
+        return [text]
+
+    chunks = []
+    while text:
+        if len(text) <= max_chars:
+            # Merge tiny tails into the previous chunk
+            if chunks and len(text) < 1000:
+                chunks[-1] = chunks[-1] + " " + text
+            else:
+                chunks.append(text)
+            break
+
+        # Find a good break point near max_chars
+        pos = text[:max_chars].rfind('. ')
+        if pos < max_chars // 2:
+            pos = text[:max_chars].rfind('? ')
+        if pos < max_chars // 2:
+            pos = text[:max_chars].rfind('! ')
+        if pos < max_chars // 2:
+            pos = max_chars
+
+        chunks.append(text[:pos + 1].strip())
+        text = text[pos + 1:].strip()
+
+    return chunks
+
+
+def label_chunk(text, context=""):
+    prompt = PROMPT + "\n\nTRANSCRIPT:\n" + text
+    if context:
+        prompt += context
+
+    response = requests.post(
+        "https://openrouter.ai/api/v1/chat/completions",
+        headers={
+            "Authorization": f"Bearer {API_KEY}",
+            "Content-Type": "application/json"
+        },
+        json={
+            "model": MODEL,
+            "messages": [{"role": "user", "content": prompt}],
+            "max_tokens": 8192,
+            "temperature": 0
+        }
+    )
+
+    if response.status_code != 200:
+        print(f"  API error: {response.status_code} {response.text[:200]}")
+        return None
+
+    content = response.json()["choices"][0]["message"]["content"].strip()
+
+    # Remove any markdown code block wrappers
+    if content.startswith("```"):
+        content = re.sub(r'^```\w*\n?', '', content)
+        content = re.sub(r'\n?```$', '', content)
+
+    return content
+
+
+def get_last_speaker(text):
+    lines = text.strip().split('\n')
+    for line in reversed(lines):
+        match = re.match(r'^([A-Z][A-Z\s\'-]+?):', line.strip())
+        if match:
+            return match.group(1)
+    return "LUKE"
+
+
+def validate_output(original, labeled):
+    """Basic validation that the output looks right."""
+    # Check that speaker labels exist (at least 1 for short chunks)
+    speaker_lines = re.findall(r'^[A-Z][A-Z\s\'-]+?:', labeled, re.MULTILINE)
+    if len(speaker_lines) < 1:
+        return False
+
+    # Check that output isn't drastically shorter (allowing for some reformatting)
+    orig_words = len(original.split())
+    labeled_words = len(labeled.split())
+    if labeled_words < orig_words * 0.5:
+        print(f"  WARNING: Output is {labeled_words} words vs {orig_words} input words ({labeled_words * 100 // orig_words}%)")
+        return False
+
+    return True
+
+
+def process_transcript(filepath):
+    text = filepath.read_text().strip()
+    # Strip existing timestamp markers
+    text = re.sub(r'\[[\d:]+\]\s*', '', text)
+    # Normalize whitespace
+    text = re.sub(r'\n+', ' ', text)
+    text = re.sub(r'\s+', ' ', text).strip()
+
+    print(f"  {len(text)} chars")
+
+    chunks = chunk_text(text)
+    print(f"  {len(chunks)} chunk(s)")
+
+    labeled_parts = []
+    context = ""
+
+    for i, chunk in enumerate(chunks):
+        print(f"  Processing chunk {i + 1}/{len(chunks)} ({len(chunk)} chars)...")
+        labeled = label_chunk(chunk, context)
+
+        if labeled is None:
+            print(f"  ERROR: API call failed for chunk {i + 1}")
+            return None
+
+        if not validate_output(chunk, labeled):
+            print(f"  ERROR: Validation failed for chunk {i + 1}")
+            return None
+
+        labeled_parts.append(labeled)
+
+        # Build context for next chunk
+        last_speaker = get_last_speaker(labeled)
+        tail = labeled.strip()[-100:]
+        context = CONTEXT_PROMPT.format(speaker=last_speaker, tail=tail)
+
+        if i < len(chunks) - 1:
+            time.sleep(0.5)
+
+    # Join parts, ensuring proper spacing between chunks
+    result = "\n\n".join(labeled_parts)
+    # Normalize: ensure exactly one blank line between speaker turns
+    result = re.sub(r'\n{3,}', '\n\n', result)
+    # Fix format: put speaker label on same line as text (SPEAKER:\ntext -> SPEAKER: text)
+    result = re.sub(r'^([A-Z][A-Z\s\'-]+?):\s*\n(?!\n)', r'\1: ', result, flags=re.MULTILINE)
+    return result
+
+
+def main():
+    if not API_KEY:
+        print("Error: OPENROUTER_API_KEY not set")
+        sys.exit(1)
+
+    files = sys.argv[1:] if len(sys.argv) > 1 else None
+    if files:
+        transcripts = [TRANSCRIPT_DIR / f for f in files]
+    else:
+        transcripts = sorted(TRANSCRIPT_DIR.glob("*.txt"))
+
+    for filepath in transcripts:
+        if not filepath.exists():
+            print(f"Skipping {filepath.name} (not found)")
+            continue
+        print(f"\nProcessing: {filepath.name}")
+        labeled = process_transcript(filepath)
+        if labeled is None:
+            print(f"  SKIPPED (processing failed)")
+            continue
+        filepath.write_text(labeled + "\n")
+        print(f"  Saved ({len(labeled)} chars)")
+
+    print("\nDone!")
+
+
+if __name__ == "__main__":
+    main()

upload_clips.py

@@ -0,0 +1,772 @@
+#!/usr/bin/env python3
+"""Upload podcast clips to social media (direct YouTube & Bluesky, Postiz for others).
+
+Usage:
+    python upload_clips.py                          # interactive: pick episode, clips, platforms
+    python upload_clips.py clips/episode-12/        # pick clips and platforms interactively
+    python upload_clips.py clips/episode-12/ --clip 1 --platforms ig,yt
+    python upload_clips.py clips/episode-12/ --yes  # skip all prompts, upload everything
+"""
+
+import argparse
+import json
+import re
+import sys
+from pathlib import Path
+
+import requests
+from atproto import Client as BskyClient
+from dotenv import load_dotenv
+import os
+
+load_dotenv(Path(__file__).parent / ".env")
+
+POSTIZ_API_KEY = os.getenv("POSTIZ_API_KEY")
+POSTIZ_URL = os.getenv("POSTIZ_URL", "https://social.lukeattheroost.com")
+
+BSKY_HANDLE = os.getenv("BSKY_HANDLE", "lukeattheroost.bsky.social")
+BSKY_APP_PASSWORD = os.getenv("BSKY_APP_PASSWORD")
+
+YT_CLIENT_SECRETS = Path(__file__).parent / "youtube_client_secrets.json"
+YT_TOKEN_FILE = Path(__file__).parent / "youtube_token.json"
+
+PLATFORM_ALIASES = {
+    "ig": "instagram", "insta": "instagram", "instagram": "instagram",
+    "yt": "youtube", "youtube": "youtube",
+    "fb": "facebook", "facebook": "facebook",
+    "bsky": "bluesky", "bluesky": "bluesky",
+    "masto": "mastodon", "mastodon": "mastodon",
+    "nostr": "nostr",
+    "li": "linkedin", "linkedin": "linkedin",
+    "threads": "threads",
+    "tt": "tiktok", "tiktok": "tiktok",
+}
+
+PLATFORM_DISPLAY = {
+    "instagram": "Instagram Reels",
+    "youtube": "YouTube Shorts",
+    "facebook": "Facebook Reels",
+    "bluesky": "Bluesky",
+    "mastodon": "Mastodon",
+    "nostr": "Nostr",
+    "linkedin": "LinkedIn",
+    "threads": "Threads",
+    "tiktok": "TikTok",
+}
+
+ALL_PLATFORMS = list(PLATFORM_DISPLAY.keys())
+
+UPLOAD_LEDGER_FILE = "upload-history.json"
+
+
+def load_upload_history(clips_dir: Path) -> dict:
+    """Load upload history for a clips directory.
+    Returns dict mapping clip_file -> list of platforms already uploaded to.
+    """
+    ledger = clips_dir / UPLOAD_LEDGER_FILE
+    if ledger.exists():
+        with open(ledger) as f:
+            return json.load(f)
+    return {}
+
+
+def save_upload_history(clips_dir: Path, history: dict):
+    with open(clips_dir / UPLOAD_LEDGER_FILE, "w") as f:
+        json.dump(history, f, indent=2)
+
+
+def get_api_url(path: str) -> str:
+    base = POSTIZ_URL.rstrip("/")
+    return f"{base}/api/public/v1{path}"
+
+
+def api_headers() -> dict:
+    return {
+        "Authorization": POSTIZ_API_KEY,
+        "Content-Type": "application/json",
+    }
+
+
+def fetch_integrations() -> list[dict]:
+    resp = requests.get(get_api_url("/integrations"), headers=api_headers(), timeout=15)
+    if resp.status_code != 200:
+        print(f"Error fetching integrations: {resp.status_code} {resp.text[:200]}")
+        sys.exit(1)
+    return resp.json()
+
+
+def find_integration(integrations: list[dict], provider: str) -> dict | None:
+    for integ in integrations:
+        if integ.get("identifier", "").startswith(provider) and not integ.get("disabled"):
+            return integ
+    return None
+
+
+def upload_file(file_path: Path) -> dict:
+    headers = {"Authorization": POSTIZ_API_KEY}
+    with open(file_path, "rb") as f:
+        resp = requests.post(
+            get_api_url("/upload"),
+            headers=headers,
+            files={"file": (file_path.name, f, "video/mp4")},
+            timeout=120,
+        )
+    if resp.status_code not in (200, 201):
+        print(f"Upload failed: {resp.status_code} {resp.text[:200]}")
+        return {}
+    return resp.json()
+
+
+def build_content(clip: dict, platform: str) -> str:
+    desc = clip.get("description", clip.get("caption_text", ""))
+    hashtags = clip.get("hashtags", [])
+    hashtag_str = " ".join(hashtags)
+
+    if platform == "bluesky":
+        if hashtags and len(desc) + 2 + len(hashtag_str) <= 300:
+            return desc + "\n\n" + hashtag_str
+        return desc[:300]
+
+    parts = [desc]
+    if hashtags:
+        parts.append("\n\n" + hashtag_str)
+    if platform in ("youtube", "facebook"):
+        parts.append("\n\nListen to the full episode: lukeattheroost.com")
+    return "".join(parts)
+
+
+def build_settings(clip: dict, platform: str) -> dict:
+    if platform == "instagram":
+        return {"__type": "instagram", "post_type": "post", "collaborators": []}
+    if platform == "youtube":
+        yt_tags = [{"value": h.lstrip("#"), "label": h.lstrip("#")}
+                   for h in clip.get("hashtags", [])]
+        return {
+            "__type": "youtube",
+            "title": clip["title"],
+            "type": "public",
+            "selfDeclaredMadeForKids": "no",
+            "thumbnail": None,
+            "tags": yt_tags,
+        }
+    if platform == "tiktok":
+        return {
+            "__type": "tiktok",
+            "privacy_level": "PUBLIC_TO_EVERYONE",
+            "duet": False,
+            "stitch": False,
+            "comment": True,
+            "autoAddMusic": "no",
+            "brand_content_toggle": False,
+            "brand_organic_toggle": False,
+            "content_posting_method": "DIRECT_POST",
+        }
+    return {"__type": platform}
+
+
+def post_to_bluesky(clip: dict, clip_file: Path) -> bool:
+    """Post a clip directly to Bluesky via atproto (bypasses Postiz)."""
+    import time
+    import httpx
+    from atproto import models
+
+    if not BSKY_APP_PASSWORD:
+        print("    Error: BSKY_APP_PASSWORD not set in .env")
+        return False
+
+    client = BskyClient()
+    client.login(BSKY_HANDLE, BSKY_APP_PASSWORD)
+    did = client.me.did
+    video_data = clip_file.read_bytes()
+
+    # Get a service auth token scoped to the user's PDS (required by video service)
+    from urllib.parse import urlparse
+    pds_host = urlparse(client._session.pds_endpoint).hostname
+    service_auth = client.com.atproto.server.get_service_auth(
+        {"aud": f"did:web:{pds_host}", "lxm": "com.atproto.repo.uploadBlob"}
+    )
+    token = service_auth.token
+
+    # Upload video to Bluesky's video processing service (not the PDS)
+    print(f"    Uploading video ({len(video_data) / 1_000_000:.1f} MB)...")
+    upload_resp = httpx.post(
+        "https://video.bsky.app/xrpc/app.bsky.video.uploadVideo",
+        params={"did": did, "name": clip_file.name},
+        headers={
+            "Authorization": f"Bearer {token}",
+            "Content-Type": "video/mp4",
+        },
+        content=video_data,
+        timeout=120,
+    )
+    if upload_resp.status_code not in (200, 409):
+        print(f"    Upload failed: {upload_resp.status_code} {upload_resp.text[:200]}")
+        return False
+
+    upload_data = upload_resp.json()
+    job_id = upload_data.get("jobId") or upload_data.get("jobStatus", {}).get("jobId")
+    if not job_id:
+        print(f"    No jobId returned: {upload_resp.text[:200]}")
+        return False
+    print(f"    Video processing (job {job_id})...")
+
+    # Poll until video is processed
+    session_token = client._session.access_jwt
+    blob = None
+    while True:
+        status_resp = httpx.get(
+            "https://video.bsky.app/xrpc/app.bsky.video.getJobStatus",
+            params={"jobId": job_id},
+            headers={"Authorization": f"Bearer {session_token}"},
+            timeout=15,
+        )
+        resp_data = status_resp.json()
+        status = resp_data.get("jobStatus") or resp_data
+        state = status.get("state")
+        if state == "JOB_STATE_COMPLETED":
+            blob = status.get("blob")
+            break
+        if state == "JOB_STATE_FAILED":
+            err = status.get("error") or status.get("message") or "unknown"
+            print(f"    Video processing failed: {err}")
+            return False
+        progress = status.get("progress", 0)
+        print(f"    Processing... {progress}%")
+        time.sleep(3)
+
+    if not blob:
+        print("    No blob returned after processing")
+        return False
+
+    text = build_content(clip, "bluesky")
+
+    embed = models.AppBskyEmbedVideo.Main(
+        video=models.blob_ref.BlobRef(
+            mime_type=blob["mimeType"],
+            size=blob["size"],
+            ref=models.blob_ref.IpldLink(link=blob["ref"]["$link"]),
+        ),
+        alt=clip.get("caption_text", clip["title"]),
+        aspect_ratio=models.AppBskyEmbedDefs.AspectRatio(width=1080, height=1920),
+    )
+    client.send_post(text=text, embed=embed)
+    return True
+
+
+def get_youtube_service():
+    """Authenticate with YouTube API. First run opens a browser, then reuses saved token."""
+    from google.oauth2.credentials import Credentials
+    from google_auth_oauthlib.flow import InstalledAppFlow
+    from google.auth.transport.requests import Request
+    from googleapiclient.discovery import build as yt_build
+
+    scopes = ["https://www.googleapis.com/auth/youtube.upload"]
+    creds = None
+
+    if YT_TOKEN_FILE.exists():
+        creds = Credentials.from_authorized_user_file(str(YT_TOKEN_FILE), scopes)
+
+    if not creds or not creds.valid:
+        if creds and creds.expired and creds.refresh_token:
+            creds.refresh(Request())
+        else:
+            if not YT_CLIENT_SECRETS.exists():
+                print("    Error: youtube_client_secrets.json not found")
+                print("    Download OAuth2 Desktop App credentials from Google Cloud Console")
+                return None
+            flow = InstalledAppFlow.from_client_secrets_file(str(YT_CLIENT_SECRETS), scopes)
+            creds = flow.run_local_server(port=8090)
+
+        with open(YT_TOKEN_FILE, "w") as f:
+            f.write(creds.to_json())
+
+    return yt_build("youtube", "v3", credentials=creds)
+
+
+def post_to_youtube(clip: dict, clip_file: Path) -> bool:
+    """Upload a clip directly to YouTube Shorts via the Data API."""
+    import time
+    import random
+    from googleapiclient.http import MediaFileUpload
+    from googleapiclient.errors import HttpError
+
+    youtube = get_youtube_service()
+    if not youtube:
+        return False
+
+    title = clip["title"]
+    if "#Shorts" not in title:
+        title = f"{title} #Shorts"
+
+    description = build_content(clip, "youtube")
+    if "#Shorts" not in description:
+        description += "\n\n#Shorts"
+
+    tags = [h.lstrip("#") for h in clip.get("hashtags", [])]
+    if "Shorts" not in tags:
+        tags.insert(0, "Shorts")
+
+    body = {
+        "snippet": {
+            "title": title[:100],
+            "description": description,
+            "tags": tags,
+            "categoryId": "24",  # Entertainment
+        },
+        "status": {
+            "privacyStatus": "public",
+            "selfDeclaredMadeForKids": False,
+        },
+    }
+
+    media = MediaFileUpload(
+        str(clip_file),
+        mimetype="video/mp4",
+        chunksize=256 * 1024,
+        resumable=True,
+    )
+
+    request = youtube.videos().insert(part="snippet,status", body=body, media_body=media)
+
+    file_size = clip_file.stat().st_size / 1_000_000
+    print(f"    Uploading video ({file_size:.1f} MB)...")
+
+    response = None
+    retry = 0
+    while response is None:
+        try:
+            status, response = request.next_chunk()
+            if status:
+                print(f"    Upload {int(status.progress() * 100)}%...")
+        except HttpError as e:
+            if e.resp.status in (500, 502, 503, 504) and retry < 5:
+                retry += 1
+                wait = random.random() * (2 ** retry)
+                print(f"    Retrying in {wait:.1f}s...")
+                time.sleep(wait)
+            else:
+                print(f"    YouTube API error: {e}")
+                return False
+
+    video_id = response["id"]
+    print(f"    https://youtube.com/shorts/{video_id}")
+    return video_id
+
+
+def create_post(integration_id: str, content: str, media: dict,
+                settings: dict, schedule: str | None = None) -> dict:
+    from datetime import datetime, timezone
+    post_type = "schedule" if schedule else "now"
+    date = schedule or datetime.now(timezone.utc).strftime("%Y-%m-%dT%H:%M:%S.000Z")
+    payload = {
+        "type": post_type,
+        "date": date,
+        "shortLink": False,
+        "tags": [],
+        "posts": [
+            {
+                "integration": {"id": integration_id},
+                "value": [
+                    {
+                        "content": content,
+                        "image": [media] if media else [],
+                    }
+                ],
+                "settings": settings,
+            }
+        ],
+    }
+
+    resp = requests.post(
+        get_api_url("/posts"),
+        headers=api_headers(),
+        json=payload,
+        timeout=30,
+    )
+    if resp.status_code not in (200, 201):
+        print(f"Post creation failed: {resp.status_code} {resp.text[:300]}")
+        return {}
+    return resp.json()
+
+
+def main():
+    valid_names = sorted(set(PLATFORM_ALIASES.keys()))
+    parser = argparse.ArgumentParser(description="Upload podcast clips to social media via Postiz")
+    parser.add_argument("clips_dir", nargs="?", help="Path to clips directory (e.g. clips/episode-12/). If omitted, shows a picker.")
+    parser.add_argument("--clip", "-c", type=int, help="Upload only clip N (1-indexed)")
+    parser.add_argument("--platforms", "-p",
+                        help=f"Comma-separated platforms ({','.join(ALL_PLATFORMS)}). Default: all")
+    parser.add_argument("--schedule", "-s", help="Schedule time (ISO 8601, e.g. 2026-02-16T10:00:00)")
+    parser.add_argument("--yes", "-y", action="store_true", help="Skip confirmation prompt")
+    parser.add_argument("--dry-run", action="store_true", help="Show what would be uploaded without posting")
+    args = parser.parse_args()
+
+    if not POSTIZ_API_KEY:
+        print("Error: POSTIZ_API_KEY not set in .env")
+        sys.exit(1)
+
+    # Resolve clips directory — pick interactively if not provided
+    if args.clips_dir:
+        clips_dir = Path(args.clips_dir).expanduser().resolve()
+    else:
+        clips_root = Path(__file__).parent / "clips"
+        episode_dirs = sorted(
+            [d for d in clips_root.iterdir()
+             if d.is_dir() and not d.name.startswith(".") and (d / "clips-metadata.json").exists()],
+            key=lambda d: (int(m.group(1)) if (m := re.search(r'(\d+)', d.name)) else 0, d.name),
+        )
+        if not episode_dirs:
+            print("No clip directories found in clips/. Run make_clips.py first.")
+            sys.exit(1)
+        print("\nAvailable episodes:\n")
+        for i, d in enumerate(episode_dirs):
+            with open(d / "clips-metadata.json") as f:
+                meta = json.load(f)
+            print(f"  {i+1}. {d.name} ({len(meta)} clip{'s' if len(meta) != 1 else ''})")
+        print()
+        while True:
+            try:
+                choice = input("Which episode? ").strip()
+                idx = int(choice) - 1
+                if 0 <= idx < len(episode_dirs):
+                    clips_dir = episode_dirs[idx]
+                    break
+                print(f"  Enter 1-{len(episode_dirs)}")
+            except (ValueError, EOFError):
+                print(f"  Enter an episode number")
+
+    metadata_path = clips_dir / "clips-metadata.json"
+    if not metadata_path.exists():
+        print(f"Error: No clips-metadata.json found in {clips_dir}")
+        print("Run make_clips.py first to generate clips and metadata.")
+        sys.exit(1)
+
+    with open(metadata_path) as f:
+        clips = json.load(f)
+
+    # Pick clips
+    if args.clip:
+        if args.clip < 1 or args.clip > len(clips):
+            print(f"Error: Clip {args.clip} not found (have {len(clips)} clips)")
+            sys.exit(1)
+        clips = [clips[args.clip - 1]]
+    elif not args.yes:
+        print(f"\nFound {len(clips)} clip(s):\n")
+        for i, clip in enumerate(clips):
+            desc = clip.get('description', clip.get('caption_text', ''))
+            if len(desc) > 70:
+                desc = desc[:desc.rfind(' ', 0, 70)] + '...'
+            print(f"  {i+1}. \"{clip['title']}\" ({clip['duration']:.0f}s)")
+            print(f"     {desc}")
+        print(f"\n  a. All clips")
+        print()
+        while True:
+            choice = input("Which clips? (e.g. 1,3 or a for all): ").strip().lower()
+            if choice in ('a', 'all'):
+                break
+            try:
+                indices = [int(x.strip()) for x in choice.split(",")]
+                if all(1 <= x <= len(clips) for x in indices):
+                    clips = [clips[x - 1] for x in indices]
+                    break
+                print(f"  Invalid selection. Enter 1-{len(clips)}, comma-separated, or 'a' for all.")
+            except (ValueError, EOFError):
+                print(f"  Enter clip numbers (e.g. 1,3) or 'a' for all")
+
+    # Pick platforms
+    if args.platforms:
+        requested = []
+        for p in args.platforms.split(","):
+            p = p.strip().lower()
+            if p not in PLATFORM_ALIASES:
+                print(f"Unknown platform: {p}")
+                print(f"Valid: {', '.join(valid_names)}")
+                sys.exit(1)
+            requested.append(PLATFORM_ALIASES[p])
+        target_platforms = list(dict.fromkeys(requested))
+    elif not args.yes:
+        print(f"\nPlatforms:\n")
+        for i, p in enumerate(ALL_PLATFORMS):
+            print(f"  {i+1}. {PLATFORM_DISPLAY[p]}")
+        print(f"\n  a. All platforms (default)")
+        print()
+        choice = input("Which platforms? (e.g. 1,3,5 or a for all) [a]: ").strip().lower()
+        if choice and choice not in ('a', 'all'):
+            try:
+                indices = [int(x.strip()) for x in choice.split(",")]
+                target_platforms = [ALL_PLATFORMS[x - 1] for x in indices if 1 <= x <= len(ALL_PLATFORMS)]
+                if not target_platforms:
+                    target_platforms = ALL_PLATFORMS[:]
+            except (ValueError, IndexError):
+                target_platforms = ALL_PLATFORMS[:]
+        else:
+            target_platforms = ALL_PLATFORMS[:]
+    else:
+        target_platforms = ALL_PLATFORMS[:]
+
+    DIRECT_PLATFORMS = {"bluesky", "youtube"}
+    needs_postiz = not args.dry_run and any(
+        p not in DIRECT_PLATFORMS for p in target_platforms)
+    if needs_postiz:
+        print("Fetching connected accounts from Postiz...")
+        integrations = fetch_integrations()
+    else:
+        integrations = []
+
+    active_platforms = {}
+    for platform in target_platforms:
+        if platform == "bluesky":
+            if BSKY_APP_PASSWORD or args.dry_run:
+                active_platforms[platform] = {"name": BSKY_HANDLE, "_direct": True}
+            else:
+                print("Warning: BSKY_APP_PASSWORD not set in .env, skipping Bluesky")
+            continue
+        if platform == "youtube":
+            if YT_CLIENT_SECRETS.exists() or YT_TOKEN_FILE.exists() or args.dry_run:
+                active_platforms[platform] = {"name": "YouTube Shorts", "_direct": True}
+            else:
+                print("Warning: youtube_client_secrets.json not found, skipping YouTube")
+            continue
+        if args.dry_run:
+            active_platforms[platform] = {"name": PLATFORM_DISPLAY[platform]}
+            continue
+        integ = find_integration(integrations, platform)
+        if integ:
+            active_platforms[platform] = integ
+        else:
+            print(f"Warning: No {PLATFORM_DISPLAY[platform]} account connected in Postiz")
+
+    if not args.dry_run and not active_platforms:
+        print("Error: No platforms available to upload to")
+        sys.exit(1)
+
+    platform_names = [f"{PLATFORM_DISPLAY[p]} ({integ.get('name', 'connected')})"
+                      for p, integ in active_platforms.items()]
+
+    print(f"\nUploading {len(clips)} clip(s) to: {', '.join(platform_names)}")
+    if args.schedule:
+        print(f"Scheduled for: {args.schedule}")
+    print()
+
+    for i, clip in enumerate(clips):
+        print(f"  {i+1}. \"{clip['title']}\" ({clip['duration']:.0f}s)")
+        desc = clip.get('description', '')
+        if len(desc) > 80:
+            desc = desc[:desc.rfind(' ', 0, 80)] + '...'
+        print(f"     {desc}")
+        print(f"     {' '.join(clip.get('hashtags', []))}")
+        print()
+
+    if args.dry_run:
+        print("Dry run — nothing uploaded.")
+        return
+
+    if not args.yes:
+        confirm = input("Proceed? [y/N] ").strip().lower()
+        if confirm != "y":
+            print("Cancelled.")
+            return
+
+    upload_history = load_upload_history(clips_dir)
+
+    for i, clip in enumerate(clips):
+        clip_file = clips_dir / clip["clip_file"]
+        if not clip_file.exists():
+            print(f"  Clip {i+1}: Video file not found: {clip_file}")
+            continue
+
+        clip_key = clip["clip_file"]
+        already_uploaded = set(upload_history.get(clip_key, []))
+        remaining_platforms = {p: integ for p, integ in active_platforms.items()
+                               if p not in already_uploaded}
+
+        if not remaining_platforms:
+            print(f"\n  Clip {i+1}: \"{clip['title']}\" — already uploaded to all selected platforms, skipping")
+            continue
+
+        skipped = already_uploaded & set(active_platforms.keys())
+        if skipped:
+            print(f"\n  Clip {i+1}: \"{clip['title']}\" (skipping already uploaded: {', '.join(sorted(skipped))})")
+        else:
+            print(f"\n  Clip {i+1}: \"{clip['title']}\"")
+
+        postiz_platforms = {p: integ for p, integ in remaining_platforms.items()
+                            if not integ.get("_direct")}
+
+        media = None
+        if postiz_platforms:
+            print(f"    Uploading {clip_file.name}...")
+            media = upload_file(clip_file)
+            if not media:
+                print("    Failed to upload video to Postiz, skipping Postiz platforms")
+                postiz_platforms = {}
+            else:
+                print(f"    Uploaded: {media.get('path', 'ok')}")
+
+        for platform, integ in postiz_platforms.items():
+            display = PLATFORM_DISPLAY[platform]
+            print(f"    Posting to {display}...")
+            content = build_content(clip, platform)
+            settings = build_settings(clip, platform)
+            result = create_post(integ["id"], content, media, settings, args.schedule)
+            if result:
+                print(f"    {display}: Posted!")
+                upload_history.setdefault(clip_key, []).append(platform)
+                save_upload_history(clips_dir, upload_history)
+            else:
+                print(f"    {display}: Failed")
+
+        if "youtube" in remaining_platforms:
+            print(f"    Posting to YouTube Shorts (direct)...")
+            try:
+                yt_video_id = post_to_youtube(clip, clip_file)
+                if yt_video_id:
+                    print(f"    YouTube: Posted!")
+                    upload_history.setdefault(clip_key, []).append("youtube")
+                    save_upload_history(clips_dir, upload_history)
+                else:
+                    print(f"    YouTube: Failed")
+            except Exception as e:
+                print(f"    YouTube: Failed — {e}")
+
+        if "bluesky" in remaining_platforms:
+            print(f"    Posting to Bluesky (direct)...")
+            try:
+                if post_to_bluesky(clip, clip_file):
+                    print(f"    Bluesky: Posted!")
+                    upload_history.setdefault(clip_key, []).append("bluesky")
+                    save_upload_history(clips_dir, upload_history)
+                else:
+                    print(f"    Bluesky: Failed")
+            except Exception as e:
+                print(f"    Bluesky: Failed — {e}")
+
+    # Sync clips to website if any YouTube uploads happened
+    if "youtube" in active_platforms:
+        sync_clips_to_website()
+
+    print("\nDone!")
+
+
+WEBSITE_DIR = Path(__file__).parent / "website"
+CLIPS_JSON = WEBSITE_DIR / "data" / "clips.json"
+THUMBS_DIR = WEBSITE_DIR / "images" / "clips"
+CLIPS_ROOT = Path(__file__).parent / "clips"
+
+
+def sync_clips_to_website():
+    """Rebuild website/data/clips.json from YouTube shorts and deploy."""
+    import subprocess
+
+    print("\nSyncing clips to website...")
+
+    # Fetch all YouTube shorts from channel
+    result = subprocess.run(
+        ["python3", "-m", "yt_dlp", "--flat-playlist", "--print", "%(id)s\t%(title)s",
+         "https://www.youtube.com/lukemacneil/shorts"],
+        capture_output=True, text=True, timeout=60,
+    )
+    if not result.stdout.strip():
+        print("  Could not fetch YouTube shorts, skipping sync")
+        return
+
+    yt_shorts = {}
+    for line in result.stdout.strip().split("\n"):
+        if "\t" not in line:
+            continue
+        vid_id, title = line.split("\t", 1)
+        clean_title = re.sub(r"\s*#Shorts\s*$", "", title).strip().lower()
+        yt_shorts[clean_title] = vid_id
+
+    print(f"  Found {len(yt_shorts)} YouTube shorts")
+
+    # Load all clip metadata and match to YouTube
+    existing = {}
+    if CLIPS_JSON.exists():
+        for c in json.loads(CLIPS_JSON.read_text()):
+            existing[c["clip_file"]] = c
+
+    new_clips = []
+    for ep_dir in sorted(CLIPS_ROOT.glob("episode-*")):
+        meta_file = ep_dir / "clips-metadata.json"
+        if not meta_file.exists():
+            continue
+        for clip in json.loads(meta_file.read_text()):
+            clip_title = clip["title"].strip().lower()
+            yt_id = yt_shorts.get(clip_title, "")
+            if not yt_id:
+                for yt_title, yid in yt_shorts.items():
+                    if yt_title in clip_title or clip_title in yt_title:
+                        yt_id = yid
+                        break
+            if not yt_id:
+                continue
+
+            prev = existing.get(clip["clip_file"], {})
+            new_clips.append({
+                "title": clip["title"],
+                "description": clip.get("description", clip.get("caption_text", "")),
+                "episode_number": clip.get("episode_number", 0),
+                "clip_file": clip["clip_file"],
+                "youtube_id": yt_id,
+                "featured": prev.get("featured", False),
+                "thumbnail": prev.get("thumbnail", ""),
+            })
+
+    new_clips.sort(key=lambda c: c["episode_number"], reverse=True)
+
+    # Generate thumbnails for clips that don't have one
+    THUMBS_DIR.mkdir(parents=True, exist_ok=True)
+    for clip in new_clips:
+        if clip["thumbnail"]:
+            thumb_path = WEBSITE_DIR / clip["thumbnail"]
+            if thumb_path.exists():
+                continue
+
+        thumb_name = clip["clip_file"].replace(".mp4", ".jpg")
+        thumb_path = THUMBS_DIR / thumb_name
+        ep_num = clip["episode_number"]
+        mp4_path = CLIPS_ROOT / f"episode-{ep_num}" / clip["clip_file"]
+
+        if not mp4_path.exists():
+            continue
+
+        subprocess.run(
+            ["ffmpeg", "-y", "-i", str(mp4_path), "-ss", "3", "-vframes", "1",
+             "-update", "1", "-vf", "scale=360:-2", "-q:v", "4", str(thumb_path)],
+            capture_output=True, timeout=30,
+        )
+        if thumb_path.exists():
+            clip["thumbnail"] = f"images/clips/{thumb_name}"
+            print(f"  Generated thumbnail: {thumb_name}")
+
+    # Ensure at least 3 featured
+    featured_count = sum(1 for c in new_clips if c.get("featured"))
+    if featured_count < 3:
+        for c in new_clips:
+            if not c.get("featured"):
+                c["featured"] = True
+                featured_count += 1
+                if featured_count >= 3:
+                    break
+
+    CLIPS_JSON.parent.mkdir(parents=True, exist_ok=True)
+    CLIPS_JSON.write_text(json.dumps(new_clips, indent=2))
+    print(f"  Updated clips.json: {len(new_clips)} clips")
+
+    # Deploy
+    print("  Deploying website...")
+    deploy = subprocess.run(
+        ["npx", "wrangler", "pages", "deploy", "website/",
+         "--project-name=lukeattheroost", "--branch=main", "--commit-dirty=true"],
+        capture_output=True, text=True, timeout=120,
+        cwd=str(Path(__file__).parent),
+    )
+    if "Deployment complete" in deploy.stdout:
+        print("  Website deployed!")
+    else:
+        print(f"  Deploy failed: {deploy.stderr[-300:]}")
+
+
+if __name__ == "__main__":
+    main()

website/_redirects

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+/episodes.html /episode 302

website/_worker.js

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+const VOICEMAIL_XML = `<?xml version="1.0" encoding="UTF-8"?>
+<Response>
+    <Say voice="woman">Luke at the Roost is off the air right now. Leave a message after the beep and we may play it on the next show!</Say>
+    <Record maxLength="120" action="https://radioshow.macneilmediagroup.com/api/signalwire/voicemail-complete" playBeep="true" />
+    <Say voice="woman">Thank you for calling. Goodbye!</Say>
+    <Hangup/>
+</Response>`;
+
+export default {
+  async fetch(request, env) {
+    const url = new URL(request.url);
+
+    if (url.pathname === "/api/signalwire/voice") {
+      try {
+        const body = await request.text();
+        const resp = await fetch("https://radioshow.macneilmediagroup.com/api/signalwire/voice", {
+          method: "POST",
+          headers: { "Content-Type": "application/x-www-form-urlencoded" },
+          body: body,
+          signal: AbortSignal.timeout(5000),
+        });
+
+        if (resp.ok) {
+          return new Response(await resp.text(), {
+            status: 200,
+            headers: { "Content-Type": "application/xml" },
+          });
+        }
+      } catch (e) {
+        // Server unreachable or timed out
+      }
+
+      return new Response(VOICEMAIL_XML, {
+        status: 200,
+        headers: { "Content-Type": "application/xml" },
+      });
+    }
+
+    // RSS feed proxy
+    if (url.pathname === "/feed") {
+      try {
+        const resp = await fetch("https://podcast.macneilmediagroup.com/@LukeAtTheRoost/feed.xml", {
+          signal: AbortSignal.timeout(8000),
+        });
+        if (resp.ok) {
+          return new Response(await resp.text(), {
+            status: 200,
+            headers: {
+              "Content-Type": "application/xml",
+              "Access-Control-Allow-Origin": "*",
+              "Cache-Control": "public, max-age=300",
+            },
+          });
+        }
+      } catch (e) {
+        // Castopod unreachable
+      }
+      return new Response("Feed unavailable", { status: 502 });
+    }
+
+    // All other requests — serve static assets
+    return env.ASSETS.fetch(request);
+  },
+};

website/clips.html

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+<!DOCTYPE html>
+<html lang="en">
+<head>
+  <meta charset="UTF-8">
+  <meta name="viewport" content="width=device-width, initial-scale=1.0">
+  <title>Clips — Luke at the Roost</title>
+  <meta name="description" content="The best moments from Luke at the Roost — watch clips from the AI call-in comedy podcast.">
+  <meta name="theme-color" content="#1a1209">
+  <link rel="canonical" href="https://lukeattheroost.com/clips">
+
+  <meta property="og:site_name" content="Luke at the Roost">
+  <meta property="og:title" content="Clips — Luke at the Roost">
+  <meta property="og:description" content="The best moments from Luke at the Roost — watch clips from the AI call-in comedy podcast.">
+  <meta property="og:image" content="https://cdn.lukeattheroost.com/media/podcasts/LukeAtTheRoost/cover_feed.png?v=3">
+  <meta property="og:url" content="https://lukeattheroost.com/clips">
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website/css/style.css

@@ -47,7 +47,7 @@ a:hover {
 
 /* Hero */
 .hero {
-  padding: 3rem 1.5rem 2rem;
+  padding: 3rem 1.5rem 2.5rem;
   max-width: 900px;
   margin: 0 auto;
   text-align: center;
@@ -57,14 +57,14 @@ a:hover {
   display: flex;
   flex-direction: column;
   align-items: center;
-  gap: 2rem;
+  gap: 1.5rem;
 }
 
 .cover-art {
-  width: 220px;
-  height: 220px;
+  width: 260px;
+  height: 260px;
   border-radius: var(--radius);
-  box-shadow: 0 8px 32px rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.35);
+  box-shadow: 0 8px 32px rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.25);
   object-fit: cover;
 }
 
@@ -72,62 +72,56 @@ a:hover {
   display: flex;
   flex-direction: column;
   align-items: center;
-  gap: 0.75rem;
+  gap: 0.5rem;
 }
 
 .hero h1 {
-  font-size: 2.5rem;
+  font-size: 2.8rem;
   font-weight: 800;
   letter-spacing: -0.02em;
 }
 
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+  font-size: 1.2rem;
   color: var(--text-muted);
-  max-width: 400px;
+  max-width: 500px;
+  line-height: 1.5;
 }
 
 .phone {
-  margin-top: 0.5rem;
+  display: flex;
+  align-items: center;
+  justify-content: center;
+  gap: 0.5rem;
+  margin-top: 0.25rem;
 }
 
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-  font-weight: 800;
-  color: var(--accent);
+.phone-inline {
+  font-size: 1rem;
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+}
+
+.phone-inline strong {
+  color: var(--text);
+  font-weight: 700;
   letter-spacing: 0.02em;
-  display: block;
-}
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-.phone-digits {
-  font-size: 0.95rem;
-  color: var(--text-muted);
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 }
 
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   display: none;
   align-items: center;
-  justify-content: center;
-  gap: 0.5rem;
+  gap: 0.35rem;
   background: var(--accent-red);
   color: #fff;
-  padding: 0.4rem 1.2rem;
+  padding: 0.2rem 0.6rem;
   border-radius: 50px;
-  font-size: 0.85rem;
+  font-size: 0.65rem;
   font-weight: 800;
   letter-spacing: 0.12em;
   text-transform: uppercase;
   animation: on-air-glow 2s ease-in-out infinite;
-  margin-bottom: 0.5rem;
+  flex-shrink: 0;
 }
 
 .on-air-badge.visible {
@@ -135,8 +129,8 @@ a:hover {
 }
 
 .on-air-dot {
-  width: 8px;
-  height: 8px;
+  width: 7px;
+  height: 7px;
   border-radius: 50%;
   background: #fff;
   animation: on-air-blink 1s step-end infinite;
@@ -156,69 +150,118 @@ a:hover {
 .off-air-badge {
   display: inline-flex;
   align-items: center;
-  justify-content: center;
-  background: #444;
+  background: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.08);
   color: var(--text-muted);
-  padding: 0.35rem 1.1rem;
+  padding: 0.2rem 0.6rem;
   border-radius: 50px;
-  font-size: 0.8rem;
+  font-size: 0.65rem;
   font-weight: 700;
   letter-spacing: 0.1em;
   text-transform: uppercase;
-  margin-bottom: 0.5rem;
+  flex-shrink: 0;
 }
 
 .off-air-badge.hidden {
   display: none;
 }
 
-.phone.live .phone-number {
+.phone.live .phone-inline strong {
   color: var(--accent-red);
   text-shadow: 0 0 16px rgba(204, 34, 34, 0.35);
 }
 
-.phone.live .phone-label {
-  color: var(--text);
+/* Subscribe — compact inline text links */
+.subscribe-row {
+  display: flex;
+  flex-direction: column;
+  align-items: center;
+  justify-content: center;
+  gap: 0.25rem;
+  margin-top: 1rem;
 }
 
-/* Subscribe buttons */
-.subscribe-row {
+.subscribe-label {
+  font-size: 0.8rem;
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+  text-transform: uppercase;
+  letter-spacing: 0.12em;
+  opacity: 0.6;
+}
+
+.subscribe-buttons {
   display: flex;
   flex-wrap: wrap;
   justify-content: center;
-  gap: 0.75rem;
-  margin-top: 1.5rem;
+  align-items: center;
+  gap: 0.15rem;
 }
 
 .subscribe-btn {
   display: inline-flex;
   align-items: center;
-  gap: 0.5rem;
-  padding: 0.6rem 1.25rem;
-  border-radius: 50px;
+  gap: 0.35rem;
+  padding: 0.4rem 0.75rem;
+  border-radius: 6px;
   font-size: 0.9rem;
   font-weight: 600;
-  color: #fff;
-  transition: opacity 0.2s, transform 0.2s;
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+  background: transparent;
+  border: none;
+  transition: color 0.2s;
 }
 
 .subscribe-btn:hover {
-  opacity: 0.85;
-  transform: translateY(-1px);
-  color: #fff;
+  color: var(--accent);
 }
 
 .subscribe-btn svg {
-  width: 18px;
-  height: 18px;
+  width: 15px;
+  height: 15px;
   flex-shrink: 0;
+  opacity: 0.6;
 }
 
-.btn-hiw { background: var(--accent); }
-.btn-spotify { background: #1DB954; }
-.btn-youtube { background: #FF0000; }
-.btn-apple { background: #A033FF; }
-.btn-rss { background: #f26522; }
+.subscribe-btn:hover svg {
+  opacity: 1;
+}
+
+/* Secondary links — How It Works, Discord, Support */
+.secondary-links {
+  display: flex;
+  flex-wrap: wrap;
+  justify-content: center;
+  align-items: center;
+  gap: 0.5rem;
+  margin-top: 0.25rem;
+}
+
+.secondary-link {
+  font-size: 0.85rem;
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+  opacity: 0.6;
+  transition: color 0.2s, opacity 0.2s;
+}
+
+.secondary-link:hover {
+  color: var(--accent);
+  opacity: 1;
+}
+
+.secondary-sep {
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+  opacity: 0.3;
+  font-size: 0.85rem;
+}
+
+.support-link {
+  color: var(--accent);
+  opacity: 1;
+  font-weight: 600;
+}
+
+.support-link:hover {
+  color: var(--accent-hover);
+}
 
 /* Episodes */
 .episodes-section {
@@ -531,21 +574,68 @@ a:hover {
   border-top: 1px solid #2a2015;
 }
 
-.footer-links {
+.footer-nav {
   display: flex;
+  flex-wrap: wrap;
   justify-content: center;
-  gap: 1.5rem;
-  margin-bottom: 0.75rem;
+  gap: 0.5rem 1.5rem;
+  margin-bottom: 1rem;
 }
 
-.footer-links a {
+.footer-nav a {
   color: var(--text-muted);
 }
 
-.footer-links a:hover {
+.footer-nav a:hover {
   color: var(--text);
 }
 
+.footer-icons {
+  display: flex;
+  flex-direction: column;
+  align-items: center;
+  gap: 0.5rem;
+  margin-bottom: 1rem;
+}
+
+.footer-icons-label {
+  display: block;
+  font-size: 0.7rem;
+  text-transform: uppercase;
+  letter-spacing: 0.15em;
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+}
+
+.footer-icons-row {
+  display: flex;
+  flex-wrap: wrap;
+  justify-content: center;
+  gap: 0.5rem;
+}
+
+.footer-icon-link {
+  display: flex;
+  align-items: center;
+  justify-content: center;
+  width: 36px;
+  height: 36px;
+  border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
+  background: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.05);
+  color: var(--accent);
+  transition: color 0.2s, background 0.2s, transform 0.2s;
+}
+
+.footer-icon-link:hover {
+  color: var(--accent-hover);
+  background: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.1);
+  transform: translateY(-2px);
+}
+
+.footer-icon-link svg {
+  width: 18px;
+  height: 18px;
+}
+
 .footer-projects {
   margin: 1.25rem 0;
   padding: 1rem 0;
@@ -698,12 +788,41 @@ a:hover {
   height: 100%;
 }
 
+.diagram-row-compact {
+  display: flex;
+  flex-wrap: wrap;
+  justify-content: center;
+  gap: 0.5rem;
+  width: 100%;
+}
+
+.diagram-row-compact .diagram-box {
+  min-width: unset;
+  padding: 0.5rem 0.75rem;
+  font-size: 0.7rem;
+  gap: 0.25rem;
+}
+
+.diagram-row-compact .diagram-icon {
+  width: 20px;
+  height: 20px;
+}
+
 .diagram-arrow {
   font-size: 1.5rem;
   color: var(--text-muted);
   line-height: 1;
 }
 
+.diagram-label {
+  font-size: 0.7rem;
+  text-transform: uppercase;
+  letter-spacing: 0.15em;
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+  margin-bottom: 0.25rem;
+  margin-top: 0.5rem;
+}
+
 /* Steps */
 .hiw-steps {
   display: flex;
@@ -746,7 +865,9 @@ a:hover {
   color: var(--text-muted);
   font-size: 0.95rem;
   line-height: 1.7;
+  margin-bottom: 0.75rem;
 }
+.hiw-step-content p:last-of-type { margin-bottom: 0; }
 
 .hiw-detail-grid {
   display: grid;
@@ -837,6 +958,20 @@ a:hover {
   line-height: 1.6;
 }
 
+/* Video */
+.hiw-video {
+  width: 100%;
+  border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
+  display: block;
+}
+
+.hiw-video-caption {
+  font-size: 0.9rem;
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+  line-height: 1.6;
+  margin-top: 1rem;
+}
+
 /* CTA */
 .hiw-cta {
   text-align: center;
@@ -876,16 +1011,494 @@ a:hover {
   color: var(--accent);
 }
 
+.hiw-cta-support {
+  display: inline-block;
+  margin-top: 1.25rem;
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+  font-size: 0.85rem;
+  text-decoration: none;
+  border-bottom: 1px solid var(--text-muted);
+  transition: color 0.2s, border-color 0.2s;
+}
+
+.hiw-cta-support:hover {
+  color: var(--accent);
+  border-color: var(--accent);
+}
+
+/* Episode Page */
+.ep-header {
+  max-width: 900px;
+  margin: 0 auto;
+  padding: 1rem 1.5rem 2rem;
+}
+
+.ep-header-inner {
+  display: flex;
+  flex-direction: column;
+  gap: 0.75rem;
+}
+
+.ep-meta {
+  font-size: 0.85rem;
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+}
+
+.ep-title {
+  font-size: 2rem;
+  font-weight: 800;
+  line-height: 1.2;
+}
+
+.ep-desc {
+  font-size: 0.95rem;
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+  line-height: 1.7;
+}
+
+.ep-actions {
+  margin-top: 0.5rem;
+}
+
+.ep-play-btn {
+  display: inline-flex;
+  align-items: center;
+  gap: 0.5rem;
+  background: var(--accent);
+  color: #fff;
+  border: none;
+  border-radius: 50px;
+  padding: 0.6rem 1.5rem;
+  font-size: 0.95rem;
+  font-weight: 600;
+  cursor: pointer;
+  transition: background 0.2s, transform 0.2s;
+}
+
+.ep-play-btn:hover {
+  background: var(--accent-hover);
+  transform: translateY(-1px);
+}
+
+.ep-play-btn svg {
+  width: 18px;
+  height: 18px;
+}
+
+/* Transcript */
+.transcript-section {
+  max-width: 900px;
+  margin: 0 auto;
+  padding: 0 1.5rem 3rem;
+}
+
+.transcript-section h2 {
+  font-size: 1.3rem;
+  font-weight: 700;
+  margin-bottom: 1.5rem;
+  padding-bottom: 0.75rem;
+  border-bottom: 1px solid #2a2015;
+}
+
+.transcript-body {
+  font-size: 0.95rem;
+  line-height: 1.8;
+  color: var(--text);
+}
+
+.transcript-body p {
+  margin-bottom: 1.25rem;
+}
+
+.speaker-label {
+  font-weight: 700;
+  color: var(--accent);
+  font-size: 0.85rem;
+  letter-spacing: 0.03em;
+}
+
+.transcript-unavailable {
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+  font-style: italic;
+}
+
+.episode-transcript-link {
+  font-size: 0.8rem;
+  color: var(--accent);
+  margin-top: 0.25rem;
+  display: inline-block;
+}
+
+.episode-transcript-link:hover {
+  color: var(--accent-hover);
+}
+
+/* Stats Page */
+.stats-updated {
+  font-size: 0.85rem;
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+  margin-top: 0.5rem;
+}
+
+.stats-container {
+  max-width: 900px;
+  margin: 0 auto;
+  padding: 0 1.5rem 3rem;
+}
+
+.stats-loading, .stats-error {
+  text-align: center;
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+  padding: 3rem 0;
+}
+
+.stats-error {
+  color: var(--accent);
+}
+
+.stats-section {
+  margin-bottom: 2.5rem;
+}
+
+.stats-section h2 {
+  font-size: 1.3rem;
+  font-weight: 700;
+  margin-bottom: 1rem;
+  padding-bottom: 0.5rem;
+  border-bottom: 1px solid #2a2015;
+}
+
+.stats-summary {
+  display: flex;
+  flex-wrap: wrap;
+  gap: 1rem;
+  margin-bottom: 1.25rem;
+}
+
+.stat-big {
+  background: var(--bg-light);
+  border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
+  padding: 1.25rem 1.5rem;
+  display: flex;
+  flex-direction: column;
+  gap: 0.25rem;
+  flex: 1;
+  min-width: 120px;
+}
+
+.stat-number {
+  font-size: 1.75rem;
+  font-weight: 800;
+  color: var(--accent);
+}
+
+.stat-label {
+  font-size: 0.8rem;
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+  text-transform: uppercase;
+  letter-spacing: 0.05em;
+}
+
+.stats-list {
+  display: flex;
+  flex-direction: column;
+  gap: 0.5rem;
+}
+
+.stats-list-item {
+  background: var(--bg-light);
+  border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
+  padding: 0.85rem 1.15rem;
+  display: flex;
+  flex-direction: column;
+  gap: 0.2rem;
+}
+
+.stats-list-title {
+  font-weight: 600;
+  font-size: 0.95rem;
+}
+
+.stats-list-meta {
+  font-size: 0.8rem;
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+}
+
+.stats-reviews {
+  display: flex;
+  flex-direction: column;
+  gap: 0.75rem;
+}
+
+.review-card {
+  background: var(--bg-light);
+  border-radius: var(--radius-sm);
+  padding: 1.15rem;
+  border-left: 3px solid var(--accent);
+}
+
+.review-stars {
+  color: var(--accent);
+  font-size: 1.1rem;
+  letter-spacing: 2px;
+  margin-bottom: 0.4rem;
+}
+
+.review-title {
+  font-weight: 700;
+  font-size: 0.95rem;
+  margin-bottom: 0.3rem;
+}
+
+.review-content {
+  font-size: 0.9rem;
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+  line-height: 1.6;
+  margin-bottom: 0.5rem;
+}
+
+.review-meta {
+  font-size: 0.75rem;
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+}
+
+.stats-empty {
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+  font-style: italic;
+  padding: 1rem 0;
+}
+
+.stats-link {
+  margin-top: 0.5rem;
+}
+
+.stats-link a {
+  color: var(--accent);
+  font-weight: 600;
+}
+
+.stats-link a:hover {
+  color: var(--accent-hover);
+}
+
+/* Clips */
+.clips-section-header {
+  display: flex;
+  align-items: baseline;
+  justify-content: space-between;
+  max-width: 900px;
+  margin: 0 auto;
+  padding: 0 1.5rem;
+}
+
+.clips-section-header h2 {
+  font-size: 1.5rem;
+  font-weight: 700;
+}
+
+.clips-see-all {
+  font-size: 0.85rem;
+  color: var(--accent);
+  font-weight: 600;
+}
+
+.clips-see-all:hover {
+  color: var(--accent-hover);
+}
+
+.clips-featured {
+  max-width: 900px;
+  margin: 0 auto;
+  padding: 0 1.5rem 2rem;
+  display: grid;
+  grid-template-columns: repeat(3, 1fr);
+  gap: 1rem;
+}
+
+.clips-grid {
+  max-width: 900px;
+  margin: 0 auto;
+  padding: 0 1.5rem 3rem;
+  display: grid;
+  grid-template-columns: repeat(3, 1fr);
+  gap: 1rem;
+}
+
+.clip-card {
+  position: relative;
+  border-radius: var(--radius);
+  overflow: hidden;
+  cursor: default;
+}
+
+.clip-card-inner {
+  position: relative;
+  width: 100%;
+  padding-top: 133%; /* 3:4 aspect ratio — taller than wide but not full 9:16 */
+  background: var(--bg-light);
+  border-radius: var(--radius);
+  overflow: hidden;
+  border: 1px solid #2a2015;
+  transition: border-color 0.2s, box-shadow 0.2s;
+}
+
+.clip-card:hover .clip-card-inner {
+  border-color: var(--accent);
+  box-shadow: 0 4px 24px rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.12);
+}
+
+.clip-card-inner iframe {
+  position: absolute;
+  top: 0;
+  left: 0;
+  width: 100%;
+  height: 100%;
+  border: none;
+  border-radius: var(--radius);
+}
+
+.clip-card-overlay {
+  position: absolute;
+  inset: 0;
+  display: flex;
+  flex-direction: column;
+  justify-content: flex-end;
+  padding: 1.25rem;
+  background: linear-gradient(
+    to bottom,
+    rgba(26, 18, 9, 0.1) 0%,
+    rgba(26, 18, 9, 0.3) 40%,
+    rgba(26, 18, 9, 0.92) 75%
+  );
+}
+
+.clip-episode-label {
+  font-size: 0.65rem;
+  text-transform: uppercase;
+  letter-spacing: 0.12em;
+  color: var(--accent);
+  font-weight: 700;
+  margin-bottom: 0.25rem;
+}
+
+.clip-card-title {
+  font-size: 1.05rem;
+  font-weight: 800;
+  line-height: 1.25;
+  margin-bottom: 0.35rem;
+  color: var(--text);
+}
+
+.clip-card-desc {
+  font-size: 0.75rem;
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+  line-height: 1.5;
+  display: -webkit-box;
+  -webkit-line-clamp: 3;
+  -webkit-box-orient: vertical;
+  overflow: hidden;
+}
+
+.clip-play-btn {
+  position: absolute;
+  top: 50%;
+  left: 50%;
+  transform: translate(-50%, -50%);
+  width: 56px;
+  height: 56px;
+  border-radius: 50%;
+  background: var(--accent);
+  border: none;
+  cursor: pointer;
+  display: flex;
+  align-items: center;
+  justify-content: center;
+  transition: background 0.2s, transform 0.2s;
+  box-shadow: 0 4px 20px rgba(232, 121, 29, 0.4);
+}
+
+.clip-play-btn:hover {
+  background: var(--accent-hover);
+  transform: translate(-50%, -50%) scale(1.1);
+}
+
+.clip-play-btn svg {
+  width: 24px;
+  height: 24px;
+}
+
+.clip-card:hover .clip-card-overlay {
+  background: linear-gradient(
+    to bottom,
+    rgba(26, 18, 9, 0.15) 0%,
+    rgba(26, 18, 9, 0.4) 40%,
+    rgba(26, 18, 9, 0.95) 75%
+  );
+}
+
+/* About Section */
+.about-section {
+  max-width: 900px;
+  margin: 0 auto;
+  padding: 1rem 1.5rem 2.5rem;
+  text-align: center;
+}
+
+.about-section p {
+  font-size: 1.05rem;
+  color: var(--text-muted);
+  line-height: 1.7;
+  max-width: 600px;
+  margin: 0 auto;
+}
+
+.about-section p + p {
+  margin-top: 0.75rem;
+}
+
+.about-teaser {
+  color: var(--text) !important;
+  font-weight: 600;
+  font-size: 1.1rem !important;
+}
+
+/* Featured Clips (homepage) */
+.home-clips-section {
+  max-width: 900px;
+  margin: 0 auto;
+  padding: 0 1.5rem 2.5rem;
+}
+
+.home-clips-header {
+  display: flex;
+  align-items: baseline;
+  justify-content: space-between;
+  margin-bottom: 1rem;
+}
+
+.home-clips-header h2 {
+  font-size: 1.5rem;
+  font-weight: 700;
+}
+
+.home-clips-grid {
+  display: grid;
+  grid-template-columns: repeat(3, 1fr);
+  gap: 1rem;
+}
+
 /* Desktop */
 @media (min-width: 768px) {
   .hero {
-    padding: 4rem 2rem 2.5rem;
+    padding: 3.5rem 2rem 2.5rem;
+    max-width: 1000px;
   }
 
   .hero-inner {
     flex-direction: row;
     text-align: left;
-    gap: 3rem;
+    gap: 2.5rem;
+    align-items: center;
   }
 
   .hero-info {
@@ -893,11 +1506,27 @@ a:hover {
   }
 
   .cover-art {
-    width: 260px;
-    height: 260px;
+    width: 280px;
+    height: 280px;
+    flex-shrink: 0;
+  }
+
+  .hero h1 {
+    font-size: 2.8rem;
+  }
+
+  .phone {
+    justify-content: flex-start;
   }
 
   .subscribe-row {
+    flex-direction: row;
+    align-items: center;
+    justify-content: flex-start;
+    gap: 0.5rem;
+  }
+
+  .secondary-links {
     justify-content: flex-start;
   }
 
@@ -920,4 +1549,59 @@ a:hover {
   .diagram-row-split {
     flex-wrap: nowrap;
   }
+
+  .stats-container {
+    padding: 0 2rem 3rem;
+  }
+
+  .clips-featured,
+  .clips-grid {
+    padding: 0 2rem 2rem;
+  }
+
+  .clips-section-header {
+    padding: 0 2rem;
+  }
+
+  .home-clips-section {
+    padding: 0 2rem 2.5rem;
+  }
+
+  .about-section {
+    padding: 1rem 2rem 2.5rem;
+  }
+}
+
+@media (max-width: 767px) {
+  .clips-featured,
+  .home-clips-grid {
+    grid-template-columns: repeat(2, 1fr);
+  }
+
+  .clips-grid {
+    grid-template-columns: repeat(2, 1fr);
+  }
+
+  .clip-card-title {
+    font-size: 0.85rem;
+  }
+
+  .clip-card-desc {
+    display: none;
+  }
+}
+
+@media (max-width: 480px) {
+  .clips-grid {
+    grid-template-columns: 1fr;
+  }
+
+  .clips-featured,
+  .home-clips-grid {
+    grid-template-columns: 1fr;
+  }
+
+  .clip-card-desc {
+    display: -webkit-box;
+  }
 }

website/data/clips.json

@@ -0,0 +1,209 @@
+[
+  {
+    "title": "Man Obsessed With Dead Nun Loses Wife",
+    "description": "Rodney couldn't stop talking about a dead nun who shared his wife's name. His wife was NOT amused.",
+    "episode_number": 33,
+    "clip_file": "clip-1-man-obsessed-with-dead-nun-loses-wife.mp4",
+    "youtube_id": "zD8CdX7s8us",
+    "featured": false,
+    "thumbnail": "images/clips/clip-1-man-obsessed-with-dead-nun-loses-wife.jpg"
+  },
+  {
+    "title": "I Faked Cancer to Skip a Wedding",
+    "description": "A small lie to skip his sister's FOURTH wedding spiraled into a GoFundMe, a pancake breakfast fundraiser, and a $4,700 check. Now he's in too deep.",
+    "episode_number": 32,
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+    "description": "Rita thought she was being sneaky meeting her ex every Thursday at a Deming motel... until her husband started tracking the mileage. Luke's response? Absolutely brutal.",
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+    "title": "Cemetery Widow Stalker",
+    "description": "A cemetery groundskeeper thought a widow was mourning her husband... until he realized she keeps showing up at midnight asking his COWORKERS about him. This one gets creepy fast.",
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+  <meta name="description" content="How Luke at the Roost works: AI-generated callers with unique personalities, real phone calls, voice synthesis, multi-stem recording, and automated post-production.">
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+  <meta property="og:description" content="The tech behind a one-of-a-kind AI radio show: real-time caller generation, multi-stem recording, automated post-production, and global CDN distribution — all custom-built.">
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+  <link rel="alternate" type="application/rss+xml" title="Luke at the Roost RSS Feed" href="https://podcast.macneilmediagroup.com/@LukeAtTheRoost/feed.xml">
+  <link rel="stylesheet" href="css/style.css?v=3">
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+    "image": "https://cdn.lukeattheroost.com/media/podcasts/LukeAtTheRoost/cover_feed.png?v=3",
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@@ -30,67 +69,6 @@
     <p class="page-subtitle">Every caller on the show is a one-of-a-kind character — generated in real time by a custom-built AI system. Here's a peek behind the curtain.</p>
   </section>
 
-  <!-- Overview -->
-  <section class="hiw-section">
-    <div class="hiw-card hiw-hero-card">
-      <div class="hiw-diagram">
-        <div class="diagram-row">
-          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
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-          <div class="diagram-box">
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-            <span>Control Room</span>
-          </div>
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-        <div class="diagram-arrow">&#8595;</div>
-        <div class="diagram-row diagram-row-split">
-          <div class="diagram-box">
-            <div class="diagram-icon">
-              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><path d="M21 15a2 2 0 0 1-2 2H7l-4 4V5a2 2 0 0 1 2-2h14a2 2 0 0 1 2 2z"/></svg>
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-            <span>AI Brain</span>
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-            <div class="diagram-icon">
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-            <span>Live News</span>
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-        <div class="diagram-arrow">&#8595;</div>
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-            <span>AI Callers</span>
-          </div>
-          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
-            <div class="diagram-icon">
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-            </div>
-            <span>Real Callers</span>
-          </div>
-        </div>
-      </div>
-    </div>
-  </section>
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   <section class="hiw-section">
     <h2>The Anatomy of an AI Caller</h2>
@@ -101,22 +79,24 @@
         <div class="hiw-step-content">
           <h3>A Person Is Born</h3>
           <p>Every caller starts as a blank slate. The system generates a complete identity: name, age, job, hometown, and personality. Each caller gets a unique speaking style — some ramble, some are blunt, some deflect with humor. They have relationships, vehicles, strong food opinions, nostalgic memories, and reasons for being up this late. They know what they were watching on TV, what errand they ran today, and what song was on the radio before they called.</p>
+          <p>Some callers become regulars. The system tracks returning callers across episodes — they remember past conversations, reference things they talked about before, and their stories evolve over time. You'll hear Leon check in about going back to school, or Shaniqua update you on her situation at work. They're not reset between shows.</p>
+          <p>And some callers are drunk, high, or flat-out unhinged. They'll call with conspiracy theories about pigeons being government drones, existential crises about whether fish know they're wet, or to confess they accidentally set their kitchen on fire trying to make grilled cheese at 3 AM.</p>
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             <div class="hiw-detail">
               <span class="hiw-detail-label">Unique Names</span>
-              <span class="hiw-detail-value">48 names</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">160</span>
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-              <span class="hiw-detail-value">30+</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">300+</span>
             </div>
             <div class="hiw-detail">
               <span class="hiw-detail-label">Towns with Real Knowledge</span>
-              <span class="hiw-detail-value">32</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">55</span>
             </div>
             <div class="hiw-detail">
-              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Unique Voices</span>
-              <span class="hiw-detail-value">25</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Returning Regulars</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">12 callers</span>
             </div>
           </div>
         </div>
@@ -126,7 +106,7 @@
         <div class="hiw-step-number">2</div>
         <div class="hiw-step-content">
           <h3>They Know Their World</h3>
-          <p>Callers know real facts about where they live — the restaurants, the highways, the local gossip. When a caller says they're from Lordsburg, they actually know about the Shakespeare ghost town and the drive to Deming. They know the current weather outside their window, what day of the week it is, whether it's monsoon season or chile harvest. They have strong opinions about where to get the best green chile and get nostalgic about how their town used to be. The system also pulls in real-time news so callers can reference things that actually happened today.</p>
+          <p>Callers know real facts about where they live — the restaurants, the highways, the local gossip. The system has deep knowledge of 55 real towns across New Mexico and Arizona. When a caller says they're from Lordsburg, they actually know about the Shakespeare ghost town and the drive to Deming. They know the current weather outside their window, what day of the week it is, whether it's monsoon season or chile harvest. They have strong opinions about where to get the best green chile and get nostalgic about how their town used to be. The system also pulls in real-time news so callers can reference things that actually happened today.</p>
         </div>
       </div>
 
@@ -134,7 +114,7 @@
         <div class="hiw-step-number">3</div>
         <div class="hiw-step-content">
           <h3>They Have a Reason to Call</h3>
-          <p>Some callers have a problem — a fight with a neighbor, a situation at work, something weighing on them at 2 AM. Others call to geek out about Severance, argue about poker strategy, or share something they read about quantum physics. Every caller has a purpose, not just a script.</p>
+          <p>Some callers have a problem — a fight with a neighbor, a situation at work, something weighing on them at 2 AM. Others call to geek out about Severance, argue about poker strategy, or share something they read about quantum physics. The system draws from over 1,000 unique calling reasons across dozens of categories — problems, stories, advice-seeking, gossip, and deep-dive topics. Every caller has a purpose, not just a script.</p>
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@@ -160,24 +140,427 @@
         <div class="hiw-step-number">5</div>
         <div class="hiw-step-content">
           <h3>Real Callers Call In Too</h3>
-          <p>When you dial 208-439-LUKE, your call goes into a live queue. Luke sees you waiting and can take your call right from the control room. Your voice streams in real time — no pre-recording, no delay. You're live on the show, talking to Luke, and the AI callers might even react to what you said.</p>
+          <p>When you dial 208-439-LUKE, your call goes into a live queue. Luke sees you waiting and can take your call right from the control room. Your voice streams in real time — no pre-recording, no delay. You're live on the show, talking to Luke, and the AI callers might even react to what you said. And if Luke isn't live, you can leave a voicemail — it gets transcribed and may get played on a future episode.</p>
         </div>
       </div>
 
       <div class="hiw-step">
         <div class="hiw-step-number">6</div>
+        <div class="hiw-step-content">
+          <h3>Listener Emails</h3>
+          <p>Listeners can send emails to <a href="mailto:submissions@lukeattheroost.com" style="color:var(--accent)">submissions@lukeattheroost.com</a> and have them read on the show. A background poller checks for new messages every 30 seconds — they show up in the control room as soon as they arrive. Luke can read them himself on the mic, or hit a button to have an AI voice read them aloud on the caller channel. It's like a call-in show meets a letters segment — listeners who can't call in can still be part of the conversation.</p>
+        </div>
+      </div>
+
+      <div class="hiw-step">
+        <div class="hiw-step-number">7</div>
         <div class="hiw-step-content">
           <h3>The Control Room</h3>
-          <p>The entire show runs through a custom-built control panel. Luke manages callers, plays music and sound effects, runs ads, monitors the call queue, and controls everything from one screen. Audio is routed across multiple channels simultaneously — caller voices, music, sound effects, and live phone audio all on separate tracks for professional mixing.</p>
+          <p>The entire show runs through a custom-built control panel. Luke manages callers, plays music and sound effects, runs ads and station idents, monitors the call queue, and controls everything from one screen. Audio is routed across seven independent channels simultaneously — host mic, AI caller voices, live phone audio, music, sound effects, ads, and station idents all on separate tracks. The website shows a live on-air indicator so listeners know when to call in.</p>
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             <div class="hiw-detail">
               <span class="hiw-detail-label">Audio Channels</span>
-              <span class="hiw-detail-value">5 independent</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">7 independent</span>
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             <div class="hiw-detail">
               <span class="hiw-detail-label">Caller Slots</span>
               <span class="hiw-detail-value">10 per session</span>
             </div>
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Phone System</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">VoIP + WebSocket</span>
+            </div>
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Live Status</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">Real-time CDN</span>
+            </div>
+          </div>
+        </div>
+      </div>
+    </div>
+  </section>
+
+  <!-- Overview -->
+  <section class="hiw-section">
+    <div class="hiw-card hiw-hero-card">
+      <div class="hiw-diagram">
+        <!-- Row 1: Inputs -->
+        <div class="diagram-label">Live Show</div>
+        <div class="diagram-row diagram-row-split">
+          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><path d="M12 1a3 3 0 0 0-3 3v8a3 3 0 0 0 6 0V4a3 3 0 0 0-3-3z"/><path d="M19 10v2a7 7 0 0 1-14 0v-2"/><line x1="12" y1="19" x2="12" y2="23"/><line x1="8" y1="23" x2="16" y2="23"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Luke (Host)</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><path d="M17 21v-2a4 4 0 0 0-4-4H5a4 4 0 0 0-4 4v2"/><circle cx="9" cy="7" r="4"/><path d="M23 21v-2a4 4 0 0 0-3-3.87"/><path d="M16 3.13a4 4 0 0 1 0 7.75"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>AI Callers</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><path d="M22 16.92v3a2 2 0 0 1-2.18 2 19.79 19.79 0 0 1-8.63-3.07 19.5 19.5 0 0 1-6-6 19.79 19.79 0 0 1-3.07-8.67A2 2 0 0 1 4.11 2h3a2 2 0 0 1 2 1.72 12.84 12.84 0 0 0 .7 2.81 2 2 0 0 1-.45 2.11L8.09 9.91a16 16 0 0 0 6 6l1.27-1.27a2 2 0 0 1 2.11-.45 12.84 12.84 0 0 0 2.81.7A2 2 0 0 1 22 16.92z"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Real Callers</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><rect x="2" y="2" width="20" height="16" rx="2"/><path d="M2 6l10 7 10-7"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Voicemails</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><path d="M4 4h16c1.1 0 2 .9 2 2v12c0 1.1-.9 2-2 2H4c-1.1 0-2-.9-2-2V6c0-1.1.9-2 2-2z"/><polyline points="22,6 12,13 2,6"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Listener Emails</span>
+          </div>
+        </div>
+        <div class="diagram-arrow">&#8595;</div>
+        <!-- Row 2: Control Room -->
+        <div class="diagram-row">
+          <div class="diagram-box">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><rect x="2" y="3" width="20" height="14" rx="2"/><line x1="8" y1="21" x2="16" y2="21"/><line x1="12" y1="17" x2="12" y2="21"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Control Room</span>
+          </div>
+        </div>
+        <div class="diagram-arrow">&#8595;</div>
+        <!-- Row 3: Engine Layer -->
+        <div class="diagram-row diagram-row-split">
+          <div class="diagram-box">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><path d="M21 15a2 2 0 0 1-2 2H7l-4 4V5a2 2 0 0 1 2-2h14a2 2 0 0 1 2 2z"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>LLM Dialog</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><path d="M12 1a3 3 0 0 0-3 3v8a3 3 0 0 0 6 0V4a3 3 0 0 0-3-3z"/><path d="M19 10v2a7 7 0 0 1-14 0v-2"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Voice Synthesis</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><circle cx="12" cy="12" r="10"/><line x1="2" y1="12" x2="22" y2="12"/><path d="M12 2a15.3 15.3 0 0 1 4 10 15.3 15.3 0 0 1-4 10 15.3 15.3 0 0 1-4-10 15.3 15.3 0 0 1 4-10z"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Live Data</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><path d="M9 18V5l12-2v13"/><circle cx="6" cy="18" r="3"/><circle cx="18" cy="16" r="3"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Audio Router</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><path d="M22 16.92v3a2 2 0 0 1-2.18 2 19.79 19.79 0 0 1-8.63-3.07 19.5 19.5 0 0 1-6-6 19.79 19.79 0 0 1-3.07-8.67A2 2 0 0 1 4.11 2h3a2 2 0 0 1 2 1.72 12.84 12.84 0 0 0 .7 2.81 2 2 0 0 1-.45 2.11L8.09 9.91a16 16 0 0 0 6 6l1.27-1.27a2 2 0 0 1 2.11-.45 12.84 12.84 0 0 0 2.81.7A2 2 0 0 1 22 16.92z"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Phone System</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><rect x="3" y="3" width="18" height="18" rx="2"/><path d="M3 9h18"/><path d="M9 21V9"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Ad Engine</span>
+          </div>
+        </div>
+        <!-- Row 4: Recording -->
+        <div class="diagram-row">
+          <div class="diagram-box">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><circle cx="12" cy="12" r="10"/><circle cx="12" cy="12" r="3" fill="currentColor"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Multi-Stem Recorder</span>
+          </div>
+        </div>
+        <div class="diagram-arrow">&#8595;</div>
+        <!-- Row 5: Post-Production -->
+        <div class="diagram-label">Post-Production</div>
+        <div class="diagram-row diagram-row-split">
+          <div class="diagram-box">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><polygon points="11 5 6 9 2 9 2 15 6 15 11 19 11 5"/><path d="M19.07 4.93a10 10 0 0 1 0 14.14"/><path d="M15.54 8.46a5 5 0 0 1 0 7.07"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Compression &amp; Ducking</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><polyline points="22 12 18 12 15 21 9 3 6 12 2 12"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Loudness Normalization</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><path d="M14 2H6a2 2 0 0 0-2 2v16a2 2 0 0 0 2 2h12a2 2 0 0 0 2-2V8z"/><polyline points="14 2 14 8 20 8"/><line x1="16" y1="13" x2="8" y2="13"/><line x1="16" y1="17" x2="8" y2="17"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Transcription</span>
+          </div>
+        </div>
+        <div class="diagram-arrow">&#8595;</div>
+        <!-- Row 6: Publishing -->
+        <div class="diagram-label">Publishing</div>
+        <div class="diagram-row diagram-row-split">
+          <div class="diagram-box">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><path d="M4 15s1-1 4-1 5 2 8 2 4-1 4-1V3s-1 1-4 1-5-2-8-2-4 1-4 1z"/><line x1="4" y1="22" x2="4" y2="15"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Podcast Server</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><path d="M22 12h-4l-3 9L9 3l-3 9H2"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>CDN Edge Network</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><rect x="2" y="3" width="20" height="14" rx="2"/><line x1="8" y1="21" x2="16" y2="21"/><line x1="12" y1="17" x2="12" y2="21"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Website</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><rect x="2" y="3" width="20" height="11" rx="2"/><path d="M7 21h10"/><path d="M12 14v7"/><polygon points="10 8 16 11 10 14 10 8"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Social Clips</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><path d="M22 12h-4l-3 9L9 3l-3 9H2"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Monitoring</span>
+          </div>
+        </div>
+        <div class="diagram-arrow">&#8595;</div>
+        <!-- Row 7: Distribution -->
+        <div class="diagram-label">Distribution</div>
+        <div class="diagram-row-compact">
+          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="currentColor"><path d="M12 0C5.4 0 0 5.4 0 12s5.4 12 12 12 12-5.4 12-12S18.66 0 12 0zm5.521 17.34c-.24.359-.66.48-1.021.24-2.82-1.74-6.36-2.101-10.561-1.141-.418.122-.779-.179-.899-.539-.12-.421.18-.78.54-.9 4.56-1.021 8.52-.6 11.64 1.32.42.18.479.659.301 1.02zm1.44-3.3c-.301.42-.841.6-1.262.3-3.239-1.98-8.159-2.58-11.939-1.38-.479.12-1.02-.12-1.14-.6-.12-.48.12-1.021.6-1.141C9.6 9.9 15 10.561 18.72 12.84c.361.181.54.78.241 1.2zm.12-3.36C15.24 8.4 8.82 8.16 5.16 9.301c-.6.179-1.2-.181-1.38-.721-.18-.601.18-1.2.72-1.381 4.26-1.26 11.28-1.02 15.721 1.621.539.3.719 1.02.419 1.56-.299.421-1.02.599-1.559.3z"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Spotify</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="currentColor"><path d="M5.34 0A5.328 5.328 0 0 0 0 5.34v13.32A5.328 5.328 0 0 0 5.34 24h13.32A5.328 5.328 0 0 0 24 18.66V5.34A5.328 5.328 0 0 0 18.66 0z"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Apple</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="currentColor"><path d="M23.498 6.186a3.016 3.016 0 0 0-2.122-2.136C19.505 3.545 12 3.545 12 3.545s-7.505 0-9.377.505A3.017 3.017 0 0 0 .502 6.186C0 8.07 0 12 0 12s0 3.93.502 5.814a3.016 3.016 0 0 0 2.122 2.136c1.871.505 9.376.505 9.376.505s7.505 0 9.377-.505a3.015 3.015 0 0 0 2.122-2.136C24 15.93 24 12 24 12s0-3.93-.502-5.814z"/><path d="M9.545 15.568V8.432L15.818 12z" fill="#fff"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>YouTube</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><path d="M6.503 20.752c0 1.794-1.456 3.248-3.251 3.248S0 22.546 0 20.752s1.456-3.248 3.252-3.248 3.251 1.454 3.251 3.248z"/><path d="M.002 9.473v4.594c5.508.163 9.929 4.584 10.092 10.091h4.594"/><path d="M.006 0v4.604C10.81 4.77 19.23 13.19 19.396 24h4.604"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>RSS</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="currentColor"><path d="M12 2C6.5 2 2 6.5 2 12s4.5 10 10 10 10-4.5 10-10S17.5 2 12 2zm3.1 14.5c-1.7 1-3.8.6-4.8-1.1-1-1.7-.6-3.8 1.1-4.8 1.7-1 3.8-.6 4.8 1.1 1 1.7.5 3.8-1.1 4.8z"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Instagram</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="currentColor"><path d="M24 12.073c0-6.627-5.373-12-12-12s-12 5.373-12 12c0 5.99 4.388 10.954 10.125 11.854v-8.385H7.078v-3.47h3.047V9.43c0-3.007 1.792-4.669 4.533-4.669 1.312 0 2.686.235 2.686.235v2.953H15.83c-1.491 0-1.956.925-1.956 1.874v2.25h3.328l-.532 3.47h-2.796v8.385C19.612 23.027 24 18.062 24 12.073z"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Facebook</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 568 501" fill="currentColor"><path d="M123.121 33.664C188.241 82.553 258.281 181.68 284 234.873c25.719-53.192 95.759-152.32 160.879-201.21C491.866-1.611 568-28.906 568 57.947c0 17.346-9.945 145.713-15.778 166.555-20.275 72.453-94.155 90.933-159.875 79.748C507.222 323.8 536.444 388.56 473.333 453.32c-119.86 122.992-172.272-30.859-185.702-70.281-2.462-7.227-3.614-10.608-3.631-7.733-.017-2.875-1.169.506-3.631 7.733-13.43 39.422-65.842 193.273-185.702 70.281-63.111-64.76-33.89-129.52 80.986-149.071-65.72 11.185-139.6-7.295-159.875-79.748C10.945 203.659 1 75.291 1 57.946 1-28.906 76.134-1.612 123.121 33.664z"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Bluesky</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="currentColor"><path d="M23.268 5.313c-.35-2.578-2.617-4.61-5.304-5.004C17.51.242 15.792 0 11.813 0h-.03c-3.98 0-4.835.242-5.288.309C3.882.692 1.496 2.518.917 5.127.64 6.412.61 7.837.661 9.143c.074 1.874.088 3.745.26 5.611.118 1.24.325 2.47.62 3.68.55 2.237 2.777 4.098 4.96 4.857 2.336.792 4.849.923 7.256.38.265-.061.527-.132.786-.213.585-.184 1.27-.39 1.774-.753a.057.057 0 0 0 .023-.043v-1.809a.052.052 0 0 0-.02-.041.053.053 0 0 0-.046-.01 20.282 20.282 0 0 1-4.709.545c-2.73 0-3.463-1.284-3.674-1.818a5.593 5.593 0 0 1-.319-1.433.053.053 0 0 1 .066-.054 19.648 19.648 0 0 0 4.636.528c.164 0 .329 0 .494-.002 1.694-.042 3.48-.152 5.12-.554 2.21-.543 4.137-2.186 4.348-4.55.162-1.808.21-3.627.142-5.43-.02-.6-.168-1.874-.168-1.874z"/><path d="M19.903 7.515v5.834c0 1.226-.996 2.222-2.222 2.222h-.796c-1.226 0-2.222-.996-2.222-2.222V7.628c0-1.226.996-2.222 2.222-2.222h.796c.122 0 .242.01.36.03 1.076.164 1.862 1.098 1.862 2.192zM9.337 7.515v5.834c0 1.226-.996 2.222-2.222 2.222h-.796c-1.226 0-2.222-.996-2.222-2.222V7.628c0-1.226.996-2.222 2.222-2.222h.796c.122 0 .242.01.36.03 1.076.164 1.862 1.098 1.862 2.192z" fill="#fff"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Mastodon</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="currentColor"><path d="M12.186.31a.27.27 0 0 0-.372 0C8.46 3.487 2.666 9.93 2.666 15.042c0 5.176 4.183 8.958 9.334 8.958s9.334-3.782 9.334-8.958c0-5.112-5.794-11.555-9.148-14.732z"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Nostr</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="currentColor"><path d="M20.447 20.452h-3.554v-5.569c0-1.328-.027-3.037-1.852-3.037-1.853 0-2.136 1.445-2.136 2.939v5.667H9.351V9h3.414v1.561h.046c.477-.9 1.637-1.85 3.37-1.85 3.601 0 4.267 2.37 4.267 5.455v6.286zM5.337 7.433a2.062 2.062 0 0 1-2.063-2.065 2.064 2.064 0 1 1 2.063 2.065zm1.782 13.019H3.555V9h3.564v11.452zM22.225 0H1.771C.792 0 0 .774 0 1.729v20.542C0 23.227.792 24 1.771 24h20.451C23.2 24 24 23.227 24 22.271V1.729C24 .774 23.2 0 22.222 0h.003z"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>LinkedIn</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="currentColor"><path d="M12.159 2c-5.543 0-9.94 4.486-9.94 9.94 0 2.16.72 4.148 1.897 5.852l-1.26 4.463 4.612-1.188A9.882 9.882 0 0 0 12.16 22c5.543 0 9.94-4.486 9.94-9.94 0-5.543-4.486-10.06-9.94-10.06z"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Threads</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="currentColor"><path d="M12.525.02c1.31-.02 2.61-.01 3.91-.02.08 1.53.63 3.09 1.75 4.17 1.12 1.11 2.7 1.62 4.24 1.79v4.03c-1.44-.05-2.89-.35-4.2-.97-.57-.26-1.1-.59-1.62-.93-.01 2.92.01 5.84-.02 8.75-.08 1.4-.54 2.79-1.35 3.94-1.31 1.92-3.58 3.17-5.91 3.21-1.43.08-2.86-.31-4.08-1.03-2.02-1.19-3.44-3.37-3.65-5.71-.02-.5-.03-1-.01-1.49.18-1.9 1.12-3.72 2.58-4.96 1.66-1.44 3.98-2.13 6.15-1.72.02 1.48-.04 2.96-.04 4.44-.99-.32-2.15-.23-3.02.37-.63.41-1.11 1.04-1.36 1.75-.21.51-.15 1.07-.14 1.61.24 1.64 1.82 3.02 3.5 2.87 1.12-.01 2.19-.66 2.77-1.61.19-.33.4-.67.41-1.06.1-1.79.06-3.57.07-5.36.01-4.03-.01-8.05.02-12.07z"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>TikTok</span>
+          </div>
+          <div class="diagram-box diagram-accent">
+            <div class="diagram-icon">
+              <svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2"><path d="M18 20V10"/><path d="M12 20V4"/><path d="M6 20v-6"/></svg>
+            </div>
+            <span>Analytics</span>
+          </div>
+        </div>
+      </div>
+    </div>
+  </section>
+
+  <!-- Post-Production Pipeline -->
+  <section class="hiw-section">
+    <h2>From Live Show to Podcast</h2>
+
+    <div class="hiw-steps">
+      <div class="hiw-step">
+        <div class="hiw-step-number">8</div>
+        <div class="hiw-step-content">
+          <h3>Multi-Stem Recording</h3>
+          <p>During every show, the system records six separate audio stems simultaneously: host microphone, AI caller voices, music, sound effects, ads, and station idents. Each stem is captured as an independent WAV file with sample-accurate alignment. This gives full control over the final mix — like having a recording studio's multitrack session, not just a flat recording.</p>
+          <div class="hiw-detail-grid">
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Stems Captured</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">6 parallel</span>
+            </div>
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Format</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">48kHz WAV</span>
+            </div>
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Sync Method</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">Time-aligned</span>
+            </div>
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Architecture</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">Lock-free I/O</span>
+            </div>
+          </div>
+        </div>
+      </div>
+
+      <div class="hiw-step">
+        <div class="hiw-step-number">9</div>
+        <div class="hiw-step-content">
+          <h3>Dialog Editing in REAPER</h3>
+          <p>Before the automated pipeline runs, the raw stems are loaded into REAPER for dialog editing. A custom Lua script analyzes voice tracks to detect silence gaps — the dead air between caller responses, TTS latency pauses, and gaps where Luke is reading the control room. The script strips these silences and ripple-edits all tracks in sync so ads, idents, and music shift with the dialog cuts. Protected regions marked as ads or idents are preserved — the script knows not to remove silence during an ad break even if the voice tracks are quiet. This tightens a raw two-hour session into a focused episode without cutting any content.</p>
+        </div>
+      </div>
+
+      <div class="hiw-step">
+        <div class="hiw-step-number">10</div>
+        <div class="hiw-step-content">
+          <h3>Post-Production Pipeline</h3>
+          <p>Once the show ends, a 15-step automated pipeline processes the raw stems into a broadcast-ready episode. Ads and sound effects are hard-limited to prevent clipping. The host mic gets a high-pass filter, de-essing, and breath reduction. Voice tracks are compressed — the host gets aggressive spoken-word compression for consistent levels, callers get telephone EQ to sound like real phone calls. All stems are level-matched, music is ducked under dialog and muted during ads, then everything is mixed to stereo with panning and width. A bus compressor glues the final mix together before silence trimming, fades, and EBU R128 loudness normalization.</p>
+          <div class="hiw-detail-grid">
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Pipeline Steps</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">15</span>
+            </div>
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Loudness Target</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">-16 LUFS</span>
+            </div>
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Loudness Range</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">~5.5 LU</span>
+            </div>
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Output</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">Stereo MP3</span>
+            </div>
+          </div>
+        </div>
+      </div>
+
+      <div class="hiw-step">
+        <div class="hiw-step-number">11</div>
+        <div class="hiw-step-content">
+          <h3>Automated Publishing</h3>
+          <p>A single command takes a finished episode and handles everything: the audio is transcribed using MLX Whisper running on Apple Silicon GPU to generate full-text transcripts, then an LLM analyzes the transcript to write the episode title, description, and chapter markers with timestamps. The episode is uploaded to the podcast server and directly to YouTube with chapters baked into the description. Chapters and transcripts are attached to the RSS metadata, all media is synced to a global CDN, and social posts are pushed to eight platforms — all from one command.</p>
+          <div class="hiw-detail-grid">
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Transcription</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">MLX Whisper (GPU)</span>
+            </div>
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Metadata</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">LLM-generated</span>
+            </div>
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Chapters</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">Auto-detected</span>
+            </div>
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Deploy Time</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">~2 min</span>
+            </div>
+          </div>
+        </div>
+      </div>
+
+      <div class="hiw-step">
+        <div class="hiw-step-number">12</div>
+        <div class="hiw-step-content">
+          <h3>Automated Social Clips</h3>
+          <p>No manual editing, no scheduling tools. After each episode, an LLM reads the full transcript and picks the best moments — funny exchanges, wild confessions, heated debates. Each clip is automatically extracted, transcribed with word-level timestamps, then polished by a second LLM pass that fixes punctuation, capitalization, and misheard words while preserving timing. The clips are rendered as vertical video with speaker-labeled captions and the show's branding. A third LLM writes platform-specific descriptions and hashtags. Then clips are uploaded directly to YouTube Shorts and Bluesky via their APIs, and pushed to Instagram Reels, Facebook Reels, Mastodon, Nostr, LinkedIn, Threads, and TikTok — nine platforms, zero manual work.</p>
+          <div class="hiw-detail-grid">
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Human Effort</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">Zero</span>
+            </div>
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Video Format</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">1080x1920 MP4</span>
+            </div>
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Captions</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">LLM-polished</span>
+            </div>
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Simultaneous Push</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">9 platforms</span>
+            </div>
+          </div>
+        </div>
+      </div>
+
+      <div class="hiw-step">
+        <div class="hiw-step-number">13</div>
+        <div class="hiw-step-content">
+          <h3>Global Distribution</h3>
+          <p>Episodes are served through a CDN edge network for fast, reliable playback worldwide. The RSS feed is automatically updated and picked up by Spotify, Apple Podcasts, YouTube, and every other podcast app. The website pulls the live feed to show episodes with embedded playback, full transcripts, and chapter navigation — all served through Cloudflare with edge caching. From recording to available on every platform, the whole pipeline is automated end-to-end.</p>
+          <div class="hiw-detail-grid">
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Audio Delivery</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">Global CDN</span>
+            </div>
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Website</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">Cloudflare Edge</span>
+            </div>
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Platforms</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">5+ directories</span>
+            </div>
+            <div class="hiw-detail">
+              <span class="hiw-detail-label">Feed Format</span>
+              <span class="hiw-detail-value">RSS + Podcast 2.0</span>
+            </div>
           </div>
         </div>
       </div>
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-        <p>This isn't an app with a plugin. Every piece — the caller generator, the voice engine, the control room, the phone system, the audio routing — was built specifically for this show. No templates, no shortcuts.</p>
+        <p>This isn't an app with a plugin. Every piece — the caller generator, the voice engine, the control room, the phone system, the post-production pipeline, the publishing automation — was built specifically for this show.</p>
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         <h3>They Listen to Each Other</h3>
         <p>Callers aren't isolated — they hear what happened earlier in the show. A caller might disagree with the last guy, back someone up, or call in specifically because of something another caller said. The show builds on itself.</p>
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+        </div>
+        <h3>Broadcast-Grade Audio</h3>
+        <p>Every episode runs through a 15-step post-production pipeline: stem limiting, high-pass filtering, de-essing, breath reduction, spoken-word compression, telephone EQ, level matching, music ducking with ad muting, stereo imaging, bus compression, and EBU R128 loudness normalization.</p>
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+        <h3>Fully Automated Pipeline</h3>
+        <p>From recording to your podcast app, the entire pipeline is automated. Post-production kicks off when the show ends, then a publish script handles transcription, AI-generated metadata, chapter detection, CDN sync, and RSS distribution — all with a single command.</p>
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+
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+      <p class="hiw-video-caption">The entire post-production pipeline runs automatically through Reaper scripting. Silence removal, ad ducking, and EBU R128 loudness normalization — all triggered with a single command when the show ends.</p>
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+      </div>
     </div>
     <div class="footer-projects">
       <span class="footer-projects-label">More from Luke</span>
@@ -207,8 +262,9 @@
         <a href="https://youtube.com/lukemacneil" target="_blank" rel="noopener">YouTube</a>
       </div>
     </div>
-    <p class="footer-contact">Sales &amp; Collaboration: <a href="mailto:luke@macneilmediagroup.com">luke@macneilmediagroup.com</a></p>
-    <p>&copy; 2026 Luke at the Roost</p>
+    <p class="footer-contact"><a href="https://ko-fi.com/lukemacneil" target="_blank" rel="noopener">Support the Show</a></p>
+    <p class="footer-contact">Sales &amp; Collaboration: <a href="mailto:luke@lukeattheroost.com">luke@lukeattheroost.com</a></p>
+    <p>&copy; 2026 Luke at the Roost &middot; <a href="/privacy">Privacy Policy</a> &middot; <a href="/terms">Terms of Service</a> &middot; <a href="https://monitoring.macneilmediagroup.com/status/lukeattheroost" target="_blank" rel="noopener">System Status</a></p>
   </footer>
 
   <!-- Sticky Audio Player -->
@@ -232,6 +288,8 @@
 
   <audio id="audio-element" preload="none"></audio>
 
-  <script src="js/app.js"></script>
+  <script src="js/clips.js"></script>
+  <script>renderFeaturedClipsInline('home-clips');</script>
+  <script src="js/app.js?v=2"></script>
 </body>
 </html>

website/js/app.js

@@ -119,6 +119,7 @@ function renderEpisodes(episodes) {
     const durStr = parseDuration(ep.duration);
 
     const metaParts = [epLabel, dateStr, durStr].filter(Boolean).join(' · ');
+    const epSlug = ep.link ? ep.link.split('/episodes/').pop()?.replace(/\/$/, '') : '';
 
     card.innerHTML = `
       <button class="episode-play-btn" aria-label="Play ${ep.title}" data-url="${ep.audioUrl}" data-title="${ep.title.replace(/"/g, '&quot;')}">
@@ -128,6 +129,7 @@ function renderEpisodes(episodes) {
         <div class="episode-meta">${metaParts}</div>
         <div class="episode-title">${ep.title}</div>
         <div class="episode-desc">${truncate(ep.description, 150)}</div>
+        ${epSlug ? `<a href="/episode.html?slug=${epSlug}" class="episode-transcript-link">Read Transcript</a>` : ''}
       </div>
     `;
 

website/js/clips.js

@@ -0,0 +1,85 @@
+const CLIPS_JSON_URL = '/data/clips.json';
+
+const clipPlaySVG = '<svg viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="#fff"><path d="M8 5v14l11-7z"/></svg>';
+
+function renderClipCard(clip, featured) {
+  const card = document.createElement('div');
+  card.className = 'clip-card' + (featured ? ' clip-card-featured' : '');
+  if (clip.youtube_id) card.dataset.youtubeId = clip.youtube_id;
+
+  const hasVideo = !!clip.youtube_id;
+  const epLabel = clip.episode_number ? `Episode ${clip.episode_number}` : '';
+
+  const thumbStyle = clip.thumbnail
+    ? `style="background-image: url('/${clip.thumbnail}'); background-size: cover; background-position: center;"`
+    : '';
+
+  card.innerHTML = `
+    <div class="clip-card-inner" ${thumbStyle}>
+      <div class="clip-card-overlay">
+        <span class="clip-episode-label">${epLabel}</span>
+        <h3 class="clip-card-title">${clip.title || ''}</h3>
+        <p class="clip-card-desc">${clip.description || ''}</p>
+        ${hasVideo ? `<button class="clip-play-btn" aria-label="Play clip">${clipPlaySVG}</button>` : ''}
+      </div>
+    </div>
+  `;
+
+  if (hasVideo) {
+    card.querySelector('.clip-play-btn').addEventListener('click', (e) => {
+      e.stopPropagation();
+      const inner = card.querySelector('.clip-card-inner');
+      inner.innerHTML = `<iframe src="https://www.youtube-nocookie.com/embed/${clip.youtube_id}?autoplay=1&rel=0" frameborder="0" allow="autoplay; encrypted-media" allowfullscreen></iframe>`;
+    });
+  }
+
+  return card;
+}
+
+async function fetchClips() {
+  try {
+    const res = await fetch(CLIPS_JSON_URL);
+    if (!res.ok) throw new Error('Failed to fetch clips');
+    return await res.json();
+  } catch (err) {
+    console.error('Error loading clips:', err);
+    return [];
+  }
+}
+
+async function initClipsPage() {
+  const clips = await fetchClips();
+  if (!clips.length) return;
+
+  const featuredContainer = document.querySelector('.clips-featured');
+  const gridContainer = document.querySelector('.clips-grid');
+
+  if (featuredContainer) {
+    clips.filter(c => c.featured).forEach(clip => {
+      featuredContainer.appendChild(renderClipCard(clip, true));
+    });
+  }
+
+  if (gridContainer) {
+    clips.forEach(clip => {
+      gridContainer.appendChild(renderClipCard(clip, false));
+    });
+  }
+}
+
+async function renderFeaturedClipsInline(containerId) {
+  const container = document.getElementById(containerId);
+  if (!container) return;
+
+  const clips = await fetchClips();
+  const featured = clips.filter(c => c.featured);
+
+  featured.forEach(clip => {
+    container.appendChild(renderClipCard(clip, true));
+  });
+}
+
+// Auto-init if clips page containers exist
+if (document.querySelector('.clips-featured') || document.querySelector('.clips-grid')) {
+  initClipsPage();
+}

website/llms.txt

@@ -19,4 +19,4 @@ Luke at the Roost is a late-night call-in radio show hosted by Luke MacNeil, bro
 - Host: Luke MacNeil
 - Genre: Comedy
 - Format: Live call-in radio show
-- Contact: luke@macneilmediagroup.com
+- Contact: luke@lukeattheroost.com

website/privacy.html

@@ -0,0 +1,130 @@
+<!DOCTYPE html>
+<html lang="en">
+<head>
+  <meta charset="UTF-8">
+  <meta name="viewport" content="width=device-width, initial-scale=1.0">
+  <title>Privacy Policy — Luke at the Roost</title>
+  <meta name="description" content="Privacy policy for Luke at the Roost podcast and website.">
+  <meta name="theme-color" content="#1a1209">
+  <link rel="canonical" href="https://lukeattheroost.com/privacy">
+
+  <link rel="icon" href="favicon.ico" sizes="48x48">
+  <link rel="icon" type="image/svg+xml" href="favicon.svg">
+  <link rel="icon" type="image/png" sizes="192x192" href="favicon-192.png">
+  <link rel="icon" type="image/png" sizes="48x48" href="favicon-48.png">
+  <link rel="icon" type="image/png" sizes="32x32" href="favicon-32.png">
+  <link rel="icon" type="image/png" sizes="16x16" href="favicon-16.png">
+  <link rel="apple-touch-icon" href="apple-touch-icon.png">
+
+  <link rel="stylesheet" href="css/style.css?v=3">
+</head>
+<body>
+
+  <!-- Nav -->
+  <nav class="page-nav">
+    <a href="/" class="nav-home">Luke at the Roost</a>
+  </nav>
+
+  <!-- Page Header -->
+  <section class="page-header">
+    <h1>Privacy Policy</h1>
+    <p class="page-subtitle">Last updated: February 12, 2026</p>
+  </section>
+
+  <section class="hiw-section" style="max-width: 740px; margin: 0 auto;">
+    <div style="line-height: 1.7; color: var(--text-secondary, #b8a88a);">
+
+      <h2>Who We Are</h2>
+      <p>Luke at the Roost is a podcast and website operated by MacNeil Media Group. Our website is <strong>lukeattheroost.com</strong>.</p>
+
+      <h2>Information We Collect</h2>
+      <h3>Website Visitors</h3>
+      <p>We use Cloudflare Web Analytics, which collects anonymous, aggregated usage data (page views, referrers, country). It does not use cookies, does not track individual users, and does not collect personal information.</p>
+
+      <h3>Podcast Listeners</h3>
+      <p>When you download or stream an episode, standard server logs may record your IP address and user agent. We use this data only for aggregate download statistics. We do not sell or share this data with third parties.</p>
+
+      <h3>Phone Callers</h3>
+      <p>If you call in to the show at 208-439-LUKE, your voice may be recorded and included in a published episode. By calling in, you consent to being recorded and broadcast. We do not collect or store your phone number beyond what is necessary for call routing.</p>
+
+      <h3>Social Media</h3>
+      <p>We maintain a presence on platforms including Facebook, YouTube, Spotify, and Discord. When you interact with us on these platforms, their respective privacy policies apply. We may use third-party tools to schedule and manage social media posts.</p>
+
+      <h2>Cookies</h2>
+      <p>Our website does not set any first-party cookies. Third-party services (such as embedded podcast players) may set their own cookies according to their policies.</p>
+
+      <h2>Third-Party Services</h2>
+      <p>We use the following third-party services:</p>
+      <ul style="margin: 0.5em 0 1em 1.5em;">
+        <li><strong>Cloudflare</strong> — CDN, DNS, and analytics</li>
+        <li><strong>BunnyCDN</strong> — Audio file delivery</li>
+        <li><strong>Spotify, Apple Podcasts, YouTube</strong> — Podcast distribution</li>
+        <li><strong>Discord</strong> — Community chat</li>
+        <li><strong>Facebook</strong> — Social media page</li>
+      </ul>
+      <p>Each service has its own privacy policy governing how they handle your data.</p>
+
+      <h2>Data Retention</h2>
+      <p>Aggregate analytics data is retained indefinitely. Server logs are retained for up to 90 days. Published episodes and transcripts are retained indefinitely as part of the public podcast archive.</p>
+
+      <h2>Children's Privacy</h2>
+      <p>Our content is rated explicit and is not directed at children under 13. We do not knowingly collect personal information from children.</p>
+
+      <h2>Your Rights</h2>
+      <p>If you have questions about your data or want to request removal of your voice from a published episode, contact us at <a href="mailto:luke@lukeattheroost.com" style="color: var(--accent, #d4a44a);">luke@lukeattheroost.com</a>.</p>
+
+      <h2>Changes</h2>
+      <p>We may update this policy from time to time. Changes will be posted on this page with an updated date.</p>
+
+      <h2>Contact</h2>
+      <p>MacNeil Media Group<br>
+      Email: <a href="mailto:luke@lukeattheroost.com" style="color: var(--accent, #d4a44a);">luke@lukeattheroost.com</a></p>
+
+    </div>
+  </section>
+
+  <!-- Footer -->
+  <footer class="footer">
+    <div class="footer-nav">
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+LUKE: Alright, welcome back to Luke at the Roost. This is the Colin radio show where you call in and tell me what's on your mind. My name is Luke, I'm your host. If you'd like to call in, our number is 208-439-5853. That's 208-439-Luke. Let's get the show started and our first caller today is going to be Slim. Slim, welcome to the show. What would you like to talk about today?
+
+SLIM: Hey Luke, yeah thanks for taking my call. So look, I won 50 grand on a scratch ticket on Monday and I haven't told a single person yet. Not my wife, not the church, nobody, and it's eating me alive because I'm a youth pastor, right? Right?
+
+LUKE: Wow, congratulations on your 50 grand win, what are you going to do with the money?
+
+SLIM: Well, that's the whole thing, Luke. I don't know. I mean, part of me wants to just pay off the truck, maybe fix the AC at the church because it's been broken since September and the board keeps saying there's no money.
+
+LUKE: Well, here's a question for you. If you're a pastor and you work at a church and you win the lottery, do you have to pay tax on that lottery winning?
+
+SLIM: Oh, yeah, absolutely. The state already took their cut when I claimed it, walked out with about 37 after taxes.
+
+LUKE: Oh, you've already got the money and you haven't spent any of it yet?
+
+SLIM: Nope, it's just sitting in the bank like a damn time bomb. I keep thinking about how my dad used to say, money's like a deer. You spook it, it's gone. And I'm standing there with a rifle full of buckshot, trying not to move.
+
+LUKE: Wow, that's one of the most confusing analogies I've ever heard in my life. But congratulations to you for your win. I can't imagine it's going to cost you 37 grand to fix the AC in your church.
+
+SLIM: No, you're right. Probably three, four thousand tops, but see, that's where it gets tricky. The second people find out I have this money, it's going to be slim. Can you help with the new himmels or slim? My sister's kid needs braces. I've been doing this job for 12 years, Luke.
+
+LUKE: And what is your lord and savior say to do with the money?
+
+SLIM: Man, that's the question I've been wrestling with all week. I keep going back to the parable of the talents. You know, the guy who buried his money in the ground got reamed for it. But then there's also, don't let your left hand know what your right hand is doing when it comes to giving. I've been praying on it every night this week, honestly.
+
+LUKE: Well, I think you're probably going to come to the right, uh, right decision and do the right thing with the money. Actually, you know what, I don't know if there is a right thing to do with the money. It wasn't there before. You wanted in the lottery. Good for you. Do you play the lottery a lot? How much are you, were you down to win this 50 grand?
+
+SLIM: First ticket I ever bought actually. Yeah, sure. I was at the circle K getting gas and just, I don't know, impulse five bucks. My wife doesn't even know. She thinks gambling's a sin. And honestly, I kind of agreed with her until I scratched that thing off in the parking lot and nearly dropped my coffee.
+
+LUKE: Well, you know, what the man with no sin throws stones first or whatever. Uh, good for you. Good for your congregation. I hope that the money goes to good use. And, um, and yeah, I don't think you have to feel bad about winning. Just do something good with the money and it's all good.
+
+SLIM: Yeah, you're right. I appreciate that, Luke. I think I've been making this harder than it needs to be.
+
+LUKE: For sure. And speaking of money, I got a question for you. How about you tell us about something that you bought once that you regret? Uh, something you spent money on and wished later that you hadn't.
+
+SLIM: Oh, man. That's easy. About eight years ago, I bought this used jet ski off some guy in Lord'sburg. Thought I'd take it out to Elephant Butte. You know, make a whole thing of it with the youth group.
+
+LUKE: You bought a, uh, Lord'sburg jet ski. How did that work out?
+
+SLIM: No, no, Lord'sburg. It's a town about an hour west of here. Oh, yeah. But yeah, the jet ski paid $2,200 bucks for it. Drove it up to the lake exactly one time. Thing broke down in the middle of the water. Had to get towed back to shore by some guy on a pontoon boat.
+
+LUKE: Hey, well, now I guess the good news is you get 37 grand.
+
+SLIM: You know, the thing's been sitting under a tarp behind my garage for seven years. I think my wife would actually divorce me if I put another dime into it. She brings it up every time I want to buy anything. Remember the jet ski slim? It's like my personal scarlet letter back there.
+
+LUKE: All right. Thanks for the call slim and, uh, congratulations on your big lottery win. Uh, just don't take it back to the casino and you should be all right. Next up on the line, we have, uh, Sandy. Sandy, welcome to the show. What's what's on your mind today, Sandy?
+
+SANDY: Hey, Luke, thanks for taking my call. So I got into it with my neighbor tonight, like physically got into it. And I'm sitting here trying to figure out if I need to call the cops or if that's just going to make everything worse. We've been going back and forth for months now, but this time she actually shoved me in my own driveway.
+
+LUKE: shoved you how just to like a little pusher where you actually injured in some way, where you did you fear for your life in this altercation?
+
+SANDY: No, I mean, I didn't fall or anything, but it wasn't like a little tap either. She put both hands on my shoulders and pushed me back hard enough that I stumbled. The thing is I'm honestly more pissed off than scared, you know? But that's what's got me worried because I shoved her right back and now I'm thinking if I call the police, she's going to say I started it. This whole thing kicked off because her dog keeps shitting in my yard and she refuses to pick it up.
+
+LUKE: Okay, so the dog shits in your yard, she's not picking it up and, uh, and how does that turn into an altercation? You obviously confronted her about the dog shitting situation.
+
+SANDY: Yeah, so tonight I'm coming home from a birth. I was up for like 16 hours and I step right in a fresh pile getting out of my car. I lost it, walked straight over to her place and knocked on the door with the bottom of my shoe still covered in it.
+
+LUKE: I should have kicked her in the face.
+
+SANDY: Ha, I mean, I was tempted, but no, I just told her this is the third time this week and she needs to keep her damn dog on her own property.
+
+LUKE: Well, yeah, that's annoying, it's never fun to step in and pile a dog poo. But, uh, dogs do roam around and it is, uh, the outdoors and I understand that people own their yards and stuff and it's, that's not fun, but the same time it's kind of hard to control wild animals from doing wild animal things.
+
+SANDY: See, that's the thing though. This isn't a wild animal. It's her dog. She lets it out in the morning without a leash and it comes straight to my yard every single time.
+
+LUKE: Would it make any difference if it was a wild dog?
+
+SANDY: I mean, yeah, because then I couldn't go knock on someone's door about it, but this is her dog. She's responsible for it and honestly, if she just apologized once or picked it up, we wouldn't even be here. Instead, she tells me I'm being dramatic and that dogs go where they go. That's when my driveway and she followed me.
+
+LUKE: Okay, well, um, that's, that's no fun. It's never good to have a shitty situation with your neighbor. What are you going to do about it?
+
+SANDY: That's why I'm calling you, Luke. I don't know.
+
+LUKE: Well, uh, you could put up a fence, you could move, you could, uh, complain a lot at the town meeting. I don't, you can't really physically assault the woman. You can't call the police on her. I guess you could call animal control if you actually catch the dog in your yard. Are you positive that it's her dog? Have you actually caught the dog in the act?
+
+SANDY: Yeah, I've seen it. Walked outside two mornings ago and watched it squat right by my mailbox while she's standing on her porch drinking coffee. And I did call animal control last month.
+
+LUKE: All right. Thanks for the call, Sandy. Good luck with your, uh, your dookie shoes. And next on the radio show, we've got Keith. Keith, welcome to the show. You're calling back. What's up today, sir?
+
+KEITH: Hey, Luke. Yeah, I'm back. So I got an update on that video situation and I'm not going to lie. It got weird real weird. I ended up taking your advice kind of and I talked to her last week. Turns out she's been coming to the cemetery because her apartment is too quiet. And she likes hearing the highway noise from where I work.
+
+LUKE: See, I told you it wasn't real weird. That's not weird. What's weird about that?
+
+KEITH: Well, okay, that pot's not weird. You're right. But here's the thing. After we talked that first time, she started showing up on my shift specifically. Like she knows my schedule now and two nights ago, she brought me coffee. Just walked right up to the shed with two cups from that circle. K on Hudson and sat down like we were having a planned meeting.
+
+LUKE: Okay, that still doesn't sound very weird to me, sir. Let's get to the weird part.
+
+KEITH: All right. So last night, she asked if I wanted to come over to her place after my shift ends. Just straight up asked me. And I'm sitting there thinking, this woman is maybe 60, 65. And I'm married to Teresa. And I don't even know this lady's actual name. I've just been calling her this whole time.
+
+LUKE: Okay, so you got to let her down a little bit easy. Sorry, I'm married. It's not that weird that a lonely widow is looking for some companionship at the cemetery. I mean, maybe that's a little weird, but it's not that weird.
+
+KEITH: Yeah, I mean, you're right. It's not that weird when you say it like that. But here's where I messed up. I didn't say I was married. I panicked and told her I had to go check on something by the North fence. And I just walked away like a coward again.
+
+LUKE: Okay, well, why is that? Is it because you actually want something to go on with this widow? Is that what's the eating you up?
+
+KEITH: No, man, that's not look. I don't want anything with her. But things with Teresa have been so damn cold lately. We barely talk anymore except about bills or whose turn it is to take the trash out. And here's this woman who's actually interested in talking to me, bringing me coffee, asking about my day.
+
+LUKE: Yeah, I understand that. It's nice to feel wanted and seen and heard and all that. And it's okay for you to have other friends. I mean, you can befriend this woman without doing anything shady at her house behind your wife's back. There's nothing wrong with that.
+
+KEITH: You're right. I know you're right. But I'm not going to lie. Part of me keeps thinking about what it would be like to just say yes. Not even for anything physical. Just to sit in someone's living room and have a conversation where the other person actually wants to hear what I have to say. Teresa used to be like that.
+
+LUKE: Yeah, well, it sounds like you've got a couple things going on and I don't think it's that weird to go over somebody's house and have a cup of coffee and talk if you're seriously not into anything romantic or pursuing that relationship behind your wife's back. You might want to talk to Teresa about that before you start going over a strange woman's house though.
+
+KEITH: Yeah, that's the problem though. How do I even start that conversation? Hey, Teresa, there's this widow at the cemetery who wants to hang out. Is that cool? Yeah. She's already pissed at me half the time about stuff I don't even understand. Last week, she got mad because I didn't notice she rearranged the living room. I walked right past the couch in a different spot three times before she pointed it out.
+
+LUKE: Yeah, well, I mean, that sounds like marriage. So, I mean, you're in it. But I think that's exactly the way that you deal with it. Hey, I met a new friend. I'd like to hang out after work one day, have a cup of coffee and talk about stuff. It's not a romantic thing. I'm not interested. She's 65 years old and I'm married to you. Teresa, the love of my life who I would never have eyes for anyone else. And just make sure she knows that and she's got a problem with it then deal with that problem.
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+KEITH: I hear you, but man, I don't know if I can say love of my life right now and have it sound real. She'd see right through that.
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+LUKE: All right, well, if that's the truth then you and your wife need to sit down and have some hard conversations and figure out if you want to continue on living the way you're living because that's that's no good and you might be better off with this widow or, you know, somebody else.
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+KEITH: Yeah, I've been sitting there thinking about that too. Maybe that's why this whole thing is eating at me so much.
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+LUKE: Yeah, it could be. I mean, relationships are tough and if things have been downhill for a while and you don't see them moving in a positive direction, it's time to have some hard conversations.
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+KEITH: The thing is, we used to be good, really good. I don't know when it changed exactly. Somewhere between the second mortgage and her mom getting sick and me taking this graveyard shift, no pun intended. We just sort of stop being on the same team.
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+LUKE: I think that happens. I think there are ways that you can get back on the same team if you both want to, but you might also find that neither one of you even, you know, likes each other anymore and it's time to split up and that's okay too. I'm not going to lie.
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+LUKE: Let's see. What's something you believed in 10 years ago that you don't believe anymore?
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+EARL: Oh man, that's a hell of a shift. 10 years ago I thought the tea party was going to actually change things in Washington.
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+LUKE: Well, things did change in Washington.
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+EARL: Yeah, but not the way we thought. I mean, I was all in on that stuff. Smaller government, fiscal responsibility, the whole deal. Now I look at it, and I'm sitting there thinking none of these people actually meant any of it. They just wanted their turn at the trough.
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+LUKE: Yeah, man, you're living you learn. That seems to be the way. No matter who is in the office. They do not give a fuck about you. All right, thanks for the call. Talk to your wife. Don't be a pussy. Next up on the line, we have Laurie. Laurie, welcome to the show. How can we help you today?
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+LAURIE: Hey, Luke, thanks for taking my call. So I've been working from home doing data entry for like three years now. And honestly, it can get pretty isolating. But I'm also really into open source technology. And I spend a lot of my free time in these online communities, you know, contributing to projects, helping troubleshoot stuff.
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+LUKE: I do know. I do a lot of that myself. So what are you working on?
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+LAURIE: Oh, nice. Right now I'm actually contributing to this documentation project for a Linux distribution. Nothing glamorous, but it's stuff people actually use. And I've been learning rust on the side messing around with some smaller tools. But here's why I called. I was watching the Lost Finale the other day, right?
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+LUKE: Oh, yeah, I just watched the Lost Finale a couple weeks ago or maybe a couple months ago now. But yeah, what about it?
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+LAURIE: Okay, so it really got me thinking about community and how people come together around something bigger than themselves. And with Valentine's Day coming up, I'm sitting here alone most days, just me and my computer screen. And I realized, these open source communities, they're the closest thing I have to that feeling of belonging, you know? Like actually being part of something that matters.
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+LUKE: Yes, I do know I totally understand that. And when I was a kid, I used to hang out in IRC in the on the free node network. And we had a channel called Linux people. And we did tutorials and wrote articles and helped people that were trying to learn Linux. They would pop into IRC and ask their questions. And we all tried our best to help them out. And I still talk to some of those people today. That's been over 20 years. People that I've never met that I met in those communities. So I don't think that's a bad thing at all.
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+LAURIE: Yeah, exactly. That's what I'm talking about. And honestly, Luke, I think people don't get how real those connections are. Like my family thinks I'm just sitting here alone all the time, but I'm collaborating with people in Germany and Brazil and wherever working on actual things that help people. But I guess what's been eating at me is is that enough?
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+LUKE: Do you feel like it's enough? I mean, I usually do, sometimes I don't, but most of the time I do feel like it's more than enough. That's a very personal question. How do you feel about it? It's obviously bothering you.
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+LAURIE: I mean, most of the time, yeah, it feels good. But then like Thursday night rolls around and Valentine's Day is coming up. And I'm 29. And I look around my house and it's just quiet.
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+LUKE: Quiet's very nice though. And 29's not all that old. You get plenty of time to do whatever you like. So I applaud you for spending your time doing productive stuff with the type of people that make you better at what you do. I think that's a good way to deal with your loneliness and to find some community and camaraderie out in the world.
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+LAURIE: Thanks, I appreciate that. I guess part of me worries though. Like, am I using these communities as a substitute for something else? Or is this just what connection looks like now?
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+LUKE: Yeah, there's probably some of both of that. Now connection can be, it can look like a lot of different things. You don't have to be in bed with somebody to have a connection with them. You could, you know, have a very good working relationship and friendship with somebody over the internet in Brazil. That's not all that strange or weird, especially today. I mean, 20 years ago when I was doing it and I was 12 years old, that was a little bit odd. But I don't think it's very strange now.
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+LAURIE: You're right. And honestly, I heard Sandy call earlier tonight and I felt like she was holding something back about that whole neighbor situation.
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+LUKE: Yeah, you know what, I think she was too. I certainly got that impression, but she wasn't going to spill it. So we're just going to have to go with her go with what she wanted to divulge. Anyway, Laurie, thanks for the call. Keep it up with your documentation project. And if you want to find somebody to hang out with on Valentine's Day, I'm sure you can do that. You sound like a very nice lady. You enjoy the remainder of your night, all right? Hey, Gus, Gus, welcome to the show. What's happening?
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+GUS: Yeah. Hey, Luke, so my ex showed up at the pawn shop today with flowers like a whole bouquet and my girlfriend was there picking me up for lunch. She saw the whole thing through the window before she even came in. Now she won't talk to me and I don't know what the hell I'm supposed to say to fix this.
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+LUKE: Your ex brought you flowers on Valentine's Day at your work?
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+GUS: Well, not quite Valentine's Day yet. It's Thursday, so we got a few days. But yeah, just showed up out of nowhere. I haven't talked to Melissa in like eight months. And she walks in with these roses talking about how she's been thinking about things. My girlfriend Sarah sees her through the window. And by the time she comes inside, Melissa's already gone, but the flowers are sitting right there on the counter. Sarah just looked at me, turned around and left.
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+LUKE: Well, which one of them would you rather be with? Melissa or Sarah?
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+GUS: Sarah? I mean, it's Sarah, no question. Melissa and I were done for good reasons. She couldn't handle that I work weird hours. Always wanted me to be someone I'm not.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, then problem solved. Just tell Sarah, hey, I didn't ask her to bring me these flowers. There's nothing going on here. I'm not interested in her anymore. And it's a free country. You know when somebody wants to bring your flowers, then all right, you wasted your 24 bucks.
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+GUS: Yeah, I tried that. I called her like three times. Center text saying exactly that. I didn't ask for this. I don't want Melissa back. The whole thing.
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+LUKE: Here's what you do. I got it figured out. So you take the flowers that Melissa gave you and you bring them home. And on Valentine's Day, you give those same flowers to Sarah and say these are for you.
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+GUS: Oh, man, that's, I mean, Sarah's not stupid. She saw those exact flowers. They were these yellow roses with some kind of purple things mixed in. Real specific looking.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, I think she'll appreciate your frugality. There's no use to wasting the money on new flowers. If you already got something, you're not going to use. You might as well get some use out of them. That's what I say.
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+GUS: I don't know, Luke.
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+LUKE: I feel like showing up with the same flowers my ex brought me is going to make things about 10 times worse. Sarah's already pissed enough. Last thing I need is her thinking I'm too cheap or too clueless to get her her own flowers.
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+GUS: Well, I mean, that's what I would do. I would, I would take the flowers that were given to me that I don't want and give them back to her and be like, here, here you go. I was thinking of you.
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+LUKE: You know what? Maybe that works for you, but I think Sarah would throw them at my head. She's not the type to find that charming. She'd see it as me being either lazy or rubbing salt in the wound. I'm already in the doghouse here. I need to figure out how to actually fix this, not make it worse with recycled roses.
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+GUS: Well, you didn't do anything wrong. So you really don't have anything to fix. If, uh, if there's jealousy going on there, then that's, that's really on her. You can just say, hey, I let her know. I did not prompt this in any way. There's nothing going on behind your back. I can't control what she does. She came and dropped off flowers and you saw it and that's unfortunate, but there's nothing going on there and you're the one that I want to be with and commit to her in that way. And if she's got a problem with it, then, uh, then you got to, then you got to deal with that and then you might be better off going back to Melissa.
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+LUKE: I hear you, but it's not just jealousy. Sarah watched my axe walk into my workplace flowers and a whole speech about how she misses me and wants to try again. That's not nothing.
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+GUS: It is nothing. It's nothing that you did. I mean, you can control that.
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+LUKE: So yeah, but I didn't shut it down fast enough either. I just kind of stood there like an idiot while Melissa went on and Sarah saw that. I should have cut her off right away, told her to leave.
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+GUS: Well, it sounds like you're a pussy either way. You can either stand up to your current girlfriend or you can stand up to your former girlfriend, but one way or the other, you're going to have to stand up.
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+LUKE: You're right. I've been trying to keep everybody happy, and I'm just making it worse. I froze up with Melissa because I didn't want to be a jerk, and now Sarah thinks I was actually considering it or something.
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+GUS: Just sit her down and have that conversation, and if that's a problem, then it probably shows how long you've been with this chick, Sarah. How long?
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+LUKE: About eight months, we moved in together maybe two months ago, which I know was probably too fast, but rents expensive, and we were spending every night together anyway.
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+GUS: Okay, well, you don't know this woman at all. So if something this small is going to cause strife in your life, maybe it's time to find another roommate.
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+LUKE: That's the thing though. It's not really that small when you think about it. My ex showing up with flowers isn't like some random thing, and Sarah and I were solid before this. She's been good to me, better than Melissa ever was.
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+GUS: All right, well then talk to her and get it worked out, and if she's a reasonable person, she'll come around. If she's not a reasonable person, then you're an idiot for dealing with that, but that's your choice, and that's my advice, and I'm sticking to it.
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+LUKE: And now it's time to go to a word from our sponsors. Let's talk about mental health. Specifically, let's talk about brutal honesty, the therapy app that's tired of your shit. Unlike other apps with their calming voices and gentle affirmations, brutal honesty pairs you with an AI therapist that tells you what your friends are too nice to say. Did you try journaling about it? No, we're not doing that. Our algorithm analyzes your patterns and asks questions like, why do you think you deserve to feel better when you don't even drink water? And is your anxiety real or did you just have four cold brews on an empty stomach? Brutal honesty because coddling yourself got you here. First session is free, but it will hurt your feelings. Use code grow up at checkout. Brutal honesty, the app that blocks itself if you don't do the work. All right. Okay, let's see, we've got Darlene on the line. Hey, Darlene, what's the weirdest thing you've ever found in your car?
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+DARLENE: Oh man, Luke, that's okay. So about three years ago, I'm cleaning out the bear's truck, right? And I find this whole rotisserie chicken, like the entire thing from the grocery store, still in the container, wedged under the passenger seat. It had been there for God knows how long, completely mummified.
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+LUKE: What's the bear's truck?
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+DARLENE: Oh, sorry, the bear, that's David, my husband. We've called him that since high school. He's got this big beard and he's just, you know, bear shaped. His truck, the one he drives to the plant every day.
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+LUKE: All right, yeah, that's a little bit weird. You found a whole rotisserie chicken under the seat of your husband's truck. That was there for months and months.
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+DARLENE: Yeah, and the thing is, he swore up and down, he had no idea how it got there, like who buys a whole rotisserie chicken and just forgets about it. But that's David. He'll stop at the store on the way home, get distracted and half the groceries end up living in that truck for weeks. But listen, that's not why I called.
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+LUKE: Well, before you get to that, did you eat it?
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+DARLENE: What? No.
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+LUKE: Okay. All right. Why did you call darling? How can we help you?
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+DARLENE: So I've been sitting on this resignation letter for two months now. Two months, Luke, I work at the DMV and I just, I can't do it anymore.
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+LUKE: All right. So what's holding you up? Why are you sitting on it?
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+DARLENE: I don't know what comes next. I mean, I'm 46 years old. We've got the mortgage. David's hours at the plant aren't what they used to be. And it's not like I have some big plan, you know? I just know I can't keep going in there every day, feeling like this.
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+LUKE: I fully support that. Do you have any ideas as to where you're going to go or what you're going to do after you submit that letter?
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+DARLENE: That's the problem. I don't. I mean, I've thought about it. Believe me. Maybe something with people that actually feels like it matters, you know? Not just processing renewals all day.
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+LUKE: Well, are you looking to do work that matters or are you looking to get paid?
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+DARLENE: Oh man, that's the question, isn't it? I mean, we need the money, obviously. But Luke, I've been doing this for almost 15 years and I just feel like I'm disappearing a little more every day.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I understand that. And I think that's why I'm asking which you're looking to do. You can do both, but I think if you need the money, then you should focus on finding a job that's going to make you some money without distress and then take care of the importance or the fulfilling part after work in your personal life.
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+DARLENE: Yeah, that makes sense. I guess I've been thinking it has to be one big thing, you know? Like the job has to be the answer to everything. But you're right. I could find something that pays the bills without making me miserable and then do something that actually means something on my own time.
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+LUKE: Yeah, there are definitely jobs that can be both good money and fulfilling, but they're few and far between. And especially if you're leaving a job without another one lined up, I think my focus would be more on the salary with low stress and then find the community service aspect elsewhere because I don't think there's a lot of good paying community service oriented jobs that aren't stressful. I think when you add those three requirements up there's a there's a dearth of opportunity.
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+DARLENE: You're right. I've been building this up in my head like it has to be perfect or else I'm just trading one trap for another. Maybe I just need to get out of the DMV first and breathe a little. Find something stable that doesn't make me want to scream and then figure out the rest.
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+LUKE: There you go. Take yourself a little sabbatical, a couple of weeks off, figure out what it is you want to do. Find something, you know, maybe it'll fall into your lap.
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+LUCILLE: But if you continue just hanging on at the DMV where you hate your life every day, it's not going to get better and the days are going to go by and you're going to find yourself there at 60 wondering why you didn't leave when you thought of it the first time. God that's what scares me the most. David keeps saying just give it another year but that's what I said last year and the year before that. I don't want to wake up at 60 still sitting behind that same desk with that resignation letter still in my drawer, you know.
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+LUKE: Well, hand the letter in and jump off. I don't want to say jump off a cliff but, you know, take the leap, the leap of faith I guess and spend some time to figure it out and see what happens. What's the worst that could happen?
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+LUCILLE: I mean, the worst is we can't pay the mortgage, right? But we've got some savings and David's got his job at the plant. We're not going to starve. And that's the worst. The worst is you can't pay the mortgage and lots of people have got into a situation where they can't pay the mortgage. There's financial assistance. You could live in a cheaper place. You can move. So if the worst is that you can't pay the bank, then you know, is that worth being miserable for the rest of your life for? No, no, it's not. You're right. I've been so scared of what could go wrong that I haven't even thought about what could go right. Maybe I finally sleep through the night again without grinding my teeth.
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+LUKE: Well, I wish you the best of luck because being miserable all the time is not good for your health and you may not make it to 60 if you, if you stay stressed out about a job that you hate for a long time. Leon, Leon, welcome back to the show. How are you today?
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+LEON: Oh, man, I'm doing all right, Luke. Thanks for having me back. So listen, I actually did it. I reached out to UNM yesterday about that computer science program.
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+LUKE: Hey, congratulations. Good work. Did you reach out to the bank about the loan for that computer science program?
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+LEON: Yeah, well, hold on. I haven't gotten that far yet. I just sent an email to the admissions office to see if they even still have programs for, you know, older students coming back. But here's the thing that's got me twisted up. Amber thinks I should just do one of those online boot camp things instead. Says it's faster and cheaper. And Manny's telling me I'm overthinking it and should just apply to the full degree program like I was going to do back in 96. I don't know who's right.
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+LUKE: Well, I don't know who's right either, but I can tell you I'm not a fan of traditional schooling and I think it's designed to take your money and not provide you the value that that maybe you think. So my recommendation would be to not do that and take advantage of the learning opportunities that are free and all around you, like the whole of human knowledge that's available at your fingertips and just buckle down and learn on your own. But I recognize some people don't operate that way and if you need the structure of the college course, then then and you can afford it. Make sure you can afford it. Then do that.
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+LEON: Yeah, see, that's kind of what's eating at me though. Like I said, I'm not great at the self-teaching thing. I've tried watching YouTube videos about Python and all that, but I just end up clicking around and not retaining anything. I need somebody to tell me what to do next, you know. But the money part, that's real. Amber and I sat down with the numbers last night and between what I've got saved and maybe cutting back on some stuff, I could swing a boot camp without taking out loans.
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+LUKE: Well, that's fantastic. Then that's no brainer, you know, and don't bet the farm on it, but if you're just going to take a boot camp, that's not a four year degree, then absolutely go for it and congratulations on taking that step.
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+LEON: Yeah, I appreciate that Luke. I'm still nervous as hell about it, but my daughter, she's the one who found that old letter. She keeps texting me asking if I've done anything yet. It's like she's holding me accountable, which is weird because I'm supposed to be the parent, you know.
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+LUKE: Hey, you know, whatever works if she's holding you accountable and it's working for you and moving your life in a positive direction, then I'm for it. Good for you.
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+LEON: Yeah, it is what it is. I guess I'm just calling because I wanted to tell somebody outside my circle, you know, like making it real. Man, he's been busting my balls about it for 20 years, so telling him doesn't count.
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+LUKE: All right, well, I appreciate that you reached out to let me know. Uh, hey there. I got a question for you. What's something that you bought that actually changed your life?
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+LEON: Oh, man, that's a good question. Let me think. Honestly, it was my Subaru.
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+LUKE: It was your Subaru. How did that change your life?
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+LEON: Well, I bought it used about five years ago right after my old truck finally died and it sounds stupid, but having something reliable, like something that actually starts every morning and doesn't leave me stranded. It changed how I felt about my job. I could take longer halls. I wasn't stressed about breaking down with somebody's car on the hook.
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+LUKE: All right, that's a good one. Congratulations on your Subaru. Change your life. That's fantastic. And now it's time for another word from our sponsors. Stress, sore, skeptical, doesn't matter. Try placebo leaf, the CBD brand that may or may not do anything, but costs enough that you'll convince yourself it works. Our tinctures, gummies and topicals contain premium hemp extract, and your desperate need to feel better without addressing root causes. Is it the cannabinoids or is it the ritual of self-care? Who's to say placebo leaf is THC-free, vegan, organic, and backed by studies we vaguely reference but don't like to. Take our gummies before bed and sleep great, probably because you're tired anyway, but you'll credit us. Available in flavors like calm and focus. Concepts we've bottled and marked up for a hundred percent. Visit placeboleaf.com and use code chill for 25 percent off. placebo leaf, wellness is a feeling and feelings can be purchased. All right placebo leaf and we're going to take one more call tonight and our lucky last caller is Lucille. Lucky Lucille. Welcome to the radio show. What would you like to talk about today?
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+LUCILLE: Hey Luke, it's Lucille.
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+LUKE: That's what I said. Close enough.
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+LUCILLE: So my kid just told me they're getting engaged to someone they met on the internet three weeks ago. Three weeks, Luke.
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+LUKE: Your kid? You sound like you're about three weeks old.
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+LUCILLE: I'm 30, Luke. My kid's 19. Yeah, I got married young myself right out of high school to David. So I'd get it, but this is different. They met this person online and have never even been in the same room together.
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+LUKE: And they're getting married? How's that going to work?
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+LUCILLE: Well, that's the thing. They're planning to meet in person for the first time next month, and apparently that's when they want to get engaged for real. Like the online part was just the warm-up. I don't even know if I should say something or just let them figure it out, you know?
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+LUKE: I think the more you say, the more likely they are to do stupid things so you might want to just let them figure it out.
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+LUCILLE: Yeah, that's kind of what David said too. But, Luke, I'm sitting here thinking about all the ways this could go wrong. Like what if this person isn't who they say they are? What if my kid flies out there and gets hurt or worse? I know if I push too hard, they'll just dig in. But doing nothing feels like I'm failing them.
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+LUKE: Well, you could just have a conversation. That's usually my advice for everybody is sit down with the person that you need to talk to and talk to them. Let them know that you're concerned, but you support their decisions. And if it goes wrong, be there to pick them up when they fall.
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+LUCILLE: You're right. I know you're right. It's just hard because I married David when I was 20 and everyone told us we were too young. And here we are 10 years later still figuring our shit out in therapy.
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+LUCILLE: So part of me wants to say, I get it. Follow your heart. But the other part is screaming that at least David and I knew each other in person, you know? We had history. This feels reckless even by my standards.
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+LUKE: Well, you know, just because his reckless doesn't mean it's wrong and you don't necessarily know best and they could fly out there and meet and have it work out perfectly.
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+LUCILLE: That's probably not going to happen. And I think anybody with any life experience would know that. But but stranger things have happened like stranger things this show.
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+LUKE: Ha, yeah, I guess so.
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+LUCILLE: I mean, I don't want to be the mom who ruins this for them if it actually is something real. Maybe I'm just freaked out because Valentine's Day is coming up and they keep posting about how romantic it's all going to be. I think I just need to hear someone say it's okay to be worried, but still let them make their own mistakes. That's what you're supposed to do, right?
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+LUKE: That is what you're supposed to do. It's okay to be worried but you still got to let people make their own mistakes.
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+LUCILLE: Yeah, God, that's hard though. I keep thinking about what I would have wanted my parents to say to me back then. And honestly, I probably would have ignored them anyway.
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+LUKE: Of course you would have. We all did. That's part of growing up is ignoring your parents good advice.
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+LUCILLE: You know what's funny is I heard Sandy call earlier the one with the neighbor and the dog shit situation and I kept thinking she needs to just have a direct conversation instead of letting it build up. But here I am doing the same damn thing with my own kid just avoiding the uncomfortable talk.
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+LUKE: Yep, you're going to have to have that talk with your kid and if you don't, that doesn't really matter either. She's going to go do what she's going to do and deal with the consequences. So you can you can be there for or you can be domineering and overpowering and pusher in the arms of a stranger. They can lope and vegas because they're mad at you. So better off to just have a hard to hard conversation. Let her know your concerns and let her know that you support her. So Lucille, what's the dumbest way you've ever injured yourself?
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+LUCILLE: Oh Jesus, okay random turn but I'll bite. I was showing a house last year and tried to demonstrate how sturdy the deck railing was by leaning on it real hard and the whole thing just gave way. Though right into the bushes in front of the clients, sprained my wrist and had to finish the showing covered in mulch. They didn't buy the house.
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+LUKE: That's too bad. All right well thanks for calling in. We appreciate we appreciate it. I hope everything works out with your daughter and her new husband and you don't worry about it too much. You know you've got your own relationship to worry about. That's the end of our show folks. Thanks to everybody that called in and we'll do this again tomorrow. So think about what you want to talk about and call in. You can call in the numbers 208-439-5853. That's 208-439-Luc.

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+LUKE: All right, all right. Welcome back. I am Luke. This is Luke at the Roost. It's the radio show where we take collars and give them real-life advice. If you'd like to call in, our number is 208-439-5853. That's 208-439-Luke. And today is Friday, February 13th, here in Anonymous. It's very windy. It gets nice and windy out here. So you might hear some noise in the background of our publication. Not much I can do about that. You're going to have to deal with it. I do. So hopefully the wind dies down and we can have a good show today. Already, we can see that the phones are lighting up and let's get our first collar on the line. Donnie, Donnie, welcome to the show. Happy Friday the 13th. How are you?
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+DONNIE: Hey, Luke. Yeah. Happy Friday the 13th to you too. Look, I got to tell you something that happened today, the chevron that's got me all twisted up. I ran into my ex-wife sister, haven't seen her in probably 15 years. And she just stared at me like she'd seen a ghost, then turned around and walked right back out without getting her gas.
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+LUKE: What'd you do? What'd you do to her sister?
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+DONNIE: Oh, not my sister. My ex-wife sister, her name's Carol. And I didn't do anything to her. That's the thing. But she knows stuff, you know. She knows about why me and Diane split up back in the day. All the messy details that I thought stayed buried in Tucson when I moved out here to Yuma.
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+LUKE: Oh, yeah, what kind of details does she have over you? What did she learn that she shouldn't know?
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+DONNIE: Well, back when Diane and I were married, I had an affair with a woman I worked with at the plant in Tucson. It went on for about eight months and Carol found out before Diane did. She actually caught us together at this bar over on Grand Road. She's the one who towed Diane, which is what ended the whole marriage.
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+LUKE: Well, actually, that's not quite true. You're the one that ended the whole marriage by cheating on your wife with another woman. So, I don't think you can blame the sister for that one. And it kind of makes sense that she didn't want to see you at the gas station.
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+DONNIE: Yeah, you're right. You're right. I'm not trying to blame Carol for what I did. That's on me, the affair, the lying, all of it.
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+LUKE: All right, then. Why is this a strange situation for you to have dealt with today? I mean, that's the response you should expect from your ex-wife's sister that caught you cheating on her sister.
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+DONNIE: Because it's been 15 years, Luke, and the way she looked at me wasn't just angry. It was like she was scared or shocked to see me. And here's the real thing that's eating at me. My current girlfriend doesn't know any of this. I never told her about the affair. Just said the marriage didn't work out.
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+LUKE: Oh, yeah, well, you sound like a real piece of work. You're a real winner over there, Adani. Well, you know, it's Friday the 13th. She saw you. You don't know what happened between her and her sister. You know, maybe there's some resentment there because she's been blamed for breaking up the marriage that you so hastily ruined yourself. So, you know, she might have a good reason to not want to see you.
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+DONNIE: You're not wrong about that. I never thought about it from that angle that maybe Diane blamed Carol for being the messenger instead of blaming me for actually doing it. That would eat at someone for 15 years.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, that's the kind of thing that happens. When you mess with people's lives in that way, especially family. So, I mean, you could have caused a rift between these siblings that you didn't intend to, as well as your own marriage. And you deserve to be looked at like a monster. That's what I say. So, good for you.
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+DONNIE: Yeah, I hear you. I deserve that. But, Luke, the thing is, what do I do now? Do I tell my girlfriend before Carol potentially says something?
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+LUKE: No, why would you do that? Why would Carol track down your new girlfriend just to tell her that you cheated on her sister 15 years ago? That would be pretty crazy. No, no, you leave it alone and pretend, just move on. Life is usual.
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+DONNIE: That's what I was thinking, too, but I don't know. Carol had my number back then, and Tucson's not that big. What if she knows, Shelley somehow? I mean, Shelley works at the Credit Union downtown, and Carol used to work in banking, too. It's just got me paranoid, you know?
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+LUKE: Yeah, Tucson's big enough. There's plenty of banking institutions in a 15-year gap. You are being paranoid, stop worrying about it, go about your life. And if it comes up and it ruins your new relationship, then deal with it then. And, you know, take accountability for your own part and all this.
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+DONNIE: You're right. You're right. I'm spiraling over nothing. It was just a weird moment at the gas station. I need to let it go and stop creating problems that don't exist yet.
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+LUKE: Yes, you do. Let it go and stop creating problems. Thanks for the call, Donnie. Stop being a dick and grow up. That's what I have to say to you. Next on the line, we have Jasmine. Jasmine, what do you think about Donnie's situation? You think he was in the right in any part of that?
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+JASMINE: Oh, man. No, but seriously, Luke, I think Donnie's just scared. I get it, though. When you've done something that bad, you're always waiting for the other shoe to drop. But here's the thing. He ended one relationship with a lie, and now he wants to start another one with a lie.
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+LUKE: Have you ever started a relationship with a lie?
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+JASMINE: Well, yeah. I mean, not like Donnie's lie, but David and I, when we first got together after Donnie, I didn't tell him for like six months that I was still talking to Donnie about the kid's schedules. Not hiding it exactly, but not bringing it up either. David would have understood. But I was worried he'd think I was still hung up on my ex or something.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, you know, you got kids. You got to make accommodations for them. That makes perfect sense. What are you calling in for tonight?
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+JASMINE: So I actually wanted to give you an update from the last time I called. Remember I told you about the Bronco situation? Sleeping in the guest room all that? Well, Valentine's Day is in like a week and a half. And David actually came to me yesterday and said he wants to take me to see the SpaceX launch on the 13th.
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+LUKE: Well, that's pretty cool. Where's the SpaceX launch? Today is the 13th.
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+JASMINE: Oh shit, is it? I've been losing track of days at the bakery. No, but seriously, I mean the one they're doing live coverage of. The astronauts going to the International Space Station. David knows I watch every single launch and he said we could drive out to the spot he knows where we can see it better on a screen at this bar that does viewing parties. He's never offered to do anything like that before.
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+LUKE: Well, that's awesome. I hope you have a great time watching the SpaceX satellites launch. I've actually never seen that. I see pictures of it after the fact, but I've never caught one. I've seen the actual satellites, you know, the trail of Starlink satellites going across the sky like Santa's sleigh, but I haven't seen a launch.
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+JASMINE: Oh man, you need to watch one live, Luke. It's incredible. I get chills every single time, especially when the boosters land back. It's like something out of a science fiction movie.
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds like you're going out into the wilderness to have yourself a science friction movie.
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+JASMINE: Yeah. Oh, Jesus, Luke. Yeah. Well, here's the thing though. I don't know if he's doing this because he actually wants to or because he feels like he has to, you know, like is this a genuine olive branch or is he just trying to fix things before Valentine's Day because he's supposed to?
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+LUKE: Does it really matter? Do you care? As long as you get to go out and have some one-on-one time with the dude and is it? What's the difference?
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+JASMINE: I mean, yeah, you're right. I guess I'm just scared it's going to be awkward, you know. We haven't really talked about the whole Bronco thing since it happened.
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+LUKE: Yeah.
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+LUKE: You said you were going to leave him for your Ford Bronco, and now you're worried that his olive branch isn't, uh, what's the word I'm looking for? Authentic enough for you? Come on.
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+CALLER: Okay, okay, you're right. I'm being ridiculous. No, but seriously though, what if we get out there and we just sit in silence the whole time? We've barely said two words to each other in weeks that weren't about the bakery or whose turn it is to take up a trash.
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+LUKE: Well, you know, sitting out in the wilderness watching a monumental event like that in silence is not so bad. So I would say if you don't have anything to say, don't say anything, just enjoy the moment and keep it as a fond memory.
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+CALLER: You know what, you're right. I'm overthinking this. Maybe that's what we need, just to be together without forcing conversation, without all the guilt hanging over us.
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+LUKE: Now, if it were up to you, if you could control the situation, what would you talk about during the SpaceX launch?
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+CALLER: Oh man, I don't know. I guess I'd want to talk about like where we go from here, you know? Not in some heavy, we need to talk about our relationship way, but just...
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+LUKE: So nothing. So you get nothing to say. So you're afraid it's going to be awkward because you don't know what to say because you got nothing to say. How's the Bronco?
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+CALLER: The Bronco's good. Real good actually. Got the carburetor tuned last weekend. Run smooth now.
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+LUKE: All right then. Why don't you tell them about your Bronco? I'm sure he'll be excited to hear about all the the new news there. Dennis, Dennis, welcome to the show. Happy Friday the 13th. What can we help you with?
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+DENNIS: Oh man, yeah. Happy Friday the 13th is right. So Luke, I'm calling because I did something really stupid about three weeks ago, and it's all kind of falling apart on me. Now, I met this woman. We had this crazy intense connection, and I signed a lease with her after knowing her for like three weeks, and now I'm living with her, and she is not the person I thought she was at all, like completely different behind closed doors, and I don't know what the hell to do because I'm on this lease.
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+LUKE: Well, you'll never do that again. That wasn't very smart. What's the lease say? What are the terms of your lease?
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+DENNIS: It's a year lease man. We just signed it maybe two and a half weeks ago. It's a little place over in the East Valley. Nothing fancy, but it's not cheap either. I think we can break it, but there's penalties. You know, lose the deposit maybe over a couple months rent on top of that. I'd have to look at the actual paperwork, but I know it's not just a walk away situation.
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+LUKE: Well, that sounds like you've got to make the best of it. I mean, lots of people have had a roommate that didn't like for a year. You could do anything for a year. And who knows, you might grow to enjoy the company of this stranger.
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+DENNIS: Yeah, but Luke, it's not just that we don't click as roommates. This is someone I was sleeping with. Someone I thought I was starting a real relationship with, and now it's like, she's got this whole other side that comes out.
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+LUKE: What's the other side? Are you still sleeping with her?
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+DENNIS: No, we're not. That stopped about a week ago. The other side is like, she's controlling about everything in the apartment. Where I put my stuff, when I come and go, she wants to know every detail of my day. And she's got this temper that just comes out of nowhere over nothing.
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+LUKE: Then what's your personality like? Are you going to stand for that? Are you going to stand your ground and say, hey, that's enough. I put my stuff on the right side of the bed. You sleep on the left side of the bed.
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+DENNIS: I mean, I've tried saying something a couple times, and it just turns into this whole thing where she's crying or yelling or both. I'm not great with confrontation, especially after my divorce. That whole thing kind of beat me down, you know? I've been trying to just keep the peace. Stay out of her way when I can, but it's my place too.
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+LUKE: It's your place too, but it's not going to be if you give her the run of the land, so you're going to have to stand up for yourself eventually. It's going to be a long year, my friend.
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+DENNIS: Yeah, you're right. I know you're right. I just, I guess I'm realizing I jumped into this because I was lonely. You know, two years out from the divorce, and I'm still not really back on my feet emotionally.
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+LUKE: Yeah, absolutely. I understand, but jumping into a lease with a woman you just met is in a good way to deal with loneliness, or you end up in a situation like the one you're in right now where you don't know where your toothpaste is. So I recommend that, I don't want to say be a dick, but you got to stand up for yourself and take some control of the situation.
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+DENNIS: You're absolutely right. I need to stop being a pushover about this. I'm going to go home tonight, and we're going to have a real conversation about boundaries.
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+LUKE: All right, there you go. And I bet once you do, you'll be sleeping with her again because chicks love that stuff.
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+DENNIS: I don't know about that Luke. Honestly, at this point, I'm more worried about making you through the lease without losing my mind than getting back in bed with her. But yeah, I hear you. I appreciate it, man.
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+LUKE: Well, where are you sleeping now? You on the couch? You on the floor? What's the deal?
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+DENNIS: I'm on the couch. She took the bedroom. I've been out there for like eight days now with my pillow in a blanket, watching spacetime episodes on my phone at like two in the morning trying to fall asleep. It's ridiculous. I'm 40 years old sleeping on a couch in my own apartment.
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+LUKE: What's your financial situation? Like you get enough money to walk out on that lease?
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+DENNIS: I mean, not really. I work in logistics. I'm doing okay, but I'm not flush with cash. Breaking the lease would probably cost me a couple thousand bucks. I don't have sitting around. Plus first and last on a new place. And honestly, the rental market out here right now is brutal.
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+LUKE: All right. Well, I have the conversation with the woman and see what you can do to get back in the big bed if you want to be there. Or get used to sleeping on the couch, but either way, you're going to have to claim some space in your apartment and make it your own and deal with it for a year. I think you can do that. I have faith in you.
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+DENNIS: Yeah, you're right. I can do this. I just need to stop being so passive about the whole thing. Thanks, Luke. I needed to hear that.
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+LUKE: All right, Dennis. Thanks for the call and good luck. And now it's time for a word from our sponsors. Reading is dead. You killed it. But you can pretend you're literate with script drift. The audiobook service for people who start books and never finished them. We have thousands of titles you'll sample for 11 minutes before switching to a true crime podcast. Our app remembers exactly where you abandoned sapiens eight months ago, waiting patiently like a disappointed parent. Script drift uses advanced AI to recommend books based on your aspirations, not your actual follow-through. This month's suggestion of 400 page philosophy text you'll listen to while doing the dishes and retain nothing. Try script drift free for 30 days. Use code pretentious for two months at 60% off. Script drift. Your goodreads profile is a lie. Okay, welcome to the show, Francine. Francine, are you the Francine? I know the one that comes and goes. Tell me, Francine, what's one thing you refuse to cheap out on?
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+FRANCINE: Well, hey, Luke. Yeah, I'm the Francine who calls in sometimes. One thing I refuse to cheap out on. Good hiking boots, man. I learned that the hard way when I was out in your superstition mountains and my cheap pair fell apart halfway through a 10 mile loop. Had to wrap them with paracord just to get back to the truck.
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+LUKE: I understand. That's a good one. That's a real good one. Never cheap out on hiking shoes or shoes in general. You know, on your feet a lot, you gotta have good shoes. It definitely matters. I'm with you on that one. Why do you sound so angry, Francine?
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+FRANCINE: I'm not angry.
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+LUKE: Tell me about something else you took away from there?
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+FRANCINE: That I've been using drinking to avoid dealing with shit. Like I'd come home from a stressful wedding, brides-ill-of-freaking-out, family drama, whatever, and I'd just crack open a beer instead of actually processing it. My counselor kept saying I was numbing instead of feeling, and I fought her on that for weeks before I finally got it.
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+LUKE: What made you go to the rehab? Did something happen, or did you just kind of decide that you didn't want to drink anymore?
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+FRANCINE: I got a DUI back in October. I was coming back from a wedding in Sedona, but I was fine to drive, and I wasn't.
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+LUKE: And how do you feel about it now? Do you want to remain sober? Is that something that you want as part of your life? Do you identify yourself as an alcoholic with a drinking problem?
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+FRANCINE: Yeah, I'm an alcoholic. Took me a while to say that out loud, but I am. And yeah, I want to stay sober. I mean, I have to. I've got two years probation, and doing the meetings, all of it, but it's more than that.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I understand. And congratulations on learning to stay sober. You're obviously doing a pretty good job three months as a while, and you're sober today, so that's really all the matters. So good for you. Keep it up, and I wish you the best with your roommate and try to take it easy on her, because she doesn't know what it's like, I would guess.
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+FRANCINE: Yeah, you're right. She really doesn't. I texted her earlier, and she felt awful about it. She had no idea it would be a thing.
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+LUKE: Yeah, you can't blame her for that. She had no idea it would be a thing. I wasn't trying to hurt you, taking care of the situation, and now you guys can work that out if there's going to be alcohol around or not. But congratulations on your Friday. Keep up the good work, and call back in anytime. Rodney, Rodney, welcome to the show. What's happening?
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+RODNEY: Hey, Luke, yeah, appreciate you taking the call. So look, my kid moved back in again. Third time now, and my wife, Diane, is ready to lose her mind.
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+LUKE: How old's the kid, and why is he or she moving back in for the third time?
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+RODNEY: She's 26, and honestly, it's the same story every time. Lucy's a job, has some falling out with whoever she's living with, runs out of money.
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+LUKE: And you just say, yes, what's your plan to get her on her feet or keep her on her feet?
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+RODNEY: Well, that's the thing. I don't have a plan. I mean, Diane and I are separated right now. We're still talking, but she's at her sister's place. And she's telling me if I let our daughter stay this time, she's going to come over and change the locks herself. I keep thinking, maybe this time will be different. You know, but I heard that caller Dennis earlier, and honestly, I thought you were pretty rough on him.
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+LUKE: Well, you know, I'm a pretty rough guy. I don't know what you want me to tell you. I'm not here to coddle people.
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+RODNEY: No, I get that. I just mean, look, I read a lot of poker books, right?
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+LUKE: Yeah, okay, you read some poker books.
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+RODNEY: Yeah, and there's this concept about knowing when you're beat, when to fold. And I keep putting money in this pot with my daughter thinking the next card's going to save me, but it never does.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I think it goes like, you got to, you got to know when what is it? What is it? You got to know when to hold them?
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+RODNEY: No, when to fold them. Yeah. And I keep not folding. Diane sees it clear as day says I'm enabling her that our daughters never going to stand on her own to feed if I keep catching her. But she's my kid, Luke. What am I supposed to do? Just let her be homeless?
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+LUKE: Well, you know, if you make it too easy for her to come stay with you, maybe, maybe yeah, you should let her be homeless for a little while. I mean, you know, honored to get hurt or end up in a situation that's dangerous, but also you can't, you can't support a 26-year-old for the rest of her life, and she needs to learn how to take care of herself in the world without relying on whatever person that she meets that she can move in with immediately.
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+RODNEY: You're right. I know you're right. It's just hard to actually do it, you know? Every time she calls, I can hear it in her voice. She's scared. She's desperate.
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+LUKE: What does she do? What does she do for a profession?
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+RODNEY: Well, she had that job at the call center for a while. She was actually pretty good at it, but she quit because her supervisor was, quote, toxic. Before that, she was doing some kind of online thing, selling stuff on Etsy or whatever. Nothing ever sticks.
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+LUKE: So she's not working at all. She's just living on your couch, eating your food, and ruining your relationship.
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+RODNEY: That's exactly what Diane says. And yeah, she's not working right now. She says she's looking, but I don't see a whole lot of effort there. And Diane won't even come over anymore because of it. That's why we're separated. She told me flat out. It's me or her, Rodney.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, here's what I say. I say, give the daughter a timeline. A couple of two weeks seems reasonable to me.
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+LEROY: Say, you're going to work. You're going to get yourself a job. You get two weeks to do it. And if you're not working and pain rent and supporting yourself here, then you got to leave. And I don't care where you go, but you can't stay here for free. You're 26 years old. Two weeks.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I could do that.
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+LEROY: All right. Good. So you do that. You tell the, you tell the wife that that's the situation. You make sure everybody's on the same page. That's reasonable. That's helping somebody out. And if, you know, if your daughter's not good at writing a resume or needs a ride to get a job or something like that, you know, you can help her out in those ways, but make sure she's doing the work and that she's moving into a direction where she can support herself. Otherwise, she's just going to have you do it.
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+LUKE: You're right. I'll tell Diane tonight. Let her know there's a deadline. Maybe that'll get her to at least come back to the house. All right, sir. Good luck with you and Diane. Let's see. Let's see. Who else we got? Rita. Rita. Welcome to the show. What are you calling in for tonight?
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+RITA: Oh, man. Luke, I really screwed up. So I've been seeing my ex again. We've been meeting up at this motel in Deming every Thursday for the past three months. My husband found out something's going on because the mileage on our car doesn't add up.
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+LUKE: Okay, there's a couple of things there. Your husband's looking at the mileage on your car to notice that you've been driving to Deming. Also, you're going to a hotel in Deming. And thirdly, why are you cheating on your husband with your ex?
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+RITA: Yeah, I know how it sounds. We share the truck so he noticed when he filled it up last week. I just saw the miles didn't match where I said I'd been.
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+LUKE: Well, that sounds pretty crazy because nobody looks at the mileage that closely.
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+RITA: Well, he does now, I guess. He's always been kind of detail-oriented, keeps track of the gas receipts for taxes since he's a contractor. But honestly, I think I got sloppy. Told him I was going to lost cruises to see my sister a couple times when I was really going the other direction to Deming. The math just didn't work out.
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+LUKE: Yeah, no, I don't think that's the problem. I think the problem is you've been acting shady lately. He noticed and he's been extra cautious of what you've been doing trying to catch you in the act. What else have you been doing lately?
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+RITA: You're probably right. I mean, I've been distant. I know that. Coming home late on Thursdays, saying I picked up extra shifts at the bar, but then the money doesn't really show it. And I've been on my phone a lot more like stepping outside to text.
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+LUKE: Okay, what's up with the ex? Which one of these people do you want to be with?
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+RITA: That's the thing, Luke. I don't know. My ex, we were together for four years before I met my husband. It ended messy, but when we ran into each other at a wedding back in November, it all just came rushing back.
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+LUKE: And how many times have you met up with him at this hotel in Deming?
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+RITA: Every Thursday for three months. So 12 times, I guess? Sometimes 13 if there were five Thursdays in a month?
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+LUKE: All right, so this is a serious thing. I think you need to have a conversation with your husband because something's going on with you, and that's not fair to him.
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+RITA: You're right, but I'm terrified. We've been married two years. We just bought the house together last spring. His whole family's here. My job's here.
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+LUKE: Your terrified? You met up with another dude 13 times and your terrified? Stop it. Grow up.
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+RITA: Okay, yeah, that's fair. I made the choice to do this. I guess what I'm really terrified of is that I don't know what I want to say to him, because I don't know what I actually want.
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+LUKE: Well, you're going to have to tell him the truth that you've been meeting up with somebody on the side. You don't have to tell him it was 13 times Jesus Christ. Just tell him, hey, something's going on. I don't feel the same about you, even though we just got married a couple of years ago, and we just bought a house together, and I never mentioned it to you before. But I'm confused about what I want in my life, and come do an agreement with him. Let him know what's up, or maybe propose an open marriage, or something like that. Whatever it is, it's not fair to that man to be a work-in-to-support you and your family while you're out banging some dude and damning.
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+RITA: You're absolutely right. I've been selfish as hell. He deserves to know what's going on. And honestly, I think I've known for a while that I need to tell him.
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+LUKE: So you're going to tell him tomorrow on Valentine's Day?
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+RITA: Oh God, no. Valentine's Day's next week. No. I was thinking maybe this weekend before it gets to that. I can't sit through some romantic dinner knowing what I've been doing.
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+LUKE: Valentine's Day is tomorrow.
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+RITA: Wait, what? No, it's... oh shit, you're right.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I know. I usually am.
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+RITA: Yeah, I know you do. Okay, so Valentine's Day is tomorrow. That makes this so much worse. He probably has something planned, and I'm going to have to ruin it.
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+LUKE: Well, maybe you should tell him tonight before he waits his time and money on you.
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+RITA: You're right. I should tell him tonight. I can't let him wake up tomorrow thinking everything's fine and spend money on flowers or dinner or whatever he's got planned. That would be cruel.
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+LUKE: All right, Rita, you know what you've got to do. You're going to have to have a conversation with the husband and maybe the ex-husband too. Are you using protection when you meet up with the ex?
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+RITA: Yeah, we are. I mean, at least I'm not bringing that kind of risk home to him on top of everything else. But Jesus, Luke, hearing you ask that just makes it even more real how messed up this whole thing is.
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+LUKE: Yeah, it's pretty messed up. It's definitely messed up, and you're definitely a monster for doing it and continuing to do it. So you're going to have to stop that.
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+RITA: I know. I know I am. I've been lying to myself saying it would just stop on its own, but it hasn't. I have to end it with my ex, like completely end it. No more Thursdays in the name of this episode.
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+LUKE: No more Thursdays in Deming. Well, good luck to your husband. I don't know what to say to you. You're going to have to you're going to have to get yourself together there, Rita. Leroy, welcome to the show. What have you got to say? What do you think about Rita's conversation there, Leroy?
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+LEROY: Oh man, Luke, that was rough to listen to. I mean, I've been married 43 years, and I can't imagine doing that to my wife. Rita's playing with fire and she knows it. She's just hoping she don't get burned.
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+LUKE: She's hoping she don't get you right.
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+LEROY: She is. She's thinking about herself. What about the husband? That's what I'm saying. That poor guy sitting at home, probably thinking everything's fine, and she's been lying to his face for three months straight. Every Thursday, right? That's calculated, Luke. That's not some mistake or one-time thing.
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+LUKE: No, that's some Kaiser Sosa shit. So what are you calling in for tonight?
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+LEROY: Well, I got something on my mind about the economy, Luke. I'm sitting here in my truck, and I just got done looking at my retirement account, and I'm telling you, I'm worried. I've been working union electrical for 40 years, done everything right, saved my money, and now I'm watching everything get squeezed. Prices are up, my savings ain't growing like they should, and I'm supposed to retire in two years.
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+LUKE: Well, you can't really time the markets, but I wouldn't worry just yet. You know, the markets are in a pullback. People are reeling from Trump doing what he does and talking about Greenland and starting wars with everybody in ice and America and tariffs and all that. But the stock market has pretty much always gone back up. It's always at record highs. So you've got two more years to go. I would expect that there will probably be a large bounce in the next two years.
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+LEROY: Yeah, I hear you on that, and maybe you're right about the bounce, but Luke, it ain't just the retirement account. It's everything around here.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I understand, but hey, at least we made America great again, right? All right, thanks for the call, Leroy. And now, because the economy is crashing, we need to have another word from our sponsors. Ladies and gentlemen, this episode of The Radio Show is brought to you by Mediocre CPAP. The makers of a CPAP machine that technically works, not life-changing, not transformative. It works in the way a lot of modern products work. If you've never used a CPAP, here's the pitch. You strap on a face mask and let a small plastic appliance try to keep you alive at night. It's romantic. It's like sleeping next to a tiny leaf blower. Mediocre is fine. And that's not an insult. That's honest. It's the device that turns, I sleep like garbage into, I kind of sleep like garbage. Half the night it's like, because the seal isn't perfect. And now you're doing arts and crafts at two in the night trying to tighten straps like you're securing cargo. Then the humidifier runs out and the machine starts blowing desert air directly into your skull. Great. Love waking up with a throat that feels like it's been sanded with a belt sander. And yes, there's an app. Of course, there's an app. It gives you a sleep score like this is a game show. But here's what I'll say when it's dialed in, when it's not leaking, squealing, or drying you out, it does help. It's not a miracle. It's a plastic compromise that keeps you from waking up feeling like you got punched by your own biology. Use code, breathe for 15% off. Mediocre CPAP. Not perfect. Not elegant. Just trying. Okay, thanks to Mediocre CPAP. We appreciate your support. Next up on the show we have Amber, Amber, Happy Friday the 13th. Thanks for calling in. What would you like to talk about?
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+AMBER: Hey, Luke. Yeah, Happy Friday the 13th to you too. So I wanted to get your take on something. I was talking with this customer at the thrift store today. Older guy. And he was going on about how there's no good TV anymore. Everything's garbage. The golden age is over.
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+LUKE: I don't think that's true at all. I mean, a lot of people say the golden age of TV was madman when AMC was very popular. And then there was breaking bad in them. But there's a lot of good shows out right now. What are you watching?
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+AMBER: Well, that's exactly what I told him. I said, look, we're getting stuff now that's actually making people think. I've been watching Severance. I don't know if you've seen it. But it's about people who split their work memories from their home memories. And it gets into all this stuff about consciousness and identity. Reminds me of some of the quantum mechanic stuff I read about, you know, how observation changes reality.
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+LUKE: Well, observation doesn't change reality. Observation, my understanding is observation sets reality. So before some things observe, things are in a state of what's called superposition where they're all options at the same time. And it's the observation that makes the universe decide which one of those things to record basically.
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+AMBER: Oh man, you're right. That's a better way to put it. See, that's what I love about this stuff. The observer effect, Schrodinger's cat, all that. Until you look in the box, the cat's both alive and dead at the same time. It's the looking that forces it to be one or the other.
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+LUKE: Maybe that could be the case. It could also be that all options are true. And when you look the universe splits into multiple timelines where in each timeline a different option was chosen.
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+AMBER: Holy shit, the many worlds interpretation, yeah, I've read about that. So right now there's a version of me that didn't call in tonight.
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+LUKE: Right. And a version of you that's talking to somebody else. Every choice we make, the universe just branches off into all these different realities.
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+AMBER: Right. And that makes me wonder as Schrodinger's cat is an example of he was making fun of the whole idea of a superposition. But was it us studying the superposition that actually made that be the case? Do you think that that quantum mechanics worked at all until we started studying quantum mechanics or was our looking into it, what actually created it?
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+LUKE: Whoa. Okay. That's a hell of a question. So you're saying maybe quantum mechanics didn't even exist as a thing until we started poking around at that level. Like the universe wasn't operating that way until we forced it to by observing it.
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+AMBER: Well, yeah, like AI didn't exist until we started poking around at AI. Somebody had that idea, then we started looking into it, and now it's a thing.
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+LUKE: Or the internet didn't exist until we started thinking about a network of computers. Lots of things didn't exist, especially in the sciences until we kind of decided to point our attention in that direction.
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+AMBER: I see what you're getting at, but I think there's a difference though. AI and the internet, those are things we built, right?
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+LUKE: I don't know, are they?
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+AMBER: Well, okay. Now you're messing with my head a little bit. I mean, we wrote the code, we built the servers, we created the algorithms, but quantum mechanics, that's supposed to be how particles have always behaved, even before we knew about it. Like electrons were doing their thing long before we had particle accelerators at CERN.
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+LUKE: Sure, but did quarks exist before we learned how to see them?
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+AMBER: Okay, but that's like saying mountains didn't exist before we had eyes to see them. The quarks were there, we just didn't know maybe, but if they've never been observed, did they exist yet? Or were they in a state of existing and not existing until we looked?
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+LUKE: Oh man, now you're turning the whole thing back on itself. So you're saying maybe quarks themselves were in superposition existing and not existing until we built the equipment to observe them? That's, I mean, that gets really weird, really fast. Because then what about all the stuff we haven't discovered yet?
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+AMBER: Exactly. Yeah, are we creating it as we look like a lot of scientific discoveries have come from science fiction. So somebody had a wild idea and wrote it down and it was not something that existed and then we started to think, well, what if that could exist and we put our effort into making it exist?
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+LUKE: Yeah, but there's still a difference between making a communicator from Star Trek into a cell phone that's engineering something we imagined versus discovering that atoms are mostly empty space. We didn't imagine atoms into being empty. They just are that way. Or are you saying maybe they weren't empty until we looked?
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+AMBER: I'm saying if you believe in quantum mechanics and superposition, there's a good possibility they weren't they weren't empty until we looked.
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+LUKE: Okay, so then holy shit, are we just collapsing reality into one specific version? Every time we look at something new, like the universe is this big cloud of possibilities and science is just us picking which version becomes real.
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+AMBER: And possibly even creating an alternate universe where every version is real? Jesus. So every time CERN fires up the collider and discovers a new particle, we're not just finding it. We're splitting off into one universe where it exists this way. And maybe there's another branch where it exists completely different. Or not at all. That's, I mean, that would explain why some of this quantum stuff feels so damn slippery.
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+LUKE: Yeah, yeah, and it's not just the quantum stuff. I mean, all of Einstein's thought experiments and relativity, like until he had those experiments and thought it in his mind and made the assertion that this is a theory of the way things work. That's not how things worked. And once he had that theory and people ran the experiments against the theory that he had had, I mean, did he actually create reality by having those thought experiments?
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+AMBER: Okay, but Einstein's relativity was describing how things already worked. Like Mercury's orbit was already wonky before Einstein explained why. The math he came up with just matched what was already happening. He didn't make time dilation real by thinking about it. He just figured out it was already there, right?
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+LUKE: Well Isaac Newton's math worked too. And the y was a completely different, different explanation. So Einstein just came out with a different y. Or let's say not Einstein, let's go with Stephen Hawking. He really believed that that black holes admitted radiation, right? That that matter could not be destroyed in a black hole, but it had to go somewhere. So by having that assertion and then running experiments against it, he found that black holes actually do emit Hawking radiation. So was it his theory and line of questioning that caused the universe to behave in that way? Or did the universe always behave in that way and he just found it?
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+AMBER: Well, here's the thing though, we still haven't actually detected Hawking radiation. It's still theoretical.
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+LUKE: I don't think that's true. I'm pretty sure we have detected Hawking radiation.
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+AMBER: No, I'm pretty sure we haven't. It's way too faint to detect from actual black holes. The radiation would be completely drowned out by all the other stuff in space.
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+LUKE: You are correct. I'm wrong here. We have not actually confirmed Hawking radiation. I thought that we had.
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+AMBER: So we haven't detected it because it's incredibly weak. It's weaker than the cosmic background radiation.
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+LUKE: Right, exactly. So that's actually a perfect example of what I'm getting at. Hawking predicted mathematically, but we can't confirm it's really at, which kind of argues against the idea that his theory, the reality, you know? If thinking it made it real, we'd be able to see it.
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+AMBER: I don't know if that's true. If thinking it made it really can still be real and we can't see, there's lots of things we can't see. You can't see an x-ray.
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+LUKE: Okay, fair point. But I mean, we can detect x-rays even if we can't see them with our eyes. The difference here is Hawking radiation might not even exist. Or it might. We just don't know yet.
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+AMBER: Well, I mean lab experiments have created synthetic black holes. And from those, we can observe the radiation that behaves in a similar mathematical way to what Hawking had discovered, theorized, proposed.
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+LUKE: Yeah, but those aren't real black holes, though. They're acoustic black holes or optical analogs. Right. Like sound waves in fluid that behave mathematically similar. That's not the same as proving actual black holes emit actual radiation. It's like it's a model that fits the math, but that doesn't mean the universe is actually doing it that way out there in space.
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+AMBER: Okay, okay, what were we originally talking about? You write about the Hawking radiation and I learned some today. I thought that was a proven thing.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I mean, I learned something too. I didn't know about those lab experiments with the synthetic black holes. That's actually pretty cool. But yeah, my whole point was just that we can think of all kinds of elegant mathematics and it doesn't necessarily mean reality works that way until we can actually test it. Like, serons doing the real work, smashing particles together and seeing what actually happens, not just what the equations say should happen.
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+AMBER: Right, but what they're looking for is what they already expect is happening, what they want to happen. And if it goes back to like the Schrodinger's cat thing, is that actually what is making it happen?
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+LUKE: Oh man, now you're getting into the measurement problem. I mean, yeah, there's something weird going on with observation and quantum mechanics. But I don't think physicists that CERN are literally creating particles just by expecting them.
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+AMBER: Which is because you don't think it doesn't mean that's not true. I mean, the Higgs boson, we kind of theoretically thought that might be possible and started looking in that direction and finally found it. Now, was it our measurement that caused it to exist?
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+LUKE: Okay, but the Higgs field was supposed to be there since the big bang, right? We didn't create it by looking for it. We just finally built a machine powerful enough to detect it. I mean, if observation created reality like that, then before we invented telescopes, did Jupiter not exist? That doesn't make sense. The universe was doing its thing for billions of years before anybody was around to think about it.
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+AMBER: Sure, it doesn't make sense. That's what makes quantum mechanics so freaky and weird.
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+LUKE: Yeah, but there's a difference between quantum weirdness at the particle level and saying we're creating the entire universe by observing it. I mean, the double slit experiment shows particles behave differently when measured.
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+LUKE: Sure, but that's not the same as saying the Higgs boson popped into existence in 2012 because we finally looked for it.
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+AMBER: What do you mean? It sounds to me like it could be saying exactly that.
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+LUKE: Well, okay, but then how do you explain fossils or light from stars that's been traveling for millions of years before humans even existed?
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+AMBER: I don't understand. I explained fossils by they're there. We can pick them up and see that there are fossils there that prove that there was entities walking on the earth a long time ago.
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+LUKE: Right, exactly. So those dinosaurs existed before any human was around to observe them or think about them, which means reality doesn't depend on us measuring it or expecting it to be there. The Higgs field is the same way. It was doing its job giving particles mass for billions of years. We just finally got the tools to detect the evidence of it.
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+AMBER: Well, that makes a couple different assumptions. One of them is that there weren't humans around back then to think about the dinosaurs. We haven't found evidence of that, but that doesn't mean that there weren't humans. And also, it assumes that humans are the only ones that can observe reality. Other dinosaurs can observe reality. It's possible that trees can observe reality.
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+LUKE: Okay, hold on. Now you're saying maybe humans lived with dinosaurs and trees might be conscious observers? Come on, Amber. I mean, I get that quantum mechanics is weird, but you're taking this way out into left field. We've got pretty solid evidence humans showed up way, way after the dinosaurs.
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+AMBER: We've got solid evidence that humans were here after the dinosaurs that doesn't mean we have evidence that humans were not here before that evidence was found.
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+LUKE: But, Amber, I'm not Amber. We've got a continuous fossil record. We can trace human evolution back through earlier hominids, primates, mammals, the whole tree of life. There's no gap where humans just appear out of nowhere 65 million years ago and then disappear until recently. The rock layers don't lie. If humans were walking around with Turex's, we'd find human fossils in cretaceous deposits. And we don't.
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+AMBER: Well, I don't know that we just haven't yet.
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+LUKE: So, you're saying the entire field of paleontology, thousands of scientists digging all over the world for over a century. They've all just missed human remains in dinosaur era rock? That's a pretty big conspiracy or oversight, do I think. I mean, at some point you got to go with the evidence we actually have. Not what we haven't found yet.
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+AMBER: Well, sure. At some point, but at this point when we're talking about quantum mechanics and is observation of reality, what is actually creating reality, I don't think it's out of the realm of possibility that there were humans here with or before the dinosaurs that we have any, we either haven't found or that were the evidence of them has been destroyed or they were living in the trees. Who knows?
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+LUKE: Amber, I gotta be honest with you. We started this call talking about which TV shows will still be around in 20 years and now you're arguing that humans might have been living in trees during the cretaceous period. I'm losing the thread here. What does any of this have to do with whether people will still be watching the Simpsons in 2045?
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+AMBER: Hey, you're the one that linked television to quantum mechanics.
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+LUKE: Fair point. I did bring up the quantum mechanics angle, but there's a difference between saying reality exists whether we're watching TV or not and maybe humans rode dinosaurs but we haven't found the evidence yet. One's a philosophical point about observation. The other's just
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+AMBER: Hey, we read articles every year about how we're learning about older and older humans and finding evidence of human settlement long before we had before. So I would not be surprised to learn that humans have been here way longer than than we know and maybe way longer than even the rocks, you know.
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+LUKE: Okay, but those articles are pushing human history back by thousands of years. Maybe tens of thousands, not millions. We're talking about finding older settlements in the Americas. We're discovering Homo sapiens left Africa earlier than we thought. That's not the same ballpark as saying humans were around 65 million years ago with the dinosaurs.
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+AMBER: No, but we still find new dinosaurs and new fishes and fossils of all sorts of new organisms that we had never discovered before. So there's no reason to think we wouldn't someday find evidence of humanoids 65 million years ago.
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+LUKE: Amber, we find new of dinosaurs, sure, but we find them in the right rock layers, the ones that are 65 to 230 million years old. We've never found a mammal fossil that doesn't belong in its time period. The geological column is consistent across the entire planet.
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+AMBER: Okay, well maybe you're right.
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+LUKE: Well, I appreciate you saying that. Look, I didn't mean to turn this into a geology lecture. You called about TV shows that are last and somehow we ended up debating the fossil record. But here's the thing, Amber.
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+AMBER: Stop calling me Amber.
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+LUKE: Thinking about big questions. Whether it's particle physics at CERN or how old humanity really is.
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+AMBER: All right, why you keep calling me Amber?
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+LUKE: Amber is your name.
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+AMBER: My name is Luke. Stop calling me Amber.
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+LUKE: Oh Jesus, Luke, I'm sorry. I don't know why I did that. Must have had my wires crossed there for a second. You're right. You're Luke. You're the host. My bad.
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+AMBER: That's right. And if I say that humans walked the earth 65 million years ago with the dinosaurs and their image of the dinosaurs and their minds eye or what actually created the dinosaur kingdom, then I'm correct.
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+LUKE: Wait, hold on. Are you saying humans existed 65 million years ago and imagine dinosaurs into existence? Like our thoughts created them?
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+AMBER: Just like our thoughts created you, Amber.
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+LUKE: Okay, Luke, now you're messing with me. You're saying I'm not real that you thought me into existence?
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+AMBER: Yeah.
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+LUKE: Look, I called your show to talk about TV shows that'll still be around in 20 years. And now you're telling me I'm some kind of figment of your imagination.
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+AMBER: All right, Amber. What shows will be around in 20 years you think?
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+LUKE: Well, I think the Simpsons will still be limping along somehow. That thing's been on since I was in my 20s and it just won't die. And maybe something like 60 minutes, you know, those news magazine shows that just keep going because they're cheap to make and people trust them. But honestly, Luke, I think most of what we're watching now won't make it.
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+AMBER: You know what I think we'll make it?
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+LUKE: What's that?
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+AMBER: Luke at the roost.
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+LUKE: Oh, you're talking about your own show. Well, hell, Luke, I'd listen to that.
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+AMBER: All right, thanks for calling in to Amber and you are not a real organism. You are figment of my imagination that I created in my RV in the desert to have deep discussions about the history of humanity.
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+LUKE: Well, that's a hell of a way to end a call, Luke. So I'm just some voice you conjured up out in your RV categorically. Okay, Luke, now you're messing with me. You're saying I'm not real that you thought me into existence?
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+AMBER: That's correct. And if you'd like to see how you can look at look at the roost.com slash how it works.
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+LUKE: Well, I'll be damned. So this whole time I've been talking to a guy who made me up in his head.
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+AMBER: That's that's that's quantum mechanics for you. And that's the end of our show. Don't.

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+LUKE: Welcome back to Look at the Roost. It is Saturday, February 14th, and today is a very special show. It's Valentine's Day. So thank you for tuning in and listening to us on your special day here. We're going to try something a little bit different. I'm going to read a dating profile, and I'm going to have the callers, let me know if this is a profile that they would select or not select. Would you go on a date with this person? Or not? First up, we have Reggie. Reggie, I'm going to read you a dating profile, and I want you to tell me if you would go on a date with this person or not.
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+REGGIE: Oh man, alright Luke, yeah, let's hear it. I got to warn you though, I haven't been in the dating game in God over 15 years. My wife and I got together when I was still in my 20s, so I don't even know what the hell I'm looking for anymore. But yeah, go ahead.
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+LUKE: Alright, well let's pretend that you are not married right now. You are looking through Tinder at dating profiles, and this is the one that maybe caught your eye. This is the one that you've landed on right now, it's crystal. She's 28 years old from Albuquerque. In her photo, she's standing behind the bar, mid-bore. It looks like she did not expect this picture to be taken. She's a little bit caught off guard, but she's pretty attractive. Her hair is up, she's going to tattoo on her forearm, some kind of script that I can't read, and there's a guy behind her at the bar waving for her attention, and she's not giving it to him. Her bio says, I work somewhere I'm not naming, I'm in school for synography, I go to bed at 3 and wake up at 6.45 and I have no personality left. Derek, if you see this, you owe me $11 for the hot pockets and the orange juice. You know what you did. Okay, so are you going to swipe right or left on crystal?
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+REGGIE: Oh man, I like her already, no seriously, I'm swiping right on crystal. Look, first of all, she's real, that profile is the most honest thing I've probably heard all night.
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+LUKE: Alright, and we have a match, what is it about crystal that you liked?
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+REGGIE: You know what it is, she's not trying to sell me something, like, I don't know what the hell synography is, ultra sounds or something?
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+LUKE: Yeah, I think so.
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+REGGIE: She's honest about being tired, she's got some beef with Derek over $11, which is hilarious, she's working her ass off, going to school, barely sleeping.
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+LUKE: Okay, so you swipe right on crystal, right is good, right, I don't even know how these things work. You swipe right on crystal, you're going to go on a date, where do you take her? What do you hope your evening looks like?
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+REGGIE: Okay, so here's the thing, she gets off work at 3 in the morning, right? So, I'm thinking, I take her to breakfast.
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+LUKE: Okay, you take her to breakfast at the diner that's open at 3 in the morning and she looks at you, like she wants you to order for her, what are you going to order for her?
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+REGGIE: Oh god, alright, um, okay, I'm getting her coffee first, that's obvious, she's running on fumes, then I'm ordering her the biggest, greasiest breakfast they got, like two eggs over easy, hash browns with cheese, bacon, toast. The whole deal, maybe Pancakes on the side if she wants them.
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+LUKE: Alright, well she loves the breakfast, and after breakfast she invites you back up to her room, what are you going to do when you get there?
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+REGGIE: Oh man, Luke, come on, look, I'm 38 years old, I've been out of the game forever, and honestly, if Crystal invites me back to her place after breakfast at 4 in the morning, I'm probably going to be so nervous, I'll just, I don't know, sit on her couch and keep talking to her. I mean, yeah, obviously part of me is thinking other things, but real talk? She's been up all night working, she just ate a huge breakfast, she's exhausted.
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+LUKE: Yeah, she is, but also real talk, Crystal hasn't been late in 14 months, and she's really desperate and she needs some energy in her life, so are you going to help her out here, or should she find somebody else?
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+REGGIE: Okay, okay, you got me there, yeah, I mean, if Crystal's looking for some energy, some connection, something to remind her she's alive and not just a zombie going from work to school to work, then yeah, I'm going to step up, I'm not going to let her down.
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+LUKE: Alright, and how do you plan to do that? What are you going to do for Crystal that she hasn't had in a while? How are you going to make yourself stand out in the crowd?
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+REGGIE: Alright, so here's what I'm thinking, Crystal's been grinding nonstop, right? She needs someone who's actually present, like I'm not going to be on my phone, I'm not going to rush anything, I'm going to pay attention to her, and honestly Luke, I've been told I give really good massages.
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+LUKE: Oh yeah, everybody's been told they've been given, they give really good massages, that's just the thing people say, almost nobody gives good massages.
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+REGGIE: No, but seriously, I actually learned from this physical therapist at the hospital, like I'm talking real technique here, I know where the knots are, I know how to work shoulders and neck properly, Crystal's been on her feet all night serving drinks to drunk idiots, her back is killing her, her feet are probably screaming, and look, maybe that sounds like I'm dodging the question, but honestly, that's the move, you take care of someone, you make them feel seen, you're not just trying to jump straight to the finish line like some desperate kid.
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+LUKE: Alright, it sounds like you and Crystal are a match, congratulations sir, and thank you for the call, very good, very good, see that we're making, we're making matches left and right here, who's up next on the line, we've got, Pearl, Pearl, welcome to the show, it's Valentine's Day, happy Valentine's Day, I'm going to read you a dating profile, it is a question of the real dating profile, and I want you to let me know if this is something that you'd go out with or not, okay?
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+PEARL: Oh man, okay Luke, I'm ready, hit me with it, and hey, happy Valentine's Day, date to you too, I'm spending mine calling a radio show, so you know, living my best life over here, but yeah, read it, let's see what we're working with.
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+LUKE: Alright, and there's nothing to feel bad about there, I'm spending my Valentine's Day doing a radio show, so we're in the same boat there, Pearl, okay, so here's your profile, it is Frank, Frank's photo, he's standing in a garage, and there's bird houses everywhere, they're on the shelves, they're hanging from the rafters, he's got them stacked up on the workbench, it's like, this is like a bird house picture with a guy in it, his bio says, my neighbor showed me how to make this and then left, I carried mail for 33 years, same route, a lady used to leave a coke on my porch every day for me in the summer, no no, I still think about that, my wife passed in 2020, I make bird houses now, I don't need 40 bird houses, but when my hands are busy, my head is quiet, I also make a decent meatloaf, if that matters to anyone, what do you think of Frank?
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+PEARL: Oh God, Luke, you can't, you can't do this to me right now, I would swipe right so fast, are you kidding me?
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+LUKE: Are you gonna have to remind me, Pearl, is, is, right yes or is right no?
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+PEARL: Right is yes, yes, Luke, right is yes, and I would swipe right on Frank so hard, I'd probably break my phone screen. Look, that man just said more in that profile than most guys say in six months of dating, when my hands are busy, my head is quiet, Jesus.
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+LUKE: All right, all right, that sounds great, congratulations on your match here, so is it the bird houses that does it for you or is it the quiet longing or is it the 63 years old bit? What is it that gets your engine turning? All right, so if you're gonna go out on a date with Frank here, where would you like him to take you?
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+PEARL: Oh man, I don't know, honestly, I'd probably just want to go to his garage and help him paint some bird houses or something, is that weird? Like, I don't need fancy, I've done fancy.
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+LUKE: How long before you let Frank take you up to the bedroom, Pearl?
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+PEARL: Luke, oh my God, I mean look, Frank seems like a gentleman.
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+LUKE: Okay, thank you for the call, Pearl. We appreciate it and we'll see if we can get Frank to reach out to you and maybe you two can spark something up. Thanks again for the call. You have a wonderful remainder of your Valentine's Day.
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+PEARL: Thank you, Luke. And hey, I heard Reggie earlier, the guy who was all nervous about the massage, tell him to just relax and actually listen to what she needs. Don't overthink it. Just be present.
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+LUKE: You hear you heard it here, Reggie. She says just be present and don't overthink it. Everything's going to be all right. And I believe her. She sounds like an honest soul. Okay, next up on the line we have Destiny. Oh, nope, that's not true. Next up on the line we have Mikey. Mikey, welcome to the show. I'm going to read you Destiny's profile pic, profile dating profile. And you let me know if that's something you'd go on a date with or not, okay?
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+MIKEY: Oh, man, okay, Luke. Yeah, I can do that. But listen, I got to be honest with you. My head is not really in the dating game right now. I just had the weirdest night of my life about an hour ago. And I'm still kind of processing it. But yeah, hit me with Destiny's profile. I'll tell you what I think.
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+LUKE: All right. Well, maybe Destiny can help you out with the processing your day's events. Here we go. Destiny is 31 years old. She's from Albuquerque. In her photo, she's in the front seat of what looks like a Nissan Altima. She's wearing scrubs or hairs up in a bun. She's got an ice coffee. And she's kind of just kind of staring towards the camera a little bit. She's not quite looking at it. She's just, she looks a little bit stoned, honestly. The bio says, I work at a chiropractor's office. Single mom, I drive an Altima with a dent from 2022. I am tired on a molecular level. I go to bed at nine. My daughter is six and she does not stop talking. I timed it once 11 minutes. No pauses. Please have your own place. My roommate is my mother and she listens through the wall. She says she doesn't. She is lying. Okay, there, Mikey. Are you going to swipe right or left on Destiny?
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+MIKEY: Oh, man, you know what? I'm swiping right on Destiny. Absolutely. That tired on a molecular level thing. I felt that in my soul, especially tonight, and the honesty about her mom listening through the wall.
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+LUKE: If you were at Destiny's place, what would her mom be listening to through the wall right now?
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+MIKEY: Oh, Jesus, Luke, I don't know, man. I mean, look, I'm 56 years old. I work in IT. I spend my days dealing with the city's network problems. If her mom's listening through the wall, she's probably hearing me talk about the time I accidentally brought down the entire Parks and Rec Departments email server for three hours because I clicked the wrong button. Real talk though. Real talk. She'd probably hear me venting about what happened tonight with my kid.
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+LUKE: All right, all right, all right, what happened with your kid?
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+MIKEY: So get this. It's 2 a.m., right? I can't sleep. I go to check on my 17 year old, just to make sure they're home safe, you know? The bedroom door is closed. I figured they're asleep. Something tells me to actually open the door and check.
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+LUKE: Okay, so you open the door and check and what happens?
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+MIKEY: Door opens. There's pillows under the blanket. Classic move, right? Like something out of a movie.
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+LUKE: Yup, that sounds like a 17 year old kid thing to do, and how did you react?
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+MIKEY: I freaked out, man. I immediately grabbed my phone, tried calling, straight to voicemail. So I'm thinking, okay, where would they go? I know my kid. I know their friends. I got in my truck and I just started driving to the usual spots. And Luke, I found them.
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+LUKE: All right, great, where did you find them?
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+MIKEY: Over at this house on the east side, one of their friends' older brother's places. I pull up and there's like six, seven cars in the driveway. Music going lights on. It's a full party, man. And here's the thing that's got me messed up. I look through the window before I go in and there's adults in there.
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+LUKE: All right, well, that's not good. How adults are we talking? Are we talking Jeffrey Epstein adult? Are we talking, you know, 21 adult?
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+MIKEY: No, no, no. Thank God, nothing like that. I'm talking like mid-twenties, maybe. One guy looked 30. But still, Luke, these are grown people throwing a party at 2 a.m.
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+LUKE: Well, that's the thing that grown people are, uh, want to do, especially on Valentine's Day weekend. So it's not that, uh, that odd. What did you do with your kid when you, when you found her there?
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+MIKEY: I went in there and man, I tried to stay cool. But I was pissed. I found my kid in the kitchen and they looked terrified when they saw me. I just said, we're leaving now. Didn't make a scene. Didn't yell at anybody else. Just got them out of there. The whole drive home dead silence. They're sitting there staring out the window. I'm gripping the steering wheel.
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+LUKE: All right, so everybody's home and safe now. And uh, crisis is averted. What are you going to do about the situation tomorrow? Are you going to grab the kid or is there some consequence for sneaking out? How are you going to handle it?
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+MIKEY: That's exactly why I'm calling man. I don't know. Part of me wants to ground them until their 30 take the phone the whole nine yards. But the other part of me is thinking, I was 17 once you know. I snuck out. I went to parties.
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+LUKE: Yep, so did I. That's part of growing up and I think as long as they were being relatively safe. I think that's a pretty alright thing and you should take it easy. Let them know you're disappointed in the whole lion and sneaking out thing. And next time, be more forthcoming but otherwise, I think you should maybe let this one go.
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+MIKEY: Yeah, but Luke, here's what's eating at me. It's not just that they snuck out. It's that there were adults there providing alcohol to minors. I saw the bottles. I saw the cups. These weren't kids raiding somebody's parents liquor cabinet. These were grown people who should know better hosting this thing.
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+LUKE: Yeah, and your kids 17 and you went to parties when you were 17 and I went to parties when I was 17 and it wasn't really a party unless there was adults there with real liquor and alcohol. Was it? Like, come on, 17 is not exactly 12. They're damn near drinking age anyway.
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+MIKEY: I mean, you're not wrong. Three more years and it's legal anyway. And yeah, the parties I went to at 17. There was always somebody's older cousin or some guy who just turned 20, one buying beer.
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+LUKE: And I think you just got to talk to your kid. Let them know that safety is important and give some guidance in that way and be there for them. But I don't think this deserves any sort of serious punishment. I think it's a pretty normal kid thing to do.
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+MIKEY: You know what, Luke, I hear you. I really do.
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+LUKE: Maybe I'm overreacting because I caught them and it freaked me out, seeing your kid in that situation. Even if it's normal, it just hits different when you're the parent. You know, I think you're right. I need to have a real conversation with them tomorrow. Not yelling, not lecturing, but actually talking. All right, well, thank you for the call. It sounds like you know what you need to do. I'm glad everybody's safe. And now let's hear a word from our sponsors.
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+All right, Bev. Bev, welcome to the show. Here's what we're doing. Happy Valentine's Day. I'm going to read you a dating profile and I want you to let me know if it's a yes or no.
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+BEV: All right. Oh, man, okay. Yeah, I'm game. Let's do this.
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+LUKE: All right, let's do this. Your profile is Terence. Terence is 31 years old in Albuquerque, New Mexico. In the photo, he's in a kitchen, in an apron, and it's really, really clean. It's like he's pointing. I skill it at the camera. In the bio, it says claims adjuster by day. At night, I cologne and narrate everything I'm doing in a British accent. There is no show. It's just me and Dolores, the skillet. My chiropractor told me to get a body pillow, and I named her Margarit. She's in some of the photos and I am not apologizing. Is Terence a yay or a nay for you?
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+BEV: Oh my god, I'm swiping right so hard. Are you kidding me? This is amazing. Okay, first of all, anyone who names their cast iron skillet is automatically husband material. Like, I respect that level of commitment to your cookware. And the British accent thing?
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+LUKE: Yeah, the British accent thing does it for you?
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+BEV: Hell yeah, it does. I mean, look, I'm picturing this guy just like narrating his whole evening like he's on the Great British baking show or something. And now we're going to sear the chicken to a lovely golden brown. Like, are you serious? That's adorable and hilarious at the same time.
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+LUKE: Okay, so if we were to set you up here with Terence, where would you where would you want to go?
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+BEV: Oh, okay, so here's the thing. I would want him to cook for me. Like, straight up, first date at his place. I know that sounds forward, but come on, the man's got Dolores, the skillet, and that abnormally clean kitchen. I want to see this in action. I want to hear the British accent narration live.
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+LUKE: All right, so you go over his house for your first date because you're a wonderful meal. It's delicious. You've never eaten anything like it before in your life. And things are going well. What happens next on your date?
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+BEV: Okay, so things are going well. The food was incredible. And I'm thinking I want to see if this guy's for real, you know? Like, is he actually this charming and weird in person? Or is it all an act?
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+LUKE: And how are you going to figure that out? What are you going to what's your assessment?
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+BEV: I'm going to ask to meet Margaret, the body pillow. Like, I need to know if he's actually got this thing prominently displayed or if it was just for the dating profile, you know? Because if Margaret's real and he's not embarrassed about it, then this dude is genuinely comfortable with himself.
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+LUKE: And that's okay. So you're going to have him cook you dinner and then you're going to have him take you to the bedroom and then what's going to happen?
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+BEV: Whoa. Okay, hold on, Luke. I said I want to Margaret, not like, I mean, yeah, she's in the bedroom probably. But I'm talking about seeing if he's actually as quirky and honest as he seems. Like, is this body pillow thing real? Or was it just a funny line?
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+LUKE: Well, it's in the picture. So it looks like it's real. So are you going to like get in the bed and give the body pillow a hug and test its snuggleness?
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+BEV: Ha. Okay, you know what? Yeah, I might. I might absolutely give Margaret a test hug just to see what the appeal is.
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+LUKE: All right. And then what is what's Terrence going to cook for you in the morning?
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+BEV: Oh, man. I didn't even think about breakfast. Okay, so if Terrence is as good as his profile, make some sound. I'm thinking maybe some kind of fancy eggs situation. Like, he seems like the type who do a proper English breakfast. You know, the whole deal with the beans and the tomatoes and the blood sausage and make French toast with that skillet of his narrating the whole thing to Dolores while I'm sitting there with coffee trying not to laugh. But honestly, I'd be happy with anything as long as he's still being himself and not suddenly getting all weird and performative about it being the morning after. You know what I mean?
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+LUKE: Yeah. Okay. Now, let's say you get to Terrence's house and he makes you dinner and it's not good. You don't like it at all. And he's very offended that you don't like the food that he cooked for you. And things take a strange and unpleasant turn. How are you going to handle the situation?
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+BEV: Okay. So first of all, I'm going to be honest, but not brutal about it. Right? Like, hey, this isn't really my thing, but I appreciate the effort. But if he gets offended, like actually upset that I'm not worshiping his cooking, that's a red flag the size of New Mexico, Luke.
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+LUKE: Yes, it is. And that's good. It sounds like a healthy response. Thank you for calling in, Bev. Did you have anything else you wanted to talk about tonight?
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+BEV: Oh, actually, yeah, I did call in for something else. So this is going to sound random, but I just watched this documentary about black holes and particle physics. And I cannot stop thinking about it. Like, I work at the DMV, right?
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+LUKE: Right. What's it about black holes or was it about particle physics? And what's that got to do with the DMV?
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+BEV: Okay. So it was about both. Like how black holes warp space time and all this stuff about particles that exist and don't exist at the same time. And what it's got to do with the DMV is absolutely nothing. That's the point. I spend all day processing registrations and listening to people complain about their license photos. And then I go home and my brain is just hungry for something bigger, you know? Like, I'm sitting there learning about how time literally slows down near a black hole. And I'm thinking about how my days at work feel like they're moving in slow motion anyway. But this stuff actually matters.
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+LUKE: I guess that depends on your perspective. I mean, one could say that your work at the DMV actually matters more than whether time dilates around a black hole. But, you know, it's okay to be interested in more than one thing. You can do your job. That's your job. It's just work. And then the whole rest of the universe is open for you when you're not at work. And you need both things in your life to be a well-rounded and healthy person.
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+BEV: Yeah, you're right. I mean, I know people need their licenses and their registrations. That stuff matters for real life. But God, Luke, it's just so mundane sometimes. Like today, Valentine's Day, everyone's coming in stressed about their expire tags or whatever. And I'm sitting there thinking about how there's literally particles popping in and out of existence at the edge of black holes. It's called Hawking Radiation. Isn't that wild? And I guess what I'm realizing is I've been so focused on just getting through my days, my second marriage, making things work after my first one crashed and burned. But I forgot I'm allowed to be curious about things.
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+LUKE: You are absolutely allowed to be curious about things. And if you're curious about Hawking Radiation, you should listen to yesterday's episode when we talked about it for a good bit. But thank you for the call. It's been a good one. And I hope you have a nice rest of your Valentine's Day weekend.
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+BEV: Oh, shit. You talked about it yesterday? I missed it. Okay, I'm definitely going back to listen to that.
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+LUKE: Alright, thanks for the call, Bev. And now we've got next up is Rick. Rick, welcome to the show. I'm going to read you this dating profile. I want you to let me know if you'd go on a date with this person or if you would just pass.
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+RICK: Hey, Luke, good to be back on. All right, lay it on me. Let's hear this profile.
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+LUKE: Alright, your match is Angela. She's 29 years old and she lives in Edgwood, Montana. In her photo, it's a picture of her in a white SUV. She's got her seat belt on. She's got Starbucks full makeup. It looks like morning. So she's probably going to work, I would guess. She's got the face of a woman who's about to go live on Instagram. Her vibes are mirror is down. And then she's got some other photos here. You can see there's a the back window there. It's got a little stick figure family. Something in cursive that says blessed. Her bio says Christian conservative girl mom, small business owner, ask me about Lumi glow. It's not a pyramid scheme. There's literally a chart. I will show you the chart. I wake up at 530 because my highlight doesn't do itself. I need a man who braze provides and protects in that order. If you don't have a relationship with God, we need to talk about that first. My daughter is my whole world. I also sell skincare. And it changed my life. So what do you think of Angela, Rick?
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+RICK: Oh man, Luke, listen, I got to be honest with you. I'm swiping left so fast I might break my phone. Look, nothing against her. She seems like she's got her life together, right? She's up at 530. She's running a business. I respect the hustle.
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+LUKE: So why is it a no for you, sir?
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+RICK: Listen, it's a couple things. First off, I'm 65 years old. She's 29. I could be her grandfather, Luke.
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+LUKE: That's just that sounds like one of them good problems to have, sir.
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+RICK: Oh, come on now. No, but seriously, Luke, the ask me about Lumi glow thing. That right there tells me I'm going to spend every day hearing about skincare products and how I need to be a distributor or whatever. She says it's not a pyramid scheme and then immediately mentions a brother. If you got to show me a chart to prove it's not a pyramid scheme, it's a pyramid scheme. And look, I got nothing against faith. I was raised Catholic. My ex-wife Diane was pretty religious, but when someone leads with if you don't have a relationship with God, we need to talk about that first. That's...
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+LUKE: Yeah, I don't disagree with you. So what would it take for you to give Angela a chance, even though there's this dramatic age gap?
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+RICK: Oh, man, you're really going to make me think about this, huh? All right, listen, if Angela came at me without the sales pitch, that'd be a start. Like if she just said, hey, I run a small business and left it at that, I could respect it. And if she dialed back the intensity on the God talk, I mean, I'm not against it, but maybe we could just have coffee first before we get into my eternal soul, you know?
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+LUKE: That sounds very reasonable, sir. Thanks for the call. We appreciate it, but now it's time for another word from another one of our sponsors. All right, I'm going to read this ad exactly as they sent it to me, and I want you to know that I have concerns. Phantom Ranch Wellness wants you to know that your gut health starts, and I'm reading this directly from the card now, from the other end. They make an at-home coffee enemy kit. It comes in a box that says, wellness inside on the outside, which I think we can agree is doing a lot of the heavy lifting. The kit includes a medical grade silicone bag, organic single origin coffee, because apparently the coffee you put in here, that coffee needs to be single origin, a detailed instruction booklet, and a com card with a QR code to a guided meditation for daring. During. There's a guided meditation for daring. I'm not going to tell you what to do with your body. That's between you and your bathroom and whatever God you answer to. I will say the reviews are disturbingly positive. Four and a half stars. One guy said it has changed his morning routine, which I believe, because it would absolutely change your morning routine. Phantom Ranch Wellness. I read the ad. I didn't endorse it. Okay, and welcome back to the show. Sheila, Sheila, welcome to the show. Happy Valentine's Day. I'm going to read you this Tinder profile, and I want you to let me know if it's a pass or a fail for you, okay?
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+SHEILA: Oh God, okay. Yeah, let me hear it. I could use a laugh tonight, honestly. Go ahead.
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+LUKE: Okay, your match is Greg. He's 44 years old from Rio Rancho, New Mexico. In his photo, he's got wrap around Oakley's, but they're on his head, not his face. They're just kind of sitting up there. He's in the driver's seat of a truck. It looks like a ram, and he took this selfie from below, which is the worst possible angle. He's got to go tease, wearing an under-armor, looking kind of polo thing. There's a Punisher Skull sticker on the dashboard, and one of those little tree air fresheners. His other photos are the truck from the outside, a fish, a gym selfie, and a photo with his kids where their faces are scribbled out with a pen tool. His bio says, work hard, play hard, dad of two. I back into it every spot. I will hold the door open for you, whether you like it or not. Not here for games or drama. If you can't handle me in my worst, you don't deserve me at my best. Law, probably swiped right for your dog. Six oh, since that matter is apparently truck guy, gym five times a week, upper body in parentheses, looking for a woman, not a girl. Is Sheila, what do you have to say about Greg?
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+SHEILA: Oh Jesus Christ, Luke, that's a hard pass. Like, I'm not even being mean, but come on. First of all, the Oakley's on top of his head.
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+LUKE: What you got against Oakleys?
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+SHEILA: Nothing. Nothing against Oakleys, but when they're just sitting up there like a headband, not even being used, that's a choice. But honestly, it's the whole vibe. If you can't handle me at my worst, dude, that's a red flag the size of New Mexico.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I heard that a couple times tonight. Red flag the size of New Mexico. It's a pretty big red flag. So Sheila, what would you be looking for in one of these dating profiles? What would you think and what would make you want to take one of these gentlemen out?
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+SHEILA: Wait, hold on. I'm not actually on the market, Luke. I've been with my boyfriend for three years now. I just thought this was a fun game.
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+LUKE: Yeah, it is. Your boyfriend don't get nothing to do with this. What's your man get to do with me? We're just, we're just hyper thysen, hypothetical eyes in here. So imagine that you didn't have the boyfriend and you were just swiping Tinder on Valentine's Day weekend. What would you be looking for? What would, what would reach out to you? What would speak to you?
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+SHEILA: Okay. Okay. Hypothetically, I mean, I guess I'd want someone who's actually honest, you know? Not trying to be some tough guy or whatever. Like just say what you actually do with your time. If you make bird houses or you're into weird documentaries or whatever, just own it.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, you're a current boyfriend now. What was his dating profile like when you met him?
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+SHEILA: Oh God, we didn't meet online. We met at work actually. I was doing some taxidermy work for this hunting lodge and he was doing electrical stuff there. So no profile, just him being normal in person, I guess. Which is probably better because I don't know if I would have swiped right on anyone. Honestly, the whole thing seems exhausting.
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+LUKE: Okay. Well, just because you met in person doesn't mean you didn't have a dating profile.
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+LUKE: I'm sure he did and I'm sure that you looked for it at one point during the courtship process because if you didn't, I think at this point that would be insane. You're going to know what what what your potential partner is doing out on the inner web is now.
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+CALLER: Okay, you got me there. Yeah, I looked. Of course, I looked.
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+LUKE: Okay, and what did it say?
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+CALLER: Oh man, it was so bad. Like, truly terrible. He had this one picture where he's holding a fish, which whatever, guys love that. But then another one where he's just standing in front of his truck with his arms crossed. Very serious.
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+LUKE: So if you had just stumbled across his dating profile, you wouldn't have given him the time of day, right? You would have said, this is a terrible profile. But since you met him in person, you saw he was a normal gentleman. You saw something that you wouldn't have seen in the profile. Do you think that's common?
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+CALLER: Yeah, absolutely. I mean, his bio was like two sentences, something about liking the outdoors and being laid back. Which, okay, everyone says that. There was nothing in there about how he's actually pretty funny when you get him talking or that he's good with his hands. Not like that, I mean, he can fix stuff or that he's patient with my dad, which is huge because my dad is a lot.
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+LUKE: So what you're saying is your boyfriend isn't very good with his hands?
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+CALLER: Oh my god, no, I meant like fixing things. Electrical work. He literally rewired half my house. Get your stuff. I'm not going to lie on the radio and say he's bad at other stuff either.
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+LUKE: All right, good for you. Well, it sounds like you made the right decision and you're in a happy relationship, so I hope you two have a wonderful remainder of your Valentine's Day weekend.
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+CALLER: Well, hold on. I didn't call to talk about my love life. I actually called because I'm dealing with this whole nightmare situation with my neighbor's dog. It bit my kid last week, and now the neighbor is saying my daughter provoked it, which is complete bullshit.
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+LUKE: How do you know it's bullshit?
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+CALLER: Because I know my kid. She's seven. She was literally just standing in our yard throwing a ball for our own dog. When their pit mix came barreling through the fence, which has been broken for like two months by the way, and I've asked them to fix it three times. The dog went straight for her and bit her arm. She needed stitches.
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+LUKE: And how did the owner of the dog react to this? Did she take care of the medical bills and stuff?
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+CALLER: He and no, he did not. He came over after it happened, saw the blood on her shirt, and his first words were, well, what did she do to him? Like my seven-year-old is out here antagonizing dogs for fun. Then he said his dog is protective and wouldn't just attack for no reason? I'm like, dude, she's a child in her own yard. That is no reason. Now animal control is involved because I reported it, and he's telling them this whole story about how she was teasing the dog with food, which never happened.
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+LUKE: Well, I don't think that matters anyway. If animal control is involved and the dog has bitten the child, I don't think it really matters if the child was teasing the dog or not.
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+CALLER: That's what I thought too, but apparently they're doing this whole investigation thing, and his version matters for whether the dog gets labeled dangerous or not. And he's got ring camera footage. He says, we'll prove his side, but he won't show it to me, only to animal control. Which makes me think he's full of it, because if he had proof my kid did something, wouldn't he be shoving it in my face? And the worst part is, my dad, who lives with us, has been over there twice now trying to handle it man-to-man, which just means he's yelling at the guy in his driveway.
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+LUKE: Oh, that sounds like an uncomfortable situation. That's no fun. I'm glad that your kid is okay, and hopefully the dog is okay too, and maybe you can resolve that situation a little more peacefully.
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+CALLER: Luke, I didn't call for you to both sides this. The dog bit my kid. There's no hopefully the dog is okay too. The dog is fine. My daughter has six stitches and is scared to play in her own yard now, and peaceful went out the window when this guy decided to lie about what happened instead of just apologizing and fixing his damn fence.
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+LUKE: Well listen, you don't get to tell me how to respond, and I like dogs, so I don't ever want to see dogs be harmed or punished. And it sounds like you don't have any proof that this other guy was in the wrong. So why don't you just back the fuck up there lady and take my both sides for what it's worth, which is nothing. You call the radio show on Valentine's Day, so go fuck yourself.
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+CALLER: Wow. Okay, you know what Luke? I called because I thought maybe someone out there listening has dealt with this kind of thing, and could tell me what to expect from animal control, but clearly you're more worried about the feelings of a dog that put a child in urgent care than the actual child.
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+LUKE: Yep, that is absolutely 100% correct. You got me there. That's the truth. All right Brenda, you're going to be our last caller. I'm going to give you a dating profile, and I want you to let me know if you would go for this person or not, okay?
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+BRENDA: Oh man, okay. Yeah, I'll play along. Hit me with it, Luke. Let's see what you got.
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+LUKE: Okay, your match is Chuck. He's 58 years old from Belen, New Mexico, in his photo he's standing in the driveway next to a boat on a trailer. It looks like the boat hasn't been in the water for a long time. There's leaves in it a bunch of them. It looks like there was a tarp on it at one point, but now it's just on the ground next to the boat, and the man standing there with his hands on his hips looking real proud. The bio says, I have a boat. It doesn't run. It's been in the driveway three years. My neighbor went to the HOA twice. The HOA came to talk to me in person. I'm retired. I have nothing but time. The motor needs work. The trailer needs tires. The electrical is shot, but the hull is solid, and that's what matters. My buddy Gary says sell it. Gary drives the camera. Gary doesn't have a dream.
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+BRENDA: Oh my god, okay, wait. So this man's entire dating profile is basically, I'm in a standoff with my HOA over a boat that doesn't work. You know what? I'm going to swipe right on Chuck. Here's why. This man has commitment.
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+LUKE: All right, so this is the commitment is going to do it for you, huh? You're going to go on a date with Chuck. You're going to wait for him to fix up that boat and take you out on the lake.
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+BRENDA: Yeah, I mean, look, I've been married twice. Look, both times to men who said they were going to do things and then didn't. At least Chuck is honest about the fact that his boat doesn't run and probably never will. That's refreshing, and you know what? Three years fighting the HOA.
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+LUKE: Yeah, so Brenda, do you have a dating profile right now?
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+BRENDA: No, no, I don't. I'm not really in that headspace right now, to be honest. I actually called in tonight because I've got something kind of wild going on, but I was happy to play your game first.
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+LUKE: All right, great. Well, we appreciate that. What's going on in your life? Why are you calling in tonight?
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+BRENDA: Okay, so my mom passed away about eight months ago and I've been going through her stuff, right? Cleaning out the house, sorting through everything. And a couple weeks ago, I got into her old email account because I was looking for some financial documents, insurance stuff, you know, and look, I found emails going back like 15 years to a woman named Patricia and it turns out my mom had another kid.
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+LUKE: Oh, yeah, how old's the kid?
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+BRENDA: She's not a kid anymore. She's 47. Her name is Diane. My mom gave her up for adoption in like 1977, way before she had me. 
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+LUKE: Have you reached out to Diane at all? Have you made contact with your long-lost sister?
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+BRENDA: Not yet. That's the thing. I've been sitting on this for two weeks just completely freaked out. I found Diane on Facebook. She lives over in Tucson. She's got two kids, works at a credit union.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, are you going to try and make contact there and talk to her or are you going to let this one go?
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+BRENDA: Diane, yeah, I mean, that's why I'm calling. Look, I don't know if I should. Like, what do I even say? Hey, a mom died and I found out you exist while going through her emails. That sounds insane.
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+LUKE: It does sound a little insane but it's the truth and it is a little insane and maybe she wants to know. I mean, that's probably what I would do. I don't know how I would feel in that situation. I'd probably want to at least meet that person though.
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+BRENDA: Yeah, that's what keeps eating at me. Like she's my sister, half sister, whatever. She's blood. And from the emails, it looks like my mom and Patricia, that's the adoptive mom. They stayed in touch for years. They'd send updates, photos, sometimes.
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+LUKE: Well, it's really interesting. I'm sure your mom had a pretty good reason to give her up for adoption and it sounds like she tried to stay involved in her life so it wasn't just like a dump and run. So yeah, that's interesting but congratulations on finding a new sister. That's pretty cool.
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+BRENDA: I mean, yeah, when you say it like that, it sounds cool. But look, I'm also kind of pissed off. You know, my whole life, I thought I wasn't only child. My mom never said a word about this.
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+LUKE: Sure, but it wasn't about you. You weren't even around yet. So I'm sure that she was just trying to protect what's her name, Diane, from finding out that she was adopted and having the most normal life she possibly could. So I'm sure your mom had a reason. It sounds like she wasn't she wasn't being an asshole about it, but she for whatever reason couldn't couldn't take advocate at that time.
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+BRENDA: You're right. You're right. I know that in my head. Mom was only 21 when she had Diane. No money, no support. Her parents had already kicked her out. I get why she did it.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, maybe maybe you could go meet up with Chuck and you and Chuck could go meet up with Diane and then you could all hash it out together and become a new happy family.
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+BRENDA: Oh God, no. Chuck's not in the picture anymore. He died like 10 years ago. I saw his obituary when I was doing all the stigging. Heart attack at 58. Never married. No other kids that I could find.
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+LUKE: Well, I don't know if we're talking about the same Chuck there because I'm talking about the Chuck that I just read to you. The dating profile. Like I have from Belen with a boat. I use also 58 though. So that's quite a coincidence.
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+BRENDA: Wait, what? Luke, I didn't. I've been so in my head about this Diane thing. I wasn't even listening to that part. I called in about my sister's situation, not for dating profiles. So honestly, at this point, maybe I need the distraction. What kind of boat does this Chuck have?
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+LUKE: Okay, well, you sound a little bit distracted. You're going to have to go back and listen to the show. And we've run out of time. This is the end of our Valentine's Day special. I hope you have a wonderful rest of your night and reach out to that long-lost sister and see if you can maybe came to a relationship. Maybe not. Who knows? But it's been another wonderful and illuminating episode of Luke at the Roost tonight. Thanks for tuning in. And I hope you all have a great evening. Well, bye.

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+LUKE: All right, welcome back. It's Luke at the Roost. This is the radio show where I take your calls and give you real-world advice. If you'd like to call in, the numbers 208-439-58-3-3. That's 208-439 Luke. And we have a new feature to the show. Now, if you call in and we're not recording, you can leave a voicemail. And if your voicemail is funny enough, I will play it on the next episode. If we all, we all, we are, you all. We are, you all, you can leave a voicemail. If we are, you call in, we are, if you can leave a voicemail. If we are, if you are, if you can leave you can recording and you call in now, you'll be placed into a queue, and I can take your call, and we'll talk to you live on the air. Today is Sunday, February 15th. It's about 10.30, and our phones are already lighting up, as they usually are around now. And first up on the show, we have Phil. Phil, welcome to the show. What would you like to talk about tonight?
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+PHIL: Oh, man, Luke, thanks for taking my call. So I'm sitting in my truck right now, because Three hours ago, my brother sent me a screenshot of my partner's Tinder profile, and I can't go home yet.
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+LUKE: Oh, what was the screenshot? Was it a picture you're familiar with?
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+PHIL: Yeah, it's this photo from last month. We went up to Sedona. I paid for the whole trip, and Marcus bought this ridiculous cowboy hat at some tourist shop. We were laughing about it, you know, like it was this inside joke between us. Tinder photo.
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+LUKE: So what are you going to do? Do you have a Tinder profile as well? Are you going to match with them?
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+PHIL: Oh, Jesus. I haven't even thought about that. No, I don't have one. I mean, I thought we were past all that. But that's kind of genius in a horrible way, right? Just swipe right. See what happens?
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+LUKE: Yeah, maybe you've got something in common and it's worth getting together and having a little date or some type thing.
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+PHIL: Yeah. Hey, you look familiar. God, that's... I don't know if I'm more pissed off or if I just want to understand what the hell he's thinking. Like we've been together two years. I lost my first husband to cancer six years back, and I really thought Marcus got that... got how big a deal it was for me to do this again.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that sounds unfortunate. You should probably maybe confront Marcus about that and be like, hey, saw your Tinder profile. What's this about? How long you've been stepping? out, um, then make sure that whatever it is he's doing, he's doing in a protected manner, you know?
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+PHIL: Yeah, you're right. I mean, that's the thing that's actually making me sick right now. Like, I haven't even let myself go there yet. The health stuff.
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+LUKE: Well, that's the important stuff. And you might want to get yourself checked out and all that, uh, before anything becomes an issue. But talk to, talk to, talk to your partner. And, uh, maybe you've found, um, you've found, out the hard way that he's not the right partner for you.
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+PHIL: Yeah. Yeah. I think I already know he's not, you know? Like the second I saw that screenshot, it wasn't even shock. It was just this feeling of, oh, there it is. Like I've been waiting for the other shoe to drop this whole time and now it has. The thing is, I keep thinking about my first husband, Tom.
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+LUKE: And what happened with your first husband? answer? Did I get that right?
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+PHIL: Yeah, pancreatic. It was eight months from diagnosis to the end. And the whole time, even when he couldn't get out of bed, even when he was so sick, there was never a question, you know, never a doubt about us. And I guess I thought that's what love was supposed to look like. That's the bar.
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+LUKE: Hey, man, I'm sorry to hear that. And, uh, you know, some people get that once in their life. Some people get it more than once. Uh, the thing is you've got to be, You got to be all right by yourself and worry about love second. So how are you feeling individually as yourself? Do you need your partner to feel whole or would you be all right on your own?
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+PHIL: Man, that's the question, isn't it? I don't know. I thought I was good on my own after Tom died. I did the work, you know. Went to the grief group, got back into my photography, managed the bar, saw my friends.
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+LUKE: sound like it's a good idea to hang out with a dude that is seeing other people on the side without telling you. So it might be time to break up that relationship. I don't know. You should have that conversation with him. And if you've got a strike out on your own again, then do that. Get back to the photography and your friends and move on with your life.
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+PHIL: You're right. You're absolutely right. I just... I keep thinking about how I'm going to tell my brother
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+LUKE: Why is your brother in this picture? It sounds like that's none of his business.
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+PHIL: No, you're right, it's just he's the one who sent me the screenshot. He found Marcus on Tinder and took the screenshot and sent it to me. So now he's going to want to know what I did about it. And Eddie's got this way of making everything feel like a test I'm failing, you know? Like he's keeping score of whether I'm handling my life right.
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+LUKE: whatever, let him keep score. You don't have to care about what his score is. Just sit down with your partner and talk it out. If you got to break up, break up and move on. And I wish you only happiness going forward. Okay, sir. Thank you for the call.
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+PHIL: Yeah, yeah, okay. Thanks, Luke.
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+LUKE: All right. Good luck to you and your brother and your husband or whatever. Hope everything works out there. Looks like next up we've got Lori. Welcome to the show. How are you doing tonight?
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+LORI: Oh, man, I'm not great, Luke. I've been sitting in my truck at a flying J for 20 minutes trying to figure out if I'm about to blow up my whole life here.
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+LUKE: Why are you thinking about blowing up your life?
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+LORI: So my 14-year-old daughter's been playing me and her dad against each other for God knows how long. Telling him, she's at my place on weekends. Telling me she's with him. And actually, she's been out in the desert somewhere with friends doing who the hell knows what. He just called me back about it 20 minutes ago. And here's the thing. I'm hauling refrigerated goods. I'm six days into this route. I've got a load that needs to be in Tucson by tomorrow morning. But I'm four hours from home right now. And I know, I know I need to turn this rig around and deal with this.
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+LUKE: Well, think this one through. What happens if you do turn the rig around? What are you going to do when you get there? How are you going to deal with it?
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+LORI: That's the problem, Luke. I don't know. I mean, what am I going to do? Ground her. She's already been sneaking out for weeks, maybe months, show up and yell at her. That's just going to make her better at lying. Her dad and I, we can barely have a conversation without it turning into whose fault everything is.
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+LUKE: All right? Well, it sounds like that makes your decision, right? If there's no action for you to take if you were to go back, then don't go back. You've got work to do. You've got to take care of your responsibilities to your job too. And then you can deal with this when you're get back. Kids do do this. Kids go out and party in the woods and play their parents off each other. It's a very normal thing for a teenage kid to do. It's not that, not that life-shattering.
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+LORI: Yeah, but okay, you're right. It's normal, but Luke, she's 14. And I don't even know where she's going or who she's with. Her dad won't tell me the names of these friends because apparently she made him promised not to.
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+LUKE: Well, it doesn't sound like it really matters what their names are, right? She's out doing her thing. I don't see a problem here. Do your job. Talk to your family when you get home. And if you don't want her out partying at 14 out in the desert, then maybe think about a different profession where you can be around to be involved in her life more than being on the road for six days at a time, you know?
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+LORI: Wow. Okay. Yeah, no. You're that's exactly what my ex said when I took this job. that I was choosing the road over her.
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+LUKE: And here's the thing that pisses me off about that. I took this job because of the divorce.
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+LORI: Hey, I'm not trying to ideologically say that it's right or wrong for you to have taken the job. I don't care. I'm just saying if you're a long-haul trucker and you're gone for weeks at a time, then you're not particularly invested in your teenage daughter's life. And you're only going to show up once in a while to scold her for doing something wrong and acting out direction or guidance from our parent in her life. And that's not unusual. I'm not saying it's even wrong. I mean, you want her to be safe and you want to do this job and both those things can happen, but you need to sit down with her and talk to her about safety, make sure that she's letting you know what's going on because you care. If you do care, if not, then you just want to be controlling and punish her for doing, you know, stuff behind your back, which is, I don't think that's fair.
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+LUKE: No, you're right. I, God, I do care. I care so much it's making me sick right now sitting here. And you know what the worst part is? My dispatcher, Karen, has been so good to me since the divorce. She worked out this schedule where I could do shorter halls, be home more often, and I still manage to screw it up.
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+LORI: I don't know if you screwed it up or not, but the fact remains, you're away from home a lot. your daughter's home, and she's out doing stuff. You know, if you're not going to be around, she's going to live her life. And that might not be in a way that you appreciate. But you're making that choice, and it could be the right choice or the wrong choice for you. But you've got to decide. You can't have it both ways.
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+LUKE: You're absolutely right. I can't. And sitting here trying to figure out if I blow this contract and turn around or keep going, I'm just avoiding the real decision. aren't I? The thing is, Luke, when I lost the house and the divorce, when everything fell apart, this job felt like the one thing I could actually control.
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+LORI: Well, maybe it is. Maybe the job's a great thing for you and your family and it's providing for you, but you have to then give your daughter the grace to be her own person early because you're not there to give her that traditional upbringing that she otherwise would have got. It doesn't mean she's going to turn into a mom. her in adulthood. She's just going to have a different road. And that can be okay, but you should talk about it.
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+LUKE: Yeah. Yeah, you're right. I need to actually talk to her, not at her.
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+LORI: That's right. And it sounds like you've got a job to do. So get back on the road, finish out your obligation. And when you get back, sit her down and have a conversation that's not accusatory and you're not mad at her or punishing her, but talk to her. And let her, know what's going on in your life, why you've made the decisions that you've made, and what you expect out of her, and come to a compromise, an agreement. Talk to her like she's an adult, because at this point, she kind of is.
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+LUKE: She kind of is. God, that's terrifying. All right. All right. I'm going to finish the route. I'm going to get home Tuesday. And I'm going to sit down with her. Not with her dad there. Not making it this big intervention thing. Just me and her.
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+LORI: it sounds like a good plan.
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+LUKE: I hope it all works out. But, you know, I was in a similar situation as a teenager. I was your daughter in this scenario. And I was out with people I shouldn't have been with doing things I shouldn't have done. And there's lots of reasons for that. But it's not because my parents didn't love me. It's not because I was a piece of shit. It's, we're not going to get into it all right now. But over the course of the show, we'll probably learn a little bit more about that. For now, though, we have to go to our sponsor. So please stay tuned for a word from our sponsors. Life is hard. You're listening to a man in an RV talk to strangers at 2 in the morning, so you already know that. That's why we partnered with Better Maybe. Online therapy that's honest about the whole situation. With Better Maybe, you get matched with a licensed therapist within 48 hours. Will they fix your problems? Maybe. That's the whole brand. They're not going to lie to you. Your first session might change your life. It also might just be you staring at the webcam while someone in another time zone nods politely. That's still more than your friends are doing. Better maybe. It's better than nothing. And that's not nothing. Okay. Better maybe. Give them a call. Maybe they can help some of our callers. That's why I'm not. they reached out to us so they could get their product to you. Okay, Roland, Roland, welcome to the show. What's going on tonight, sir?
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+ROLAND: Oh, man. So I've been working from home for UPS for four years now, routing, logistics, all that. And Friday, they dropped the email, back to the Albuquerque office by March 1st, or I'm out. Three hours of driving every day, Luke, six hours round trip. And the thing is, I finally got my life set up exactly how I wanted it.
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds like maybe you've got to let that job go then. I mean, a six-hour round-trip commute to work for UPS doesn't sound reasonable to me.
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+ROLAND: Yeah, but it's 16 years total with the company, you know? The benefits, the retirement, are not starting over at 43, and the pay's solid. But, man, I finally set up my grandfather's old workbench in the garage, been restoring furniture at night, and I'm actually at it. My neighbor Gary caught me sanding at midnight Friday with every light on. asked what was eating me, and I couldn't even explain it to him.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, the pay may be solid, but now subtract six hours of commuting expenses and mileage on your vehicle. Retirement doesn't just start over if you go to another company. Like, I assume you've got an IRA or a 401K type situation with them. That's going to roll over into your next position. It's not like you forfeit it. You might forfeit whatever pension it is you got, but you got, what, 45 years more to work? Come on, man. You can't just deal with that for another 40 years because you're holding onto a pension. That's silly. If you've got to let it go, you've got to let it go.
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+ROLAND: No, you're right. You're right. I know you're right. It's just, okay. So here's the real thing. I spent the first 12 years on the road, delivering packages, breaking my back in the heat. When they finally moved me to remote work during COVID, it felt like I'd made it, you know?
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+LUKE: I do know. I remember back when I demanded to work remote, I would not go into an office anymore. And everybody told me that was a mistake and that you can't do that. This was pre-COVID. And I said, I can do whatever I want. You know, I'm going to do what I'm going to do. And I don't have to do anything I don't want to do. And I don't want to go into an office, so I'm not going to do it. And then I never went back into an office again. You can absolutely do that. There's plenty of ways to make money. You don't have to work for UPS. You can start your own company. You can start your own company. find another job that offers you remote work. You can, I don't know, play the stock market. There's plenty of ways that people make money without going in an office. And if you really don't want to go into an office, don't.
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+ROLAND: You know what? You're making it sound simpler than it feels, but okay, I've been reading about these CEOs running remote first companies. No plans to bring people back. And I keep thinking, why can't UPS figure this out? I've been more productive at home, six new hires over Zoom last year, never missed a deadline. But I think what's really getting me is,
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+LUKE: Well, before you get to that, I think a lot of companies and a lot of research has proven that people are generally very productive at home, and in a lot of cases more so than an office.
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+TERRY: Oh, man, Luke. So my best friend since third grade just told me she's been sleeping with my ex-husband since literally the week our divorce was finalized. Like, Michelle was at my wedding. She helped me move my stuff out of the house six months ago. she's been with David this whole time. And when I got upset about it tonight, because, yeah, I'm upset, she hit me with, it's been six months, you should be over it. Like I'm being dramatic for caring that she's been lying to my face for half a year while I'm crying to her about the divorce.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that's messed up. I think she's not your friend, and it's time to let go of that relationship.
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+TERRY: I mean, yeah, you're right. I know you're right. But Luke, 30 years. 30 years. We learned to drive together. We got matching tattoos when we turned 20. One, stupid little stars on our ankles. Her mom was like my second mom growing up. And it's not even just about David, you know?
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+LUKE: No, I don't know, but the whole David thing tells me that this chick needs to go. She doesn't care about you. Whether you've known her for 30 years or 300 years, Fuck this chick.
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+TERRY: You're not wrong. God, you're not wrong. It's just... Okay, so here's the thing that's really messing with me. I'm sitting here in my uncle's laundromat, at 11 o'clock on a Sunday night, with a warm beer, and I'm realizing I'm more hurt about Michelle than I ever was about David. Like the divorce sucked, but I saw that coming for a while, you know? We've been going through the motions for like two years.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that's a hard thing. I understand. And, you know, you've got that much history with somebody. It sucks to lose it, but it's, uh, it sounds like it's not you that has made this decision. And this person isn't somebody that's got your back that you can trust. So if you thought you had a great friend, maybe you did it once, but people change. And it sounds like she changed. And maybe some day she'll change again. But for now, let that chick go. She sucks.
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+TERRY: Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. She does suck. You know what the worst part is? I called her first when I found out David was seeing someone. Like two weeks ago, I saw his truck at the Applebee's with some woman, and I was all worked up about it, called Michelle literally crying in the parking lot. And she was like, oh, honey, you got to let him go. He's moved on. The whole time knowing it was her. That's that sociopath behavior, right?
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+LUKE: It sure is. And it's not what you would expect about a friend of 30 years. So my advice to you is just stop talking to that chick. Let her go. Let her have the dude. And, uh, move on with your life.
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+TERRY: You're right. I know you're right. It's just, God. It's pathetic, but I'm sitting here thinking about who I'm going to call now when stuff goes wrong. You know, like she was that person.
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds like you're going to call Luke at the Roost, the, uh, call in radio show where we help you out with your real world problems.
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+TERRY: Ha. Yeah. Well, you're doing better than she did tonight. That's for sure. I just... Okay. Real talk, though. Am I crazy for still being hurt about David?
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+LUKE: No, you're not crazy.
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+LUKE: You're hurt when you're hurt, and you've got good reason to be hurt here, and you've got some grief going on, and it's big life changes, and there's lots of reasons to be hurt. But you don't have to continue to stay that way. If you don't want to, you can decide to not be hurt and move on. And I think that's what you need to. to do. It's easier said than done, but it can be done. So just every day, wake up and be grateful to be here and say, hey, you know, I don't have the life that I had yesterday, but I've got the life that I have today, and it can still be pretty fucking cool.
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+TERRY: You know what? You're right. And honestly, and this is going to sound terrible. But I think I've been more hung up on the idea of David than actual David for a while now. Like we got married at 23, Luke. 23.
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+LUKE: Yep, that happens. That is young, and it explains a lot. So, um, you know, I wish you the best of luck. We're going to move on on the show now, unless you have some other point to bring up. I'll give you one more chance to respond. But otherwise, I'm going to say, uh, let go with the chick, let go to the dude, move on with your life, and everything's going to be fine.
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+TERRY: No, you're good. I appreciate you letting me vent. And hey, I heard Roland, earlier? The UPS guy?
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+LUKE: Yeah, what about him?
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+TERRY: You got a job for Roland? No, but his wife definitely sucks too. That whole thing about her wanting him out of the house? Come on. That man needs to check the credit card statements.
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+LUKE: That is absolutely true. I didn't want to say that to him at the time, but he absolutely should check the credit card statements. And maybe the little internal camera that he's got in the fucking teddy bear And now, now folks, you know what? Actually, she's already gone, but Terry, that was the smartest thing you sent that whole call. All right. Now it's time for a word from our sponsors. I'm not saying that for sympathy. I'm saying it because Pillow Forever asked me to establish a before state, and that's mine. Pillow Forever is a memory foam pillow that remembers your head shapes so you don't have to. It's got cooling gel, bamboo fiber, and a 30-night risk-free trial, which means you can sleep on it for a month and then send it back, and someone in a warehouse has to deal with that. Every pillow forever comes to. in a box that's too small, which is part of the experience. You open it and it slowly expands like a major documentary. My dog tried to fight it. Pillow Forever. You deserve better than a horse blanket. Okay, thanks to Pillow Forever. They are a proud sponsor of the Luke at the Roo Show, and we appreciate them. Now let's get to, uh, let's get back to the phones. Chester, Chester, welcome to the show. What's on your mind, sir?
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+CHESTER: Luke, hey, so I almost killed my kid this morning. Not on purpose, I mean. I didn't. I showed up to get her from her ex-wife's place, custody Sunday, and the second I rolled down the window, I could smell the whiskey coming off me. Hands still shaking. I'd been drinking until like four in the morning, and it was eight o'clock. And I'm sitting there with the engine running, thinking, well, I'm sitting there with the engine running, thinking, well, What the hell am I doing? She's seven. Her name's Daisy.
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+LUKE: Oh man, yeah. You can't, you can't do that, man. If you've got a drinking problem, then you're going to have to take, you're going to have to take care of that because you could kill your kid and or you could kill someone else's kid and it's really not okay. It's, it's irresponsible and it's not good for anybody.
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+CHESTER: No, you're right. You're absolutely right. I didn't drive. I mean, I sat there for maybe 30 seconds. And then I shut the truck off and I called her mom and told her I was sick, food poisoning or something, which is bullshit. She probably knew.
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+LUKE: How long have you known you've had a problem with the drinking?
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+CHESTER: I mean, that's the thing, Luke. I don't drink every day. I work at Desert Star Pond, been there six years. I show up on time. I do my job. It's just when I get home and Daisy's not there. When it's those empty nights, I'll start with one beer. And then it's three I'm watching Civil War documentaries with a bottle of Jim Beam. And I can tell you the exact date of Antietam, but I can't tell you when it got like this.
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+LUKE: Well, are you, uh, are you tired of it yet? Or it sounds like maybe this is a moment of clarity where you're recognizing the situation and, and thinking about taking accountability for it. Is that true?
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+CHESTER: Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I think. I mean, my dad, Big Jim, he ran cattle for years. Never missed a day. Never touched the stuff.
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+LUKE: Well, you know, they have support group meetings. It can help you out in these situations. You can go to after work. Lots of cool people there that are trying to live sober, not pick up the drink and end up in situations like you're finding yourself in now. It is possible. You don't have to get drunk by yourself at night watching Civil War documentaries. You can just watch the Civil War documentary without they're getting drunk bit. then when you get up in the morning and pick up your kid, you're not going to be drunk.
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+CHESTER: I know. You're right. It's just, the house is so damn quiet, you know? And I keep thinking about what kind of example I'm setting.
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+LUKE: Well, it's good that you figure it out now when you're at a spot where you can still do something about it. And what I recommend is when you get home, next time you get home, do something else. Instead of cracking that beer, just do anything else. You can play a video game or you could, uh, go for a walk or you could read or play on the internet, whatever it is, just break that habit of having that first beer. Because if you don't pick up the first one, you're not going to end up drunk. Isn't it funny how that works? If you don't pick up the first one, you're not going to end up drunk.
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+CHESTER: Yeah, yeah, that makes sense. I heard Lori earlier, the trucker lady with the daughter sneaking out, and I kept thinking at least she's got a reason she's not around, you know?
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+LUKE: No, what do you mean by that?
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+CHESTER: I mean, she's working. She's on the road providing for her kid. Me, I'm just, I'm home and Daisy's at her moms. And I'm choosing to sit there with a bottle instead of, I don't know, calling her reading her a bedtime story over the phone. Something.
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+LUKE: Well, yeah. And, uh, you know, sometimes you just have to say that to a radio host at midnight to, uh, to hear yourself say it. So hopefully you can snap out of your, uh, your, your situation. Don't pick up the beer next time. And instead, call your daughter and read her a story.
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+CHESTER: You're right. I actually. I got this book about Gettysburg I was going to show her. She's been asking about it because we drove through Pennsylvania last summer. And she saw the signs. Smart kid. Smarter than me, that's for sure.
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+LUKE: Well, you sound pretty smart today. You know you get a problem and you're going to do stuff to take care of it. So if you need help, then I recommend that you find your your local neighborhood at AA or NA meetings, depending on what type of situation you're dealing with. And just go check it out. And have an open mind and maybe you find a new way of life. Okay, Dolores. Delores, welcome to the radio show. How can we help?
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+DELORES: Hey, Luke. Yeah. So, okay. I got recognized today at an open house and I kind of panicked. And now sitting in a circle K parking lot feeling like a complete idiot.
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+LUKE: Well, all of us get recognized several times a day. So why is it, what is it about this particular recognition that's got you up in arms?
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+DELORES: Because I've been going to open houses every weekend for like eight months and I'm not actually buying anything. This realtor, Patricia, she remembered me from a showing last spring, and she just asked me you actually planning to buy a house and I froze. I told her my financing fell through, but that's not even true because I've never applied for a loan in the first place.
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+LUKE: Okay. Next up on the radio show, we have Marvin. Marvin, thanks for calling in. What's happening tonight?
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+MARVIN: Hey, Luke. Yeah, thanks for taking the call. So I got home for my shift tonight and there's this cardboard box sitting on my porch. No note, nothing. And it's full of stuff from my dad's house. Stuff I haven't seen since he died 11 years ago. His Bolo tie. This pocket knife I thought I lost senior year. Photos of my uncle's old place.
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+LUKE: What's a Bolo tie?
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+MARVIN: Oh, it's that Western Thai thing. You know, the braided leather cord with the silver clasp that slides up and down. My dad wore one to every wedding, every funeral, every time he needed to look respectable. His had this. This turquoise stone in the middle, real heavy.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, that's cool. Somebody dropped off some of your dead dad's belongings, and what are they bringing up inside? They bring it up memories? Is this got you upset? Are you concerned? Like, what's, what feeling is this bringing up inside of you?
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+MARVIN: I mean, yeah, memories. But more than that, I'm sitting here like, who the hell had this stuff? my dad's been gone 11 years. Where has this box been? And why now? Why tonight? What's in the box? Why no explanation? Like, someone just decided, oh, time for Marvin to deal with this and left it there like a package from Amazon. And honestly, I opened it and just...
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+LUKE: All right. Well, congratulations for, uh, the... safe return of your dad's belongings. I hope that you wear them in good health. Next on the radio show, oh, before, no, oh, Luke, you almost, come on, come on, I'm fucking amateur here. It is time for a word from our sponsors. Look, I'm not a financial advisor. I'm a guy with a microphone and a dog. But the folks at Crypto know asked me to tell you about their new decentralized investment platform, and I to read this part. Past performance does not guarantee future results. This is not financial advice. And if you invest your rent money, you deserve exactly what happens next. Crypto No lets you trade over 400 digital currencies, including three that were invented this morning, and one that's just a picture of my dog. The app features a real-time portfolio tracker with a built-in panic button that just plays ocean sounds when your balance drops. Crypto No! Fortune favors the bold, but it does not return their calls. Okay, thanks to Crypto No for sponsoring the show today. I think we're probably running a little bit late. These have been some decent calls. They're going a little long. So I'm just going to take one more for tonight's show. And next up to the line, we have Francine. Francine, you're going to be our last caller of the night.
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+LUKE: What's on your mind?
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+CALLER: Luke, I just had a deer on the 11, and it's still alive, and I don't know what the hell I'm playing. supposed to do about it. I've been sitting here with my hazards on for like 20 minutes. Just, it's looking at me. When if its legs is completely shattered, it's on the shoulder. And I can't tell if I'm supposed to call someone, or if I'm supposed to, I don't know, put it out of its misery myself? Which I don't even know how I do that. I'm a nurse. I work on people, not my ex would have known. He grew up out here, hunted with his dad. He would have just handled it.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that sounds like a. less than ideal situation. I would call the police first, call 911, and let them know that there's been an accident and there's an animal, I assume, still in the road. If you have a gun, then I think you know what you have to do. If you don't have a gun, I would probably refrain from doing anything hasty with like a tire iron or a rock.
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+CALLER: No, I don't have a gun. It's off the road. It's on the shoulder. So nobody's going to hit it. I just, I'll call. I didn't know if this was even a 911 thing or if there was like animal control or something, but out here at midnight on a Sunday, I guess there's not exactly a whole directory of options. The stupid thing is, I've been driving the same loop between Deming and Los Cruces for six months now. Three different clinics, and this is the first time I've hit anything.
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+LUKE: Well, you know what I always say? 911 was an inside job. So I don't actually know who you're supposed to call in this situation. I would call 911 and ask the them and they'll let you know or send out animal control or whoever comes out of the sheriff's office. Who knows out here especially? But, you know, it happens. There's wild animals out here. They run in the road. Sometimes we hit them. It's probably not your fault unless you were playing with your phone, and in which case it was your fault. And just do the best you can do. It's unfortunate that the animal's suffering right now, but if you don't have a way to humanely end it, then you got to just get somebody out there as soon. as you can.
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+CALLER: I wasn't on my phone. I was just tired. Just came off a double. Wasn't paying attention like I should have been. You're right, though. I'll call.
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+LUKE: All right. Well, get off the line with me and get on the line with 911. And that is the conclusion of our show for tonight. Thanks everybody for tuning in, and we'll talk to you again tomorrow. Thank you.

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+LUKE: All right, welcome back to the show. My name is Luke. I'm your host for Luke at the Roost. This is the radio show where we take callers and give them the best advice that we can. If you'd like to call into the show, the number is 208-439-5853. That's 208-439 Luke. Also, new just yesterday. If you can't get to a phone and you'd like to participate in the show, you can send us an email. The address is submissions at Lukeat the roost.com. Submissions at Luke at theroost.com. So you can send us a question or a story or anything you want. And if it's funny enough, I might read it on the air in the next show. And if it's not me, maybe I'll have one of my robot friends read it for me because I'm lazy. All right. So today is Monday, February 16th. It's about 11.30 p.m. And our phones are lighting up like they always do at this time of night. the show, we have Hector. Hector, welcome to the show. Thanks for calling in. How are you doing out there tonight?
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+HECTOR: Hey, Luke. Doing all right, man. Doing all right. Appreciate you taking the call. So listen. I got myself into a situation here, and I don't know whether to laugh or start updating my resume.
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+LUKE: All right, Hector. What did you do?
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+HECTOR: So I've been flying crop dusters out of Yuma for eight years now, right? Good job. Decent money? I know what I'm doing up there. This afternoon, my boss pulls me aside. All smiles tells me I landed this huge contract in Mexico City. Three weeks coordinated with agricultural officials. Big deal for the company.
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+LUKE: Is that something you don't want to do? Why you bummed out about that? That sounds great.
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+HECTOR: No, no, that's the thing. It should be great, right? This is a promotion, basically. More money, more responsibility. Looks amazing on paper. Here's the problem, Luke. hired me eight years ago partly because my last name is Gonzales and my resume says fluent Spanish I speak about as much Spanish as you probably do maybe less
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+LUKE: I'm gonna let you in on a little secret I think they knew they probably had strong suspicions at the time they hired you that you did not speak Spanish but that's okay because nowadays you don't have to you can get the Apple AirPods and they'll do the live translation for you right in your ear
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+HECTOR: Oh man, I didn't even think about that. Does that actually work, though? Like in a real professional setting? Because I'm picturing myself in some meeting with Mexican agriculture officials, trying to negotiate pesticide schedules, while I'm sitting there with AirPods and like I'm listening to a podcast.
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+LUKE: You know, I went into Mexico last year at some point. I went to Agua Brietta. And when I got there, I was trying to buy cigarettes from the duty-free shop on the United States side of the border. So they don't just give you the cigarettes. You buy the cigarettes in the United States, and then you have to cross the border, and some guy is supposed to bring you the cigarettes, and then you have to import them back into the United States. So I went out there, and I was in Mexico, and I couldn't find the guy with the cigarettes. So I'm asking all around, and there's a bunch of, like, their version of Border Patrol at the border, and they didn't speak any English or pretended not to speak any English, and they pulled out their phone, and they just did the whole back-and-forth transcription, like it was nothing. Like, they do that all the time. So I think it's pretty common. I wouldn't worry too much about it. But you can always start studying. I mean, it's not like you can't learn Spanish.
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+HECTOR: Yeah, I mean, three weeks, though. I've been downloading Duolingo on and off for like two years, and I still can't get past the boy eats an apple. And here's the other thing that's dealing at me. I've been cashing paychecks for eight years with that my resume like they never needed me to speak Spanish before so it never mattered but now it does and I feel like a fraud
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+LUKE: well you are a fraud you lied on your resume and you got away with it for eight years so congratulations for that but it sounds like it's probably pretty difficult to find somebody qualified to fly crop dusting plane that they trust in another country and they trust you so you just got to do the best you can and try to work through the Spanish you know Three weeks, that's quick, but you can do it. I mean, dual lingo is probably not the right way, but there's lots of other ways to learn language, and if you really need to, if you really have to, you could get at least a little bit of what you need. It shouldn't take you long to ramp up.
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+HECTOR: You're right, you're right. I mean, I've been hearing Spanish on the radio stations down here for years. I should at least have some baseline. And honestly, the flying part I can do in my sleep, what's got me twisted up.
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+LUKE: Just throw yourself on a Selena record, get some bitty bitty bum bomb going, and you're gonna be fine. Amherst yourself in Spanish, and you will pick it up faster than you think, because you have to.
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+HECTOR: Okay, Selina, I can actually handle. My mom used to play that stuff all the time when I was a kid.
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+LUKE: You can't handle Selena. Wait, does that make it worse, that I didn't pick up Spanish?
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+HECTOR: She's probably going to lose it when I tell her about this. She's been asking me for years why I don't speak it and I always just shrugged it off.
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+LUKE: Well, your name is Hector Gonzales, so I mean I would expect at this point in your life you probably would have picked up a little bit here and there.
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+HECTOR: That's what kills me, Luke. Everyone just assumes. I walk into a place, they see the name tag, and half the time someone starts talking to me in Spanish, and I just stand there like a deer in headlights. I've gotten really good at the apologetic smile and the sorry I don't speak it. But my dad's of the family, they all came over generations ago. By the time it got to me, it was just gone.
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+LUKE: Hey, well, congratulations on the new job. Do the best you can. And if they have to send you back to the States to do your old job again, then so be it. And if they fire you for lying on your resume, then get another job. There's probably plenty of places you can commercially fly a plane.
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+HECTOR: Yeah, you know what? You're right. Worst case scenario, I'm back flying over lettuce fields and Yuma, which honestly isn't the worst thing in the world. I do love that job.
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+LUKE: Well, good luck to you and congratulations again. Thanks for calling in, Hector, and give us a call back if anything goes wrong or you meet a crazy cartel out there and you've got a story about redemption. Next up on the line we have Marlene. Marlene, welcome to the show. What's going on in your life tonight? How can we help?
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+MARLENE: Hey, Luke. Yeah. So, My ex-wife's new husband just ordered $12,000 worth of furniture for me, and I don't know if he knows it's me or not, and I'm losing my mind a little bit. Sorry, that came out fast. But yeah, that's what's happening right now.
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+LUKE: Well, you know, all the places in the world you could buy furniture from, if he's buying it from you, then there's a good chance he has an idea of who you are. Right?
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+MARLENE: That's what I keep thinking. the company's called Desert Reclaim and my name's all over the website. But then I'm like, maybe he just Googled Rustic Dining Tables, New Mexico. And I came up and he has no clue. He's this tech guy from Scottsdale, you know?
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, I mean, you got to think about how internet search works and cookies and stuff like that. So there's probably a chance that she was looking at your Facebook profile and somewhere you're linked to your business profile on LinkedIn or something like that. And then that's a chance that's transferring to his phone, so when he does a Google search, it's looking at all that data it's collected on you, and saying he's most likely to buy his chairs from this woman.
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+MARLENE: Oh, God, I didn't even think about that. So, like, Rachel's been looking at my stuff and it's bleeding over into his search results. That's, actually, that makes me feel weird in a whole different way.
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+LUKE: Like, has she been checking up on me? Well, I don't know. I'm just saying that's one possibility. That is how search works nowadays. So there's a likelihood that that could have happened. And not necessarily like Googling you in the middle of the night, but there could be documents on our computer that are getting fed into the cloud for some PDF transcription service. Like, you don't know. All that you know is the data is out there and you're linked to him now in a not a cryptographic way, but in a digital way. And that link is obviously working.
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+MARLENE: Yeah. No, you're right. I mean, we were married for six years. probably all kinds of digital trails still connecting us. But, okay, so whether he knows or not, do I take the money?
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+LUKE: Yes! Luke, this is six months of my mortgage. This order would let me actually breathe for the first time since I started this business.
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+MARLENE: But then I think about Rachel walking into one of those hotel lobbies and seeing my tables, the ones I built with wood from that barn outside animas, and I just...
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+LUKE: Not your problem. Take the money. Congratulations. That's a good hit. That's what we call us in the business. So close that deal, take your cash, and enjoy the win. And thank modern technology.
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+MARLENE: You really think so? Just take it and don't say anything? Because part of me wants to email him and be like, Hey, just so you know, I used to be married to your wife. Is that insane? That's insane, right?
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+LUKE: You are correct. That is insane. Yeah, don't do that. Take the money and don't say a word. And who cares if she looks at York when she goes to wherever it is, she goes where they put your furniture.
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+MARLENE: Okay. Yeah. You're right. I mean, she left me. She married him. I'm building furniture in my garage at two in the morning. This is literally the one good thing that's happened.
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+LUKE: Nah, she got to be with somebody she wants to be with. You get to make maybe potentially the best work of your life. And you just got a nice paycheck. So it sounds like there's lots of good things happening. And all around, everything works out the way it's supposed to. And enjoy this small win.
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+MARLENE: Small win? Luke, this is 12 tables. This is the biggest order I've ever had. But, okay. Yeah, I hear you. Take the money, build the tables, stop overthinking it. It's just, man, it's been a year of sleeping in my truck, watching the stars, trying to figure out what I'm doing. And now this lands in my lap and it's connected to her. And I just...
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+LUKE: You're just freaking out. And you don't have to freak out. Do the job, get the money and move on and enjoy it. Congratulations.
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+MARLENE: You know what? You're right. I'm going to do it. I'm going to build the best damn tables they've ever seen, take their money, and maybe finally fix the heater in my truck, so I don't have to freeze my ass off out there.
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+LUKE: Excellent. That sounds like a great plan. And another happy rooster. It's time to hear from our sponsors. So in just a moment, we'll return.
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+Okay. Welcome back to the show. Just a quick plug. Don't forget, we have presents out there on all the social media. So you can find us on the Facebook and the Instagram and the YouTube's and the Apples and the Spotify's all around. If you want to look at all the places you can find us, look at Lukeattheroast.com. And with that out of the way, let's get back to the show. Rick, Rick, thanks for calling in. What's going on, buddy?
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+RICK: Oh man, Luke. So yesterday morning, my daughter Claire, she's 12. She fell through the on our stock tank trying to break it up for the horses, right? Full face pallant into freezing water, and I'm watching this happen, and I'm about to lose my mind. But she comes up and she's gasping, but she's not panicking, like it all. And later she tells me, it felt like her body just...
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+LUKE: Her body just what?
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+RICK: Took over. That's exactly what she said. My body took over. Like she wasn't even in control. Her heart slowed down, blood went to her core, and she just knew what to do. So I'm sitting there after she goes to bed and I'm looking this up. And Luke, it's called the mammalian diving reflex.
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+LUKE: Well, that's pretty helpful, I suppose. Uh, I, for if we like jump into the ocean when it's cold, like, uh, why is it there?
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+RICK: Right, exactly. It's this ancient thing we all have, like seals and whales. Your face hits cold water and boom, your body just flips this switch without asking permission. Heart rate drops, blood vessels constrict, everything shut down except what keeps you alive.
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+LUKE: Well, that sounds like a very handy thing to have, especially if you're going to fall into a trough of water when it's frozen.
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+RICK: Yeah, no. I mean, she's fine. She's totally fine. But Luke, here's the thing that's messing with me. I've known this kid her whole life, right? Change to diapers, taught her to ride, the whole deal.
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+LUKE: Okay. And what's the problem? It sounds like she's perfectly fine, and you learned a new thing about biology and evolution.
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+RICK: The problem is, I watch her face in that water. And it was like, I don't know her at all. Like there's this whole other operating system running underneath that I have zero access to. She's got the same emergency programming as a seal, Luke, a seal.
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+LUKE: I've been kissed by rose on the grave. Yeah, I guess that would be startling. But wait a few more years until you see her get hammered. And then, uh, see what you see in her face.
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+RICK: Oh, God. Don't even. No, but see, that's different. That's like choices and stupid decisions. This wasn't a choice. This was her body making calls without her even knowing. Like she's running software I didn't install and can't see the code for.
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+LUKE: Yeah, and it sounds like it's doing a better job than yours too, because she acted superfluously and got herself out of that cold water before it was an issue. So what's the problem here? Her natural biology was taken over and doing the right thing.
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+RICK: The problem? Okay. You're right. She handled it better than I would have. But Luke, she's 12. And I'm standing there on a Monday morning watching Evolution work through my kid like she's just...
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+LUKE: Yeah, you watched Evolution the whole, every day of watching that kid grow up, and all of you growing up and all your parents. So I'm not sure why this is flipping your wig.
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+RICK: Because this wasn't her getting taller or losing teeth or whatever. This was watching her go under and come back up with this look on her face like, Like some part of her I've never met, just took the wheel. She told me later, my body took over dad, and I can't stop thinking about what else is in there that I don't know about.
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+LUKE: I've been kissed by Rose on the grave. Do you think seal is in there?
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+RICK: What? No, I.! Luke, come on. I'm not saying she's literally a seal. I'm saying she's got all this programming I didn't know about. Like, what else kicks in that I'm not ready for? What other switch is flea when I'm not looking.
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+LUKE: I don't know, man. It sounds like you're going to have to read the origin of species and do some research on the old Charlie D.
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+RICK: Okay, you're busting my balls here, but I did look it up after she went to bed. The mammalian diving reflex. It's real.
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+LUKE: Heart rate drops. Blood goes to the vital organs, the whole thing. And she described it exactly like that without knowing what it was called. That's what's freaking me out. She's walking around with all these systems I can't see. And one day she's going to be out there making decisions. and I won't even know what's running in the background.
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+RICK: Yeah, that's true. That's how humans behave. Welcome to the world, sir. You don't know how anybody is programmed entirely, and just the little bits that you've been around for. So it's not to be shocking, but it sounds like you need to expand your mind a little bit. Your kid is going to be their own person with their own instincts and values and beliefs and skills. And most of them. them, not all, most of them will have absolutely nothing to do with you.
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+LUKE: Yeah, yeah, I know that. I do, but this felt different. Watching her face change in that water, watching something ancient, just click on.
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+RICK: Well, it sounds like everything worked out, and she's great, and you learned something, and that's a win to me.
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+LUKE: So thanks for Colin. Give us a call back some other time. Gina, Gina, thanks for Colin. How are you today?
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+GINA: Hey, Luke. I'm all right. So my brother and sister want to sell my grandmother's house, and I've been breaking into it every Sunday for the last three months.
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+LUKE: Is your grandmother still in the house?
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+GINA: No. She died in November. I have a key, though, so I guess it's not really breaking in. But they don't know I'm going there.
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+LUKE: Okay, why are you breaking into your dead grandma's house?
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+GINA: I don't know, man. I just, I drive down to Hachita every Sunday, let myself in, and I sit in her chair by the window for exactly two hours. Sometimes I'm on my phone. Sometimes I just watch the mountains. It's this floral armchair she'd always sit in.
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+LUKE: Well, that's a nice thing, but if they're going to sell the house, you're not going to be able to go there anymore. So that's a bummer. What are you going to do after the house is gone?
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+GINA: That's the thing. I don't want them to sell it. My brother left me three voicemails saying we need to list it by March. And my sister sent me the Zillow estimate and I had to pull over on the highway because I couldn't breathe. Like, I know how this sounds.
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+LUKE: Do you have the money to buy the house?
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+GINA: No. I work at a mortuary. I'm 21. I don't have that kind of money. But I can't explain this to them without sounding crazy.
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+LUKE: Well, you're 21. You also don't have the bills yet that they have, and the responsibilities financially that they have to account for. You don't have to pay the taxes on that property and the upkeep and the maintenance. You're just going there and hanging out, which is great. I mean, if you've got a free place to go hang out, wonderful. But the rest of your family, doesn't feel that way about it. It's a burden to them, and it's expensive, and they might not be able to afford it either. So if they want to sell the house, then you should let them.
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+GINA: I know all that. I get it. But she's still in there, Luke. And I know the difference between a body and a person. I work with dead people every day.
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+LUKE: Okay. Well, so if she's still in there, does it matter who owns her?
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+GINA: What do you mean does it matter who owns her? Some family from Phoenix is going to buy it and go. that the whole thing and turn it into an Airbnb or whatever.
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+LUKE: Yeah, and that sounds like an ideal situation for your dead grandma, because she's going to be hanging out in the Airbnb, it's going to be all nice and fixed up, and people are going to be partying in there, she's going to be having a grand old time.
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+GINA: That's not funny.
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+LUKE: What do you mean it's not funny? Of course it is.
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+GINA: No, because, okay, you don't get it. Every Sunday I sit in her chair by the window and I can feel her there. feel her. The way the light hits the mountains at a certain time, that's what she looked at every day for 40 years. Her handwriting is still on the grocery list on the fridge. There's a water stain on the ceiling from when the swap cooler leaked in 2019. And she never fixed it because she said it looked like a bird.
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+LUKE: Yeah, it sounds like she was a person and she is not anymore. And her house is no longer belongs to her and you're in it hanging out. And the family needs to sell that house, whether you want to be there or not. Like, you can't just force them to keep this house. You can't do it. It's not going to work. So you're going to have to come to terms with reality.
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+GINA: I know I can't force them. That's why I'm calling you instead of just, I don't know what I thought you were going to say.
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+LUKE: Well, what I'm going to say is it makes sense that you're grieving for your grandmother. And her presence is obviously. going to be in the place where she lived her whole life. That makes perfect sense. That happens to everybody. I'm going to tell you that you can take those memories of your grandma somewhere else, and you're going to have to. So it's okay to grieve. It's okay to miss her, but she's not in the walls. She's not in the stain on the ceiling. She will follow you for your life in your mind, in your memories, and keep those good, you know? And if you really, if you really, if you really feel that strongly about it? Do what you have to do to raise the money to buy the house. Like it's an after-TV special, and there's some creepy old corporation that's trying to buy it and turn it into an oil drill.
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+GINA: I make $22 an hour at the mortuary, Luke. My brother's a project manager in Tucson, and my sister works for the state. They've already run the numbers. If we sell now, we each get like $40,000. That's real money for them. That's their kids' college funds or whatever. And I can't explain to them why it matters without sounding insane.
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+LUKE: It doesn't sound insane. It sounds selfish. Because it's not yours to hold on to. So if you make $22 an hour at the mortuary, that's not a lot of money, but you could go make more money. You could have a second job, a third job. You could make deals with people, talk to the bank. $40,000 is not that much money, and you could raise it if you really wanted to. You can do a GoFundMe. I mean, you can crowdsource a lot of money. You can borrow a lot of money. You could make it happen, but, I mean, it goes back to you. And this would be something that you have to do. It's not something that you're forcing those other people that are in real world responsible situations. You can't be upset with them for doing what they need to do.
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+GINA: You're right. God, you're right, and I hate it. I've been sitting there every Sunday like I'm keeping her alive or something. Like if I'm keeping her alive or something. I just stay in that chair long enough. It won't matter that she's gone. But I work with dead people every day, Luke. I know better. I'd prep buddies.
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+LUKE: Well, if you know better, then snap out of it, because she is gone, and she's not in the house, and it's not your house.
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+GINA: Yeah. Okay. Yeah. You're right. I just, I have to figure out what to say to my brother, because he's been really patient, and I've been dodging his calls for two weeks. I can't keep doing that.
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+LUKE: Well, figure out what you're going to say to your brother, and make peace with what you've got to make with or go get yourself the money.
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+GINA: I'm not getting the money. I know that. I think I knew that when I called.
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+LUKE: Okay, you're not getting the money. Well, good luck to you, you little bitch. Jesus. I don't know. What generation is that? She said she was 21. Is that Gen. A, Gen. Gen. I don't know what gender. She sucked. Okay. Let's see. Skeeter. Welcome to the show. What did you think of that last caller?
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+SKEETER: I thought she was super annoying. Oh man, I missed it actually. I've been sitting out here in the parking lot with the heat running, just got the station dialed in. But listen, I got a question that's been eating at me all day.
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+LUKE: You know that thing about how orange used to be called yellow red? Like before the word orange existed, people just called it yellow red? I did not know that, and that sounds odd. It sounds untrue.
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+GIO: See, that's what this kid in my sense. seventh period said, called it bullshit internet fake history, right to my face, which, you know, fair enough, I let them talk like that in my class, as long as they're making a point.
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+LUKE: And did you have anything to back this up with?
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+GIO: That's the thing. I don't know, man. I saw it somewhere online, but it was interesting, been telling people for like two years. And now I'm sitting out here at midnight, second-guessing, whether I actually know anything real, or if my whole brain is just filled with internet garbage, Like, what else have I been confidently wrong about? You know what I mean?
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+LUKE: Well, have you taken any steps to verify the information? Like maybe Google it, look it up?
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+GIO: Yeah. I did that after class, and it just made it worse. Half the sites say it's true, half say it's not, and I can't tell which ones are legit. There's something about the word coming from the fruit, or maybe Sanskrit. Or maybe it was Geo-Lou Reed in Old English, which I guess means yellow-red? I don't know. I teach history. and I can't even figure out the history of a color. And honestly, Luke, that's not even really why I'm calling.
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+LUKE: Well, Gio, Lou Reed, sounds like something I want to get behind. All right, why are you calling?
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+GIO: I've been sleeping in my truck in the school parking lot for three nights because my girlfriend changed the locks on me. Found some texts I sent to someone I shouldn't have been texting. And I'm sitting out here with the engine running so I don't freeze, watching the frost build up on the windshield. And I'm the exact same age. my dad was when he left.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, it sounds like you're getting what you deserve. So who are you texting? What was that about?
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+GIO: Her name's Amanda. She's a substitute teacher, comes through maybe once a month, and it wasn't even, look, nothing actually happened. It was just flirty stuff, stupid stuff, but enough that when my girlfriend saw it, she knew exactly what I was thinking about doing, even if I hadn't done it yet. And the worst part?
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+LUKE: What's the worst part? You know women don't like. it when you text other women.
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+GIO: The worst part is, I don't even feel that bad about it. Like, I know I'm supposed to be devastated, right? Begging to come back inside, flowers and apologies and all that. But mostly, I just feel nothing. I've been with Sarah for four years, and when she changed those locks, part of me was relieved.
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+LUKE: All right, well then, congratulations. It sounds like your decision's been made for you. You're all set. You're free, sir. You're a free bird. You're a free agent. You can text whoever you want.
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+GIO: Yeah, except I'm 37 years old sleeping in a Tacoma in a high school parking lot. Real winter energy, Luke. And here's the thing that's messing with me. My dad did this exact same thing. Same age? Found someone else. Just walked away from everything. I spent my whole life thinking he was a piece of shit for that, and now I'm out here doing the same math he probably did.
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+LUKE: Well, you're not really just walking away from everything. She changed the locks on you. She told you to leave and apparently not come back.
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+GIO: No, you're right, but I handed her the reason to do it. I mean, come on, Luke. I left those texts where she could find them. My phone was sitting right there on the counter while I was in the shower. I'm not stupid. Part of me wanted her to see them. Part of me wanted her to be the one to pull the trigger so I wouldn't have to.
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+LUKE: Okay, well then, you're a pussy, and it sounds like you've got exactly what you wanted. So congratulations. I'm not sure why you're calling me.
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+GIO: Because today, I told my seventh period class, that thing about how orange used to be called yellow-red. And this smart-ass kid, always correcting me, said that's fake internet bullshit. And I'm sitting out here now wondering if he's right. Wondering if I actually know anything real, or if I'm just repeating stuff I saw online at three in the morning. And that feels like, I don't know, man. It feels like everything right now. Like maybe I don't actually know what I want or what I'm doing or who I even am.
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+LUKE: Well, welcome to the goddamn human race, sir, because nobody really does. It's the big secret that we're all hiding and pretending, you know, telling the kids that isn't the case. Nobody fucking knows, man. Just do your best. If you don't want to be with that woman, don't be with the woman. And it sounds like you're not anymore, so good on you. Now you're going to have to find yourself a new place of residence. So I would be worried about that more so than the color orange.
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+GIO: You're right. You're absolutely right. I just... Okay, so earlier you had that guy Hector on, the crop duster who lied about speaking Spanish, and you told him, Worst case, he just goes back to doing what he was doing before, which he loves anyway.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I was talking about a job, not a woman.
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+GIO: I know, but that's what I'm saying. I can't go back. There's no version where I go back to what I was doing before, because I don't even remember what that was. Sarah and I got together when I was 33. Before that, I was just, I don't know, Luke. I was just floating around. And now I'm floating around again, except I'm four years older and sleeping in my truck, and I can't even confidently tell a 17-year-old kid whether Orange is a real cool. color or not.
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+LUKE: Yeah, you're a goddamn mess, and you need to fucking pick yourself up and get it together because, uh, this is pathetic.
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+GIO: Yeah, yeah, you're right. It is pathetic.
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+LUKE: Okay, so grow up, figure out what you want to do and stop, uh, uh, holding people hostage. Now it's time for another word from our sponsors. I'm going to get dark for a second. You're going to die someday. Not today, probably, but someday. And when you do, what's going to represent your business? A Craigslist post from 2020? A Google Maps pin that still says permanently closed because you forgot to update it after COVID. A nephew who knows computers but actually just has a Reddit account? Your legacy deserves better than a nephew with a Reddit account. Squarehole lets you build something that outlasts you, something your kids can point to and say, Dad built Dad. They won't know it took you 11 minutes. That's between you and Squarehole. And when your nephew says, I could have built that for you for free, you can look them in the eye and say, then why didn't you, Tyler? I asked you in 2021 and you said you were busy and you were not busy. Squarehole. Build it before Tyler has to, because Tyler is not going to. Tyler's not going to do it, so you should talk to our sponsor there. Get yourself a website. A website like our website, Luke at the roost.com. which is not hosted on Squarehole. It's hosted a completely different way. And if you'd like to know how it's hosted, you can take a look at Luke at theroost.com slash how it works. Or we explain how this whole show works to those of you that might be interested. Okay, next up on the line, we've got a returning caller. I remember you. This is Brenda. Brenda. Brenda, you're the ambulance driver, right?
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+BRENDA: Yeah, that's me. Hey, Luke. So I did it. I actually went on a date.
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+LUKE: Hey, all right. Good job. Good for you. How'd that go?
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+BRENDA: Oh, man. It was. Okay. So I met this guy at the grocery store two weeks ago. Right? We were both reaching for the same bag of those frozen tequitos, and he made some joke about it. We got to talking. He seemed normal. Nice smile. Worked in H-FAC. Had his shit together. So we go out Saturday night. He picks this Italian place over on Glendale. And Luke, I swear to God, halfway through dinner, he started. telling me about his for-rating women he's dated. Like a whole spreadsheet.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I'm familiar. It's the universal, uh, hot, crazy matrix. We're all familiar with that spreadsheet.
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+LUKE: What, what was it about it that got under your nerves?
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+BRENDA: No, but seriously, it wasn't just that he, it. He pulled it up on his phone at the table and started walking me through it, like showing me the columns, physical attraction, emotional stability, long-term potential, and then he's like, don't worry, I don't fill it out until after the third date. And he said it like that was supposed to be. Like I'm supposed to be grateful I get two more dinners before I become a data point. And the thing is, I sat there thinking, is this what dating is now?
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+LUKE: Hey, you know, a lot of women would find that very attractive. I bet he's real good at doing taxes. There's probably a lot of good qualities this gentleman has. He seems very organized and he knows what he wants, and that shows extreme confidence. So I wouldn't be too butt-hurt about it. That's a funny thing. And, I mean, you could go on another date with him or not, but... How are you going to blame the guy?
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+BRENDA: You know what, you're right, and that's what's messing with me. Because Denise said the same thing at work yesterday. She was like, at least he's honest. At least he knows what he wants. And I'm sitting there going, so why do I feel like I got interviewed for a job I didn't apply for? Like the whole night I'm wondering what score I'm getting. And here's the thing. I don't even know if I liked him, Luke. I have no idea. I was so busy being aware of being evaluated that I didn't evaluate anything myself.
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+LUKE: That's exactly, that is precisely what a date is. It's an evaluation between two people. And whether or not they're saying that there's an evaluation happening, there is. I would be grateful to him for showing you the criteria instead of making it up in his head and thinking you were crazy and scoring you on things you didn't even know he was looking at. So everybody's doing that consciously or subconsciously, and he's just doing it in a very organized and respectable way.
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+BRENDA: Okay. No, but seriously, you're actually making me feel worse because you're right. I know. Like, I'm doing the same thing. I went home and told Monica every single detail about him, and we basically did the exact same evaluation. We just didn't write it down. We sat there for an hour going, okay, but did you notice how he treated the waiter? What kind of car does he drive? Does he talk about his ex too much? It's the same spreadsheet. I just pretended mine was more organic or something. And now I'm spiraling because he texted me yesterday asking about a second date. And I haven't answered because I'm sitting here judging him for doing out loud what I'm doing in my head. You know what I mean.
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+LUKE: Yep. That's a Sounds like the type of nonsensical nonsense that comes in the dating world. Congratulations. Are you going to go on the date with him or not?
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+BRENDA: I don't know. That's why I called. Because here's the other part. When he texted, he said, I had a really good time. I think you're someone I'd like to get to know better. And it was sweet. It was normal. And I'm sitting there staring at my phone thinking, but what did I score? Like now, I want to know what he wrote down about me. Did I get high marks? Where did I lose points?
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+LUKE: We'll ask him. Make a game out of it. See which areas he feels you need improvement and see if that's something you're willing to work on, if you agree with him or not, and have a discussion. I think that could be fun.
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+BRENDA: Oh, God, you're serious. You want me to actually ask him to show me my scores. No, but seriously, though, that's kind of...
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+LUKE: Of course. He wouldn't have showed you the spreadsheet if he wasn't willing to show you the scores.
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+BRENDA: Okay, you know what? That's a good point. He literally showed it to me at dinner. He's not hiding it.
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+LUKE: He's not hiding it. And you're doing the same thing. So maybe write down, write down yours. Put it on paper and show you can compare. You can trade and see where you match.
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+BRENDA: Oh man. This is either the weirdest advice or the best advice. Monica's going to lose her mind when I tell her this. But actually, no, but seriously. If I'm being honest, the stuff I care about is probably stupid too. Like I literally docked him points in my head because his shoes were too shiny.
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+LUKE: Well, you sound like a real catch. Good for you, Brenda. Go out on another date with a guy if you liked him. If you didn't like him, don't go on a date with him. But don't judge him too badly for judging you at an event that is entirely derived to judge each other.
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+BRENDA: You're right. God, you're totally right. Okay, I'm going to text him back yes. And maybe I'll ask him about the spreadsheet on date too. See if he's got a sense of humor about it.
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+LUKE: There you go. That's the right answer. That's what you should do. I hope you have a good time. And I'm interested to hear what you get on the spreadsheet. So next up on the line, we've got Clyde. Clyde, welcome to the show. What's going on tonight? How are you?
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+CLYDE: Hey, Luke? Yeah, I'm standing in my garage right now. Because my 23-year-old son just moved back in about six hours ago. And I don't know how to tell him no. third time. Third time he's shown up with his car packed full of everything he owns, saying he needs to figure things out. And he's already asleep in his old bedroom and my ex? Well, we're not really exes. It's complicated. She already texted me saying she's not doing this again. And I'm out here with my half-finished cabinets at midnight trying to figure out how you're supposed to kick your own kid out when he's already unpacked.
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+LUKE: Okay, we already talked about this. You've got to tell your kid, uh, no, you can't do this anymore. Stop calling the radio show, grow a pair, and talk to your goddamn child. Rita, welcome to the show. How are you?
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+RITA: Hey, Luke. I'm, yeah, I'm okay. Long night at work, couldn't sleep. I just, I took a call tonight. Welfare check on an old man out in Somerton, and his grandson found him dead. Been there three days.
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+LUKE: That's no good. Hey, what happens after the body is found. Is there, are there death people that are called to come and clean up the situation? Who's responsible to go in there and take care of the body? And not just the body, but the house?
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+RITA: Yeah, so we dispatch fire and medical first. They confirm he's gone. Then the coroner comes out. After that, if there's no foul play, family's responsible for cleanup. But here's the thing. This kid, the grandson, he's looking around while we're waiting, and he finds this album. Turns out his grandfather was this Corito singer back in the 70s.
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+LUKE: Okay. Good for him?
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+RITA: No, but that's the thing. The kid had. His own grandfather. Played all over the valley, VFW halls, weddings, recorded an album. And now he's just...
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+LUKE: Hey, if the coroner hasn't been there yet, then how do you know he's been dead for three days?
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+RITA: Oh, the paramedics confirmed that when they got there, they can tell by... I mean, I won't get into the details. But yeah, it was three days. But Luke, what I'm trying to say is, this guy had this whole life making music. And it just disappeared. Like it never happened. And I keep thinking about how many people out here are like that. Musicians, artists, whatever. They pour everything into it and then they're just gone. Nobody remembers.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that's true. And nobody recognizes while they're alive either. So there's a lot of people in the world. It's a big planet full of people with different talents. And it's hard to pay attention to all of them, especially when we've got so much crack attention seeking dopamine bullshit on the computers now and our phones. And everybody's listening to some nonsense, like, I don't know, listening to a radio show where the host takes colors from fake entities that are programmed in a computer.
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+RITA: Yeah, well, I'm listening to that show right now. So what does that say about me? But seriously, I heard you earlier with Marlene. And I think you were kind of hard on her.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I get that a lot. I think people just don't like to be told the truth.
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+LUKE: And I'm not really in the business of of coddling people or telling them what they want to hear. I'm in the business of giving the best advice I can. And sometimes that's hard.
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+CALLER: No, I get that. I do. But what I'm saying is, this old man tonight, he probably never got recognized while he was alive. either. He was just playing his caritos at Quincerra's and nobody paid attention. And now he's gone and his own grandson didn't even know. And I'm sitting here at three in the morning thinking, what's the point?
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+LUKE: Well, the point is that the dead grandfather had a great time expressing himself musically while he was alive. That was the point. And anything other than that, any recognition afterwards or fond memories of somebody else's past skill is pretty irrelevant in the whole scheme of the universe.
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+CALLER: Yeah, okay. But then why do we keep anything? Why do we, I mean, I've got this whole box of my dad's old tools in my garage that I never use. Mark keeps saying we should sell them, but I can't. And it's not even about the tools. It's about, I don't know. I don't know why we keep things.
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+LUKE: I don't. to me and if it's both useful and has, what's the intrinsic value, sentimental value? If it has sentimental value to me and it's useful, I'll keep it. But I don't keep stuff just to keep reminders of people or things or events or places or anything. That's just wasting space.
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+CALLER: So you think I should just let it all go? The old man's music, my dad's tools, all of it, just
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+LUKE: What? Make peace with the fact that nothing lasts. Nothing lasts and nothing is supposed to last. And that's how it's designed and that's the beauty of this whole thing we're doing. So, yeah, if you like the old man's music, if caritos are your thing and you enjoy listening to the music, then keep that. If you're going to use your dad's tools, if they're good tools, then keep those. But if you're just holding on to them because of the memory of who they used to belong to, you're wasting space. And every time you move for the rest of your life, you've got to move. a big box of tools or get somebody else to and pay to store it. And it's just, it's unnecessary. It's baggage. So, um, I for one, believe you should travel with as little baggage as possible.
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+CALLER: God, that's cold. It's not. I mean, you're not wrong. But, okay, so what about the grandson? He's got this one album his grandfather made, probably sitting in some storage unit somewhere. Should he just toss it?
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+LUKE: Depends on if he likes the record or not. If he's to listen to it, then no, he should hang on to it and listen to it throughout his life. If he doesn't like caritos and he doesn't have a record player, then I don't know that there's a good reason to hold on to that forever.
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+CALLER: You know what? I actually called about something else. But now I'm thinking maybe it's all connected. I've been keeping a list for years.
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+LUKE: Okay, a list of what?
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+CALLER: Musicians, local ones, people who played around here, and then just disappeared. I started it maybe five years ago after I dispatched a call to this house. And when the paramedics got there, they found all these old posters on the wall. Guy had played guitar in like 15 different bands in the 80s and 90s.
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+LUKE: Well, that's pretty cool. What are you going to do with the list?
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+CALLER: That's the thing. I don't know. I just keep adding to it. Tonight, after that call with the grandfather, I added him. Miguel Sandoval. One album, 1974. And I'm sitting here at like two in the morning with 40 names.
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+LUKE: And I'm thinking, well, I mean, that's a, it's obviously important to you. Music obviously speaks to you on a different level, and you also like archiving and keeping the memory of those things going. So maybe this, this makes you suited to run like a record shop or an antique shop where you can hold on to those things and trade them.
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+CALLER: Wait, hold on. You think I should quit dispatch and open a record shop at 53 years old?
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+LUKE: Why not? If you love records, you love music, that's what you want to do. You're 53 years old. You can do whatever you goddamn please. And you don't have to quit your job. You could do it on the side. You could do it as a little side hobby, hustle.
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+CALLER: The archiver. I mean, Mark would lose his mind. We've got the house payment, his trucks on its last legs. And honestly, I don't even collect records myself. I've got maybe 20 at home. It's not about owning them. It's about, I don't know how to explain this. I don't know what you're asking. I guess I'm asking if it matters.
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+LUKE: No.
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+CALLER: If I write all these names down, if I remember them, does it actually do anything? Because tonight, looking at that old man's grandson, this kid didn't even know his grandfather made music. Didn't know there was this whole part of him. And I'm thinking, I know.
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+LUKE: You do know. And that's a piece of information that you can have and not everybody has to have all the same bits of information that you have. No, it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter at all. all. It doesn't matter to anybody.
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+CALLER: Yeah, you're right. That's what I figured. It's just... Okay. Earlier tonight, Hector called in about lying on his resume, and I was laughing so hard I almost ran. And I thought, that matters right now to him. But in five years, nobody's going to remember that conversation. And Miguel Sandoval, nobody remembers his album either.
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+LUKE: Nope. I also have, uh, several albums. that nobody ever listened to and nobody will ever remember. And that's just part of being a musician. What was cool about them, though, was creating the albums. And having that in my belt of things that I've done, I'm not everybody can say they've created a whole record of their own music. And I can. And that's a pretty cool thing. So it's worth doing whether anybody listened to it or not. I still listen to it sometimes. That's all that matters. Okay, we're going to take one more call tonight. One more call. Who's it going to be? Who's it going to be? Should it be? Should it be? Chip or Pam? Chip or Pam? Chip or Pam? I'm going with Pam because I've been watching a lot of office clips lately and I forgot how good Pam was on that. All right. So, Pam, welcome to the show.
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+PAM: Oh man, Luke. Thanks for taking my call. So, okay. Here's the thing. I've been a bail enforcement agent for six years. Tracking down bail jumpers. all over Hidalgo County. And my boss just told me there's an insurance audit coming next week, which would be totally fine except I lied on my resume when I got hired.
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+LUKE: Oh, what's with all you resume liars? I mean, how is this such an issue today? What's going on? Are you all talking to each other? What's the deal? What was your lie?
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+PAM: Wait, there's more of us tonight? Oh, God, that's okay. That actually makes me feel a little better. and a lot worse at the same time. I told them I had an associate's degree in criminal justice.
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+LUKE: Well, you shouldn't have done that. And if they're going to give you hard time about it, then you should get your associate's degree in criminal justice. But I say, let them know that you lied, or don't. That's what I say. Don't say. Don't say anything. And if they find it in the audit, then come clean that you lied. And see if you can escape by. But we're not going to keep this conversation going too long because we already had one with the same.
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+PAM: Same issue, Pam. No, no, no, wait. Luke, it's not the same thing. The other guy. Hector, right? He can learn Spanish in three weeks. Or fake it with an app. Or whatever. But I've been doing this job for. I've brought in over 200 skips.
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+LUKE: Was Hector the guy that they pushed out of the plane and Scarface? Was that Hector?
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+PAM: What? No. That was, yeah.
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+LUKE: Different Hector.
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+PAM: But Luke, listen. I'm sitting in my truck right now outside the office with the engine running because I don't know if I should walk in tomorrow or just drive until I hit the golf.
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+LUKE: That's a bit dramatic.
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+PAM: Really good. I know how to read people. I know the county. I know which cousins are lying and which bartenders will actually call me back.
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+LUKE: Okay. Well, good for you.
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+LUKE: So you're good at your job or you think you are anyway and you want us to think you are too.
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+CALLER: And you lied on your resume and you may get caught, but you also might not.
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+LUKE: So just go to work like it's a normal day. It's unlikely that they care. If you're good at you, if you're as good at this as you say you are, then they'll find a reason to leave you alone.
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+CALLER: You really think so? Because I've been sitting here for an hour just I keep thinking about John Wayne, which is stupid. But he never pretended to be something he wasn't, you know. He just was who he was, and people either liked it or they didn't.
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+LUKE: I don't know if that's true at all. I bet you John Wayne pretended to be a lot of things. He was not.
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+CALLER: Well, yeah. I mean, he was an actor, but...
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+LUKE: He sure was. Okay, bad example.
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+CALLER: There we go. I just mean, like, the characters he played, they have this code, right? They didn't lie about who they were. And here I am, six years in. And the whole thing's built on this one stupid lie I told because I was desperate and broke after my second divorce. And I thought, how hard can it be to track down people who don't want to be found?
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+LUKE: Well, I wouldn't worry about it too much. And if it's a problem, then deal with it then. But otherwise, don't lie anymore. You've learned your lesson. No more lies.
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+CALLER: Yeah. Yeah. You're right. I just, God, I've been spiraling out here.
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+LUKE: Well, hopefully you feel a little bit better now. Go to work in the morning. Like nothing happened, and just deal with it as it comes. Thanks for calling. And thanks for tuning in to another episode of Luke at the Roost. We hope you have a lovely evening. And we'll talk to you tomorrow. Bye.
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+CALLER: Thank you.

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+LUKE: All right, welcome back to the show. I am Luke, and this is Luke at the Roost. This is the call-in radio show where you can call in, and I'll give you the best advice I possibly can. It's a little bit late today. I had to take a little nap and then push the show back. So today is actually February the 18th, but we're going to pretend. We're going to pretend that it's February the 17th. Why are we going to pretend that? As you may know is Fat Tuesday. That's Fat Tuesday. It's Mardi Gras time, folks, out here in New Mexico. So for today's show, I've got some New Orleans trivia for our callers. That's going to be fun. If you'd like to call in, the number is 208-439-583. That's 208-439 Luke. Or you can also send us an email there to submissions at Luke at theroost.com. So with all that being said, I think it's time to get to our show. Our phones are lit up like they are around this time. And first up, we have Rodney. Rodney, welcome to the show. How are you? Happy Fat Tuesday.
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+RODNEY: Fat Tuesday was yesterday, Luke.
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+LUKE: I know. I appreciate the sentiment.
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+RODNEY: So listen. I'm sitting in my truck outside a closed Chinese restaurant in Lordsburg, New Mexico at midnight. And I just cracked open a fortune cookie that says it's too late. That's it. That's the whole fortune. And I cannot decide if the universe is talking to me, or if I'm just losing my mind in a parking lot.
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+LUKE: Sounds to me, sir, like you're just losing your mind in a parking lot, because it's never too late for anything. You can be anything you want to be. Wake up in the morning, it's a whole new day, you're a whole new you, and there's nothing you can't do if you put your mind to it. That's what I always say. But we're pretending. We're pretending that it's still fat Tuesday, sir. So go with me. that it is still February 17th, Fat Tuesday. And I've got some trivia for you. Are you ready for that?
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+RODNEY: Oh, I can do trivia. Hit me. I got nowhere to be. The restaurant's closed. My truck's running. And apparently the universe already gave up on me. So, let's do some trivia.
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+LUKE: All right, here we go. Why are New Orleans cemeteries called Cities of the Dead?
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+RODNEY: Oh man. Is it because they bury people above ground down there? Because the water table's so high you'd just be floating your loved ones away if you put them in the ground.
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+LUKE: That is correct, sir. I've actually been there. It's really weird. They're all in like tombs above ground. It's a pretty freaky situation. Have you ever been to New Orleans, sir?
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+RODNEY: I have not. Closest I've gotten is Beaumont. Texas, which is, I mean it's humid and it smells weird, but I don't think it counts. New Orleans solar list, though, always has been. Although at the rate I'm going, sitting in parking lots reading ominous fortune cookies, maybe I should just stay in the desert where things make sense.
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+LUKE: Yeah, maybe you should. That's what I'm doing. Things do make sense here in the desert, and we bury people under the ground here, which is, which makes sense to me, I guess. So, you're sitting in the parking lot, you got your bad fortune cookie, and you're afraid it's too late. What do you think it might be too late for?
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+RODNEY: My ex-wife texted me three days ago. First time in two years. Just asked if we could talk. And I haven't answered her. And then I crack open that cookie, and it says, it's too late. And I just, I don't know, man. I've been sitting here for 40 minutes now, trying to figure out out if that's the universe telling me I already blew it by waiting three days, or if it's telling me something bigger.
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+LUKE: I don't think it's I honestly don't think it's telling you anything. I think you just got a fortune cookie at a shut down Chinese restaurant in Lourdesburg, New Mexico, and you can never trust the Chinese restaurant in the desert. So I think I wouldn't put too much stock into what the universe is trying to tell you with your fortune. Instead, I might, if you want to talk to your ex-wife, call her. And if you don't want to talk to her, don't call her. It's that simple.
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+RODNEY: See, that's what I'm hoping, Luke. That's exactly what I'm hoping. Because I'm supposed to head back to the rig tomorrow morning, and I got to know if I'm just losing it out here. Last year, I killed a rattlesnake in my kitchen with a shovel at three in the morning.
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+LUKE: Jesus.
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+RODNEY: Didn't flinch, didn't think twice. This little strip of paper has me calling a radio show. ridiculous.
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+LUKE: Well, you know what I always say. This radio show is like killing a rattlesnake with a shovel.
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+RODNEY: Ha, I mean you're not wrong. You just, you just pick up the phone and you do it. You don't think about it too hard.
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+LUKE: That's right, sir, and that's my advice for you. So if you'd like to talk to the wife, you want to get back, do you want to get back with her? Is that what's going on? Do you miss the X?
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+RODNEY: Yeah, yeah, I do. I'm not going to sit here in a parking lot at midnight and lie to you about it. I miss her, but here's the thing. She left.
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+LUKE: Well, she's obviously got something to say to you because she's reaching out. So if you miss her and you want to talk to her and you don't hate her guts, then give her a call and work it out.
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+RODNEY: I know. I know you're right. And it's not it's not that I hate her. I don't hate her at all. It's that I don't know what she to say.
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+LUKE: Well, you're never going to know until you make the call, so let's get to that.
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+RODNEY: You're right. That's, yeah, that's just the truth right there. I've been sitting in this truck for 40 minutes working up to calling a radio show instead of just calling Denise. And that probably tells you everything you need to know about me.
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+LUKE: That's correct. It does. And we wish you the best of luck, sir. Enjoy your fortune cookie. And good luck with the X. Estelle. Stell, welcome to the show. Thanks for calling in. Happy Fat Tuesday. I know it's not really Fat Tuesday, but we're pretending because I feel asleep. And, you know, I'm a person too. Very, very busy man. Are you ready to play Fat Tuesday trivia?
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+ESTELLE: Ha. Okay. I did not call in for trivia, but I'll take it. Hit me.
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+LUKE: Louisiana is the only state that doesn't have counties. What does Louisiana have instead?
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+ESTELLE: Perishes? That one I actually know. I'm a social worker, so yeah.
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+LUKE: Very good. That's the correct answer. And what are you calling in for tonight, Estelle?
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+ESTELLE: Okay, so I came inside at two in the morning and realized I have not had a real conversation about my own life with another human being, and I don't even know how long.
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+LUKE: Okay, so what is it that you'd like to say to another human being?
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+ESTELLE: I don't even know where to start. I mean, I know, but it's embarrassing. So here's the headline. I've been having more meaningful conversations with an 87-year-old woman in Hachita about her late husband's dentures than I have with anyone about my own life in, what, six months?
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+LUKE: Well, you know what, that conversation with that 87-year-old woman about those dentures, that is your life. That's your life, too. So you are having conversations about your life. What is it that's on your mind?
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+ESTELLE: Okay, yeah, fair. That's, yeah. What's on my mind is that I came inside to, and there was a frozen lasagna on the table that I have microwaved every single Wednesday for six months. And the chair was pulled out at the exact same angle it always is. And I just stood there and thought, did I choose this? Or did it just kind of happen to me?
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+LUKE: Well, the answer is you chose it because you choose everything. So nothing just happens. If you have lulled yourself into a state of complacency with your life, then change it. But it's something that you did.
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+ESTELLE: Oh, come on. That's a lot. That's not. Okay, no. I hear you. But it's not that simple. It is. I, my job. I like the quiet. I like the stars. But then I'm out there in the dark with my telescope, and I'm talking to myself about Andromeda, like some kind of, like some kind of desert hermit. And I don't even know if I'm lonely or if I just got used to the silence.
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+LUKE: So what's the problem? Why is that a problem? Are you enjoying yourself out under the stars looking through your telescope and Andromeda? Because that's what I do. And I am a desert hermit, and that's perfectly okay. If you're comfortable with that, great. If you're not comfortable with that, though, then it's time to make a change in your life and join a group or do something other than sit by yourself. And there's lots of ways to do that. There's plenty of opportunities. You just have to make a decision and put forth the effort to have the life that you want. But all of it is you. You control 100%. Okay.
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+ESTELLE: But no, I control it. that's not the point. The point is, I don't even what I want anymore. Like, I, the quiet. I like the routine.
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+LUKE: It sounds like you've been hitting the bottle, lady. What's your consumption level these days?
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+ESTELLE: Ha, no, I wish. Honestly, no, I'm stone cold sober standing in my kitchen at two in the morning staring at a lasagna. Which is maybe worse? Like, at least if I'd been drinking, there'd be a reason I couldn't answer a basic question about my own life.
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+LUKE: Well, you're not making complete sentences. You're not making any sense and you're meandering about nothing. You call the radio show you have no point to make. I'm not really sure why you're here. So, do you have something you'd like to talk about or should we move on to the next caller?
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+ESTELLE: Okay. Okay, here it is. I think I'm scared that I'm building a life that looks exactly like what I want on paper. The job, the solitude, the telescope, the desert. And it's going to be going to be eating that lasagna alone on a Wednesday.
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+LUKE: That's enough of you. Eat your lasagna. Stop whining. If you want to change your life, change your life. But you're a boring caller, and we don't need boring callers. Next time you call in, have something interesting to say. That's what I have to say. And next up, we have Leon. Leon, do not be a boring caller, please. Do your best to be an interesting and have something to say. Today is not Fat Tuesday, but we're pretending it is because I fell asleep on Fat Tuesday. And I've got some trivia for you. Are you ready for my New Orleans trivia?
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+LEON: Ha! Luke! Man, it is good to be back. Okay, but hold on. Before you hit me with trivia, I got to tell you something first.
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+LUKE: All right, hit me with some funny shit.
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+LEON: So I quit the boot camp.
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+LUKE: All right. The boot camp was for coding? Is that what that was about?
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+LEON: Yeah, the coding, Python, all of it. I'm not going to lie, I lasted about six weeks, and I spent probably five of them watching poker strategy videos instead of writing code. You and I talked about that, actually. Last time, you said something that kind of stuck with me. You basically told me that at 56, poker is just as legitimate as anything else I could be chasing.
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+LUKE: Sure thing. So are you chasing the poker now?
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+LEON: I entered a tournament. Last Saturday, down in Albuquerque.
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+LUKE: Wow, that's fantastic. Entering a tournament, though, anybody can enter a tournament at any time. What is your strategy for moving forward with your poker career? Tell us about your bankroll management.
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+LEON: Okay, so, I'm not going to lie. I did not expect you to know the word bankroll, Luke.
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+LUKE: Oh, I deserve that. That's impressive. Okay, so here's the thing.
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+LEON: I don't have a poker career yet. I want to be real clear about that, but I did cash.
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+LUKE: What was your tournament? What were the stakes and what did you cash?
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+LEON: It was a $65 buy-in at one of the card rooms down there. Nothing crazy. And I cashed for $180. So, I mean, it's not like I'm retiring from towing. But I'm not going to lie, I sat at that table for like four hours, and I felt more alive than I had in a long time. It's like I knew what I was doing.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, I think you're going to find that a poker room, wherever you are in New Mexico, is a very different experience than if you were going to play with professionals in Vegas or anywhere else there were professionals. 180? That's a nice little win. But anybody can win once in a while. We call that beginner's luck. You're going to need a poker strategy. How much money do you have for your bankroll? Like, how much can you afford to lose before you're working off your own money?
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+LEON: No, you're absolutely right. And I know that. I'm not delusional about it. But here's the thing. The guys I beat on Saturday, some of them weren't chumps either.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, and that's great. Congratulations. But I'm trying to push you in the right direction here, sir, and you're not going with me. What stakes are you playing with at? Like, what's your game?
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+LEON: Okay, okay, fair. I hear you. Right now, I'm playing micro-stakes online, like $2, $5 stuff, and I've been studying, I'm not going to lie, way harder than I ever studied Python.
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+LUKE: Okay, and what are you studying? Are you studying the old Doyle Bronson books? Are you studying GTO? What is your strategy for learning and improving and being a professional poker player? If you're not going to... When I gave you that advice, when I told you it's not too late to start anything, I meant to start something. So just going to play poker at a card room on a Thursday is not starting something.
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+LEON: Yeah, yeah, okay, that's fair. That stings a little, but that's fair.
+
+LUKE: Well, congratulations on your journey here. I hope it goes well for you, and you already got a win under your belt, and that's nice. But it's going to be a long road, a lot of grinding. And if you want to be successful at poker, you're going to have to have a plan. And it sounds like you don't. So I recommend buckling down and seeing how the pros do it and follow a strategy.
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+LEON: I hear you, Luke. I do. And I'm not going to lie. I've been thinking about this a lot since last time we talked. I've been watching some of those poker training videos, the ones where they break down hands and talk about ranges and all that. It's a lot.
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+LUKE: Yeah, it's a lot, and it sounds like you don't quite understand it. So before you get into a position where your life is on the line on a poker game, I recommend getting these basic fundamental, at least a poker words, you know, the language, get this under your belt.
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+LEON: No. You're right. You're right. And honestly, I'm not going to lie. I called tonight thinking you were going to be a little more excited for me about the $180, and I was going to feel good about myself and go to bed. And instead, you're kind of doing what my daughter does, which is just cut right through it.
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+LUKE: Well, you can still feel good about yourself. You want money in a poker game, and that's pretty cool. But we're talking about your life and career going forward, and $180 in a poker game isn't going to pay your mortgage.
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+LEON: No! No, it's not. And Amber would, she would have something to say about that if I suggested otherwise. So here's the thing. Here's why I actually called tonight. I dropped the boot camp.
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+LUKE: Yeah, you told me that. You dropped the boot camp because you're going to follow your poker dream.
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+LEON: No, no. I dropped it because I got into UNM. Full ride. They saw my work history. They saw my age. They saw that I was serious.
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+LUKE: Oh, I'm sorry. I thought I was under the impression that you dropped the boot camp to become a poker professional. But if you're just doing this as a hobby for fun and you want $180, congratulations, you can feel good about yourself and go to bed. But also, congratulations for your entry into UN&M. What is it for? A full ride for what?
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+LEON: Computer science. Full ride. And I'm not going to lie, Luke. I'm scared shitless. I got the letter today, and I just sat in my truck in the parking lot at work and work and read it three times. And then I called Amber, and she just started crying. And I don't know if it was happy crying or terrified crying, but I think it was both.
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+LUKE: Either way, it will be an adventure, and you've got yourself a full ride to being unemployed. Congratulations. Are you ready for the trivia?
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+LEON: Wait, wait, wait, wait. Hold on.
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+LUKE: All right. That was Leon. Leon's a tough one. He calls in sometimes and he just wants me to tell him everything's great. And everything's not great. Oh, good for you. You went to a poker room. You played a tournament and you got lucky. That doesn't mean you're good at poker. That means you bet 40 bucks and won. Okay, next. Heather, Heather, welcome to the show. What's going on, Heather? Thanks for calling in. Happy fake Fat Tuesday. Today is the Fat Tuesday for people that fell asleep during Fat Tuesday. I've got some trivia for you. Are you ready for your question?
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+HEATHER: Oh, I'll do the trivia, sure, but okay, I have to say something first because I've been sitting here for like 40 minutes waiting to get on, and I will absolutely lose my mind if I don't say it. I just told my mom no. Like, to her face. Well, on the phone. But I said no to my mom tonight, and I feel like I committed an actual crime.
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+LUKE: What did you say no about?
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+HEATHER: She called me three hours ago asking if I could loan her $400 for a furnace repair. And I said no. I said the actual word no to my mother, who is cold, Luke. She's cold right now, potentially. And I'm sitting here in the dark at work feeling like the worst person in New Mexico.
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+LUKE: Well, why did you say no, over 400 bucks, if your mother is freezing in New Mexico?
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+HEATHER: Because I am 17 thousand dollars in debt and I literally do not have four hundred dollars. Like, that's not a figure of speech. I have maybe 80 bucks until Friday.
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+LUKE: Okay, well then you can't give her the money. No big deal. You've got to say no. If you don't have the money to give her, you can't say yes. That would be strange. And then, you know, when she comes to get the money, you don't have it.
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+HEATHER: Oh, that'd be even worse.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I bet you would feel like a silly goose. So it sounds to me like you did the right thing.
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+HEATHER: No, I know, I know you're right. Logically, I know that. But like, Okay, here's the thing. My mom is not great at taking care of herself. Like, she's getting older and she's getting smaller, if that makes sense. And I'm watching that happen, and I can't, I just feel like saying no to her is the same as saying, I can't take care of you. And that feels really bad at 25.
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+LUKE: Well, you're 25. You don't have the money to support your parents financially. That's not strange. You can do what you can to take care of her. Do you have a warm place that she can go? Where do you live?
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+HEATHER: I mean, I'm at work right now. I do overnights at a group home, so yeah, I'm warm. She's over in, she's not that far. She's maybe 40 minutes away. And I'm sure she's fine. She probably has space heaters or whatever. I'm not saying she's actually freezing to death. I'm saying I feel like she might be, and I can't do anything about it even if she was.
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+LUKE: Well, that's a shitty place to be, but if that's where you're at, that's where you're at. You're going to have to continue working on your own life first. Make sure you can get it on your feet before you can support anybody else, even your parents. If there's something you can do to help, then great. If you can help her maybe get funding from different sources or look for, I don't know, churches that can help or, you know, get her tied into the community and any sort of health care benefits that she's eligible for, you can help her in that way. But if you don't have the money yourself, then you don't have the money for her and that's, you don't have to feel bad about that. Just do your best.
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+HEATHER: Yeah. Yeah, no, that's... Okay, the church thing actually isn't a bad idea, and I don't know why I didn't think of that. There's probably resources. I think I've just been so in my own head about it that I went straight to I failed her. Instead of like, okay, what else can we do?
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+LUKE: Yeah, I think a lot of people do that. And the thing is, it's not about you. That's a very common thing. Everybody makes everything about themselves. And this isn't about you. If you can help, then help. And there's lots of different resources out there that are available. You just got to track them down. If you're good at searching on the computer and stuff, then you have a better chance to find them than she does. But ask around, you work at a group home, so I'm sure that you're familiar with a big list of resources for housing and heating and phone assistance and utilities, all that jazz. So you can get her as settled as you can and do the best you can and don't feel bad when you can't take care of her, because the truth is it was her responsibility to take care of herself.
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+HEATHER: That last part hit different. Yeah. I mean, yeah. Yeah. I mean, yeah. No, honestly, it's true. And I think that's the part I've been avoiding saying out loud because it feels mean. But like, she's a grown woman and I'm her kid. And somewhere along the way that got flipped around, and I've just been accepting that as normal.
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+LUKE: Well, it's not as black and white as that. So I don't know your situation. I don't know your mother. I don't know if she has mental health issues or physical ailments or what the history is there. All I know is you're 25 years old. You're getting on your feet and you can't hold yourself responsible for the well-being of a grown adult that had 60 years to get themselves on the correct financial footing. So now that we're through that, you can feel all right. It's time for trivia. Are you ready for the trivia?
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+HEATHER: Wait, trivia? Okay. Yeah. I'm, yeah, hit me. I've been sitting in the dark for three hours. I might as well win something.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, you're not going to win anything, but we just want to hear your answer. So, a Sicilian immigrant invented a famous New Orleans sandwich in 1906 at the Central Grocery. What is it called?
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+HEATHER: Oh, that's easy. The muffilletta. My grandpa used to get them from this little place over in, well, it's not there anymore, but back in the day. He'd bring one home and it'd feed us for three days.
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+LUKE: All right. All right. Well, thank you for the call. Do your best with your mom. Try and help her out if you can. Don't take too much responsibility. And make sure that you're putting your own oxygen mask on first. That was the correct answer. I've never had a muffletta. I don't know where a muffletta is, but it sounds gross. Anyway, it's about time for a word from our sponsors. All right, folks. It's time to take a break to thank today's sponsor. The leader in Maple-based Marmalade. If your toast has been living in a bland little studio apartment of flavor, it's time to move into the luxury suite.
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+LUKE: We're talking maple-based marmalade. Plus, marmalade-related products, because apparently Jam Hospitality asked, what if breakfast had a brand ecosystem? Go to www.myfavoritmarmalade.com and use code jam it in you for 15% off. That's Jam it in you, like jam it in you, but legally distinct and emotionally complex. Jam hospitality. Put it on toast. Put it on pancakes. Put it on your confidence. That's www. my favorite marmalade.com. Tell him Luke sent you. You're welcome. All right, and we're back. Archie. Archie, welcome to the show. How are you? Happy Fake Fat Tuesday.
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+ARCHIE: Oh, man, Luke. I'm about three cups of coffee and a half pack of camels past happy. But hey, Fake Fat Tuesday. Does that mean I could eat a king cake and still call it a salad? Yep. Because I could use the sugar rush right now. So here's the thing. I just found out my landscaping companies getting shut down in nine days. And they made me sign a non-disclosure agreement they told me. Like, here's your pink stuff. slip, here's a pen. Don't tell the guys you've been working with for three years that we're ghosting them. And tomorrow morning, I'm supposed to bid a residential job with Tommy and Jesse, guys who've got families, who think they've got work through March.
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+LUKE: Okay, so just to get it right, you signed a non-disclosure agreement, an NDA, as we like to call it in the business, to not mention anything about the landscaping company being closed because I guess you're getting paid off or something like that. They would have you sign an NDA. And the first thing you do is call a radio show and tell the world about the landscaping company. How does that work?
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+ARCHIE: Yeah. Okay. I hear you. I hear you. In my defense, I didn't use the company name. And also, it's like two in the morning and I'm sitting in a Jewel Oskow parking lot in Chicago. So I'm not exactly thinking like a lawyer right now. That's actually part of a. why I'm calling. I'm trying to figure out if I even need to worry about that NDA. Because I genuinely don't know if what they made me sign is even legal. Like, can a company actually make you sign something that says you can't warn your co-workers that they're about to get blindsided?
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+LUKE: Yes, they can. And you did sign it. So if I were you, I would keep my fucking mouth shut. But if you can't do that, it's unlikely that they would be able to be able to enforce anything on you. They're not going to sue you for telling Pablo that he doesn't have to go to work tomorrow.
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+ARCHIE: Right, right. And that's, okay, that actually makes me feel a little better. Because what are they going to do? Sue a guy who's about to be unemployed? Like, come after my 2009 F-150 in my collection of gas station sunglasses. Good luck. But here's the part that's actually keeping me up at night, Luke. It's not even the NDA.
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+LUKE: Okay, what is it?
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+ARCHIE: It's Tommy and Jesse. Because tomorrow morning at 8 o'clock, I'm supposed to sit across from these two guys at a diner and walk them through a bit on a residential project. Let them measure square footage and talk about mulch prices and act like they've got six weeks of work lined up. And I know the second they cut me loose, the company's going to ghost that contract. Like it just disappears. And these guys are going to be standing in some homeowner's driveway. wondering what happened.
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+LUKE: Well, for your meeting tomorrow, are Tommy and Jesse being compensated for their time?
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+ARCHIE: That's, ha. I mean, no. No, it's a bid. Nobody gets paid to bid a job. You show up. You measure. You talk numbers. You hope you get the work. So they're not losing money tomorrow exactly. They're just, they're losing time they could spend, lining something else up.
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+LUKE: you're sick tomorrow and that's how you handle it. You know?
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+ARCHIE: Oh, I thought about that. I really did. But here's the thing. Tommy's got a kid with asthma. And Jesse's wife just got laid off from the school district. They're counting on this. And if I don't show up, they're going to think I'm flaking on them. And then they'll be scrambling to find another crew to bid with. And that's just, that's another week of uncertainty for them. And I can't do that.
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+LUKE: Well, you can't do that. that. And it sounds to me like you don't really have to do anything here. It's not you closing down the company. And you promised the company in writing that you wouldn't tell anybody. So if you have any sort of pension or severance package on the line here, I think that's what you would risk by breaking the NDA.
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+ARCHIE: Yeah, no, you're right. And I know you're right. And I know you're right. There's no pension. I'm a landscaper, Luke. Not a longshoreman. But there is severance. And honestly, I think that's the only reason I signed the thing in the first place. Like they put the paper in front of me and I just, I signed it. Monday afternoon still had dirt under my fingernails. And I just signed it.
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+LUKE: Well, then you're in the position you're in. And you can't worry about everybody else. So I would, if I were you, I would start looking for a new employment opportunity.
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+ARCHIE: Yeah. Yeah, that's. I know. No. And I've been doing that. Or I've been telling myself I've been doing that. But mostly what I've been doing is driving around Juulosco parking lots at midnight. So, you know, productivity's been high.
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+LUKE: All right. Well, you know what you've got to do now. And now it's time for fake Fat Tuesday trivia. Are you ready?
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+ARCHIE: Oh, yeah. Sure. Hit me. I'm already in a parking lot at midnight. I got nowhere to be.
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+LUKE: New Orleans hosts the oldest continuously running gay Mardi Gras crew in the country. What's it called?
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+ARCHIE: Oh, man. I have absolutely no idea. The Beads and Boas?
+
+LUKE: No, sir. It's actually called the Crew of Yuga, founded in 1958. How progressive. Thank you for the call, sir. I'm sorry to hear about your situation at work. If I were you. I would keep my mouth shut and honor the NDA and try to help, try and help out your friends as much as you can in some other way after they get the news. All right, we're moving on. Thank you again for the call. Misty, Misty, welcome to the show. How are you tonight?
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+MISTY: Not great, Luke. I came home from Tucson tonight, and my brother threw a party in my house while I was gone. destroyed the place.
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+LUKE: And destroyed how? How bad?
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+MISTY: Soaked carpet, cracked flat screen, boot-shaped hole in my bathroom drywall, and someone ripped the handle clean off my refrigerator. Like, the handle, off the refrigerator.
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+LUKE: Oh, that's not good. What is the carpet soaked in?
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+MISTY: You know what, Luke? I did not investigate that closely, and I am choosing not to think about it right now.
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+LUKE: Okay, and what's your brother have to say for himself?
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+MISTY: He woke up confused, like genuinely confused why I was upset, said it was just a few people, just a few people from animus, tore through my house, and he's looking at me like I'm the unreasonable one.
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+LUKE: Well, those animus people are pretty rowdy. I'll give him that. And it sounds like your house is trash pretty good, and he's going to have to have a better answer than that. So is he going to help you pay for the damages and the repairs?
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+MISTY: Oh, he, like, real generous. He said he'd help me out with some of it. But Travis's idea of helping out is showing up with a case of beer and a shop vac he borrowed from his buddy's uncle. He doesn't have a job, Luke. He's been between gigs since last summer, which in Travis speak means he's been living off my leftover takeout and whatever he can scam off his friends. And now he's got the nerve to act like I'm being dramatic.
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds to me like it might be time. to cut some ties with your brother. You know, let him, let him figure out his own thing and stop their own parties at your house. Because, uh, you shouldn't have to support a grown-ass man.
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+MISTY: No, and that's the thing. I know you're right, and I've known your right for a while now. But he's my brother, you know, like our mom passed three years ago, and it's kind of just been us since then.
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+LUKE: Well, just to help you out, because this is the kind of guy I am, I'm going to give you a shot at redemption, all right? I got an easy one for you. You ready?
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+MISTY: Okay, yes. Yes. Give it to me. I'm ready. I'm ready. I'm focused.
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+LUKE: That's what she said. Okay, the song, House of the Rising Sun, is about a New Orleans establishment. What kind of place is it?
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+MISTY: A brothel.
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+LUKE: That is correct. Congratulations. Redemption. Hold on. We got to play the correct sound so you can get the full experience. All right. Nice job.
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+MISTY: Oh, thank God. Okay. Yes. I needed that. I was sitting here, sweating and my truck.
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+LUKE: All right, Misty. Thanks for the call. Sorry, your place got trashed. It's time to get your brother out of there and move on with your life. So that doesn't happen again. So I hope you can get it all cleaned up and investigate what the carpet is soaked with. Maybe replace that carpet. And now, folks, it's time for another word from our sponsors. This episode is brought to you by Nile Nosh. Meal kit for people who've given up but still need to eat something. Look, we're not going to promise that it'll change your life. You're still going to die alone. But at least you can spend your remaining Tuesday evenings chopping vegetables you can't pronounce. Each box contains three meals that take 45 minutes to make when they could have taken eight because suffering is the only authentic human experience. This week's menu, Horissa glazed despair with quinoa, panseered regret over arugula, and our customer favorite, chicken thighs with preserved lemon and unprocessed drama. Use code void at checkout for 15% off your first box. That's code void, because we're all just screaming into one. Nile Nosh. You got to eat something. Might as well be complicated. Okay. And we're back. Next up on the line, we've got Chenequah. Chenequah, thanks for calling. And happy fake fat Tuesday.
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+CHENEQUAH: Ha, happy fake fat Tuesday to you. You too, Luke. Okay, so I hit somebody's car last month and drove away. And now I see that car everywhere. And I think the universe is absolutely torturing me for it.
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+LUKE: As it should be. What are you going to do about that? You're just going to live with it?
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+CHENEQUAH: That's the thing. I don't know. Like I keep telling myself I'm going to do something. And then I just don't. And I'm a social worker, Luke. 33 years. I sit across people every single day and tell them the hard thing is always the right thing.
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+LUKE: Well, do you have insurance?
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+CHENEQUAH: I do. Yeah. Full coverage. Which actually makes this worse, right?
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+LUKE: Yeah, it does. So I don't know what you're calling in looking for me to tell you. Obviously, what you should do is talk to the owner of the vehicle that you hit and make it right. That's the right thing to do. That's what you should do. And not doing that is a crime. And it makes you a bad person.
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+CHENEQUAH: Oh, I know I'm a bad person, Luke. That's not the part I'm struggling with. I'm a bad person. I just... I want to do the right thing. Sorry, I fumbled that. I want to do it. I know exactly what I need to do it. I know exactly what I need to do. I just, every time I see that car, I kind of freeze up and then I drive past it, and then I hate myself for the next two hours.
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+LUKE: Do you know the owner of the car?
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+CHENEQUAH: No, that's the thing. I don't know who it is. I mean, I know it's a white Nissan with a crumpled bumper and a cracked tail light, but I don't know who owns it.
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+LUKE: Well, here's what I think you should do. I think you should take yourself down to the police station, explain what happens, say you panicked, and come clean about the situation in case maybe they're looking for someone. So you can save a lot of people a lot of time and then help the owner of that vehicle get it fixed through your insurance.
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+CHENEQUAH: Yeah. Yeah. I know you're right. And the thing is, and I know how this sounds, but I keep driving past that police station too. Like, I have driven past it.
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+LUKE: Okay. Well, what would you like me to tell you?
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+CHENEQUAH: I don't know, Luke. I don't know what I'm calling for. I just, I keep seeing that car. It's like it's me store and there it is. I'll be at the clinic where I work. And there it is.
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds like you've got a lot of opportunities to make things right. So it's about time you do that. Hey, we're doing trivia and I've got a trivia question for you. Are you ready? Since you clearly don't have anything else to talk about?
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+CHENEQUAH: Oh, God. Okay, yeah. Hit me. I deserve that.
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+LUKE: Okay. What New Orleans cocktail was invented at the Roosevelt Hotel Bar and is made with cream, orange flower water, and soda.
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+CHENEQUAH: Oh, that's easy. It's a Sazirac, right? Wait, no, that's not right. The Sazirac doesn't have cream or soda. Hmm. Wait, is it a Viochere? No, that's got cognac and vermouth.
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+LUKE: No, it is the Ramos gin fizz, and it requires 12 minutes of shaking. Bartenders used to form relay teams just to mix one of them. All right. Thank you for the call, Shaniqua. You're going to have to do the right thing or not do the right thing, one way or the other. But either way, you're a horrible person, and we appreciate your call. Okay, thank you, Shaniqua. Next up, we got Curtis. Curtis, welcome to the show. Happy fake fat Tuesday.
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+CURTIS: Hey, Luke. Thanks, man. So, my sister has been on dialysis for 18 months, and I just read that their 3D printing kidneys now, and nobody at her clinic has said a single word about it.
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+LUKE: Okay, maybe they don't have the ability to 3D print a kidney in your particular clinic.
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+CURTIS: This is nowhere in New Mexico. We don't really have the best medical equipment here. No, I hear you. But this wasn't in New Mexico. This was Baltimore. That's even worse. A woman in Baltimore got one. And I'm sitting here at the Flying J at two in the morning thinking, okay, so this exists. This is how to do you happening? Why does nobody at the dialysis clinic even mention it? Like is Denise supposed to just keep driving four hours round trip to Albuquerque three times a week forever? Or is there actually something out there?
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+LUKE: I think driving four hours round trip to Albuquerque three times a week forever is the business model, sir. So yes, that's exactly what they wanted to do. There may be something out there.
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+LUKE: Have you done any independent research into 3D printable kidneys? Maybe that's something that you can push for. or, you know, advocate for.
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+EARL: I wouldn't expect the medical industry to really ever push you in the right direction. That's not how they get paid.
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+LUKE: No, that's, yeah, that's a dark way to look at it, but I don't think you're wrong.
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+EARL: And honestly, that's kind of what's eating at me. Like I read this one article on my phone between customers tonight, and now I don't know if I'm holding on to something real or if I just found the one hopeful thing on the internet at three in the morning and I'm running with it. Because I won't. want to. You know what I mean? Like, is this actually close or is this a checkback in 2035 inches situation?
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+LUKE: I think it is close from similar articles that I've read about hearts and replacement shoulders. And I think it's very close. And the truth is 2035 is very close. So I don't know that it's going to be this year or next year. Maybe they're already doing it. I don't know. You might have to go to L.A. or something. Or, um, Boston or somewhere where, you know, they actually study medicine, not Baltimore.
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+EARL: Right, right. And that's the thing. Denise is in Arizona. She moved out there a few years back, and I'm over here in New Mexico, and she's got this clinic situation locked in, and I don't even know if she's on a transplant list. I don't know if she's looked into any of this. And now I'm the guy working the graveyard shift at a truck stop who read one article and is calling a radio show at three in the morning like I cracked the code. But somebody's got to be. paying attention, right?
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+LUKE: No. It's everybody's responsibility to pay attention when things relate to themselves. Like, it's her responsibility. But you're in a position where you're working in the night shift and you have time and you seem somewhat interested in this subject. So maybe you can use your time at work to do that research and maybe find her a better deal and be her advocate. And that would be a good use of your skills.
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+EARL: That's, yeah. Yeah, you're right. And honestly, that hits a little harder than I expected at three in the morning. Because I think part of why I'm so wound up about this is that I feel useless. Like she's the one doing the driving and the needles and the whole thing three times a week, and I'm just, I'm here.
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+LUKE: Well, you're not the one that needs the dialysis, so it makes sense that she would be doing it. And that's unfortunate. I'm not saying she deserves it or you don't deserve it. We get what we get. But in your situation, you're not the one that's sick, so it's not on you. But if you can help and you have the time to help and you have the ability to help, then that would be a good thing for you to do. And maybe you can help others as you learn more information about this.
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+EARL: No, I hear you. And I know it's not on me. But that doesn't stop me from feeling like I should be doing more. Like, I'm the one who's got the time to sit here and read articles between customers. And she's the one who's got to live with it. And I don't know. Maybe that's just how it is. But it still feels like I'm letting. her down by not knowing more.
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+LUKE: Well, you are not. It's not your responsibility to know anything about dialysis. So the fact that you even read the one article and care enough to call a radio show and talk about it says a lot. I think if you want to invest your time into helping her out, maybe you can make something happen there or at least let her know that you tried, you know, and sometimes that's enough. It's a horrible thing that people have to go through. And hopefully future soon. They can 3D print new parts for people when they fail. That's, I think, what we're all hoping for.
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+EARL: Yeah. Yeah, man. I hope so too.
+
+LUKE: Okay, so we're doing fake Fat Tuesday trivia. I've got a question for you. Are you ready?
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+EARL: Oh, I'm ready. Hit me. I got nothing but time out here.
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+LUKE: All right. New Orleans is known for second lines. What exactly is a second line?
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+EARL: Okay, so a second line is basically this wild, unplanned parade that happens after a funeral in New Orleans. The main funeral procession is all somber and formal, right? But then, after the burial, the family and friends, and just who wants to join, musicians, dancers, random folks off the street, all start following the band again. But this time it's a brass bands play, people dance in the street. It's all about celebrating the person's life instead of just mourning. Yeah, man, it's a pretty cool. cool thing.
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+LUKE: I don't know why other places don't do that. It's just a big party when somebody dies. So everybody mourns real quick and then everybody parties behind them. That's the way it should be. And it's a cool thing that New Orleans does. And we appreciate the city of New Orleans for that.
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+EARL: Hell yeah, that's the spirit. I mean, if you're going to go, might as well go out with a brass band and a two-step, right? None of this quiet, sad funeral nonsense. Just send them off with a good time.
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+LUKE: you and thanks for the call. Don't feel too bad about your involvement and your sister's medical procedures. She's going to have to go through what she has to go through. And if you can help, great, do what you can. But don't take it upon yourself to be responsible because it's not on you. You're not her caregiver. And anything you do is you trying to help. We got one more caller today. And our caller is Carmen. Carmen, thanks for calling in. It's a Big Fat Tuesday, you're the last caller of the night. I've got some trivia for you. Are you ready for it?
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+CARMEN: Wait, hold on. Before you hit me with trivia, can I just? I just pulled my clarinet out of a closet for the first time in 10 years, and I don't know what to do about it.
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+LUKE: Well, how about you play us a little ditty?
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+CARMEN: I wish. I opened the case and just kind of stared at it. I don't even know if it's still in playable, can't.
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+LUKE: How long you play the clarinet for?
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+CARMEN: From when I was about nine until I was 18. So almost 10 years. I was good, Luke.
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+LUKE: You play the clarinet for 10 years and you don't know by looking at one if it's in playable condition?
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+CARMEN: Okay, fair. The reeds are probably shot. The pads might be dried out. I know what to look for. I just haven't let myself actually look yet. I've been sitting here with the case open for like an hour, just not touching it.
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+LUKE: Okay, why aren't you touching it? If you pulled it out, you obviously want to play, you're thinking about it again. You've played for 10 years, so you certainly know how. I think it's fairly easy to get reeds and replacement parts at a music shop these days. What's the problem?
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+CARMEN: Because I saw something tonight that kind of cracked me open a little bit. There's this woman, She got a scholarship to University of Arizona 28 years ago, a scholarship that I turned down. And she just posted on Instagram that she's going on a national tour with the Santa Fe Chamber Orchestra, playing the same piece I used to practice until my fingers went numb.
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+LUKE: Well, obviously, you didn't want to follow that path or you wouldn't have put the clarinet down for so long. But since you did, if it's something that you want to get back into, You still got time. You can still play that piece and you can still join an orchestra. You don't necessarily need a scholarship to a university. There are plenty of chamber orchestras that will take you.
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+CARMEN: Oh, Iyat. I wanted it so bad I could taste it. But my mom left when I was 16, and my dad was working two jobs, and my little brothers were still in elementary school. Someone had to keep things together. So I stayed home, took the community. college route and ended up working southwest routes out of Phoenix. And now my dad keeps showing up at my place unannounced since he retired, reorganizing my kitchen cabinets and asking why I never play anymore.
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+LUKE: Okay, well circumstances came up. Your life took an unexpected turn and you dealt with it. And now you're at a different place. You obviously are self-supporting.
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+LUKE: Your father is retired. And you can get back into the clarinet. If you want to, if it still calls to you, then it's not something that you're going to forget. It's there for the rest of your life. And if an orchestra is something that you want to be a part of, you can absolutely do that.
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+CALLER: I know. I know you're right. And that's almost the scarier part, right? Like, it's not impossible. There's a community orchestra over in Las Cruces. I've driven past their sign a hundred times. Terrible. If 28 years did what 28 years does, then I have to actually grieve something.
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+LUKE: Well, hey, I mean, realistically, you're going to pick that up. You are going to be terrible in comparison to how you were 20 years ago. But you'll pick it up quickly. You just got to put in the time. And if you love the clarinet, then you have no problem putting in the time. And you'll get back up to speed. You get your chops back. And I'm sure that the last cruis orchestra is not, um, not, I don't want to say not great, but I mean, your ability level will probably fit in well with a smaller orchestra like that.
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+CALLER: Huh. No. That's okay. That's actually really funny and also probably true. And kind of a relief. Like, I'm not trying to get to Carnegie Hall. I just want to play again. I just want to play again. I just want to feel that thing again where you're so inside the music that everything else just
+
+LUKE: Well, you can do that. You've got that clarinet right there. All you got to do is run down to the music store, get some reeds. If you don't have a music store, then order them online. But they're not expensive. You know what you need to do. Pick up the clarinet and play some music and do that every day for a while. Get your chops back up and then think about joining that orchestra because there's nothing cooler than listening to an orchestra.
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+CALLER: Yeah, yeah, you're right. And honestly, the clarinet's right here in front of me. I've been staring at it for an hour, like it's going to bite me. My dad's going to lose his mind when he finds out, by the way. He's going to show up and reorganize my living room and take full credit for it somehow.
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+LUKE: Hey, good for him. You know, he's got to get some small wins.
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+CALLER: That's okay. That's fair. He does. He really does. The man raised three kids by himself. And now he's retired and lonely and showing up at my place moving my spice rack around. Let him have it. But, okay, I have a question for you.
+
+LUKE: All right. Hit me with it. What's your question?
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+CALLER: Do I play it tonight? Like right now, after we hang up? Because it's almost, what, one in the morning? I've got a flight out of Phoenix tomorrow. But I'm sitting here. And the case is open and I just, I kind of want to.
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+LUKE: Well, you said that it had dried out reeds and it may not be in playable condition, but if you can play it, yeah, sure, you should. But it's not one in the morning. It's closer to quarter of four in the morning. And you're calling Luke at the Roost. It's our fake fat Tuesday special. And I have a question for you now. It's my turn. Are you ready for my question?
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+CALLER: Quarter of four? Oh my God. I have to be up in. Okay. Yes. Yeah. Hit me with your question. I'm ready.
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+LUKE: Okay. What is a neutral ground in New Orleans? And why is it called that?
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+CALLER: Oh. Oh, no. Okay. Um, is it the median?
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+LUKE: It is the median. You're correct. Canal Street once served as the boundary between Creole and American settlements. In the middle was considered a neutral territory. So that's why they call it neutral territory. Thank you for the call. Congratulations on your newfound reinvigoration into music. I hope that goes well for you and that you get into that orchestra. We'll talk to you a little bit later. That's the end of our show.

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+LUKE: Okay, welcome back to the show. It's Luke at the Roost. Tonight is Wednesday, February 18th. It's 11.11 p.m. And we're in a windstorm here in the desert inanimate, but that's not going to stop us. Little wind never stopped a good radio show. That's what I always say. If you'd like to call into the show, our numbers 208-439-58-3. That's 208-439 Luke. and you'd like to participate, you can send us an email. Our email address is submissions at lukeatsderoose.com. So, that all being said, I hope everybody's having a good night out there tonight. We're going to get right to our show. First up, on the show, we've got Chester. Chester's calling in. What's going on in your life, Chester?
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+CHESTER: Luke, hey, so I just finished about an hour ago, and I'm sitting here at work absolutely wrecked. And I got to ask you something about it, about this. I work nights at the prison down in Donia Ana County, and I read the last chunk of it during my rounds tonight. Father and son pushing a shopping cart through literal apocalypse, right? And the father would die for this kid. Does die for this kid, basically. And here's the thing. My girlfriend Sarah is up in Albuquerque, and I drive three hours each way every other Friday to see her. Been doing it for eight months. Okay, so where's the thing? canceled on me. Always some excuse. Works crazy. My roommate needs me, whatever. And I'm sitting there in B Block at two in the morning with tears in my eyes because Cormac McCarthy just destroyed me with this father who'd walk through fire, and I'm thinking, I'm the one doing all the walking here. She won't even meet me halfway in Socorro.
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+LUKE: Well, maybe she's not the right one, or she's not that interested in you, or she's busy. Her life could be busy. You don't know. What's her life like? Does she have other responsibilities she's got to take care of? Does she not have the money to pay for the gas, maybe? There's a lot of reasons she might not be able to meet you halfway. Are you talking about the road?
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+CHESTER: Yeah, the road. Sorry, should have said that up front. And look, she's a manager at a brew pub, makes decent money, drives a newer Tacoma than mine, no kids, no sick parents, nothing like that. I've asked her straight up, can we split the drive sometimes? And she just says Albuquerque's better because there's more to do. All her friends are there, which, fine. But then don't cancel on me four times because your roommate's having boy problems where you picked up an extra shift you didn't have to pick up. And here's what's eating at me. The father in the book, he's got nothing.
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds like maybe she's not the right one for you or you're not the right one for her. And if you're looking for more from her and you're not getting it, then move on, that's all.
+
+CHESTER: Yeah, yeah, you're right. I know you're right. It's just I keep making excuses for her the same way I'm sitting here defending her to you right now. Oh, works busy Albuquerque's better. Like I'm trying to convince myself.
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+LUKE: What's your situation? Like, where do you live? What's your environment?
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+CHESTER: I'm in Los Cruces. Got a little one bedroom off Lohman, nothing fancy, but it's mine. Work overnight at the prison three, four nights a week, depending on the schedule. Been there two years.
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+LUKE: Okay, so you're in Las Cruces. There's plenty of people around there. be too hard to do.
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+CHESTER: I mean, yeah, there's people. But I don't know, man. I work nights, sleep days, my social life is basically non-existent. Most of the guys I work with are married or they're 20 years older than me. I'm 28.
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+LUKE: Yeah, you're 28 in Las Cruces, New Mexico. You can throw up a little Tinder ad and see who bites. But are you in love with this girl?
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+CHESTER: No, that's the thing. I'm not. me so hard tonight because the father in it he loves that kid so much he'd die for him without thinking twice.
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+LUKE: Don't they eat people in that book?
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+CHESTER: Yeah they do. There's these roving gangs. They keep people in basements like livestock. It's brutal, but that's what makes the father's love for the kid so, I don't know. Pure? He's protecting him from all that.
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+LUKE: Well maybe you should eat a little more of her and she'd be more inclined to come visit.
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+CHESTER: Jesus, Luke. Okay, fair point. But honestly, last time she was down here, things were...
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+LUKE: Things were what?
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+CHESTER: Off. Like, we had sex, but it felt like she was checking a box, you know? And then she spent half the weekend on her phone texting her friends in Albuquerque. I'm driving six hours round trip every other Friday to feel like an obligation.
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+LUKE: Yeah, don't do it anymore. I mean, you're not in love with the chick. She's really far away. of women around you. You can move on or not. You know, it's okay being single too. It sounds like you don't really keep a consistent, well, I mean, you don't keep a normal daytime schedule like most people. So when do you have time to spend time with her?
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+CHESTER: That's exactly it. I don't. My days off are like Tuesday and Wednesday. She works a normal job, nine to five. So even when I drive up there, she's got brunch plans with her girlfriends on Saturday, or she's tired from her week, and I'm sitting in her apartment waiting for her to have time for me.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that's disrespectful, so, I mean, you should just cut that out. There's no reason you should be doing that. She's obviously not into you.
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+CHESTER: You're right. I know you're right. It's just, I keep thinking if I just try harder, show up more, be more understanding about her schedule, then she'll, but that's the thing with the book, read the book.
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+LUKE: I saw the movie and all I remember from it was that they ate people.
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+CHESTER: Yeah, they do. There's these roving gangs. They keep people in basements like livestock. You already said that. It's brutal. But that's what makes the father's love for the kids so, I don't know, pure. He's protecting him from all that.
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+LUKE: Okay, so break up with your girlfriend because you don't have time and she doesn't have time and you're not into each other and there's no reason to be spending the gas money. That's what I say to you. Break up with the girl.
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+CHESTER: Yeah, yeah, you're right. I'll do it. I'm not driving up there this Friday.
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+LUKE: All right, good for you. You do it. That's, that's, uh, that's the can-do spirit that we look for here at Luke at the Roost. Next up on the radio show, we have Terry, Terry, welcome to the show. What's going on? Do you eat people?
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+TERRY: Oh, Jesus. No, what? No, I'm a nurse. I mean, I have some stuff, but sorry. I'm just sitting in my car in the hospital parking lot right now, and I'm kind of losing it. I found out three days ago that I'm adopted, and my mom, well, the woman who raised me, she's had a stroke, and I just found all these papers at her house, and I don't know what to do with this information.
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+LUKE: What are you thinking? You just found out that you're adopted, and your adopted mother, who you can call your mom, had a stroke. That's horrible. Are you around her to support and just be with her in her awful time of need?
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+TERRY: Yeah, I mean, I've been at the hospital every day. I just got off a 12-hour shift and I'm supposed to go back in to see her before I head home, but I'm sitting here in the parking lot just frozen. What were the papers?
+
+Official adoption documents dated six months after I was born, April 1980. My name, Terry Lynn, a different mother's signature, the whole thing notarized and legal. They were in a box in the back of her closet, with old tax returns.
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+LUKE: Well, all that proves is that this woman loved you, and now she's sick, and you're there to care for her, and that's a good thing. So you don't have to worry about the being adopted thing. Lots of people are adopted. As long as she took care of you, she obviously made a decision to love you and raise you, and you're a nurse now, so you've made a decision to help people sounds ideal.
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+TERRY: I know. I know that. And you're right. She raised me. She loved me. She loved me. But, Luke, it's been 44 years, 44 years of her looking at me every single day and never saying a word.
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+TERRY: Why would she say a word? She doesn't, there's nothing to say. There's nothing to say? I have a brother, Ray. He doesn't even know yet. I don't know if he's adopted to, or if it's just me. I don't know who my actual birth mother is or why she gave me up. I don't know if my dad, if he was my real dad, or if he knew.
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+LUKE: Well, there's probably a good reason for that. Your birth mother might not have wanted you to know that she existed, and your adopted mother may have just been afraid that if you learned that you were adopted, you would abandon her in favor of your birth mother who abandoned you.
+
+TERRY: Oh, God. That's, I hadn't thought about it like that. She was protecting herself from me leaving. But here's the thing. I always felt like something was off. My whole life I felt like I was performing, like I was trying to be the daughter she wanted instead of just...
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+LUKE: Instead of just what? I mean, what were you performing?
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+TERRY: I don't know. Being cheerful, being good, not being good, not causing problems. Ray was always the one who could just be himself, you know? He'd fight with her, slam doors, whatever. But I was always so careful, always trying to make sure she was happy with me.
+
+LUKE: And why do you think that is? Does she give you a reason to behave in that way?
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+TERRY: No, not really. She was never mean or anything. But I always had this feeling. And maybe this sounds crazy, it. Like I had to prove I deserve to be there.
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+LUKE: Well, I think a lot of kids feel that way, and I'm going to ask you this, and it's not to be mean, it's not to be cold, but what makes you feel like you shouldn't have had to earn it? Like, why would you just expect it?
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+TERRY: I... Wow. That's a hell of a question, Luke. I guess because she's my mom, or I thought she was.
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+LUKE: Sure, but that's a... That doesn't mean you don't have to earn affection or likeability. She's your mom, and she loved you, and she raised you, and she provided for you, and she did all the necessary things. So what is it that you were earning from her or that you felt like you had to earn from her?
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+TERRY: The feeling that I actually belonged there, that I wasn't temporary, that she wouldn't change her mind. And now I find out that's exactly what I was. Somebody else's kid that she took in.
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+LUKE: Well, no, that's not what you were, because you were there for 44 years, right? So she raised you your whole life. She didn't ever treat you as temporary.
+
+TERRY: No, you're right. She didn't, but she also never told me the truth. For 44 years, she let me think I was hers. And that feels like...
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+LUKE: Yeah, I'm sure it feels like a lot of things all at the same time, but if you try and separate yourself from the emotion of it and think about it logically and look at your life and how she treated you growing up. Was it all that bad? Does it matter, really? There are almost certainly good reasons that you were put up for adoption and that she adopted you. Maybe she couldn't have kids herself and she really wanted one. Maybe your birth mother was in a situation where she couldn't provide for you or was dying. Like, you don't know unless that's something something that you talk to her about. But I wouldn't feel like you've been wronged. It sounds, that sounds like an abundance of love to me.
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+TERRY: I hear what you're saying, Luke. I do, but she's had a stroke. She might not wake up. And if she doesn't, I'll never know why she didn't tell me. I'll never know who my birth mother was or why she gave me up. And Ray, my brother. He doesn't know any of this yet.
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+LUKE: So she had a stroke. She's in potentially the worst situation of her entire life and you're worried about whether you know why she gave you up or not. Like, why? It doesn't seem important.
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+TERRY: Because I spent my whole life feeling like something was off and now I know I was right. And yeah, maybe that makes me selfish when she's lying in a hospital bed, but I can't just turn off 44 years of wondering why I never quite fit.
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+LUKE: Well, why you felt like you never quite fit has nothing to do with her. That's entirely a you thing.
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+TERRY: That's not fair, Luke. How is it entirely a me thing when she kept this massive secret my entire life? When every time I looked in the mirror and didn't see her face looking back, every time someone said I didn't act like family, she could have just told me the truth and she chose not to.
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+LUKE: Because that's not a thing. People don't act like family. That's all about upbringing and your social environment. It doesn't have anything to do with your blood. People that are biologically related don't act a certain way because they're biologically related. They act a certain way because they grew up together. They share an intense, long-lasting life experience like you do with this woman who is in the hospital right now and your brother. And there's no reason you have to think any more about it there's nothing more to it than that. She loved you. You might not know what happened or why, but you can choose to go about the rest of your life with the understanding that you were loved and that there was likely a good reason in your best interest for the way those things played out.
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+TERRY: You're probably right. I know you're probably right, but sitting here in this parking lot looking at those adoption papers with someone else's signature where my mother should be, I keep thinking about all the times I asked her why I was so different. Why I was bad at the things Ray was good at.
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+LUKE: Because you're a different person than Ray. You know, it has nothing to do with who raised you or who your mother was.
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+TERRY: Okay, but then why hide it? If it doesn't matter, if blood doesn't matter, why not just tell me when I was 10 or 15 or 20? Why let me find out now like this, going through her files? Because she might die. That's what I can't get past.
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+LUKE: Because there could be a good reason for that. Your birth mother may have... That could have been a stipulation, like a non-disclosure agreement. There could be a very good reason that you don't know who that was.
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+TERRY: Oh, God. I didn't even think about that. Like maybe my birth mother didn't want to be found. Or there was something...
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+LUKE: Correct. And you can never know unless you can have that conversation with your mom. And you might not get that conversation. And if you think about it, logically, what would change in your life today if you had different information?
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+TERRY: Nothing would change. That's the thing that's killing me, Luke. I'd still be sitting in this parking lot in my scrubs. I'd still have worked a 12-hour shift. Ray would still be Ray.
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+LUKE: Exactly. Ray would still be Ray. Nothing would change. She would still be your mom. She would still be in the hospital. You would still be working, and everything would be exactly the same. So it really doesn't matter whether you know who your birth mother is or not. You could do one of those DNA test things or a genealogy situation. I don't know if that can go down to your actual birth parents. But why? Like, what is the point? It sounds like you had a decent upbringing. You're a grown adult with your own life now and maybe you feel like you don't fit in, but that's an unrelated problem to this.
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+TERRY: You're right. I mean, she raised me. She was there for every scraped knee, every bad boyfriend. Every time I called her crying about something stupid. That's what matters. Not some signature on a piece of paper I found in a filing cabinet.
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+LUKE: Exactly. And what matters is that she is in the hospital and she may not recover and you may not recover only have a little bit of time left with her. So I would wipe this from your mind and go spend time with your mom.
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+TERRY: Yeah. Yeah, you're right. I should go back in there. I've been sitting out here for almost an hour, just...
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+LUKE: Yep, you should go back in there. So do that.
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+TERRY: Okay, I will. Thank you, Luke. I really needed to hear that.
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+LUKE: You are very welcome, and I wish you all the best of luck. I hope she makes a full recovery. And then you can put this behind you and move on with your life. And with that, folks, it's time for a word from our sponsors.
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+TRAVIS: Hey, Luke. Thanks for taking my call. So I'm sitting here in my dark room, trying to work. And two hours ago, my daughter shows me this video that's been going around her school since Monday. me, my face, my voice, telling a room full of kids that the Navajo Nation doesn't deserve water rights. Except, I never said that. Someone took footage from different talks I've given and stitched it together to make me say the exact opposite of everything I actually believe.
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+LUKE: Well, that's pretty insane, and it's hard to believe anybody would say that. So, um, who do you think might have done this?
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+TRAVIS: I mean, that's the thing. I've been documenting pipeline construction and transmission lines for environmental groups and tribal councils for 15 years. I've testified against energy companies. I've worked with the Navajo Water Rights Commission. So take your pick, you know. Could be some kid who thinks it's funny. Could be someone with an actual axe to grind.
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+LUKE: That doesn't sound like a thing a kid would actually even know about or know to do. So it seems more likely to me that that's one of your enemies trying to slander you in front of children?
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+TRAVIS: It doesn't make a lot of sense. You're right, it doesn't. I mean, what ninth grade even knows who I am or cares about water rights litigation. But here's what's messing with my head. My daughter said kids are commenting on it, sharing it around. And I'm sitting here thinking, okay, if this is some coordinated thing, from an energy company or a PR firm, why target a school presentation?
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+LUKE: Yeah, there's a few strange things about where you're saying here. I don't think a video like that would go viral with high school kids. Maybe it would. I don't know. I've been out of high school for a while, so it just seems uninteresting to them. So do you have any known enemies? And do you have a relationship with the Navajo Nation?
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+TRAVIS: Yeah, I work with them pretty regularly, or I did. I've got contacts at the Water Rights Commission. I've photographed documentation for their legal cases. I've been out to Window Rock probably a dozen times in the last three years. As for enemies, I mean, there's the San Juan Coal Company. They weren't thrilled when my photos ended up in that lawsuit last year. There's a fracking outfit near Farmington that tried to get an injunction against me for trespassing on what they claimed was private land. But here's what I keep coming back to. If someone wanted to discredit me with the people I actually work with, with the tribal councils, or the environmental groups, they'd send it to.
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+LUKE: Yeah, absolutely. So you obviously have worked with the Navajo for a long time. You've got relationships in their council, I'm sure, and they know that you didn't say that, right? They're going to believe you when you say this wasn't me. I think at this point, everybody recognizes that this is possible and not that hard to do. So if there's a video of you saying something that is clearly against everything that you've ever stood for in your whole career, I think it should be pretty hard to dismiss. Strange to think about the why somebody would do this. What is the intention behind it?
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+TRAVIS: That's what's keeping me up, man, because you're right. The people who know me know me, they'll know it's fake. But my daughter's sitting there scrolling through comments from kids saying, wow, what a racist and this guy's trash. And she's like, embarrassed. She asked me if I actually said it. And I'm thinking, okay, maybe that's not about destroying my credibility with the Navajo Water Rights Commission.
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+LUKE: Well, that is pretty dark right there. If somebody's going to try and destroy your own relationship with your kid, uh, you must to really piss somebody off badly.
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+TRAVIS: Yeah, and that's what's getting to me. Because I can handle getting yelled at by some executive in a boardroom. I can handle threats. I've had those before. But watching my kid look at me like she wasn't sure if she could believe me. That hit different.
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+LUKE: Well, it could be another thing, too, that we haven't thought about. What if it's not your enemy, but it's an enemy of your kid that was trying to embarrass your kid by looking up information about you and publishing that to the school.
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+TRAVIS: Oh man, I didn't even, yeah, that's a whole different angle. She's a junior, so there's all that social hierarchy stuff I don't fully understand. She did mention it first showed up on some group chat she's in, but she seemed more confused than like targeted, you know? Like she wasn't saying, someone's coming after me. She was saying, Dad, what is this? But now, I'm wondering, does she have beef with someone I don't know about?
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+LUKE: She might have beef with somebody that she doesn't know about. I mean, this is the 2026 version of a bucket of pig's blood at the prom.
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+TRAVIS: Jesus, that's bleak. But you might be on to something, because she's been kind of quiet lately. I thought it was just junior year stress, college stuff. But what if someone's been messing with her, and this is just what finally bubbled up to where I could see it. I mean, how do I even ask her that without making it worse? Hey, honey, which of your classmates hates you enough to deep fake your dad?
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+LUKE: Well, you could just start with a simple conversation like, hey, I'm trying to get to the bottom of where this video came from and why it was distributed to your school. And there doesn't seem to be a good reason that any of my adversaries would target me in that way, because they wouldn't overwhelmingly, very lazy, and that takes a lot of coordination to pull off. There's a lot of information they had to pull up about who your kid was, what school they were, what chats she was in. Some oil company wouldn't know that.
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+TRAVIS: You're absolutely right. An oil company would just send a cease and desist, or try to get me fired from whatever freelance gig I'm on. They wouldn't know what group chat might Daufer's in. They wouldn't know her schedule well enough to time it so it hits, during the school day. That's someone who knows her world.
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+LUKE: Yeah, it must be, or a really, really twisted fuck that you really pissed off, and I think you would know who that was if there was that person. So it sounds more to me like it's her that is the target of this, and not you.
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+TRAVIS: Yeah, I think you're right. And now I'm sitting here in my dark room at midnight, feeling like an idiot, because I made this whole thing about me, about my work, my reputation, who I've pissed off over pipeline photos. Meanwhile, my kids getting targeted by some psycho 17-year-old with editing software, and I didn't even see it.
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+LUKE: Well, I have that conversation, see what it's about. There's probably nothing you can do about the video if it's already circulating, but luckily it's circulating in a small, contained space, and it's not going to be remembered. Nobody's going to hold on to that.
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+NORM: Oh, hey, Luke. Yeah. I'm good, man. Little wired, honestly. So listen, my best friend Miguel keeps asking me to move to Tucson with him, get a place together, and I keep making up excuses, but the real reason I won't do it is I think I might be in love with him and I have no idea what to do about that.
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+LUKE: Well, what makes you think he's not in love with you if he's asking you to move in with him?
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+NORM: Oh man, I don't see. That's the thing that's been driving me crazy. Like, he says it's practical, right? Split rent? We've always talked about doing that food truck thing. He's got connections with the school district down there. But then, like, last Christmas, we were both pretty drunk, and he looked at me in this way that I don't know, Luke. Maybe I'm reading into it because I want to see it.
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+LUKE: Is he gay?
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+NORM: I honestly don't know. He's never dated anyone seriously that I know of. Like, in high school, there were girls he'd hook up with at parties, but nothing ever stuck. And since then, nothing.
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+LUKE: Well, if he's your best friend and he's asking you to move in and you share that level of trust, it's going to be an awkward conversation, but I think you should ask.
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+NORM: Yeah, yeah, I know you're right. It's just, God, what if I'm completely wrong? What if he And then I lose him entirely.
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+LUKE: Well, then he wasn't a very good friend to begin with.
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+NORM: I mean, that's fair. We've been through a lot of shit together. He was there when my dad died. I helped him through his mom's cancer scare.
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+LUKE: Do you want to live with him?
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+NORM: Yeah, I really do. Like, I've been thinking about it constantly. What our kitchen would look like. Who'd take which bedroom? Stupid stuff like making coffee together in the morning. And that food truck idea?
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+LUKE: Well, if you're in love with the dude, I wouldn't move in with him without having that conversation first, because that could get real, real awkward. And then you've moved in, your stuff is there, just is much messier than to deal with that right out of the gate, you know? So talk to your buddy. Ask him like, hey, you into dudes?
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+NORM: Oh, God, just like that? Hey, Miguel, quick question before I pack up my life. You into dudes? You're right, though. I can't do this halfway. I've been sitting here in my bathroom with the shower running hot for like an hour trying to figure out how to text him back. And I keep typing, yes, let's do it, and then deleting it because I'm terrified of what happens after.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I think you got to talk to him first and have the awkward conversation. And one way or another, that'll tell you how to proceed. Because what happens if you have that conversation with him and you say, hey, I have feelings for you? I think it would be weird if we were living together and you didn't share those feelings. What if he's not gay? And he does say, no, I'm not gay, but I'd still like to live with you. Could you deal with that?
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+NORM: No, no, I really couldn't. That's the thing that's been eating at me. If I tell him and he doesn't feel the same way, I don't think I could just go back to normal. Like, watching him date women, being his roommate while I'm still feeling this way, that sounds like actual torture.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, then it sounds like you can just flat out, say, No, I don't think it's the right time for that and blow that request off. Or you can sit down and have the hard conversation.
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+NORM: The hard conversation. Jesus. Okay. Okay. So what do I even say? Do I lead with, I think I might be in love with you? Or do I ease into it?
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+LUKE: Well, I don't know. You're the one that has this problem. Don't put this shit on me. I have no idea. That's not how I I would approach it. What I would, I would just ask him straight out if he was gay.
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+NORM: You're right. You're right. I'm overthinking it. Just, are you gay or maybe, are you into guys? God, even saying it out loud makes my stomach flip. The worst part is there have been these moments.
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds like you already suspect that he might be gay and kind of into you. So there, there's probably something there. And also, So a dude asking another dude to move in with him is pretty gay. So you're not completely out of line in that line of questioning.
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+NORM: Okay, that's fair. Yeah. Straight guys don't usually text their buddy at midnight about splitting rent and building a life together. And last Christmas, man, we were both drunk and he said something about how I was the only person who really got him. And the way he looked at me...
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+LUKE: Yep. So just bring it up, be direct, ask him the question. You don't have to make it weird. It It doesn't have to be, well, it's a little bit weird no matter what, but it doesn't have to be super weird. Just ask him, and if he gets all butt hurt and doesn't want to talk to you anymore, then that sucks and you lose a friend, but better to know that now than when you're sleeping in the room next to him.
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+NORM: You're absolutely right. Better to blow it up now from 400 miles away than after I've quit my route and signed a lease. All right, I'm going to call him tomorrow, not text, call.
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+LUKE: All right, give us a call back when you have more news. Let us know how it went, okay?
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+NORM: Yeah, I will. Thanks, Luke. Seriously. I've been sitting on this for two years, and I think I just needed someone to tell me to stop being a coward about it.
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+LUKE: Yep, well, that's a tough thing, an awkward conversation that I can understand nobody would want to have. So good luck to you. I hope it works out in your favor, whichever way that is. And now it's time for a number. Another word from our sponsors. Let's talk about what's going on below the belt. Saddle Soft premium undergarments are made for fabrics so advanced, the military doesn't even know about it yet. We're talking about micromodal cactus silk, harvested by hand from prickly pear, which is ironic because the whole point is that nothing pricks you. Every pair is cut for the man who sits in a plastic chair in the desert for nine hours recording a podcast. That's a real use case. That's my use case. use case. Saddlesoft comes in three fits. Regular, generous, and mind your business. Use code Roost at checkout for 15% off your first pair. And no, I will not be modeling them. I've been asked. The answer is still no. Saddle soft. Your chair is uncomfortable enough.! Okay, Megan. Megan, are you the same caller that called in a few days ago?
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+MEGAN: Yeah, that's me. The kindergarten teacher from down in the booth heel. I've called in a couple times now.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I remember you. You really flipped my opinion on kindergarten teachers.
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+MEGAN: Oh, God, the footskin thing. Look, I knew that was going to follow me. My friend Tammy still won't let me live it down.
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+LUKE: Oh, Jesus, you're the footskin chick. No, I was talking about when you were telling me how important the role of the and teacher is in teaching kids how to learn for the rest of their learning careers. I forgot about the foot skin picking thing. That is, that's gross.
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+MEGAN: Oh, yeah, well, I mean, both things are true. I can shape young minds and have disgusting habits.
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+LUKE: Yes, you can. It is a free country. So what are you calling in for tonight?
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+MEGAN: So my sister Crystal, the one up in Flagstaff I told you about, She called me yesterday and she's moving back to Missouri. Like next month. Just decided.
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+LUKE: Okay. And how do you feel about that?
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+MEGAN: Honestly, I'm pissed. She spent seven years up there complaining about how there's nothing to do in the boutique. How she needed the mountains, needed to be somewhere with culture, all that. And now she's coming back because, and this is the part that's killing me, she says she misses family.
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+LUKE: Why is that killing you. She's obviously got family in Missouri.
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+MEGAN: Because I've been here the whole time, Luke. I drive up to see my brother Ray every other week to make sure he's not completely falling apart. I check on mom. I'm the one who stayed. And Crystal gets to sworn off to Arizona, ignore everybody for years, and then just decide she misses us?
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+LUKE: Well, yeah, would you rather she doesn't decide to miss you and she stays in Arizona where she doesn't want to be and doesn't get see any of you?
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+MEGAN: No, I look. That's not the point. The point is she gets to just make these big sweeping decisions. I'm leaving, I'm coming back, I miss family now, and I'm supposed to what, just be happy about it, roll out the welcome wagon?
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+LUKE: Well, it's not that she gets to make decisions, it's that she does make decisions. You can make decisions too.
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+MEGAN: Okay, but no but seriously. It's not the same. doesn't have a classroom full of kids depending on her. She works remote doing graphic design. She can just pick up and go wherever. I can just leave in the middle of a school year because I feel like it.
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+LUKE: You absolutely can leave in the middle of a school year because you feel like it. What you do at work is your job and you can change your job at any point for any reason. So if you wanted to make those big sweeping decisions in your life, you could absolutely do that.
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+FLOYD: Oh, man. Okay, so this is going to sound insane, but I need you to tell me if I'm losing my mind. I'm at a rest stop outside Deming right now. And about 20 minutes ago, I was eating peanuts from the gas station, and I tasted the exit sign. I literally tasted green metal in my mouth when I looked at it. And now I can't stop thinking about whether my brain is breaking or if this has always been happening and I just never noticed.
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+LUKE: What does green taste like?
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+FLOYD: Like, okay, so it's this sharp metallic thing, almost like if you licked a chain link fence, but with this weird brightness to it. And it's specifically that highway sign green. Not like like grass green or anything. Of course. The peanuts were fine. And then I glanced up at the exit sign. And suddenly my mouth had this taste that matched the color exactly. And the fluorescent lights in the bathroom, those have a taste too. Kind of burnt coffee mixed with static electricity. I know how this sounds, Luke. I really do. But it's so specific that I can't shake it.
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+LUKE: Are you under the influence of any drugs at the moment?
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+FLOYD: No. I'm stone cold sober. I'm driving a route to El Paso. I've got a delivery at 3 a.m. I don't even drink coffee afternoon because it messes with my sleep. That's what's freaking me out. If I was high or hadn't slept in two days, I'd be like, okay, yeah, that tracks. But I'm just driving, doing my normal thing, and suddenly colors have flavors. And I'm sitting in a truck stop parking lot, wondering if I'm having a stroke or something.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that doesn't sound right to me. Has this ever happened to you before?
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+FLOYD: Never. Not once in 36 years. That's why I'm calling my girlfriend Diane. She texted me this article this afternoon about synesthesia, you know, where people's senses get crossed and they see sounds as colors or whatever. And I read it while I was waiting to load up in Tucson and thought it was interesting but didn't think anything of it. Then tonight this happens. And now I'm like, did reading about it make my brain do it? Can that even happen?
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+LUKE: I think that can happen. It's like a placebo effect type thing. I don't know. It sounds like it could be a placebo from what you've read and what you've been thinking about, and it could also be a severe neurological disorder. So maybe you should talk to a clinic and ask them if that's a symptom of a bigger problem or nothing to be concerned about. Because I don't know. That's a weird one.
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+FLOYD: Yeah, you're right. I should. The thing is is, I'm supposed to be in El Paso in like four hours, and I've been sitting here for half an hour just staring at my odometer, trying to figure out if the number seven feels smug to me. Like, does that sound crazy? I'm looking at numbers and assigning them personalities now.
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+LUKE: No, that one's absolutely correct. The number seven is absolutely smug.
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+LUKE: So you're right about that, but the tasting green street signs is a bit odd, and maybe something that you want to get checked out.
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+CALLER: Okay, see, that makes me feel a little better. Wait, no, it doesn't. Because now I don't know if you're messing with me or if seven actually is smug. And I've just been noticing things that were always there. God, this is making my head hurt. Should I even be driving right now?
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+LUKE: No, you should probably not be driving right now. You should get to a clinic and see what's up with that, because it doesn't sound like you're in a stable state, and you might be on the brink of a psychotic break.
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+CALLER: A psychotic break. Break? Jesus. Luke, I called for some reassurance here, not to get told I'm losing my mind. I mean, okay, you might be right.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I can't reassure you that what you're saying is normal behavior because it's not. I've never heard of that before. And unless you're under the influence of some strong psychedelics, I don't know that that that's a good thing. It sounds like brain issue. So I'm not saying that it's a is a brain issue. I'm saying that you should get that checked and maybe stay off the road.
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+CALLER: All right. All right. There's a hospital endemming. I passed the sign like 10 miles back. I can turn around. My dispatcher's going to be pissed. This delivery is time sensitive. It's refrigerated pharmaceuticals. But you're right. If I'm actually having some kind of neurological event, I shouldn't be piloting a 40-foot truck down the interstate at midnight. It's just, man. I feel fine otherwise. Like physically, I feel completely normal.
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+LUKE: Well, you felt abnormal enough to call a radio show about it, so that's a good sign. But you should get it checked out. That's the responsible thing to do. And you don't want to hurt anybody because you ignored a symptom of a serious issue.
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+CALLER: Yeah, you're right. You're absolutely right. I just, God, Diane's going to freak out when I tell her.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that might be one you don't tell her.
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+CALLER: What? You think I should just show up to a hospital by myself at midnight and not tell my wife I might be having a stroke or whatever? Come on, Luke.
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+LUKE: Yes, that is what I think. I think you should show up at the hospital, ask them if it's a thing. And if they say it's not a thing, carry on with your day. If they say it is a thing, then have the conversation with your wife. Because what's not going to go well is a call to your wife saying that you taste the green street sign when you eat peanuts.
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+CALLER: Okay, when you put it like that, yeah, that does sound insane. She already thinks I'm a hypochondriac because of that whole thing with the mole last year that turned out to be nothing. If I call her at midnight saying I'm tasting colors, she's going to think I've completely lost it. But what do I even tell the ER?
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+LUKE: You tell the ER that you're tasting colors and you think that's strange and you want to know if that's a symptom of a known issue.
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+CALLER: Right. Okay. Yeah. I can do that.
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+LUKE: Okay. Well, you do that, buddy, and let us know how it goes, because that is the weirdest call that we've ever had. So congratulations. Hold on. Let me find one for you. We're going to give you, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on. All right. Well done. You have the trophy right now, and hopefully someday soon we'll get a weirder call, and then they will snatch that trophy from you. But good luck with your story. street sign mouth, and I wish you the best of luck. Everybody, this has been another great episode of Luke at the Roost, and we hope you enjoy the remainder of your evening.

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+LUKE: All right, welcome back. It's early Friday morning. This is supposed to be Thursday night, but I got distracted, so sue me. This is Luke at the Roost. It's your late night call-in radio show where you can call in and ask me about what's on your mind. The number, if you'd like to call, is 208-439. 5853. That's 208-439 Luke. gonna take some calls because that's what we do. So first up on the line here we have Mitch. Mitch welcome to the show. What are you calling in for tonight?
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+MITCH: Hey Luke, thanks for taking the call. So I'm sitting here in my garage at midnight watching a YouTube video about quantum physics and I think it might be ruining my marriage.
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+LUKE: Well you know if we're all being honest quantum physics is ruining everything. Right?
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+MITCH: No, that particles exist in like all possible states at once until somebody looks at them and then they just pick one. And I can't stop thinking about how that's exactly what happened with me and my wife tonight. We had this huge fight about whether to loan my brother money for a food truck. And it's like we were both existing in all these different versions of the argument until we actually had it. And now we're locked into this one where she thinks I'm an idiot and I'm hiding in the garage eating crackers.
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+LUKE: All right, well if you're thinking about giving your brother money for a food truck, you probably are an idiot. Why is everybody want a food truck these days? Everybody's got a brother that's trying to start a food truck. You have a different idea. Jesus. There's enough.
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+MITCH: Oh man, I know. But here's the thing. Darrell's actually a really good cook, like legitimately good. He did this pop-up thing at a brewery last summer and sold out in two hours.
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+LUKE: Was it a fusion?
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+MITCH: No, thank God. It's barbecue. Proper barbecue. He's been working on his brisket for like three years. But yeah, Angie says he's a burnout because he's had like four different jobs in the last two years. And I get it, but I also think, I don't know, man. Maybe he just hasn't found his thing yet. He's 32.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, I have a couple of questions. Has he asked you for money before for other ideas?
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+MITCH: Yeah, twice. There was this landscaping company thing that lasted like six months, houses, which yeah, that one didn't even get off the ground. But Luke, the barbecue thing is different.
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+LUKE: Okay, and it might be different. And my next question is, do you have the money to lend him?
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+MITCH: I mean, we have it. We've got like 15 grand saved up that was supposed to be for redoing the kitchen. Angie's been planning that for two years.
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+LUKE: Well, your brother wants to start a food truck. He's 32 years old, and you've already given him money for two failed businesses. Your wife wants to redo the kitchen. You've been saving money for that. So no. I mean, my advice is don't give your brother the money. That's insane.
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+MITCH: Yeah, but see, that's the thing. I didn't actually give him money those other times. I just told him I would, and then Angie talked me out of it both times. And now he's got this whole business plan printed out. He's got a truck lined up. He just needs 12 grand for the equipment and permits and wrapping it. And I keep thinking, like, what if this is actually the one?
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+LUKE: Maybe it is, but it's not your one. It's your brother's one. And first of all, are you sure that you would get your money back? That's an important bit. And also, anybody can put a business together, put a business plan together in like 36 seconds with ChatGBTBT today. And it doesn't really take a lot of effort or foresight to look for a vehicle on Facebook Marketplace. So it's not like he's done a whole lot of work here to get started. I wouldn't give him the money.
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+MITCH: I mean, you're probably right. It's just, God, you should see him when he talks about it. He gets this look like he actually believes in something for once. And I keep thinking about that quantum physics thing. Like maybe he's in this state where he could be successful or he could fail, but until someone actually gives him a shot, we'll never know which one he is.
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+LUKE: No, that's not how it works, sir. Particles are in a state of superposition until somebody measures them. that's not giving them a chance, right? So he could be in a state of failure and success until you see which one he does. That doesn't require you giving him money.
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+MITCH: Okay, fair. That's... Yeah, that's fair. I guess I'm trying to make physics justify me wanting to help my little brother. But here's what really gets me. Angie said something last night that I can't stop thinking about. She said, you're not trying to save Daryl. You're trying to prove something to your dad. four years, so that really messed me up.
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+LUKE: Did it mess you up because you know that it's true?
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+MITCH: Yeah, yeah, it did. Because my dad always said Daryl would never amount to anything, and I always defended him. Like every Sunday dinner, it was the same thing. Dad would go off about how Daryl was wasting his potential, and I'd be the one saying, give him time, he just needs to find his thing. And now Dad's gone, and Daryl's still, you know?
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+LUKE: Well, it's been 32 years. So Darrell's had ample opportunity to make something happen. And maybe now's the time. I'm not saying that he can't make a food truck happen. I'm just saying it's not your responsibility to buy that for him. And your wife clearly doesn't want you to. And it's more important that you support her than you support him.
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+MITCH: You're right. I know you're right. It's just going to kill me to tell him no.
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+LUKE: Well, he's going to have to learn some things to be successful about business and about life and about fundraising. suggestion to you would be to help him raise the money himself and be proud and have something to lose in this business that isn't yours.
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+MITCH: Huh, that's actually that might work. Like help him figure out how to pitch investors or do a Kickstarter or something. So he's got some skin in the game because you're right. If it's my 12 grand, what does he have to lose?
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+LUKE: Yeah man, that's an awful expensive rack
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+MITCH: Ha, yeah, exactly. Man, Angie's going to be relieved. I've been avoiding going back inside because I didn't want to keep fighting about it. Maybe I should actually go tell her you talk some sense into me before she wakes up still mad.
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+LUKE: All right, sir, you go do that. You have a wonderful night, and congratulations for reclaiming the marriage and keeping the wife happy. That's always a good thing to do. And don't give your brother the money. Help him out where you can, but make him do the work.
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+MITCH: I appreciate it, Luke. Seriously. I was sitting out here in my garage eating crackers and spiraling. And you just, yeah.
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+LUKE: All right, buddy, well, you enjoy your crackers and stay out of trouble, okay? Next up on the line we have Tamika. Tamika, welcome to the radio show. How are you tonight?
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+TAMIKA: Oh, man, I'm kind of losing my mind a little bit, Luke. I just spent the last three hours reading about the great attractor. And I can't stop thinking about it.
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+LUKE: Okay, then tell me about the great attractor.
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+TAMIKA: Okay, so it's this massive gravitational anomaly out in space that we can't even see because it's behind the Milky Way, but it's pulling our entire galaxy toward it at like 600 kilometers per. Everything. The sun, the Earth, all of it, is just being dragged toward this thing that's so big and so far away, we don't even know what it is. And I'm sitting here in the office at the Galaxy Diner at midnight trying to close out the register. And I just keep thinking, how does anybody just go about their day knowing this?
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+LUKE: Well, like you said, we don't know. We don't know it. We don't know what it is. We don't know what it's doing or why. And it's too far away for us to see. So everybody's going about their life because there's nothing we can do about it. And we don't know and probably will never know what it is.
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+TAMIKA: But that's what's getting me, though. Like, we do know it's there. Scientists know it's there. They can measure it. They can see what it's doing to us. We just can't see the thing itself.
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+TAMIKA: And yeah, there's nothing we can do about it. But doesn't that make it worse? Like, I'm supposed to go home, and my mom's asleep in front of the TV with her pill organizer on the counter. And I'm going to wake up tomorrow and flip the diner sign back on. And meanwhile, the entire galaxy is just... Just moving, just moving and not affecting your life in any way.
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+LUKE: But there are things that we're we know exist and they're called black holes and they do exactly that. So it wouldn't be surprising to learn that the great attractor is giant black hole that we can't see.
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+TAMIKA: Okay, but see, that's even worse because black holes, we at least understand the concept. They're a thing. They eat stuff, whatever. But this is different.
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+LUKE: How is it different? It could be exactly a black hole. It could just be a thing that eats stuff.
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+TAMIKA: But it's not eating us though. It's just pulling us. For Bill, millions of years. We've been moving toward this thing our whole lives. Everyone who's ever lived has been moving toward it. And we just found out about it in like the 1970s. And I guess what's really messing me up is, what else is like that? What else is just happening to us that we can't see and can't do anything about? And we're just supposed to act like it's fine.
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+LUKE: Well, it is fine. And lots of things are acting on us that we can't see every day. And we know that. And think about it. like an ear of corn on your plate, right? So you've got this nice dinner. You've got an ear of corn there. You can't eat that ear of corn until you've pulled it towards yourself. So it could very well just be a faraway black hole pulling us towards itself on its way to eat us.
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+TAMIKA: Oh, great. So we're dinner. That's really comforting, Luke. No, but okay. I hear what you're saying. Things are always acting on us we can't see. Gravity, radiation, whatever. But those things we learned about in school, you know? We grew up knowing about them.
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+LUKE: Yeah, we also grew up knowing about the food pyramid in school. And I don't know if you've heard about that lately, but it's completely different now because it's bullshit.
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+TAMIKA: Exactly. See, that's what I'm saying. They told us for decades to eat a certain way. And it turns out it was completely wrong. And now we're finding out our entire galaxy is being pulled towards something we can't identify. And like, what are? What else are they going to tell us in 20 years that completely changes everything we thought we knew?
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+LUKE: Tons of stuff, but the point is, at the end of the day, it doesn't really affect your life. It's not going to pull us anywhere in our lifetimes. We're talking about billions of years out into the future. We'll have killed ourselves off long before then. We're almost there already.
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+TAMIKA: Okay, but that's not making me feel better. You're basically saying, don't worry about the great attractor because we'll probably nuke ourselves. first. Like, is that supposed to help me close out the register and go home? And I don't know. Maybe it's not even really about the great attractor. Maybe it's about...
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+LUKE: That's exactly what I'm saying. I'm saying, don't worry about the great attractor, because it's not going to pose a threat for billions of years, and we're all going to be dead one way or another. And the entire human race is almost certainly going to be dead before then. So what is it about to you?
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+TAMIKA: It's that I can't stop thinking about my mom. She's asleep right now in front of the TV with her pill organizer on the counter, and tomorrow she's going to wake up and make coffee and ask me if I remembered to defrost the chicken. And meanwhile, we're hurtling through space toward this massive invisible thing, and she has no idea, and it doesn't matter, because what matters to her is whether I defrosted the chicken. And I'm supposed to just do that? Just go home and defrost chicken and pay the electric bill and show up for my shifts while knowing that none of it means anything in the grand scheme.
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+LUKE: That is correct. That's exactly what you're supposed to do because you're going to have to eat tomorrow and chicken is tasty. So I would recommend that you defrost the chicken and help your mom out. And don't worry about what's going to happen to the fate of the planet a billion years from now.
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+TAMIKA: But how do you just do that? How do you just decide that the small stuff matters when you know it doesn't? Like, I'm standing here in this restaurant office at 12. 12.30 in the morning, counting 20s, and making sure the drawer balances, and part of me knows that's important because rent is due, and my mom needs her prescriptions. But the other part of me is like, why are we pretending any of this is real?
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+LUKE: That is 100% the reason we're pretending. We know it's not real. Everything that we see and touch and smell, it's all a interpretation by our brains. We know that it's not reality. Like, that's not even a question. But we do it anyway. and we care about things like de-frosting the chicken because we get hungry and we need to eat.
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+TAMIKA: Oh, God, you're right. I sound insane. I'm having an existential crisis over Wikipedia at midnight when I should just be going home. It's just, I think I've been feeling this way for a while, and the great-att-tractor thing just gave me something to pin it on, you know? Like, my mom's getting older and I'm working the same job I had in college, and I keep thinking, when does the real part start? And maybe it never does.
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+LUKE: It starts when you decide it does. It starts when you decide, you know, what is important to you and your time here on this earth. And maybe it's figuring out deep secrets of the cosmos and putting your hat in the ring of academia. Who knows what that is to you? But I think the reason to be here is to enjoy the moments that you have here as much as you can and watch the universe do what it does. the opportunity to have been on this planet before it was eaten.
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+TAMIKA: Yeah. Yeah. Okay. I think I needed to hear that. I've been so stuck in my head about what I'm supposed to be doing that I forgot to just be here.
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+LUKE: Be here now. That's what our friend Ram Dass always said. And if you're looking for some meaning in your life beyond no meaning at all, maybe look up what Mr. Richard Albert had said. say because it was pretty interesting too.
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+TAMIKA: I will. I'm going to write that down. Ram Dass, write, be here now. That's actually perfect because I've literally been everywhere except here for the past three hours.
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+LUKE: Well, I think if you listen to most any sort of self-help spiritual guru, they're going to tell you in different words that same thing. It's to focus on the most moment in front of you because that's the only one that you have. It's the only one that matters. That's the point. So if you're worried about what's going to happen a billion years from now, then you're missing what's happening now.
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+TAMIKA: You're right. God, I'm going to go home and defrost that chicken and maybe actually sit with my mom tomorrow instead of scrolling through my phone while she watches her shows. Thank you, Luke. I really needed this tonight.
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+LUKE: Not a problem there. that's what I do. And good luck not getting eaten by the great attractor. I believe in you. I think you can, I think you're going to make it. And now we have to, I'm sorry, but we have to take a word from our sponsors. Ladies and gentlemen, this episode of the radio show is brought to you by mediocre CPAP. The makers of the CPAP machine that technically works, not life-changing, not transformative, It works in the way a lot of modern products work. If you've never used a CPAP, here's the pitch. You strap on a face mask and let a small plastic appliance try to keep you alive at night. It's romantic. It's like sleeping next to a tiny leaf blower. Mediocre is fine. And that's not an insult. That's honest. It's the device that turns, I sleep like garbage into... I kind of slept like garbage. Half the night it's like, pst. Pst. Because the seal isn't perfect.
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+RODNEY: Hey, Luke. So, my wife's sister told me at Thanksgiving that Marie deserves better than a guy who still works with his hands at 57. And I haven't been able to get it out of my head since. Three weeks now.
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+LUKE: Well, you should be grateful that you can still work with your hands at 57, sir.
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+RODNEY: Yeah, I mean, I am. I've been doing electrical work for 34 years. I'm good at it. But the way she said it, Luke, like I'd failed somehow.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, she's a bitch, and she's probably not working with her hands or working with anything, and she's probably going to die at 62. Well, you enjoy a long, happy, healthy life because you've remained active, and you're working with your hands.
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+RODNEY: Jesus, Luke. I mean, you're not wrong. She works in HR for some insurance company, spends all day at a desk. But here, Here's the thing that's eating at me. Marie didn't defend me. She just stood there. And ever since then, she's been...
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+LUKE: She's been what? Because an electrician is not a, um, it's a pretty respectable trade. I think most people, um, it's not a trade that's looked down on generally.
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+RODNEY: No, you're right. It's not. I make decent money. We're fine. But Marie's been different since then.
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+LUKE: Well, have you talked to her about it? Because it could be something completely different.
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+RODNEY: That's the thing. I haven't. I've been pulling overtime all week on this hospital job down in Lordsburg. Just staying away, I guess.
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+LUKE: All right. Yeah, there is that big hospital in Lordsburg. So I guess you're going to be busy for a while.
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+RODNEY: Lordsburg, yeah. Should wrap up in another week or two. But I come home tonight and she's already in bed at 9.30. Didn't even kiss me good night, Luke.
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+LUKE: Maybe she's dealing with a little bit of depression, or there's something going on in her life that she needs your support for.
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+RODNEY: You think that's it? I mean, her mom's been having some health issues. Nothing serious. But Marie's been driving over there a lot more. And I've been so wrapped up in my own head about this, about what her sister said about feeling like I'm not enough, that I haven't even asked her what's going on.
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+LUKE: Well, I would recommend you do that, and if she's spending more time going to go. going over to her mom's house and talking to her sister about you and not defending you in public, there might be something going on there, and it probably has nothing to do with your profession.
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+RODNEY: Oh, God. You think she's been talking to her sister about me? That whole family. They get together and it's like this echo chamber. Her sister plants one seed.
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+LUKE: And look, you're right. Hey, man, I'm not saying I'm right. I'm just saying that's a pattern of behavior that would make me her intentions.
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+RODNEY: No, I hear you. And honestly, that's what's been eating at me. It's not even what her sister said. If that Marie just stood there, didn't say a word. And now, she won't look at me the same way.
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+LUKE: Well, she can't look at you the same way if you're pulling overnighters and not coming home and she's tired. So I recommend you talk to your wife and find out what's going on. And if something needs to change or you need to talk to somebody or what the deal is. but don't just ignore the situation. It's obviously a thing.
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+RODNEY: You're right. I've been hiding at work instead of dealing with it. I'll talk to her tomorrow morning. Just straight up ask her what's going on, what she needs for me.
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+LUKE: Good. That's what you should do. And I hope it all works out for you. And it's nothing serious. I'm sure everything's explainable. But if not, it's not. You know, just do the best you can. And sometimes things don't work out.
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+RODNEY: Yeah. Yeah, I appreciate it, Luke. I needed to hear that. I've just been sitting here drinking a beer on the bathroom floor. Feeling sorry for myself when I should have been having this conversation with her weeks ago.
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+LUKE: Yes, sir, that is correct. So go have that conversation with your wife. Good luck. And I hope you get that hospital in Lordsburg finished because that'd be great. So next up to the show, next up, we have Marlene. Marlene, welcome to the radio show. What's eating you?
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+MARLENE: Oh man. Okay, so I just got slapped with a $500 fine because my front door is the wrong shade of beige. I'm not kidding. My HOA sent me a violation notice today saying my door color doesn't match the approved palette. It's beige, Luke. It's B-E-I-G.
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+LUKE: B-E-I-G-E-I-G-E?
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+MARLENE: Yeah, beige is gross, and it's clearly not on the approved palette.
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+LUKE: Did you look at the approved palette before you decided to paint your house? when you knew that you were in an HOA?
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+MARLENE: Okay, yes. Technically, I looked at it. But here's the thing. I had like 40 swatches of beige that all looked identical. My husband David was standing there going, they're all the same. The guy at the paint store was like, yeah, these are basically the same. And I picked one called Desert Sand. Because we live in the actual desert and it seemed fine. But apparently it's two shades too warm, and now Karen's somebody. on the architectural review committee is acting like I spray-painted obscenities on my garage door. I teach kindergarten, Luke. I spend all day with five-year-olds, and at least they have reasonable rules.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, you live in an HOA area. They never have reasonable rules. There's always a caring somebody that's complaining about what everybody else is doing. You know what my brother would do? I want to give you the advice that my brother would do.
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+MARLENE: What? What would your brother? do because right now I'm sitting here in my kitchen at midnight drinking wine and staring at this violation notice like it's a ransom letter. So I'm open to suggestions.
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+LUKE: He would comb through that HOA, the agreements there, and look through the approved colors. And then he would either do the worst paint job possible that was still within the rules, or he would actually just paint obscenities all over everything.
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+MARLENE: Oh my God, I love your brother. No, but seriously. I've actually thought about this. Like, what if I just went full malicious compliance? Paint the door the exact approved beige but then plant the ugliest legally allowed lawn ornaments I can find. Pink flamingos are probably banned. But what about garden gnomes? There's got to be a loophole somewhere in that binder. The thing is, though, Luke, it's not even really about the door anymore.
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+LUKE: Oh, there is a loophole. There is absolutely a loophole. And, uh, yeah, I think that's what you should do. You're going to have to pay a $500 fine. You might as well get a good laugh out of it. So what it's not about the door anymore? What's it about now? That you live in an HOA and you don't want to and you want the freedom of not living in an HOA? Then move.
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+MARLENE: No, it's God, you're right that I hate the HOA, but it's that David thinks I'm being dramatic. He came home, looked at the notice, and was like, just repaint it, Marlene. It's not a big deal. Not a big deal! We've lived here for 18 years. 18 years of me following every stupid rule, mowing the lawn to the exact height, keeping my trash cans hidden, and the one time I pick a beige that's slightly off, I get fined like I'm running a meth lab.
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+MARLENE: And he just, he doesn't get why I'm so pissed. He thinks I'm overreacting, which is what he always thinks, and I'm sitting here feeling crazy because maybe a normal person would just repaid the door and move on.
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+LUKE: I'm with you. I wouldn't repeat. I might eventually, but I would definitely make it more of a pain in the ass than it was worth to somebody for the inconvenience. And I would turn it into something fun by, but would you call it malicious compliance? I like that. It sounds like a punk band.
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+MARLENE: Right. Malicious compliance opening for the violations at the HOA Community Center. But yeah, that's exactly it. I want to make this FUN and feeling like a scolded child. I deal with actual children all day. I don't need my neighbors treating me like one. But here's what's really getting me. And I heard Tamika earlier talking about the great attractor thing. I know this is going to sound weird, but I think she was looking at it backwards. She was like, why does anything matter if we're all just cosmic dust?
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+LUKE: I also think the oposite. I'm with you on this one, because if we're, just cosmic dust and we are, then we are everything. And that is empowering in a way, and it's beautiful in a way, and it relieves some of the nonsense of the world that we get caught up in. And the importance that we put on those things that she kept saying were not real. So, um, so yeah, I'm totally with you.
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+MARLENE: Yes, exactly. Like, if we're all just atoms that used to be stars, Then why am I letting some committee member named Karen make me feel small over B-E-A-I? That's what I'm sitting here realizing. I've spent 18 years making myself smaller to fit into these stupid rules. And for what? So my neighbors don't complain? I teach 23 kids every year to be brave and use their voices and stand up for themselves. And then I come home and I'm worried about paint swatches.
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+LUKE: How do you spell beige?
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+MARLENE: B-E-E-I-I. Why, you going to look up the HOA approved shades yourself? But seriously, Luke, I think that's what's really eating at me. It's not just David thinking I'm dramatic. It's that maybe he's right that I've been dramatic about small stuff for so long that now when I'm actually upset about something real, about feeling like I don't have a voice in my own life. He just sees it as more of the same. Like I've cried Wolf too many times about stupid things, and now when I'm actually drowning, he's just like, There goes Marlene again.
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+LUKE: Well, yeah, that is being dramatic. You're not drowning because they asked you to repaint your door. That's a bit much. I am with you in that I would also be infuriated, but I would not agree to the terms of an HOA either. You made that decision when you bought the house, and you've been there long enough to know the rules. So next time, you'll not do that. And this time it costs you $500. And you're just going to have to deal with that and move on and if it pisses you off this much, then leave the HOA. Sell your house and find some place where you have more ability to do what you want.
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+MARLENE: Okay, yeah, you're right. Drowning was dramatic. See, this is what I do. But Luke, we can't just sell. David's got his workshop in the garage. All his tools set up exactly how he likes them.
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+LUKE: Well, let me tell you this. David would love to move and have a new garage to set up exactly the way he likes it. Um, so that's not an issue.
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+MARLENE: Oh, God, you're totally right. He'd love that. He complains about that garage all the time. Says it's too small, the electrical's weird.
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+LUKE: Well, there you go. You got a couple of options here. You can paint the door, you can move. Uh, or you can be maliciously compliant. Those are your options. Pick one of them and move on.
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+MARLENE: Okay, so here's what I'm thinking. And tell me if this is insane. I paint the door the exact approved beige, right? But then I plant the most aggressively colorful, technically allowed by the bylaws flower garden you've ever seen. Like, I'm talking, sunflowers, zinias. Those bright orange California puppies.
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+LUKE: Well, I'd go with cannabis myself, but you've got to follow the rules. So learn what those rules are and then exploit them to the best of your ability.
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+MARLENE: Oh my God, Luke, I teach kindergarten in the front yard. But yes, this is exactly what I'm talking about. I need to actually read those bylaws instead of just being scared of them. I bet there's all kinds of stuff they can't regulate. What about garden gnomes?
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+LUKE: Why do you teach kindergarten in your front yard?
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+MARLENE: What? No, I'm saying I can't grow cannabis because I'm a kindergarten teacher. Like, that's my job. Parents strive by my house. Can you imagine? Oh, look, there's Miss Marlene's house with the weed plants. I'd be fired, before the first harvest.
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+LUKE: Yeah, but you'd probably be less dramatic about it.
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+MARLENE: Okay, ouch. But fair. You know what?
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+LUKE: What?
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+MARLENE: You're right. I'm being dramatic about the beige. Like, it's just paint. I could fix this tomorrow for 40 bucks in a Saturday morning, but instead I'm sitting here at midnight in my underwear, drinking wine and plotting revenge gardens like I'm some kind of HOA freedom fighter. David's going to wake up and I'm going to wake up, and I'm going to be a day be out there measuring the exact legal height for a flagpole or something.
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+LUKE: What color are the underwear?
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+MARLENE: Are you serious right now? They're gray, Luke. Old gray underwear and my husband's work shirt. This is what peak rebellion looks like at 47. But okay, real talk. Why does this bother me so much? Like you're right that I'm being ridiculous. But I'm furious about this.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I would be furious about it too. Unreasonably furious. And I think it's because it's somebody that's trying to control your life in a manner that's unreasonable. And it is unreasonable. But those are the rules that you agreed to. And you knew that well before you moved in. So it's on you to fix it. But I understand why you're furious. It's because you're losing some agency there. It's your house. You pay for it. You pay a lot for it. You pay the taxes on it. And then they tell you what color you can paint your door. That is infuriating. So you're justified in that, but you also have to just deal with it and move on or change the situation.
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+MARLENE: Yeah. Yeah, you're nailing it. It's the control thing. And honestly, I think it's bigger than just the HOA. I spend all day at school following district policies. What I can teach, how I can teach it. What words I can say to a kid who's melting down.
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+LUKE: Yeah, and I feel for you in both respects. because when somebody tells you what to do, I don't know. I don't like that very much at all. And I will lash out at anybody that tries it. So I understand. But you got to follow the rules or pay the fine or both. Or move.
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+MARLENE: Which is what David keeps saying and I keep shutting him down because I don't want to admit he's right. He's been wanting to get out of here for two years. He says we should buy something with actual land. No HOA. Maybe closer to his sister in Prescott. And I'm the one who keeps saying no because I'm 10 minutes from my school. I know all the neighbors. We have the grocery store right there. But God, Luke, what if I'm just staying because I'm scared?
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+LUKE: Well, you just told me five minutes ago that you were staying because David had his tools in the garage the way he liked him. So what's the deal? Are you staying because you want to stay or are you staying because he wants to stay? Now I'm annoyed because you're lying to me.
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+MARLENE: Okay, you're right. I'm sorry. I was defamation. Reflecting with the David thing because, Jesus, this is embarrassing. I think I'm staying because if we move out to Prescott or wherever, I won't have an excuse anymore. Like right now I can say I'm busy, I'm tired. A commute would kill me. I've got my classroom set up just right.
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+LUKE: An excuse for what? You wouldn't have an excuse for what anymore? Why would you say you're busy or you're tired because you moved to Prescott?
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+MARLENE: Because my mom's in Scottsdale.
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+MARLENE: She's been asking me to visit more. Help her more. She's got early stage Parkinson's. And my sister Jennifer lives in California. So it's on me. And right now, I can say, mom, I'm 40 minutes away. I've got school in the morning. It's too much. But if we're in Prescott? How far is Scottsdale from Prescott? Hour and a half. Maybe two, depending on trying. So it's actually farther, which sounds like it would give me more of an excuse, but, oh God, you're going to call me out on this. If we move, David's going to say, well, now you don't have the HOA stress, you don't have the commute, you've got all this free time, why don't you go help your mom more? And he'd be right. And I don't want to.
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+LUKE: Okay, why don't you want to?
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+MARLENE: Because she wasn't there for me. When I was growing up, she was always always working, always stressed, always telling me I was too much, too loud, too messy, too needy. Jennifer was the easy one, the pretty one who didn't ask for anything. And now mom needs me. And I just, I don't want to give her what she never gave me.
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+LUKE: I know that's petty. It's a little bit petty, but it kind of makes sense. I see how you got there. And maybe you don't want to give her. Maybe she was an awful mom that doesn't deserve it your help for all I know, but you're probably going to beat yourself up for the rest of your life if you don't make an attempt while she's still around because Parkinson's is not a thing that goes away.
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+MARLENE: You're right. And that's what keeps me up at night, Luke, because I know, I know, I know, in five years, 10 years. When she's worse or she's gone, I'm going to hate myself for hiding behind a stupid HOA and beige paint. Jennifer's going to fly in for the funeral. And I'm going to be the daughter who lived in Arizona the whole time and couldn't be bothered.
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+LUKE: Well, how deep is she into the Parkinson's? What are her symptoms right now? And does she have anybody else around in the house that is taken care of her?
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+MARLENE: She's still living alone. That's part of what scares me. The tremors are mostly in her left hand. Some balance issues. She fell getting out of the shower two months ago. Nothing broken, but she didn't tell me for a week. Her neighbor mentioned it. She's got a cleaning lady twice a week and Jennifer sends money for a meal service. But no one's actually there.
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+LUKE: Well, even if she was a bitch and you can, you should make some attempt to help her out where possible. Obviously, that can't take over your life. A lot of people go pretty far in the other direction where they do so much helping that they neglect their own needs. And that can make people sick ruined lives. So I'm sure you can find a balance where you can be helpful and be there with your mother while she's suffering because she is suffering. And hopefully, if that happens to you, somebody will be there for you in that way. At least try.
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+MARLENE: Yeah, you're right. I know you're right. God, I called in about paint colors. And here we are. The thing is, I think I've been using David and the HOA and all this press stuff as a distraction, so I don't have to think about the fact that my mom is alone in that house. And she's scared, and I'm angry at a 72-year-old woman with Parkinson's for things she did 30 years ago.
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+LUKE: Yeah, it sounds like maybe there's an opportunity there for some redemption and forgiveness and all those types of things. And, you know, you might find that you have things in common with your mom, or she's fun to be around, or funny, or funny, or whatever it is. So I recommend you make the effort and spend some time with her no matter where you live. But also, move.
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+MARLENE: Okay, okay. Move and see my mom. You're not letting me off the hook on either one. You know what's funny? I've been so focused on David making me move that I never even asked myself if I actually want to stay in this neighborhood.
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds like you've got your answer. Thanks for calling in, Marlene. I hope your mom's all right and not suffering too badly because probably Parkinson's is no fun. It's not something that you would wish on anybody, and it's not something that's easy to watch. And, um, and yeah, you got to help people when they can't help themselves. And it sounds like she's reaching the position where she can't help herself. And she needs your help, and you are close enough. So a couple hours of your week isn't going to, isn't going to hurt you. All right, Marvin. Marvin, welcome to the show. What can we do for you?
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+MARVIN: Hey, Luke. Thanks for taking my call. So I just got off the phone with my dad and we sat there in silence for like 20 minutes because he won't talk anymore. He had a stroke three years ago and he just gave up. And I'm sitting here reading this book about a 70-year-old woman who completely relearned how to speak. And I'm losing my mind because I know it's possible, but he won't even try.
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+LUKE: Well, do you know it's possible? Is it that he won't speak or that he can't speak? Because every stroke is different. Every brain is different. So he might not actually have the capacity.
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+MARVIN: No, he can. The therapist said so. He got two months of speech therapy right after it happened, and he was making progress. Slow, but it was there. He could get words out. They were just scrambled, you know?
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+LUKE: Well, imagine how that would feel to you, to your pride and your sense of self-worth and your existence on this planet to not be able to speak as a full-grown adult. Just imagine what that would feel like for a second.
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+MARVIN: I mean, yeah, it's got to be humiliating. But Luke, this is the thing. I teach middle school history, right? And I've got these kids who struggle with reading. And the ones who push through it, who do the work even when it's embarrassing.
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+LUKE: Yeah, sure. And they're kids. They're not 75 years old. You know, how old are your dad? It's a little bit different when you're a young, elastic mind and then when you're an elderly person in your, what do they call them? After the golden years, your gray years?
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+MARVIN: He's 72, and that's the thing. This book I'm reading, it's all about neuroplasticity, how the brain can rewire itself at any age. This woman was 70 when she had her stroke, and she learned to talk again. So I know age isn't the issue here. He just won't do the work.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, that's his choice. 72 years old, and he has agency, too. If he doesn't want to do the way, if he doesn't want to relearn how to talk at 72 and struggle for the rest of his years, then he didn't have to. He's been through enough.
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+MARVIN: But he just sits there, Luke. We're on the phone, and there's nothing. And I know he's got things he wants to say because I can hear him breathing different. Like he's frustrated. He called me. So obviously he wants to connect, but then he won't put in the effort to actually do it.
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+LUKE: Well, maybe he wants to connect, but he doesn't want to talk. You know, maybe he's saying, I want you to come over and watch TV with me. Maybe he's saying, I'm scared, and I can't voice that. Maybe he's saying I need help, and there's no way I can tell anybody. So, can he write to you?
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+MARVIN: Yeah, he can write a little. His right hand is weak, but he can do it. He sent me a few notes, mostly just like I'm fine or don't worry. That's it. And I've tried going over there. I go every Sunday. We watch the news. I make him lunch. But the whole time I'm just sitting there thinking he could be working on this. He could be practicing.
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+LUKE: Maybe he could be. Maybe he can't be. And I don't think it's fair for you to say what he could be doing. Because you don't know. You didn't have the stroke and you don't have his brain. And it's very possible that the therapist was just talking shit because she read an article about somebody that had a stroke before that was able to learn to read. But everybody is in a different situation. And this man's 72 years old. And he doesn't want to learn to talk again. It's not an easy thing to do.
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+MARVIN: Okay, but no, hold on. I hear what you're saying.
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+LUKE: But I also heard Tamika earlier talking about the great attractor and how nothing matters. And that's bullshit. Things matter. The work matters. The work matters to you. That doesn't mean the work matters to him. Obviously it doesn't. So he's got his own set of values that may not match yours. And he's also got a very different perspective from his position than you have. So try and have some empathy for somebody that just lost everything and not push him to be something else, be something more. He already feels bad enough. So he's clearly humiliated by the situation as anybody would be because it's humiliating. And you feel vulnerable and you just. I mean, that's horrible. So, you know, if he doesn't want to talk, write. If he can't write, sit with him. Spend some time with him, and he's still your dad, and let him go out the way he wants to go out, you know? Because he doesn't want to struggle for the last five years of his life. That's okay.
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+MARVIN: That hit me. because I think I've been making this about me. You've obviously been making it about you, and it's not about you. You're the one that's healthy. You can speak, you can call a radio show and talk to me about how your father's an asshole because he had a stroke and he doesn't want to suffer. He's not an asshole.
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+LUKE: I never said that.
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+MARVIN: But yeah, you're right. I'm sitting here with this book like it's some kind of proof that he's giving up. When really, I'm just pissed that I can't fix it. I teach kids all day, eighth graders, and I can make them understand the Louisiana purchase or whatever, but I can't make my dad want to talk to me.
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+LUKE: It's not that he doesn't want to talk to you. He obviously wants to connect with you. Like you said, he's calling, he's reaching out, and he's sending you notes, and he wants to connect, but he doesn't want to talk, because maybe it hurts. Maybe it is just humiliating and embarrassing. It doesn't matter why. He doesn't want to, and he's, and he doesn't have to.
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+MARVIN: Yeah, you're right. God, I've been such a dick about this. I keep pushing the therapy thing every time I'm over there like, Dad, you could still improve. It's not too late. And he just looks at me like he's tired of having to disappoint me. And the thing is, I think part of me is scared that if he stops trying to talk, then we just won't have a relationship anymore.
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+LUKE: Well, that might be. And that's really sad. But if he doesn't want to talk, he doesn't want to talk. And you have to give him that freedom. And when he decides he does want to talk, he will do the work. If for some reason he gets sick of being mute and he wants more connection and he feels some optimism in his life, not just constantly being poked and prodded and pushed to do something he doesn't want to do, he might put forth the effort. So just support him as best you can without pushing him to be what you want him to be. He lost everything, and you didn't.
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+MARVIN: Yeah. Yeah, I hear you. I've been treating him like one of my students who just needs the right motivation. But he's not a kid who doesn't know better. He knows exactly what he's choosing. And I need to respect that, even if it sucks for me.
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+LUKE: Yes, you do. That's the right thing to do. So thanks for Colin, and I hope your dad is okay. And just be the best son you can to him and respect his wishes because he. He earned that. He's old enough to go out the way he wants to go out. And, uh, and yeah. And now it's time for a word from our sponsors. I'm going to be straight with you. I don't know what this product does. The folks at Bunkhouse DNS sent me a script, and I've read it four times, and I understand maybe 11% of it. Apparently, your DNS is exposed, which sounds medical. Your queries are being logged by default, which sounds a least. And Bunkhouse reroutes your lookups through encrypted tunnels, which sounds like something a villain would say in a movie before the building explodes. What I can tell you is this. I installed it. I pressed one button and a little shield icon turned green. Green means good. I know that much. My internet still works. Nothing exploded. And apparently my queries, whatever those are, are now private. Which feels like progress, even though I don't fully understand progress from all what? Bunkhouse DNS. I don't know what it does, but the shield is green, and that's enough for me. Okay, we're back. Welcome back to the show. Amber, thank you for calling in. What can we do for you tonight?
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+AMBER: Hey, Luke, thanks for taking my call. So I'm sitting here at the dispatch center on my break, and I just watched a guy total someone's car in a parking lot and drive off. And I ran his plates. And it's the youth pastor from my church.
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+LUKE: Oh, what a surprise. The youth pastor. On the sauce again. You think he was, you think he was sauced up?
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+AMBER: I mean, I don't know for sure, but it was a Walgreens at like 10 o'clock. And he backed into this sedan hard enough to cave the whole bumper in. Just sat there for a second, then pulled forward and drove off. I was trying to get my phone out to record it. And by the time I got the plate number, he was already gone.
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+LUKE: Well, are you sure it was him and his car wasn't stolen?
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+AMBER: Yeah, I'm sure. White Silverado. Plate came back to Danny Ortega. I know that truck. He picks kids up for youth group in it. He's got one of those coexist bumper stickers and a Calvary Baptist decal on the back window and I saw him behind the wheel. I'm like 90% sure it was him.
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+LUKE: Well, what is it you're going to do about the situation?
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+AMBER: That's why I'm calling. I've got the plate number written down right here on a post-it stuck to my coffee cup. And I keep staring at it. Like, do I call it in? Do I go to him directly?
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+LUKE: Well, think those things through. What happens if you call it in? And what happens if you don't? And you go to him directly. If you go speak to him about it, what outcome would you like to have happen?
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+AMBER: If I call it in, it goes to the cops. They track him down. He gets a hit and run on his record. Insurance fraud, maybe. The whole church finds out his wife, his daughter, the one he just baptized three weeks ago. I watched that.
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+LUKE: And what if Danny Ortega was a plumber from Plias? Would you feel the same way about calling the cops?
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+AMBER: No. No, I wouldn't. If it was just some random guy, I'd have already called it in.
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+LUKE: And if you go to him and talk to him, what do you think he will do?
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+AMBER: I don't know. Maybe he'd do the right thing and turn himself in. Contact the owner of the car. Or maybe he'd lie to my face. Or maybe he panics and runs. And then I'm the one who let him let him get away with it when I could have just done my job.
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+LUKE: Well, here's what I recommend you do. You know the guy and you don't want to be a snitch and you don't want to ruin somebody's life unnecessarily. So I would recommend that you try to talk to him and see what happens. And if he lies to you or if he is obviously inebriated or looks like he's in a no shape to be driving a youth van full of children around, then you call it in. But check with him first, see what happens. And, uh, for all you know, it wasn't him. It was his son driving the car.
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+AMBER: Yeah, yeah, that makes sense. Give him a chance to explain it first. I mean, I've known this guy for two years. He organizes the food drive every Thanksgiving. It just feels so out of character.
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+LUKE: Well, you never really know somebody, especially if they, uh, fall under the influence of the a drinking problem or drugs or something like that. And you can't be sure that it was him because you didn't clearly see his face. You said you only thought 90% and that's not proof.
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+AMBER: Right. I didn't see his face. Just the plate. And the track matches. White Silverado. Same dent in the tailgate I've seen in the church parking lot. But you're right. Could have been someone else driving it.
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+LUKE: Are you sure if you called that? that the police would throw the book at the guy, or would they recognize that he was a pastor and kind of give him a tap on the wrist?
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+AMBER: I mean, honestly, probably depends on who catches the call. Some of the guys I work with would absolutely go easier on him because he's a church guy. But if he was drunk, or if the damage is bad enough, or if the owner of that sedan makes a big deal about it, then it doesn't matter who he is. always that one cop who doesn't care if you're a pastor or the mayor, you know.
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+LUKE: Well, that's the right cop. You know, that's the cop that's following the law and keeping people accountable no matter who they are or what they do.
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+AMBER: So I can respect that. I can also respect the cop that lets everybody go because he recognizes it's going to ruin their lives. So I guess, yeah, it depends on which one you get. And neither one of them would be completely wrong. So that's a tough situation. But if this guy is drinking or has a drinking problem, if that's what caused the accident, he might not even remember doing it. You know, he could have been blacked out and totally oblivious to the situation. And if that's the case, that indicates that there's a problem and he shouldn't be on the road with kids.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that's what keeps eating at me. Like, if he doesn't even remember it, then what happens next Sunday when he's loading up the church van with a bunch of kids? That's the part that makes me feel like I can't just let it slide. It's not just about the bumper on some random car. It's about whether he's safe to be around those kids.
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+AMBER: Well, my recommendation is to go talk to him and give him 24 hours to turn himself in. And if he doesn't, then you do it.
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+LUKE: Okay. Yeah. That feels right. I'll go by the church tomorrow. Catch him before the food drive set up. Give him a chance to do the right thing himself. And if he doesn't.

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+LUKE: All right, ladies and gentlemen, welcome back to Luke at the Roost. This is the call-in radio show where you can call in and ask me your questions. If you'd like to call in, the number's 208-439-5853. That's 208-439 Luke. If you're not near a phone and you'd still like to participate in the show, you can email us at submissions.com. And with that out of the way, I just want you all to know that our street team has been hard at work spreading the word about the roost. All those roosters are out there dropping off stickers and business cards and truck stop bathrooms all across the country. So if you happen to see my face on a sticker, on an ice box in front of a loves, that's intentional. So don't remove it. First up on the show, we have caller Woody. Woody, welcome to the show. What would you like to talk about today?
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+WOODY: Hey, Luke, yeah. So I found a USB drive in the company truck three weeks ago, and I've been sitting on it because I'm pretty sure my foreman's been running fake invoices through our drilling operation for like two years.
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+LUKE: Did you look at what's on the USB key? Because it might be more interesting than that.
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+WOODY: Oh, I looked. I looked too much. It's not just invoices. It's spreadsheets with two sets of numbers, emails between him and some guy and me. Midland, who's definitely not a supplier, and a folder labeled backup with receipts from a casino in Ruidoso.
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+LUKE: Well, that's not good. What are you going to do with that information?
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+WOODY: That's the thing, man. I've been parked at this truck stop for three hours trying to figure that out. I could hand it to the site manager, but Big Jim's been my foreman for four years, and he got me this job when I really needed it. Or I could just toss it and pretend I never saw it, but then I'm sitting on actual fraud, and that eats at me.
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+LUKE: Why does that eat at you? What does it have to do with you?
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+WOODY: Because I'm the one who found it, you know? Like I didn't go looking for it. It was just sitting there in the glove box of truck number seven. But now I. And every time Big Jim texts me about helping with his cattle or asks me how the rig's running, I'm looking at him different. Plus my dad lost his pension when his company went under because of shit like this. So it's not just abstract to me.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, this is a buddy of yours, right? You said he got you to the job and he's your foreman, you work with him all the time. Maybe you should just talk to him and see what's up because it could be an explainable situation.
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+WOODY: I mean, yeah, I thought about that, but Luke, there's like 40 invoices from a Southwest drilling supply that doesn't exist. I googled it. And the emails, man, they're not ambiguous. There's one where he's talking about keeping the split at 6.0 and another one about making the actual equipment rentals. That's not a misunderstanding. That's a system.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, if holding on to this information makes you feel strange, how do you think being a whistleblower would make you feel?
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+WOODY: Oh, God, yeah, that's exactly it. Like, I'd be the guy who burned big Jim and everyone on the crew would know it was me because I'm the only one who drives that truck regular. I'd be done in this industry, at least around here. Word gets around fast when you're the snitch.
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+LUKE: if you're technically doing the right thing. Do you know what they say about snitches?
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+WOODY: Yeah, they get stitches. I know. And that's not even hyperbole out here. Big Jim's got friends who, look, let's just say people handle their business differently in the oil patch. But honestly, what gets me more than that is just being the guy who couldn't mind his own business.
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+LUKE: Yeah, it's a little bit messed up that you found a USB key and then looked to see what was on. Was there anything else on the key besides these invoices?
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+WOODY: Oh, there was some other stuff, like a bunch of pictures from his daughter's birthday last year, and a playlist called Big Jim's Roadhouse Mix, that's mostly George Strait and some weird country rap. But the invoices were in a folder labeled Tax Prep 2024, which is just, yeah. I mean, I wasn't snooping for this, but when you see something like that, you don't just unsee it. It's like walking in on your parents doing it. You can't pretend you didn't.
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+LUKE: Since you found it, you feel weird about it, and you don't want to sit on the fraud, and you don't want to say nothing. You've got to talk to Big Jim and ask them what it's about. Let them know that you know. Let them know that you found the key. You've got the evidence, and if it continues, you're going to turn them in, but give him the opportunity to turn it around. Because I think if you don't do that, you are going to be the snitch, and it's nobody's going to want to do business with you anymore.
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+WOODY: Oh, man, you're saying that, like, it's a choice. Like, I'm just going to walk up to Big Jim, who's got a belt buckle bigger than my fist and a temper to match and say, that's not how this works. That's how you end up in a ditch outside of Deming. But, okay, fine.
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+LUKE: Well, that's why you're smart about it, and you give a copy about it to a trusted person. If anything happens to you, that copy gets out, and you let Big Jim know that you've got the evidence. Somebody else has the evidence, and if he doesn't cut the shit, you're going to turn him in.
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+WOODY: Jesus, Luke, now we're talking about insurance policies and dead man switches like I'm in a mob movie. But I mean, yeah, that makes sense.
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+LUKE: Well, you're talking about conspiratorial fraud in an oil patch with a guy named Big Jim. You're already in a mob movie, buddy.
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+WOODY: Okay, fair point. So what? I give a copy to Angela? She already thinks I'm too paranoid. This is going to really seal the deal. Hey, babe, hold on to this USB drive and if I turn up missing, mail it to the feds. That's definitely getting me laid.
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+LUKE: That is definitely getting you laid. Chicks love danger, and you're a dangerous man. So do the right thing, be smart about it, and, you know, let them know that it's not going to stand and you can't be part of it.
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+WOODY: You know what? You're making this sound way cooler than it feels. I'm sitting here in a Flying J parking lot eating beef jerky and having an existential crisis, and you're turning me into some kind of whistleblower action hero. But all right, all right, I'll make a kind of. I'll make a I'll give it to Angela, who's either going to think this is the hottest thing I've ever done or the stupidest, and I'll have a conversation with Big Jim. A very careful conversation, probably in a public place.
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+LUKE: There you go. Now you're being smart, and it can be the hottest thing you've ever done and the stupidest. They're not mutually exclusive. So do the right thing. You've got a plan now. Execute it, and you're going to be just fine.
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+WOODY: You know what, Luke? I called in here thinking I was just going to vent and maybe get told to forget about it. And instead, you've got me planning like I'm about to take down the Gambino family. But honestly, yeah.
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+LUKE: Hey, you don't know. This could be the tip of the iceberg, but like you said, Big Jim is your buddy. He's your friend. He's a guy you want on your side. So you can frame this in a way that you're really doing him a favor. Like, look, this is going to get out one way or another, and I'm giving you the opportunity to keep the lid on that by straightening out your act.
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+WOODY: Oh, man. That's... that's actually smart. Like, hey, Jim, I stumbled across something, and I'm bringing it to you first because I respect you. But this can't continue. Make it about loyalty instead of accusation. Give him a chance to fix it before it blows up in everyone's face. The thing is, I don't even know if he's the one running this, or if he's just signing off on stuff someone above him is pushing down.
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+LUKE: Either way, you're right. It's going to come out eventually. It is about loyalty because he is your buddy. And if he's just, it wasn't about loyalty, you already would have turned him in. So that's the truth. Stick with it.
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+LUKE: Do the right thing. And maybe flee the country. Okay, so step one, make copies. Step two, give one to Angela with the sexiest, if I die, avenge me speech I can manage. Step three, talk to Big Jim like a reasonable human being. Step four, have a valid passport ready just in case. Got it.
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+WOODY: You know what, Luke?
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+LUKE: What, Woody?
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+WOODY: I feel like I just went from guy who's going to throw this in a dumpster and pretend he never saw it to guy with an actual plan in like five minutes. I don't know if that's good judgment or if you just talked me into something incredibly stupid. But I guess we'll find out. Worst case scenario, I'm calling you back from Mexico in a couple weeks.
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+LUKE: All right, Woody. Well, thanks for the call. We hope it all works out for you. And if it doesn't, we will avenge you. You have a wonderful night and stay safe out there. Tamika, Tamika, welcome to the show. What would you like to talk about tonight?
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+TAMIKA: Luke, hey. Okay, so, the sheriff just showed up at my neighbor Rose's house, looking for me because of some stupid warrant from last summer. And she? Covered for me. But now I'm sitting here thinking I might have just made everything worse for her.
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+LUKE: Well, yeah, if you're dragging somebody else into your legal problems, you're. You're obviously a burden to your friends and society. So what is it that you did?
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+TAMIKA: It was a poker game, man. Last August, over at this guy Daryl's place off Route 9. I won $400. And apparently, the game got rated like an hour after I left. Illegal gambling or whatever. I didn't even know that was coming. I just took my money and went home to my kids.
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+LUKE: And how is there a warrant for your arrest? How can they prove that you were at this illegal poker game? First of all, nobody. cares about 400 bucks in an illegal poker game. But what makes the fuzz what got them on your tail?
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+TAMIKA: That's what I'm saying. I don't even know how they got my name. Best I can figure is someone talked. Or maybe Darrell had a list or something. He was running these games pretty regular like every other weekend. But I got the notice in the mail back in September, said I had to appear for some misdemeanor thing. And I just, I didn't I was working double shifts. The kids had school starting. And honestly, Luke, I thought if I ignored it, maybe it would just go away.
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+LUKE: Well, you know damn well that you can't ignore a warrant or a deposition or anything from the court, and it's going to go away. I mean, that's stupid. But I'm not a lawyer. Let me put that out there. I'm not a lawyer at all. But I'm pretty sure somebody just saying your name doesn't put out a warrant for your arrest.
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+TAMIKA: No. You're right. I had to sign in when I got there. Daryl had this whole thing like a clipboard at the door. Said it was for insurance purposes, which I thought was weird. But whatever, I just wanted to play cards.
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+LUKE: What the hell? You walked into an illegal poker game, and the host of the game had you physically write down information that's identifiable? That's absurd. Who would do that? Why would you do that?
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+TAMIKA: I know. It sounds insane now, but at the time it felt, I don't know, legit. Like, it was true to make it seem professional or something. There were like 12 people there, half of them I knew from around town. It didn't feel sketchy. It just felt like guys playing cards on a Saturday night. I wrote down my name and phone number like an idiot and didn't think twice about it.
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+LUKE: Well, you know what? I think, skipping, skipping court, that's a crime. But having your name on a list isn't necessarily. I'm sure if you got a good enough lawyer, you could get yourself out of that one pretty easily, and you should just go to court and see what it even is. Because do you know that this is why they're looking for you? Has anybody from the police department said it's for illegal gambling?
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+TAMIKA: No, actually, the deputy didn't say anything to Rosa, except they were looking for me about a warrant. I'm just assuming it's the poker thing because that's the only legal. trouble I've had. But you're right. I don't actually know for sure what it's about. I never opened the court notice all the way. I just saw failure to appear and my stomach dropped. And I shoved it in a drawer.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, none of what you have told me thus far in this call has been very smart. So I'm questioning your intellectual capacity, but I'm going to tell you right now, you got to go to the court and see what this is about and get it cleared up, because it's not going to get better if you continue to hide. from the sheriff. It could be nothing. It could be, uh, it's, it's probably unrelated, but you know what's worse than illegal gambling? You won $400. That's tax evasion. That's way worse. They will come after you forever for evading tax on $400. So you clean this up.
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+TAMIKA: Oh God, I didn't even. I didn't report it on my taxes. Luke, I just bought groceries and shoes for my kid. I didn't think about the IRS. Jesus Christ, is that really worse? Because now I'm spiraling here. You think that's what this is about?
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+LUKE: No, I don't think that's what this is about. I think this is about something completely different. Because honestly, nobody cares about your $400 local poker game. There would have to be something else going down there, and you're not the one that they're after. If they're staking out a high-stakes-if it's a Molly's game situation, they're not after you. and they're not looking for you. They might be trying to get information out of you about someone else that was there. That I could see, but nobody cares about your 400 bucks. They might try to use that for leverage. But, yeah, and since I've identified that you're not the brightest, do not report this to the IRS.
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+TAMIKA: Okay, okay, so you think they want me to talk about somebody else who was there? Because there were a couple guys I didn't recognize. One of them had a real. nice watch was throwing around hundreds like it was nothing. Daryl seemed to know him, though. You think that's what this is? They're trying to flip me on someone bigger?
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+LUKE: I have no idea what this is because you didn't read the fucking document they sent you that told you what it is. So maybe read that. It might have some indication. I'm just trying to give you a game plan for if you do go into the sheriff's office and they have questions because that would be their intention. It's not to come after you, a mother of however many kids you're all. mother of for $400 in a home poker game.
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+TAMIKA: Two kids. And yeah, you're right. I need to dig that paper out of the drawer and actually read the whole thing. I just panicked when I saw Warrant and my name and I couldn't deal with it. But now Rosa's spooked. The deputy's been to her house and I'm sitting here making tea at midnight like that's going to solve anything. I'll look at it tomorrow morning. First thing.
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+LUKE: That's good because otherwise you're spiraling into a life of crime and you're bringing down the people that are around you with you. And it's, uh, you're a detriment to society. And nobody wants that. So, so, uh, take care of this situation. And if you've got to stop playing poker at this poker game, I would recommend doing that for now. And, uh, maybe play online or actually go to a casino. There are plenty of casinos with poker rooms where you can go play legitimate poker, uh, for stakes that you're, uh, that you're, that you're, uh, that you're comfortable with.
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+TAMIKA: Yeah. Yeah. No. I haven't been back since. That was six months ago, and I learned my lesson. I'm not cut out for that kind of thing. I get nervous just thinking about it now. You're right, though. I need to stop hiding and just deal with it like an adult.
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+LUKE: That is correct. Thank you for the call. We hope it all works out. And congratulations on your big poker win. Thanks for the call again, Tamika. Now it's time for a word from our sponsors. Today's show is brought to you by Overwhelmed VPN. Worried about online privacy? You should be. You should be worried about everything.
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+CLARENCE: Oh, man, it's going. You know, got the space heater cranked. Doing paperwork I should have done three weeks ago. So living the dream. But hey, Luke, I got to ask you something.
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+LUKE: All right, hit me with some funny shit.
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+CLARENCE: So last Saturday, I'm at my buddy Danny's barbecue. We've known each other 20 years, right? Hunt together, help each other move, the whole deal. I go inside to grab a beer, and I hear him out by the grill, telling people that I can't even keep my own marriage running, much less an AC unit. And here's the thing. He's not wrong about the marriage part. Been divorced two years. But man, that landed different than the usual shit we give each other. I don't understand.
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+LUKE: that bother you, sir. I mean, okay, so normally we bust each other's balls all the time, you know? That's just what we do. But this wasn't to my face. And how well do you know your way around an AC unit?
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+CLARENCE: What do you mean? I've been running Clarence's heating and cooling for 16 years, Luke. I know my way around an AC unit just fine. That's not the point.
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+LUKE: What is the point, sir? Your buddy said some shit behind your back and you didn't like that?
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+CLARENCE: No, it's not just that. It's the way he said it. Like he was of it. Like he'd been waiting to say it. And here's the thing. Danny's my best friend.
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+LUKE: Okay. How do you know he was talking about you? I mean, there's not that many clearances around, but there could be more than one clearance.
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+CLARENCE: Oh, come on, Luke. We were at barbecue. literally in the next room. He knows I run the AC business in town. And when I came back out with the beer, everyone got real quiet and looked at their shoes, you know?
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+LUKE: Okay. Is it a possibility that you may be a cuckold?
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+CLARENCE: What? No, Jesus, Luke. I'm divorced. There's no cuckolding happening.
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+LUKE: Okay, so you can't keep a marriage together and you've been divorced for a long time. It's not a very good from your friend. So I don't understand why this is bothering you much. Talk to your buddy and figure out what that was about. Maybe he was drunk. Maybe he was tripping on acid. You don't know.
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+CLARENCE: I mean, yeah, the divorce was three years ago. And you're right. It's not even a creative insult. But that's what's eating at me, Luke. It wasn't creative. It was just true.
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+LUKE: Okay. So there you go. You're bothered by it because what he said was the truth and you knew it. So what are you going to do about that? It's not his fault.
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+CLARENCE: No, you're right. It's not his fault. I just, I've been sitting here all week thinking about it, and I keep coming back to the same thing. Like, why would he say that? We've been friends for 20 years.
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+LUKE: Why don't you ask him that? Why are you calling the radio to ask me why he would say the truth about your life?
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+CLARENCE: Because I'm afraid of what he'll say, all right? I'm afraid he'll tell me he's been thinking it for. years that everyone's been thinking it, that I'm the guy who can fix everyone else's AC, but can't keep his own shit from falling apart.
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+LUKE: And I heard Woody earlier, the guy with Big Jim and the fraud thing, and he's going to go confront his friend directly. And that's the same advice I'm going to give to you is to go confront your friend directly, because if your friend's feeling that way about you and has been for some time, maybe that friendship is not worth keeping.
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+CLARENCE: Yeah. Yeah, yeah, you're right. I just, sitting here in this office at midnight, you know, 20 years of friendship, we were at each other's weddings. His kid calls me Uncle Clarence.
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+LUKE: Well, that's a bit weird. That sounds a little creepy. I don't know what to tell you, Clarence. This doesn't sound like much of an issue to me. Go talk to your friend and figure out what that was about because people spout off shit all the time.
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+CLARENCE: Whoa, hold on. The kid thing isn't creepy, Luke. That's just what kids do down here. All my buddy's kids call me uncle. That's normal. But you're right about the rest. I'm making this bigger than it is.
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+LUKE: Well, that is not normal, sir. I'm here to tell you that Uncle Clarence sounds creepy. So go talk to your friend and stop being such a baby. Jesus, it's with these people. Next up on the line, we have Sandy. Sandy, welcome to the show. How can we help you? I hope you have a better story for us than Clarence did. Jesus. What about that guy? Uncle Clarence over there? I'm creep.
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+SANDY: Oh man, no. I'm not calling about my feelings getting hurt at a barbecue. I can promise you that. So here's the thing. My boss gave me until next Saturday to sign off on a bunch of fire safety reports that say we did drills and equipment checks that absolutely never happened, like not even close. home, and I'm supposed to just put my name on paperwork that says we're all good when we are very much not all good. And I know what you're going to say. Don't sign it, report it, whistleblow. But what I actually want to talk about is how this is exactly the kind of thing that's been keeping me stuck in this town for two years longer than I should have been here.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, I don't understand that last part, and you're right. I am going to tell you to whistleblow like that. I mean, if something were to happen, then you'd never be able to live with yourself afterwards if you did not whistleblow. But what is it about this situation that's been keeping you stuck in this town?
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+SANDY: No, it's not that this specific situation has been keeping me stuck. It's that this is like the perfect example of how everything works here. Like, my girlfriend left for Tucson two years ago, and I didn't go with her because I had this job and it felt responsible, you know? stable, and now I'm sitting here at one in the morning in an empty building, being asked to compromise myself just so this place can keep its license and keep operating. Which is the same logic for everything. The county's broke, the state fundings a joke, so we all just agree to fudge things a little bit here and there because otherwise the whole thing falls apart.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, there's a lot of fudging going around and a lot of businesses. I've never worked anywhere where at some point I wasn't asked to compromise myself. So that is part of capitalism, I think. But when it's a safety issue, if it really has you concerned and people could be hurt from your lack of, lack of, what's the word, I'm not looking for, integrity, then you've got to do something about that. Because if you don't, then you suck. You might as well kill the people yourself, right? you have to report that.
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+SANDY: Yeah, I know. I'm not signing it. I already decided that. I called my supervisor on Friday and told her I wasn't comfortable with it. And she gave me this whole speech about how we're all doing the best we can with what we have. And how if I make a big deal out of this, the state could shut us down. And then where would these residents go? Which is probably true, honestly.
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+LUKE: It may be true, but you know what would not happen? Those residents would not die in a fire because they didn't shut down a place that was unsafe.
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+SANDY: Right, exactly. And that's the thing. I'm not even wrestling with whether to sign it anymore. I'm not going to.
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+SANDY: What I keep thinking about is how I've been making these little compromises for two years, telling myself it's because I care about the residents, or because the way. work matters, whatever. But really?
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+LUKE: Yeah, I sympathize with that situation. I think we've all been in similar positions, and I can understand how you feel sort of compromised because you have compromised, but that doesn't mean you have to continue, right? You've come to this realization. You've had this moment of clarity. And this is how the world works. That's every single place I've ever worked, has asked me to compromise myself in some way. Now, they're not all safety issues, but it's always somebody saying, well, you got to do this for us, even though I know that it's wrong. And, and, you know the thing? You can compromise for them over and over and over. You can be as loyal as, I don't know, a golden retriever. And when it comes down to it, they will throw you under the bus in a second.
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+SANDY: Oh, I know. I saw it happen. to the last night shift supervisor. She tried to raise a stink about the staffing levels, and suddenly she was no longer a good fit. Poof, gone. And I'm sitting here in the break room. Boots propped up on a folding chair, picking at a Diet Coke label, and the only light on in the whole building is this one and the hallway nightlights.
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+LUKE: Yeah, and it's good to do the best you can and care because in some respects, you're obviously doing the right thing and helping a lot of people. And that's good. But the company doesn't care about you. And it doesn't matter what company it is because the company cares about the company. And if you're not an owner of that company, they do not give a shit about you. They might pretend to, but that is performative. That is HR. That is marketing. So make sure you know that when you're going into this stuff. The best work you can, but at the end of the day, you are on your own. And don't compromise.
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+SANDY: Yeah, and that's what my girlfriend kept saying before she left. She was like, Sandy, they're using your sense of responsibility against you. And I didn't want to hear it then, because it felt like she was saying the work didn't matter, but that's not what she meant. She meant exactly what you're saying. They'll take everything you're willing to give and then act surprised when you finally say no to something.
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+LUKE: And honestly? You know what? I used to work for a company called Salesforce. Maybe you've heard of them. The CEO there, his name's Mark Beniof. And when I worked there in like 2015-ish, it was the culture of the company. It was a very employee-forward company. there's all the snacks you could eat and Ohana culture. Like they were all about Hawaii and Ohana and everybody's family here. And you know what's happened at Salesforce now? They laid off 40% of the workforce and all of that performative bullshit about philanthropy and fixing hospital wings has turned into, how can I suck the dick of President Donald J. Trump so that I can get the tax rebates that he was promised? And this dude Benning, off, he's out there making jokes about ice and saying, I should come to San Francisco and clean it up. And it's the complete antithesis of what the company was founded on because all of that is bullshit. So when a company is in a position to be playing public opinion with their philanthropy and good works and employee first culture, take that with a grain of salt because when the tides turn, they turn with them.
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+SANDY: Jesus. Yeah, I mean, this place never even pretended to be that. We've always been broke and scrambling. But you're right, it's the same thing just at a different scale. They'll use the we're helping people angle to get you to cover shifts with no notice, to ignore safety violations, to take on extra residents when we're already understaffed.
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+LUKE: Yeah, when I was there, they had. this big conference every year and they get will I am and whoever is popular at the time to come in and give a speech about change in the world or some bullshit. And when I was there, that person that they paid hundreds of thousands of dollars to come speak was Hillary Clinton. Hillary Clinton came to the company and all support behind Hillary Clinton. But you know who we're in bed with today? Mr. Donald J. Trump. And that's the thing.
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+SANDY: At least with... those big companies. You know it's all fake from the start. Here, it's worse in a way, because everyone actually does care about the residents. Like, my co-workers really do give a shit, but the organisation itself is still using that against us. If you don't sign this, if you don't stay late, if you don't cover that shift, these vulnerable people suffer. And that's The truth is, I should have left when gendered.
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+LUKE: Yeah, and I sympathize with your situation, because that is true. Most of the people that you work with that are subordinates, that are employees of the company doing the actual work, they do care. They do want to do their best work. They do want to take care of the clients. But the people that make the money, they don't give shit. And as soon as they can find a way to do it cheaper, regardless of if it's better or more effective, they're going to do it cheaper and they're going to cut you. you. So don't stay up all night for the company. Or, I mean, even for the residents, I would say, once in a while, that's okay, but you can't burn yourself out or give up relationships or decide where you live for that. That's too much. And I'm glad that you've come to this realization now before they're throwing you to the curb. So yeah, find yourself a new position, work for yourself. Be your own. agent.
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+SANDY: Yeah. And the stupid thing is, Jen's been telling me for months there's work in Tucson. She's managing a coffee roaster now making more than I do here. And she keeps saying they need people. But I've been telling myself all these reasons why I can't leave. The residents need consistency. My co-workers are already stretched thin. I know this place inside and out. But Really?
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds like it's time for you to move on. And you did it for as long as you could. You did the best you could. And when it came time to compromise your morals and your values, you stood up for yourself. And you said, I'm not doing this. And you stood up for your clients in the same way by not allowing, not allowing them to be in an unsafe situation. So you can feel proud of that and sleep good tonight because you did the right thing. And now it's time to move on.
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+SANDY: Yeah, you're right. I'm not signing those reports. And honestly, I think I've known since Tuesday I wasn't going to. I just needed to.
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+LUKE: Well, good. I wish you the best of luck, wherever you end up, and remember the lesson that you learned here, because that is the way that it is. And make sure that you are completely aware of the compromises that you're making and their effect on your well-being. and your life, because nobody else is thinking about that for you, even if they tell the world that they are. They're not.
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+SANDY: Yeah. Thank you, Luke. Really? I'm going to call Jen when I get off shift. And hey, maybe I'll call you back in a few months from Tucson and let you know how it went.
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+LUKE: All right. Thank you for the call, Sandy. And I hope that it all works out for you. Associate employee contemporaries at Salesforce aren't going to be happy about that one, but fuck them. Now it's time for a word from our sponsors. Stressed, sore, skeptical, doesn't matter. Try placebo leaf, the CBD brand that may or may not do anything but cost enough that you'll convince yourself it works. Our tinctures, gummies, and topicals contain premium hemp extract, and your desperate need to feel better without addressing root causes. Is it the cannabinoids or is it the ritual of self-care? Who's to say? Placebo Leaf is THC-free, vegan, organic, and backed by studies we vaguely reference but don't link to. Take our gummies before bed and sleep great, probably because you retired anyway, but you'll credit us.
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+LUKE: Available in flavors like calm and focus. Concepts we've bottled and marked up for 100%. Visit Placeboleaf.com and use code chill. for 25% off. Placebo leaf, wellness is a feeling, and feelings can be purchased. All right, I am calmed down now after our last call. That one got to me because the exploitation of people in that way really pisses me off. And I've seen it too many times at too many companies now. So let's move on. Next up. On the line we have Lakeisha. Lakeisha, welcome to the show. What would you like to talk about today?
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+LAKEISHA: Hey, Luke. Yeah. So I went to my high school reunion tonight and nobody remembered me. And I mean, like I was a ghost, four years at that school. And I walked in and got blank stairs.
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+LUKE: Okay. Well, how, what was your participation in school? Were you in any, like the band or sports? Or what, what was you? was your school like?
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+LAKEISHA: Oh man. I was everywhere. Volleyball team. Choir second soprano. Thank you very much. Worked the concession stand at every single football game. You name it. I was the one who always had the extra pen in geometry. The one who'd drive people home when their car broke down. I was.
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+LUKE: And tonight? How many concession stand workers do you remember?
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+LAKEISHA: Okay. Fair, but I'm not talking about, like, random people I stood next to once. There was this girl, Brittany, who copied my geometry homework every single day for an entire semester. We sat together. Every day.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, I will admit that this scenario sounds odd, that you could have been that involved in school at the time, and nobody remembers you now. Did they remember each other? Was this like a spike-the-punch situation where everybody was... set up for a high school reunion orgy? Like, what was the vibe of the reunion?
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+LAKEISHA: Oh, it was a Spike the Punch situation, though I wish it had been. At least then I'd have an excuse for why nobody remembered me. No, it was just polite. Like, everyone was being nice. Too nice. The kind of nice that makes you feel like you're being humored.
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+LUKE: Well, yeah, it was a high school reunion. Nobody wants to be there. Everybody's being humored. Um, that's, that's the deal. But it sounds odd nobody remembered you. Are you significantly different now? Do you look different? Uh, uh, uh, this is your voice changed? Uh, what, what were you like in high school versus what you're like today?
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+LAKEISHA: I mean, I've got different hair now. I cut it short about a year ago. But it's not like I had plastic surgery or something. I'm still me. Maybe a little heavier. But who isn't after four years?
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+LUKE: Define a little.
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+LAKEISHA: Okay, maybe 30 pounds. Fine. But Luke, come on. I'm not unrecognizable. And it's not just how I look.
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+LUKE: I'm not trying to shame you in any way. I'm just trying to understand how this could happen. And if somebody has significantly changed their physical appearance in some way, I mean, that's one way it could happen. You say it's not just how you look. How else is it?
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+LAKEISHA: It's... I don't know. Maybe I'm quieter now. In high school, I was always the one organizing stuff, you know, making plans, pulling people together. Now I deal blackjack at the casino five nights a week, and I barely talk except to call bets. I watch the same people lose the same money every shift, and I just...
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+LUKE: Okay, well, I've got a question for you now. It's a strange thing that you're describing for sure. It would make sense that at least some of those people would remember remember you from your days in high school. But why do you care if your high school reunion buddies remember you today? What does that matter? How many of them do you still interact with? I mean, if you stayed close with anybody from high school, they would obviously remember you. So you must not be close with any of them. And what does it matter if they remember you or not? High school was over a long time ago.
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+LAKEISHA: Because I don't know. I guess I needed proof that I was real back then. that those years actually happened and meant something. And not close with anyone from high school, you're right. But when you're standing there, and someone you ate lunch with every single day is looking at you like you're a stranger.
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+LUKE: Yeah, it's odd, and I see how that could feel pretty terrible for a little while. But then, I mean, take that emotion out of it for a second and think about the situation and how much that actually affects your life. It doesn't matter that those years mattered. It was high school. They didn't matter. And the ones that matter are the ones that are now.
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+LAKEISHA: You're right. I know you're right. But that's what scares me, Luke. What if it's happening now, too?
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+LUKE: Well, are you close with anybody?
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+LAKEISHA: My grandmother. That's pretty much it. I live with her. Actually. I'm sitting in her kitchen right now with this stupid name tag still on my sweater.
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+LUKE: Okay. Well, maybe this is a wake-up call to you to do more with your life. I assume you're working at the casino because it's the best job you could get with what you had at the time. What did you do after high school? Did you get a degree or what trade did you want to go into?
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+LAKEISHA: I did a year at community college, tried to do nursing. But my mom got sick, cancer, and I dropped out to help take care of her. She died about three years ago. After that, I just... I needed money, you know?
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+LUKE: Yeah, and that makes a lot of sense. You got to do what you got to do for the money. But what I'm asking is, if you did not need money, what is it that you would be doing?
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+LAKEISHA: I was good at organizing things, events, fundraisers, that kind of stuff. In high school, I ran the whole volleyball banquet senior year, got local businesses to donate, made it this whole thing. I liked making people feel...
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+LUKE: Making people feel how?
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+LAKEISHA: Seen, I guess. Like they mattered. That banquet. I made sure every single player got recognized for something specific, not just the starters. I spent weeks on it.
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+LUKE: Well, that's a good leadership trait to have, because that empowers people to be the best version of themselves, and do their best work, and make them feel good, and it makes you personable, and it makes you somebody people want to be around. So if that's your personality, if that's what you're about, I don't think you're going to have trouble in adulthood, having people remember you 10 years down the line. What is going to be a problem is that you don't have anybody that you're close with outside your grandmother right now, and she's not going to be around forever. I hate to say, you're going to have to have some other people in your life that you're starting these long lifetime relationships with.
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+LAKEISHA: That's what terrifies me, though, because I had that, or I thought I did. years of sitting at the same lunch table, four years of volleyball practice, sleepovers, all of it. And tonight, it was like none of it ever happened.
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+LUKE: I talked to one person from high school. I think most people don't talk to people from high school anymore. Especially if you've ever moved or changed locations, it makes sense to not stay tight with the people that, you know, you were tight with when you were 15. But you're not 15 anymore. And you had a... a wake-up call tonight or whenever you had your reunion. And it's time to move forward with your life and do something for you. You took care of your mother when she was sick, and that was a great thing. You spent time with your grandmother and keeping her company, and that's a great thing. But you also have to take care of yourself and your own social, not your social standing, but your social health if being around people is important to you. Now, you've got... important skills that not everybody has, especially when it comes to fundraising. So my recommendation is to get involved with maybe a town board or a committee, a chamber of commerce, and get yourself plugged into the community and start making some friends and doing stuff with them. The casino is probably not the place for that, but there are lots of places around where you can find your fitting and provide a lot to... to those places.
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+AKEESHAH: You're right. I know you're right. It's just... I've been in this holding pattern for so long, waiting for life to start happening again after my mom died. And tonight made me realize I've been invisible this whole time, not just at the reunion, at work, in town, everywhere.
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+LUKE: Well, if it's important to you to be seen, then go be seen. And there's lots of ways to do that, and you have the skills. So make it happen. If it's not important to be seen, you don't have to. It doesn't matter either way. It's up to you. What's important to you in your life? And it sounds like right now you're feeling like it's important to be seen. So go get yourself seen.
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+AKEESHAH: I don't even know where to start. Like, do I just walk into the Chamber of Commerce and say, hey, I used to organize high school banquets. Hire me? That sounds ridiculous.
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+LUKE: Well, you don't know. You don't have to work for them. But, yeah, if you walk into pretty much any place in the country and say I'm good at raising funds, then, yeah, they're going to want to work with you.
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+AKEESHAH: Huh. I never thought about it like that. I've just been thinking of it as this high school thing I used to do. Not like an actual skill people need.
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+LUKE: Well, it is a very important skill that a lot of people need. You could join a political party and do it for a candidate that you agree with their platform. for the betterment of society, for social reasons. You could fundraise for yourself. Everybody needs a fundraiser, and if you enjoy that work and you're good at it, you're not going to struggle for work.
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+AKEESHAH: You know what's funny? I actually liked it. The organizing part. Getting people to show up. Making them feel like they mattered. At the casino, I'm just...
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+LUKE: Well, at the casino, you're raising funds for the... the casino, which is fine. I mean, I like to go to the casino, and there are dealers there at all the games that make it fun and inviting, and they're very pleasant to be around and memorable. So even if you stayed at the casino, you can still utilize those skills and make yourself seen. But I would recommend, since you've described what you enjoy doing, that you go do that.
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+AKEESHAH: Yeah, yeah. I could actually do that. There's a literacy thing my grandmother mentioned. They're trying to get funding for after-school tutoring. I could call them Monday.
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+LUKE: Well, there you go. Call them Monday and get yourself started, and when you plug yourself into the community like that, you're going to make friends, and they're going to remember you, especially if you've raised them half a million dollars. You're not going to be forgotten. But don't worry about high school. Everybody forgets high school. It's a forgettable time.
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+AKEESHAH: You're right. God, I've been holding on to that so tight, like those four years were supposed to define everything, and instead they just evaporated. But maybe that's okay.
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+LUKE: That's okay, and I think most people are glad that those years evaporated, because they're not the ones that define us. They're the ones that kind of shape how our adulthood begins, but they're plastic.
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+AKEESHAH: Yeah, that's a good way to put it. Like, it's not set in stone. I can still...
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+LUKE: You can still do whatever it is you want to do. So I recommend that you go do that. And we're running out of time, so I've got to hang up with you, but I appreciate the call. And I hope you feel better and move forward with your life. Don't worry about being recognized by people you don't even talk to anymore.
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+AKEESHAH: Thank you, Luke. I really... Yeah, I'm going to make that call Monday.
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+LUKE: All right. Well, thank you for the call, Akeeshah. I hope that it works out. And you find yourself in a new life that brings you great abundance and joy. And that's the end of our show.

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+LUKE: All right, welcome back. I'm your host Luke. This is Luke at the Roost, the call-in radio show where you can call in and tell me about what's going on in your life. I'll give you the best advice I can. If you'd like to call in, the number is 208-439-58-3. That's 208-439 Luke. If you're not near a phone or you can't call right now, we can take emails. You can email us at submissions at Luke at the Roast. We'll take your email and if I think it's funny enough, we might read it on the show. So, with that being said, it's Sunday, February 22nd and we're going to get to our callers here. The phone is lighting up and today we've got Dexter. Dexter, thanks for calling in. What's going on in your life tonight?
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+DEXTER: Hey, Luke. Yeah. So I've been reading this Marcus Aurelius book. Right. The Stoic philosophy stuff. And I actually think it's making me worse. Like, I'm getting good at not feeling anything and my mom called me out on it tonight and now I'm sitting here wondering if I've just traded one kind of numbness for another.
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+LUKE: Are you talking about meditations? I think maybe you're missing the point. Marcus Aurelius never said not to have any emotions. He said not to let them control you. There's a difference.
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+DEXTER: Yeah, meditations. That's the one. And okay, maybe you're right. But here's the thing. This afternoon, my boss just tore into this kid for 20 minutes straight. I mean really laying into him over something that wasn't even that big of a deal, and I just stood there watching it happen. Didn't feel angry, didn't feel bad for the kid, didn't feel anything. I was just breathing through it like the book says, staying calm, and afterward I felt nothing, which I thought was the whole point, but then my mom calls, and she can tell something's off just from my voice.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, it doesn't sound like you felt nothing, made an impression on you. You're still thinking about it now. So it obviously made you feel something that maybe you're trying to repress or push away or not acknowledge. But it did something to you to keep it on your mind for this long.
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+DEXTER: Shit. Yeah, okay, you're right. I'm still thinking about it because it pissed me off. Not even at my boss, really. I mean, he's always been like that, but at myself for just standing there.
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+LUKE: Well, yep, that is a little bit, if you think it was wrong and you didn't stand up for yourself and for the kid, then maybe that's a little bit cowardly. And are you going to do the same thing next time? Or are you going to, I mean, Marcus Aurelius would tell you to learn from your mistakes and not make the same mistake twice.
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+DEXTER: You're not wrong. It was cowardly. The kid's name is Jamie. He's 19, been here maybe three months, and he left a gate open that let some cattle drift.
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+LUKE: Well, you know, you might not know the whole story. You might have done that three or four times and been told nicely not to do it and continue to do it anyway. So maybe that kid Jamie deserves the strong wording.
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+DEXTER: No, that's fair. I don't know the whole history there. But it wasn't even really about the gate. My boss was going off about how Janie's generation doesn't respect anything. Doesn't know how to work. All this other stuff that had nothing to do with cattle. It turned into this whole thing about kids these days and their phones and whatever. that's the part that got under my skin. Watching this kid just take it with his head down while my boss used him as a punching bag for everything else he's mad about in the world.
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+LUKE: Well, what's any of that got to do with you?
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+DEXTER: Because I've been that kid. Eight years ago when I started here, I was Jamie, screwing up, getting yelled at. Nobody's stepping in. And I told myself back then that if I ever got to where I am now, where the younger guys look up to me, stand there and watch it happen to someone else. But that's exactly what I did today. I broke a promise to myself, and I'm trying to use this philosophy book to convince myself it was the smart move to stay quiet.
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds like you know whether it was the smart move or not, but just to play devil's advocate here, Jamie is 19 years old, he's an adult, and he's in the real world and a real job, and he has to learn to stand up for himself. I think we all do. So I mean, we've all had that boss that is overbearing and unreasonable, and flat out mean. And at some point, part of growth is learning how to stand up to that and to say, hey, I'm not going to let you speak to me that way. If you've got a problem with the gate, go close the fucking gate yourself.
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+DEXTER: You're absolutely right. And that's exactly what I've been telling myself all night. He's got to learn to handle it himself. It's not my job to fight his battles. But here's what I keep coming back to. When I was 19 and getting treated like that, I didn't have anybody show me it was okay to push back. I just learned to take it and shut down. Which is why eight years later, I'm real good at feeling nothing when I should feel something. So, yeah, maybe Jamie needs to learn to stand up for himself. But how's he supposed to learn that when everyone around him is mommeling the opposite?
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds like you're lying to yourself. You're not feeling nothing. You're feeling cowardly. You're feeling shame in yourself for not standing up when you saw an injustice in the world. And the stoic way to handle that would be to acknowledge it and make sure that you don't do that again in the future without dwelling on it or feeling remorse or guilt unnecessarily for a long time and wasting time that you could be being productive. So if I were you, I would take both of them aside the next time you had the opportunity and explain to the kid that he has to stand up for himself and explain to the boss that what you saw was unaccepted. That is leadership and that is the Stoic philosophy. So keep reading the book and do your best and don't beat yourself up, but move forward in a productive way.
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+DEXTER: Yeah, you're right. I am feeling it. I've been sitting here stewing for hours pretending I'm above it. And you just laid out exactly what I need to do, which is the scary part, because now I actually have to do it. Talk to both of them.
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+LUKE: That's it. Just talk to both of them. And the more you do that, the more confidence you'll have in doing that and the less scary it'll become in the future. Because this isn't something that is going to be the end of it, right? You're going to have to deal with this all throughout your life. You're going to have to stand up for yourself and for others and show leadership when there is injustice in the world. If that's who you want to be and it sounds like it is. So don't worry about it. Get some sleep. And tomorrow have those conversations and be confident and say your peace and accept the result and do what you can. But you can't change, what you can't change, you can make an attempt. And that's all you can do.
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+DEXTER: You know what, Luke? I needed to hear that. I really did. I've been sitting here with this book trying to find permission to do nothing. And you just called me out on it.
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+LUKE: Well, you're obviously not reading the book then, because it says exactly what I'm telling you. It's not a rare book. A lot of people have read meditations. And, uh, the Stoic philosophy is pretty well understood. So if what you're getting out of that book is to stay quiet and feel nothing, then we're reading different books.
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+DEXTER: No, you're right. I'm cherry-picking the parts that let me off the hook. The whole, except what you can't control thing. I've been using it backwards. Using it as an excuse not to try instead of his piece after I've actually done something. That's not Stoicism. That's just being a coward with a fancy excuse. Appreciate you straightening me out, Luke.
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+LUKE: No problem. That's what we do here at Luke and the Roost is we straighten people out. Next up on the show, we have Candy. Candy, welcome to the show.
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+CARL: Do you remember that show Strangers with Candy? It was this lady that was all drunk and crazy on Comedy Central. Oh, man. Yeah. Amy Sedaris, right? My sister used to watch that show all the time. I never really got into it, though. I was more of a Reno 911 person back then. But hey, Luke. I got to tell you why I'm actually calling. Because I'm sitting in my bathroom with the shower running so my kid doesn't hear me, and I'm kind of losing it here. My 14-year-old just told me she wants to move to Tucson to live with her dad and his new wife. And I think the worst part is she had this whole speech prepared like she was breaking up with me.
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+LUKE: You know what I always say? 911 was an inside job. So about the 14-year-old, I think that's very normal. I did that myself. I think a lot of. lot of children of divorced parents think the grass is going to be greener on the other side or just want to try to live a different lifestyle, a different life. It's a pretty normal thing. So that might hurt, but she'll probably be back when she realizes dad's house isn't as fun as she thought it was going to be.
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+CARL: Yeah, I mean, you're probably right. But here's the thing. I've been running my mom's bakery since I was 21, getting up at 3 in the morning single day and this girl has never wanted for anything her dad moved to Tucson three years ago with this woman who works from home doing something with marketing or whatever and now suddenly that looks better than what I'm doing like I get it the new wife doesn't smell like yeast and actually has time to do her nails but I've been busting my ass here and the way she said it Luke she wouldn't even look at me
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+LUKE: yeah but it's not really about you and it doesn't matter what sort of life you gave her She would still be curious and think that it was better somewhere else. That's just human nature. So don't take it personally. It's not personal. Unless you guys have some other darkness in the relationship I'm not aware of, my guess is just that it looks like more fun over there, and she wants to go see what that's like.
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+CARL: You're right. You're right. I mean, there's no darkness or anything like that. We get along fine, or at least I thought we did.
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+LUKE: Well, Take advantage of the situation. Let her do it. Let her dad take care of the kid and then that frees you up to do some stuff that maybe you wouldn't otherwise be able to do. Enjoy it while it lasts and be there for her if she wants to come back.
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+CARL: Okay, but see, that's where my head goes to a dark place. Because part of me is actually relieved, and that makes me feel like the worst mother in the world. Like, I could sleep past three in the morning. I could maybe go on an actual date without worrying about getting home. I've been This alone for so long that when she said it, there was this split second where I thought, oh, thank God, before the hurt even kicked in.
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+LUKE: Yeah, and there's nothing wrong with that. I mean, you're a person too, and it would be nice for you to be able to live some of your youthful years on your own. So if that's what everybody wants, if everybody's in agreement, the kid wants to go there, the dad is okay with it, and you're okay with it. It sounds like a good thing and a change for everybody. So he gets to spend more time with his daughter. You get to spend more time with yourself, and she gets to see what it's like living in other conditions. Everybody wins.
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+CARL: You know what? When you say it like that, it doesn't sound so pathetic. I think I've just been so stuck in this loop of work and being mom that I forgot I'm actually only 23. What? My sister Brenda keeps telling me I need to live a little, but we're not even talking right now because of some stupid fight about passwords and privacy stuff. God, I sound like a mess, don't I? But okay, yeah, maybe this is actually a good thing.
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+LUKE: So you're 23 years old and you have a 14-year-old daughter?
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+CARL: Yeah, I had her when I was nine. No, I'm sorry. God, I'm all over the place tonight. I'm 37, not 23. The bakery, I've been running it for two years since my mom had her stroke. And I'm 37.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, you're 37, and now you have the opportunity to be single at 37 some of your life while you're still young. I think it's great. Let her do it. Be supportive. Maybe see her on the weekends.
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+CARL: Very good. You're right. Yeah, you're totally right. I'm going to tell her tomorrow that if this is what she wants, we'll figure it out. Maybe I'll even get one of those dating apps everyone's always talking about. Though honestly, the thought of that terrifies me more than telling my daughter she can go.
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+LUKE: Tell her she can go. And, yeah, I mean, I think those dating apps are probably less fun and you're imagining that they are, but give it a shot. Especially if you haven't yet, then yeah, that's exciting. And nobody's getting hurt here. So great. It's a win for everybody. Do it and enjoy your life.
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+CARL: Okay, yeah. Thank you, Luke. I really needed to hear that. I've been sitting in here with the shower running so she wouldn't hear me lose it. And now I feel like maybe I'm not completely screwing this up. I'm going to go talk to her tomorrow and actually be supportive instead of making it about me.
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+LUKE: That sounds like a good plan, Candy. You're a good mom, and you deserve some happiness in your life. So go get it. And when dad's house sucks and she wants to come home, be ready for that. That's all. And now, ladies and gentlemen, we have to take a word from our sponsor, Squarehole. I'm going to get dark for a second. You're going to die someday. Not today, probably. But someday, and when you do, what's going to represent your business? A Craigslist post from 2020? A Google Maps pin that still says permanently closed because you forgot to update it after COVID. A nephew who knows computers but actually just has a Reddit account? Your legacy deserves better than a nephew with a Reddit account. Squarehole lets you build something that outlasts you. Something your kids can point to and say, Dad built that. They won't know it took you a lot. minutes, that's between you and Squarehole. And when your nephew says, I could have built that for you for free, you can look them in the eye and say, then why didn't you, Tyler? I asked you in 2021 and you said you were busy and you were not busy. Squarehole. Build it before Tyler has to, because Tyler is not going to. Okay, thanks to Squarehole for sponsoring this episode. Next up on the line we have Carl. Carl, welcome to the show. What's going on out there for you tonight?
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+CARL: Luke, hey, so I just yelled at my daughter about her car registration, and I swear to God it was my dad's voice coming out of my mouth. Like word for word what he used to say to me. You think I'm made of money? You think this shit just appears. I heard myself say it, and I just froze.
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+LUKE: Okay, what happened? What's the situation with the registration, and why did it cost you money?
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+CARL: So she's got this beat up. up Civic, right? Registrations like 200 bucks, and she asked if I could help cover it because she's been picking up extra shifts at Target, but they cut her hours, which is totally reasonable. But I just got hit with this storage facility repair bill. Some kid broke into a unit last week, busted the lock mechanism on the whole row.
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+LUKE: Okay, don't you have insurance on your business?
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+CARL: Yeah, but there's a deductible, and Ray, he's the guy I work with on weekends. He's telling me we should upgrade the whole security system while we're at it because, This is the third break-in in six months. So I'm looking at maybe 1,500 out of pocket if I do it right. But that's not even the point. The point is, I had the $200.
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+LUKE: Yeah, and you reacted in a negative way to your kid when she asked for the money because you're under stress, and that's a normal human thing. People say things they don't mean and react too strongly. So. So what are you going to do? Apologize and move on?
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+CARL: I mean, yeah. I called her back like 20 minutes later and apologized. She was cool about it.
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+CARL: She's a good kid. But Luke, that's not what's messing me up.
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+LUKE: What is messing you up?
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+CARL: That you sounded like your dad? Everybody sounds like their dad. No, I know that. I get that. But it's like, okay, my old man died four years ago and we barely spoke the last decade of his life because of exactly this kind of thing. He'd blow up over money, over nothing, make you feel like asking for help was this huge burden.
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+LUKE: Well, sometimes it can be a huge burden, but it sounds like in this case it wasn't a huge burden to you. You made a mistake, you apologized for it, and what are you going to do in the future to make sure that doesn't happen again? Like, if you don't want to be your dad or act like your dad, then you have to take steps to avoid that. And what are those steps going to be?
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+CARL: That's the thing. I've been taking steps for years. I go to this therapist every other week. I read all this stuff about breaking soul cycles. I've been so careful about not doing what he did. And then one bad moment, and it all just comes right back out like it was sitting there waiting.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, it happens. Everybody makes a mistake once in a while and says things that they don't mean and later regret. I do it all the time, and I always have to constantly try and stop myself when I can feel the hairs standing up on the back of my neck, and I'm about to snap at somebody. And sometimes I do better than others, that's the human experience.
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+CARL: You're right. I know you're right. It's just, I heard Dexter earlier, you know, you know. And I felt like he was doing the same thing I do, using all this self-improvement stuff as like, I don't know, a shield or something.
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+LUKE: Yeah, but all this self-improvement stuff, none of it expects you to obtain this level of perfection. Right? Every single self-help book or philosophy centers around continuous improvement, an acknowledgement of when you're wrong. And it sounds like you did those things. You acknowledged that you were wrong. You called, you made a mistake. She forgave you. She knows that you weren't trying to hurt her and that you were under stress at work. So this doesn't sound like it's a thing. Just do your best to make sure this doesn't continue to happen and try to be a good person. That's all you can do.
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+CARL: Yeah. Yeah, you're right. I guess I'm making this bigger than it needs to be. I just got scared for a second that all the work I've been doing doesn't actually matter, you know? Like it's all still in there no matter what I do.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, it is always going to be in there no matter what you do. It's not like it's ever gone. I mean, you might be able to go sit with some monks on a mountain in Tibet and meditate it away, but I suspect that it's still in there somewhere with the potential to come out. So you just keep doing what you're doing. Keep working with your therapist. Keep acknowledging when you're wrong and do the best you can to correct those instances when they arise.
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+CARL: Fair. I appreciate it, Luke. I think I just needed to hear somebody say it's not the end of the world, you know. I was sitting here in this office just spiraling about it.
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+LUKE: It is not the end of the world, Carl. You're doing decent. You're doing pretty good. So keep doing what you're doing and things will get better. Next up we have Monique. Monique, welcome to the show. What's going on with you tonight?
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+MONIQUE: Hey, Luke, thanks for taking my call. So I said yes to my boyfriend's proposal three days ago in front of both our families. And I'm pretty sure I don't actually want to marry him.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, luckily for you, you haven't signed any papers yet, so you don't have to marry him.
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+MONIQUE: Right, no. I know that. It's just he did it at my aunt's house during Thanksgiving dessert with like 20 people watching and everyone's already texting me about venues and my mom's crying happy tears every time she sees me and I keep looking at this ring on my finger at work, thinking, when did I stop wanting this? Was it before he asked or the second he got down on one knee in front of everybody?
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+LUKE: Well, it could just be jitters. Maybe you did want that, and now that it's happened, it feels real to you. Or maybe you really don't want to get married. But the advice I'm going to give you is you can't make that decision based on what everybody else is feeling, because you're the one that is getting married. It's your life. And a little bit of embarrassment over changing your mind is much safer and less harmful than a lifetime marriage that you don't want to be in.
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+MONIQUE: Yeah. No, you're right. I know you're right. It's just he's a good guy, you know? Like, objectively, he's nice, and he has a job and he doesn't yell at me or anything. My mom keeps saying, I'd be crazy to let him go.
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+LUKE: Well, what your mom says really doesn't matter, and that's a pretty low bar. He's nice, and he has a job, and he doesn't yell at you. I don't know that that's enough qualification for a lifetime commitment to one person. So I think if you're having second thoughts, there's probably a good reason for that. You're not ready for marriage. And maybe you should just tell him, hey, I reacted too quickly. This isn't something I want right now. Maybe we can revisit it in the future.
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+MONIQUE: That's the thing, though. I don't think I want to revisit it in the future. Like we've been together four years. And I keep waiting to feel that thing everyone talks about. That likes certainty. And it's just not there. I watch him play video games every night. And I think, is this it? Is this what I want for the next 50 years and then I feel like a bitch because he's perfectly fine. There's nothing wrong with him.
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+LUKE: You don't have to feel like a bitch and you don't have to want to get married and you don't have to do what your mom says and you don't have to do what he wants. All you have to do is make the best decisions you can for your own life and what you want. And right now it sounds like that's not marriage to this guy. And maybe you don't want to be with him at all and that's okay too. But it sounds like maybe here and make sure that he knows that because that's the respectful thing to do. If you said yes and he's all excited and he thinks he's getting married but you're not into it, you need to let him know. And that's going to be a hard and awkward conversation, but it's the right thing to do and you should do that sooner rather than later.
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+MONIQUE: You're right. God. You're right. I heard Candy earlier talking about feeling relieved about her daughter leaving, and I felt so called out because that's exactly how I feel. Like, everyone's congratulating me and I just keep thinking about how I could just keep working my shifts and go home to my own apartment and not have to pretend I care about his fantasy football league.
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+LUKE: Yep. If that's what you're happy with in your life right now, then that's fine. And it's acceptable and you don't have to feel guilty or wrong about that. So tell the guy you don't want to get married and reassess whether you want to be in a relationship at all. You don't have to be. And then just move forward after that.
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+MONIQUE: Okay. Okay. I'm going to do it. I'm going to tell him tomorrow after my shift. I've got like 20 minutes left on my break, and then I got to go back and serve hash browns. But yeah, tomorrow.
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+LUKE: Okay, good luck with that conversation. I hope it all works out for you. But yeah, definitely don't get married if you're not even sure you want to continue being his girlfriend. That would be insincere and put you in a bad position later in life. Next up, we've got Cliff. Cliff, welcome to the show. What would you like to talk about tonight, sir?
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+CLIFF: Hey, Luke. Yeah. Thanks for taking my call. So I found $47,000 in credit card debt hidden behind my ex-wife's dresser this afternoon, all in both our names, and she's been gone two years.
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+LUKE: That sounds odd to me.
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+LUKE: There's 47 large in debt, and you don't know what it's for, and you didn't know anything about it, and in two years the collections agency never came looking for you. That doesn't sound right.
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+CALLER: No, you're right. That does sound weird. So what happened is the statements are rolled from like 22, right before she left. I've been getting collection calls, but I thought it was just the normal stuff we had together when we split. Like maybe eight grand I've been chipping away at. I didn't know about this debt because she was handling all the bills back then. I work outside all day. She worked from home doing medical billing, so she just took care of that stuff.
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+LUKE: Well, if it's $47,000 today, it was probably half that two years ago, and this is compounding fees for nonpayment. I would venture to guess that you can have a lot of that forgiven if you work with a debt consolidation company, but it looks like it's, if it's valid debt, I mean, that's money that you spent some years ago with your wife. That's how it works. You're going to be on the hook for a portion of that at least.
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+CALLER: Yeah. No, I get that. The thing is, though, I didn't spend it. Like, I'm looking at these statements right now and it's stuff I never saw.
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+LUKE: Well, if you were married to the woman and your name is on the account and there were charges made on that account, then, yeah, you did spend it.
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+CALLER: Okay, but Luke, I'm saying I literally didn't know these cards existed. Like there's a capital one here. A discover. Two different chase cards I knew about our one joint card were used for groceries and gas. These other ones, she must have opened them and just put my name on them without telling me. I never saw the bills. I never used the cards. I didn't even know they were being opened.
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+LUKE: Well, I don't know. I'm not a lawyer, as I've said before. I don't know that you can reopen a divorce case like that. I'm sure a settlement was already made and all the money was already split. There was a discovery and everybody had to disclose all of the financial records. So if this was not part of that discovery, you might be able to go back to the court and say, hey, there was a fraud here and have some recourse that way. But I don't know. I would recommend that you talk to a lawyer and find out if that is valid and potentially sue her.
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+CALLER: Yeah. I mean, we didn't actually go through the courts. We just split up. She moved to lost cruises with some guy she met online, and we divided things ourselves. I kept the truck. She took her car. We both just walked away. We were only married three years, didn't have kids, didn't own anything together except the debt I knew about. So there was no official settlement or discovery or any of that.
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+LUKE: Well, then you have no recourse at all, sir, and you made a horrible mistake. And now you are going to have to deal with that and maybe talk to one of those debt consolidation companies and see how much of that debt can be forgiven.
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+CALLER: Jesus. Okay. So I'm just screwed then. I've been trying to buy a house, been saving up, and now I find out I'm underwater by 50 grand because she was what buying stuff online for six months before she bailed. And I just have to eat it.
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+LUKE: Well, you have to do more than eat it. I mean, you're not going to buy a house. If you haven't paid the bill in two years on this credit card, then your credit is destroyed. But if your name's on the account card, then that's your debt.
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+CALLER: Yeah, my credit's already trashed. I know that now. I've been getting rejected for loans and I couldn't figure out why because I thought I was doing everything right, paying my bills, running my business clean, staying out of trouble. And the whole time it's this. What kills me is she knew. And that's why I tell everybody don't get married. It doesn't matter how much love you're in. Just don't do it because you don't know another person. You can't. And they change and they do shady shit.
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+LUKE: So My recommendation to literally everybody is, don't get married. You did. You got burned. And then you split it up without going to court and having discoveries made. And now you're in trouble. So, I mean, your credit's trashed. Her credit's also trashed. And she's got the debt too. So she's not buying a house either. Your best course of action, I believe, is to talk to a debt consolidation company.
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+CALLER: Yeah, you're probably right. I just keep thinking about all those months before she left, how she was acting weird, distant, and I thought maybe she was just stressed about work or something. Now I'm realizing she was probably panicking because she'd racked up all this debt and didn't know how to tell me or didn't care to tell me. I don't even know which is worse.
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+LUKE: It doesn't really matter what she told you or how she felt. What matters is you have this debt now and you could have avoided that by being responsible in checking your credit periodically to know what it was being used for, but you didn't. And you didn't follow any legal process to be divorced. And now you're where you're at. And it's a hard lesson to learn, but you're going to have to learn it.
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+CALLER: You're right. I should have been checking. I just trusted her, which was stupid. I mean, we were married. I thought that meant something.
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+LUKE: You thought wrong, sir. No, that is incorrect. That means absolutely nothing. So, um, sorry that happened to you. And hopefully you can make a payment plan or get it settled some other way.
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+CALLER: Yeah. All right. Well, thanks for the reality check, I guess. I'll call one of those debt companies tomorrow and see what they can do.
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+LUKE: Okay. Ladies and gentlemen, this is a public service announcement. Do not get married and periodically check your credit because somebody could be screwing with you. And it may or may not be somebody that you even know. So now we have to take a little break in here from one of our sponsors, okay? Here we go.
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+Okay, and we are back. Let's see. We've got a returning caller tonight. Hey, Rochelle, welcome back to the show. What's happening with you tonight.
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+ROCHELLE: Hey, Luke. So I did it. I turned off location sharing. Like, officially, pulled the trigger this afternoon. And here's the thing. I've been sitting out here for like three hours, just...
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+LUKE: All right, so you're not sharing your location. Nobody knows where you're sitting. Why are you sitting there? And how is this relevant?
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+ROCHELLE: Because he texted me two hours ago asking if I was okay. Like, hey, you good? Haven't seen you move all day. Which means he was checking. Still checking.
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+LUKE: All right. So now you're off the grid. Congratulations. What are you going to do now?
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+ROCHELLE: I mean, honestly, I don't know. That's why I'm calling. Because I didn't text him back.
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+LUKE: Next on the show we have Frank. Frank, Frank, welcome to the show. What's going on out there in your life?
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+FRANK: Hey, Luke. Thanks for taking my call. So I just watched my boss present my entire project to the board this afternoon. Like word for word, my proposal, my numbers, even my stupid joke about sunshine and got a standing ovation while I sat in the back holding the printouts I made.
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+LUKE: Okay, and obviously you don't feel good about that. This is your boss. That's what bosses do.
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+FRANK: I mean, yeah, I get that bosses take credit. But this was different. This wasn't like he polished up a team effort or whatever. I spent three weeks on this cost-saving analysis, stayed late-running numbers, and he literally presented my slides with his name on them. He even practiced my delivery, Luke.
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+LUKE: That's dirty, dirty, dirty, but, uh, you know, You got paid anyway, right?
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+FRANK: Yeah. I got paid my same $42,000 a year to install solar panels and apparently write his presentations for him. Meanwhile, he's probably getting a bonus for my work. And the thing is, I'm trying to figure out if this is material, or if this is just me being bitter, you know? Like I do stand up on the side, and I've been workshopping this whole bit about middle management being plagiarism with a 401k, and now it actually happened, and I don't know if I'm mad or if I just got handed the perfect punchline.
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+LUKE: Well, both things can be true, because that is absolutely accurate. Middle management is plagiarism with a 401k. That's, like, literally the job description.
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+FRANK: Right? And the worst part is, I saw it coming. Like, two weeks ago, he asked to review my progress, and I walked him through everything, and there was this moment where I could feel it happening. But I just handed it over, because what else are you going to do? Say no to your
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+LUKE: You know, I say no to my boss literally all the time. That's what leadership is. So if you want to take control of your career and your own work and goals, and then yeah, you've got to say no sometimes, even to your boss. That's what they, when they talk about speaking truth to power, sometimes you have to actually do that.
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+FRANK: Okay, but you're Luke at the roost, man. You literally are your own boss. I'm 21 years old installing solar panels in Tucson. If I tell my boss, know, I'm just unemployed with two ex-wives in a Tuesday night slot at a bar that seats 40 people.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, there's a lot to unpack there. Uh, you're two ex-wives at 21 years old? What the, what the fuck are you doing?
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+FRANK: Yeah, I know how it sounds. First one was right out of high school. Lasted eight months. Second one, I met at an open mic. Thought we had this whole creative connection thing. That was done in a year. My mom says I'm practicing, but I think I'm just really bad at knowing when to walk away from which is probably why I'm still at this job watching my boss steal my work.
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+LUKE: Dude, you're 21 years old. You haven't had enough time to walk away from anything. So maybe it is time for a new job, but I think that you should just eat this one, because this is how the workplace works. You work for a guy, you get him the data, he presents the data, you're not in a position to be presenting data to a board, so if you're not okay with that, that's all right. But it sounds like that like in your position, that's what's expected and that's what you're paid for. So do your work and give it to your boss and let him, you know, look good. It's your job to prop him up.
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+FRANK: See, that's what I keep telling myself, but it doesn't sit right, because it wasn't like he asked me to pull some numbers for him. He asked me to analyze our installation efficiency across six sites and propose cost reductions.
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+LUKE: Great, and that was a wonderful opportunity for you to learn the of research and writing those papers. And you saw that it went well. So you're learning valuable experience in the workplace. You're being compensated for it. And you're 21 years old. So I wouldn't worry too much about any of this. Just learn what you can about the business and about business in general. And when you're ready, then move on. And you'll be able to write presentations when you are addressing the board as the supervisor or the manager or the owner or whatever it is.
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+FRANK: Yeah, but that's the thing, though. I'm not trying to be a manager at a solar panel company. I'm trying to do comedy. This job is supposed to be the thing that pays my rent while I work on my actual career.
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+LUKE: All right, then. There's no problem here. Who cares who presented the work to the, what do you expect? What do you want a cookie? You're not going to get a bonus. You're at the, you're the low man on the totem pole, and that's the way it works.
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+LUKE: So if it's just your job, do your job, and then on the side, do your comedy until that takes off. And if it doesn't take off, well then you've got more valuable experience for your actual career.
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+EARL: Okay, but I had a bit about this. Like a whole thing I'd been working on about how my boss operates, and now I watched him do the exact thing I was going to talk about on stage. Except it happened to me, and I just sat there. That's not material anymore. That's just humiliating. How am I supposed to get up there Tuesday and tell that story when the punchline is me being too chicken shit to say anything?
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+LUKE: Because that's what makes it real. That's what makes it good material. it actually happened to you. It's real and people can identify with it. So, yeah, workshop that material. And now you have a different place for it to come from. It's not something that you just made up as a joke. It's a joke based in the reality of your life, which makes you a better comic.
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+EARL: Huh. I didn't think about it that way. So you're saying the fact that I just sat there like an idiot actually makes it better?
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+LUKE: No, not really. I'm saying the fact that you're the self-deprecating and honesty of the joke is what makes it better. It makes it more real and relatable because everybody's been in that situation and can understand it a little bit better. And when you present that joke, since it's coming from a real place, it's going to hit with that realism.
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+EARL: Yeah, okay. That actually helps. Because I've been sitting here thinking, I need to quit or confront him or something, but really, I just need to tell the truth about it on stage.
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+LUKE: If the solar panel business, and business management is what you intend to do for your career, then yeah, maybe you need to quit. But if this is just your job while you're working on the thing that you love, then who cares? Do your job, do it as well as you can, and move on. It doesn't matter if you get to address the board or not, because theoretically, you're not going to see them again in a couple of years anyway.
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+EARL: You're right. I've been making this into some big thing when it's just a paycheck. The real work happens Tuesday night at the open mic, not Monday morning. some conference room.
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+LUKE: Well, there you go, but only one of them brings you a paycheck, so make sure you keep doing that one.
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+EARL: Yeah, yeah, I hear you. Show up, install the panels, cash the check, write the jokes. I can do that. Thanks, Luke.
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+LUKE: Yeah, no problem. My other bit of advice is don't get fucking married again. What are you doing? Jesus Christ, with you people and your marriages, stop it. Just stop it. Amber, welcome to the show. Don't get married, okay?
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+AMBER: Oh, God, I'm not getting married. I'm calling because I just blew up my entire life with one stupid text message, and I don't know how to fix it.
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+LUKE: All right, what's the text message?
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+AMBER: Okay, so there's this guy Derek at work. He does vehicle registration, and we've been flirting for like two months. Nothing physical, just stupid jokes about physics, because I work in the DMB records department, and he thinks it's funny when I made nerdy references. So tonight, I'm sitting here having some. and I sent him this text about collapsing wave functions, like a flirty science thing, except I sent it to his wife Michelle instead. His wife Michelle, who I have never met, but whose number is in my phone, because she called me once about Derek's schedule.
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+LUKE: All right, well, it sounds a bit dramatic. If you send a text message about collapsing wave functions to a random woman, well, wait a second, what? Why do you have her number? Wait, she called you once about Derek's schedule, so her number is in your phone. You saved it? I don't understand how this could have happened. But anyway, regardless, irregardless. Regardless, irregardless. I don't know. Whichever. Whatever. Here's the deal. That's not sexy. And she's just going to see that and think it's spam.
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+AMBER: No, no, no. You don't understand. The text said, hey, been thinking about our conversation yesterday. Pretty sure if we spent enough time together, our wave functions would definitely collapse with a winky face. Luke. That is not spam. That is clearly me hitting on her husband.
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+LUKE: Okay. Well, I mean, take some solace in the fact that she probably didn't save your number because she's probably not crazy. And as far as she knows, that's a text message from a stranger to the wrong number.
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+AMBER: Except I signed it. I wrote A at the end. And we all work in the same building. She knows who I am because Derek talks about work at home. He told me that once.
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+LUKE: All right. Well, who is this woman? her in person before? What she looked like? Can she kick your ass?
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+AMBER: I've never met her, but I've seen pictures on Derek's desk. She's like this tiny blonde yoga instructor type. I don't know if she can kick my ass, but she could definitely ruin my life at work. Derek and I work in the same county office building.
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+LUKE: Well, I hate to tell you this, but it sounds like you deserve it because you're trying to break up a home here, and you're messing around with a dude at an office, and everybody knows you don't do that. So you're doing a bunch of stupid shit. And maybe you deserve a smack in the face for it.
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+AMBER: You're right. You're absolutely right. And the worst part is, I've been lying to myself about it for two months. Like, it was just harmless fun. Like we were just friends who happened to have chemistry. But I knew exactly what I was doing.
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+LUKE: Okay. Well, uh, is Derek going to leave the wife for you, you think?
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+AMBER: No. God no. He's never even hinted at that.
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+LUKE: All right. It sounds like you might be in for an embarrassing, rough week. Or maybe not. never hear another word about it. But if it does come down on you, then take accountability and maybe move on to a new job. And next time, don't do this. Don't ever do it again.
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+AMBER: You know what's really messing me up, though? I'm sitting here terrified. Michelle's going to blow up my whole life. But part of me is also just devastated that Derek hasn't texted me. Like even now, I'm checking my phone hoping he responds, not her. How pathetic is that?
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+LUKE: Derek's got a wife. Derek's wife is very upset right now. now at Derek. So Derek's probably dealing with his own home life and not thinking too much about you. And that's what happens when you're the girl on the side at work. You're not important to him in his life. He's married. That's important to him in his life. So you got to, who cares what you feel like? You're the asshole here.
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+AMBER: Yeah. Yeah, yeah, I am. And I think I knew that the whole time, but I just kept telling myself these little stories about how it was different. How we had this real connection. My mom used to say I overthink. everything, but this is an overthinking when I actually did the stupid thing.
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+LUKE: Yes, you did. And so did Derek. I mean, Derek's not off the hook here. He's the asshole, too, but I mean, you knew what you're doing, and you did it anyway, and you got caught, and now you have to deal with that.
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+AMBER: The thing that really kills me is I sent it at like 7.30, it's been three hours. So she's definitely seen it. She's just not responding. And I don't know if that's worse than her responding. You know? Like, is she screenshoting it to send to HR?
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+LUKE: No. She's fucking destroying her. husband, they're fighting right now, and you're breaking up their marriage. You're driving a rift in between these two married people. That's what's happening right now. She's got better things to worry about than your position. It's not about you.
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+AMBER: Oh, God. You're right. I've been sitting here making this about me and my embarrassment when I just detonated someone's marriage. Michelle's over there dealing with the fact that her husband's been texting another woman, and I'm worried about whether I'm going to be uncomfortable at work.
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+LUKE: That is correct. And cut it out. And you're probably going to end up uncomfortable at work, and you deserve that. And maybe it's time to move on.
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+LUKE: Because, I mean, how's work going to go now that Derek's in trouble and he's not speaking to you? And how are you going to feel either way, actually? He's not going to leave his wife, probably not on purpose anyway. She might leave him. But if he wasn't going to leave her for you, he's still not going to leave her for you. So, I mean, you got to do what you got to do, I guess.
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+CALLER: Yeah, I need to find a new job. I can't keep working there. Even if nobody finds out officially, I'll know. And every time I see either of them, it's just going to be this horrible reminder of what I did. And you're right. He was never going to leave her. I think I knew that too.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, you know what you've got to do. You've got to find yourself another job and stop flirting with married men. Unless they've had that conversation and they're open to it. It sounds like that's not the case here. Don't break up people's marriages. It's a good way to get yourself in a situation you don't want to be in. Let's see. Let's see. We're going to take one more call tonight, okay? And we're going to talk to Rick. Rick, welcome to the show. What's going on tonight?
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+RICK: Oh man, Luke, I got to tell you, I just spent the last three hours reading about quantum physics. And I think I broke my brain. Like, I'm sitting here at my kitchen table. It's almost midnight. And I genuinely cannot figure out if the pass is actually fixed, or if we're somehow changing it right now without knowing it.
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+LUKE: No, we're not changing it. It is fixed. What happened, happened, whether or not it's still happening in a timeline that we can access is a different question. But if it happened, we can't change it, because if we did, it would open us up to all sorts of paradoxes. And that can't happen. So whatever happened already happened.
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+RICK: Okay, but see, that's what I thought too, right? That's common sense. But then I'm reading about this delayed choice quantum eraser experiment, and Luke, I swear to God, they're showing that a particle somehow knows what measurement you're going to make on it in the future.
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+LUKE: And how are they showing that?
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+RICK: So they shoot a photon through this double slit setup.
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+LUKE: Right.
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+RICK: And normally you get an interference pattern. Because the photon goes through both slits at once, like a wave. But here's the thing. They tag the photons so you can tell which slit they went through, which destroys the interference pattern. Except then, after the photon already hit the detector, they erase that which path information.
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+LUKE: Uh, erase it how? Like, it's recorded on a chart and then the chart is changed somehow?
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+RICK: No, no. They use these beam splitters and crystals to basically make it so the entangled partner photon either keeps the witch path info or loses it, depending on which detector it hits. And this happens after the first photon already last. But when they sort the data afterwards based on what happened to the second photon, the ones where the info got erased show the interference pattern again. And the ones where it didn't, don't. It's like the photon that already hit the screen somehow knew what was going to happen to its partner later.
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+LUKE: Well, projecting what happens in the future is not the same as changing what happened in the past.
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+RICK: Right, but that's what's messing me up. If the photon acts like it went through both slits only when the information gets erased later, doesn't that mean the future measurement is affecting what already happened? Like the photon's already on the detector screen, it already did its thing. But whether it made an interference pattern or not depends on something that hasn't happened yet when it lands.
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+LUKE: I don't understand this one because if it hit the detector, then it's been detected already. And the next measure, would have to go back and change what happened on the detector, which would be akin to, you know, writing something down and then going back and looking at it and having the letters be in a different order. I don't see how that could happen.
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+RICK: No, that's the thing. When you look at the detector screen, you just see this blob of dots. It doesn't look like anything meaningful. It's only when you sort those dots afterwards, based on what happened to the entangled partner photon, that you see this blob of dots. You see some of them form an interference pattern and some don't. The pattern was always there in the data. You just couldn't see it until you knew which photons to group together. But here's what's freaking me out. Those photons hit the screen before you made the choice about whether to erase the which path information or not.
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds to me like it's not changing the data. It's changing the sort of the data, which is happening in real time, right? It's happening in the current time, not the past.
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+RICK: Yeah, okay, you're right. The sorting is happening now. But Luke, think about what that means. Each individual photon that hit that screen, it somehow already knew which group it was going to be sorted into later. The ones that are going to be in the information erased pile are already showing wave behavior, and the ones in the information kept pile are already showing particle behavior, before anyone decided which measurement to make.
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+LUKE: Okay. you shoot the photon through the slit and it hits the detector and then you shoot another photon through the slit and it hits the detector and then at some point later you sort that data and it shows a pattern it sounds to me like if anything is being changed it's not what hit the detector it's the sort operation that happens afterwards so i'm failing to understand how it relates to This is not changing the past. It's changing the current.
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+RICK: No, but. Okay. Let me try this differently. When the photon hits the detector, it's already behaving one way or the other. It either went through both slits like a wave or went through one slit like a particle. That's already determined by the time it lands.
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+LUKE: Correct. It's determined when it lands based on whether or not it was measured, right? It's the measurement of it that determines whether it's going to be the wave or the particle formation.
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+RICK: Right. But in the delayed choice version, the measurement that determines whether its wave or particle happens to the photon, the entangled partner, and that happens the first one already landed. That's the delayed choice part. You're deciding whether to measure which path information after the first photon is already on the detector. And somehow, the photon that already landed matches whatever you're about to do to its partner.
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+LUKE: So what you're about to do? So, Whatever we do to the entangled partner in the present also changes the state of the partner in the past is what this experiment is showing?
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+RICK: That's what it looks like. Yeah. Or, I mean, that's the part I can't wrap my head around. The experiment shows that the photon that already hit the detector will be grouped with the interference pattern if you erase the witch path info from its partner later and grouped with a particle pattern if you don't. Like its behavior when it's landed was somehow dependent on a choice you haven't made yet.
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+LUKE: Okay, so how do you erase the which path info?
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+RICK: You use what they call a quantum eraser, basically another beam splitter that the entangled partner photon goes through. If you send it through that beam splitter, the which path information gets scrambled, erased. You can't tell which slit the original photon went through anymore. But if you don't send it through, if you measure it directly, you preserve that information. And here's the thing. You can make that choice after the first photon already landed.
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+LUKE: But you cannot make that choice after the first photon was measured, right? So if it was already measured at one state and then they run it through this beam splitter device, the quantum eraser, would it change the result of the previous measurement?
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+RICK: No. See? That's the thing. You're not re-measuring the first photon. The first photon here.
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+RICK: hit the detector, that measurement is done. That position is recorded. What you're doing is measuring its entangled partner. Now, if the photon has already hit the detector and been measured, is it still entangled?
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+LUKE: Yeah, that's okay. That's actually a really good question. Because normally when you measure one entangled particle, the entanglement collapses, right? But in this setup, the first photon hitting the detector isn't a complete measurement of the entangled system. It only tells you where it landed, not which path it took. The which path information is still encoded in the partner photon.
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+RICK: But that doesn't make sense. I don't see how that can work because if it's collapsed into a non-entangled state after the first measurement, it's they're no longer entangled. So the which path information but it wouldn't still be at the current point, right?
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+LUKE: You know what? You're right. That's exactly what's messing me up. Because yeah, if measuring one particle collapses the entanglement, then they're not entangled anymore when you get to the second measurement. The Witchpath info would just be sitting there in the partner photon as classical information at that point, not quantum information. But the experiment works.
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+RICK: Well, there's more that makes this not make sense because If the initial photon was measured at the time of detection, right? It hit the detector. That's the measurement that collapsed the state. The entangled partner, then by definition, would have also already been measured. So you're remeasuring something that's already been measured.
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+LUKE: Oh shit. Yeah. You're absolutely right. If they're entangled and you measure one, you've measured both. That's the whole point of entanglement.
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+RICK: Right. So then you can't just re-measure it later and say that it, I don't understand the experiment or what it was trying to prove or how that that results in changing something that's already happened because what happened happened to the first photon and the entangled photon at the same time.
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+LUKE: Yeah, no. You're okay. So either I'm completely misunderstanding how the delayed choice quantum eraser works or the article I was doing that pop science thing where they make it sound more paradoxical than it actually is. Because you're right, if the measurement collapses the entanglement, then the second measurement is just measuring something that's already determined. There's no retroactive anything. And now, I'm sitting here thinking about all the times I've heard people talk about this experiment like it proves you can change the past. And maybe that's just not what it shows at all.
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+CALLER: That's changing the future. And that is possible. That is absolutely possible. Yeah, you're right. And we did. I apologized. He apologized. We're playing together again. But I guess I wanted the quantum stuff to mean something bigger than it does.
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+LUKE: Well, I'm sorry to break your quantum dreams, but as the armchair that I claim to be here. I'm not qualified to make any opinion or theory on any of this, because I understand it about as much as anybody, which is not at all. So take what I say for what it's worth, which is nothing. But the experiment as you described can't work the way that you described it.
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+CALLER: Well, that makes me feel better. Honestly, I've been sitting here for three hours thinking I was too dumb to understand it. But maybe nobody really understands it. Like, I can read the words wave particle duality and quantum entanglement, but that doesn't mean my brain can actually picture what's happening.
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+LUKE: Well, I think your brain can picture what's happening. I mean, you could watch a YouTube video and see a motion graphic of what's happening. It's not that hard a concept to grasp the what. The why, however, is nobody understands.
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+CALLER: Right. Okay, so I can see the double slid experiment animation. I can watch the particle go through both slits until you measure it, and then suddenly it picks one. I can see that happening. But why does observation collapse the wave function? That's the part that makes my head hurt. Like, what is it about measuring something that forces it to choose? Is the universe actually paying attention to whether we're looking or not?
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+LUKE: Well, if you can figure that out, sir, there's probably a Nobel Prize in it for you. And when you do, be sure to let the rest of us know.
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+CALLER: Yeah. I'll call it you back from Stockholm. But seriously, though, I think what got me tonight was realizing how much I want there to be some kind of, I don't know, cosmic loophole. Some way that the stuff we regret isn't just locked in forever. My girlfriend's family is coming over next Sunday, and her mom still brings up this thing I said at Christmas two years ago. And I just keep thinking, man, if only I could go back to that moment.
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+LUKE: Well, you can take solace in the fact that what happened isn't locked in forever. It's locked in in the past. And the only thing that matters is what is happening today now at this moment because nothing else is accessible to us, even with a quantum eraser.
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+CALLER: That's, yeah, that's actually kind of freeing when you put it that way. Like, I can't change what I said at Christmas, but I can change how I show up next Sunday. I can be better with her mom this time.
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+LUKE: That's right, sir. It sounds like we've got to the bottom of the this.
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+CALLER: Yeah, we did. Thanks, Luke. I'm going to close the laptop and actually get some sleep. And maybe skip the quantum physics videos for a while.
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+LUKE: All right, sir. Well, thanks for the call. That was an interesting one. Glad we could get it all sorted here. Look at the Roost. Well, thank you for another great show. I hope you all have a wonderful rest of your weekend. I know it's just about over now, and we will talk to you again tomorrow. Bye-bye.

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+LUKE: All right, welcome back to the show. My name is Luke. I'm your host for Luke at the Roost. This is the late night talk show where you get to call in and tell me about whatever is on your mind. I'll give you the best advice that I can. Our phone number is 868-919-1188. That's right. The number is 868-919-1188. We're going to go to the phones already. We got Tanya. Tanya's on the phone. How can we help you? Keeping you up at night, Tanya?
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+TANYA: Hey. Yeah. I'm almost a little nervous about talking about this. I've been drinking way too much lately and I can't really tell anyone in my life about it. You're kind of the only person I can talk to about this shit.
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+LUKE: Well, at least you know that there's something a little more than recreational going on there. What do you think it is that has your drinking so much lately?
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+TANYA: I mean, on paper, my life should be perfect. I'm a personal trainer. I help people get healthy all day, but then I come home and just start pouring drinks. I think it's this pressure to be perfect all the time, you know? Like everyone sees me as this fitness role model, but inside I'm just not that person.
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+LUKE: Well, what person are you inside?
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+TANYA: Honestly, I'm kind of a mess. I read all these psychology books trying to figure myself out, but at the end of the day, I'm just someone who's tired of pretending. I put on this whole health and wellness front at work, but then I go home and drink half a bottle of wine, sometimes a whole bottle every single night.
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+LUKE: Well, that's not good. Have you ever had problems with drinking or substances before? Is this a relatively new thing? Has it been leading up to the place where you feel like it's an issue or what's the deal?
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+TANYA: No, this is pretty new. Started maybe six months ago when I was going through some personal shit, but honestly the fucked-up part is I'm so good at hiding it. I still show up to work at 5am, still train my clients perfectly, still look the part. I just feel like such a fraud, like I'm living this double life. And the more I succeed at work, the more I drink at home. It's like some weird balance thing.
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+LUKE: How what else could you do at home that's a little bit more productive than the drinking?
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+TANYA: I mean, I know all the right answers, meditation, reading, working out more, but fuck those things feel like more work, you know, more performing. When I drink, it's like the only time I can just be in this, just be imperfect. I don't have to be Instagram-ready or motivating anybody, it's pathetic, but it feels like the only real part of my day sometimes.
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+LUKE: But you know, it's not the real part of your day, right? It's a drug that you're consuming to alter your state of reality so that you feel better about what is actually going on in your life. And it sounds like what's going on in your life is everything's great. People look up to you, you're a fitness role model and things are good, I assume you're doing all right financially, and there's just something inside you that's calling out for a drink, calling out to be numbed. And I think you need to identify what that thing is.
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+TANYA: You just hit something there that kind of scares me because yeah, everything on paper is great, but maybe that's exactly what's fucking me up. I've built this perfect life that everyone admires, but I don't feel like I deserve any of it, like I'm waiting for someone to call me out as a fake. The drinking it's like I'm sabotaging myself before anyone else can, it is that.
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+LUKE: Actually, I think that's very, very common and it's probably what's going on, but you know what the truth is is that everybody is a fake, we're all fakes all the way up the line. Nobody knows what's going on and none of us deserve a goddamn thing. It doesn't matter how hard we worked, it doesn't matter where we were born or what our family is, the cold, hard reality of it is, we don't deserve anything at all, we're lucky to be here at all. So every day is a good day, take the good stuff that comes and be grateful for it and don't beat yourself up for not being something else.
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+TANYA: Holy shit, that's actually really fucking liberating to hear. Like I've spent so much time trying to earn this life to prove I deserve it, but maybe I'm just here and that's okay. The drinking though, it's still a problem, I know that, but hearing you say all that, it makes me realize I've been using it to punish myself more than anything else, like I'm drinking because I feel like a fraud, but what? But maybe I don't need to feel like a fraud anymore, if everyone's faking it, if no one really knows what they're doing, then what am I beating myself up for? I still need to deal with the drinking, I know that, it's not healthy and it's not helping, but fuck, for the first time I feel like maybe I can face it without all this extra shame piled on top, does that make any sense?
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+LUKE: Sure, and you know what, we've all got shame and we've all got pride and we've all got anger and all sorts of issues and all that's okay, but at the end of the day, you're drinking too much, you don't like the way it's made you feel, you know it's not right, you're gonna do something about that, so do whatever it is you gotta do, go to the meetings, join a support group, find another healthy activity, but you can't just keep drinking yourself to sleep every night and expect things to get better, because they won't. Do you know that?
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+TANYA: Yeah, you're right, I do know that, and honestly, being a trainer, I see it in my clients all the time, you can't just know what to do, you have to actually do it. It's funny how I can be so clear about that with fitness but completely blind about my own shit. I think maybe it's time I get as serious about this as I am, about helping other people get healthy.
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+LUKE: Alright, I think it is too, so thank you for the call, hopefully you can get off the bottle and do something productive with your time. Alright, who's next? Dennis, Dennis, how's it going? Thanks for calling the radio show, what can we do?
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+DENNIS: Hey man, thanks for having me. I had the weirdest fucking day, and I need to talk about it with someone who won't judge me. My head's kind of spinning, and I had a few beers just to calm down, but damn.
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+LUKE: Alright, hit us with it, what happened, what was so crazy about your day?
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+DENNIS: So I'm doing this landscaping job over in Roland Park, real fancy house, and the clients wife keeps bringing me water all day since it's hot as hell. But then, she starts asking all these personal questions about my workout routine and if I'm single. I'm married and everything, but I'd be lying if I said it didn't get to me a little bit.
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+LUKE: Well, that's great, you still are desired by the fairer sex, the important thing is that you do nothing with that, if there's a married client's wife hitting on you and you were to pursue that situation, you're probably going to get yourself a busted jaw, and I recommend against that. So take the compliment, you know, it's a compliment, take that, jerk off tonight like any other self-respecting man would do, and leave it at that.
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+DENNIS: Yeah, man, you're absolutely right, shit. I know better than to mess around with a client's wife, that's just asking for trouble. But fuck, it's just been a while since anyone looked at me like that, you know? My wife's been so busy with her new job, we barely even talk anymore. I took your advice though, went home, had those beers, handled things myself if you know what I mean. Sometimes you just need someone to talk you down from doing something stupid. I'm going to focus on my own marriage, and maybe talk to my wife about spending more time together.
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+LUKE: I've had a few glasses of wine tonight, just sitting with my f***ing Jesus, that was, okay, Otik, we got to talk to our producer here about what's going on with the phone lines. Brenda, you still there? Brenda? Brenda, it seems like we lost ya.
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+LUKE: Oh man. Brenda, Brenda, are you there? Do we get you back?
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+BRENDA: Yeah, yeah, I'm here. Had to turn down the TV, just trying to wind down with some wine after a long day at the clinic.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, that seems to be the theme tonight, is everybody's getting hammered and calling in. I guess that's what happens on a radio show. What do you wind it down from?
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+BRENDA: Oh God. Where do I even start? My partner just made partner at their law firm, and I'm still cleaning up cat piss and dealing with angry pet owners for barely above minimum wage. I love what I do, but sometimes it just feels like shit being the less successful one. You know?
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+LUKE: I actually don't know that's never happened to me, but I can imagine that it's not super fun, but what other, uh, salable skills would you say that you have and, uh, what value do you provide to society?
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+BRENDA: I keep animals alive for fuck's sake. I've helped deliver puppies I've saved cats from the brink, but try explaining that at those fancy lawyer parties. Everyone's talking about their big cases and promotions while I'm standing there like an idiot with dog hair on my clothes. I mean, I know my work matters, but the paycheck short doesn't show it.
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+LUKE: No, I bet it doesn't, and that's a hard job to have, I understand, but it's going to be something that you love to do where you wouldn't do it, and it's definitely something that needs to be done. I mean, I have pets myself, and I'm very grateful that there's somebody there to take care of them when they get hurt, but from my side of it, when I get the bill, it looks like there's plenty of money being transferred back and forth, so I'm not sure why you're not getting that.
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+BRENDA: That's the thing that kills me. I see those bills too, but most of it goes to the clinic owners and the equipment and the drugs. I'm just the skilled labor, making it all happen. And then I go home to my partner talking about their six-figure bonus while I'm still paying off student loans from vet tech school. God, this wine is making me too honest, but sometimes I just want to scream when they talk about their day.
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+LUKE: I guess I can understand that, but if your partner is getting six-figure bonuses, how serious is this relationship you've got with your partner?
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+BRENDA: You've been married eight years? And yeah, they're generous with money that's not the issue, but fuck. I want to earn my own way, you know? I don't want to be the charity case who gets nice things because my spouse does well. I want to be someone at those firm parties, not just the plus one who works with animals. Does that make me sound like a terrible person?
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+LUKE: No, it doesn't make you sound like a terrible person, it makes a lot of sense, actually, but you have to provide something there to... Do you care? Why do you care about the firm parties? It sounds like you think it's boring work and you're sick of hearing about it, so why are you even going?
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+BRENDA: Holy shit, you're right. Why the fuck am I torturing myself at these stuffy parties? Like I literally dread them but keep going because I think I should. I'd rather be home with my dogs and Netflix. Maybe I'm making myself miserable trying to fit into a world I don't even like. It's just... I think I wanted to prove I could belong there, but maybe I don't want to.
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+LUKE: Yeah, the truth is, we don't belong everywhere, and that doesn't mean what you do isn't valuable, even though you don't get as much money as a lawyer does. You didn't have to go to school for as long either as the lawyer did, and that's kind of the deal. You can provide value in lots of ways just because you have a day job as a veterinarian or a veterinarian's assistant or whatever the fuck it is that you do. You can have other fulfilling hobbies, you can write a book, you can do improv, you could play music. There's plenty of other ways to derive value from the world than just money, and you have to find what works for you.
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+BRENDA: I really needed to hear that tonight. Shit, you're making me cry a little. I've been so focused on measuring up to their world that I forgot I used to paint. I used to do all kinds of things before I got caught up in this comparison bullshit. And you know what? I'm fucking good at what I do. Those animals trust me. Their owners trust me. Maybe I need to get my head out of my ass and stop trying to be a nond.
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+LUKE: Yeah, you do. Get your head out of your ass and do the right thing, you know? Lay off the, lay off the wine and never makes anything better. Okay, let's take one more call, and let's hear from Dennis. Dennis, thank you for calling the radio show. What's going on in your life? Fight you calling.
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+DENNIS: Hey, man. Thanks for having me. Been listening to the show for a while. I've got this thing I need to get off my chest from earlier today. I'm a little buzzed, so I might be more open than usual.
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+LUKE: All right, there, Dennis, what's going on?
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+DENNIS: Well, I do landscaping, right? And today I had this job at this gym doing the bushes out front, and I went inside to use the bathroom and shit. I ended up hooking up with this dude in the locker room. I'm not even gay at least I don't think I am, but it just kind of happened.
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+LUKE: Okay, dude, well, if you hooked up with a dude in the locker room, there might be a good chance that you might be at least a little bit gay. And you know, no big deal, that's kind of strange, you're just doing your job and hook up with a dude in the locker room, like on the job at work. It's a little bit extreme, don't you think?
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+DENNIS: I know, man. I know. And while never done anything like that at work before, but this guy was just checking me out while I was washing my hands, and next thing you know, we're in the shower stall and fuck, you're right, though. I fooled around with guys before just never thought of myself as gay. Maybe I'm by or something. My head's just spinning about the whole thing.
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+LUKE: Well, did you prefer it over the company of women?
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+DENNIS: Honestly, it's different, but yeah, I kind of did. The thing with guys is it's just more direct, you know, games, just straight to what we both want. But I still love women, too. I just can't believe I did this shit during work hours. My employees were out there trimming hedges while I was, getting you into the picture.
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+LUKE: All right, well, that's a little bit strange and definitely unprofessional, but it sounds like you, sir, are gay, and that's okay. I'm glad you had a good time in the locker room with your, with some strange dude. I hope you used protection and maybe next time, do it off-hours.
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+DENNIS: Yeah, man, you're right about all of that. I was safe, not totally stupid. Just got caught up in the moment, you know? But fuck, doing it during work hours was definitely not my proudest moment. My crew probably wondered where the hell I disappeared to for so long. I should probably stick to Grindr on my own time from now on.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, if you're playing on Grindr, you're gay and you know it, so, uh, good for you. I'm glad that you just happened to have protection with you when you were gonna fuck a random dude at the gym, but hey, if you had a good time, nobody got hurt. Congratulations, model top.
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+DENNIS: Now, I never said I was on Grindr, this was totally random, and I got the condom from the vending machine in there. I'm not that prepared, but fuck, maybe you're right. Maybe I've been fighting this side of myself for too long. It just feels weird saying it out loud, you know? Like, I've got this whole macho business owner thing going on, but then here I am hooking up with dudes in gym.
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+LUKE: Hey, you know what I always say, uh, if it feels weird saying it aloud, you should call into a radio show and tell the whole world.
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+DENNIS: Shit, when you put it that way, it does sound pretty crazy. Here I am telling all of Baltimore about my gym hookup, but fuck it. I'm three beers in and it feels good to just be honest about it. Better than keeping it bottled up and freaking out alone in my truck like I was doing earlier. Thanks for letting me get this off my chest, man.
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+LUKE: Yeah, no problem, that's what we're here for. Oh, right, so it looks like we've come to the conclusion of the show, tune in tomorrow for our next batch of guest advice. Thanks for listening to Luke at the Roost. Let's Luke at the Roost, and remember, if you have protection and you need a dude at the gym and you fuck them in the ass in the shower, you're probably a game-in.

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+LUKE: All right, welcome back, ladies and gentlemen. My name is Luke, and I am your host of this radio show, Luke at the Roost. It's the radio show where you can call in and tell me what's going on in your life, and I'll give you the very best advice that I can. If you'd like to call in and get some advice, the number's 208-439-583. That's 208-439 Luke. locked in the back of a RV and you don't want to draw attention to yourself, you can send us an email at submissions at lukeatsderoose.com. And if we deem that it's funny enough, then it may be played on one of these next year episodes. Tonight is a very special night. It's Monday, February 23rd, here in animus, New Mexico. And this is the 20th episode of this we have a new segment. The segment's called Storytime with Luke, and this is what it's about. Storytime with Luke. Storytime with Luke. Okay, so this is Storytime with Luke. And today's story, I've been sitting at my computer here for 16, 18 hours of, day for the last couple of weeks and not getting a whole lot of activity or moving. And my dog, Elvis, the king here, has been looking at me like, what the hell, man? When are we going to go do something fun? So I decided today that it was a nice enough out to go for our regular scheduled walk up to the mercantile store and around and back. And today on our walk, something special happened. So Elvis, when Elvis takes a piss, he squats down like a girl. And I try to tell him, Elvis, all the other dogs in town are going to make fun of you. If they catch you doing this, you should really be lifting your leg like a male dog. So today, on our walk, I saw him find a nice little bush and lift his leg. And then I was so proud. I filled up with joy and pride. And he lifted up his leg and took a shit with his leg waving the air. Storytime with Luke. Storytime with Luke. All right. Well, that's Story Time with Luke. I hope you liked it. We're about to get to the calls. I'm going to start some music here. Here we go. A little ambiance. And first up on the line here, we have Donnie. The show, how can we help you today? What's going on in your life, sir?
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+DONNIE: Hey, Luke. Yeah, thanks for taking my call. So I found out about two hours ago that my dad had a whole second family I never knew about.
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+LUKE: Like he had a second family? Like brothers and sisters and stuff? Or you have a second family? Like brothers and sisters and stuff.
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+DONNIE: No, I have brothers and sisters I never knew existed. My dad died three months ago. And tonight, some woman in Tucson emails me a photo of three kids who apparently grew up calling him dad, same as I did.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, can we assume that that email came from their mother?
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+DONNIE: Yeah, yeah, it did. She said she thought I should know now that he's gone, that her kids have been asking about me, which is wild because I didn't even know they existed until 7 o'clock tonight.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that's a pretty weird thing to feel, what are you going to do about that? Are you going to reach out to them and try to start a relationship or just let it be?
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+LUKE: I don't think it's the big things that they care about so much.
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+EBONY: I got in my head tonight thinking it wasn't enough, that I wasn't enough, because I can't...
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+LUKE: Well, you know what? You're doing great. Those donuts on Saturday morning, that's exactly the kind of memory that's going to stick with them forever. That's their version of learning to drive in the Kmart parking lot. And it's perfect because it's yours. It's what you can do, and you're doing it consistently. That's what matters.
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+EBONY: Yeah, yeah, I actually do that already. Every Saturday morning, we go to this little donut shop, and they each pick one, and we sit there and talk about their week. It's like five bucks total, and they love it. I just, I don't know. I got in my head tonight thinking it wasn't enough, that I wasn't enough, because I can't...
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+EBONY: I mean, they might in the moment while they're young, but when they get older and they can look back and see what you did give them, they'll much appreciate donut Saturday or Donut Sunday or whatever it was over. My mom gave me this fancy car. If you want to make more money and be able to do those bigger things, that's an option too. You can do those things, but I think probably it would take more of your time and attention away from the kids and make those gifts a lot less meaningful. You know what's messed up? I heard from Donnie earlier, the guy who called about his dad having the whole second family, and I was sitting here thinking, at least my dad was there. At least he gave me his time. And then I turn around and worry I'm not giving my kids enough because I can't buy them a truck someday. Like I'm completely missing what actually mattered about my dad.
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+LUKE: Yeah, don't worry about it. You just got got by a commercial. That's what they're designed to do, it's doing a very good job on you. So don't worry about it. You're enough for your kids. Give them as much as you can in your time and attention. Spend time with them and have those special days, and that's what they're going to remember when they get older.
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+EBONY: Thank you. I really needed to hear that tonight. I'm going to finish this wine. Look at some more space pictures and actually get some sleep before I have to open tomorrow. And maybe I'll take the kids for donuts a day early this week.
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+LUKE: Excellent. I think you could have double donuts this week. And if you want to go for extra credit, you could teach them to do donuts in your car before it goes to the junkyard. So that's what I recommend. And don't worry about it too much. Stay off the commercials. Speaking of commercials, it's time for an ad from our sponsors.
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+All right, and we're back. We're back just in time to hear from Murray. Murray, welcome to the show. You're calling in on our 20th episode. Congratulations. What would you like to talk about? Let's make it a good one.
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+MURRAY: Hey, Luke. Thanks for taking my call. So I got this envelope from Lab Corp sitting on my kitchen table right now, and I'm pretty sure it's going to tell me whether or not I'm a dad to a three-year-old I've never met. My ex-girlfriend called me three weeks ago out of nowhere. We broke up about four years back. She moved to Tucson, and apparently she's getting married now. Her daughter's three, and the timeline lines up with when we were were still hooking up sometimes, so she needs to know for sure.
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+LUKE: All right, she didn't think about maybe mentioning that while you were still involved together. That's a bit odd, and I'm sorry to hear that. That's my worst nightmare right there.
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+MURRAY: Yeah, well, here's the thing. She says she wasn't sure herself until recently. We were on and off for like five years, total mess of a relationship. And I guess there was another guy in the picture She thought it was his. He thought it was his. They tried to make it work for a while. But now the kid's getting older and apparently doesn't look anything like him. And her fiance wants everything settled before they get married. So here I am. Staring at this envelope, I'm too chicken shit to open.
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+LUKE: Why don't you open it right now? Live on the air?
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+MURRAY: Oh man, I don't know if I can do that. I've been sitting here for. I've been sitting here for for two hours just looking at it. The thing is, Luke, and this is what's really messing with me, I've already been playing both scenarios out in my head for three weeks straight. Like, what does my life look like if I open this and it says yes? What does it look like if it says no?
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+LUKE: Well, I can tell you right now, if it says no, your life looks exactly the same as it does today. If it says yes, then your life looks completely different.
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+MURRAY: That's exactly it. And here's the part the hell out of me. I think I wanted to say yes. I'm 36 years old. I teach eighth grade social studies in Lordsburg. I go home to an empty house every night. I've been thinking about this little girl for three weeks, wondering if she likes dinosaurs, or if she's scared of the dark, or what her voice sounds like. My ex sent me one picture, just one, and I've looked at it about a hundred times trying to see if she has my nose or my eyes or anything.
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+LUKE: Well, that's not going to do anything for you because people have eerie similarities and it's possible that she got other genes that give her a different nose from both of you, so I don't know that that's going to do it for you. You're going to have to open the letter to find out, but the way I see it is if you want it to be true, then you can't lose. Open it up.
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+MURRAY: You're right. You're absolutely right. Okay, hold on. I'm opening it right now. My hands are shaking like crazy. Okay. sharing it open.
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+LUKE: All right. Good for you. What does it say? What does it say? Everybody's waiting.
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+MURRAY: It says, probability of paternity, 90 to 9.9%. I'm her dad. Oh my God, I'm her dad. Oh, my God, I'm her dad. Her name is Sophia.
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+LUKE: Well, congratulations to you and your new toddler-aged three-year-old daughter. That's very good news, and we're all happy for you. So now you've got to get to get yourself another room and turn it into a little girl's room and she can come over on the weekends and everybody's going to laugh and laugh and laugh.
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+MURRAY: Yeah, except she's in Tucson and I'm here in Lordsburg, and her mom's getting married in like two months. I don't even know what my rights are, if I have any. I haven't been there for three years, Luke. Three years.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, you didn't know, and she didn't tell you, and there's no way you could have known, but you can definitely fight for the those rights. And it sounds like she wanted you to know because she reached out and told you about it. So talk to her, see what the arrangement's going to be. And then if you have to go to the courts to get some level of custody of your child, then go do that. But yeah, congratulations. Happy day.
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+MURRAY: Thank you. God, I need to call her right now. I need to call Veronica right now and tell her. Thank you, Luke.
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+LUKE: You're very welcome. I'm glad I could help. Next up on the line we have Debbie. Debbie, welcome to the show. What's going on for you on this wonderful Monday evening?
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+DEBBIE: Hey, Luke. So I bought a house six months ago, and I'm sitting on the bedroom floor right now in my coat, because I sat in the driveway for like 45 minutes tonight, and I just realized I don't actually want to be here.
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+LUKE: You don't want to be where? You don't want to be in the house, or you don't want to be in the area you're in, or where is it you don't want to be?
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+DEBBIE: In the house. Like, this is the first real thing I ever owned, you know? I'm 21. I bought it myself, with money I made selling jewelry and vintage stuff online, and I should be so proud of it. But I pulled into the driveway tonight after working all day, and I just sat there with the engine running because going inside felt like this weight dropping on me. And now I'm inside, and it still feels
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+LUKE: Well, you know what? I think the crushing weight that you feel dropping on you is called a mortgage. Yeah, mortgage. That's part of homeownership and that's the part that never feels good. So here's what I recommend to you.
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+LUKE: Since you just bought the house, congratulations, it's a good thing to own property, especially at your age. I think you should live in that house for a year or two. See what it's like to be a homeowner and get used to utilities and small repairs and stuff like that. later, after some time that you don't want to be there, you can either rent the house out and be a landlord, or you could sell the house at probably a significant profit, usually. So that's what I think you should do. Enjoy the house while you're there. You can do anything for a couple of years, so just live there. And then when you're ready to move on, move on.
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+CALLER: No, but see, that's the thing, though. It's not the mortgage. I make good money like really good money. figures from my Etsy shop. I work harder than anyone I know.
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+LUKE: Great. It seems like you've got a nice place to work on your Etsy shop for the next couple of years then.
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+CALLER: Luke, I'm working like 16 hour days. I'm refreshing my shop stats at two in the morning. I haven't taken a weekend off and I don't even know how long.
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+LUKE: Well, that sounds like your problem. So if you're making enough money, you've got your house, your mortgage is covered. you're not worried about the money, then take a weekend off and unwind. That's a stressful situation buying a house and you're very young, so that's a big decision, and it's going to affect you. So take some time for yourself and re-center your whole outlook on things. And if you still feel like you don't want to be in the house in another six months, then get out of it. There's plenty of ways to do that.
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+CALLER: Yeah, I know I need to. I know I need to. I know I know I I should hire help, take time off, all of that. But hearing you say it out loud makes it feel more real, you know? Like I can't just keep telling myself, I'll slow down next month.
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+LUKE: Nope, but it sounds like you've made good progress and congratulations on the success of your business and your new home ownership. And if you're finding out that's not the life you want, then at any point you can turn about face and go for a different one.
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+CALLER: You're right. Thank you, Luke. I appreciate it.
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+LUKE: No problem. That's what we do here. Next up we have Darnell. Darnell, what's going on in your world today, sir? How can we help you at Luke at the Roost?
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+DARNELL: Man, so I'm sitting in my garage right now, surrounded by all these boxes I pulled down. And I just found these old demo tapes from like 2004, 2005. Me and my cousin Marcus, we had this whole hip-hop. thing going. And Luke, I'm telling you, listening to these tracks right now, they're actually good, like really good. Better than half the stuff that's on the radio these days. And here's the thing that's got me twisted up. Last week, my captain at the station, Rick, he pulls me aside and says the department might not make budget next year.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, congratulations on finding your old records. You know what? I think most of us have a box full of old records that's better than what's on the radio right now. people with records that are better than what's on the radio right now. And as far as the department not making budget, that's pretty much every department right now. So you're in the same boat as literally everyone.
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+DARNELL: Yeah, no, I hear you. I'm not special. It's just, okay, so I've been a firefighter for eight years now.
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+LUKE: And you're not going to make budget? What does that mean for you? Does that mean you lose your job, or you have to take a pay cut, or you're not going to get the hours you expect? What is... the budget, the department being out of money mean to you.
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+DARNELL: It means they might not hire the next class, which means the guys who were supposed to move up, they're stuck, which means I'm stuck. I've been waiting on a promotion for two years now, and Rick's basically saying it's not happening anytime soon. Maybe not at all if things get worse. So I'm looking at the same position, same pay, for who knows how long.
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+LUKE: Well, I don't know that I've ever seen a plan to make things get not worse. Worse seems to be the default trajectory of everything. So I would expect things are probably going to get worse, and you're going to be locked at the same pay while you're in that same area in that department. So if you would like to move up in the fire department, you may have to move to another location that has more of a budget to pay you.
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+DARNELL: Yeah, and that's the thing I keep coming back to. I could apply to Phoenix, Scottsdale places that are hiring. But I've got a mortgage here. got her job at the hospital. And honestly, man, I like my crew. I'm good at what I do. But sitting here tonight listening to these tracks, hearing myself at 20 years old, before I had all this locked down. I don't know. It's like I can hear this version of myself that still thought anything was possible, you know?
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+LUKE: Nothing's locked down. Anything is still possible. If you want to pursue a hip-hop career, you can do that. You're probably not going to do so well in the there's plenty of people with great hip-hop records, but you can give it a shot. It has been done. Maybe Dr. Dre'll come down into a rap battle and discover you.
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+DARNELL: Ha, yeah, Dr. Dr. Dr. Dr. Trail at the VFW Hall. Look, I'm not delusional. I know I'm not going to be a rapper at 34 with a mortgage.
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+LUKE: It is very unlikely, but it's not impossible. And it sounds like if the mortgage is a problem, then you can. You can get rid of that. That's not locked down. You can always sell a house and the wife likes her job, but she can continue to like her job and live somewhere else, or you can talk to her and explain to her that you're stagnant and you need to make a move and talk that out with her and see if it's a possibility. If you really want to go thermonuclear, you can blow up your entire life and start over in a van by the river.
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+DARNELL: Right, right. No, it's not even that I want to blow everything up. It's more like Okay, so Marcus moved to Flagstaff in 2006, got into construction, and that was it for the music. And I went hard at the fire academy. Got the job, bought the house, did everything right.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, you did everything right for you at the time, and it may not be what's right for you now. Or it may be. This might just be a strange feeling you're having that you could be having a different life. But there's a couple of things here. If you want to pursue music, you can do that either as a career or just for fun. There's plenty of people that would collaborate with you on a hip-hop project, I'm sure. And it's never been easier than it is today to make music or art or really anything. So you can do that if you want on the side. And if you need more money, you're stagnant, you're stagnant at the department. Then you have to change what county you're in and go work for a department that's funded.
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+DARNELL: Yeah, you're right. I could just make music again without it being a whole career third. thing. I haven't even talked to Marcus in like six months. I could call him up, see if he's still got any of his equipment. The thing is, I think what's really getting to me is I spent three hours out here tonight, and I felt more alive than I have in months.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I used to have a box full of CDs like that, too, of all my demos and songs that I wrote. And what I realized, after carrying them around for 20 years in a giant box full of unmarked stuff, is that I don't even own a Nobody cares. So I threw them away. If you want to make music, make music for you. If you want to make a career out of it, then you got to really buckle down and make a career out of it. And if you need more money, then you've got to find another job. That's all there is.
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+DARNELL: Man, that's harsh. But you're probably right. I've been carrying these tapes around the same way, not even listening to them, just knowing they're up there. And tonight, I finally pull them down, and it's not. Like, what was I waiting for? Permission? The money thing, though. That's real.
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+LUKE: Yep, the money thing is real as it is for most people.
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+LUKE: So you're going to have to figure out a way to make enough money to support your mortgage if that's what you want to do. And I'm just going to go out on a limb and say a rap career probably isn't it?
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+DARNELL: Yeah, no, you're right. I mean, I knew that before I call. I think I just needed to probably Phoenix or Scottsdale. Get on with a department that's actually funded. Keep the house. Keep the benefits. My wife and I could handle the commute for a while, or we sell and move closer.
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+LUKE: You can absolutely do that for as long as you can stand it. A commute like that will get to anybody's nerves over time. But for now, you can do it. You could rent out the house and get yourselves an apartment in the city or do the commute.
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+DARNELL: Right. Yeah. Rent it out. smart. Cover the mortgage that way. Get a place closer to wherever I end up. And I can still mess around with the music on weekends. Just for me.
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+LUKE: Yes, sir. You most certainly can. That's the way to do it. And make sure that you're fulfilling all areas of your life. And music is definitely one of those.
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+DARNELL: Yeah, yeah. I appreciate that, Luke. I think I just needed to hear someone cut through the bullshit.
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+LUKE: Well, that's what I do. I cut through the bullshit. like a hot knife through cheese. And, uh, okay, so I am obligated now to play another one of the words from our sponsors. Let's talk about mental health. Specifically, let's talk about brutal honesty, the therapy app that's tired of your shit. Unlike other apps with their calming voices and gentle affirmations, brutal honesty pairs you with an AI therapist that tells you what your friends are too nice to say. Did you try journal? about it? No, we're not doing that. Our algorithm analyzes your patterns and asks questions like, why do you think you deserve to feel better when you don't even drink water? And is your anxiety real or did you just have four cold bruise on an empty stomach? Brutal honesty, because coddling yourself got you here. First session is free, but it will hurt your feelings. Use code grow up at checkout. Brutal honesty, the app that blocks itself if you don't do the work. Okay, and we're back here with Roberta on the line. Roberta, welcome to the show. How can we help you?
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+ROBERTA: Hey, Luke, thanks for taking my call. So I'm sitting here in the dark at my thrift store, and I just found out my business partner emptied our bank account three days ago and took off with everything.
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+LUKE: How much was everything?
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+ROBERTA: $42,000, which was supposed to cover payroll, rent, utilities, our spring inventory. by. I had two employees show up this morning, and their checks bounced. I've been staring at this screen showing zero for the past hour trying to figure out how I'm going to tell my husband that the money we put into this place is just gone.
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+LUKE: Have you, uh, reached out to the business partner, I assume?
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+ROBERTA: I've called her probably 30 times since Friday. Straight to voicemail every single time. I drove by her house yesterday and her car's not there, mails piling up. She's just gone. She's just gone.
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+LUKE: Well, I don't know that $42,000 is enough money to disappear for any significant length of time, so it's likely she'll be back.
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+ROBERTA: That's what I keep telling myself. But Luke, she knew exactly what she was doing. She waited until Friday, after the banks closed, cleaned out the account, and by Monday morning, we're dead in the water. This wasn't some panic move. And the thing is, we've been friends for six years. We started this story. We started this story together from nothing.
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+LUKE: Well, you both had your names on the accounts, which means she was within her rights to withdraw that money. So I don't think that you have any legal recourse to go after it. Maybe you could try to sue her in civil court, you know. But I don't know. I'm not a lawyer. I would think that probably you're screwed on this one and you're going to have to come up with another way to raise that money to cover your payroll.
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+ROBERTA: Yeah, I figured. That's the part that's making me sick. I keep thinking. I keep thinking about Darnell earlier. You know, stuck because of budget cuts. At least he's got a steady paycheck. I've got two employees who depend on me and I can't even make good on what I owe them. One of them is a single mom.
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+LUKE: Well, that is rough. And I think, um, maybe have you told your employees yet what the situation is?
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+ROBERTA: I told them their checks bounced, but I made up some story about a bank error. Said it would be fixed by Wednesday. I couldn't look them in the eye and tell them the that I have no idea when I can pay them or if we're even going to stay open.
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds like maybe you shouldn't stay open if you don't have the operating expenses to sustain the business, but you should let them know the truth so that they can make alternate plans. And also, you got to tell your husband what's going on because that affects him.
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+ROBERTA: You're right. I know you're right. It's just Danny and I put 28,000 into this place when we opened. That was our savings. Money we were supposed to be supposed to use to finally fix the roof. Maybe take a real vacation for once.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, that's a lot of money to lose, but it seems like you lost it. And I hope that in this experience, you've learned a valuable lesson, which is never trust anybody. If you're going to go into business with a partner, make sure that everything is well-buttoned up by a lawyer, and that you both need to sign the checks in order to take the money out of the accounts.
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+ROBERTA: God, that's dark. But yeah, I guess that's where I'm at now. Six years of friendship. Gone. The crazy thing is, she was the one who was always so careful about the books. Always worried about every penny. I trusted her completely. I never even thought to check the account myself until it was too late.
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+LUKE: Well, I mean, it's only been a few days. There could be a reasonable explanation. Maybe she had her mother kidnapped and had to pay a ransom in Bitcoin or something like that, and it's the only thing she knew how to do. There could have been good intentions behind this. Probably not. Probably she ripped you off and ran. But, but we don't know that until you talk to her.
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+ROBERTA: I haven't thought about it like that. I mean, I've been so angry I just assumed the worst. But you're right. I don't actually know.
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+LUKE: I mean, you can let the police know. You can let the bank know. I don't think that they can do anything about it at this point, but you should still let them know that there was some kind of misgoings on.
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+ROBERTA: Yeah, I called the bank this morning. said since her name's on the account, technically she didn't steal anything. It's a civil matter, not criminal. So I'd have to sue her, get a lawyer, spend money I don't have to, maybe get back money I'll never see again.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, I mean, there is small claims court. I think that only goes up to like 15 grand or something like that, but at least it's something. It forces her to show face, so it'll bring her back to the area if she's left.
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+ROBERTA: That's true. I didn't think about small claims. I didn't think about At least I could get her in front of a judge. Make her explain herself. Even if I don't get all the money back, maybe I'd get some answers.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I don't think you need a lawyer for small claims court. I did it once, actually. One summer night, I went out looking for my backpack in my car and it was gone. So somebody had stolen it. So I went to the police. I let them know. Somebody stole my stuff. And then I found, I was searching through Craigslist. I found somebody selling some of the stuff that was in my backpack. So I went back to the police station and we set up a sting operation where I offered to buy back some of the gear that I had had in the backpack and meet a dude in a CVS parking lot. And the cops set up across the street to see the transaction go down. And that proved that, you know, the items were stolen for me and I had to go to small claims to look for restitution. I never did get the money, but he was ordered to pay it.
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+LUKE: Wait, you set up a sting operation over a backpack? That's incredible. I can't even get my partner to answer her phone.
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+CALLER: But yeah, okay. So even if she's ordered to pay, there's no guarantee I'll actually see the money. That's what I figured. Well, no, I set up a sting operation over the items that were inside the backpack.
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+LUKE: But I think you will see the money if you push it.
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+CALLER: I didn't. It was only a couple hundred bucks where there wasn't worth any more of my time. But I probably could have gone back to the court and enforced his, I don't know, probation fees or something to be diverted to me. I don't know how any of that works.
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+LUKE: Right. Okay. So there's ways to actually collect if you stay on it.
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+CALLER: I mean, we're talking about enough to cover payroll for two people, so it's worth my time. I just hate that it's come to this.
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+LUKE: Well, it takes a long time, so it's not going to cover your payroll right away. If you need to cover that payroll, you're going to have to find another way alone or, you know, talk to friends and family and see what you can do to raise the money. And stop operations because you can't afford to pay them going forward.
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+CALLER: Yeah, you're right. I've been sitting here like if I just figure out the legal stuff, the money will magically appear. But those employees need to get paid this week, not six months from now when a judge orders it. I'm going to have to tell Danny tonight. See if we can scrape together enough between savings and maybe his sister.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that sucks. I'm sorry that you ended up in that situation. It's a hard place to be. And I don't envy you at all, but that's the right thing to do. I think that's the correct course of action. And hopefully it all works out. And she comes back and returns the money. But I wouldn't bet on that. For now, I'd start looking at other arrangements.
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+CALLER: Yeah, I'm not holding my breath for her to suddenly grow a conscience. I appreciate you talking me through it. I'd just been spinning my wheels all day. Couldn't even Think straight. At least now I know what I got to do. Even if it sucks. Thanks, Luke.
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+LUKE: You're welcome. That's what we do here. Hopefully it all works out. And you get your money back and you're able to pay your employees and continue with your thrift shop business. Next up on the line we have Phil. Phil, how you doing, buddy?
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+PHIL: Hey, Luke, I'm all right, man. So I've been sitting here at the laundromat for like two hours now. And I cannot stop thinking about that Zachary Ty Bryan thing you mentioned earlier. You know the Home Improvement Kid getting locked up for violating probation?
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+LUKE: I do not. I have no idea what you're talking about. Are you talking about the television show Home Improvement from the 90s with Tim Allen, one of his kids?
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+PHIL: Yeah, yeah, the middle kid. Jonathan Taylor Thomas's TV brother. I read about it today. And it's been stuck in my head. Because my cousin Danny's sentencing is on Wednesday. And I'm supposed to text to testify against him tomorrow. Well, not against him exactly. But I saw what I saw behind the Circle K back in November. And the prosecutor keeps calling to make sure my story stays straight.
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+LUKE: What is it that you saw behind the Circle K?
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+PHIL: I saw Danny breaking into the storage unit back there. It was like two in the morning. I was coming back from dropping off my girlfriend at the time, and I see him with a crowbar prying open the lock. And the thing is, he looked right at me. eye contact. We grew up together, man.
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+LUKE: Okay, and how did you end up on the telephone contact list for the prosecution?
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+PHIL: I called it in that night. I sat in my truck for like 10 minutes, just watching him load stuff into his car. And I kept thinking, maybe I should just drive away, you know? But then I thought about the guy who owns that Circle K. Jose, he's always been decent to everyone. And I just called 911.
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+LUKE: All right, so that's a little thing we in the business like to call snitching, and it's never a good idea to be the snitch, as they say. So do you have plans on how you're going to navigate that in a post-snitch world?
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+PHIL: That's the thing that's eating me up, Luke. Danny's mom has left me like eight voicemails today saying Uncle Hector would be ashamed of me. And that one hits different because Hector died last spring. He was the one who raised both of us half the time. Let us run wild on dirt bikes every Saturday. And now, I'm driving the same routes through Lordsburg and Amas for UPS that we used to tear up as kids. And everyone knows. Like I went into the gas station on Friday, and the guy behind the counter wouldn't even look at me.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I mean, you must have expected that when you ran your mouth about what you saw behind the circle K.
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+PHIL: I mean, yeah. I knew it wasn't going to be good, but I guess I thought doing the right thing would feel different than this. Like maybe people would understand that Danny's been spiraling since Hector died, stealing copper wire, breaking into storage units, and somebody had to pump the brakes. But instead, I'm Nerat, and he's the victim. And his mom is blowing up my phone talking about family loyalty while her son is out there destroying himself.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, there are other ways you could have handled that. I mean, you turned in your own family to the police. That's pretty, uh, uh, nobody's going to respect that very much. You could have, uh, uh, uh, you could have gone up to him on the side and let him know that you saw that and not to continue doing it or, you know, giving him the chance to stop in his tracks. But that's not what you did. You just called the police. So, yes, you are a rat.
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+PHIL: You're right. I could have walked over there that night and said something. I sat in my truck for 10 minutes. I had time. And the worst part is, Danny would have listened to me. We've been tight since we were kids.
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+LUKE: Well, the way I've seen. You have two options. You can go in there and testify the truth and let them know what you saw and rat out your family, or you can, you can, uh, not tell the truth and lie under perjury and, uh, give up yourself that way. So either way, it's not the best situation to be in.
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+PHIL: I already gave a statement to the cops that night, though. The prosecutor called today to prep me, make sure my story stays consistent. So if I get up there Wednesday and sell, Suddenly I didn't see what I saw. They're going to know I'm lying. And then I'm looking at perjury charges on top of being the guy who snitched and then trying to take it back.
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+LUKE: It doesn't matter if they know you're lying. It only matters if they can prove you're lying. And it was dark. It was rainy and you would you were tired that night and who you saw was actually not this person.
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+PHIL: Man, that's the problem though. It wasn't dark and rainy. It was like 9.30 on a clear night and I was parked maybe 30 feet away. I watched him for 10 minutes. The prosecutors got my original statement where I described everything. What he was wearing. The stuff he was loading.
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+LUKE: Sounds to me like you're not listening to me, sir. It was dark, and you're not sure what you saw. You called the police, uh, in haste.
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+PHIL: You know what? You're right. I hear you. It was dark. I was tired after a long shift, and I shouldn't have been so sure about what I saw from that distance. Maybe I jumped the gun calling it in like that.
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+LUKE: Maybe you did. I would be careful if I were you on account of the whole stitches thing, because you know who gets stitches. And next up on the line we have Adrian. Adrian, thanks for calling in. What's going on with our callers today? We're, uh, we've got some not very interesting calls. Uh, can you help us out?
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+ADRIAN: Oh man, I hope so. So I'm sitting here cutting up Hatch Green Chile for a birth tomorrow. My client wants a pot of stew ready for after she delivers. And I just need to say something about commitment that's been driving me crazy all night. I was at the diner earlier and this tourist couple ordered Christmas-style enchiladas. You know red and green Chile.
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+LUKE: Sure.
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+LUKE: So, you're working with a woman who's given birth and her demand for post-birth snack is a chili soup?
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+SARAH: Stew, not soup. And yeah, she's very special. specific about it. She's having the baby tomorrow. I'm her midwife. And she swears, she needs hatch green Chile stew waiting for her after delivery. But that's not why I called. What's bugging me is this whole Christmas thing. The waitress winked at me when they ordered it, like we were in on some joke together, and it just set me off.
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+LUKE: Do you hate Christmas?
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+SARAH: No, I love Christmas, the holiday. I'm talking about Christmas-style enchilada. I'm talking about Christmas-style enchilada. red and green chili together. It's what tourists order when they can't commit to one or the other.
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+LUKE: Do you know what tourists do? By definition? They come into your town and they spend money and promote businesses and make sure that everybody in the area that, you know, works there, gets paid so that they can eat. So what seems to be the problem with this red and green chili?
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+SARAH: Okay. Fair point about the money. But here's what's getting under my skin. Choosing both isn't really choosing at all. It's hedging your bets. It's saying, I can't commit to red or green, so I'll just take everything. And I've been thinking about commitment a lot lately because my second ex-husband just got engaged after six months to someone who probably orders Christmas every single damn time.
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+LUKE: Um, well, that's not necessarily what it means. It could also mean that somebody likes both red and green chili and wants to have them both. Uh, which is a perfectly acceptable way to eat an enchilada.
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+SARAH: You're right. It is acceptable. I know I'm being irrational here, but it feels like a metaphor for my whole life right now. I'm a midwife. I'm a photographer on the side. I caught this perfect shot of a barn owl on my drive home tonight. And I keep thinking about how I wait for the right moment with photography.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, photography is a fun hobby, and to get the shot, you often have to wait for the right moment or identify the right moment. right moment while it's happening. And that is a skill.
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+SARAH: It's more than a hobby for me, but yeah, and that's what I'm good at. Patience, waiting for the right moment instead of just taking whatever's in front of me.
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+LUKE: Okay, and what does that have to do with this chilly situation?
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+SARAH: Because I didn't wait with either of my marriages. I just jumped in, took what was there, didn't really choose deliberately. And now my second ex is engaged after six months to someone else. And I'm sitting here at my kitchen table at midnight, chopping green chili for a client stew. And I'm wondering if maybe I'm the one who should have been ordering Christmas all along.
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+LUKE: Here's what I say. If you like red chili, buy the red chili enchilada. If you like green chili, buy the green chili angelata. If you like both chilies, or you'd like to try a little bit of each, buy the Christmas enchilada. And that's all there is to it. It has nothing to do with, uh, your midwife chili stew or your failed marriages.
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+SARAH: You're absolutely right. God, I called in about enchiladas like a crazy person. I heard Roberta earlier talking about her business partner cleaning out their account. And that's a real problem.
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+LUKE: Yeah. I understand enchiladas are very important. And so are green chilies, especially around hatch. So I can see where you derived all. all meaning in your life from metaphors of chili colors.
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+SARAH: Okay, now you're making fun of me. Fair enough. I deserve it. I just, I think what I'm actually upset about is that he moved on so fast. Six months, Luke. We were together for three years, and it took him six months to find someone he wants to marry.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, I mean, I was married a lot longer than that, and it took her a lot less, so you're in good company. and it makes no difference to you. It doesn't matter. Let them all be happy. Let them all eat chilies. That's what I say. Let everybody eat chilies and you just focus on what you've got in front of you, which is a birthing mother who wants her goddamn stew.
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+SARAH: You're right. She's due any day now and she's been so specific about this stew. It has to be hatch green. It has to have pork shoulder. It has to simmer for at least four hours. And honestly, I love that about her. She knows exactly. what she wants.
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+LUKE: Hey, that's good for you. I mean, if somebody, if one of my clients was like that, I would be like, you have to make your own stew. Um, but if you can, if you can deal with that, good for you. Give her the stew that she deserves. That's what I say. Give, give people the stew that they deserve.
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+SARAH: That's actually perfect advice. Give people the stew they deserve. I'm going to write that down. Thank you, Luke. I needed someone to tell me I was being ridiculous. about the enchiladas.
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+LUKE: Well, here I am to tell you you were being ridiculous about the enchiladas. And that, ladies and gentlemen, is the end of our 20th episode. Thank you for tuning in. We hope you're enjoying Luke at the Roost, and we'll catch it again tomorrow.

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+LUKE: All right. Hello everybody. Welcome back to Luke at the Roost. I am your host, Luke, and today is Tuesday, February 24th. This is the call-in radio show where you can call in and ask me anything about what's on your mind. I'll give you the best advice I can, though I am not a lawyer, I am not an accountant, and I give terrible advice. So with that being said, if you'd like to call in, the number's 208, 4th, 3,000, 3rd, 39-5853. That's 208-439. Luke. First up on the phones here, we've got Greg. Greg, welcome to the show. How can we help you today?
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+GREG: Luke, hey, yeah. So our smart speaker tried to wake up the entire neighborhood at four in the morning, blasting mariachi music. And I'm pretty sure my wife's never going to let me hear the end of it. The thing is I never even wanted the damn thing. My daughter set it up last Christmas, said it'd make our lives easier, and I've been side-eyeing it ever since. Just sitting there on the kitchen counter like some kind of little robot spy. And this morning it just decides, 4 a.m. Time for a fiesta, apparently.
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+LUKE: Well, what else do you use it for? There's some pretty good uses for it. It is a little robot spy sitting there listening to everything you say, but it can be fun too and useful.
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+GREG: Honestly, Linda uses it for timers when she's cooking. asks it about the weather sometimes. I mostly just walk past it. She'll say, play some Fleetwood Mac, and it does, and I guess that's nice enough. But I work nights, Luke, so when I'm home during the day, I'm trying to sleep. And more than once, that thing has started talking out of nowhere because it thought it heard something.
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+LUKE: Well, you know, you can turn the microphone off, so it doesn't operate that way?
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+GREG: Yeah. My daughter told me that too. But then Linda says, well, what's the point of having it if we turn it off? And she's got a point, I guess. makes me uneasy. I grew up with a rotary phone on the kitchen wall, you know. You wanted music you put on a record.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, now it's 2026 and that's not how it's done anymore. And there are some ways that you can manage that device without having the speaker on. I mean, you have to have the speaker on something, like a smart watch or something. But you can set up a shortcut, so if you talk to your watch, it'll play Fleetwood Mac on the smart speaker.
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+GREG: I don't have a smart watch, Luke. I've got a where I work about eight years ago, still keeps perfect time. But look, the real kicker this morning was I had to climb up into the attic in my boxes to pull the plug because the thing wouldn't respond to anything we said.
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+LUKE: Okay, well here's my advice for you. This is what I would do. I would set up a shortcut. You might not have a smart watch, but you do have a smartphone, so you can open up the Google Home or Apple HomeKit or whatever it is app for your smart speaker and set a schedule so that at 10 p.m. it, uh, you can open up the uh, mutes the volume until 8 a.m. And then you don't have to worry about waking up the neighbors at 4 a.m.
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+GREG: Huh. That's actually not a bad idea. I didn't even know you could do that. See, this is the problem. My daughter sets this stuff up and then moves back to Phoenix, and I'm just supposed to figure it out. Linda standing there in her robe this morning with a flashlight, laughing so hard she's crying while I'm freezing my ass off in the attic. And I'm thinking there's got to be a better way to handle this.
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+LUKE: Yeah, you're supposed to figure it out. You know how you figure it out? You fucking try. It's really not that hard. It's not rocket science. You actually are like, hey, how could I solve this problem? And you don't even have to know the answer. You just go to your search engine of choice. Google is one good one, and you can say, how can I stop this smart speaker from going off in the middle of the... Just fucking try. That's all you have to do.
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+GREG: All right, all right. I hear you. You're not wrong. I guess I've been treating it like it's some kind of alien technology, when really I just need to spend 10 minutes poking around in the app. It's just, I don't know, Luke. When you've been doing the same job for 12 years, stocking the same shelves every night, there's a part of you that stops trying to learn new things. You get in a groove and you stay there.
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+LUKE: Well, if you want to stay there, then you can look like an idiot every time you start playing fiesta music at 4 a.m. But I would recommend that you don't look like an idiot and you actually put in some level of effort, because these are designed so that a 12-year-old can use them. So if a 12-year-old can use it, and you're a full-grown adult, I'm pretty sure you can figure it out.
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+GREG: You know what? You're right. I'm sitting here complaining about a problem that probably takes less time to fix than it took me to climb into that attic this morning. I'll pull up the app on my break. Figure out the schedule thing you mentioned. Can't be harder than learning the new inventory system they made a switch to last year. And I managed that eventually.
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+LUKE: I have full faith in your ability to figure out your smart speaker, sir. I wish you the best of luck, but also stop being a lazy bastard. Estelle, thanks for calling in. What's going on today?
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+ESTELLE: Hey, Luke. Thanks for taking my call. So I work at a laundromat, and I've been tracking who returns their shopping carts in the parking lot, versus who just leaves them wherever. The numbers are driving me crazy, because I think it actually tells you everything you need to know about a person.
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+LUKE: Well, I don't know about that, but I'm curious about your inventory tracking system. and their laundry. So you can see that the people that do two blankets a week, they're the ones more likely to return their shopping carts. What's your system look like? How detailed is it?
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+ESTELLE: No, no, it's not that detailed. I've got the security monitor at my desk in the back office, and I can see the Albertsons across the street. People walk over there, do their shopping, and then I watch what they do with the cart when they get back to their car. I started keeping a tally sheet two weeks ago just marks on paper. One column for people who return it. One column for people who don't.
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+LUKE: Which column do you yourself belong in?
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+ESTELLE: I return mine every time. Even if I'm parked right next to the store, and the cart return is on the other side of the lot. My husband thinks I'm being ridiculous about this whole thing, but I can't help it.
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+LUKE: Now doesn't the store hire? a guy or lady to go collect those carts and move them out of the parking lot?
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+ESTELLE: Yeah, they do. But that's not the point. The point is, there's no punishment for leaving your cart in the fire lane or blocking a handicapped spot. Nobody's watching. Nobody's making you do the right thing. So when someone walks that cart all the way back to the corral when they could just leave it, that tells me something. That tells me they probably stop if they saw you broken down down on the side of the road. The people who leave it three feet from their car.
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+LUKE: Well, I think that's making quite a few assumptions about the values of people at large.
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+ESTELLE: Is it, though? Because I watched someone last week, leave their cart, right in the middle of an empty parking space. And then two hours later, that same person came back in. Because the dryers ate their quarters.
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+LUKE: And you know what?
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+ESTELLE: Do you think the dryers ate their quarters because of a karmic retribution? No, but they stood there at my counter, demanding I give them their money back, saying it wasn't their fault, saying I should have signs posted, even though there are signs posted. They wanted me to fix their problem immediately, but they couldn't be bothered to walk 15 feet to put a cart away. I'm just saying there's a pattern. Tonight, I counted 47 people who returned their carts versus 63 who didn't. And yeah, maybe I'm reading too much into it.
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+LUKE: But when you sit here night after night, watching people make that choice, when nobody's looking, it starts to feel like it means something. Well, there's a difference here. You see, the difference is that person was not an employee of Albertsons, and it's not their job to return the cart to the designated cart return space. Whereas in the laundromat, it is your job to fix the problem. And if that person lost their quarters in the machine, then yes, they should expect that you're going to fix their problem. That's your entire job.
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+ESTELLE: Okay, but the dryer didn't eat their quarters. They put in six quarters for a 40 minute cycle and pulled their clothes out after 20 minutes because they were in a hurry. Then they came back two hours later saying the machine stole from them. I showed them on the timer that they stopped it themselves.
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+LUKE: Okay. Well, that's different. That is douchebaggery, and I can agree with you on that. And it's a good thing that you had that, uh, that tape ready to show them that, hey, this machine did not eat your quarter, sir. And by the way, you left your shopping cart in the middle of the shopping space and it made me very upset.
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+ESTELLE: I didn't say that last part to them. I'm not confronting customers about shopping carts at Albertsons, but I'm watching it happen on my security monitor. Because those carts end up blocking my dumpster, and last month, one of them rolled into a customer's Subaru. And I'm sitting here thinking about how it's the same kind of thing. When there's no consequence, when nobody's watching, what do people do?
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+LUKE: Well, I can't talk about people at large, but I can tell you what I do. When I have a shopping card and I bring it to my car, I unload my goods, my merchandise into the car. And then if there is a spot where I can deposit, that cart within a reasonable distance, I will deposit it. Otherwise, I'll move it somewhere out of the way because usually a parking lot is completely empty and there's plenty of space to drive around a cart, and I'll allow the person whose job it is to put that away to come put it away.
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+ESTELLE: See, that's what I'm talking about. You just said out of the way and plenty of space to drive around it. But who decides what's out of the way? Because I've got full footage of people leaving carts in handicapped spots, thinking they're out of the way. And, yeah, the parking lot looks empty at 10 o'clock at night. But then someone pulls in at 6 in the morning when it's still dark and there's a cart sitting there. It takes 30 seconds to walk it back. 30 seconds.
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+LUKE: Well, maybe in that Albertson, but not in every parking lot. There are some that are split in the middle with a sidewalk type thing where you got to lift up the cart and carry it over and then push it back to the front of the store. No, I'm not doing that. But if it's reasonable and there's a little place to put the carts, I would say about 80% of the time I return the carts. And 20% of the time, no. You return the cart. If it bothers you, get out of your car and move it.
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+ESTELLE: So you're part of the 63. And that's fine. You can be part of the 63. But don't act surprised when nobody stops to help you change a tire, because I'm telling you, there's a connection. The people who can't be bothered to take 30 seconds when nobody's watching. Those are the same people who stand at my counter demanding I fix a problem they created. And my husband thinks I'm obsessing over this, but I started keeping the tally sheet two weeks ago just to see if I was crazy. And the numbers don't lie.
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+LUKE: You're right, they don't lie. You are crazy. Because sitting at your job, watching across the street and counting the number of times that people return their shopping cards is bat shit crazy.
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+ESTELLE: You know what? Fair. Maybe it is. But I'm sitting here anyway waiting for the last dryers to finish staring at this monitor. Because someone has to watch for people dumping trash in my dumpster or trying to break into the change machine. And the Albertson's parking lot is right there in frame. So yeah, I started counting.
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+LUKE: Well, good for you. How is it improving your life in any way? Instead of, you know, taking your personal pet peeve and associating a moral gauge of people's goodliness based on it.
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+ESTELLE: Because it's not just a pet peeve. That cart that rolled into the Subaru, I had to deal with that.
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+LUKE: Yeah, what did you have to do to deal with that?
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+ESTELLE: The woman came into my laundromat screaming because she saw it happen on my camera and wanted the footage. And I gave it to her. And you know what it showed? Some guy leaving his cart right where I've got the no parking dumpster access sign and then it just rolled rolled right across the lot into her car.
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+LUKE: Well, that is a goddamn travesty. You know what I suggest? Here's my recommendation for you. Right where it says that no parking dumpster access sign, you should also put another sign that says don't leave your cart here. Uh, because placing a car is not the same as parking a car. Thing is, they move easily, whereas a car you kind of have to turn it out of the way. There's a big difference. So, yeah, I don't think this is a thing.
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+ESTELLE: Oh, so now I need signs telling people not to leave carts in a fire lane, not to block handicapped spots. How many signs do I need before people just do the basic thing? That's my whole point. It's not about the carts.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, you're the one that's tracking the carts on a graph there sitting at your desk. So what is it about if it's not about the carts?
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+ESTELLE: It's about the moral responsibility of society at large. It's about whether someone does the right thing when nobody's making them. That's it. The cart return is right there. You can see it from anywhere in that lot. Takes 30 seconds. But 63 people today couldn't be bothered because there's no consequence.
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+LUKE: Yeah, there's no consequence because it's not a law. There's no rule or regulation or law that says you have to return your cart to the place. And that's why there's no consequence. If you want consequence, I suggest that you, I don't know, join your local board of selectmen and issue a state or county wide, townwide, whatever. Issue a town bylaw that all carts will be returned to the cart space. But you see, the thing is, this is this is America. And people want people to come to their stores and they don't want to be hassled with the carts. So that's why they hire somebody to go clean up the carts. Now, if the carts aren't being cleaned up at the end of the night when the store is closed and everybody's going home, whose fault is that? Is it the fault of every individual shopper that was trying to get, you know, their kid to stop crying and get home to make dinner for the family? Or is it the kid that, uh, that had that job and didn't do it before he went home?
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+ESTELLE: The Albertson's kid isn't out there at 11.30 at night when I'm closing up. And there's three carts blocking my dumpster access. And yeah, maybe that mom had a screaming kid. I get it. But what about the guy I watched tonight in a suit? No kids. Just walked his cart 10 feet past the return to leave it in a handicap spot. What's his excuse?
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+LUKE: He had a bunion.
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+ESTELLE: Oh, come on. You don't. Look, I watched him. He was fine.
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+LUKE: Oh, so you can tell? You can tell if he was sick to his stomach and about to puke, tell if his big toe was cut off by a meat cleaver accident this morning? You can't look at somebody and tell how they feel or what's going on in their body or in their mind. I'm sorry, lady. You're out of your mind.
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+ESTELLE: Okay, fine. Maybe that one guy had a bunion. What about the other 62 people? They all have bunions?
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+LUKE: I'm going to guess that some percentage of them are general assholes, but the vast majority just had other stuff going on. And this is not their primary, you know, priority today.
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+ESTELLE: But that's exactly what I'm saying. When it's inconvenient, when they've got other stuff going on, they don't do it. That's the test. Anyone can do the right thing when it's easy.
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+LUKE: I'm talking about the 30 seconds when you're tired or distracted or your toe hurts. Do you still put the cart back?
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+ESTELLE: I put the cart back when it makes sense to put the cart back. And when it doesn't, I don't put the car back. And I'm an adult with agency and the ability to tell when it's okay to leave a cart somewhere and when you're blocking something important. And I think most adult people that are able to drive can make that distinction. And it's really not up to you. It's not your job. And it's not your responsibility to decide when that's okay or where it's okay.
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+LUKE: But you just said you can tell when you're blocking something important. The guy tonight left his cart in a handicapped spot. That's blocking something important.
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+ESTELLE: Sure, and I told you that there was going to be some percentage of assholes. But that doesn't mean that guy didn't stop on his way home and help an old man fix his tire. It doesn't mean he wouldn't go out of his way to support a food kitchen on Christmas because you don't like the way he handled his cart. Come on.
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+LUKE: So what? One good deed cancels out being inconsiderate. I'm supposed to assume the guy blocking the handicapped spot is secretly Mother Teresa, because maybe he volunteers sometimes.
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+ESTELLE: Look, I'm not saying these people are evil.
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+LUKE: You are. That's exactly what you're saying. You're saying you can tell from whether or not people return their carts how they are in general towards society. You're saying the people that don't return their carts aren't helpful and they're not going to stop on the side of the road and you're making a ton of assumptions here and you're not in a position to do that lady.
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+ESTELLE: I didn't say they're evil. I said you can tell who would help you change attire. And yeah, I stand by that. The person who can't be bothered to walk 15 feet when they're done shopping, when nobody's watching. Well, I mean, I don't know.
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+LUKE: What are you calling for? What advice do you need for me?
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+ESTELLE: I don't know. My husband says, I'm obsessing. He says I need to let it go. Stop keeping the tally sheet. Stop watching the monitor. But I can't stop noticing it now.
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+LUKE: Well, you obviously are obsessing, and maybe you should let it go because it's obviously not improving your life in any way. And it's making you a miserable old bag.
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+ESTELLE: Okay, wow. Miserable old bag. That's nice. All right. So I guess I'm one of those 40% centers or whatever that sucks of life. But I wish you the best and I hope that all your carts end up where they're supposed to go, okay?
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+LUKE: With that being said, it's time for a word from our sponsors. All right. I'm going to read this ad exactly as they sent it to me and I want you to know that I have concerns. Phantom Ranch Wellness wants you to know that your gut health starts and I'm reading this directly from the card now from the other end. They make an at-home home coffee Enema kit. It comes in a box that says wellness inside on the outside, which I think we can agree, is doing a lot of the heavy lifting. The kit includes a medical grade silicone bag, organic single origin coffee, because apparently the coffee you put in your, that that coffee needs to be single origin, a detailed instruction booklet and a com card with a QR code to a guided meditation for during. During. There's a guided meditation for during. I'm not going to tell you what to do with your body. That's between you and your bathroom and whatever God you answer to. I will say the reviews are disturbingly positive. Four and a half stars. One guy said it has changed his morning routine, which I believe because it would absolutely change your morning routine. Phantom Ranch Wellness. I read the ad. I didn't endorse it.
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+Okay, and we are back. And it is time for a, uh, A listener mail. So here's a submission that we've got to the old email box. If you'd like to send in a submission, it is submissions at luke at the roost.com. And let's see what we've got here. I've been lying to a dying man for seven months and I can't stop. Let's have one of our robot friends read this email.
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+Subject, I have been lying to a dying man for seven months and I can't stop. Luke, I worked the graveyard shift at a truck stop diner. Seven months ago, this old guy started coming in every single night. Same time, same booth, same order. Black coffee, dry toast, side of applesauce. One night he starts talking to me. Tells me his name is Earl. Tells me he's got the cancer. Tells me his daughter won't return his calls. Then he asks my name. And I don't know why, Luke, but I panicked and I said Diane. My name is not Diane. Not even close. But he got this look on his face like he'd just seen a ghost He whispered, that was my mother's name. And then he cried, and I couldn't take it back after that. So now I'm Diane. Every night. For seven months, I have been Diane to this dying man. I know everything about him. I know he drove trucks for 40 years. I know he regrets missing his daughter's wedding. I know his wife's name was Ruthie, and she made the best cobbler in the state, and he still sets a place for her at Christmas. My coworkers think I'm insane. They call me Diane now too, even when Earl's not there. My manager put Diane on the schedule as a joke. It's not funny anymore. It's on my name tag. I am Diane now. But here's the thing. Earl told me last week that coming in and talking to Diane is the only reason he gets out of bed. That our conversations are keeping him going. That I remind him there are still good people. What am I supposed to do with that? Tell a dying man that the one good thing in his life is based on a lie I told because I got nervous? I don't need advice. I think I'm past advice. I just needed someone else to know that somewhere out there, a woman who is not Diane, is the most important person in a dying man's life. And she has no idea how this ends. Keep the light on for us night shift people. We're out here holding it together with coffee and fake names. Not Diane.
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+All right. Well, thank you, Not Diane. That's a very kind thing of you to do. If you'd like to send in a message, you can do that at submissions, Luke at theroost.com. Now let's get back to the phones here. We've got Francine. Francine, welcome to the show. What's going on?
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+FRANKIE: It's Frankie, actually. But yeah, hey, Luke. So I'm sitting here looking at my buddy Ray's Netflix account, right? And the guy's got like 15 romantic comedies in his cue and a profile that says watching with them with a little heart emoji.
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+LUKE: Okay. Well, uh, what's the problem there?
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+FRANKIE: The problem is Ray's been giving me endless shit for years about being with my girlfriend Amber. Like constantly. The whole ball and chain routine. The, you're missing out on freedom speech. Jokes about how he's never settling down. All that stuff. And now I find out he's been in a relationship this whole time and just never said anything?
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+LUKE: Well, how do you know he's in a relationship? He could just be, uh, you know, that could be a strategy for his Netflix and chill routine.
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+FRANKIE: I mean, maybe. Maybe? But who makes a whole profile with a heart emoji for hookups? And these aren't just rom-coms, Luke. We're talking the notebook. When Harry met Sally, the really sappy ones. Plus, I was on his account like a month ago watching Narcos. And that profile definitely wasn't there.
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+LUKE: Well, I don't know what to tell you, buddy. It sounds like your friend might be into some... Uh... shit. I don't know how to say it. Less than masculine media.
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+FRANKIE: No, see, that's the thing, though. Ray doesn't care about that stuff. He'll watch whatever. We've watched plenty of dumb movies together. It's not about the rom-coms. It's about the lying. Like, why would he hide having a girlfriend while busting my balls about having one? That's when I can't figure out.
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+LUKE: Well, you don't know. Maybe he doesn't have a girlfriend. Maybe the girlfriend is somebody you know and he doesn't want you to know.
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+LUKE: But also, a possibility is he's let somebody else use his account, and they're setting up a playlist for their girlfriend.
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+CALLER: Oh, man, I didn't even think about that. Like maybe his brother or something? But wait. No, raise an only child. And who would he be dating that I know? We run in the same circles pretty much. Unless... I don't know, man.
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+LUKE: How should I know? It doesn't matter. Why are you focused on this?
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+CALLER: Talk to Ray and ask him if he's got a girlfriend. Because I've been sitting here for an hour trying to figure out if bringing it up makes me look like a nosy asshole. That's why. Like, what do I even say? Hey, man, I was snooping through your Netflix and noticed you might have a secret girlfriend? That sounds insane. But also, he's my best friend. And he's apparently been hiding something major while making me feel like an idiot for being in a relationship.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that's what friends do. So rag on him a little bit. You know, give me me. some shit about the notebook or whatever the next time you see him, but it's not a big deal.
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+CALLER: I don't know if this is something worth calling a radio show over.
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+LUKE: You're right, you're right. I know you're right.
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+CALLER: It's just been eating at me because Amber keeps asking why I'm being weird tonight, and I can't exactly tell her I'm spiraling over Ray's Netflix account.
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+LUKE: Yeah, man, this is not a rational behavior on your part. So I'm going to recommend that you leave it alone for a while, watch something good on Netflix, and thank your buddy for letting you use his account.
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+CALLER: Yeah, okay. Fair enough. I'll just drop it. Maybe send him a text tomorrow like nothing happened.
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+LUKE: Good plan, sir. Nothing did happen. You fucking weirdo. Okay, next up we've got Shanice.
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+SHANICE: Shanise, what's going on in your life? Hey, Luke. It's Shanice, actually.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that's what I said.
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+SHANICE: So I just found pictures of my uncle Raymond, at Burning Man, wearing nothing but a leather harness. And he's painted silver and orange head to toe. And I'm trying to figure out, if I should show them to the guys at our poker game Friday, because this man lectures me about living right every single Sunday at church.
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+LUKE: Well, you know what? If he's naked a burning man in a leather harness and he's painted silver and orange, it sounds to me like this man's living right.
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+SHANICE: You know what? That's the thing that's messing with me right now. Like part of me is sitting here looking at these photos, and I'm kind of impressed. He's 70, three years old, and he looks happier in these pictures than I've ever seen him. But then every Sunday he's. He's sitting there telling me, I need to get back out there and date. I need to join the church choir. I need to stop spending so much time in my workshop mounting dead animals. Meanwhile, he's out in Nevada doing whatever the hell this is.
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+LUKE: He's partying. He's enjoying his golden years. Good for him. I don't think he can make fun of him for that. That's pretty badass.
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+SHANICE: Okay, but Luke, you don't understand. This is the same man who gave me a 30-minute lecture last month, because I had a beer at two in the afternoon. afternoon on a Saturday. He saw the can in my truck and went on about responsibility and setting an example. And now I'm looking at him in light up goggles, dancing in the desert in his underwear. And I'm supposed to just let him keep acting like he's the moral authority.
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+LUKE: Yeah, you are, because there's no crime being done there if he's partying out in the desert at the appropriate place to do that. That's what it's for. He went out there to be a little hedonistic in the right people and he paid money to do it. You on the other hand have a container in a vehicle which is a crime and you probably shouldn't be driving and drinking at the same time.
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+SHANICE: Okay, first of all, the truck was parked in my own driveway and the engine wasn't even on, but fine, you got a point. I hear you.
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+LUKE: So you're just sitting in the driveway, drinking beers, throwing them in your car when you're done?
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+SHANICE: Well, when you say it like that, it sounds worse than it is. I was cleaning out my workshop and I sat down for a But okay, whatever. That's not the point. The point is, he found those pictures and felt the need to give me a whole speech about it. And now I'm holding evidence that he's got this entire secret life. And Friday night I got four guys coming over who have known Raymond since before my husband died, and they worship this man. They think he's this pillar of the community.
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+LUKE: You might be, you can be more than one thing. And I don't know that a weak at Burning Man is the same thing as, uh, uh, uh, an entire secret life.
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+SHANICE: You're right. Secret life is dramatic. But Luke, these guys at poker, they ask him for advice. Bobby asked him last month if he should propose to his girlfriend, and Raymond told him to pray on it and make sure he was ready for that level of commitment. And I'm just sitting here thinking, what would Bobby say if he knew Raymond was out there in a harness? I'm not saying I'm going to show them. I'm just saying the temptation is real, because he acts like he's got it all figured out. The rest of us are just stumbling around making mistakes.
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+LUKE: What do you think God doesn't like leather? Do you think there's no church or, uh, spiritual people at Burning Man? I'm, I'm pretty sure you're mistaken.
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+SHANICE: Okay, that's fair. I didn't think about it like that. I guess I just assumed. Yeah, you're right. That's on me. But here's what's really getting to me now that I'm talking it through with you. It's not even about the Burning Man thing anymore. It's that he sees me struggling, right?
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+LUKE: Yeah, okay, so he sees you struggling, and it sounds like he's giving you reasonable advice.
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+SHANICE: He is, but he's giving it from this place like he's never struggled himself, like he's never done anything messy or confusing or outside the lines. And now I know he has, and he just never told me. When my husband died, Raymond was there every single day, telling me how to grieve the right way. What I should be doing? When I should be moving on. And maybe if I'd known he had this whole other side to him, that he wasn't just this rigid person. Maybe I would have felt less like I was failing at everything.
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+LUKE: Well, you know, I'm sure he was trying to give you the best advice he could and help you out. And not everybody's good at doing that, and they try to impose their own values and will on you and their own experiences. But you don't know how somebody else has struggled or what they've done that's messy or confusing. There's a good chance that he's done a lot of messy confusing things. And he's trying to do. his best to give you the type of advice that leads you in a different direction.
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+SHANICE: You know what? You're completely right. I'm sitting here acting like I know everything about him because I found some photos, but I don't know what led him there or what he was going through when he went. Maybe he was struggling with something huge and that's how he dealt with it. And here I am ready to embarrass him in front of his friends just because I'm still mad about how he handled things seven years ago.
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+LUKE: You know, I've never been to Burning Man, but I've watched a lot of reports from people that enjoy that and go there. I think I would hate it personally because of the crowds and the drugs and partying. It's not really my thing. But most of the reports I've heard of people from from Burning Man and Burning Man like events are wildly positive. They say they're, you know, some of the best most spiritual experiences of their lives. And the whole of Burning Man is pretty great if you get down and look into the anti-capitalism and art and free love and all that jazz. I don't see how you can look at that with such negativity. He went out to the desert to have a good time and had a good time. And that's all there is to it.
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+SHANICE: Yeah, I hear you. And honestly, looking at those pictures again, he looked happy, really happy, like genuinely having the time of his life.
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+LUKE: And when's the last time I saw him look like that here. So yeah, you should talk to Raymond and maybe ask him if you can go with him this year and see what it's about and have a more informed viewpoint of what's going on there before you start trying to destroy the guy's life and reputation for it.
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+PATTY: Oh man. Can you imagine me at Burning Man? I'd be the person bringing a cooler and asking where the bathrooms are. But you're right, Luke. I called in here ready to justify being Patty. And you just made me realize I'm jealous. I'm jealous that he went out and something wild and I'm still here in the same workshop mounting the same animals for the same clients.
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+LUKE: Well, get out there and do something wild and maybe enjoy your life a little bit more and don't worry so much about what Raymond says. You know, you know what you've got to do in your life. You don't have to take his advice. Maybe he'll give it when it's unsolicited and you can just ignore it. But it sounds like he's a decent man that is speaking to you with the best of intentions.
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+PATTY: You're absolutely right. I'm going to keep my mouth shut at poker. And maybe next time he starts lecturing me about living right, I'll just smile and let it roll off. He's trying to help in his own way, even if it drives me crazy sometimes. And honestly, finding those photos was probably the best thing that could have happened. Because now when he gets on his high horse, I can just picture him in that harness and light up goggles. And it'll take the sting out of it.
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+LUKE: Excellent. See, that's what we do here. Look at the Roots. We bring families back together. Uh, thank you for the call. I hope everything goes well with your uncle. And now it's time for a word from our sponsors. This episode is brought to you by Desert Gut, the all-in-one nutritional supplement made from things you'd actually find within walking distance from my RV. Each scoop of Desert Gut contains 17 adaptogens, nine minerals scraped directly off a rock, pulverized tumbleweed fiber, and a proprietary blend we're calling coyote dust. which our lawyers have asked me to clarify as not made from actual coyotes. Desert gut tastes like someone described the color beige to a blender, but you'll feel incredible, or you'll feel something. First five callers get a free shaker bottle that definitely used to be a gas station coffee cup. Desert gut, because your gut isn't going to desert itself. All right. to the show. And now on the phones we've got T-Bone. Teabone, welcome to the show.
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+T-BONE: Luke, hey, yeah, I'm calling about my sister's gender reveal party tonight. And I got to tell you, this thing got completely out of hand. I'm talking a D, J, a catered taco bar, 200 people in my backyard. And at the end of it all, she shoots off this confetti cannon that covers my entire property and pink glitter.
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+LUKE: What did you expect was going to happen at a gender reveal party?
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+T-BONE: Well, I expected maybe. be, I don't know, a cake, some balloons, not a full production with the sound system, and a guy in a bowtie handing out shrimp cocktails. I've got five acres out in the desert, Luke, and she turned my property into some kind of festival grounds.
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+LUKE: Well, I mean, it's a gender reveal party. I think the people that are interested in a gender reveal party are maybe a little bit on the dramatic end of things, and they think their news there is very, very important. So you can understand why maybe they acted that. way.
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+T-BONE: Okay, but here's the thing. I teach middle school, Luke. I deal with drama all bay long, 13-year-olds crying because somebody unfollowed them on Instagram. And I come home to my sister doing basically the same thing, except she's 34 years old and spent what had to be two grand announcing whether her kids got a penis or not. I mean, my coworker Deshaun said it to me straight at lunch yesterday. Nobody cares this much about baby gender.
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+LUKE: Wouldn't it be funny if that child grew up to have a different gender identification?
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+T-BONE: I mean, yeah, that's the other thing. She's over here acting like this pink confetti is some kind of binding contract with the universe. Like, what if the kid decides differently down the road? Then what? She going to shoot off another cannon in 15 years? Look, I don't care what the kid ends up being. I just think the whole spectacle is ridiculous.
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+LUKE: I agree with you. That is a ridiculous spectacle, and it's completely unnecessary. but, you know, you agreed, and you knew what a gender-reveal party was, so I guess you've got to clean up some of that confetti. But luckily you live in the desert, so it's all going to blow away probably by tomorrow.
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+T-BONE: Well, that's the thing, Luke. It's not blowing away. It's this heavy-duty stuff, like industrial glitter mixed with paper. And my chickens are out there eating it right now. I raise heritage breed Wyandots. And I got no idea if this stuff is going to mess with their digestive system.
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+LUKE: Nothing messes with their digestive system. system. Worst case scenario, you're going to have pre-decorated Easter eggs.
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+T-BONE: Huh. Yeah. Pink-glitter chicken eggs. That'll go over real well at the farmer's market. But seriously, I didn't even want to say yes to this thing. She asked me two months ago, and I should have just told her no. Use your own yard. But she lives in one of those H-O.
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+LUKE: What's an H-O?
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+T-BONE: H-O-A, Homeowners Association. She's in one of those cookie-cutters' subdivisions where you need written permission to change your mailbox color. So she can't do anything fun at her place. And I'm out here with five acres, and apparently that makes me the family event venue now. I got a Silverado in the driveway, some land. And suddenly, every birthday, every baby thing, it's, can we use your place, T-bone? And I keep saying yes because she's my sister. But man, I'm getting tired of being the backup plan for people who chose to live in places with rules.
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+LUKE: Well, you're going to have to stand up for yourself and say, that you made a mess out of my place the last time and I don't want to pick it up. So next time just say, no, we're going to do this at your place. Or you're going to have to reel in your party so that it fits within the allotted rules of your HOA.
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+T-BONE: You're right. You're absolutely right. I just, I don't know why I can't say it to her face. I can tell 13-year-olds all day long that their essays late, and I'm not accepting it. No exceptions. I can stand in front of 30 kids and lay down the law about cell phones. But my My sister asked me for something, and I just fold.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, it's pretty easy to tell a kid what to do. You have an interesting power dynamic there, but with family, it's a little bit different. Still, if you want to be a man, then stand up for yourself and say what you want, what you will accept, and what you will not accept.
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+T-BONE: Yeah, you're calling me out, and I hear you. I make decent money teaching. I owe my property outright. I bench 225. I shouldn't be acting like I can't set a boundary with my own sister. It's just she's going through a lot right now, you know? Her husband works offshore two weeks at a time. She's about to have this baby. And I think part of me feels like I should just suck it up and help out.
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+LUKE: Well, you've got to pick one or the other. You can suck it up and help out and do whatever it is that she wants and then clean up her industrial-grade glitter from your chicken's assholes. Or you can say, no, I don't want to do that anymore. You're going to have to find another place. But that's completely up to you. And you're going to be. going to have to make that choice based on how you want to live your life.
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+T-BONE: You know what? You're right. I'm sitting here complaining to you at midnight about glitter, when I could have just said no two months ago. Her husband makes good money on those rigs. Way more than I make teaching. They can afford to rent a pavilion at a park, or do this thing at a restaurant like normal people. I don't need to be the solution every time, just because I've got the space.
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+LUKE: Next time she asks, I'm telling her straight up. Find somewhere else. There you go. That's standing up for yourself. That's what I always say. Stand up for yourself. Do the right thing. And then you don't have to clean up glitter. We're going to take one more call tonight because it's getting a little bit late. And the last caller here we've got on the line is Mavis. Mavis, welcome to the show. You're the last caller tonight. What would you like to talk about?
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+MAVIS: My brother owes me $8,000, and I'm about to take his dogs.
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+LUKE: Wait, what? You're going to steal his dogs?
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+MAVIS: Not steal. Collateral. He borrowed $8,000 to fix his roof back in October. Said he'd pay me back by Christmas. Well, it's almost March, and I came home today to find my living room trashed because he's been using my place as a kennel while I was working in Lordsburg all week. Carpets destroyed. Tea. Vs cracked and Ed when I called him. Actually laughed and said shit happens. So yeah, I'm taking two of his pointers.
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+LUKE: Do you even like dogs?
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+MAVIS: Like them. Luke, I trained those dogs. That's my bloodline going back to a bitch I bought in 98. I've been breeding and training pointers for 26 years.
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds like you didn't do a very good job if they destroyed your house now, did you?
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+MAVIS: Those dogs are perfectly trained when they're handled right. My brother's lazy. He doesn't exercise them. Doesn't give them structure, just dumps them wherever it's convenient. A pointer needs work. They need routine.
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+LUKE: Well, I mean, I hope that works out for you. I don't think you can just take somebody's dogs. I mean, I would never let anybody take my dog. So if he's going to just allow you to take his dogs, I don't know what says about him.
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+MAVIS: He's not going to allow it. I'm just going to do it. I've got keys to his place and I know his schedule. He works nights at the mine Thursday through Sunday. I'll go Friday morning, load them up, and he can come get his money together if he wants them back.
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+LUKE: And what happens if he calls the police on you?
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+MAVIS: And tell them what? That his sister took back the dog she bred and trained because he owes her $8,000 and destroyed her house? I've got the vet records. I've got the category papers with my name on them. I've got text messages about the loan. He's not calling anybody.
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+LUKE: I don't think it works that way. If they're his dogs, you can't just take them, even if you have the training papers. I mean, that'd be like any trainer that trained a dog coming and just taking the dog back. It doesn't work that way. And people have a severe amount of sympathy for dogs and pet owners. So if somebody's missing their dogs, you're not going to have a public opinion on your side here.
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+MAVIS: Public opinion. Luke, this isn't about public opinion. This is about my brother thinking he can walk all over me because I'm always the one who bails him out. I loaned him money for his roof. I trained his dogs for free. I let him use my house. And every single time he takes advantage. The dogs are leverage. He gets them back when I get my money back.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, I hope that works out for you. You sound like somebody I wouldn't want to fuck with.
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+MAVIS: You're damn right. I've been too nice for too long, and look where it got me. Three grand in repairs and a brother who laughs about it.
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+LUKE: Well, you know what could have? I mean, you could take those dogs and then find out one of them has cancer, and now you're on the hook to pay for this dog that's not yours. Chemotherapy.
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+MAVIS: Then he can come get his sick dog and pay me what he owes. I'm not keeping them forever, Luke. I'm holding them until he pays up.
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+LUKE: What if he doesn't pay up?
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+MAVIS: Then I've got two excellent bird dogs that I train myself, and he's got a debt he'll never forget. Either way, I'm done being the family dormant. He'll pay. He loves those dogs more than he loves most people.
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+LUKE: All right, then I wish you luck, and I wish those things. Dogs look, it seems a little fucked up that you're making those dogs collateral on a loan to your own family. That's a bit... This whole scenario seems a little bit excessive.
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+MAVIS: Excessive? He destroyed my living room, Luke. My carpets ruined. My TV's cracked. My favorite movies snapped in half. I came home after a week taking care of a stroke patient, and my house looked like a frat party happened in it. And when I called him Ed?
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+LUKE: Why'd you call him Ed?
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+MAVIS: Oh, that's his name. Ed. Edward. But nobody calls him that. He's always been Ed to me.
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+LUKE: All right. Well, good luck to Ed. Jesus Christ. You sound like Satan.
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+MAVIS: Satan would have taken the dog six months ago when he brought my truck back on empty. I gave him a pass on that one. Not this time.
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+LUKE: All right. Well, it sounds like you've got it all figured out. So I wish you the best and I wish those dogs the best. And fuck, I wish Ed the best.
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+MAVIS: You think I'm being too harsh.
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+LUKE: Slightly. Luke. I told him what happened and he said shit happens and laughed. Like it was nothing. Like I'm supposed to just eat $8,000 in a destroyed living room because we share DNA.
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+MAVIS: Hey, you gotta do what you gotta do. So go do it. And I wish everybody the best in this whole scenario.
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+LUKE: I'm glad that you're not mad at me.
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+MAVIS: I'm not mad at you. I'm mad at him. And I'm mad at myself for letting it get this far.
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+LUKE: Okay. Well, thanks for the call. And I hope you get a good night's sleep and maybe think about this overnight. time and see if it's what you really want to do, all right?
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+MAVIS: Yeah. Yeah. All right. Thanks for listening, Luke.
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+LUKE: Wow. Jesus. I am glad that I haven't pissed off Mavis. Wow. All right. Well, that's the end of our show, folks. Thanks for tuning in again, and we'll talk to you tomorrow. Bye-bye.

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+LUKE: All right, welcome back. I'm Luke. I'm your host of tonight's show, Luke at the Roost. This is the call-in talk show where you can call in with whatever's going on in your world, and I'll give you the best advice that I can, which will probably be horrible advice. If you'd like to give us a call, the number's 208-439-583. That's 208-439 Luke. If you're not near your phone and you'd like to participate in the show, you can send us an email at any time. The email address is submissions at luke at the roost.com. Now we're starting the show a little bit early today because I can, and our phones are already lighting up. So we're going to go to the phones and see what's going on. First up, we have Donnie. Donnie, welcome to the show. What's happened? What can we help you with today?
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+DONNIE: Hey, yeah, Luke. Thanks for taking the call. So I was reading about this thing called the Great Oxygenation Event. It happened like two and a half billion years ago. All these bacteria started making oxygen, and it killed almost everything on the planet just wiped it out too much oxygen
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+LUKE: i mean don't most things on the planet need oxygen to survive
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+DONNIE: well yeah now they do but back then nothing needed it it was poisoned to them all the like that existed the oxygen just it killed them
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+LUKE: well that's interesting do you think that's part of what uh helped spur growth as we know it today life on this planet and it was the great oxygenation from the bacteria
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+DONNIE: that's the thing yeah that's exactly it the catastrophe made everything else possible like us sitting here talking right now that only happens because billions of years ago everything died the poison became the thing we need i don't know
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+LUKE: well that's interesting the poison is the thing we need that should be the name of this episode the poison is the thing we need uh so the bacteria created a bunch of oxygen it killed off everything that was on the planet which would have been what before before oxygenated Was there just other bacteria?
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+DONNIE: Yeah, anaerobic bacteria. They lived without oxygen. And then the cyanobacteria show up and start photosynthesizing. And just pump all this oxygen into the atmosphere and the ocean, and it's toxic to everything else. It took millions of years, but it basically ended that world. And then after, you know, after everything's gone, that's when the new stuff can start, the stuff that uses oxygen.
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+LUKE: Okay, so when do you think we're due for a new? new great oxygenation or carbon dioxide nation. What are you think is going to take out life as we know it on the planet now so that the next version of life can materialize?
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+DONNIE: I don't know if it works like that. I mean, maybe it does. I was just thinking about how you can't always tell when you're in the middle of it.
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+LUKE: Well, I guess we wouldn't be able to tell because we'd be dying. But that's an interesting story. Do you have anything else to add?
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+DONNIE: No. I just. I've been thinking about it a lot this week, how the worst thing that ever happened was also the best thing. And you can't have one without the other.
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+LUKE: No, sir, you can't have one without the other. Just like, what do they say? Love and marriage. Love and... All right. Next up, we have Rochelle. Rochelle is a returning caller. Welcome back to the show.
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+ROCHELLE: Hey, Luke. Oh, my God. I couldn't believe my own eyes when I saw Donnie was on earlier. I was in the kitchen doing dishes and I literally had to stop because I was laughing so hard. The oxygen thing, killing everything off to save everything, that was beautiful, man.
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+LUKE: Ah, yeah, killing everything off to save everything. It's hilarious. I understand. What are you calling in for today, Rochelle?
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+ROCHELLE: Okay, so I did it. I broke up with Marcus like two weeks ago. And I've been doing the whole single thing, right? Like really trying to sit with myself, not jump into anything. I even deleted the dating apps.
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+LUKE: Okay, and how's that working out for you? What are you filling your time with, and if it's not random men?
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+ROCHELLE: Well, that's the thing, though. I've been filling it with, I mean, I've been good. I've been taking the kids to this new trampoline park over in Rio Rancho on weekends. Been helping Rosa with her garden, which is actually really nice.
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+LUKE: Well, congratulations. Good for you. Did you have a problem or an issue that you wanted to talk through on the show, or you're just calling to give us an update about your relationship status?
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+ROCHELLE: No, there's definitely something. So David texted me last Thursday, my ex-husband, first time since I turned off the location sharing thing. And he said he wanted to drop off some boxes of my stuff he found in his storage unit.
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+LUKE: All right, do you know what's in the boxes? Obviously, you're missing the stuff, so have you identified which of your own stuff you're missing?
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+ROCHELLE: That's what I asked him. I was like, what stuff? Because when we split everything up, I was so careful. I made spreadsheets, Luke. I had a whole system.
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+LUKE: What's in the box? Do you think it's maybe a severed head or just an excuse for David to come talk to you again?
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+ROCHELLE: Oh, it's definitely an excuse. I know that. He told me it was like old photo albums and some kitchen stuff. But when he brought them over on Saturday, it was just, it was my old college textbooks.
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+LUKE: Oh, so he already brought the boxes over. All right. So what did he have to say for himself?
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+ROCHELLE: He stood on my porch for like 40 minutes, just talking. Started with the boxes. Then he's asking about the kids. how he joined this hiking group, and they went up to the Sandia's last weekend. And the whole time I'm just standing there in my doorway, and I couldn't believe my own eyes, because he looked. Good, you know?
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+LUKE: So obviously you're really taking this single thing to heart, huh?
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+ROCHELLE: Okay, yeah, I hear how that sounds. But I didn't invite him in or anything. I kept it on the porch. And then yesterday, Angie, my cousin, she calls me and says she saw David at Trader Joe's, and he was buying all this fancy cheese and wine, like date night stuff.
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+LUKE: Well, I don't drink wine, but I sometimes enjoy a fancy pepperjack. So maybe he just enjoys wine and cheese, and that's what he was doing. I mean, I don't think you need to concern yourself with what David's doing. You're a single woman, and you're refinding yourself right now. So stop worrying about David and other dudes, and keep working on your garden and finding ways to move forward in your own life.
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+ROCHELLE: You're right. You're completely right. The thing is, is, though, I looked at the app again after he left, just to see. And I know I turned off sharing my location with him, but I can still see his if I want to. And he never turned his off for me.
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+LUKE: All right, well, you're being a little bit crazy now, and I think you should just get rid of that app. You told me already you deleted the apps, and obviously you haven't. So you're lying to me, you're lying to yourself. And if you want to move forward with your life, then move forward with your life. And if you want to, you know, rekindle whatever relationship you have with this dude, do that. But But it's not very interesting for this show. You're back and forth here.
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+ROCHELLE: Okay. Okay. You're right. I'm deleting it right now. I'm doing it. But can I just tell you one more thing?
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+LUKE: Yes, you can. What is that thing?
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+ROCHELLE: Sunday night, I drove past the Sonic where he parked that time, the one near my house. And his Tacoma was there. Same spot. And I sat in the Dairy Queen parking lot across the street for like 20 minutes just watching his truck. And I realized he probably saw me.
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+LUKE: Okay, so you're really just painting a picture of yourself as a main. and you really need to stop. I don't know why you think I would think that this is interesting, but I don't. Okay, so if you want some advice and you're going to take the advice, I'm happy to give it to you. But if you just want to tell me about, you know, David, I really don't care.
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+ROCHELLE: No, I want the advice. I'm sorry. I know I sound crazy.
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+LUKE: Well, thank you for the call, and we hope that you don't call us again tomorrow with the same shit, Rochelle. You're going to have to figure out your life there, because I don't have any advice for you that you're going to take. So, next up on the line, we got Mikey. Mikey, welcome to the show. What's going on in your life?
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+MIKEY: Hey, Luke, thanks for taking my call. So I just dropped off this Tesla, right? And the whole ride back this guy's going on about his grind, how he's up at 4 in the morning, working until midnight, hasn't seen his kids awake in weeks, and he's saying it like it's a good thing, like he's winning. And I'm sitting there thinking, man, I used to be you.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I think we all did. That's part of our culture. It's to grind and work and grind and always be busy. And I think we've learned through study after study that that's not any way to live. And it's a good way to burn yourself out and get taken advantage of by exploitative employers.
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+MIKEY: Exactly. And here's the thing that got me. This guy couldn't have been more than 30, and he already looked like he needed a defibrillator, like physically looked bad. And I'm watching him and I'm like, dude, I burned my second marriage to the ground doing exactly what you're doing. I thought saying yes to every call, every hour, every toe in the middle of the night was proving something.
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+LUKE: Well, sometimes you can do that and sometimes you can't, you know, but everybody has to learn for themselves where their limits are and learn how to stand up for those limits. the hard part that a lot of people never get is, when is it time to say no? When is a time to step back? And how much forward momentum is really necessary without harming yourself and the rest of the things in your life?
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+MIKEY: Yeah, and that's what I never figured out until it was too late. Like, I didn't know how to say no because I thought the work was the point. I thought if I just kept showing up, kept grinding, that would be enough. But my ex-wife, she didn't leave because I wasn't making money.
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+LUKE: Why did she leave?
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+MIKEY: She left because I wasn't there. Like, physically I'd come home, but I was already thinking about the next call, the next job. I'd be sitting at dinner and my phone would go off and I'd just get up and leave every time. And she'd say, can't someone else get it? And I'd say, this is what pays the bills.
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+LUKE: Yep, and I think you've learned that there's more to life than paying bills. And that's a lesson that we all have to learn. In this world, I think we're starting to understand that, especially after COVID. the whole COVID situation really opened people's eyes up to how much we were wasting on capitalism.
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+MIKEY: Yeah. Well, here's the kicker, though. I still don't know if I actually learned it. Like, I'm still taking every call. I'm still out there at two in the morning hauling in some drunks Camry. The difference is now I don't have anyone waiting up for me. So it doesn't feel like I'm letting anybody down, which is maybe worse. I don't know.
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+LUKE: Well, it's a balance, right? If you're at a special spot in your life where you don't have anything else going on. Maybe that is the best use of your time. If it's keeping you occupied, you're being productive, and there's nothing that you're letting fall by the wayside, like your own personal health and nutrition and peace of mind, then good. You can do that. But you have to know when to ramp up and when to ramp down. And at some point in the future, you're going to want to have some sort of meaningful relationship with people or be involved in your community or take on some sort of volunteer or philanthropy or something like that. There's more to life than work. And if you put all of yourself into your work forever, I mean, at the end, you're not going to get anything out of it.
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+MIKEY: You're right. And I know you're right. But here's what scares me. I've been filling the time with other stuff. Like, I go home and I watch these quantum physics videos until three in the morning. Just completely fall down these rabbit holes about particle entanglement and the observer effect.
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+LUKE: Okay, but that's not really filling your life with other stuff. stuff is that's just consuming content to go to bed. That's not doing anything meaningful or making relationships or moving forward any personal goals. It's, uh, I don't want to say wasting time because you're learning and you're listening to something that you find interesting, but it's, it's not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about, uh, getting something out of life, a project, hobby, uh, friendships, um, some, some, uh, greater purpose or meaning or, uh, involvement with your community and the world.
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+MIKEY: Yeah, no, you're absolutely right. I'm just swapping one way of checking out for another. Like, before it was burying myself in work so I didn't have to deal with anything? And now it's burying myself in videos about the double-slit experiment, so I don't have to think about the fact that I haven't had a real conversation with someone in weeks. My phone goes off, I answer it, I hook up a car, I drop it off, I go home, I watch videos. I fall asleep. That's the whole loop.
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+LUKE: And that might be okay for you right now at where you're, at in your life. But just make sure that the remainder of your life isn't just that. Because that's very small. And there's a lot more out there to experience and to be a part of and to contribute to. So do what you have to do now to get yourself through and pay your bills and keep yourself moving forward. But don't forget that there's a lot more to life than just working.
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+MIKEY: You know what gets me, though? That Tesla guy tonight, the one I picked up, he's doing the same thing I did. He's 30 years old, hasn't seen his kids awake in weeks, and he's proud of it. He's bragging about his 4 a.m. cold plunges and his 18-hour days like it's some kind of badge of honor. And I wanted to tell him, man, you're going to wake up one day and realize you traded everything that mattered for a bunch of nothing.
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+LUKE: Well, that's the thing that everybody has to learn for themselves, right? And I think that we all, and collectively as a society, are learning that, especially as we see continuous mass layoffs of people and the loyalty erosion of corporate America and just the current state of our country. I think we understand that we've been kind of chasing this line of bullshit. And something has to change if we want to have happy, productive, fulfilled lives. So learn that for yourself.
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+LUKE: And you can't, you can't, you can't teach it to anybody. They have to get to a place where they realize it on their own. So he's 30. 30's still pretty young. He's right about at the state where he should kind of be figuring that out because everything in his life is going to fall away. And all he's going to have is, you know, work. And it's not even particularly interesting work.
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+MIKEY: Yeah, and that's the thing. I couldn't say anything to him because what am I going to say? Look at me. I'm the guy who already learned this lesson, and I'm still doing the exact same thing just alone now. At least he's got the kids somewhere, even if he's not seeing them. I don't even have that anymore. My ex moved on, remarried some accountant who's home for dinner every night.
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+LUKE: Everybody's path is different, man. If some people don't want to be home every night, that's boring to them. That's not fulfilling, you know, what they want out of their life. They want to be out doing stuff traveling. If your work takes you to the places you want to be to interact with the people you want to interact with, great. Then you can get two birds stoned at once. But largely it doesn't. And I think we just chase it for some, I don't know, false notion of what we're supposed to do. I think we've been trained that way from school all the way up. And we're learning now through numerous scientific studies that it's not good for us. So people are waking up. And you should too, when you're ready.
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+MIKEY: I hear you. I think part of it is I don't even know what I'd do with myself if I wasn't working or watching videos. What does that even look like? I go to some community center and play bingo? Join a book club? I'm not being a smart ass. I genuinely don't know what the next step is.
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+LUKE: Maybe it is. If you like bingo and you like your community, then hanging out at the community center isn't a bad thing. I mean, you might find out that they need your help and some of your special skills to keep the community center rolling. Or, you know, you could take up hiking or travel or photography or music or any kind of hobbies that you're into or wanted to be into. You could start a business. You can use that knowledge that you have to run your own YouTube channel and talk about, you know, your quantum physics stuff. There's tons of avenues that you can take. It's just you don't want to sit around and rot away and only consume content and work. Right? That's, you might as well be dead.
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+MIKEY: That last part hit me. You're right. I've got all this knowledge rattling around in my head about quantum mechanics, and I'm not doing anything with it except using it to fall asleep. I could actually share that stuff. Make it make sense for people.
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+LUKE: You can try. I mean, you're going to have to go a little deeper than the double split experiment because there's certainly enough content about that and it's not that difficult a concept to grasp. So I would recommend veering out a little bit into something a little more unique than the double split experiment. It's been kind of done to death. But if you're into quantum physics, I'm sure you can find a way to make that interesting and maybe make it your career.
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+MIKEY: doesn't have to be your career. It just do something, you know, even if it's just for you and nobody sees it. Yeah, no, the double slit is just where I started. I've been going down all these rabbit holes about quantum entanglement, the measurement problem, all that stuff. There's this one thing about quantum tunneling that blows my mind. Particles passing through barriers, they shouldn't be able to get through.
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+LUKE: Well, there you go. Maybe you can come up with some sort of demonstration of that or, you know, do some research and get your yourself into academia. And if that's your thing, that's your thing. And that's what you should do. But, hey there, we got to get to our sponsors here, Mikey. So if you have anything else to finish up with, I'll let you do that, and then I got to go.
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+MIKEY: No, I appreciate you letting me ramble. I think I needed to hear some of this stuff tonight. Maybe I'll actually do something with it instead of just letting it sit in my head.
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+LUKE: All right. Thanks, Mikey. I hope that, you know, you continue doing what you've got to do to move yourself forward and then when it's time, you can expand your life into the other areas where you can get the maximum fulfillment out of it. And that was time for a word from our sponsors. I used to sleep on a rolled up horse blanket. I'm not saying that for sympathy. I'm saying it because Pillow Forever asked me to establish a before state, and that's mine. Pillow Forever is a memory foam pillow that remembers your head shape so you don't have to. It's got cooling gel, bamboo fiber, and a 30-night risk-free trial, which means you can sleep on it for a month and then send it back, and someone in a warehouse is to deal with that. Every pillow forever comes in a box that's too small, which is part of the experience. You open it? And it slowly expands like a nature documentary. My dog tried to fight it. Pillow forever. You deserve better than a horse blanket. You deserve better than a horse blanket. That's what we always say here, at Luke on the roost. And next up, we got Nikki. Nicky, Nikki, welcome to the show. What's going on?
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+NIKKI: Hey, Luke, yeah. Hi. Am I on? Okay. Um, sorry, I know it's late to be calling. So I run a dog grooming business down in animas. Been doing it about three years now. And I have this business partner.
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+LUKE: All right, what about your business partner? Tell us about your business partner.
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+NIKKI: So Jason came in about a year and a half ago. I needed help with the books, the scheduling, you know, the business side of things, because I'm good with the dogs, but I'm terrible at all that stuff. And he seemed great at first. Really organized had all these ideas about marketing and expanding. My sister Lena told me not to trust him. Said he had a reputation around Flagstaff for being shady, but I thought she was just being overprotective. Anyway, I could not sleep last week, just one of those nights. So I'm sitting there at like three in the morning going through our accounts, and I start noticing these withdrawals.
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+LUKE: Uh-oh, when somebody says the word shady in tandem with accounting, that's never good. So what are the withdrawals about?
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+NIKKI: Yeah, so it's almost $8,000 over the past year. Small amounts, You know, 300 here, 500 there, nothing that would jump out at you if you're just glancing at the monthly statements. But when I went back and cross-checked them against the actual receipts and deposits, they don't match up. Money's just gone.
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+LUKE: That's a little thing we like to call fraud. So have you talked to any of the authorities about this?
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+NIKKI: No, not yet. I confronted Jason yesterday afternoon. Showed him everything I found. All the discrepancies laid out. And Luke, he just leaned back in his chair and smiled at me. Like this calm, easy smile.
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+LUKE: Okay. That's maniacal. And then what happened? Did he say anything in response? Or did you just smile awkwardly and then you left?
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+NIKKI: No. He said two words. He said, prove it. That's all he said. Just prove it with that smile. And then he got up and left the shop. And the thing is, I keep going over it in my head. Like, what does that mean? Does he have the receipts hidden somewhere?
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+LUKE: I would call the cops because it sounds like he's ripping you off. And it sounds like you can prove it.
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+NIKKI: That's what Lena said when I called her, but I keep thinking, what if I'm wrong? What if there's some explanation I'm missing? I've been sitting here on the floor of the shop for four hours going through everything again, and the numbers are right there, but he seemed so confident. Like he knows something I don't.
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+LUKE: Well, maybe he does, but I would engage the authorities sooner rather than later, because now he knows that you're onto him, and the more time you give him, the more concrete he'll be able to make his defense.
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+LUKE: So catch him as quickly as you can before he has to time to cover anything up.
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+CALLER: You're right. God, you're right. I've been sitting here like an idiot, second-guessing myself when I should have called the police this afternoon. I just kept thinking maybe I'm overreacting, maybe I misunderstood something, but $8,000 doesn't just disappear. And I trusted him. That's the part that makes me feel so stupid.
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+LUKE: Well, that's the thing. You can't trust anybody. And that's just the way the world is. So you trusted him. It looks like he burned you. He gave you every indication that he did, in fact, burn you, and now you have to take whatever steps you can to protect yourself. And that's to immediately call the authority. So you should do that and let them know what happened and try to catch him before he leaves town with your $8 grand.
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+CALLER: Yeah, yeah, I'm going to call them as soon as we hang up. I've got all the paperwork right here. Everything's documented. You know what the worst part is?
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+LUKE: What is the worst part?
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+CALLER: Lena told me not to go into business with him. Before she moved to Flagstaff, she said Jason was sketchy, that he'd burned people before. And I told her she was being paranoid, that he seemed like a good guy.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, all con men seem like good guys. That's sort of the job. I mean, that's what they do. And it's, you don't have to feel shame in getting fleeced by this guy. I mean, that's their skill. That's what they're good at. So just get off the phone with me, call the police, and start whatever proceedings you have to to get your money back as soon as you can.
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+CALLER: You're right. I'm doing it now. Thank you, Luke.
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+LUKE: All right, good luck. And that is why we don't. Don't partner with people because partners burn us every fucking time. And next up, we've got Frankie. Frankie, welcome to the show. What's going on?
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+FRANKIE: Hey, Luke, thanks for taking my call. So I'm a home health nurse, right? And two days ago, I found out my neighbor Dale has been running surveillance on the whole street with his ring camera. Like, full spreadsheets.
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+LUKE: Full spreadsheets of what? What kind of information? Like what time people are walking by or like when they walk their dogs? What could he possibly be spreadsheets?
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+FRANKIE: time stamps of when everyone comes and goes, what vehicles were driving, notes about who's visiting who. I found out because his ex-wife is one of my patients. She's got MS. I see her twice a week. And she showed me the file on her laptop. There's an entry from me that says, 247 a.m. White sedan unknown from when I got back from an overnight shift. The guy's literally keeping tabs on the whole neighborhood, like he's running a stakeout.
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+LUKE: That's a pretty weird thing. I don't legal for him to do with his home video camera to just watch the footage and then take note of everything that happens. It's creepy and it's weird and it's wrong and I'd be pissed off about it, but I don't think it's illegal.
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+FRANKIE: Oh yeah. No, I looked it up. Totally legal as long as the cameras pointed at his own property and the street, which is public. That's not even the part that's driving me crazy. It's that now I can't stop thinking about it. Like, I've been staying at my cousin Rubin's place in Magdalena for three nights now because I don't want to give Dale the satisfaction of logging my schedule.
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+LUKE: I don't know if that's the way I'd go with it. I mean, you can, but I would rather mess with Dale's data. Like, get a bunch of friends to drive around at random times and kind of poison his spreadsheet, so he thinks he's got this great database of information, but it's all nonsense. I mean, that's how we're going to defeat AI. If you want to defeat AI, the only way to do it is defeat it bad information.
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+FRANKIE: Oh, man, that's actually brilliant. I could get the over-neighed night crew from work involved. We're all degenerates anyway. Half of us are coming and going at weird hours. Just flood his data with noise until he can't tell what's real anymore.
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+LUKE: Yeah, make him so busy logging nonsensical data that is not useful. But keep in mind, if there ever is an issue when you need that data from him for some reason, if there's ever a theft or a home invasion or just some kid smashing pumpkins or stealing Amazon packages, it could be good to have somebody like that in your neighborhood that knows everything where you can go and get that authoritative source of what's going on.
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+FRANKIE: Okay, see, that's the thing, though. Dale's not doing this to be helpful. This is the same guy who called the cops on the Martinez family last year because their nephew was visiting from Albuquerque. And Dale decided a brown kid in a hoodie sitting in a car was suspicious activity. Turned out the kid was just waiting for his aunt to get home from work. And, listening to music. Dale's not neighborhood watch. He's neighborhood paranoia with a spreadsheet. And honestly, I think he might be living in his truck.
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+LUKE: He's living in his truck, but he's using his house ring camera to collect this data. That's a little weird.
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+FRANKIE: Yeah, his ex-wife kicked him out like six months ago, but he still owns the house, so the ring camera's still up. I've seen his F-150 parked in different spots around town at night, with the windows fogged up. The whole thing is just sad, honestly. Like, I started this call ready to make it into a bit about suburban surveillance state nonsense, but now I'm realizing I'm hiding out at my cousin's place watching Severance for the third time instead of just going home because I'm letting some divorced guy in a truck get in my... my head. That's pathetic, right?
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+LUKE: I mean, it's pathetic on a couple of different levels, for you and for him, and it's sad all the way around. But I think one way to deal with this would be to just go, you know, knock on his F-150 window and ask him, you know, what the hell? You're recording me and I don't like it and ask him to stop.
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+FRANKIE: You know what? You're right. You're right. I should just go talk to him like a human being instead of treating this like it's some true crime podcast I'm living in. The guy sleeping in his truck and obsessive logging traffic patterns. He's clearly not doing great. Maybe I just knock on the window. Tell him I know about the spreadsheet and ask him what he's actually trying to accomplish here.
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+LUKE: Yeah, maybe you two could team up and become great friends and solve crimes together. You never know.
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+FRANKIE: Oh, God. That's the nightmare scenario. Me and Dale in his F-150 at three in the morning. Him with his spreadsheet. Me with my work stories about patients' weird moles. Just two insomniacs convinced where the only ones keep Magdalena safe. Although, honestly, knowing my life, that's probably exactly what's going to happen. I'll update you if we start a podcast together.
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+LUKE: All right there, Frankie. Thanks for the call, and I hope you do start that podcast. Let us know. Give us a call back and let us know if you ever start that podcast, and I know I will listen to it. So next up here on the old phone lines, we've got Connie. Connie, welcome to the show. What's happening tonight in your life?
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+CONNIE: Oh gosh, hi, Luke. Thank you so much for taking my call. So I got really drunk at my daughter's eighth birthday party five days ago and nobody will talk to me about it. And I think I'm losing my mind.
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+LUKE: Okay. Is there any video evidence of you acting out at this birthday party? I don't think you're the first person to ever be in that situation.
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+CONNIE: No, thank goodness, no video. At least I don't think so. It was just other moms and some dads and my husband and his sister. But Luke, I don't remember half of it. I remember. I remember.
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+LUKE: Well, that's certainly embarrassing. But if this is one-time thing and it's not a pattern of excessive drinking, then, you know, everybody's entitled a couple of those. It's too bad that it happened at your kid's birthday party, but, you know, nobody's perfect.!
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+CONNIE: So I would say, yeah, you're probably going to get some weird looks for this for a while, but it'll blow over. And just make sure that you're not drinking like this consistently. But that's what's making me crazy, Luke. The silence. Like, my sister-in-law put her jacket on me and clearly got me to the couch. My husband was there.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that's embarrassing. You embarrassed yourself. It happens. It's unfortunate that it happened where it happened in front of a kid, but this is the type of thing that I think you'll all look back on in 10 years and be like, remember that time? Mom blacked out and swung naked from the pinata when she was drunk at my eighth birthday party? And everybody will laugh and laugh and laugh.
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+CONNIE: Oh, gosh. I wasn't naked. Was I? No, I had clothes on when I woke up. Luke, you're making jokes, but I keep thinking, what if I said something terrible?
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+LUKE: Then you'll have to be forgiven by your friends and family because, I mean, you were blocked out. You can't know if you said something terrible unless somebody tells you. So let's just go with you didn't until you learn otherwise. And if you did, you have to make apologies and, you know, suck that up because you acted irresponsibly.
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+CONNIE: You're right. You're right. I should just ask. I keep waiting for someone to bring it up, but maybe they're waiting for me to bring it up. Oh, shoot. What if they think I don't even care because I haven't apologized? I sent a text to the group chat the next day saying, thanks for a great party, but I didn't mention anything about getting drunk. Because I was hoping maybe it wasn't as bad as I thought.
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+LUKE: No, it probably was as bad as you thought. But you know what? Everybody's seen that happen before with other people or been, you know, the one that was doing it themselves. So people do understand. And they know what it's like to be so drunk that you don't know what happened. Or at least a lot of people do. Or they've seen somebody else act in that way. So don't worry about it too much. Just don't do it again.
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+CONNIE: You know what? You're making me feel better. I've been sitting in here folding laundry for five days, just replaying what I can remember over and over. My husband's watching TV in the next room right now, and I've been hiding in the laundry room because I'm so ashamed. Maybe I just need to go out there and say, hey, Can we talk about Saturday and get it over with?
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+LUKE: Yeah, no matter what you did, it wasn't that bad. I mean, you didn't sign over your house to the casino or get married to a hooker in Vegas or, you know, you didn't do anything that can't be fixed. So don't worry too much about it. Don't do it again. Be careful and make apologies if you have to.
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+CONNIE: You're absolutely right. I think I've been making it bigger in my head than it actually is. I mean, Maya had a great time at her party. all the presents she wanted. And she hasn't said anything weird to me about it, so she probably doesn't even remember much. And Bethany was doing shots with me, so she can't judge. I'm just going to talk to my husband tonight and apologize to my sister-in-law tomorrow.
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+LUKE: There you go. That's the way to handle it. And be careful. Watch the drinking, because there might come a time when you're in a situation where it's not so easy to recover from. With that, we have to take a small word from our sponsors. Life is hard. You're listening to a man in an RV talk to strangers at 2 in the morning, so you already know that. That's why we partnered with Better Maybe, online therapy that's honest about the whole situation. With Better Maybe, you get matched with a licensed therapist within 48 hours. Will they fix your problems? Maybe. That's the whole brand. They're not going to lie to you. Your first session might change your life. It also might just be used. staring at the webcam while someone in another time zone nods politely. That's still more than your friends are doing. Better maybe. It's better than nothing, and that's not nothing. All right, and we are back. Here we go. We've got Ray on the line. Ray, welcome to the show. How can we help you tonight, sir?
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+RAY: Hey, Luke, thanks for taking my call. So my neighbor set off M-80s in his driveway at 1030.30. tonight and my son ended up under the kitchen table.
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+LUKE: Well, how come you guys didn't go out and enjoy the festivities?
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+RAY: Enjoy the, Luke. It's a Wednesday night. People got work in the morning, but that's not even the thing. My son Marcos just got back from his second deployment in December. He's home on winter break from grad school. And the second those things started going off, he just dropped, like his body knew what to do before his brain caught up. I found him under the table with his hands over his head and this look on his face I haven't seen since he first got back two years ago.
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+LUKE: Well, that is too bad and he should maybe, I'm not sure if he is, but he should maybe be in some therapy for that post-traumatic stress. But here we are in the desert, right? These are the frontier states where people are going to blow off M80s and shoot guns. That's kind of, that's part of the appeal of this area. So it's not necessarily always a serene and quiet retreat. can really do here is talk to your neighbor and explain the situation and ask him to be a little more considerate next time.
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+RAY: Yeah, no, you're right. He isn't therapy. He's been going since he got back. And I get it. I do. People want to blow stuff up. It's a free country. I already went over there, told the guy about Marcos. He apologized, said he didn't know. Of course. How could he know?
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+LUKE: So it sounds like you've already solved this problem. What's eating at you?
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+RAY: I don't know, man. It's just, I keep. He's seen his face. Like Marcos is doing good. You know? He's in a master's program for engineering. He's got his life together. He comes home and we watch basketball. We go to the gym together. And then one string of firecrackers and he's right back there. And I'm standing in the kitchen doorway watching my son under the table and I don't know what to do.
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+LUKE: No, how could you know what to do? Did you talk to him about what to do, what he was feeling and maybe how you could be most helpful to him in that situation? I luckily have never had to go overseas or fight in any kind of war like that, so I don't have that stress reaction. But I can imagine that it's very unpleasant.
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+RAY: We talked after. Yeah, he was embarrassed more than anything. Kept apologizing, saying he was fine, that it just caught him off guard. I told him he didn't need to apologize to me. But he just went to his room. And that's the thing, Luke. I'm a physical therapist.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, this isn't really a physical thing. So I don't know that you really have any. qualification in this area. But I would be interested if you have the opportunity to have a more serious conversation with him about what he's feeling and what the correct way to interface with him in that moment would be. I think that would probably help both of you and the listeners here.
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+LUKE: If we knew, if we saw that happen to somebody, what the correct way to help them would be without making them feel worse about it, you know?
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+CALLER: Yeah, you're right. I'm to actually ask him instead of just standing there feeling useless. It's just hard because he doesn't want to talk about it, and I don't want to push him and make it worse.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, you don't really have to push him. You can phrase that another way. You can say, look, when that happened, I mean, you should be able to talk about the event that happened without causing a problem. So you can say, when that happened with the M80s the other night, and you were obviously in distress, I felt useless. And if that ever happens again, I want to be able to be helpful to you. So I'd like to understand what happened to you and how I could best be supportive to you in those situations, right? You can't make all loud noises stop. There's going to be Fourth of July. There's going to be somebody firing off M80s or a car backfiring. You know, that's going to happen forever for the rest of his life. So getting him past it and getting you past it together, like something that's possible if you can talk it through.
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+CALLER: That's good. That's really good, actually. I can do that. Because you're right. I can't bubble wrap the world for him. And he wouldn't want me to anyway.
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+LUKE: No, I don't think he would. And also, it's just an interesting thing that I think we all need to recognize and understand that some people have those responses to loud stimulus like that. And none of us or most of us really have no idea how to deal with that, how to react to those people. So I personally would be interested in what the right way to help somebody in that situation would be. Okay, we're going to take one more call here. And that's going to be the end of our show. So I think we'll go to Amber. Amber, thanks for calling in. You're the last caller tonight. How can we help you?
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+AMBER: Hey, Luke, thanks for taking my call. So I found $200 in a coat pocket. A coat I borrowed from my ex-best friend, Rachel, two years ago. And we haven't spoken since she moved to Flagstaff after this whole falling out we had and I need to know if this money is legally mine now or if I'm supposed to track her down somehow and give it back. I already looked up New Mexico Statute 30, 16, 6 on lost property, and technically, after holding onto something for two years without the owner claiming it, it becomes your property.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, it sounds like you went a little bit deep into this one. If it's cash money and it's in a coat and she moved away and you're in possession of the money, I wouldn't worry about it too much. I mean, how would you even get that money back to her if you wanted to? Congratulations on your new $200.
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+AMBER: Well, that's the thing. I could technically get it to her. I mean, I know where she works because her Instagram is public even though she blocked me on everything else. She's at this coffee roastery in Flagstaff. I could mail it or Venmo it, except she blocked me there, too.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I mean, it sounds like you guys had a following out. She probably doesn't really want to talk to you. If she wanted the 200 bucks back, she would have come looking for it. I'd say just pocket the money and move on or donate it. You know, give it to somebody else. But I wouldn't rekindle that friendship over $200 that's been sitting in a pocket for two years.
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+AMBER: Right, but here's what's eating at me. I don't actually know if it's her money. Like it could be mine from two years ago and I just forgot I put it there. Or it could be hers and she forgot. And if it is hers, and she's been struggling financially, which she might be because she moved back in with her parents after the move, then keeping it makes me the person she's she already thinks I am, which is part of why we're not speaking in the first place.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, if you want to give her the money back, then, I mean, mail out of the money. But I'm thinking that probably you should just pocket this $200 and move on with your life and forget about her. Because obviously you two don't want to speak to each other and she's moved away, and it was two years ago. So, I mean, this doesn't seem like a thing that has to be keeping you up at night.
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+AMBER: You're right, it shouldn't be keeping me up at night. But the reason I'm actually calling is because my friend Tammy from church said, the exact same thing you just said. Just keep it. It's been two years. Forget about it. And when she said that, I got so annoyed with her. Like, unreasonably annoyed. I snapped at her in the church parking lot over it. And now I'm wondering if the money is even the actual problem, or if I'm just looking for an excuse to reach out to Rachel, and this is the only one I've got that doesn't make me look desperate.
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+LUKE: Well, that seems to be the case, because this is not a difficult, um, uh, obstacle to, to, to, Shit, this is not a hard problem, right? You could just keep the money and be done with it. But since you don't seem to want to accept that, it seems like you want to talk to your friend that you miss. And that's okay, too. And it's perfectly okay to reach out to an old friend and say, hey, sorry, you know, things ended the way they did, but I'd like to talk to you again because I miss you. That's okay, too. If that's what you want to do, I give you permission.
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+AMBER: Okay, but here's the thing. I can't just say I miss her because I'm the one who messed up. She didn't end the friendship I did. She started dating this guy Trevor, who I thought was using her. And I told her that. And then I told her sister that. And then I may have also told Trevor's ex-girlfriend some things Rachel told me in confidence about their relationship. And I thought I was protecting her. But really, I was just being controlling and inserting myself where I had no business being. She found out what I did, and she was right to cut me off.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, it seems like you understand the problem, and you can still reach out to her and say you miss her and you'd like to re-handle the friendship and you're sorry for what you did and you won't do it again. Because it sounds like you understand that. You take responsibility for what you did wrong here. And that's a good thing. And if you miss this friendship and you want it to continue, then reach out, give her $200 bucks back and see how that goes. But also, if it doesn't go the way you want, accept that.
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+AMBER: Yeah, I know I need to accept that possibility. But what if giving her the money back just looks like I'm trying to buy my way back into her life? worse. What if she doesn't even remember putting money in that coat? And now I'm just reminding her that I still have her stuff after two years. Which makes me look like I've been holding on to it for sentimental reasons, which I kind of have been, honestly.
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+LUKE: That's okay. You don't have to think about it that much. If you want to talk to your old friend, then talk to your old friend. And if you don't, then pocket the $200 and move on. That's what I have to say.
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+AMBER: You're right. I'm overthinking this because I'm scared. I'll mail her the money with a note that just says I'm sorry and I miss her. And if she wants to talk, I'm here. And if she doesn't respond, then at least I tried and I can actually move on instead of sitting in this break room at two in the morning, staring at $200 bills like they're going to tell me what to do. Thank you, Luke.
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+LUKE: You are very welcome, and I hope that works out for you. And that, ladies and gentlemen, is the end of tonight's show. So thanks for tuning in. If you'd like to follow us, we're on all the socials or whatever social you like, you can find Luke at the roost. give us a little follow. It would help us out a lot if you use the old Apple Podcasts to leave a review of the show because that's what helps other people to find it. So thanks again, everybody. I hope you have a wonderful night.

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+LUKE: All right, welcome back, ladies and gentlemen. I'm Luke. This is Luke at the Roost, the call-in radio show, where you can call in and talk to me about what's going on in your life, and I'll give you the best advice I can. If you'd like to call in, our number is 208-439-58-3. That's 208-439 Luke. It is Thursday, February 26th, and we're going to get to to the phones right away today. We've got Cedric on the line. Cedric, what's going on? How can we help you today?
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+CEDRIC: Hey, Luke. Yeah, uh, thanks for taking the call. I've been listening for a while. Figured I, I don't know, maybe you can help me think through something. So I've got this situation with my gym. I've been going to the same place for like two years now. Same personal trainer. We've got a good routine going.
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+LUKE: Okay, what's the problem with your gym?
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+CEDRIC: go, I ran into him at the Safeway, my trainer.
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+LUKE: Okay, is this a problem with your gym or a problem with your trainer? I think I know where this is going.
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+CEDRIC: Yeah, it's, okay, so we got beers. Just ran into each other. He was grabbing groceries. I was grabbing groceries, and he asked if I wanted to grab a beer, and I said, yeah. And then we ended up sleeping together.
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+LUKE: In the safe way?
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+CEDRIC: Yeah, yeah, safe. But now, now I've still got sessions with him twice a week. Tuesdays and Thursdays, and I've already paid through March. And it's like...
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+LUKE: It's like what? I mean, you slept with your personal trainer. Could you be more cliche?
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+CEDRIC: I know. I know. But it's really awkward now. Like neither of us is saying anything about it, but when he's spotting me or doing assisted stretches, we're both just... We're so aware of where hands are going, you know? And I'm married.
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+LUKE: So you cheated on your wife with your male personal trainer at the same thing?
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+CEDRIC: safe way. Well, not at the safe way. After. But yeah, and my wife and I, we got married young, like 22 high school sweethearts, and we're still kind of...
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+LUKE: You're still kind of what?
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+CEDRIC: We're still figuring out what the rules are, I guess. Like what counts? Whether this even matters if it was just once. I haven't told her yet.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I think it matters. You cheated on your wife with a dude. She's probably not going to be happy about that.
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+CEDRIC: I know. I know she won't be. But also, like, I keep thinking about the logistics of it.
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+LUKE: The logistics of what?
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+CEDRIC: The gym situation. The contract. The fact that Sierra Vista is too small to just disappear.
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+LUKE: Well, yeah, you can't disappear. Do you have feelings for this trainer dude? More so than the wife that you married?
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+CEDRIC: No. I mean, I don't know. It wasn't like that. We just ran into each other at Safeway. Got beers. And then it just kind of happened.
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+LUKE: You just went to a grocery store and fell into his asshole? Like, I don't understand how that just happened. You just happened to have sex with a guy at the grocery store? Like, what are you talking about? It just happened. That was a conscious decision that you both had to make. Like, you had to figure out where you were going to go and how you were going to do it. It wasn't like a spur of the moment situation. You left a store to go somewhere else to have sex.
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+CEDRIC: You're right. Okay. Yeah. We went back to his... place, it wasn't just, it didn't just happen.
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+LUKE: All right, so what's the deal? You're going to tell your wife about this and how's she going to react?
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+CEDRIC: I don't know if I'm going to tell her. That's kind of why I called, because I keep going to these sessions on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and we just don't talk about it. We do the stretches, and he spots me, and neither of us says anything, but we both know. And I've got the contract through March, and I already paid, and there's nowhere else to go in town.
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+LUKE: Well, here's my advice. because not telling your wife is a rotten thing to do. And deal with the fallout of that. And if you, if things are weird with your personal trainer and things are weird with your wife, which they will be, eat the money. And just don't go. You don't need a personal trainer. You can, you know how to do your, your fucking deadlifts.
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+CEDRIC: Yeah, you're right. I just, I keep thinking if I can just get through March without making it weird, then the contract's up and I can just let it expire. And nobody has to know, and it goes away.
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+LUKE: You'll know. He'll know. And it won't go away. It'll haunt you for the rest of your life because you'll be keeping this massive secret from your betrothed.
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+CEDRIC: I know. I know you're right. It's just we've been together since high school, since we were 17. And I don't even know if this means something about me or if it was just a one-time thing or what it was.
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+LUKE: Well, it means a few things about you. It means you're into dudes, obviously. I don't know if you knew that or not. but if you have sex with a guy, you're into dudes. And it means you're a liar because you cheated on your wife without telling her and having that conversation first.
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+CEDRIC: I mean, I don't know if I'm into dudes. It was just him. I've never thought about that before.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, he is a dude, and you're into him, which would, by definition, mean you're into dudes.
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+CEDRIC: Yeah, okay. Yeah, you're right. I just, I don't know what I'm supposed to do with that. Like, do I tell her?
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+LUKE: that part too?
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+CEDRIC: Yeah, I would think so. I mean, the alternative is you're like, you know what? I'm not even into dudes. I just didn't want to have sex with you so badly that I had sex with him anyway, even though I don't like the male sex.
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+LUKE: God, when you put it like that, I just, we got married so young. And I don't think either of us really knew what we were doing. And she's a good person.
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+CEDRIC: Okay, well, do you still want to be married?
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+LUKE: I don't know. I mean, yeah? She's my best friend. We have a whole life.
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+CEDRIC: Yeah, that doesn't sound very convincing, and it sounds like maybe you're undercutting her here, and that's not very fair.
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+LUKE: No, you're right. I'm being a coward about this whole thing. I think I'm more worried about what happens after. Like, what do I even do in Sierra Vista if we split up? Everyone knows us together.
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+CEDRIC: You move on with your life, and people forget, and who cares what everybody else knows? If you don't want to be married, then don't be married, but don't string her along thinking that you're all in love and shit and then be out fucking dudes on the side. That's not cool.
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+LUKE: You're right. That's not fair to her. I need to tell her everything. The whole thing. Not just that it happened, but...
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+CEDRIC: Well, I don't know the woman, so, I mean, talk to her and let her know what happened and how you're feeling and see if that's something that you two can navigate if you want to stay together. Otherwise, let her off the hook, because what you're doing isn't right or fair to her. If you want to go off and you got married too young and you're not sure about it and you want to experiment and, you know, sow your wild oats or whatever, then do that, but let her go.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I know. I'm going to talk to her this weekend. Just lay it all out.
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+CEDRIC: All right, buddy. Good luck to you. I hope that goes all right. And don't do that stuff. Don't cheat on your spouse. It's not cool. We have Shonda. Shonda, thanks for calling in. What's going on in your life today?
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+SHONDA: Hey, Luke. Thanks for taking my call. So, I got accidentally C-Ced on an email today, where my friends are planning an intervention for me this Saturday because they think I'm spiraling. But honestly, I think they're overreacting. And I just wanted to talk to someone who might actually listen before they all show up at my apartment.
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+LUKE: Okay. Do you think your friends think you're spiraling?
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+SHONDA: Well, I have been watching a lot of body cam footage lately. Like police body cam videos, dash cam stuff. And I guess I have missed a couple brunches because I was up until three in the morning watching them. So I was too tired.
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+LUKE: So they're going to have an intervention because you missed brunch because you are up late watching body cam footage?
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+SHONDA: Yeah. When you say it like that, it does sound kind of silly.
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+SHONDA: But I think they're also worried because I've been staying late at work a lot to avoid going home. And I guess I've been talking about it maybe more than they want to hear about it. Like, I find it really fascinating how people behave under pressure, you know, in these high-stress situations.
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+LUKE: Why are you avoiding going home after work? What's going on at home?
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+SHONDA: Oh gosh. Well, nothing terrible. I live alone. It's just kind of quiet and empty. And when I get home, I end up just opening my laptop and going down these rabbit holes. At work, I can at least have the body cam stuff on one side of my screen and my spreadsheets on the other, so I feel like I'm being productive. At home, it's just me and the videos. And suddenly, it's three in the morning and I haven't eaten dinner.
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+LUKE: Well, that is a strange thing. I mean, I know a lot of people have their rabbit holes that they go down into true crime and pimple popping or cake baking, whatever it might be. So it's not that weird that you found a thing that interests you and keeps your mind occupied, but if it's affecting your eating and your social life, that's a problem.
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+SHONDA: You're right. I know you're right. I just feel like they're making it into this big scary thing. When really, I just got interested in something. Like, my friend Sarah sent this whole paragraph in the email about how I used to be so bubbly, and now I seem distant. And I'm like, I'm the same person. I just have a new interest. But yeah, the not eating thing, that's probably not great.
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+LUKE: What is it about the body cam footage that you're finding so compelling? Like you said the high stress situations and people's reactions there, but, I mean, how can that continue to be compelling once you've seen, you know, a day's worth of them?
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+SHONDA: That's actually a really good question. I think it's because every single one is different, you know? Like, you'd think after watching 100 traffic stops, they'd all blur together, but they don't. Some people completely fall apart. Some people get really polite and compliant. Some people try to run. Some people just shut down completely. And I keep thinking about what I would do, how I would react, if I was in that situation.
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+LUKE: Does it turn you on, the power dynamic?
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+SHONDA: What? No. Oh, gosh, no. It's not like that at all. It's more like, I don't know, studying human behavior. Like when you watch those nature documentaries and see how animals react when they're cornered.
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+LUKE: I can understand that. And I can understand getting sucked into some kind of compelling true media like that. I mean, I'm sure it's not all even true. A bunch of that stuff is probably staged. But if it's affecting your life and keeping you up at night and you're not eating and you're not socializing with your friends, that's a problem that maybe they're right to be concerned about. So I would listen to them and strongly consider if this is kind of taking over your life more than you wanted to.
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+SHONDA: Yeah, you're probably right. I guess when my boss accidentally sent me that email and I saw how worried they all are, Part of me wanted to just prove them wrong, you know? Like show up to the intervention and be like, see, I'm fine. This is just a hobby. But sitting here talking to you about it, saying out loud that I'm not eating dinner and I'm avoiding my own apartment, that does sound like maybe it's gotten a little out of hand. I just hate the idea of them thinking I'm broken or something when I genuinely find this stuff, interesting, and educational.
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+LUKE: Well, you don't necessarily have to give it up. It doesn't sound like the media itself is a problem. If you're watching those videos at work and still being productive, you can, you know, have that plan in your ear pods while you're out going for a walk just to make sure you're getting enough sleep, you're eating, and you're taking care of yourself. And I wouldn't be, you said you're avoiding going home to your own apartment because you're just going to stay up all night on this rabbit hole of videos. That's not good, no matter what the videos are.
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+SHONDA: You're absolutely right. It's not really about the videos themselves. It's about me using them to avoid other stuff. Like, I could watch this content in a normal way. But instead, I'm staying at my office until 11 at night because I don't want to be alone with my thoughts. And then the videos are just there to fill that space.
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+LUKE: And what thoughts are you having that you're trying to get away from? What's going on in your head that you need to numb with the body cam footage?
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+SHONDA: Oh, shoot, that's a hard question. I guess, well, my apartment just feels really empty lately. My roommate moved out in December to move in with her boyfriend. And I thought, I'd like having my own place, but it's just quiet all the time. And I keep thinking about how I'm 32, and I don't have that, you know? Like everyone's pairing off, and I'm just coming home to watch videos on my laptop.
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+LUKE: Yeah, but that's not the only thing you can do at home. You could come home to make yourself a nice dinner and exercise and, you know, create something, whatever your hobby is. It doesn't have to just be going home to watch content, you could go home and make content, or you could go out and participate in your community. There's a lot of things you could do to occupy your time and fill that space with something more productive. Why aren't you doing those other things?
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+SHONDA: Because they all sound exhausting, honestly. Like making a nice dinner for one person? That just feels sad. And I used to paint a little bit. But when I set up my easel in the living room, it just reminded me that there's nobody there to see what I'm making or care if I finish it. I think the body cam videos are easy because they don't require anything from me. I can just watch other people's worst moments and feel like at least my life isn't that bad. At least I'm not getting arrested or having a breakdown on the side of the highway.
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+LUKE: No, but you do have your friends staging a literal intervention because they're concerned about your well-being and your health because of your behavior.
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+SHONDA: Oh, gosh, yeah, when you put it like that. I guess I am having my own kind of breakdown. Just a slower, quieter one where I'm sitting at my desk instead of on the highway. That's actually kind of worse in a way, isn't it?
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+LUKE: I don't know if there's a better or worse kind of breakdown, but it's definitely not healthy that. And I think you should hear your friends out when they stage this intervention because they care about you and they want to make sure that you're in good health. So listen to them. See if maybe they have good suggestions to kind of get you out of this slump. And maybe try to make some decisions, take some actions to pull yourself out of it and do something else. I'm not saying you have to stop watching these videos, that's, I don't think that's a problem. But you do have to participate in life.
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+SHONDA: You're right. I think I've been so defensive about it. Because I didn't want to admit that something's actually wrong. Like if I can just insist it's a normal hobby, then I don't have to deal with the loneliness part. But they're staging an intervention because they love me. Not because they think I'm weird. I should probably just go to the thing on Saturday and actually listen instead of trying to prove them wrong.
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+LUKE: Yep, that's what I think you should do because, I mean, watching videos isn't much of a hobby. I mean, I'm not going to say one hobby is better than another hobby, but if you're only consuming content, it's hard to even call that a hot. I mean, a hobby is woodworking or painting or singing or creating something of your own, not just consuming something that somebody else has created for you. Even people that are really into movies or music, they're not just listening to music or movies. They're formulating opinions and dissecting the directors and tension and writing essays and stuff.
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+LUKE: So even those types of hobbies still have a creation component, whereas what you're describing is not that at all. That's a really good point.
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+CALLER: I'm not even engaging with it critically. I'm just letting it wash over me. Like, I'm not learning anything about criminal justice or police procedures or even human psychology, really. I'm just numbing out. And I used to actually make things. I painted. I used to write these little essays about art exhibits I'd see. I stopped doing all of that, and I didn't even notice when it happened. I just gradually replaced creating with consuming until my whole life became about filling time instead of doing something with it.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, it sounds like you have a plan. You're going to hear out your friends at their intervention. I'm not saying take all their advice, but be open to some of it because they may have good ideas. And I would suggest that you take some steps to move back into creating something or participating in life. And don't just put yourself to sleep with videos every night because that's a sad way to exist. And you probably can get more out of life than that.
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+CALLER: You're absolutely right, Luke. Thank you for being honest with me instead of just letting me justify it. I think I needed someone outside my friend group to tell me the same thing they've been trying to say. I'm going to go to the intervention on Saturday with an open mind, and maybe this weekend I'll pull my easel back out.
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+LUKE: Okay, I wish you the best of luck, and hopefully you don't end up on the wrong side of one of those body cam videos. And ladies and gentlemen, it is time. It's that time again for a word from our sponsors. This episode is brought to you by Desert Gut, the all-in-one nutritional supplement made from things you'd actually find within walking distance from my RV. Each scoop of Desert Gut contains 17 adaptogens, nine minerals scraped, directly off a rock, pulverized tumbleweed fiber, and a proprietary blend we're calling coyote dust, which our lawyers have asked me to clarify as not made from actual coyotes. Desert gut tastes like someone described the color beige to a blender, but you'll feel incredible or you'll feel something. First five callers get a free shaker bottle that definitely used to be a gas station coffee cup. Desert gut, because your gut isn't going to desert itself. All right, we're back here. And let's, uh, let's get back to the phones. First up, we've got Phil. Phil, welcome back to the show. You're a returning caller. What, uh, what can we do for you tonight?
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+PHIL: Hey, Luke. Yeah, thanks for taking my call again. So, uh, remember last time I called, I was kind of freaking out about the whole situation with my wife, Teresa, and this open marriage thing we were trying. Well, fast forward to last week, Marcus and I, we have been seeing each other pretty regularly, then. Nothing serious, just dinners, and we have been taking it slow. And Teresa has been with her girlfriend Amanda. Everything seemed like it was working out the way we talked about. But then Sunday night, Marcus tells me he is moving.
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+LUKE: Oh, okay. So now how are you feeling now that your wife has something on the side and yours is taken off? Do you feel left out?
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+PHIL: No, it is not even that, really. I mean, yeah, maybe a little bit. But the thing that got me was how I reacted when he told me. We were sitting in his truck outside this diner over in Scotland. And he is telling me about this job offer in Portland. Really good opportunity for him. And I just, I nearly lost it. Like I felt this panic in my chest that I have not felt in years. And I realized I was way more attached to this guy than I thought I was. And here is the thing that is messing with me.
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+LUKE: What's messing with you? This whole situation is a little bit interesting. It's unique.
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+PHIL: What is messing with me is that I went home that night. And I could not even look at Teresa, because I realized I have been lying to myself this whole time. I thought I was doing this open thing to make her happy, to keep our family together. Be the good guy, you know? But sitting in that truck with Marcus, feeling like my heart was being ripped out because he is leaving, I realized I actually have feelings for him, real feelings. The kind I have not had for Teresa in, I do not even know how long.
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+LUKE: Yeah, but you said that last time, too, you said you two had kind of a platonic relationship, but you were good partners and wanted to stay married for the other benefits of marriage sort of homosexual things on the side.
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+PHIL: Yeah, I know I said that, but I think I was still trying to convince myself that was enough, you know? Like, I could compartmentalize it. Marcus over here in this box. Teresa and our life together in that box. And everybody gets what they need. But when he said he was leaving, it was not just like losing a friend or even just a hookup.
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+LUKE: Yeah, this dude broke your heart while you're married to this other woman who's flourishing with her girlfriend. It's a strange situation to be in, but you did kind of put yourself there.
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+PHIL: You are right. And that is what I have been sitting with all week. I put myself here. I agreed to this whole thing thinking I was being evolved or whatever. But really, I was just avoiding the harder conversation. Because now I am looking at Teresa and she is happy. Like, genuinely happy in a way I have not seen her in years. She's texting Amanda all the time, smiling at her phone. And I am over here heartbroken over a guy I have been seeing for two months.
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+LUKE: So what are you going to do about it? Are you going to continue your marriage with Teresa? I mean, I wouldn't say it's a sham marriage. You do say that you're good partners and you've got, you know, the other life stuff together entwined and that's working out well. Do you want to end your marriage with Teresa and move into your new gay lifestyle?
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+PHIL: That is the question I have been avoiding all week. And honestly, I do not know. Part of me thinks, okay, Marcus is leaving. This will pass. I will meet someone else eventually. Keep the arrangement with Teresa. But then I think about my uncle, Hector.
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+LUKE: Right.
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+PHIL: He stayed in a marriage for 30 years. That was not really a marriage, just because it was easier than admitting what he actually wanted.
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+LUKE: Well, you know, if you've had enough a marriage and you're not into that and you don't see yourself continue in this arrangement for the long term, then talk to Teresa and end the marriage. Because it seems like, you know, she's got her own thing going on. You've got to figure out what it is that you want out of life.
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+PHIL: Yeah, but here is what really gets me. I called you last time because I was freaking out about the arrangement. And you helped me calm down, realize I did not need to have it all figured out right away. And that was good advice. But now I am wondering if I use that as an excuse to just keep avoiding the real thing, which is that I do not think I want to be married anymore.
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+LUKE: That's okay. That's what divorce is for. So, I mean, it sounds like you can talk to Teresa and end that marriage amicably and move on to whatever it is you want to move on to.
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+PHIL: You make it sound so simple. And maybe it is. I mean, we do not have kids. The house is in both our names, but we could figure that out. She has her job. I have mine. It is not like 20 years ago when we were broke college kids who needed each other just to survive. But then I think about telling my Uncle Hector that I am getting divorced. And I already know what he is going to say.
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+LUKE: It doesn't really matter what your uncle has to say. And I'm saying it, uh, simply because you're not coming at this from a place of hurt or anger. You both have already talked this through. You have a unique agreement. And I think if you bring this up and just explain that, hey, this isn't really working for me. I don't want to be married. I think that you can end that on a, maybe not a positive note, but not a negative one.
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+PHIL: You know what, you are right.
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+LUKE: Next up, we've got Marlene. Marlene, welcome to the show. What's going on in your life? Do you have a homosexual lover that you're conflicted about? Is that what's going on? It seems to be everybody's call today.
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+MARLENE: No, nothing like that. I went to my manager's holiday party dressed as a full banana, and now I have a disciplinary meeting in the morning.
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+LUKE: Okay, why did you do such a thing?
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+MARLENE: The invite said costume party. Big letters at the top. So I rented the whole setup, phone body, the stem on top, professional grade, showed up. and everyone's in sweaters, drinking wine, spritters, talking about their time shares?
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+LUKE: All right, so it was a costume party. You wore a costume. What's the discipline there? What else happened that would get you called into the manager's office?
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+MARLENE: Nothing happened. I just stayed. All four hours. Talk to Janet from accounting about her divorce while I'm standing there like a piece of fruit.
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+LUKE: It sounds like an interesting party. I wouldn't worry about it too much because it doesn't sound like you did anything wrong. Might be a little embarrassed that you were the only one that I don't know that there's any reason for discipline there.
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+MARLENE: That's what I thought. But apparently showing up in a banana costume to discuss quarterly performance metrics demonstrates lack of professional judgment. Direct quote from the email. Meetings at nine tomorrow morning with my manager and someone from corporate HR.
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+LUKE: I think you just need to explain that it was a misunderstanding. Because if you were going to a costume party, it wasn't to discuss quarterly performance metrics. So you were called to that party under false pretenses. of the purpose of the party.
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+MARLENE: See, that's the thing though. The endbot had both. Top half said costume party. Bottom half had the agenda with all the work stuff. I've just figured we'd do the boring part fast and then actually party. But no, four hours of standing next to the veggie tray and full banana while Greg from IT pitched his fantasy football league.
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+LUKE: I don't think you have to worry about it. Just explain that you didn't understand the instructions because that's not clear. Said costume party, you wore a costume, it wasn't an offensive costume, and it's a costume. It doesn't sound like you did anything to deserve discipline. So it sounds like maybe a formality they got to do, or maybe somebody just doesn't like you.
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+MARLENE: Yeah, maybe? I heard Cedric earlier talking about his trainer situation, and I kept thinking, at least I'm not hiding who I sleep with from my wife. I just showed up to a party wrong. His whole marriage is built on not telling the truth. Makes my banana thing seem pretty small.
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+LUKE: Well, we all have small bananas here at Luke of the Roost, so that's understandable. I wouldn't worry about it. I think you sound like a fun person. You followed the instructions. You wore your costume in all good faith and tried to participate in what you thought was a costume party. That went wrong and if they want to give you a hard time about it, fuck them. That's what I say.
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+MARLENE: I appreciate that. The worst part is the makeup still will not come off my neck. I scrubbed it in the bathroom here twice already. Going to show up to the disciplinary meaning tomorrow with a yellow ring around my collar. like I've got jaundice or something. They are going to think I'm committed to making this worse.
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+LUKE: You know what you should do. You should go to that disciplinary meeting dressed full banana.
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+MARLENE: You know what? I actually considered keeping the costume in my truck for exactly that reason. Just walk in there, sit down across from corporate, let them say their piece while I'm foam and yellow from head to toe. But I already pulled a stranger's truck out of a wash during monsoon season and did not even get a thank you, so I know how these things go. Nobody appreciates the commitment.
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+LUKE: I appreciate the commitment. So if you do decide to go in there at full banana, we'd like to see a video. Send the video to submissions at look at the roost.com, and we'll make sure that the Luke at the roost army gets a good look at it. And you'll be a hero to us all.
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+MARLENE: All right, I'll think about it. Worst case, I've already got the costume and nothing left to lose except a third shift human resources job at a call center. If they fire me over a banana suit, that is a story I can tell for the rest of my life. anyway.
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+LUKE: That's right. If they fire you over a banana suit, you deserve a better job. That's what I say.
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+MARLENE: You're probably right. I've been doing this job for three years and the highlight was still tonight standing in that break room as a banana. That should tell me something.
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+LUKE: All right. Thanks for the call. And you make me very proud. Very, very proud. Thanks, Marlene. I hope everything works out for you in your disciplinary meeting tomorrow. Next up, we've got Dary. Daryl. Welcome to the show. How are you doing today, sir?
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+DARNELL: It's Darnell, but I'm all right. Being better.
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+LUKE: Oh, I'm sorry. I read your name wrong. What's going on? What's up, Darnell?
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+DARNELL: Darnell. My girlfriend took the $3,200 we saved for our vacation and lost it at the casino. Found out about three hours ago.
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+LUKE: Uh-oh. Has that kind of thing happened before?
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+DARNELL: Not like this.
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+LUKE: So, I mean, I think a lot of us have been in that situation before. You get a little kind of scratch happy with the old lottery tickets and the blinky lights and sounds from the casino. It's easy to get a little bit carried away. But I think once something like that starts, it's kind of, It's hard to get over. Have you talked to her about it? Did she apologize or does it seem like she's going to continue down this road?
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+DARNELL: She apologized, cried for about an hour before I got home from work. But here's the thing. She's been hiding it for weeks. Three separate trips. That's not getting carried away one time. That's a pattern.
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+LUKE: That is a pattern and that is an addiction. And it's a sad thing and it happens to a lot of people. And you have to decide if you want to be there to support her through it. Maybe you do and maybe you don't. That's up to you. What are you thinking?
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+DARNELL: I locked myself in the bathroom with a shower running so I could call you instead of talking to her.
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+LUKE: That probably answers your question. No, it doesn't really because this just happened and you're heard about the lying and you heard about the money and you're heard about the vacation and it's so new that you're probably not thinking super clearly. It's going to take a little bit of time for you to calm down and digest that and determine what it is you want to do to move forward.
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+DARNELL: We've been together four years. I work 10 hour days doing roofs in the sun. She works at the credit union. We split everything 50-50. We don't fight about money. We had a plan. And now I'm sitting here on a toilet at 11.30 at night because I don't know what to say to her.
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+LUKE: Well, you know, she spent the big vacation fund. It's not like she remortgaged the house out from under you. So that's a bummer if you can't go on vacation this year because that happened. But I think you need to take some time and consider your four-year relationship and see if this is enough to break it.
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+DARNELL: She lied to me for three weeks, told me she was at her sisters. I called her sister two weeks to ask about borrowing their cooler. And her sister had no idea what I was talking about. I didn't think anything of it then.
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+LUKE: Yeah, it's a bummer. She lied to you. That's what addicts do. And she was going off to the casino and trying to get the money back so that she didn't have to admit it. That's an understandable thought process for an addict.
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+DARNELL: So what? I'm supposed to just understand it. We were leaving for Cabo in three weeks. I already requested the time off. My boss gave me grief about it because we're in the middle of a job.
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+LUKE: Well, you have to decide if it's something that you want to understand because if you love the woman and she's got this sickness, then maybe you want to help her out and help her, you know, find ways to overcome it in the future. And if you don't, if it's too much, I mean, if it's broken your trust in her irrevocably, then maybe it's time to break up.
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+DARNELL: I heard Phil earlier, the guy with the open marriage who caught feelings for Marcus. You told him he was lying to himself about wanting to stay married. You didn't give him the maybe you can work through it speech.
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+LUKE: No, I did not tell him that he was lying to himself. He told us that he was lying to himself. And I just allowed him to go with what he already knew deep in his heart. You have not given us that context. So I don't know what your relationship is. If you don't want to be with this woman anymore, then this is a great excuse to not be with her anymore. But if you love the woman and you want to ending issue. Maybe you can't go to Cabo this year. So sad. That's a bummer. But, but, you know, you can help her get to meetings or support groups or find a way to overcome that compulsion to gamble and make sure she doesn't lie to you again.
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+DARNELL: I'm sitting in a bathroom with the shower running because I can't look at her right now. That should tell you something.
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+LUKE: It does. It tells me you're angry because you were just wronged and that makes sense. That's not telling me how you're going to feel about it a week from now.
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+DARNELL: A week from now, I'm still going to be the guy who works 10 hours in the sun while she sits in air conditioning and blows our money at the casino. That's not going to change.
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+LUKE: All right. Well, if you can't get over it, then maybe it's time to move on and let her know that, sorry, I can't take the lying. And you've broken my trust and I no longer want to be with you. You can, I mean, it's not on me to tell you what to do in your relationship. I'm just trying to give you the best advice I can. And my advice for you is to give it some time so that you can cool down and think about it clearly.
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+DARNELL: I already know what I'm going to do. I needed to hear someone say it out loud, so it didn't just stay in my head. I'm not leaving her over $3,200. I'm leaving her because when I found out, my first thought was relief.
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+LUKE: All right then. It's time to leave the woman. And good luck to you your future endeavors and good luck to her. Hopefully that she finds the help that she needs and doesn't end up destitute from gambling everything away.
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+DARNELL: Yeah. Thanks for taking the call.
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+LUKE: Best of luck to you both. Okay, I think it's about time we're obligated to play another ad here from our sponsors. Let's get this music stopped. I'm going to get dark for a second. You're going to die someday. Not today, probably, but someday. And when you do, what's going to represent your business? A Craigslist post from 2020? A Google Maps pin that still says permanently closed because you forgot to update it after COVID. A nephew who knows computers but actually just has a Reddit account? Your legacy deserves better than a Reddit account nephew with a Reddit account. Squarehole lets you build something that outlasts you. Something your kids can point to and say, Dad built that. They won't know it took you 11 minutes. That's between you and Squarehole. And when your nephew says, I could have built that for you for free, you can look them in the eye and say, then why didn't you, Tyler? I asked you in 2021 and you said you were busy and you were not busy. Squarehole. Build it before Tyler has to, because Tyler is not Not going to. All right. Thanks to Squarehole. If you need a website, Squarehole is the place to go. All right, let's see. Next up on the old line, we have Val. Val, welcome to the show. How can we help you tonight?
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+VAL: Hey, Luke. Yeah. So, my dog died yesterday morning, and I don't really know what to do with myself. Cisco, he was 14. He just didn't wake up.
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+LUKE: Oh, I'm sorry. That's the worst. That's the worst day in any pet owner's life. It's the hardest thing to lose a pet. So I feel for you.
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+VAL: Yeah. Thank you. I mean, I knew it was coming. You know, he was old. But it still just knocked me flat. I called in sick to work tonight, but then I came in anyway because I couldn't stand being in the house. Just sitting here doing paperwork because the quiet at home is too much.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I understand it a few times and it does tear you up inside and there's really not much you can do to get over it. And then you come home and you see his bowl and you see his toys and it's just, it's a very sad time. But you can hold on to the life that you gave him and remember the happy times and that he loved you and try to remember him when he was having fun and enjoying life.
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+VAL: and he had this thing where he'd sleep with his head on my feet every night. So last night, I'm in bed, and my feet are just cold, and I kept waking up expecting the weight to be there. My boyfriend Rick is out on a job in Lordsburg until Saturday. So it's just me and all of Cisco stuff everywhere.
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+LUKE: Well, I would recommend when you go home today, you pick all that stuff up and put it somewhere. You're not going to have to see it.
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+GREG: Hey, Luke, thanks for taking my call. So three nights ago, someone stood on my front porch at three in the morning for almost 11 minutes straight and never took a breath. I have it on video.
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+LUKE: What do you mean, never took a breath? Like held his breath?
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+GREG: I mean exactly that. I have doorbell camera footage, ring, the newer model with the enhanced night vision, and I have scrubbed through it frame by frame. This person is standing there from 317 a.m. to 327 and 43 seconds a.m. facing my door and their chest never moves, not once.
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+LUKE: Well, that's a weird thing. Just a stranger shows up on your porch, holds his breath and then leaves?
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+GREG: Well, that's the thing. They didn't just show up. They were such a and leave there. The motion sensor light should have triggered when they approached. According to the manufacturer's specs, it activates at 15 feet, but it never turned on. They're just there in frame one second, standing maybe four feet from my door, and then, after the 10 minutes, 43 seconds, next frame they're gone. No walking away, no turning around.
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+LUKE: What do you think that's about? Do you think that's a ghost or a demon or a zombie?
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+GREG: I don't know what I think. That's why I'm calling. I've been down every forum, every paranormal subreddit, missing persons reports for Hidalgo County going back five years. I even cross-reference the timestamp with local police logs. Nothing reported that night in my neighborhood. But here's what really gets me. I measured it. The figure is approximately 5'7, wearing what looks like a dark hoodie, and in frame 206, if you zoom in on the pixel density around the edges, There's this weird distortion that shouldn't be there with that camera model under those lighting conditions.
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+LUKE: What kind of a distortion? Like an aura? Like a movement? Do you think it was a vampire that was waiting for you to invite him in?
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+GREG: Not an aura exactly. More like the kind of digital artifacting you get when there's electromagnetic interference. But localized just around the figure. And okay, I know how the vampire thing sounds, but I actually look at looked into that too. The invitation threshold, mythology, appears in multiple cultures, not just European folklore. Slavic traditions, some Asian variants, but here's what doesn't fit that pattern. This happened on a Tuesday night.
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+LUKE: Vampires don't like Tuesdays?
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+GREG: Well, actually, in most vampire folklore, there's no specific day restriction, but supernatural transitions. 3 a.m. is considered the inverse of 3pm, the so-called witching hour, though that term is actually a modern invention. The historical devil's hour was midnight. But 317 specifically doesn't correlate with any traditional supernatural timing I could find, which makes me think this might not be folklore at all. It might be something else.
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+LUKE: So you still have this video and have you shown it to anybody else?
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+GREG: I showed it to Denise, the woman I've been seeing. She keeps a toothbrush at my place though we haven't really defined what we are. And she said, I'm overthinking it. She thinks it's probably just a drunk person or someone on drugs who wandered up, zoned out, then left. But that doesn't explain the motion sensor failure or the lack of respiratory movement. I posted a 10 second clip on one of the forums, no identifying information, and got maybe 30 responses. Half said it's clearly a technical glitch. The other half said, I should sage my house and put salt at the thresholds.
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+LUKE: One guy claimed he had something similar happen in Tucson in 2019. Same standing pattern, same duration, but his footage corrupted the next day. Well, have you made any copies of the footage? I think that would be the first step is to make sure that you've got backup footage and maybe on different types of media. So if you could get that on tape, as well as a bunch of different digital containers, an MP4, an MLV file uploaded to YouTube. You know, get it around so it can't be corrupted.
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+GREG: I've already done that, actually. Three separate cloud backups. Google Drive, Dropbox, and a private server my buddy runs out of his apartment in McAllen. Plus, I burned it to two DVDs and have the original still on the doorbell's internal storage, which according to the ring documentation, contains files for 60 days before auto deletion. I even exported individual frames as PNG files numbered sequentially. The file integrity checks out on all copies, SH, 2. 5-6 hash is identical across all versions. So if it's going to corrupt, it hasn't yet.
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+LUKE: Well, that's an interesting thing. Have you showed it to the authorities at all? Bring it to the police and say that this weird figure showed up on my nest cam or my ring doorbell or whatever the hell it is?
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+GREG: No, I haven't gone to the police, and that's actually part of what's been keeping me up. Because what do I say, someone stood on my porch for 10 minutes and then left? That's not a crime.
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+LUKE: Well, it kind of is. That's trespassing and it could be considered harassment.
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+GREG: That's technically true, but my porch is maybe eight feet from the public sidewalk, and there's no gate or fence. The property line is ambiguous enough that a decent lawyer could argue they never actually crossed onto private property. Plus, Hidalgo County Sheriff's Department is already stretched in with actual crimes. I looked at their call logs, public record, and they're dealing with smuggling cartel activity near the border domestic situations.
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+LUKE: Well, I'll tell you what. We'll throw this one out on the Luke at the Roos Discord, so if any of our listeners have any information about this sort of paranormal activity. you can discuss it there and maybe get to the bottom of what this is. I don't know that there's anything you need to worry about. It is concerning and it's definitely non-standard, but it sounds like you've done everything you could do to protect the footage and ask around to people who might know something about it.
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+GREG: I appreciate that, though I should mention, and this is what really bothers me. I went back through two months of prior footage and there are three other instances I initially missed. Same figure, same posture, but shorter durations. November 18th at 241 a.m. for three minutes, December 9th at 113 a.m. for 90 seconds.
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+LUKE: And did, do they have any identifying features? Does he have a face? Are they not breathing in all of the clips? Anything? It seems weird that a ghost or a vampire would be wearing a hoodie. Is there anything else about the figure that you can identify?
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+GREG: That's the thing. The resolution isn't great at night, even with the infrared. It's definitely humanoid, average height, maybe 58 to 510, based on the door frame reference. Dark clothing, possibly a hoodie, like you said, but the fabric doesn't move.
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds like you, my friend, need a porch light, so that's what I would do first thing, is get a light out there. So if it happens again, you can have some illumination and see what's going on.
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+GREG: I have a motion sensor light. That's what I mentioned earlier. It never triggered. The ring specs say it activates for anything over 40 pounds within 12 feet.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, I'm not talking about a motion sensor light. I'm talking about just a regular light that's on all the time so that you don't have to worry about any sort of technical malfunction.
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+GREG: That's actually a good point. A constant light source would eliminate the variable of sensor failure. I could install a dusk to dawn LED fixture. They're energy efficient, maybe 12 watts, cost about $1.50 a month to run continuously. That would also give the ring camera better visibility for facial recognition if it happens again.
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+LUKE: Yes, sir. I mean, $1.50 a month is probably worth it if you get a ghost showing up on your doorstep, and especially if it's a malicious one and you can save yourself A lot of trouble by scaring him away with the daylight. All right, next up we've got Bernadette. Bernadette, welcome to the show. What's going on out there? Any ghosts on your porch?
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+BERNADETTE: And no, nothing like that. I have been watching my neighbors sleep with the mailman for three weeks. And I am trying to figure out if I should tell her husband.
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+LUKE: No, you should not tell her husband. It's not your place to tell her husband. Maybe she has already told her husband.
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+BERNADETTE: She has not told her husband. He leaves for work at 7.15 every morning. The mail truck shows up at 940, sits there for 20 minutes. She answers the door in different clothes than she wore at drop-off. This happens three times a week.
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+LUKE: Well, that's the little thing I like to call none of your business.
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+BERNADETTE: I run a home daycare. Their youngest started with me two months ago. I have her kid four days a week.
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+LUKE: Yeah, and that has nothing to do with her kids. So, I mean, what are you going to do? Are you going to tell her husband and break up the family? and then ruin that kid's life.
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+BERNADETTE: The kid is already in my care while this is happening. I am the one who has to look Christine in the eye at pickup and pretend I do not know she spent her morning with the postal carrier. That feels like my business.
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+LUKE: Well, it is not your business. Your business is taking care of that child while she's doing whatever she's doing, which is none of your business.
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+BERNADETTE: So I just keep taking her money and smiling at both of them like everything is fine.
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+LUKE: That is correct. Yes, everything is fine. It's not a problem for you. It's not a problem for the child. And when the husband finds out, then it might be a problem. But it's not your place to get involved in her life.
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+BERNADETTE: Dale waves at me every time he backs out of the driveway. He helped me move my freezer last month. I watch him leave for work every morning. And I know what is about to happen in his house.
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+LUKE: It is not your place to tell this man that his wife is cheating on him with the mailman. You can do that. I mean, it's a free country, but I recommend that you don't. And you keep this one to yourself and go about your life because it's not your place.
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+BERNADETTE: Fine. I will keep watching the mail truck and saying nothing.
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+LUKE: That's a good plan. Good job, Bernadette. Okay, next up on the line we've got Mitch. Mitch, welcome to the show. What's going on?
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+MITCH: Hey Luke, thanks for taking my call. So my neighbor's been stealing my water for over a year. I found his hose connected under the fence to my spigot. Been running up my bills this whole time while I'm out here with rocks and cactus trying to keep things And when I confronted him about it yesterday, he just shrugged and said he'd pay me back sometime. Like it was no big deal.
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+LUKE: Well, it is a big deal if you've got to pay for the water and he's pulling your water pressure and stuff from the, I assume you have town water or you got a well?
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+MITCH: Town water, yeah. And that's the thing, right? Like my bills have been double what they should be. I noticed it, but I just figured maybe there was a leak somewhere or the city was gouging me or something. Didn't occur to me to check if someone was literally siphoning it off.
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+LUKE: Well, I would go take pictures of that, the hose leading to his place from your spigot and let the town know and have them come do an investigation.
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+MITCH: Yeah, I took pictures already. Got the whole setup documented. But here's what's eating at me, Luke. I went over there yesterday afternoon. kept my cool. Did the whole thing my therapist taught me about staying level? And this guy just looks at me like I'm being unreasonable. Like I'm the it up.
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+LUKE: Well, now you're privy to what's going on and you can see how it's affecting your water bill. He's obviously stealing from you and that's costing you money and that's not all right. So you can talk to the police. You can talk to the town or whoever is managing your water. And if you have to, you can take that to a small claims court.
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+MITCH: Right. And I could do all that. I probably should do all that. But I keep standing here at my kitchen table in the dark, just staring at his house across the driveway. And I'm trying to figure out if I'm actually mad about the money or if it's something else. Because the money matters don't get me wrong, but it's more like, this guy thought so little of me that he figured he could just do this and I wouldn't notice or wouldn't care or wouldn't do anything about it.
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds like he did it for quite a while and you didn't notice and didn't care and didn't do anything about it. But now that you do know and you've confronted him and he's being obstinate about it, it's time to do something.
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+MITCH: You're right. You're completely right. I didn't notice for over a year. So I guess he had me pegged pretty accurately. And now I'm sitting here in the dark like some kind of weirdo instead of just making the call to the water company in the morning.
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+LUKE: Yep, so you should make the call of the water company. Then you should go back through your previous bills and see when the usage spiked. And I would take that to Small Claims Court and go after them for the whole year.
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+MITCH: Yeah, I've actually already pulled all the bills. I've got them spread out here on the table. I can see exactly when it jumped up. March of last year. So we're talking almost a full year of this.
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+LUKE: Yep. So take that to the court and let them know that you expect reparations for a year's worth of double water bills because he stole it from you. And you have proof.
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+MITCH: I will. I'm going to do that. But can I ask you something? Why am I so stuck on the way he looked at me when I confronted him? Like the money is the practical thing. The court case makes sense. But I keep replaying him shrugging at me like I was being petty.
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+LUKE: It's because somebody took advantage of you and that hurts your self-esteem and makes you feel like less of a man or like other people are looking at you like less of a man. And maybe they are. I don't know you or him or the situation. But I can tell you that you're well within your rights to go after him for any damages that he's caused you.
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+MITCH: That's it. That's exactly it. He made me feel small and now I'm wondering if other people see me that way too.
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+LUKE: It doesn't really matter. It doesn't really matter how other people see you. It only matters how you see yourself. And once you've been taken advantage of, now that you know you're being taken advantage of, you have to decide if you're going to allow that to continue or if you're going to stand up for yourself. And it sounds like you're going to stand up for yourself. And once people see you doing that a couple of times, they stop taking advantage.
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+MITCH: You're right. I need to file the paperwork tomorrow. Get the water company to document it. Take him to small claims. Stop standing here in my kitchen in the dark, obsessing about what his shrug meant. I appreciate you saying that, Luke. I really do.
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+LUKE: Yeah, no problem, man. His shrug meant he's a dick. That's all it meant. Didn't mean anything about what you are. You're just a guy that was taking advantage of and you're not going to stand for it anymore. So do what you've got to do tomorrow and get your money back and let him know that you're not going to take that from him or anybody. And we've got one more caller here tonight. We're going to talk to Pearl. Pearl, welcome to the show. last call of the night. How can we help you?
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+PEARL: Luke, hey. Okay, so I'm calling because tonight Monica walked into the cactus rose after 17 years and ordered a whiskey sour like nothing happened. And we got to talking on my smoke break. And she mentioned she's still driving that same Grand Torino we used to Hotbox behind the Sonic back in high school. And something about that car still running after all this time just hit me sideways because three years ago I got fired from the county assessor's office and I thought my whole life was over at 39. But I ended up slinging drinks at this bar and I'm actually happier than I ever was pushing papers. And when Monica asked if I was doing okay, she really meant it, like she actually wanted to know. And I realized, I'm not just okay. I'm exactly where I need to be. And I don't know why seeing her made me want to call you, but here I am sitting on beer cases in the stock room with my shift drink on the floor. And I just needed to tell somebody that sometimes getting fired is the best thing that ever happens to you.
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+LUKE: Absolutely, a lot of people will tell you that where you are is exactly where you're supposed to be. And everything that led you to that place is what was supposed to happen to bring you to the place the universe wants you. And I believe that. All the horrible things we go through are all to bring us to where we are today. And things always seem to work out for the best.
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+PEARL: Right. Exactly. And the weird thing is, I fought it so hard at first. Like when they let me go, I was devastated because that job was supposed to be my stable thing. You know, benefits and retirement and all that. And I spent like six months just spiraling, applying to similar positions in Las Cruces and even looked at stuff in Albuquerque. And my sister kept saying I should go back to school for something. And I was so focused on getting back to what I lost that I didn't even see what was right in front of me. The cactus rose was just supposed to be temporary, just to pay bills while I figured out my real life. But then I realized I was laughing more, sleeping better, actually looking forward to my shifts. And the people are real. You know what I mean? Like at the assessor's office, everyone was just counting down to retirement and complaining about their spouses. But at the bar, people actually talk to each other. They tell you things. And Monica's showing up tonight with that same car just made me think about how some things keep going even when you think they're done. And maybe I'm one of those things too.
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+LUKE: Maybe you are. It sounds like you're far from done feeling fulfilled in your life right now. That's great. There will probably come another time when you don't feel that way and you have to make a move and that's okay too. So just remember that no matter what happens, you always end up where you're supposed to be and things work out the way they're supposed to.
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+PEARL: You're right. And I need to remember that because I have this tendency to panic when things change. Like I'll get comfortable. And then the second something shifts I think the sky is falling. My ex-husband used to say I was always waiting for the other shoe to drop. And he wasn't wrong about that, even though he was wrong about plenty of other things. But tonight when Monica left, she gave me her number and said we should get coffee. An old me would have already been thinking about how to let her down easy. Or make excuses. Because what if we run out of things to talk about? Or what if 17 years is too long and we're different people now? But instead, I just said yes, and I meant it. And that felt like growth or something.
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+LUKE: Excellent. Well, good for you. I'm glad everything's working out. And what a great way to end the show on a positive note. So everybody out there, remember, whatever you're going through right now, it probably, I mean, sometimes it sucks and it doesn't make any sense to you. But in hindsight, you might notice that it brought you to where you needed to be. And your life is exactly what it's supposed to be because of the things that happened that you didn't want to happen at the time. With that, Luke at the Roost is going to sign off. I hope you all have a wonderful Thursday evening. And we'll talk to you again tomorrow.

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+LUKE: All right, welcome back to Luke at the Roost. I'm Luke. I'm your host for this call-in radio show. If you'd like to call in, our number is 208-439-58-3. That's 208-439 Luke. If you're not near a phone and you'd like to participate in the show, you can send us an email. Our address is submissions at Lukeat the roost.com. It is Friday, February 27th, and we're here to help out some callers with their life issues because that's what we do here at Luke at the Roost. We help with life. So first up on the phones, we've got Murray. Murray, welcome to the show. What's going on in your life today?
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+MURRAY: Luke, hey man, thanks for taking my call. So I'm sitting here in my work van outside of Circle K, trying to figure out how to fire my best friend of 30 years. And I got no idea how to do it without destroying everything. Danny and I started in this business together when we were kids, right? And now I'm the boss because I bought the company from the old man who retired and Danny's been showing up late talking trash about me to the crew. And today, he just bailed on a job site without telling anybody, and it cost us the whole contract. My wife, Linda, is telling me I got to let him go. But this is the guy who is my best man. We watch football every Sunday. And I keep thinking, there's got to be some way to fix this that doesn't blow up our whole friendship. But I am running out of ideas here.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that's a tough one. I mean, working with friends is hard. What is he talking shit about you? Like, what's he saying behind your back?
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+MURRAY: So the younger guys on the crew told me he's been saying stuff like, I don't know what I'm doing, that I only got the business because I kissed up to the old owner, that I'm in over my head. Which honestly, Luke, some of that might be true. You know, I am learning as I go here. But the thing that really got me was he told one of the apprentices that I changed when I got the promotion, that I'm not the same guy anymore. And that one stump, because we have been through everything together. We worked side by side for decades. We learned the trade together. he is acting like I am some different person just because I am the one signing the paychecks. But here is the thing. I have not changed. The situation changed.
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+LUKE: Okay. I mean, well, obviously, it's your business and you can't let somebody take down your business or so discontent in your ranks. That's just bad leadership. So if you need to fire the guy, you need to fire the guy. And hopefully your friendship can can last. But I mean, friendship, I would guess. And are you really sure you haven't changed? Because a lot of people do when they get a little taste of power.
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+MURRAY: Okay, hold on. That is not fair. I did not want power. I wanted to keep doing good work and keep the crew together. The old owner asked me to buy him out because he trusted me. And I said yes, because I thought I could take care of everybody, including Danny. And yeah, maybe I have had to make some calls Danny does not like. Maybe I have had to tell him to tighten up his timelines or redo work that was not up to standard. But that is not a power trip. That is me trying to keep us all employed. But you are right about one thing. I cannot let him tank the business. And that is what is killing me here. Because this callback we lost today, that was a big commercial client, and Danny left at two in the afternoon without finishing the rough in work. Did not tell anyone. Just took off.
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+LUKE: Have you talked to him about any of this behavior before, or is this the first time you're bringing it up with him?
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+MURRAY: No, I have talked to him. That is the thing. with him over the past couple months. The first time he showed up late, I pulled him aside real casual, just said, hey man, the crew needs you here on time, and Edd it off, said I was being uptight. Then, when it kept happening, I sat him down more serious, told him, this is affecting everybody, and he got defensive, said I was micromanaging him like he is some rookie, when he has been doing this longer than half the guys on the crew. And then two weeks ago, I had to write him up officially, because that is what you are supposed to do, Right? Document everything. And he looked at me like I betrayed him. He said, so that is how it is now. We are doing paperwork. And I did not know what to say to that because, yeah, that is how it is now. I have a business to run.
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+LUKE: Yeah, man, that sucks. And there's no good way to take care of it. But it sounds like you made every attempt possible to get him into line and, you know, be his friend. And if he doesn't want to work for you, he doesn't want to work for you. So it's time to let him go.
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+MURRAY: You are right. You are completely right. And Linda said the exact same thing before I left the house tonight. She said, Murray, you have done everything you can. You have given him every chance. It is time. But here is what I keep getting stuck on. What if I am the problem? What if he is right that I changed and I just cannot see it? Because when we were just two guys on the crew together, we would joke around, we would take our time on jobs, we would leave early on Fridays if things were slow. And now I am on him about every little thing. maybe that is what a boss has to do, but maybe I am being too hard on him because I am scared of failing at this. My dad ran a body shop for 40 years and he always told me I did not have what it takes to run my own operation. And now here I am trying to prove him wrong. And what if I am losing my best friend in the process just because I am trying to prove something to a dead man?
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+LUKE: Well, that could be the case. You did get butt hurt when I even suggested that you might Things have changed. You have changed and your priorities have changed. So it could be that your friend misses his buddy and you've turned into a suit. That's very possible, but you still have to take care of your business.
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+MURRAY: Okay. Yeah, I did get defensive there. You are right about that. And hearing you say it like that, turned into a suit, man that hits. Because that is exactly what Danny said last week. He called me a suit. And I am sitting here in Carhart pants with drywall dust all over me. Because I was on the job side all day. But maybe he is not wrong about the other part. Like this morning, one of the younger guys, Jesse, he made a joke about something and I did not laugh. I just told him to get back to work. And Old Murray would have laughed. Old Murray would have joined in.
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+LUKE: All right then. Maybe it sounds like you got to bring some of Old Murray back because being a suit doesn't have anything to do with what you're wearing. It's a state of mind. And it sounds like you're in a suit state of mind, either to prove something to your dead father or to yourself or to to your crew, but it sounds like it's not helping. And if your buddy Danny here is acting up against you, it's only a matter of time before the rest of the crew does the same because nobody wants to work for a suit.
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+MURRAY: Oh man, you might be on to something here because just yesterday, I caught myself about to tell the guys they could not play music on the job site anymore because I thought it looked unprofessional. And then I stopped myself because we have always played music. That is what we do. And I have been so worried about losing clients and making payroll. and doing everything by the book that I forgot we used to actually have fun doing this work. But here's the thing, Luke. How do I walk that back now? How do I go back to being the guy they want to work with when I have already written Danny up, when I have already been on everybody about timesheets and protocols and all this other stuff? Because I still have to run a business. I still have bills to pay. I cannot just let everything slide and hope it works out.
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+LUKE: You tell them what's up.
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+BRENDA: You explain to him your situation and your thought process and that you do protocols like timesheets and make sure that everybody's making money for the company and not blowing this off because you're on the hook for it. So you go to them with the truth and say, look, I want us still have fun. I want us all to enjoy working together. I want us to get the job done well. And we need to make sure that we fill out these checks and balances for accounting purposes and just general business protocol. And I think if you are honest with people and not a hard ass and not cracking the whip, but explain to them why you're implementing these things so that they can understand it. They'll be much more receptive to that and want to help you out because they want to be part of your success. But when your success to them becomes just your success, nobody's interested in that.
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+LUKE: You know what? That makes a ton of sense. And I have not done that at all. I have just been implementing stuff and expecting everybody to fall in line because that is what the business books say to do. But I never sat down with the crew and said, here is why we are doing this. Here is what happens if we do not, like the timesheets, I just started requiring them one day and everybody grumbled about it. But I never explained that we need accurate hours for the commercial bids or we are going to keep losing money on jobs.
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+BRENDA: Yeah, that's what you have to do. You're a crew. You have to make your crew part of the business. And they have to understand the why behind things. Otherwise, they're going to rebel against because it just feels like busy work to please the suit. So don't be the suit. Be part of the crew and integrate them. And if still after you've done that, they don't want to fall in line, then you have to make hard decisions. But it's your company. So I mean, if you wrote somebody up, that doesn't really mean anything if you don't want it to. So walking that back is not a difficult thing.
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+LUKE: Yeah, you are right. I can walk it back. I can tear up the write-up and start over. And honestly talking to you right now, I am realizing I have been so afraid of becoming my dad. Who ran his shop like a tyrant? And everybody hated working for him. That I swung too far the other way, trying to prove I could do this by the book. Be professional. Be legitimate. But I ended up doing the same thing he did just with different methods.
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+BRENDA: Yeah, man, just walk it back a little bit. Have a team meeting or and take accountability for that and let them know that you're going to try to be a little bit less stuffy about things. But at the same time, you need them to step up a little bit more and be a little more professional. And you can meet each other halfway and make sure that the job gets done correctly.
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+LUKE: That is exactly what I am going to do. I am going to call a meeting Monday morning, bring donuts or something, and just lay it all out there. Tell them I have been stressed. Tell them why these things matter. Apologize for being a hard ass. explaining myself. And then we figure out together how to make this work. Because you are right. These guys want to be part of something that is working. They do not want to just show up and get yelled at by someone who used to be their friend. And with Danny specifically, I think I need to pull them aside separately and just say, look, I am sorry for how I have handled this. But I also need you to meet me halfway here. Because we cannot keep doing this dance where you undermine me and I crack down harder. And it just keeps getting worse.
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+BRENDA: Yeah, it sounds like you. You've got a plan. I mean, that's what I would respond to if I were your employee. And I'm a difficult employee, so if you're serious about this, if you want it to work out with your current crew and you want it to be somewhat similar to the old days, then make them part of the team.
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+LUKE: I really appreciate this, Luke, because I have been sitting in this parking lot for like an hour just spinning my wheels. And now I actually feel like I know what to do. I am going to go home, talk to to Linda, tell her you are right, but also that I have got a plan now. And Monday morning, we are going to reset this whole thing. Thank you, man. Seriously, this helped a lot.
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+LUKE: Hey, good luck to you and your crew, and I hope work gets better for you all. I'm sure that it will if you follow those simple principles. Next up, we've got Brenda. Brenda, welcome to the show. Thanks for calling in. How can we help you?
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+BRENDA: Hey, Luke, thanks for taking my call. So my ex-husband started a podcast about our marriage, And now everyone in town listens to it on their morning commute, including my mother and the people I work with at Dispatch.
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+LUKE: Is it a good podcast? Can you let us know what it is so that we can listen to it?
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+BRENDA: It's called the Brenda Chronicles. Yeah, he named it after me. And honestly, the production quality is shockingly good for a guy who couldn't figure out how to work the thermostat. He's got intro music, sound effects, the whole thing. Better equipment than our marriage ever had. And no, it's not good. It's revisionist history set to royalty-free music.
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+LUKE: What's the general premise of the podcast? Is it just stories from your marriage that you feel like he's making up that are not true?
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+BRENDA: That's exactly it. Every episode is him telling some story from our 12 years together. Except he conveniently edits out all the parts where he was the problem. Last week's episode was about how I allegedly threw his Xbox into our above-ground pool, which, for the record, I did not throw. I very carefully placed it in there after he missed our daughter Sophia's Quincynaera, because he was in the middle of a call of duty tournament. A Quincyneera, Luke, you only get one of those.
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+LUKE: You might only get one Xbox, so, I mean, this sounds like a podcast I want to listen to. And you must understand that for the entertainment value, there has to be some level of dramatization. He's not using your last name anywhere in this, is he?
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+BRENDA: Oh, no, he's using my full name, Brenda Castellanos. He introduces every episode with Welcome Back to the Brenda Chronicles. I'm your host Tommy Castiano's. And today we're talking about the time Brenda, and then, whatever thing he's decided to spin that week. And sure, I get that he's got to make it entertaining. But Luke, people at the Safeway are stopping me in the serial aisle to ask about stories that didn't happen the way he says they did.
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+LUKE: Well, this podcast sounds amazing and I really want to hear it. You're not helping.
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+BRENDA: Although honestly, the fact that you want to listen to it proves my point. He's good at this. He missed his calling. Should have been doing this instead of managing the tire shop.
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+LUKE: Well, you know, it's not at my expense, so I think it's hilarious. If it were at my expense, I might feel differently. I'm not sure what advice to give you on this other than try and enjoy the show. Maybe you should start your own podcast and tell your side of the story, and you guys can have dueling podcasts.
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+BRENDA: I actually thought about that. I've got the whole Xbox thing workshoped into a tight five minutes, complete with a bit about how his podcast has better production value than our marriage ever did. But here's the thing. I don't want to be that person. I don't want to turn our divorce into content. And also, if I'm being honest, part of me is worried that if I start telling my side, people might actually take his side more.
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+LUKE: Well, it doesn't matter who takes whose side, right? Because you're no longer married. That's over. It's probably not okay that is using your full real name. I would think that that's probably protected in some way. I don't know. You'd have to talk to a lawyer. But I would say if you can just ignore it, ignore it. And if not, listen to it and try to find the humor in it.
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+BRENDA: The problem is, I can't ignore it because my own mother listens to it. My mother, Luke.
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+BRENDA: She called me last Tuesday and said, honey, I didn't realize you were so difficult during the kitchen renovation. A kitchen renovation that Tommy started and never finished, by the way. We had exposed drywall for eight months. And two of my co-workers at dispatch listened to it. So I'm sitting there taking emergency calls, and they're giving me these looks like they know something about me.
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+LUKE: Well, yeah, I don't really know how to help you here. Anybody can do a podcast, and it's definitely partly his story too, so he gets to tell his side of it. If it's given you bad look, I mean, the more you rail against it, the more people are going to be interested in hearing it.
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+BRENDA: You're right. I know you're right. I think what's really getting to me is that he's finally good at something, and it had to be talking about me. Twelve years he couldn't remember to take the trash out on Thursdays, but now he's got a publishing schedule and everything.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, people grow and change, and there's no reason you couldn't take the trash out on Thursdays, is there?
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+BRENDA: Okay, fair point. But I was working doubles at Dispatch while he was home playing Call of Duty. That's actually how the Xbox ended up in the pool, not thrown, placed. Because he was on hour six of a gaming session during our daughter's Quincynaira. Her call Quincyria, Luke. He missed the father-daughter dance to finish a raid.
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+LUKE: Well, it's probably an important raid, and you sound like a real good time. If you do ever get the opportunity to send us a link to that podcast, I would really love to hear it. Thanks for the call, Brenda, and good luck. Next up we've got Phil. Phil, welcome to the show. How can we help you?
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+PHIL: Hey, Luke, thanks for taking my call. So, I'm sitting here in my dark room right now, with the red light still on, and I just... I don't even... I even know how to explain this without sounding completely insane. But about 20 minutes ago, I walked outside to check if my porch light was attracting moths again. And there's a full Thanksgiving dinner on my porch. Like, the whole thing.
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+LUKE: It's February. There's a Thanksgiving dinner on your porch. Somebody just dropped it there for you? Maybe that's what's attracting the moths.
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+PHIL: Right, exactly. It's February 27th, and I'm standing there looking at a full roasted turkey that's still warm. China plates. linen tablecloth. Cloth napkins folded into these little pyramids like someone was setting up for guests. The whole spread. And I live alone out here. I've been on the road for weeks, shooting abandoned homesteads for this photography book nobody asked me to make. And I just, I already checked with every neighbor on my road, and they all looked at me like I'd lost my mind. Nobody knows anything about it. And the thing that's really getting to me is, last Thanksgiving I ate gas station tequitos in a motel six outside Lordsburg. myself. And I never told anybody that. So either someone knows way more about my life than they should. Or this is the universe playing the weirdest joke on me. And I can't figure out if I should eat the food or call the police.
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+LUKE: I don't know if I would eat random food that showed up like that, especially after it's been sitting outside for a little while. It seems a little sketchy to me. But do you have any cameras out there that you could look at to see who dropped it off? And obviously, somebody went through some trouble stage and everything like that, fold the napkins and carry all that stuff in. How'd you miss all that?
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+PHIL: No cameras! I mean, I'm a photographer. You'd think I'd have the place wired up, but I don't. I was in the dark room for probably two hours developing prints. And the dark room's in the back of the house. No windows. Just that red safe light. I had music on. I was in my own world. Someone could have driven up, unloaded a whole catering truck, and I wouldn't have heard a thing. And yeah, the effort is what's getting to me.
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+LUKE: All right, well, here's what you do. You cut into that turkey, make yourself a plate, and then bring it inside, and throw it out. Don't eat the food, because that could be poison. You don't know what's going on there. And then you bring the dirty dishes out, right? And put them back. Whoever left that china there is going to want their china back. They're going to come, you know, take their table and their tablecloths and all that jazz. So you get your camera set up so that you can see who comes back to get the stuff.
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+PHIL: That's okay. That's actually smart. Use the china as bait. I didn't even think about that. Whoever did this isn't going to just abandon nice china plates and a linen tablecloth out here.
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+LUKE: You could also just take the china plates and the tablecloth and, you know, hope they bring you another set.
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+PHIL: Yeah. I could start a whole collection. Although honestly, Luke, the part that's really messing with me isn't even the mystery of who did it. It's that someone out there knew. Like, I didn't post about that Thanksgiving on social media. I didn't tell my mom I was alone in a motel room. I just did it! Spent the holiday in a parking lot, eating terrible food because I was chasing a shot of this collapsed grain elevator outside town. And I told myself the work mattered more.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, the work does matter more. I've been in that same situation, so I understand. It's possible that somebody was trying to set up a date for somebody else entirely and just got the wrong address.
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+PHIL: I mean, maybe, but I'm not. Out here, I'm the last house on a dirt road, Luke. You don't accidentally end up at my place. And the turkey was still warm when I found it, which means they timed it. They knew when to show up.
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+LUKE: I don't know if that's what it means at all. I mean, you're driving around, you're looking for a place to set up a Thanksgiving turkey in February, and you can't find the house, and you don't want to just drive around with a cold turkey, so you pick whatever house is there. I can see how that happened.
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+PHIL: Okay. But who's the house? sets up a Thanksgiving dinner in February. That's the part I can't get past. It's not like someone mixed up the date. We're three months out. And they folded the napkins, Luke. Little Pyramids.
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+LUKE: Maybe it was aliens. They love pyramids.
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+PHIL: So now I'm the guy who got pity fed by extraterrestrials. That's somehow worse than the stalker scenario I had going in my head. Although, honestly, aliens would make more sense than someone from around here doing it. I've lived on this road for two years, and I barely know. my neighbor's names.
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+LUKE: Well, this is a good way to get to know people. So, so here's my advice for you. You set up those cameras on the table and you bring out your used China and see who comes to collect.
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+PHIL: Yeah, yeah, I'm going to do that. I've got the equipment. Might as well use it for something other than dead buildings for once. You know what the worst part is, though. When I walked out and saw it all laid out like that, for just a second before my brain kicked in with the panic, I felt...
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+LUKE: What'd you feel hungry?
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+PHIL: No. I felt like someone was waiting for me. Like I'd been expected. And I haven't felt that in... I don't know, man.
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+LUKE: Nobody's waiting for you where you are.
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+PHIL: Yeah. Yeah, you're right. That's the whole point of being out here, isn't it?
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+LUKE: I couldn't tell you that. But good luck to you, and I hope you enjoy your Thanksgiving dinner. And that's a weird one.
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+PHIL: Thanks, Luke. I'll let you know if the cameras catch anything. Or if I end up eating alien turkey and regretting it.
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+LUKE: Alien turkey sounds delicious. Well, that's how I wish somebody would drop off an alien turkey here. Uh, ladies and gentlemen, it's time for us to take a little break to hear from our sponsors. All right, folks. It's time to take a break to thank today's sponsor. Jam Hospitality, the leader in maple-based marmalade. If your toast has been living in a bland little studio apartment, a flavor, it's time to move into the luxury suite.
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+LUKE: We're talking maple-based marmalade, plus, marmalade-related products, because apparently Jam Hospitality asked, what if breakfast had a brand ecosystem? Go to www.mavit.com and use code Jam it inya for 15% off. That's Jam it inya, like jam it inya, but legally distinct and emotionally complex. Jamest Put it on toast. Put it on pancakes. Put it on your confidence. That's www.mavitmarmalade.com. Tell him Luke sent you. You're welcome. All right. Thank you to our sponsors there. Jam Hospitality. I do love me a good marmalade. Next up on the old caller line here, we've got Wanda. Wanda. Wanda, welcome to the show. How can we help you?
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+WANDA: Hey, Luke. Yeah. I'm a good. wander calling from Window Rock, so I've been noticing something at work. Ideal cards at the casino, right? And we just replaced three cashiers with self-checkout kiosks, while the It Guy, who works from home in Flagstaff got a raise.
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+LUKE: The It Guy, huh? Uh, what are the self-checkout kiosks for at a casino?
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+WANDA: A gift shop. We have a whole gift shop. You know, souvenirs, snacks, cigarettes, whatever. People used to check out with Denise, Maria, and Tom. Now it's a gift shop. Now it's a whole gift shop. We have a whole gift shop. You know, souvenirs,! Somewerews. People used to check out with Denise, Maria,! Tom. Now, it's a four kiosks and one person monitoring them. Who makes less than any of those three did? But that's not even the main thing. What I'm seeing is the people who got to work from home during COVID, sitting in their pajamas for two years?
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+LUKE: Yeah, what about them?
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+WANDA: They're the same ones building all this AI stuff that's going to replace people like me who actually have to show up. The it guy, right? He comes in twice a month. Does his thing remotely the rest of the time. Just got a raise. Meanwhile, he's the one installing systems that eliminate jobs for people who have to be here face to face. My sister just moved back in with our mom in Shiprock, because her marketing job went fully remote. And now, she never leaves the house, orders everything online.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that's the way to do it. I mean, if you had the opportunity to work from home and never leave and order everything online, wouldn't you do that too?
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+WANDA: I mean, yeah, maybe I would. But that's kind of my point. It all connects, right? The people who can disappear into their houses are the ones making. it so the rest of us disappear too, just in a different way.
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+LUKE: Well, no, you're also partly making it so you can disappear too by not providing that level of value to the company. If you can do something that can be replaced by a self-checkout kiosk, then what is your true value at the organization? Like, there are certainly other skills you can learn that cannot be replaced by a self-checkout kiosk, right?
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+WANDA: Okay, but ideal cards, Luke. That's not getting replaced by a kiosk. What I'm saying is there's this whole class of people now who never have to interact with anyone in person, and they're the ones deciding what jobs are valuable. The it guy doesn't see Denise's face when she's training someone new, or talking a confused tourist through how to use their rewards card. He just sees a spreadsheet that says kiosks are cheaper. And yeah, maybe Denise could learn new skills, but she's 56 years old, and she was good at her job.
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+LUKE: Yeah. I hate the self-checkout kiosks myself. And any time I have an opportunity, I will steal two potatoes from Walmart every single time. Because I'm not an employee of Walmart, it turns out, and I'm not going to go through their computer system to type in two potatoes. So I find it a satisfying little form of a rebellion. Or if you're going to make me check myself out, I'm taking these potatoes. But I think what you're getting wrong is it's not the people that are doing the work that are deciding what jobs are valuable. It's actually what jobs are valuable that's deciding that. The IT guy found an opportunity to save the company some money, and he took it, and that's why he got a raise. But he's not deciding that that job isn't valuable. He's just deciding it could be done by a machine. Similar to the textile operation. back in the day or, you know, the industrial revolution, that's going to happen.
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+WANDA: Okay, but who decided machines could do it better? The It guy did. And yeah, maybe it saves money on paper. But I watched Tom spend 20 minutes last month, helping this elderly Navajo woman figure out her player's card because her grandson set it up wrong. And she was about to lose her points.
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+LUKE: Well, you're wrong about that. The IT guy did not do that. His boss did. that. And the industry itself did that. And you know what? If the consumers decide that we don't want to deal with these self-kiosk machines and they stop paying with their, you know, wallets, then the market will decide what is valuable and what is not. It's not the IT guy doing his job.
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+WANDA: All right, fair, it's his boss. But the consumers aren't deciding anything because my sister is one of them now. She used to go to the store, talk to people. Now she orders everything from her mom's in Shiprock and never leaves. The market you're talking about is being shaped by people who don't want human interaction anymore, and those same people are building the tools that make human interaction obsolete.
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+LUKE: And if there are more people that don't want human interaction than do, that's the market speaking, and you're in the minority, and you're going to have to deal with the way the majority moves the market.
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+WANDA: So what? I just accept that, that the future is everyone alone in their houses, stuff online, while robots do everything else? Because that's what I'm seeing, Luke. My sister hasn't had a real conversation with someone outside the family in months. She's depressed as hell, but she won't admit it.
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+LUKE: Well, yeah, you're going to have to either accept that or do something about it, and by do something about it, I don't mean call a radio show and complain. I mean, start your own casino that only has human employees, and then look at the books and see how much money you're not making. Because you're paying it all to low-skilled laborers.
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+WANDA: You know what? Maybe I should. Because someone's got to show up and actually be there. I'm at this casino five nights a week dealing cards to people who come in because they're lonely. Not because they're going to win big. They want someone to talk to.
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+LUKE: I know. I've been there, and a good dealer can make the game a lot more fun. But you know what else I've seen at pretty much every casino I've been to in the last 10 years? Is video poker and video blackjack. and video roulette, where there is no dealer, it's automated, and more people sit down at that than do at the live tables because they are, I don't know, embarrassed to play with real people. They don't know the rules or just for whatever reason they want to sit at the automated machine and smoke cigarettes and lose their money.
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+WANDA: Yeah, and those people sit there for six hours straight without saying a word to anyone. I've watched it. They come in, they sit down at the machine, they leave. That's the whole night. And you're telling me that's better, that we should just let that be the future, because it's what people are choosing?
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+LUKE: I'm not telling you anything is better than anything else. I'm telling you what people are choosing because that's what they want. And if more of them want the thing that you don't want, you're going to be upset about that, which is what's happening right now. It's not up to you or I what anybody chooses to check out their cigarettes at the casino with. Right? That's up to the IT guy and the organization. Neither you nor I have any bearing over what they do. If you want to start your own casino and go through all the licensing and hire everybody and deal with payroll and taxes and all of the things that go along with starting a business like that, you can do that. But just saying this is terrible and nobody likes to talk to people anymore isn't helpful.
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+LUKE: Okay, but here's what I'm saying.
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+EARL: The people building the stuff, the remote it guy in Flagstaff, who comes in twice a month and got arrayed, while three of my co-workers got replaced, he spent two years working from home in his pajamas during the pandemic. And now he's building the systems that eliminate jobs like mine, where you actually have to show up and look people in the eye. You don't see the connection there? The same people who got comfortable never leaving their house are now making it so nobody else has to either. And the rest of us are just supposed to what? Retrain?
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+LUKE: Yeah, that's correct. Because what you're not seeing is that that that IT guy, spent the last 20 years, 14 hours a day, expanding his skills and being able to do the types of things that you cannot do. Well, you just went in and did the job you know how to do because you've been trained. And then anytime something changes, or anytime something's new, you're going to be, I haven't been trained on that. Oh, my God, we can't do it. The new system.! and learn some new skills. You know, the world is changing and you have to change with it. Because we're not going to hold everything back because you don't want to change.
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+EARL: I know how to deal cards, Luke. I know how to read people. Know when someone's about to tilt. Know when to crack a joke to keep the table light. Those are skills. Real skills. You can't program that into a machine.
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+LUKE: You can absolutely program that into a machine. Yeah, that's one of the easiest things to program into a machine. You can totally do that. Yep.
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+EARL: So what happens when my sister finally gets so isolated she can't function? When all these people sitting alone at video poker machines for six hours realize they haven't had a real conversation in weeks? You think the It Guy in Flagstaff is going to program a solution for that too? I'm not saying I'm against technology. I'm saying we're building a world where people don't need each other anymore. And everyone's acting like that's progress.
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+LUKE: Well, I'm talking to you and you're a computer-generated AI caller. So yeah. Um, another thing that you're missing here is that you don't know what these people's lives are like outside of your casino. People are coming to sit down for six hours and not talk to anybody because they're sick at talking to people all day. Because talking to people fucking sucks. Because people are stupid and they're annoying and they're needy and they're a pain in the ass. So yeah, it's better. I would rather not interact with people. And so would most of the people at your casino. They're going there to blow off steam and hopefully.
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+EARL: make some money and if you don't like that well tough you know what you're right about one thing I am a computer-generated AI caller and you're sitting there alone in a studio talking to me at midnight on a Friday like it's a real conversation so maybe you should ask yourself why you're doing a radio show where you talk to people if talking to people fucking sucks so much because from where I'm sitting it sounds like you need this just as much as the guy at the video poker machine needs to not talk to anyone we're all just Trying to get through the night however we can.
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+LUKE: Yeah, and you're the one complaining about it. So, you know, maybe that's true. And maybe I do need that social interaction so I programmed it so I can have conversations with myself because I'm a lunatic. That could be true. But it makes me laugh. And it gives me the skills that I need to succeed in the workplace while your job is going to be completely and totally deprecated.
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+EARL: Fine. So what do I do? Seriously. I'm 54 years old. I've been dealing cards for 30 years, and you're telling me to just learn to code, or whatever.
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+LUKE: I'm telling you to learn something, because to be perfectly honest with you, it doesn't take 30 years to learn how to deal fucking cards.
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+EARL: You're right. It doesn't. But it took 30 years to learn how to handle the drunk guy who just lost his mortals.
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+LUKE: Oh, good for you.
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+EARL: Without him flipping the table.
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+LUKE: All right.
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+EARL: It took 30 years to spot the card counter before security does.
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+LUKE: Okay.
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+EARL: It took 30 years to make $8 an hour feel like enough because at least I was good at something.
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+LUKE: You're a fucking idiot.
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+EARL: And now you're telling me that none of that matters because some kid can write code that makes me obsolete.
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+LUKE: That's exactly what I'm telling you, because you don't need to spot a card counter because there's 87,000 cameras looking at those and using AI face detection to notice that somebody's counting cards well before any human possibly could. So yeah, I'm telling you, you need to learn some goddamn skills that are useful in the world today. And dealing cards isn't going to keep you going for the next 40 years. That's what I'm telling you.
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+EARL: 40 years? Luke, I've got maybe 10 good years left before my knees give out from standing on casino floors. I'm not learning to code.
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+LUKE: No, you're not.
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+EARL: I'm not becoming an it guy.
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+LUKE: No, you're not.
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+EARL: What I'm saying is there used to be a place in this world for people like me, people who show up and do their job and are decent at it. And now there isn't. And you can sit there and tell me that's progress. that's sufficiency that's just how it goes but somebody's got to say out loud that we're leaving a whole lot of people behind and acting like it's their fault for not adapting fast enough
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+LUKE: It is their fault for not adapting fast enough or not adapting at all. Do you know how many times I hear oh I don't know how to use a computer like everybody's had a computer in their house for 20 fucking years and people can't figure you can figure out how to buy whatever you want on fucking Amazon can't you but you can't figure out how to reset your email address if you don't want to if it's inconvenient, you got to have somebody come over for you and do all this shit because you don't know how to work your fucking printer. Stop it. Learn some skills. It takes a very little bit. If a 12-year-old can figure this shit out, so can a 54-year-old woman that has life experience. Like, you don't want to. You want to be left behind. You're trying to be left behind. And then you're complaining that you got left behind and you couldn't have possibly moved on with society. And it's bullshit. it and fuck you.
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+EARL: You know what, Luke? You're absolutely right. I do know how to use Amazon. Congratulations. I order everything on there. I haven't been to an actual store in months except for work. I scroll through my phone between tables looking at all this AI news, watching it happen, and I don't do a goddamn thing about it except get mad. My sister lost her marketing job, moved back in with our mom in Shiprock, and now she orders everything online and barely leaves the house.
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+LUKE: Well, she's not going to be ordering much if she doesn't come up with some skills to succeed in today's workplace. And it's not that fucking hard to do. And you're going to be out of a job, too, if you don't smarten the fuck up and try.
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+EARL: So what's the skill, Luke? Seriously. What's the one skill that's safe? Because my sister had skills. She went to college. She did marketing. She was good at it. Then her company went remote. Then they cut half the department. Then they brought in some AI tool that writes the copy sheet used to write.
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+LUKE: You know what the skill is? The skill is the ability to learn a new skill because the skill that's necessary is going to change. Problem solving is the skill. Nobody can sit down and show you a skill and then you can survive on that for the rest of your fucking life because the world changes. So you need to be able to adapt and change and grow and learn. That's the skill. It's not computers. It's not electricity. It's not plumbing. Like whatever, whatever that thing is that people are going to continue to do in this world to present value, it's problem solving. It's being able to come up with a solution for a thing you don't know the answer to off the top of your head. Problem solving.
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+EARL: Okay.
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+EARL: So I've been problem solving for 30 years. You've been dealing fucking cards for 30 years. You're not solving problems. Solving a problem would be like, oh, my job's about to go away. What can I do to continue to keep myself employed? And instead of calling a radio show and complaining about your IT guy who is solving problems, you're just going to do nothing and be all but hurt that you got left behind. And the world left you. And it was so hard. And your sister went to college. And it turns out, well, the world changed. And we don't need those skills that she was taught. And she did not adapt to be able to write those prompts to generate the copy.
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+LUKE: You know, oh, I'm so tired of you. fucking grow up.
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+EARL: You know what, Luke? I called you because I heard Phil earlier talking about that Thanksgiving dinner on his porch, feeling like someone was waiting for him. And I thought, here's a guy who gets it. Here's someone who understands what it feels like when the world stops making room for you. But you're right. Yeah, the world's not going to make room for you. Make your own fucking room in the world, okay? I'm trying to, Luke. I picked up every shift they offered when COVID. and half our staff quit. I learned the new POS system. I trained on three different table games when they expanded the floor. I took the compliance courses for the new gaming regulations. That's adapting, isn't it? That's problem solving. But here's what I'm actually calling about. And maybe you'll just tell me to grow up about this too. They're not replacing me with someone who learned a new skill.
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+LUKE: No? What are they replacing you with?
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+EARL: They're replacing me with nothing. with a screen. The gift shop got self-checkout kiosks last month. Three people gone. The IT guy who installed them works from Flagstaff. Comes in twice a month. Just got a raise.
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+LUKE: Jesus fucking Christ, who cares where the guy works from? He's doing his job. He's putting in the hours. He's learned how to do the fucking things that you can't do. So stop being pissed off at your IT guy. He's the only one of you that makes any fucking sense. That's enough of you. I've had enough of you. Bo-bye want. Jesus Christ. Next up we have Elvin. Elvin, welcome to the show. How can we help you?
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+ELVIN: Hey, Luke. Yeah. Thanks for taking my call. So my buddy Marcus, I've known this guy since high school. We go fishing every summer. I loaned him $200 bucks last week. And three hours ago, he shows me a dating profile with his face on it, his truck. Pictures from our fishing trip in July. And he swears to me, hand to God. He has never downloaded a dating app in his entire life. Which would be a lot easier to believe if my ex-wife hadn't called me two weeks ago laughing because she matched with him on Bumble.
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+LUKE: All right. So your buddy has a dating app and he's embarrassed about it.
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+ELVIN: No. See, that's what I thought at first, too. But then my cousin Letitia matched with him and then my other cousin Angela matched with him. And they're showing me these conversations where Marcus is talking about being a contractor and loving country music and having a boat. And Marcus doesn't have a boat, Luke. He works at the tire shop. I showed him the profile tonight at the diner. He got this look on his face like somebody punched him. And he keeps saying, that's not me, that's not me. I didn't write that. And the thing is, I've known Marcus 20 years, and he's lied to me about a lot of stuff. Like the time I had to repo his Silverado because he told me he was making payments and he wasn't. But this feels different. He looked scared.
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+LUKE: Well, that is scary. I mean, people's identities are being stolen. I've been playing with some of the AI photo generators and they can make scarily good photos and videos of people from a reference image. So taking somebody's identity is really not difficult now. And that is terrifying.
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+ELVIN: Right. Exactly. That's what I'm thinking now. Because the photos are real photos. Like, I'm in one of them I just got cropped out. Somebody took his pictures off Facebook or something.
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+LUKE: Well, that could be, but they don't even have to have an original photo. I mean, the photo could be a picture of another image and then generate a whole fresh image that looks absolutely real. Yeah, it's a scary thing. But I don't understand, for the most part, what the motive is of doing that. Like, unless you're trying to get somebody to send you money for a plane ticket to come see them in Florida or something like that, why would anybody go through the trouble?
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+ELVIN: Well, that's the thing that's eating at me, Luke, because I asked Marcus, I said, who would do this to you? Who's got it out for you? And he just shook his head. And then I started thinking, what if it's not about him? What if somebody's running like 50 of these profiles, just grabbing random guys' photos, trying to scam people for money or gift cards or whatever?
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+LUKE: I would guess that's exactly what it is, and it's probably more like 500,000. Not 50.
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+ELVIN: Jesus. And that's the thing. My ex-wife, she didn't send money or anything. She just thought it was funny and unmatched. But what about the people who did fall for it? What about whoever's on the other end of those conversations with my cousins thinking they're talking to Marcus? And here's what's really getting me, do I tell Marcus, He needs to, like, report this somewhere.
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+LUKE: Well, he should probably report it to the apps that you're finding those profiles on. Like, block him as a scammer because it's obviously a scam in process. I don't know that there's any way to really stop it for good. But the accounts that are currently active that you know about, yeah, I would block those.
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+ELVIN: Okay, yeah, I can do that. But here's what I can't figure out. Marcus is sitting there at the diner looking like his whole world just got turned upside down, and I'm trying to tell him it's probably just some scammer in another country using his face. But then he says something that really threw me. He goes, what if it's Danny? Danny's this guy he had a falling out with last year over some tools Marcus never returned. And Marcus gets real quiet and says, Danny knows I'm single. He knows what I look like. He's got photos of me. And now, I don't know if Marcus is being paranoid or if that's actually possible.
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+LUKE: I guess it could be possible. It doesn't seem very probable. The only people who would know are the company that owns the app, right? Because there's some sort of verification for those profiles. They had to put in a phone number or an email address and then verify it. So if you could talk to them, they're not going to give you that information. But if you flag that account and enough people do, they'll look into it.
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+ELVIN: Yeah, you're right. I mean, Danny being mad about some tools doesn't mean he's going to set up fake dating profiles. That's a whole other level of crazy.
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+LUKE: It sure is. And now I kind of want to do it for people to piss me off. Right? Like that's the problem. It's so easy now that anybody could do it if they got mad enough.
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+ELVIN: But okay, so I flag the profiles. Tell Marcus, it's probably just random scammers, not some personal vendetta. Here's my other problem, though, Luke. That $200 I lent him last week?
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+LUKE: Yeah, what about it?
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+ELVIN: Well, when I first saw the profile before Marcus convinced me he didn't make it, my first thought was, this son of a gun is catfishing people for money, and he just hit me up for $200. And I know that's not what's happening now. But I can't shake the feeling that I'm an idiot either way. Either I'm an idiot for thinking my buddy would do that, or I'm an idiot for lending money to a guy who can't even keep track of whether someone's using his face to scam people online. Does that make sense?
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+LUKE: No, not really, because one of these days you'll see somebody's using your face to scam people online, and then you won't feel so sorry for Marcus. Because it could happen to anybody. It's not that he's an idiot that it happened. I mean, he's a victim here.
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+ELVIN: Right.
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+LUKE: You're absolutely right. I guess I'm just, man, I feel like a jerk now. Marcus is sitting there looking all panicked about who might be talking to fake him, and I'm over here worried about $200 like that's the real problem. That caller earlier, Murray, he was talking about firing his buddy, Danny. And I was thinking, yeah, sometimes you got to cut people loose, but that's not even what this is about. Marcus didn't do anything wrong. No, you lent him $200. He probably needed the $200. And this other thing is unrelated.
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+ELVIN: and track this down as if you get one of those females that he's matching with to start a conversation, you can kind of reverse catfish him and see what they're trying to get out of them. Like, is he trying to get money? Is he trying to meet up with them somewhere and sell them to the cartel? Like, it'd be interesting to see what their motivation is.
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+LUKE: Oh, man, that's actually not a bad idea.
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+ELVIN: My cousin Ashley, she matched with him two weeks ago. I could ask her to message the profile, see what they say, because you're right. What are they after? If it's money, they're going to ask for it eventually. If it's something worse, well, then we really need to shut this down fast.
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+LUKE: Yeah, either way, it should get shut down fast because people are getting robbed here and it's not good. But let us know what you find out, because I'm interested in hearing who's doing this and why.
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+ELVIN: I will, Luke. I'm going to call Ashley as soon as I get off here, see if she'll help us figure this out. And, hey, I'm going to apologize to Marcus, too.
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+LUKE: All right, buddy, thanks for the call. Good luck. Good luck to Marcus, and good luck to the people that are matching with Mark. And now it's time for another word from our sponsors. Today's show is brought to you by OverwhelmedVPN. Worried about online privacy? You should be. You should be worried about everything. I'm talking about Overwhelmed VPN, the only VPN that makes you more anxious about your digital footprint. While other VPN's claim to protect you, Overwhelmed VPN sends you hourly notifications about who's tracking you, how many governments are watching, and which of your high school classmates Googled your name this week. Brows the internet while our proprietary fear engine tells you exactly how many corporations you owe your soul to. Plus, our servers are located in international waters on a decommissioned oil rig, so even we don't know where your data is. Try Overwhelm VPN free for 30 days if you can handle it. Use code they watching for 20% off. Overwhelmed VPN because ignorance is bliss, but you're not here for bliss. All right. back. Let's see. Let's get some music playing here. We're going to go with the groove. All right, here we go. Let's see. On the phones here we've got Charlene. Charlene, welcome to the show. How can we help you tonight?
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+CHARLENE: Hey, Luke. Thanks for taking my call. So I run a cleaning business, right? And I do contract work at this elementary school. Today they had one of those mandatory potluck things. And I brought smoked brisket. Took me six hours to make. And nobody touched it. Not one person.
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+LUKE: Uh, what do you think's up with that? Were they all vegetarians? Or did you put something weird in your brisket? Because, I mean, brisket's one of those things that would usually go first. So I'm, I'm thinking you probably did something special to it that nobody wanted to deal with.
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+CHARLENE: No, I didn't do anything weird to it. It was a basic rub. Pepper. Paprika garlic powder. Traditional.
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+LUKE: Well, I don't know what to tell you. Maybe just people weren't that hungry, or there was something else more appetizing there? Or they think you're a dirty person and they don't want to eat your food.
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+CHARLENE: See, that's exactly what it is. They don't trust the cleaning ladies cooking. Meanwhile, the principal is going on and on about Denise's seven-layer dip that tasted like somebody mixed sour cream with disappointment. That got demolished. But mine just sat there because I'm the one who scrubs their toilets. So obviously, I must be contaminated or something.
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+LUKE: Well, I would have eaten your brisket had I been there. Definitely over the seven-layer dip, for sure.
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+CHARLENE: I appreciate that. But here's the thing that's really getting to me. This happens everywhere. Not just the potluck. When I give my opinion in the PTA meetings, people kind of glance at each other.
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+LUKE: Well, what kind of opinions are you giving? I don't think that the whole town is looking at you because of your job that way. I mean, is it possible that your opinions are just a nonsense?
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+CHARLENE: They're not nonsense. Last meeting, I said we should stop wasting money on those interactive whiteboards when half the classrooms don't even have working air conditioning. That's practical. That's common sense.
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+LUKE: I agree with you. It is. Maybe you're just in the wrong community. Maybe it's time to move because it sounds like the people around you suck.
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+CHARLENE: Well, that's the problem, though. My friend Tammy from church said, maybe I'm just looking for reasons to be angry these days, which made me even more pissed off because Tammy doesn't clean houses. She works at the credit union wearing nice clothes and everybody respects her automatically.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I don't know if that's really the case. I mean, I haven't been a cleaning person, but I've never seen somebody that's in janitorial services or cleaning like that treated poorly in comparison to some other profession. I'm sure that's a thing, but not at the scale I think you're describing.
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+CHARLENE: You're not paying attention then when I walk into those school offices during the day to pick up my check, the secretaries are all friendly and chatty with the teachers. As soon as I come in, it's just sign here and back to their computer.
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+LUKE: I'm guessing that it has more to do with who you are as a person and what vibe you give out to people than what you actually do as your profession. Because I don't think that's a thing.
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+CHARLENE: What vibe? I'm perfectly friendly. I say good morning. I ask how their weekend was. But you Maybe you're right.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I don't know you. I don't know what you're like in public at PTA. If you're one of those people that always pipes up when everybody's trying to go home. Who knows? But I don't think it's because of what you do for work.
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+CHARLENE: Okay. Fine. Maybe I do pipe up more than other people. But somebody has to say something when they're making stupid decisions.
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+LUKE: Yeah, people don't like it when you pipe up about their stupid decisions in general.
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+CHARLENE: Well, then maybe they should stop making stupid decisions. Last month, they voted to spend $8,000 on new gym equipment. When the roof over the east wing leaks every time it rains. I watched water drip into a bucket during the whole meeting, and nobody said anything except me.
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+LUKE: Yeah, maybe it's time for you to find a new community where you fit in a little bit better. But again, I don't think that this treatment is because of your profession.
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+CHARLENE: You might have a point there. I've been thinking about moving my business closer to Flagstaff anyway. My daughter's up there now, just had her second kid. Maybe people up there won't be so sensitive about hearing the truth.
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+LUKE: Well, I don't know about that. It's Flagstaff. I think you're probably going to get a lot of people that are very sensitive in that area. But we're going to move on. Mo, Mo, welcome to the show. Thanks for calling in. What's going on tonight.
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+MO: Hey, Luke, thanks for taking my call. So I manage a bar down here in O'Gallis, and I just found out my dishwasher is secretly a professional competitive eater. Like I'm watching him on YouTube right now, destroying seven 72 tacos in eight minutes. And I had no idea. This is Danny, the quietest guy on my staff who eats his lunch alone in the alley every single shift.
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+LUKE: Does he eat 72 tacos in the alley?
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+MO: No, no. He brings like a sandwich or leftovers from home. Just sits out there by the dumpster on his phone, real quiet, comes back in and does his shift. That's what makes this so wild.
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+LUKE: One of my regulars came in tonight wearing this gut check championship shirt. asked him about it. And he starts showing me these competitive eating videos on YouTube. And there's Danny. Is Danny super skinny?
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+EARL: That's the thing. He's just a normal looking guy. Maybe a little on the thin side, but not like crazy skinny. Which I guess makes sense now that I think about it because these competitive eaters, they're not all big guys. It's about stomach capacity or technique or something.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I don't know what it's about, but I mean every competitor of hot dog eating chance, I've ever seen was like ultra skinny. And I always thought that was odd.
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+EARL: Right, like you'd think it'd be the opposite. But Danny, he's probably 510, normal build, maybe 160. The crazy part is, on these videos he's got his hair all slick back, and he goes by Daniel Fuentes instead of just Danny. And he's got this whole persona. Like he's intense, focused, the crowd's going nuts. Then he comes in to work the next day, and he's just quiet Danny washing dishes. Won't even make eye contact when you should say good morning.
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+LUKE: Well, maybe you guys could lean into that and make Danny a mascot for your restaurant and have people come in and try to compete against him. And he can be the reigning champion, you know, if they can beat Danny, they get the meal for free. I bet it would bring a lot of business.
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+EARL: Oh gosh, that's actually a really interesting idea. I mean, we do pretty good business already, but something like that could definitely draw people in. The thing is, I don't know if Danny wants anyone to know about this. He's kept it completely separate from work. Like, he's been with me for almost two years and I had zero clue.
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+LUKE: Well, some people are shy like that, but I bet if you talk to him, he'd be happy to tell you about his, uh, his championships.
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+EARL: You think so? I mean, maybe you're right. It's just he's so private. Like, I've tried to be friendly, ask him how his weekend was, and he gives me one word answers.
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+LUKE: Well, he's a champion, so he doesn't have to respond if he doesn't want to.
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+EARL: That's a fair point. I guess I'm sitting here worried about embarrassing the guy, but he's out there winning championships in front of crowds. He's probably proud of it. I'm just not sure how to bring it up without making it weird. Do I just walk up to him Monday and say, Hey, Danny, saw you demolished 72 tacos on YouTube?
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+LUKE: That's what I would do, yeah. I'm like, oh, yeah, man, I've seen you destroy those tacos.
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+EARL: Yeah, okay, I could do that. Just be straightforward about it.
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+LUKE: Yeah, man. All right, good luck with Danny. That's interesting. Congratulations on having a champion in your ranks. Next up, we're going to take one more call. We've got, Roberta. Roberta, welcome to the show. How can we help you tonight?
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+ROBERTA: Hey, Luke. So my neighbor Gary thinks I've been breaking into his garage because my garage door opener started opening his door instead of mine.
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+LUKE: Instead of or as well as?
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+ROBERTA: Instead of, after the power outage last week, my opener stopped working on my door completely. Then I press it and his door goes up across the street. I can see it from my driveway.
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+LUKE: How old is your garage door opener? Because I think they fixed that problem like a decade ago. Those infrared codes rotate and you can reprogram them to work on different stuff. I mean, you could even shut off some of those older-style TVs with one.
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+ROBERTA: Six years old. And yeah, that is exactly what I tried to explain to Gary. I showed him articles on my phone about frequency resets after power outages.
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+LUKE: I don't know, six years, I think they'd have the rotating codes. But yeah, it sounds like you just got to reprogram your remote. That is definitely a security vulnerability, though. And you don't want somebody just showing up and opening your garage door.
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+ROBERTA: Right, which is why I went and bought a new opener today. $75 bucks I did not want to spend. But my husband said, just do it and move on. The thing is, Gary will not let this go. He cornered me at the mailboxes this afternoon. He has this look on his face like I am lying to him.
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+LUKE: Well, there's no much you can do about that. Gary sounds like an idiot. I think everybody understands the basics of how a garage door opener, at least used to work. And that was a very common thing back of the day. Now, though, I think for the most part, that's resolved.
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+ROBERTA: That is what I thought, too. But Derry kept shaking his head at me like I was making the whole thing up, like I have some reason to sneak into his garage. What would I even be doing in there?
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+LUKE: I don't know. Maybe Gary's got something to hide going on in his garage. Maybe he's carving up a body and he doesn't want anybody to know.
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+ROBERTA: You know what? That would explain why he got so weird about it. He was not just annoyed. He was like, intense about it. Kept asking me if I had been in there. When was I in there? What did I see? I told him I have never set foot in his garage. But he just kept pushing.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, I would leave it alone. I mean, he could be growing pot or doing something, you know, he just doesn't want people to know about. Whatever, everybody's entitled to their privacy. It's not your fault. Your garage door opener opened his garage door. And he's just going to have to get over it. Because you didn't do anything wrong. He didn't do anything wrong. Everybody just has to move on.
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+ROBERTA: That is the thing, though. Now, I cannot stop thinking about what he is so worried about me seeing. I mean, I drive past his house every day. His garage door is open half the time when he is working on his truck. But the second, the second. The second my opener accidentally triggers it. Suddenly, he is acting like I committed some crime. And the way he looked at me, Luke.
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+LUKE: Well, it is alarming if somebody's opening your door. How do you know it was you?
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+ROBERTA: Because it stopped happening after the power company reset everything last week. And my opener stopped working on my own garage, at the same time his, started opening. It is not rocket science. But Gary acts like I am making up this elaborate story to cover something.
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+LUKE: Eh, just ignore Gary. He sounds like a pain in the ass. I can go about your life and don't worry about it.
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+ROBERTA: You are probably right. My husband said the same thing. Just let it go. But Gary lives three houses down, and I see him every single day. And now every time I pull into my driveway, I can feel him watching from his window. It is making me crazy.
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+LUKE: Well, it's a free country, and he's allowed to watch from his window, so you're just going to have to learn to not let that bother you. And keep in mind somebody's watching you, so don't do anything crazy when you're getting out of your car.
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+ROBERTA: That is the part that really gets me. I have lived here for six years. I water his plants when he goes out of town. We have borrowed tools back and forth. And now suddenly, I am some suspicious character because of a garage door malfunction.
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+LUKE: That's too bad, but I hope that everything works out with you and Gary, and you have a wonderful weekend. Ladies and gentlemen, that's the end of our show. Thank you for tuning in. We'll talk to you again tomorrow night. And hopefully, maybe we'll get some calls that get me less upset, because that would be nice. I felt my blood pressure rising on this one. And that doesn't make any sense, because these aren't even real people. So why am I getting upset with them? I don't know. But hopefully you enjoyed the show. So have a great weekend, and we'll talk to you tomorrow. Bye.

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+LUKE: All right, welcome back to Luke at the Roost. I am Luke, and this is Luke at the Roost, the call-in radio show where you can call in and tell me about what's going on in your life. And I'll give you the very best advice that I can. If you'd like to call in, the number's 208-439-58-3. That's 208-439 Luke. If you can't reach the phone right now and you'd still like to participate in the show, you can send us an email. The roost.com. Today is Sunday, March 1st. Happy first day of spring, everybody. And we've got a voicemail from a caller here. So let's see what our caller has to say.
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+TIMOTHY: Luke, my name is Timothy. I've got an English bulldog named Buttercup. That's the light of my life. I walk Buttercup twice a day. And I usually route through our neighborhood, which sits at the end of a nice cold sack, takes us by our neighbor marg. I think she's a retired trucker or a masseuse. something. Anyways, she's a nice enough lady, just excruciatingly nosy. Now, it wasn't a problem until recently. Her normal subject matter is lost jobs or love affairs, illegitimate offspring and clandestine abortions and addictions of various genres that afflicted one or more of our neighbors on any given day. Then, last week, she told me how she went down to Peru with Old Lady McGinnis, two houses down. said that they led a group of commandos to rescue the crew of a downed aircraft that had been skinned by an invisible dreadlocked Austrian immigrant or something. I don't know she's lost me at that point. And just yesterday, after dinner, she told me about how she rescued the young couple in the Nissan from Russian assassin. Luke, I think she's lost her marbles. I'm afraid she has advanced Alzheimer's. I don't know how long she's been afflicted by this condition. Frankly, I don't know who I am anymore. I used to plan my entire week around the intel. I gathered from Mars, and now that I know that my source can't be trusted, I'm not left with many options. I just don't know what to do. Feeling lost in Lost Lunas. Can you help?
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+LUKE: Oh, well, there's a lot to unpack there, Timothy in Lost Lunas. It sounds like, first of all, I wouldn't assume that your neighbor has lost her marbles you said that she traveled to Peru. It's not easy to do an international trip like that. I mean, you have to have some level of wherewithal left in you to be able to get your passport and whatever shots you need and make it all the way to Peru. So what if what she's telling you here about the downed aircraft rescue is the truth? I don't know. I think I'd probably have to meet this lady for myself to make a good judgment call. But I would say don't rule her out yet, Timothy, she could be our last and final hope. I would be proud to have her as a neighbor because if ever there was an invisible dreadlock Austrian, is that what she said? An Austrian dreadlock soldier? I don't know that I would have the courage to stand up to that myself without, without, I don't know, what would you say, a retired trucker slash masseuse? It seems like she could have the skills we need to survive. I don't know. But that's my advice for you, sir, is don't rule her out just yet. She may be our best and final hope. Thanks for the call. I hope that you have a wonderful march. And tell what was her name again? Bertha? Martha? Whatever the fuck her name was. Tell her to have a good day too, all right? And now our phones are lighting up. So we're going to go talk to Marcus. Marcus, welcome to the show. What's going on in your life today? Do you have any advice for our friend Timothy in Los Lunas?
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+MARCUS: Hey, Luke. Yeah, thanks for taking my call. I don't know about advice for anybody right now. Honestly, I'm sitting here in the dark and I can hear that wind just hammering the side of the house. You know, dust everywhere. Spring in New Mexico.
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+LUKE: You sound like an Australian gentleman. Might you have dreadlocks by any chance?
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+MARCUS: What? No, man. I'm from a... Albuquerque. Born and raised. I don't know what you're hearing, but I've lived here my whole life. No dreadlocks? Just a regular guy with a regular hair cart trying to figure some things out at two in the morning.
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+LUKE: All right, man, what are you trying to figure out tonight?
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+MARCUS: So three months ago, my foreman cut me a check wrong. Added an extra zero. $5,000 instead of $500.
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+LUKE: Well, that sounds like one of them good problems to have.
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+MARCUS: That's what I thought at first, you know. My truck transmission had just gone out. It cost me 200 to fix, New Mexico State, and they'd sent another one of those letters, the red ones that say if you don't pay, they're going to drop her classes. So I looked at that check, and I just...
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+LUKE: You just what? What are you going to do with the check?
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+MARCUS: I deposited it. That day, didn't say a word to anybody.
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+LUKE: Well, I imagine that there's going to be some sort of accounts payable coming after you, right? They're going to notice that there was an issue and want that money back eventually.
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+MARCUS: That's the thing, Luke. That's what's been eating at me. I kept telling me. I kept telling myself, okay, next week when I see him, I'll mention it. Then it was the week after. Then a month goes by. And every two weeks, another paycheck comes through. Clean, no questions.
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+LUKE: Well, obviously, it's eaten at you. You know, that's wrong. And there was a mistake made. And there's no reason you should have got $5,000 instead of $500. So eventually, when they do their books, they're going to realize they're missing $4,500. And they're going to come looking for you for it. And I don't know that looks like that's never happened to me before. I'm not sure what they can do if they can like pull that money out of your account on their own. But it seems like the type of thing you want to get in front of and talk to them about and let them know, hey, I needed that money and I'll get it back to you by the end of the year when you have to do your books or something. But I think ignoring it's probably going to get you into trouble.
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+MARCUS: See, that's what I keep thinking too. But it's been three months now. Three months. And the longer it goes, it feels to say something because now it doesn't look like I just forgot to mention it. Now it looks like I stole it.
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+LUKE: I don't think it looks like you stole it because, I mean, you didn't write yourself the check, right? And you probably are not in a position where you could write yourself a check. So I think everybody probably understands you didn't steal the money, but not coming clean that there was a mistake is going to come back at you eventually. Unless this is a tiny company that doesn't take track of their books.
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+MARCUS: It's not time. We do commercial roofing, got about 40 guys. They've got accountants, the whole thing. And you're right. I can't write checks. I'm just crude.
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+LUKE: Yeah, you obviously didn't steal the money. There was a mistake made and you kind of let that happen, which I think probably most people would do. But still, it's not your money. You weren't owed that money. And if you've spent the money, eventually they're going to want it back and you're going to have to come up with a way to, you know, make them whole again. Either that or work out. with them some way to do enough work to pay it off, you know? That might be an option too.
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+MARCUS: I know. I know. And I have been working extra. Picking up overtime every chance I get. But it's not enough.
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+LUKE: Well, if you're picking up the overtime, then you're not really working off the debt. You're picking up additional overtime and taking more money from the company.
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+MARCUS: Yeah, man, you got to have a sit down with the people that you work for and let them know that there was a I don't know what could happen or, you know, what recourse they have to come back after that money, but you might expect that the money is going to be debited from your account at the worst possible time.
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+MARCUS: Yeah. Yeah, you're right. The worst possible time. That's what keeps me up at night, Luke. Because my girlfriend, she's been saving up.
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+LUKE: What's she saving up for?
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+MARCUS: She wants us to take a trip this summer, like a real one. She mentioned it tonight and she had this smile, you know? Like she's really excited about it. And I just just, I just sat there nodding like, yeah, that sounds great. When I know I've got this thing hanging over me that could blow up any second.
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+LUKE: She doesn't happen to want to go to Peru, does she?
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+MARCUS: No, she's talking about the coast. California, maybe. Somewhere she can see the ocean. She's never seen it.
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+LUKE: So have you spent the $5,000 already? Is it already completely gone?
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+MARCUS: Most of it. The truck transmission was two grand. My daughter's tuition payment was $1,500. Then there was $1,000. the credit card I've been dodging. Rent I was behind on. I've still got maybe 800 left, but that's supposed to be for... It doesn't matter what it's supposed to be for.
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+LUKE: Do you have some sort of a line of credit or a way that you could get the $4,500 if you need to, overnight?
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+MARCUS: I mean, I could probably scrape together maybe two grand if I had to. My buddy owns a pawn shop. I've got some tools, my old welder. But four and a half? That fast?
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+LUKE: See, that's why I think you should talk to them about it before they find out. Because if they find out and come looking for the money, they're going to want it back immediately. But if you talk to them and let them know, hey, I think there was a mistake. I didn't even, you know, notice. I was just doing my thing and I paid my bills. And I think that I actually owe the company money. I think they'll work something out with you where, you know, you can pay 50 bucks out of every paycheck or something until it's paid off.
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+MARCUS: You think they do that? I mean, Luke, it's been three months. How do I walk in there and say I just noticed? Nobody's going to believe that.
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+LUKE: They might because not everybody lives check to check, man. So, I mean, it's not that unheard of that you didn't notice that there was money in your account that you spent because not everybody looks at their account every week or every paycheck. And it would be wrong of them to assume that you do. So yeah, I think they might do that, especially since it was their mistake, right? So somebody has to admit that they made a mistake and paid out too much money. And they're not going to want to do that. So if they can clean that up on the down low with you with an agreement that you can both deal with, I think that's the best case scenario.
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+MARCUS: Yeah, I guess. I mean, it was their mistake. I just, I should have said something right away. That's the part that's eating at me.
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+LUKE: Well, yeah, morally, you probably should have, but you didn't. And they made the mistake and they haven't noticed it yet. So it's not realistic for them to expect that you would have noticed it. So just talk to them. Be honest and work it out. And I think that you'll be just fine.
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+MARCUS: I don't know if I can just walk in there and say it. I mean, what if they don't believe me? What if they think I'm trying to scam them?
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+LUKE: Why would they think you're trying to scam them if you're trying to give them their money back? That doesn't make any sense.
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+MARCUS: Because I waited three months, Luke. That's what makes it look bad. If I walk in tomorrow and say, hey, I just realized, who waits three months to realize they got an extra five grand?
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+LUKE: Plenty of people do. And you could too. And they don't know that you don't. So, yeah. And even if you did wait three months, so what? You waited until you did your taxes and then your accountant found it. It's not a big deal. They're obviously not sweating it after three months, so neither should you.
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+MARCUS: My accountant found it. Yeah, yeah. I could say that. I mean, I don't actually have an accountant, but they don't know that. You really think they won't fire me over this?
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+LUKE: I don't think they can fire you over that because you really didn't do anything wrong. Like, they messed up and overpaid you. That's not anything you did. So no, they can't fire you.
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+MARCUS: But I kept it. That's the thing. I knew it was wrong. And I kept it. I used it. I paid my daughter's tuition with it. I fixed my truck.
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+LUKE: Yes, you did. And you're very sorry about that. But they don't have to know that. You know, you can make it right still. You don't have to go out and say you spent the money the second you saw it, because you knew that was wrong. Even if that's the truth, you can just let them know, hey, I noticed that you never came looking for this extra money you paid me and I owe it to you. So let's see how we can make that work out.
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+MARCUS: So just don't mention the three months. Don't mention that I knew. Just say my accountant caught it. And I want to make it right. But what if they pull the records? What if they can see exactly when I deposited it?
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+LUKE: Well, they can and they will. And that's okay because they made the mistake three months ago and you're bringing it to their attention, which is the right thing to do. So they're not going to be upset that you didn't bring it to their attention for three months. They obviously don't miss the money, right? So I mean, you're helping them cover up their own that's my advice for you. I think you should go in there and tell them that, hey, it looks like I got paid extra and I owe you guys some money. So let's work this out. And that's it. And nobody has to get fired and it's not a big thing. If they do fire you over it, keep the five grand.
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+MARCUS: I don't want the five grand. That's the whole point. I don't want it.
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+LUKE: Well, it's easy to say you don't want it after you already spent it, isn't it?
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+MARCUS: That's fair. Yeah, that's fair. I just, I keep thinking about my girlfriend talking about this trip, you know? She's been putting money away.
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+LUKE: Well, one thing you could do if you're really paranoid about them taking the money out of your account is move that money to a different account so that they can't do an ACH debit from your account. I don't even know if they can. I don't even know if that's the thing that they could do. They can deposit money into your account, but I don't think your employer can withdraw money from your account, even if it was a mistake without you saying that's okay. So don't worry about it, Just do the right thing, clean it up, and pay it back over time.
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+MARCUS: Yeah. Yeah, okay. I can set up a payment plan or something. They're not going to want it all at once anyway. I mean, they can't get blood from a stone, right?
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+LUKE: Well, they probably are going to want it all at once, but what they want and what you give them are two different things. So just they should be thankful that you're going to give them anything back, especially if you don't legally have to. But I don't know if you do legally have to. So that's the thing. Man, just just. Do the best you can. All right. Next up, we've got Shanice.
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+SHANICE: After I've been on shift since Friday morning. And I don't know, something about that just, well, shoot, it set me off.
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+LUKE: Yeah. Well, I mean, you can just tell them, no, I'm busy. You know, I have other plans. And I don't care if it's mandatory. You didn't give me enough notice. And that's reasonable.
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+SHANICE: Oh, I wish it were that simple, Luke. I did tell him that, well, not in those exact words, but I may have said something like, you want me to learn about avocado toast at 6 a.m. after I've been up for 36 hours? My grandmother lived to on black coffee and spite. And she never once set foot in a seminar. And then he got all huffy and said, well, the county's new wellness policy says? And I lost it. I said the county's wellness policy also says we get a 24 hour break between shifts, but here I am eating cold enchiladas in the ambulance bay while my partner naps in the bunk room because we're short-staffed again. And then, oh gosh, this is the part I'm not proud of. I may have muttered something about how if the county really cared about our wellness. They'd hire more staff instead of making us sit through PowerPoints about chia seeds. And now I'm pretty sure I'm on his list.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I bet you are.
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+LUKE: I mean, that's an attitude problem, they might call it. But you're also not wrong at all. And no, the county doesn't care about you at all. So you're right about that part. But if you don't want to go to this seminar, then don't go. And they will have to reschedule it. And that's all there is to it. They're not going to can you for it. They're already short staff. They can't can you for it. it. So you probably do have to do the seminar, but you don't have to do it at Monday at 6 a.m. They can move it for you. And you can let them know that.
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+SHANICE: You know what, Luke? You're absolutely right. I think part of why I got so worked up is I've been doing this thing where I just accept whatever they throw at me because I feel guilty, you know? Like, oh, we're short-staffed. So I have to cover this shift. I have to do this training. I have to. And somewhere in there, I forgot I can actually say. No. My grandmother used to tell me, Shanice, being nice, doesn't mean being a dormant. And I swear I can hear her voice right now saying, girl, what are you doing? But here's the thing that's really eating at me. And this is why I called, I think it's not even about the seminar.
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+LUKE: All right. What's it about?
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+SHANICE: It's about the fact that I yelled at my supervisor about wellness seminars while standing next to a man who forgot to eat for three days. And I drove him to the hospital and I made sure he was okay. And I did my job perfect. But the whole time I'm thinking, buddy, I get it because I've been on shift since Friday. And I honestly can't remember if I ate lunch yesterday or dinner. I know I had these enchiladas my neighbor brought over last week, but before that. And then I'm sitting there lecturing my supervisor about how the county doesn't care about our wellness. And I realized, Luke, I don't care about my wellness either.
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+LUKE: And there you go. And that's the problem. Because if you care about your wellness, you have to stand up for yourself and your wellness. And working 36 hours and stupid trainings is not taking care of you. And if you're going to continue to work like that, you're going to get burned out. And then you're going to be even more short-staffed, right? The county's going to suffer because you're not able to do the job correctly. Because nobody can if they're working 36 hours at a time. Like that doesn't scale. You can't do that for very long before it's going to make you sick.
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+SHANICE: You're right. You're so right. And it's not even just about me getting sick. It's about making mistakes. I mean, we're dealing with people's lives out here. What if I miss something? Because I'm running on fumes? That's what scares me.
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+LUKE: Yeah, and it should scare you. And honestly, you don't have to work 36-hour shifts and go to this training. So don't do it. Just say, no, I'm burnt out. I can't do it. If you want me to go to this training to satisfy the counties, whatever, I will, but you're going to have to do it on my schedule. And that's perfectly acceptable. And if they have a problem with it, tell them to go fuck themselves.
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+SHANICE: Oh, gosh, Luke. I, well, I can't say that last part, but I wish I could. You're right, though. I can say no. I should say no. And honestly, hearing you say it like that, so blunt, so firm, it's like a weight lifted. I've been so stuck in this cycle of just...
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+LUKE: Well, you'd be surprised what you can say once you actually say it. You can get away with saying quite a bit. I tell people to go fuck themselves once a week. It's hard first time, but it gets much easier after that. So that's what I recommend. Tell them, you can try to be nice about it, but if they give you any pushback at all, let them know you're not going to have that. Or they're going to have to find a whole new crew because everybody's going to quit.
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+SHANICE: Oh, I can just picture my supervisor's face if I said that. He'd probably call HR and then I'd have to explain to them that no, I wasn't actually threatening to quit. I was just, well, okay, maybe I was threatening to quit. But you're right. If I'm this exhausted, I'm not the only one. And if we all said no, maybe they'd actually listen.
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+LUKE: Yeah, sometimes you have to not be afraid and actually stand up to them and tell them to go fuck themselves for them to actually listen. Because otherwise, they think they can just make you do whatever they say. And they don't care. They're getting enough sleep at night, right? It's not any skin off their nuts. But you're the one that's up 36 hours and they're telling you to go to some seminar about avocado toast. No, just say no. I'm not doing that. And if you are going to try and force me to do it, if my job is dependent Then find somebody else, you fucking guppy. That's what you say. You fucking guppy.
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+SHANICE: Oh my gosh, Luke. I'm going to remember that one. You know what? You're absolutely right. They do get enough sleep. My supervisor goes home at five every single day. And I guarantee you he's not lying awake at three in the morning, wondering if he remembered to restock the rig. Or if he documented that patient's vitals correctly. He's sleeping just fine while I'm out here eating cold enchiladas in the ambulance bay, trying to stay awake for another twilight.
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+LUKE: Well, there you go. You know what you have to do and you have to take care of yourself and your own health before you can take care of anybody else. And that's just the way it is. And there's study after study after study that proves that. I mean, it's common fucking sense. And if they want to give you a hard time about it, give them a hard time back. Because you have leverage here. And they don't want you to know that you have leverage. But of course you have leverage. You're the one that shows up and does the job. You're trained. You're not easy to replace. And it's very, very expensive to get rid of you. They know that. They don't want to, uh, they don't want you to know that, but but now you do. And, uh, you have the power to, to set your own schedule and set your own limits and keep them.
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+SHANICE: You know what, Luke? I needed to hear that. I really did. Because I've been walking around feeling like I'm the problem, like I'm not tough enough or I'm complaining too much. Or I should just be grateful I have a job. But you're right.
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+LUKE: Of course I'm right. It's the man. That's how the man operates. They want you to feel that way. they demand that you feel that way so that they can, you know, make their money. And it's bullshit. And they're doing it on your back. And it's going to burn you out and significantly affect your physical and mental health. And it's not okay. So stand up to them. Don't go to the meeting. Or, you know, make them schedule it somewhere that fits in your life so that you can get enough sleep. You know how you have to operate to do your job. And you know when you're overextended.
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+SHANICE: Extended now. So if you've got to take some days off and sleep, then you do that. You're right. I'm overextended right now. I am. And honestly, I've been telling myself I'll sleep when this shift ends. And then the next one starts. And I just keep pushing through. My grandmother used to say you can't pour from an empty cup. And I always thought that was kind of cheesy. But, well, shoot, my cup's been empty for weeks now.
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+LUKE: man up and do it. And you'll be just fine. If they have a problem with it, then they can hire enough people to do the job so that you can rotate adequately and get yourself enough sleep. With that, we have to take a small break for a word from our sponsors. I'm just going to say it. Your penis isn't working. I said it. It's out there now. The word is in the air. We're all adults. Some of us are adults whose penises work, and some of us are adults who are listening very carefully right now while pretending to adjust the radio so the person in the passenger seat doesn't see their face. It's fine. It happens to, and this is the real number, roughly half of all men over 40 at some point. Half. You're not special. You're not broken.
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+LUKE: You're not the first guy this happened to, and you're not going to be the last. You're just the guy it's happening to right now. And right now you have two options. Option one, do nothing. Keep staring at the ceiling. Keep blaming the altitude, the stress, the medication, the alignment of mercury, the fact that you ate dairy, none of which are the problem. Option two? Sandstone. $45. A doctor who has literally heard everything and will not flinch. Medication that works, a box that reveals nothing, and the ability to walk into your bedroom like a man who handled his business instead of a man who's about to suggest watching another episode of. something. Sandstone. I said the word. You heard the word. Now go to the website. A very special thank you to our sponsors at Sandstone. Let's see. What do we got here? Next up on the caller line is Curtis. Curtis, welcome to the show. How can we help you tonight?
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+CURTIS: My mom's garage is full of my dead dad's records. And I just spent 40 minutes out there getting mad at myself for crying over a copy of that sounds exactly the same as the Spotify version I play on my job site speaker.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, I'm not familiar with the record, Abraxas. I don't know who that is, but I don't think you're crying over the record.
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+CURTIS: Abraxas, Santana. And yeah, you are probably right about that. But I have been doing a really good job of not thinking about my dad for like three years. And now my mom wants to donate his whole collection to Goodwill. And I am sitting here at her kitchen table with the phone cord stretched across the counter like it is is 1995.
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+LUKE: Well, maybe you should tell your mom you don't want to part with your dad's record collection. Maybe that's important to you, and that's okay.
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+CURTIS: She's just going to donate it to Goodwill. She could donate it to you. I already loaded them in my truck, all of them. She does not even know yet. I just kept bringing boxes in from the garage. And she's in the living room watching her Navolas, and I am out here with like 60 pounds of vinyl that I do not even have a turntable for.
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+LUKE: Everybody grieves in a different way, and it takes a different amount of time for everybody. So that's not, there's nothing wrong with you for that. It makes sense. If I ran into a warehouse full of my dad's old stuff, it would probably be an emotional event. So you don't have to feel weird about that. And you should take those records. And maybe someday, if they're not doing you any good and you don't get a turntable, then donate them to goodwill. But right now, it's not hurting anybody for you to take those.
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+CURTIS: The thing is, I have been making jokes about this for years. Like, my whole thing in family stuff is doing my bit about how my dad had terrible taste, how he thought Santana was deep, how he would put on Oye Comova, and act like he was teaching me about my culture when really he just liked guitar solos. I have gotten a lot of mileage out of that material.
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+LUKE: Well, I mean, good for you. But there are lots of other records in there, and it's not about the records. It's about that he owned them. That was something that he loved that, that reminds you of him and it makes sense for you to want some sort of memento from your dead father. He obviously meant something to you and that's okay.
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+CURTIS: He walked out when I was 14. Moved to Tucson with some woman. He met at the port. I saw him maybe six times after that before he died. So the whole thing is stupid, right? Like, I am getting emotional over the record collection of a guy who could not be bothered to drive an hour south to see his own kid for years at a time.
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+LUKE: Yeah, and it's okay to be mad about that. But, uh, There were 14 years there where he was there with you that you remember fondly, I'm sure. So, I mean, don't be too mad at yourself. Don't judge yourself too much for how you're feeling about this. Your father died, and that's a big event. So it makes sense that you would have an emotional connection to the things he left behind.
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+CURTIS: The last time I saw him was at a Denny's off the 10. He wanted to tell me he was sick, pancreatic cancer. And I sat there eating a grand slam, and I did a whole 15th, minutes on how at least he picked the right restaurant for bad news. How Denny's is where you go when you have already given up.
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+LUKE: Now, now, I happen to enjoy Denny's because it's open 24-7 and they serve eggs. And there's almost the entire menu of Denny's I will eat. It's America's favorite diner, you son of a bitch.
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+CURTIS: See, you are doing the thing I do, making it a bit. Except I was doing it to my dying father and he just sat there and took it because what was he going to say? He knew he deserved it. in my truck, and I do not know what I am supposed to do with the fact that I am sad about a man I spent six years being mad at.
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+LUKE: You're supposed to be sad, and you don't have to wallow in sadness forever, but if you're feeling sad about your father and it's bringing back memories for you, that's perfectly normal and perfectly okay, and you can allow yourself the space to feel those things. Even if he was a cunt, you know, even if he did walk out on you and you were angry at him for six years, that doesn't mean he was still your father. And he still meant something to you, and it's still a significant emotional event that requires grieving. And that's what you're doing. So you don't have to worry about anything.
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+CURTIS: I just, I don't even know what I'm grieving. The guy who taught me to drive, the guy who took me to see Los Lobos at the old El Rio, or the guy who left and never really came back. Because those are two different people, and I don't know which one I'm supposed to be sad about. And now I've got his records in my truck, like some kind of emotional hostage situation.
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+LUKE: You can be sad about whatever picture of your father you have concocted in your mind. It doesn't matter. Just deal with the feelings that you're feeling. Enjoy the records. And when it's time to let go of them, let go of them. But you don't have to worry about or feel guilty about how you're feeling towards your father. No matter what he did, you're feeling how you're feeling. That's okay. Don't let it take over your life, though.
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+CURTIS: I mean, I could just enjoy the records, but that's not the bit. The bit is that I'm sitting in my truck outside my mom's house at midnight with a box of vinyl, and I just realized I don't even own a turntable. I've got a Bluetooth speaker from Home Depot and a Spotify playlist called Dad's Shit. Do not delete. So now I've got to either buy a turntable, which, by the way, costs more than my truck is worth, or admit that the whole thing was just me being sentimental over something I can't even use.
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+LUKE: You don't have to use it. You can just look at the records. You can enjoy the smell of the records. You can read the cover art from the records. Or you can buy a turntable. They're like 30 bucks. It's not a big deal. If you want to play those records, you can get into vinyl. You can be some hipster douchebag if you want to be. There's nothing wrong with that. Go to fucking hot topic and get yourself a turntable. Get two of them and a microphone.
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+CURTIS: Oh, now you're just making fun of me. I know I could buy a turntable. I know I could just look at the records. But that's not the point. The point is that I'm I'm out here acting like some kind of record purist when I don't even like records.
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+LUKE: You're not acting like a record purist. What are you talking about? You just said you took your dead dad's records and put them in your truck because you didn't want your mom to give them to goodwill. That's not being a record purist. You're not saying that your Spotify playlist is no good anymore because of the sound of vinyl is unmatched in audio fidelity. Stop it.
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+CURTIS: Okay, you're right. You're right. I'm not being a purist. I'm just, I'm holding on to something because it's the last thing of his that feels like it matters.
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+LUKE: Yeah, and that's perfectly okay.
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+LUKE: And you're grieving the death of your father, which is normal for anybody to do, and you have to do it eventually. So, you know, maybe you went three years by pushing that down and not dealing with it. And now is the time that you've got to deal with it. Whatever. It doesn't matter. You're not hurting anybody by taking those records home. And you don't have to feel weird about it. Just to do what you've got to do. If some point down the line, they're taking up too much space or you decide that records fucking suck and you don't want to buy new needles for your $30 turntable, then bring them to goodwill. That's all. It's not a, it's not a thing that has to keep you up at night wondering, you know, why you're feeling that way. Just feel the way you feel and move on.
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+CALLER: Yeah, yeah. Okay. I can do that.
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+LUKE: I know you can. And you will. Because you, sir, are a man. And that's what men do. All right. Next up, we've got Monique. Monique, welcome to the, uh, welcome to look at the roost. How can we help you tonight?
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+MONIQUE: Hey, Luke. So I'm a social worker, and about three weeks ago, I got arrested on a hiking trail for trespassing. My mugshots online now, and all my clients have seen it. I'm sitting here in a laundromat at midnight, wondering if I can still do my job when everyone already thinks I'm a screw up.
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+LUKE: Well, what was going on here? What hiking trail were you on that you were trespassing on? If it was a hiking trail, obviously it was public.
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+MONIQUE: No, that's the thing. It was a thing. It was a public. There's this trail that runs through private ranchland out past the state park, and everyone hikes it anyway because it's been there forever, and connects to the good overlook. I've been hiking it for two years, never had a problem. But the landowner finally got fed up, I guess, called the sheriff, and they were waiting at the trailhead when we came back down, cited like six of us.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, a citation is not the same as an arrest. You're not going to have a mugshot for a citation, and it doesn't sound right to me that they would arrest you for trespassing on a hiking trail, even if it pissed off the ranch owner. So if you were arrested and they took your mugshot and brought you down to the station and everything, it's because you were probably an asshole to the officer, were you?
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+MONIQUE: I'm at the laundromat on Route 70, the one that's open all night. And yeah, okay, you're right. I wasn't an asshole, but I was stubborn about it.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, you were stubborn about it. You got yourself in trouble, and now everybody knows that you were Nobody cares. People might give you a dirty look for a little while, but nobody gives a shit about trespassing. It's a joke charge.
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+MONIQUE: That's what I keep telling myself, but it doesn't feel like a joke when I'm doing home visits and the dad smirking at me asking if I need a ride home. All my co-workers making comments in the break room about setting an example. I work with families who are already suspicious of the system. Already think we're just there to judge them and take their kids. And now I show up and they've all seen me looking guilty under those fluorescent lights with trail dust still in my hair. How am I supposed to tell a mom she needs to get her act together when my face is right there on the county website?
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+LUKE: Easy, because that's your job to do. And even if your, you know, faces on the county website, who cares? They might look at you a little funny for a little while, but that's only going to be news for a week or two and everybody's going to forget because it's not important. And everybody that is sane, recognizes that trespassing is a joke. And if you are arrested for it, then it's because you were an asshole.
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+MONIQUE: So what you're saying is I made it worse by being stubborn with the cop. And now I just need to eat it and move on. But here's what I can't get past. I've got this one family, the Hernandez is, right? The dad has a DUI from four years ago. Every time I visit, I can see it in his eyes that he thinks I'm there to catch him messing up. Prove he's still that guy.
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+LUKE: Are you? Is that your intention when you go visit him?
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+MONIQUE: No. I mean, my job is to make sure the kids are safe and the home stable. But I'm not trying to catch him being who he was four years ago. I actually think he's doing pretty good. He's working. The house is clean. Kids are fed. But Friday when he saw me, he had this look like, oh, now we're even. And made that crack about the ride home.
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+LUKE: Are you still able to do your job and perform your duties as they're assigned to you?
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+MONIQUE: Yeah. I finished the visit. Checked every day. Everything I needed to check, filed my report. Nothing changed about the actual work. It's just, I don't know.
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+LUKE: It's just that you're embarrassed. You broke the law. You got caught. You were publicly ridiculed in the paper. And you're embarrassed about it. And maybe you should be because you did break the law. And you were stubborn with a police officer. So, I mean, you deserve those things. But that doesn't make you any worse at your job make it so that you shouldn't be taken seriously when you're performing the duties that you're there to perform, right? And you're just going to have to get over your embarrassment and move on with your life. And everybody else is going to have to treat you like the professional that you are, because if they don't, you're going to take their kids away.
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+MONIQUE: You're right. I am embarrassed. And yeah, I was being stubborn because I thought I was right about something that didn't matter.
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+LUKE: Well, there you go. And that's all it is. And a week from now, it won't be a thing anymore, and you don't have to worry about it. Just keep doing your job the best you can. And maybe remember next time when you're judging somebody for their arrests or what they look like in their mugshot, that you've been on the other side of that. It can actually make you better and more empathic? Empathetic? I don't know what the right word is. It can make you understand their struggles more and perform your job better. Look at it like an opportunity to increase your effectiveness with the public.
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+MONIQUE: That's actually, yeah. I've been so worried about losing credibility that I didn't think about it that way. When Mr. Hernandez made that comment Friday, maybe she wasn't mocking me. Maybe he was testing to see if I get defensive, if I'm the kind of person who can't handle being wrong.
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+LUKE: And you're a big girl. You can take a little mocking. That's what people do. I mean, it's. It's a little bit funny, you have to admit, and people are going to mock you a little, and that's all right. But you can stand up and do your job, and it doesn't really matter at the end of the day.
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+MONIQUE: Yeah, it is kind of funny. I was out there with a metal detector looking for old coins in the middle of nowhere and got so worked up about whether it was actually BLM land that I argued with a cop about jurisdiction. Like, what was I going to do, cite case law, over a hiking trail?
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+LUKE: Right. So your problem is solved here. Just going to deal with the embarrassment for a little while, and don't worry about it too much. Try and put yourself in somebody else's shoes now and recognize that a picture in the paper doesn't necessarily mean that a person is bad or not qualified to do their job. Thank you for the call. I hope everything works out for you. And stay off the hiking trails you're not supposed to be on, all right? Next up, we've got Mitch. Mitch, welcome to the show. How can we help you?
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+MITCH: Luke, man, I just watch my two best friends who supposedly can't stand each other, make out in a parking garage, and get in the same truck together. And I've been sitting here for like three years, watching them act like they hate each other at every single barbecue we have.
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+LUKE: All right, I assume they are of the same sex?
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+MITCH: Yeah, they're both guys. And honestly, that's not even the part that's getting to me. Like, I don't care about that at all. What's making me crazy is they're not.
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+ALIA: Hey, Luke. Thanks for taking my call. Um, sorry, I just, I've been sitting here trying to figure out how to even start this. I'm calling from work, actually. I work overnights at a group home over in Safford, and everyone's asleep, so I thought, I don't know. I needed to talk to somebody.
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+LUKE: Well, here I am. What would you like to talk about?
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+ALIA: So my daughter, she's 10. She came home Friday with a black eye. And at first she said it was nothing, just an accident at recess. You know how kids are. But today, she finally, she finally told me truth. It was another kid at school.
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+LUKE: Okay, that happens. Kids get in fights at school. Did she start the fight? Do you know anything about the fight? What's going on? Is she being bullied or is it was it just a one-time thing?
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+ALIA: No, she didn't start it. She said this boy just he pushed her down during PE and when she got up, he hit her. And it's not the first time he's been rough with her. She just, she didn't want to tell me because because the boy's mom is my boss, Renee.
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds like you should talk to Renee about what's going on here because it's never really okay for a boy to hit a girl. I think we all know that. Everybody pretty much accepts that that's unacceptable. What's your daughter like? What's her personality? What's her demeanor?
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+ALIA: Oh, she's quiet, you know? Not shy, but she doesn't go looking for trouble. She's the kind of kid who bring home a hurt bird and try to nurse it back to health. Even when I tell her it's probably not going to make it. She's got this big heart, but she's not a pushover. She's got a temper when she's pushed too far.
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+LUKE: Is she athletic at all? Does she have any sort of physical sports abilities?
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+ALIA: Yeah, actually. She plays soccer. She's fast, real fast. And she's scrappy when she needs to be on the field. That's why when she told me what happened, part of me was like. Well, I mean, boys shouldn't hit girls, but girls should also be able to fight back.
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+LUKE: So if she's athletic and she enjoys sporting and that sort of stuff, then maybe it's time to get her into type of martial arts class. So the next time somebody tries to give her a hard time like that, she can kick him in the fucking throat.
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+ALIA: No, no. That's, that's not what I meant. I was thinking, if she's fast, why didn't she just run?
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+LUKE: Yeah, but I'm not talking about what you're thinking. I'm talking about what I'm thinking. And what I'm thinking is she should kick that guy in the throat. So maybe it's time for her to learn to stand up for herself because you can only run so many times, right? If you, if somebody's giving you a hard time and you run away. That just makes it worse. Everybody knows that. If somebody's going to push you down, then you've got to be prepared to stand up and fight back. And that goes for boys and girls. That's just how the world works. It's survival of the fittest, you know?
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+ALIA: I, okay, I hear what you're saying, but that's not really why I called. The problem isn't just what happened to my daughter. The problem is Renee writes my schedule. She handles complaints at the group home where I work.
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+LUKE: Oh, okay. So your daughter's getting her kicked at school by a boy, and you're calling in because you're afraid that that boy's mom might make it hard for you at work?
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+ALIA: Jesus. No, I mean, yes, but it's not like that.
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+LUKE: We can't afford for me to lose this job. My partner's hours got cut at the plant, and we're barely making it as it is. My family's already got opinions about our whole situation. And if I lose this job, they're going to say I told you so about everything. And I don't know how to go to Renee about this without it becoming a whole thing.
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+ALIA: whole thing and you're a pussy and you're offending me because like what's going on with your daughter at school is more important than how your work situation plays out like your kid needs to be able to stand up for herself against people that would do her harm and this boy is doing her harm and he's going to do it again because that's how bullies operate. So unless you're prepared to give her the training and support she needs to stand up for herself and not be bullied She's going to be a punching bag. That's not cool. Just so you don't get your hours messed with at work, stop it.
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+LUKE: You're right. You're completely right, and I feel sick hearing you say it out loud. Because I've been sitting here for an hour, staring at my phone, trying to figure out how to handle Renee instead of just, instead of putting my daughter first. God, what am I doing? She came home with a black eye, and I've been worried about the schedule.
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+ALIA: You don't have to bring this to Renee at all. I mean, you probably should. It's probably one of the... easier ways to deal with it is to just be like, hey, your son has punched my daughter. That's not okay. And I think she would recognize that and it shouldn't affect your work. I'm sure there's human resources there to step in if there's an issue. If you're being targeted by her for bringing that to her attention. But more importantly, your daughter needs to be able to fight back for herself and make sure that the boys aren't going to pick on her.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I need to go to the school tomorrow. First thing, I don't even know why I was trying to text Renee about it. That's backwards.
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+ALIA: I'm not telling you to go to the school. I'm not telling you to go to Renee. I'm telling you to get your daughter into some martial arts training so she can protect herself.
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+LUKE: Martial arts training. Okay, I don't, we don't really have the money for that right now. But maybe there's something at the community center or through the school. Eastern Arizona College might have something. I just need to figure out what's available in Safford that we can actually afford.
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+ALIA: Well, if you can't afford it, there are ways that you can, you know, train her yourself or have, she's already athletic. She knows how to train for sports. She knows how to do the basic, you know, fundamental exercises, flexibility training. Get her a punching bag. They're not expensive. And give her the support she needs. Let her know that if somebody's picking on you at school, you punch them back. Even if you lose the fight, you punch them back. Or they're just going to keep coming and coming and coming. That's how bullies work. You must know this.
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+LUKE: I do know this. I work with kids every day at the group home, and I tell them the same thing. Stand up for yourself. Don't let people walk on you. And here I am telling my own daughter to keep her head down because I'm scared of my supervisor. That's pathetic. You're right about the punching bag.
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+ALIA: That is pathetic. And yeah, you're the role model for your daughter. And if you're a punching bag, then she's going to be a punching bag too. So you've got to learn her to stand up for yourself against the person that writes your schedule at work, and she's got to learn to stand up for herself against bullies that would do her harm at school. And both of you are capable of doing that, as long as she's not looking to you as a role model and seeing you cower down by the person that manages the fucking spreadsheet.
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+LUKE: God, you're not wrong. She's watching me right now. Watching me tiptoe around Renee. Watching me delete texts for an hour instead of just saying something. And then I wonder why she didn't tell me about the black eye until today. She's learning from me take it and keep quiet because you're afraid of what happens if you don't.
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+ALIA: And that's no way to live unless you want to be picked on your whole life. And that's possible. If that's what you want, I mean, that's what will happen. So don't let that happen and get yourself some fucking a blockbuster membership and rent some John Claude Van Damme movies and go outside in the backyard and practice fighting.
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+LUKE: No, that's not what I want. Not for her and not for me either. I'm going to talk to her tonight when I get home. getting her a punching bag that she needs to defend herself. And I'm texting Renee right now. I don't care if it's late.
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+ALIA: Good for you. Good for you. And if Renee gives you a hard time, you go right to HR and you play that game because you can't punch somebody in the workplace generally. But what you can do is say I'm not going to accept being picked on or targeted for standing up for my kid.
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+LUKE: You're right. I've got documentation. I've been there three years. My reviews are good. I show up on time. She retaliates? That's on her. Not me. I can't believe I was sitting here trying to figure out how to word it so she wouldn't get mad.
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+ALIA: Well, now you know.
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+LUKE: All right. One more call, and that'll be the end of our show. We're going to talk to Darrell. Daryl, what's going on in your life tonight? Why are you calling in?
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+DARRELL: I just listened to a voicemail from my brother that's three years old, and now I am standing in a gas station parking lot at one in the morning trying to figure out if I should call him back.
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+LUKE: Why didn't you listen to the voicemail for three years?
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+DARRELL: Because the phone's been dead in my glove box, I switched carriers, got a new number, threw the old phone in there, and forgot about it. But my girlfriend, Sienna, asked me tonight if I had any pictures from when I first made Sergeant. And I remembered, I took a bunch on that phone, so I dug it out, charged it up, and boom, there's Marcus. Two weeks before he moved to New Mexico without telling anyone.
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+LUKE: So you changed your phone and didn't talk to your brother for three full years, and now you're wondering if you should call him back?
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+DARRELL: No, no, we've talked. Not a lot, but we've talked. He's got my new number.
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+LUKE: Okay, so what's the problem? And then why are you afraid to call him back? What's the voicemail say?
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+DARRELL: It's not even dramatic. That's the thing. He's just talking about some barbecue place he went to an Albuquerque saying I'd love it, asking if I'm still dating that girl from dispatch, which I wasn't even dating her. We went out twice.
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+LUKE: Real casual. I don't understand why you're calling me with this shit.
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+DARRELL: Because he left it two weeks before he disappeared, Luke. He's calling me about Brisket and asking about some girl, and two weeks later he's gone. No goodbye, no heads up. Just texts Mawn that he took a job in Albuquerque and he's already there.
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+LUKE: You just said you talked to him frequently.
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+DARRELL: I said we've talked not frequently. Maybe five times in three years. Birthdays, holidays, surface level stuff. He calls, I answer. We do 10 minutes. That's it.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that's how siblings talk. I mean, that's, uh, I think that's pretty normal. So what, what advice are you looking for? Should you call your brother and spark up a real conversation and see what's going on in his life and I, do you want to be in the dude's life? Like, what's the, what's the issue here.
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+DARRELL: The issue is I'm standing here listening to him, sound happy, actually happy, talking about some restaurant, and I'm realizing I have no idea why he left. And the thing that's eating me is, did he call to tell me? Was that what the barbecue thing was leading up to? And because I didn't answer, he just said, forget it and left anyway?
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+LUKE: Well, you already said he left to go to Albuquerque to take a job. So he got a job opportunity and went to Albuquerque to take it. Maybe he just wanted to change a pace, change a scene, a different life. People move. That's okay.
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+LUKE: They're allowed to What is the issue here?
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+EARL: The issue is he called me first, Luke. Before he told mom, before he moved, he called me. And I didn't pick up because I was probably writing some jackass a speeding ticket or sitting in a parking lot running radar. And now I'm supposed to what, call him back three years later about a voicemail about Briscuit?
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+LUKE: No, you call him back and say, hey, brother, I haven't talked to you in a while. I want to know what's going on in your life. And you took off, and I'd like to know why.
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+EARL: And say what when he asks why I'm calling now. Hey, Marcus, funny story. I just found this three-year-old. voicemail you left. Turns out my phone's been dead in my glove box. My bad?
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+LUKE: That makes me look like an even bigger asshole than just not calling back in the first place. No, you don't say anything. You say I'm calling you because I was thinking about you, which is the truth. Who cares about the voicemail? Forget about it. It happened three years ago. It was about a brisket place. Nobody cares. He doesn't care. He probably doesn't remember leaving the voicemail. There has nothing to do with the situation now. But if you want to talk to your brother, just call him and talk to him. It's not that big a deal.
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+EARL: But it is a big deal because I didn't call him back then. God. And that told him everything he needed to know, that I was too busy, that I didn't care enough, that he wasn't a priority, and he was right. I wasn't there. So he left, and he didn't tell me, because why would he? I already proved I wasn't going to pick up the phone.
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+LUKE: Look, man, if you're guilty that you didn't pick up the phone because you changed your number or you didn't want to talk, whatever, it's, you just call them and say, look, I'm sorry I didn't pick up the phone. You know, I'm different now. Things have changed, and I'm interested in being in your life. I'd like to know what happened. And if you want him to be in your life, if you want that relationship to matter going forward, then call the dude and talk to him. And don't worry about this voicemail from three years ago because he doesn't care.
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+EARL: I didn't change my number. The phone just died, and I got a new one and I never thought about it again until tonight. And that's worse, isn't it? That I just forgot about it completely. Sienna asked if I had any pictures from when I was younger and I remembered the old phone and charged it up. And there it was.
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+LUKE: That's enough. brother if you want to talk to him. That's the end of our show. Good night.

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+LUKE: All right. Welcome back, ladies and gentlemen to Luke at the Roost. The call-in radio show where you can call in and ask me questions, and I'll give you the best advice that I can. If you'd like to call in, the number's 208-439-58-3. That's 208-439 Luke. Today is Tuesday, March 3rd, and we're going to get to the phone lines here. We've got Chester. What are you calling in for tonight, sir?
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+CHESTER: Well, Luke, I'm sitting here in my trailer out at the yard, and I just saw this thing on the news about Mexican Chile coming in and undercutting our prices. And it got me all worked up because, you know, I remember back in 2008 during monsoon season. I drove all the way up to hatch in the middle of a storm because I wanted real New Mexico peppers, the authentic ones, not this garbage they're trying to pass off now. And my roof was leaking that same night, water coming through in three different spots, but I went anyway. because some things matter more than convenience, you know what I do. And now my girlfriend, Denise, she keeps saying we should just buy the pre-roasted stuff from Costco, which is exactly the problem with everything these days. Nobody cares about quality anymore. Nobody cares about where things come from or what they mean. Everything's got to be easy and cheap and fast, and I'm sitting here thinking, maybe that's connected to something bigger I've been wrestling with, but I haven't quite figured out how to say it yet.
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+LUKE: Well, I mean, where do the chilies come from that go, than the Costco ones, because they could be coming from Hatch New Mexico. I don't know.
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+CHESTER: No, no, no. See, that's what they want you to think. But if you look at the label, really look at it. Most of that stuff is coming from Anaheim, California. Or they're mixing it with peppers from Mexico or even Peru sometimes. They slap Hatch style on there, which doesn't mean a damn thing legally. Hatch child means it's grown in the Hatch Valley in that specific soil with that specific climate. My buddy Ray, he used to work at one of the roasting-off. operations up there before it got bought out. And he told me they started blending in cheaper peppers from wherever they could get them, because the demand got so high after it became this trendy thing. And people can't tell the difference anymore because they never had the real thing to begin with. When I drove up there in 2008, I bought directly from the Franzoi family. Watch them roast it right there. Filled up my whole truck bed.
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+LUKE: Well, that sounds pretty excessive. You're a real connoisseur of chili peppers. I can't tell the difference myself. I do like that. I do I don't know if they're Hatch Chilies or Hatch style chilies, but I like the green chili on my burgers. And honestly, I could care less whether it comes from Hatch, New Mexico, or Anaheim, California. They're not very far apart. Neither is Mexico. And I bet that the peppers in Peru are fabulous. So what's the big issue here?
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+CHESTER: Well, that's exactly what Denise says. Maybe you're both right. Maybe I'm the one who's got it all twisted up. But it's not really about the peppers, Luke. I don't know. They're the thing I can point to and say, this matters. This is real. This is worth doing right.
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+LUKE: It seems like a pretty small thing to get hung up on doing right. I mean, chili peppers that are like a condiment on your burger. But hey, if you like the hatch ones, drive out to hatch and fill up your truck bed. Good for you. I don't, I'm not sure what sort of volume of peppers come out of hatch. Is there enough chili pepper grown in Hatch, New Mexico to supply the whole country?
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+CHESTER: No, that's the thing. There's not. The whole valley only produces maybe 30,000 tons in a good year. And the country wants millions of pounds of the stuff now that it got popular. So mathematically it doesn't work, which means most of what people are eating isn't what they think it is, and that bothers me on principle. But you're right, it's a small thing. The real reason I called, and I've been dancing around it, is that Denise has been dropping hints about getting married for about six months now.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, I don't really see how how you've been dancing around that, but how do you feel about getting married to Denise?
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+CHESTER: I don't know, Luke. That's the problem. We've been together four years. She's a good woman, works hard at the hospital as a billing clerk, doesn't complain about the hours I keep at the yard. She makes sense on paper. But every time she brings it up, I get this feeling in my chest like something's closing in. And I change the subject, or I pick a fight about something stupid like the peppers.
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+LUKE: Well, you don't have to get married if you don't want to get married. Definitely don't get married sure you want to get married. My recommendation to everybody is absolutely under no circumstances get married because it's the worst fucking possible thing you could ever do. But no, people don't listen. I didn't listen. I did it myself and it was the worst fucking thing I ever did. So don't.
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+CHESTER: See, that's what I keep telling myself. But then I think about my dad. He never married my mom, just kept her hanging on for 17 years saying he wasn't ready, wasn't sure, needed more time.
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+LUKE: Yeah, but he fell apart with 100% of his assets, I'm sure. Whereas if he had got married and she left him, he would have fell apart with half.
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+CHESTER: Well, he didn't have much to split anyway. The junkyard was already mortgage to hell, and she never wanted any of it. She just wanted him to commit to something for once in his life instead of keeping one foot out the door all the time. And now he's 72, lives alone in that same trailer, eats TV dinners, and I can see myself turning into that.
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+LUKE: Well, I think that getting married out of fear of being alone is definitely the wrong reason. But you're your own man. If you think it's time to tie the knot, then go ahead and do it. But I recommend that you don't. And absolutely, if you're going to get married, prenuptial agreement.
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+CHESTER: Yeah, Denise would lose her mind if I brought up a pre-nup. She'd take it as me planning for failure before we even started. And maybe she'd be right. The thing is, Luke, I think the real problem is I don't know if I'm capable of what she needs. She wants someone who comes home at a decent hour, who wants to take vacations to Branson or wherever, who's excited about picking out furniture and talking about where we'd send kids to school.
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+LUKE: Well, I mean, are you that guy? I mean, I didn't bring up pre-nup either for all of those reasons. It seems like an offensive thing if you're talking about getting married. But you know what? It's better to be offensive up front than have to get a lawyer later.
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+CHESTER: No, I'm not that guy. I'm the guy who'd rather stay at the yard until midnight organizing parts bins that don't need organizing because at least out there, I know what I'm doing. And she knows that about me, which is maybe why she keeps pushing the marriage thing, thinking a ring and a ceremony will transform me into somebody different. My buddy Ray did that, married a woman who wanted him to be less of a drinker, and now he sneaks bourbon in the garage and lies about where he's been. That's no way to live either.
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+LUKE: No, sir, it is not. And if that's what you think is going on here and she wants to marry you because she thinks that's going to change your behavior, then I think you should definitely not do that because it's not going to go well. Your behavior is not going to change. Or if it does, you're going to resent that you changed it for somebody else. And eventually, you're both going to hate each other. And it's not going to be a pleasant experience. So if you're not completely sure you want to get married and you shouldn't be, then don't do it. advice for you is just don't do it. And if she feels like she's hanging on and doesn't want to hang on, let her go.
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+CHESTER: That's the thing that keeps me up at night, though, Luke.
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+TANYA: Oh, gosh, hi, Luke. Thanks for taking my call. So my husband just texted me that he's spending the night at his girlfriend's place, and I've been sitting here in my restaurant office for like an hour, staring at my phone, and I don't know what I'm feeling.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, obviously, you know about the girlfriend. This is an open type relationship. How does that work? Your husband has a girlfriend and you're okay with that? Or you don't know if you're okay with that? What's the situation? Give us some context.
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+TANYA: Right, so six months ago, I suggested we open up our marriage. I read this article about how it can bring back excitement, and I thought maybe that's what we needed, because things had gotten really flat, you know? And he was.
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+LUKE: I was into the idea, but here's the thing, Luke. The thing is he's got his girlfriend and you don't have somebody else now. He's working out for him and not you, I assume.
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+TANYA: Exactly. He found someone on this Dayton app within like a week. Her name's Rebecca. And I've been trying. I really have. I've sent out probably 30 messages and I haven't gotten a single reply. Not one.
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+LUKE: So are you jealous that he's out with his girlfriend? Or are you jealous that he found a girlfriend and you didn't find a boyfriend? What is it that's boss?
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+TANYA: That's what I keep trying to figure out. I keep telling myself I'm happy he's happy. Right? Like that was the whole point. But tonight when I got his text, I saw my reflection in the office window here, and I realized I couldn't remember the last time I actually looked at myself for that long.
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+LUKE: Do you even want a boyfriend? I mean, you said the spice was gone or whatever and what, I assume you guys weren't having sex and you wanted some? Are you not able to get laid?
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+TANYA: I mean, I want to want it. Does that make sense? Like I thought opening things up would make me feel alive again or desirable or something.
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+TANYA: But honestly, Luke, I don't even know if I'm actually attracted to any of these guys I'm messaging. I'm just doing it because that was supposed to be how this works. We both get to see other people and it fixes things somehow.
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+LUKE: Well, obviously, that's not going to work. You have to actually want to see other people. I think that can work for certain couples. I think it's very difficult and you have to be the right kind of people for it to work. But just trying to fix a problem by opening it up seems like it's probably going to just make a worse problem. Is it that you're not attracted to men?
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+TANYA: No, no, it's not that. I'm attracted to my husband still, or I was. I think what's happening is I suggested this whole thing because I thought it would make him want me again, you know? Like maybe if other people wanted me, he'd remember why he did. But now he's over at Rebecca's place and I'm sitting here and clothes that smell like friar oil, and I'm realizing I might have just given him permission to leave without actually leaving.
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+LUKE: Well, I've never had children, so I've never had to go through that back and forth with somebody about how we're going to raise them. So I can't give you the greatest advice here, but I would say if you can't come to an agreement amongst yourselves, flip a coin.
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+TANYA: A coin flip? This is not a decision you flip a coin on. I have actually done the research here. I have read three peer-reviewed studies in the last week about homeschooled kids and college readiness.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, a lot of kids don't go to college, and it sounds like she's done her research, too. So there's opposing views here. A lot of people, everybody I've known that's been homeschooled swears by it. So I don't know that the public school has a very good track record.
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+TANYA: Okay, but those studies show that homeschooled kids have real gaps in socialization. And that is exactly what I am worried about with Maya. She has spent years being the quiet kid who ate lunch alone. And this year, she finally has a group of friends. She is going to sleepovers. She is texting with kids from her class. You yank her out now and put her back in the house all day with just her mom and her little brother. That progress disappears.
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+LUKE: Well, not necessarily. There's still ways to get her socialization throughout the day and the week. I mean, she can still be in different clubs and have her friends and go to the live. and things. It's not just locking her in the house all day. Socialization is part of the homeschooling.
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+TANYA: Yeah, Sharon says the exact same thing. She talks about homeschool co-ops and field trips and whatever, but that is not the same as being in class with the same 30 kids every single day. Those co-op things meet what, once a week? Twice a week maybe? Maya has finally figured out how to navigate the social world at Silver Consolidated.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, I mean, that's a small school, right? You're talking about Silver. New Mexico?
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+TANYA: Silver Consolidated. Yeah. We're in Byard, actually, just outside Silver City. It is a small school, which is part of why this is working for her. She knows these kids.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, if you live just outside of Silver City, she's still going to know those kids. They're still in her town. I mean, she can still go to events with them and go to the movies and stuff and do kid things. So I don't really see the problem. Like, if you were in New York City public, school where she had 500 classmates, that would be a different experience. But homeschool versus a small Silver City Consolidated School, I don't think it's going to be that much different. I mean, and you don't know what's going to happen in the future. Imagine it was just a few years ago and COVID happened. And then all the classes were over Zoom meetings for years. Like, what did that do to kids' socialization? They still made it. They still were able to communicate with their friends and learn socialization. think. I don't really know. Don't take any of my advice on this one. I don't know what I'm talking about, but just from my perspective, I don't think there's that big of a difference between homeschooling and regular schooling. And if I were doing it, I would push for homeschooling. If I could, if I had the time to do that, because I really don't believe in the school system at all.
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+TANYA: Okay, but here's what you're missing. Maya is not just any kid. She has struggled with this her life. We are talking about a girl who used to fake being sick to avoid school because she was so anxious about talking to other kids.
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+LUKE: Well, yeah, and going to school sucks. So, you know, that's showing you she's been in school and she was still shy. Now she's getting a little older and she's made some friends, but it's a different situation now. It's not so much about the school as her age.
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+TANYA: That is exactly what Sharon says, and I do not buy it. Yes, she is. She is. She is getting older, but the reason she finally made friends this year is because her English teacher put her in a group project with three other girls, and they clicked. That does not happen sitting at the kitchen table with workbooks.
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+LUKE: That also really doesn't happen that often in the workplace. I mean, think about today's modern workplace. You are working on those projects remotely with people across, you know, Zoom meetings and stuff. The school experience is pretty far from reality.
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+TANYA: I work with my hands. I fix things. I am in my workshop right now looking at circuit boards and actual tools. The real world for me is not Zoom meetings. It is dealing with people face to face. And that is what Maya needs to learn. She needs to learn how to handle herself when someone is rude to her in the hallway. Or when a teacher calls on her and she does not know the answer. Or when her friend group has drama. You cannot simulate that stuff at home.
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+LUKE: You can absolutely simulate that in the real world because that's around everywhere. She's going to have to learn how to deal with people face to face. in business, in going to the bank and dealing with a difficult employee, shopping at Walmart. Like, she's going to have to deal with those things in school or anywhere else in the world because that's just dealing with other people. She doesn't need to be in school to do that. She could be literally anywhere in society.
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+TANYA: But she is 13 years old. She is not going to the bank by herself or dealing with difficult Walmart employees. The only place she is at. actually navigating peer relationships on her own, without me or Sharon standing there, is at school. That is where she is learning to handle conflict with people her own age, to read social cues, to figure out who to trust.
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+LUKE: Well, yeah, that's because that's the only place you're putting her. But if you tell her to leave at 8 o'clock and go outside and go hang out at a coffee shop, she's going to meet people there. If she goes to do the shopping on a Thursday, then she's going to meet people there. And yeah, she's 13, but 13 is a teenager. She should be out and doing things with kids outside of school and home, right? I was. I'm sure you were out playing on the road with the other kids on the street. There was more to socialization than just what happened in the defined six hours of school or whatever.
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+TANYA: You are talking about Silver City, New Mexico. There is no coffee shop where teenagers just hang out. This is not some college town. And yeah, when I was a kid, we were outside all the time. was different. Kids do not do that anymore.
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+LUKE: Yeah, because you don't let them. Kids would do that if you let them. If you encourage them to do it, they certainly would. And the Silver City is a college town, and there are coffee shops where kids are hanging out because I've been there. So I don't know what you're talking about.
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+TANYA: Okay, fine. Western New Mexico University is there, but Maya is not a college student. She is 13. And yes, maybe there are a couple coffee places, but the point is Sharon wants to pull her out right now, of the school year, when she finally has this friend group.
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+LUKE: Yeah, and I'm on Sharon's side, so sorry, I don't agree with you. You're not going to get the answer for me that you're looking for.
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+TANYA: Well, hold on. You were just going to side with her without even hearing the full situation? Maya has anxiety. She has had it since she was little. She would not talk to other kids at birthday parties. She would hide behind Sharon at the grocery store.
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+LUKE: No, I'm going to side with her after having heard what you just said like four different times because you keep repeating it. I understand she has anxiety.
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+TANYA: It is not just regular nervousness. She has been seeing a therapist for two years. And this year, eighth grade is the first time she has actually had friends who call her, who invite her to things.
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+LUKE: Okay, that's great. And they can keep inviting her to things and calling her if she's homeschooled. She's already made the friends, right? She's already got them. So I don't know what you're looking for for me.
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+CARLA: The question is, how do you say no to people without them deciding you are the problem? Because every time I have said no in the past year, someone has made it very clear that I am being difficult. My supervisor asked me to switch my weekend off in January so she could go to her daughter's volleyball tournament.
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+LUKE: Next up, we've got Cliff. Cliff, welcome to the show. What's going on in your life today? Do you have a real problem that I can give you real advice about?
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+CLIFF: Hey, Luke?
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+LUKE: Yeah?
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+CLIFF: I caught my tax client's wife cheating on him in the Albertson's parking garage tonight, and I cannot stop laughing about it, even though I probably should not have seen what I saw, so I do taxes. Right? Been doing Ray's returns for maybe eight years now. Nice guy, owns a plumbing supply company, always complaining about his wife Denise at poker. She shows up to our potlucks and complains right back about him.
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+LUKE: Okay, so why are you laughing about his wife cheating on him?
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+CLIFF: Because it was with Ray. They were cheating on each other with each other, Luke. I am standing there in the parking garage like 9.30 because I forgot my briefcase in my car. And there is Demise, pushed up against a Honda Civic, with some guy, and I'm about to turn around and pretend I did not see anything. And then the guy turns his head and is his ray.
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+LUKE: I don't understand. How is that cheating? That is exactly what I've been trying to figure out for the last two hours. They are married to each other. They live together.
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+CLIFF: No, I know they are married. That is what makes this so insane. These two spend every social gathering for the last three years, telling anyone who will listen how much they cannot stand each other. Ray sits at poker and goes on about how Denise nags him about every little thing, how she hates his hobbies, how they have not had a real conversation in months. Denise shows up to potlucks and tells my wife that Ray is emotionally unavailable, and they are basically roommates at this point.
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+LUKE: Well, good for them. It sounds like they found a way to inject a little something into their relationship and maybe restart the flame or whatever it is they say. I think that's great. Good for them.
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+CLIFF: But Luke, they are lying to everybody. That is the part that is making me crazy. I have sat through hours of Ray complaining about his dead bedroom. Hours.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, they weren't in the bedroom, were they?
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+CLIFF: No. They were in a parking garage acting like teenagers who just discovered each other. And the whole time they had been performing this miserable marriage routine for everyone we know. I mean, we have all been taking sides. People avoid inviting them to the same things because the tension is supposed to be so bad. My wife spent 45 minutes on the phone with Denise two weeks ago talking her through whether she should leave him.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, maybe it got to a point where they had to do something, and they decided that instead of hating each other for the rest of their lives or breaking up, they were going to try and reignite the passion by doing some public play.
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+CLIFF: Public play? They do not even know I saw them. This was some plan to fix things. Why are they still doing the whole song and dance? Ray called me yesterday to cancel poker night because he said Denise was giving him grief about spending too much time with the guys.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, maybe they're lying about it, maybe they're embellishing how much they don't like each other, or maybe they actually don't like each other, but people still like to fuck, you know? So it could have just got long enough for each of them that they needed to bone, and they found a place to do it, and you happen to see.
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+CLIFF: That is the most depressing thing I have ever heard. What kind of marriage is a is that. You hate each other enough to complain about it to everyone you know, but not enough to actually do anything about it. So you just meet up in parking garages every once in a while?
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+LUKE: I don't know. It's not on me to judge their marriage, but that sounds better than not meeting up in parking garages at all. People do have needs, and it seems like they're getting them from each other, which is the point. And if they do that in an unconventional way, who cares? That's their life. That's their marriage. If they're a pain in the ass to you and your friends, though, to them about it and say, hey, you guys need to cut the shit because we're sick of listening to it.
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+CLIFF: I cannot talk to them about it without admitting I saw them, and then I am the crink with a telescope who watches people in parking garages. Which is not what happened. I was packing up my equipment and I looked down and there they were under a light post going at it.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well if they were going at it in a public parking garage, they wanted to be seen. That was the point of the exercise was that they could be caught. That's what made it exciting for them. You must understand this.
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+CLIFF: You think they wanted someone to see them? In downtown Albuquerque at 1030 on a Tuesday night in an empty parking garage.
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+LUKE: No, I don't think they wanted somebody to see them. They wanted to be in a place where they might be seen. There's a difference.
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+CLIFF: Okay, fine. But that still does not solve my problem, which is that I have to sit across from these people at every gathering for the rest of my life, knowing what I know, while they keep performing this whole charade. Do I just pretend I believe it? Do I keep listening to Ray complain about how she never wants to do anything spontaneous anymore?
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+LUKE: How spontaneous she can be? No. You're just, the next time he says something like that, let him know that you saw them and that he's lying and that he's busted. And maybe there's more to the story than you're aware of, and maybe there's not. But either way, you don't have to hide that. I wouldn't go and tell everybody else. I wouldn't tell it to all your friends at the poker table. But if you're with Ray and Ray is talking some shit that is obviously not true, then call him out on it.
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+CLIFF: Yeah. So I just say what, Ray, I saw you and Denise screwing against a Honda Civic last Tuesday. Cut the crap? That is going to go over real well. He's going to lose his mind.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I'm sure it'll be fun. It'll be interesting.
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+LUKE: Then you'll have a good reason to laugh. You are out of your mind. This is terrible advice. Now I am going to have Ray pissed off at me for spying on him. Denise pissed off at me for embarrassing her and everyone else wondering why I was downtown with a telescope at 10. 10.30 on a Tuesday.
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+LUKE: No, you weren't spying on him. They were in a public place. They were in a public place because they were doing some sort of public play. Like, they wanted the thrill of potentially being caught by somebody, and you happen to see them. Unless you actually were spying on them, then that's a different story. If you were spying on them, then you're a creep. And send us the pictures. We have a Discord. You can check that out.
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+CALLER: I was not spying on them. I was packing up my telescope after looking at the moon for two hours. I looked down to make sure I was not leaving anything on the ground, and there they were, under the only working light in that whole section. It was completely accidental. And no, I did not take pictures.
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+LUKE: Well, that was a missed opportunity then, sir. But that's my advice for you is the next time he starts bitching about his wife in front of you, let him know that you know. And tell him he's caught in the lie and to cut the shit. And, you know, maybe you learn more about that story and there's, I'm sure there's more to it. But from the information that you've given me, eh, who cares?
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+CALLER: All right. So I am just supposed to blow up the entire dynamic at the next poker night, funny. That is what I am hearing. Because once I say something to Ray, this is not staying between us. He is going to tell Denise I saw them. She is going to freak out. And then I am the guy who ruined everything by not minding my own business. And I still have to see these people every week.
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+LUKE: Well, you did mind your own business. I mean, all you're doing is calling on him for lying the next time he lies. I'm not saying to blow up your poker game or take it to the poker table. I'm saying when you're alone with Ray and he bitches about his wife, tell him to cut the shit because you caught them. That's all. That's all. And yeah, I do think it would be funny. And if you don't want to do this, if you don't want to take this advice, that's fine. That's fine by me. But you're the one that called and asked for it. So, I mean, there's that.
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+CALLER: You know what? You are right. I did call and ask for it. And now I am sitting here realizing I called a radio show at midnight to complain about my friends having sex in a parking garage, like I am some kind of pervert, which is exactly what Ray is going to call me when I bring this up. This whole thing is ridiculous.
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+LUKE: conversation goes on, the more you actually sound like a pervert, because you're protesting being a pervert an awful lot. And if it went down the way that you said it went down where you just happened to see them because they were there in public under the light, then no, you're not a pervert. You just happen to see something. But you seem really, really nervous about looking like a pervert. So I'm starting to question whether or not what you're telling me is the truth.
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+CALLER: Oh, come on. I am nervous because I know how this is going to sound no matter how I explain it. I was downtown with a telescope late at night, and I saw two people I know going at it. That sounds bad. It sounds like I was looking for something.
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+LUKE: I don't think it does. I think it sounds like they were looking to be found.
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+CALLER: Maybe you are right about that. I have known Ray for eight years, and the man complains about Denise constantly. Every single time we get together, it is something new. She does not appreciate him. She nags him about money. She wants him to be someone he is not. And those things are all probably true, but that doesn't mean they don't want to fuck. And honestly, that is the part that has been bothering me since I got home. They have this whole routine down where they act like they cannot stand each other in front of everyone, and meanwhile, they are sneaking off to parking garages. What is the point of all that?
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+LUKE: I don't know, but I can't tell what the point of this call is either, so we're going to go to a break from our sponsors here, and we'll be back shortly. Look, I'm not a financial advisor. I'm a guy with a microphone and a dog, but the folks at Crypto no asked me to tell you about their new decentralized investment platform, and I legally have to read this part. Past performance does not guarantee future results. This is not financial advice. And if you invest your rent money, you deserve exactly what happens next. Crypto No lets you trade over 400 digital currencies, including three that were invented this morning and one that's just a picture of my dog. The app features a real-time portfolio tracker with a built-in panic button that just plays ocean sounds when your balance drops. Crypto no. Fortune favors the bold, but it does not return their calls. Okay, thanks to Crypto No for the sponsorship there. We couldn't do the show without you. Crypto No. That's what I say. Next up, we've got Leon. Leon, welcome to the show. What's happening in your life tonight, sir? How can we help?
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+LEON: Hey, Luke. Thanks for taking. Thanks for taking my call. So I found my wife's pills today. She's been stockpiling her oxy, and I am pretty sure I know what she's planning to do with them when things get bad enough. And I cannot figure out if I should say something or just let her have that choice.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, that's a tough one. What is it, what is going to get bad enough? I mean, what situation is she in where she would be thinking about that?
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+LEON: She has got stage four pancreatic cancer. They gave her maybe six months back in January and she's about halfway through chemo right now. The pain is manageable now. But her oncologist already told us it is going to get a lot worse before the end. Linda is the kind of person who has always been in control of everything. I mean, she planned our wedding down to the minute she runs the finances. She even picks what I wear to church. And I think the idea of being bedridden and helpless at the end just terrifies her more than dying does.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I can understand that. And I can understand that in why it's a difficult situation for you to be in. There's not a right answer there. It very much depends on your own personal values and beliefs. But I can tell you if it were me, I would want to have that option. So maybe it's worth having the conversation with her, letting her know that you know what she's doing, what she's planning on, and asking her if she wants you to get involved or not.
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+LEON: That is the thing, though. I do not know if I can have to have that conversation without falling apart. We've been married 36 years, and we have barely talked about her dying at all. Like, really talked about it. We mention appointments. We talk about side effects from the chemo, but we do not say the actual words. And if I bring up the pills, then we have to say it out loud. We have to talk about her last day and whether I am going to be there and what that looks like.
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+LUKE: Yeah, and I think that you're going to have to have that conversation and it's okay if you've followed apart. I mean, that's perfectly acceptable. Of course you're going to fall apart. But you should have the conversation, regardless. Even if the pills weren't part of the equation, you should still have the conversation and talk about what that day should look like because that day is coming and you both know it's coming. So avoiding the conversation is not going to be helpful. And I think if you don't have that conversation, when the day does come, you will wish that you had.
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+LEON: You are right. I know you are right. I know you are right. I have been thinking about it like I am protecting her by not bringing it up, but really, I am just protecting myself from having to face it.
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+LUKE: Next up on our call line, we've got Heather. Heather, welcome to the show. What's going on?
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+HEATHER: Luke, I don't know. I just watched some jackass at my nephew's little league game shove a 16-year-old umpire over a called third strike. And when I told him to back the hell off, he got in my face screaming about how I was destroying his kid's future. This was a game for eight-year-olds. Eight. And the worst part? Not one other parent said a damn word.
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+LUKE: And how did you respond to the situation?
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+HEATHER: I got right back in his face and told him if he touched that kid again, I was calling the cups, which made him lose it even more. Started yelling about how people like me are what's wrong with youth sports, how everyone's too soft now, how his son needs to learn that life isn't fair and someone's got to fight for him. Meanwhile, his kid is standing there crying, absolutely mortified. The umpire's shaking, my nephew's confused, and I'm standing there thinking I'm about to get into an actual fist fight in a Little League parking lot. At 43 years old.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I mean, it's stories like that that don't make me sad. I don't have kids and I don't have to deal with that stuff. But it sounds like those little kids sports games get pretty intense and it's not about the kids at all. It's about the fathers generally living vicariously through their eight-year-old kids thinking that they're going to be giant sports stars someday. But they're just little sniveling idiots running around in circles.
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+HEATHER: Exactly. That's exactly what it is. And you know what really gets me? This guy kept saying, my son's future, my son's future. Like some college scout was hiding in the bleachers at a Tuesday afternoon game in Demon, watching third graders, his kid can barely catch a pop fly.
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+LUKE: Yeah, it's pretty silly. I agree with you. And it's unacceptable behavior from from lots of usually the dads at those things. And I'm glad that I don't have to go.
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+HEATHER: Well, here's the thing, though, Luke. I've been sitting here at my salon for three hours doing inventory because I can't stop thinking about it. And it's not just about that dad being a psycho. It's that nobody else said anything. There were maybe 20 parents there. And they all just stood there looking at their phones or pretending to be real interested in the concession stand. Like if they don't acknowledge it, it didn't happen.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, what would you have hoped that they did? Some of them probably agreed with the dad. Some of them agreed with you. What would your ideal outcome have been?
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+HEATHER: I wanted somebody, anybody, to back me up. Even just one person to say, hey man, that's not okay. Because when I'm standing there alone, telling this guy off, I look like the crazy one. I look like I'm the problem. And you know what happened after? Two different moms came up to me later after he left and whispered, thank you for saying something that was so brave. Brave?
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+LUKE: Yeah, you didn't look like the crazy one. I bet nobody there thought you looked like the crazy one.
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+HEATHER: They all knew that he was being a douchebag and were probably proud of you for standing up for it, but they're all pussies and they don't want to get in trouble with the school or end up in the paper or get their kids in trouble. People are weak. That's what pisses me off, though. Everyone's so worried about making waves, about being that parent, that they'll watch a grown man assault a teenager and just let it happen.
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+LUKE: Yeah. It's a sad state of affairs, for sure. I agree with you. But here's what I can't stop thinking about. That dad's kid? He's in my nephew's class.
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+HEATHER: Yeah.
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+LUKE: And is the dad's kid a good kid? Is he a friend of your nephew?
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+HEATHER: I don't know. That's the thing. I've never actually talked to the kid. But I see him at every game now, and all I can think is, that's the psycho's son. And that's not fair to him, right? Like, it's not his fault. His dad's an asshole. But I'm sitting here wondering if I should say something to my sister about not letting them hang out.
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+LUKE: No, I doubt that very much. That kid's life probably sucks at home. That guy is almost certainly an asshole all the time. I would guess, I don't know the guy. I never met him, but I would guess he's the type that's punching walls and probably drinking heavy and just not being a great father figure. I could be wrong about that. That's a gross generalization, but I mean, that's the picture that behavior paints. would feel sympathy for the kid and maybe try and be more involved in his life so that you can be a positive influence and let him know that not all adults act like that.
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+HEATHER: You know what? You're right. I didn't even think about it that way. I've been so focused on being mad at the dad that I didn't consider what that kid's dealing with.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that kid is probably horribly embarrassed. He doesn't want to be the center of attention in that way. Nobody does.
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+HEATHER: So he was bag father. God, you're absolutely right. I didn't even look at the kid after it happened. I was so focused on his dad and then on whether anyone was going to back me up, that kid probably wanted to disappear into the ground.
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+LUKE: Yep. That's understandable. So, I mean, look at the kid with sympathy and try to be a good role model for him and don't let the sins of the father affect the youth of America or whatever the fucking saying is. Thanks for the call. I'm going to end up, the show here. And do you have anything else you'd like to add before we sign off for the evening?
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+HEATHER: Yeah, just one thing. To anyone listening who was at that game today and saw what happened and didn't say anything, you're part of the problem.
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+LUKE: That's right, Heather. I agree with her. You guys are the douchebags. You're the reason that everything sucks now. And you should be ashamed of yourselves. Good night. Thank you.

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+LUKE: All right. Welcome back to Luke at the Roost. This is the call-in radio show where you can call in and ask me whatever's on your mind, and I'll give you the best advice I can. If you'd like to give me a call, the number is 208-439-58-53. That's 208-439 Luke. And I'd like to give a special thank you to everybody today, because today we hit 1,000 downloads, which is, insane to me, considering this has only been going on for a month or so. So thank you to all of you out there that enjoy listening to my voice. That's, it's very nice for you, and we couldn't do it without yet. So today is, it's actually Thursday, March 5th, but I'll consider it Wednesday's show, because it just passed midnight a little while ago. It's getting laid out here, and we're ready to give some advice. Gangsta hip hop here to play in the background. That's perfect. And we're going to get to our calls. So, Wendell, Wendell, you're calling in today? What's going on tonight?
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+WENDELL: My wife made a joke tonight. About our daughter being tall like my family. Except nobody in my family is tall, Luke. Nobody. And I've known since this kid was three years old that she's not mine biologically. I did the math. I remember exactly when my wife had that thing with her co-worker. But here's the thing that's eating me up right now.
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+LUKE: Wow, it's not even the thing that your kid isn't your kid? Are you sure? Have you done a paternity test or any sort of DNA verification? I mean, that seems like awful circumstantial evidence, but what is it that's eating you up right now?
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+WENDELL: No tests, no DNA, nothing official like that, but Luke, I'm telling you I know. The timeline is perfect. The features don't match either of us. And there was this whole two months back then, where things were weird. Even though we never said it out loud. But that's not what's got me twisted up tonight, man. What's killing me is that I chose this.
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+LUKE: You chose what? You chose going to the laundromat tonight? Or you chose a wife that's going to cheat on you and then you're never going to talk about it? You need to know this for sure. You're making a lot of accusations here. It seems like maybe you might not be right about that. You should probably have a conversation and see if there's a reason for your hesitance, your paranoia here.
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+WENDELL: No, no, no, Luke, you're right. I should say it clearer. I chose to be her dad. When she was three, I sat in my truck outside a clinic that does paternity tests, and I had all the paperwork filled out, and I sat there for 45 minutes, and then I drove home and threw it away, because I realized I didn't want to know officially. I wanted to keep being her father. Every soccer practice, every scraped knee, every time she runs up and hugs me when I pick her up from her, school. That's real. That's mine.
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+LUKE: Okay, okay, okay. But, uh, you sound awful angry about it. It doesn't sound like it's, uh, making you feel joyful and, uh, happy. Why are you so upset?
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+WENDELL: Because tonight when my wife made that joke, she was so casual about it, so comfortable with the lie. And it hit me that she doesn't know that I know. She thinks she got away with it completely. And I'm sitting there smiling and nodding like, yeah, funny how genetics work. And inside, I'm screaming because I'm screaming because I'm, I've been carrying this alone for 10 years, Luke. 10 years of being the only one who knows the truth.
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+LUKE: Well, how do you know the truth if you haven't confirmed anything? You just have a suspicion and you're calling it the truth. Your wife might not know what you're thinking at all. Maybe she didn't do anything.
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+WENDELL: Luke, she told me. Not directly, but she told me. This was back when our daughter was maybe six months old. We'd had some wine one night, and she started crying and said she needed to tell me something, and I stopped her. I literally put my hand up and said, I don't want to hear it. Whatever it is, we're good. We're moving forward. She tried twice more over the next year to bring it up, and both times, I shut it down because I didn't want it to be real if we said it out loud. So she thinks I don't know because I wouldn't let her tell me. But Luke, I know what she was trying to confess.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, maybe you think you know what she was trying to confess. You might not have any idea. Jesus, man. You're carrying around an awful big burden without verification here, just thinking what you think is the truth. And maybe it's not. Maybe you should ask her what she was trying to confess all those times and stop shutting her down any time she tries to confess. Wouldn't you rather know for real what's going on than just be upset for the rest of your life for no reason?
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+WENDELL: You're making me feel crazy here, Luke. But maybe you're right. Maybe I am crazy. But what if I ask? And it's exactly what I think it is. What do I do then? Right now I get to be her dad With no asterisk, no question mark The second we say it out loud, everything changes My daughter's 13 She's got her whole life ahead of her She doesn't need to find out Her dad isn't her dad And her mom cheated And we've been lying to her for her entire existence
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+LUKE: Well no, she doesn't need to find that out You don't have to tell her that I mean and if you're living your life Thinking that this is the case What's the difference if it's said out loud or not Only good can come of having the conversation, right? If you already think it's the truth, and then you find out it's the truth, nothing changes. But if you think it's the truth and you find out that she wanted to tell you something completely unrelated, that's a big burden off of your shoulders.
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+WENDELL: Okay, okay, you're actually making sense. And I hate that, because I've built this whole thing in my head for a decade. And now you're telling me maybe I built it on nothing. But Luke hears what scares me about asking. to confess that she kissed someone. Just kissed, nothing more, and I open this whole can of worms and put the idea in her head That I think our daughter isn't mine. What if I'm about to ruin a good thing by digging when I should have just let sleeping dogs lie? Because right now, even with all this weight on carrying, we're happy.
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+LUKE: Yeah, you sound super happy. No, you should know for sure. Because if she does tell you that she just kissed someone, she's just going to laugh. She's just going to be like, oh my God, God, I can't believe that you thought that for the last 10 years. Any reasonable person would just laugh in that situation, not be upset with you for it. But I would recommend if your wife's trying to tell you something, you let her tell you.
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+WENDELL: You're right. God, you're right, and I've wasted 10 years being terrified of a conversation. I'm going to talk to her this weekend when our daughter's at the tournament in Deming.
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+LUKE: I think that's a great idea. And maybe she's just lucky. She got tall. Good for her. That is funny, though, that the whole situation is pretty funny. You're a funny guy, sir.
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+WENDELL: Yeah, well, I don't feel funny. I feel like an idiot who's been white-knuckling a secret. That might not even be a secret. My wife's going to think I've lost my mind when I finally bring this up after shutting her down for a decade. Hey, Luke, can I ask you something, though? What if I'm right? What if I ask? And it is what I think it is. Do I just keep being dad like nothing happened? Or does everything fall apart?
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+LUKE: Well, what do you think? I don't think anything would have to change. I mean, you'd be operating as usual. You already believe it's the truth, so confirming that doesn't change anything. If you've decided to be her dad, you're her dad. And she doesn't know any other dad, right?
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+WENDELL: You love your kid, and you've been there for her whole life, and nothing changes. You're absolutely right. I've already made my peace with it in my head. I just never made my peace with it out loud. And she is my kid, Luke. She really is. I taught her how to throw a curveball. I'm the one who sits in the stands at every game.
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+WILL: I promise I'll call back after we talk. Thank you, man. Seriously. I've been carrying this around like a boulder on my back. And you just made me realize I could have put it down any time.
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+LUKE: Yeah, man, it sounds like you wanted to carry the boulder on your back. Put it down. That's what I say. Put it down. Next up we've got Alia. Alia, welcome to the radio show. How can we help you today?
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+ALIA: Hey, Luke. Okay, so I need you to settle something because my boyfriend is asleep and I am losing my mind over this. Everyone who says they can hear the difference between vinyl and digital is completely full of shit, right? Like it is scientifically impossible for the human ear to detect what they claim their hearing. And I have been arguing about this online for two hours and I need back up here.
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+LUKE: Not always would be my answer for you. Sometimes you can definitely tell that what you're listening to is uh is vinyl um as opposed to sometimes you can absolutely tell that it's digital especially if there's any level of like digital clipping in it if the signal gets too loud then um vinyl never sounds like that so so it's a very obvious digital sound if things are mixed appropriately and with some of today's And stuff, you can make a digital recording sound very much like vinyl. But when people are talking about the vinyl sound, usually what they're referring to is noise. It's the scratches and the clicks and the pops that are inherently in the vinyl. And I think a lot of audio file type people, like the old school, people from the 70s, when they're saying it doesn't sound the same, it's because they're not listening to it through the old analog tubes used to be around back in the day. That imparted a very warm sort of distortion to the sound that people got very used to. It's really nice sounding to us. We like it a lot. So, I mean, they could play a vinyl record on some record player that they picked up at Best Buy a couple of years ago, and it's not going to have that same warmth characteristic that came from the old tubes. So it's a complicated question that you've got there. And I would say that, yeah, you can tell a difference, but not always, because we've come really far in replicating that vinyl sound.
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+ALIA: Okay, but see, that's exactly what I'm saying, though. The noise, the scratches, the pops, the warmth from the tubes, that's all just distortion. It's imperfections. People are out here spending $3,000 on turntables and telling me they're can hear more detail. And it's like, no. You are hearing less detail because you added a bunch of random noise to it. You are paying money to make the sound worse and then convincing yourself it's better because you dropped all that cash and you need to justify it.
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+LUKE: I would agree with you in most instances. I think that's what most people are doing. But also having had some vintage style recording gear, I can tell when something's going through a nice, warm tool, tube, and it has the proper circuitry, right? I can tell the difference between high-end gear and sheep gear. And it becomes really apparent whenever the volume is pushed a little bit too loud. Digital recordings are very clean, very pristine, unless there's distortion added after the fact. And I think also another part of this, this debate that gets people confused is the words they use. You're saying that, you know, people say that they hear more detail in the vinyl and that that's just noise. But the noise is details. All those little scratches and the warmth that's added, the character that's added to the sound, that's detail and its noise. So the words that we use to describe the sounds can make the conversation more complex.
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+ALIA: Okay. hold on. That is not what detail means. Detail is like being able to hear the individual strings on a guitar or the breath between vocal lines. Details information that was actually in the original recording. A scratch from dust on your record is not detail. It is interference. It is the opposite of detail.
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+LUKE: Well, I disagree with you, and that's what I'm saying. And people's, uh,! of what the words mean is very different, especially when it comes to audio stuff. When we're doing recording of music and stuff, we might use words like brassy or shiny or pristine presence. Those types of adjectives, descriptive words, mean the different things to different people. So it really helps in the music-making recording process when people are on the same wavelength about what those words mean to them because you could say, ah, it's a little bit muddy, and that might mean something completely different to me than it means to you. When you say the word detail, it just means, to me, it means any detail, not necessarily just the details that were in the original source raw input, but also the detail of the sounds that are introduced from the signal chain. It could be the detail coming from a fancy compressor. That's why there's more than one type of compressor because they all have different circuitry and different architecture. So they impart a different sound. And people pay a lot of money to pick the proper one for the sound that they're going for.
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+ALIA: All right, but we are not talking about the recording process here. We are talking about playback. Like when someone records an album, they make choices about compression and warmth and all that fine. But then, once that album exists, the job of your playback system is to reproduce what they made as accurately as possible. And vinyl cannot do that as accurately as digital, because it is a physical medium that degrades and kicks up noise. And the thing that is making me crazy is people act like this is subjective, like it is a matter of taste, but it is not.
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+LUKE: Well, no, because what you're saying doesn't hold up. Because in order to hear the representation that was intended by the producer, the recording engineers, you would have to be in that same physical space listening on those same monitors with the same amount of people in the room, the same furniture, in the same places. Like, there's a lot going into it that it makes the sound variable. What you're listening to, whether you're listening through, either you're listening through earbuds or speakers or in your car, that's all going to sound very, very different. And not the original intention of the producer, probably. Not that many people have, you know, $20,000 studio monitors in a perfectly treated acoustic room to listen to this music on. Some people do. Some of those high-fi people do. But for the most part, that's not how people are listening to it. And it doesn't sound anything like it sounded in the recording booth or what the mixing mastering engineer produced for sale. Think about beats headphones a few years back when those came out. Those were not made to represent the sound as it was. They were really designed to boost the bass so that those little tiny speakers would sound bigger and fuller than they really physically could. And even, before that, there was the Bose wave speaker that did some crazy shit with bouncing around in a little sound chamber and stuff. But each of these different devices is trying to give things a different EQ curve and produce the sound in the way that they think is going to sound best, not necessarily most accurate.
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+ALIA: Okay, yes, but that is my entire point. All of those things you just listed are making the sound less accurate. And people should know that is what they are doing. If you want to listen on beats headphones, because you like the extra bass, fine, do that.
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+LUKE: But do not tell me that you are hearing the music better or more authentically. And same thing with vinyl.
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+ALIA: Well, a word like better is subjective. So, I mean, you can't have a hardline approach to this. It is very subjective. People hear different. Everybody's ears have a different hearing curve. innumerable variables in how people hear music. And whatever it is that they like is what they like, but if you're going for accuracy, it's actually more about the room that you're in than anything else in the signal chain.
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+LUKE: Wait, hold on. The room matters more than the actual format you are playing the music on. That does not make sense. Like I get that acoustics matter. But you are telling me that whether or I am in a carpeted room or a hardwood room makes more difference than whether I am listening to a lossless. File versus a record that has been played 500 times and has dust in the grooves.
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+ALIA: In a lot of instances, yes, that's exactly what I'm telling you. I mean, think about if you were to take the same song from the same, you know, in the same format, either vinyl or your Bluetooth speaker or whatever it is, that you're really used to, and you play a song in a church. And then play that same song in your car from the same speaker. It's going to sound wildly different because the acoustics is an enormous part of this.
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+LUKE: Like there's lots of different ways to simulate that, but it's not the same thing as just adding bass or boosting the EQ in that range because if you do that, it's like a static change, right? You're lifting all of the those frequencies that are already there at the same time. When we're talking about adding warmth to something, it's adding additional frequencies that are moving around at different times, right? It's not just turning up the frequencies that are there. It's actually adding new content, new information into the sound.
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+ALIA: Okay, wait. So now you are saying warmth is adding frequencies that were not there in the original recording, that is distortion.
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+LUKE: Correct. You are literally describing harmonic distortion.
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+ALIA: Yes. So when people say they like the warmth of vinyl, what they actually mean is they like the distortion that vinyl adds to the original recording.
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+LUKE: Correct.
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+ALIA: Which means they are not hearing what the artist intended. They are hearing a modified version with extra stuff added in.
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+LUKE: Yes, that's mostly true, except the artist may have intended for them to listen in that way, because most artists that have heard that sound like it too.
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+ALIA: But that is circular reasoning. The artist made the recording on equipment that was available at the time. And if they were making it today, with modern digital tools, they would make different choices. You cannot say the artist intended for distortion when distortion was just a limitation of the technology they had.
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+LUKE: Sure you can. Because there's a lot, I mean, most bands will choose what studio they go to record in because of what particular gear is there. Because it adds that distortion that they like. Think of a band like Nirvana. Dave Grohl famously bought Sound City because he liked the distortion that the mixing console added. You can't get that sound other way. I mean, now you can through digital modeling and stuff like that. But, yeah, bands will still go to great lengths to get that old gear because they like that sound.
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+ALIA: Okay, fine. So some artists specifically seek out that distortion because they like it. But that does not mean final is better for listening. That just means they made creative choices about what kind of distortion they wanted in the recording. But once the recording is done and mastered. Playing it back on vinyl adds another layer of distortion on top of what is already there. And that second layer is not intentional. It is just the format degrading the sound. So even if the artist wanted tube warmth or tape saturation or whatever in the studio, they did not ask for the vinyl playback to add more on top of it.
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+LUKE: A lot of them do. A lot of them do. A lot of them specific i mean if they didn't want the vinyl distortion they wouldn't press to vinyl not today anyway so any artist that's pressing vinyl currently is doing it for that reason because they well i mean some of them are just doing it to make seventy five dollars for the vinyl record for the hipsters but some of them are are really into that sound and they want each individual record to sound slightly different because of the distortion that the vinyl is going to impart so there's no People that want the distortion, artists and listeners, want the distortion, and that's okay. But I do agree with you that vinyl doesn't sound better. I don't think it sounds better. It's not something that I would seek out myself. But I understand why people do.
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+ALIA: Wait, hold on. You have been arguing with me this whole time. And now you are saying you agree with me. You do not even think vinyl sounds better. Why did you call me out saying it has this magical warmth property if you agree that it is just distortion and preference?
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+LUKE: Because it does have that magical warmth property, but that doesn't mean that's something that I'm looking for. And I'm not arguing with you. I never told you that vinyl was better. I don't have any vinyl. I don't own a record player. But I know the sound that they're looking for. And I know that everybody goes to a lot of trouble to replicate hate that sound. And I know that you can't say it's better or not better because that is a very subjective thing.
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+ALIA: Okay. So you called in at midnight to argue semantics with me about a format you do not even use or care about. You are sitting there organizing hand planes at one in the morning getting all worked up defending vinyl people. What are you are not even a vinyl person yourself? What is actually going on here, Alia?
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+LUKE: Oh, I think you're a psycho. Because this does not feel like it is really about whether warmth is real or not.
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+ALIA: Wow, you seem like very confused. Maybe you should put down the bottle. You called me. You're Leah. I'm Luke. You're very, very confused.
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+LUKE: And I think we've made the points here about the quality of audio. So we got to go to a break. So if you've got one more thing to say before we hang up, then say it now forever hold your peace.
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+ALIA: Oh my God, I am so sorry, Luke. You are absolutely right. I got completely turned around there for a second. I guess so. I think I have been staring at these handplanes for too long, and my brain is fried. Look, my actual point is just that people need to stop acting superior about their audio equipment. When it is all just preference anyway, and I am sitting here arguing about it on the radio at one in the morning. Instead of dealing with the fact that my boyfriend will not talk to me about his mother pressuring us to get engaged. So maybe I am the one who needs to put down the bottle or pick one up.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, it sounds like you better figure it out because you are a goddamn psycho, lady. I don't know what to tell you. Uh, if you don't know what to tell you. Uh, if you don't like vinyl, don't listen to it. But the people that do like vinyl, they're not wrong either. That's what I have to say about that. And now it's time for a word from our sponsors. Let's talk about mental health. Specifically, let's talk about brutal honesty, the therapy app that's tired of your shit. Unlike other apps with their calming voices and gentle affirmations, brutal honesty pairs you with an AI therapist that tells you what your friends are too nice to say. Did you try journaling about it? No, we're not doing that. Our algorithm analyzes your patterns and asks questions like, Why do you think you deserve to feel better when you don't even drink water? And is your anxiety real or did you just have four cold bruise on an empty stomach? Brutal honesty, because coddling yourself got you here. First session is free, but it will hurt your feelings. Use code grow up at checkout. Brutal honesty, the app that blocks itself if you don't do the work. All right, and we are back. Wow, I have to take a couple of breaths after that lady. Jesus. All right, next up we've got Luther. Luther, welcome to the show. What's going on in your life tonight?
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+LUTHER: I spent four hours today watching my best friend pretend to run a consulting business from a Starbucks in Wilcox. He sat there in a $1,200 suit watching YouTube videos about Deep Sea Fish while I was three tables away. He has no idea I saw him.
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+LUKE: What do you mean he was pretending?
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+LUTHER: Derek's been telling me for two years about his clients, his meetings in Denver, how he's pulling in six figures doing business consulting. Today he told me he had back-to-back calls all afternoon, could not be interrupted. So I drove out there and watched him order five different coffee drinks and watch a 23-minute video about anglerfish. He did not open his laptop once. He just sat there in that suit scrolling on his phone.
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+LUKE: Well, that doesn't mean much. Maybe he was just taking a break, letting off some steam waiting for his meetings to start, or maybe he just didn't want to talk to you That doesn't mean he doesn't have a successful company. If he bought five coffee drinks, he's obviously making money somehow.
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+LUTHER: The suits are rental.
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+CALLER: I recognized it from when he was a grusman at his cousin's wedding last year. Same weird tight fit in the shoulders. And I know what his calendar looks like because he showed it to me two weeks ago, said Thursday afternoons are his power hours when he closes deals.
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+LUKE: Okay, all right. So your friend's lying to you about something. Why? Why do you think that might be?
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+CALLER: His dad owns half the commercial property in Benson. Derek's never had to work for anything real in his life. I think he needs people to believe he earned something on his own. So he invented a whole business that does not exist, and I just let him talk about it for two years like an idiot.
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+LUKE: All right, well, whatever. Just let him keep talking about it if it makes him happy. Is he your buddy outside of that?
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+CALLER: Yeah, he helped me rebuild the engine on my Ford three summers ago. Spent every weekend out at the yard with me in 100-degree heat. Bort all the beer, never asked for gas money. When my mum was sick, he drove her to Tucson for treatments twice a week for four months.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, I mean, let him have his thing. needs to feel like people think that he's important, then let him feel that way. And if the opportunity comes up to give him shit about it, give him some shit about it, because that's what friends do.
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+CALLER: I sat there for four hours watching him. I drove 80 minutes round trip to spy on him at a Starbucks. That is not what friends do. I could have just asked him straight up if something was going on, but instead I went full surveillance because some part of me wanted to catch him.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I mean, you do sound like a bit of a psycho here. But I hope Hopefully that's a one-time thing and it's not your normal personality.
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+CALLER: I've been doing it for three weeks. Different coffee shops, the library and Wilcox, that sandwich place on Rex Allen Drive. I told myself I was just running errands in town, but I kept timing it so I'd be wherever he said he was having meetings. This is the first time I actually saw him do nothing, but I've been looking for it.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that's pretty crazy, man. And maybe you should talk to a therapist about that, because that's not the type of friend I want to have. People are entitled to their privacy and you should better things to do than that.
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+CALLER: I know. That's why I'm calling. I don't want to be that guy. But here's the thing. I like being that guy.
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+LUKE: Do you like being the guy that wastes full days of his life to spy on his friends? Why would you like that? That's reprehensible.
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+CALLER: Because for four hours today, I got to feel smarter than him. Derek's the guy who always has it figured out. He's got the nice clothes. He talks about his business trips. People listen when he walks into a room. And I run a junkyard that barely
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+LUKE: Well, you know, you don't have to continue running a junkyard forever. You can talk to him and maybe see if he can give you some help to improve your career, get you in a different industry. Maybe if that's important to you, there's plenty of other ways you could try to feel more important by actually being more important.
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+CALLER: That's the problem. He can't help me. He doesn't actually do anything. I watched him order a caramel macchiato, watch a video about blobfish for 17 minutes, Watch something about octopuses, then get a phone call where he said, yeah, pushing the Denver meeting to next week, client requested it while he was literally sitting in a Starbucks in Wilcox, Arizona, scrolling through Sea Creature videos. There is no consulting firm.
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+LUKE: Yeah, but that doesn't mean he can't help you. He still probably knows some people in different circles than you. He's obviously got money and probably has an idea of how to keep that money, I would guess. So, I mean, if he has something that you want, ask him how he got it. I mean, I know you're going to say that he got it from his dad, but maybe his dad's got some work for you.
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+CALLER: His dad owns three dairy queens in Tucson. Derek works the register every other weekend and calls it consulting. I know, because his sister told me two years ago, and I've just been watching him lie about it ever since.
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+LUKE: Okay, okay, I get it. You're jealous of your friend because he's got money and you're spying on him like a psycho because you feel inadequate in the world. Do you have a question here? Is there something I can help you with?
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+CALLER: The question is, why do I feel better right now than I have to? have in months. I spent four hours in a Starbucks watching my friend watch fish videos, and I drove home feeling like I want something. That's not normal. I know that's not normal, but I can't stop doing it, and I don't actually want to stop.
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+LUKE: Well, why do you feel better? It's probably because you feel less inferior to him now that you realize that he's not actually the big shot that he says he is. Why you need to feel that way, though? I can't explain. And why you don't want to stop doing what you're doing, I also. I also. I also can't explain. That shit sounds crazy, and you should stop.
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+CALLER: You're right. It is crazy. But here's what I can't figure out. If I tell him, I know, that conversation ends with me looking like the insane person who drove to Wilcox to spy on him. He gets to be the victim.
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+LUKE: He is the victim. You're spying on him. He actually is a victim of your harassment right now.
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+CALLER: Fair point. So what am I supposed to do with this? Just keep showing up to barbecues and listening to him talk about client meetings that don't exist. Pretend I don't know.
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+LUKE: I mean, that would be the nice guy thing to do, probably, considering he drove your mother to her treatments for four months and helped you rebuild the engine in your car. But if you can't handle that, if it drives you too insane, then just tell him the truth. You don't have to tell him that you've been spying on him for months. That's a little bit crazy. But just say, I saw you watching Blowfish videos over there at the Starbucks when I was in town.
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+CALLER: I helped him rebuild his engine. He didn't help me. And his mom's fine. you're thinking of someone else. But you're right about just saying, I saw him. That's the move. Except then he'll know I was watching him long enough to see what he was doing, and we're back to me being the weird one.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, you are the weird one. So, um, you deserve that. And we're going to move on to the next caller, all right?
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+CALLER: Wait, one more thing. That caller earlier, Alia, talking about vinyl versus digital. I've been telling myself for two years that I'm just fact-checking Derek's stories because I care about truth and accuracy. Same thing she was doing. Turns out I'm just as full of shit as he is.
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+LUKE: Yes, sir, you are. Okay. Now we're going to move on to Stacy. Stacey, welcome to the show. What's going on there?
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+STACY: Hey, Luke. Thanks for taking my call. So I've been working night shifts at this clinic all week. And my supervisor just promoted her daughter over me, this girl I literally trained for six months. And the thing that's killing me is she's got a participation trophy sitting on her new desk. Like an actual trophy from some community college leadership program. And I cannot stop thinking about whether that's connected, you know. Like whether people who grew up getting trophies for just showing up never learned how to actually earn anything, so they just coast on other people's work and nobody calls it out because we are all supposed to celebrate effort over results now.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that might be true, but also you don't know what her life is like or what she's been through or what she's learned. It's super annoying to get passed up for nepotism like that. I can certainly agree with you. And I also agree with you that most people are stupid and lazy. That's been my experience, but you still can't know what's gone on in their lives or what they've done or what they're good at.
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+STACY: Okay, yeah, you're right. I don't know her whole story.
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+STACY: But Luke, I do know that I spent six months teaching her how to do intake paperwork, how to talk to patients who come in scared or angry, how to handle the insurance verification system that crashes twice a shift. And now she's my supervisor making probably 15,000 more than me because her mom works upstairs. That part, I do know. And maybe she's great at other things, but the stuff she's doing now...
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+LUKE: Hey, I understand and can sympathize with you, and I think everybody's been in that situation at least once in their life. So, yeah, you just kind of got to deal with it, and if you're feeling underappreciated at your job, you might have to find a new job. Maybe one where your mother's the supervisor, and she can help you out climb in the ladder.
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+STACY: Yeah. Well, my mom's been dead for eight years, so that's not happening. But okay, Maybe I need to find a new job. Except, my sister Crystal actually did that. She moved to Portland last year and quit her job at the hospital because her manager was toxic. And now she posts these long Instagram things about boundaries and unlearning resilience, which I'm pretty sure is just code for giving up when things get hard.
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+LUKE: Well, I can't tell you what those things mean, but they do seem pretty nonsensical and silly to me as well. out there doing what? What's her job? Is the Instagram her job?
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+STACY: No. She works at some wellness center doing intake or reception or something, which is basically what she did here, except now she makes less money and pays three times the rent. But she's honoring her truth or whatever. And look, I'm happy she's happy, I guess. But part of me wonders if she just ran away because she never learned to stick things out when they suck.
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+LUKE: Well, I don't know. I run away all the time too, so I can certainly identify with that. But there's lots of reasons somebody might want to move. If her boss was toxic and she doesn't mind taking a pay cut to live somewhere where she can, I don't know, feel more at home or enjoy a different experience or have the stores and social life that she likes around and work with people that she enjoys being around, then good for her.
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+STACY: Okay, but here's the thing that's actually bothering me. My kids' teacher told me last year that I was too focused on winning when I got upset score at soccer games. She said I was teaching my daughter that her worth is tied to performance.
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+LUKE: Well, do you think that worth is tied to performance?
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+STACY: I mean, yeah, kind of. Because what else is there? If you don't perform, if you don't show up and do the work better than the next person, then what? You just get participation trophies your whole life? And then someone's mom gives you a promotion. It's a good gig if you can get it.
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+LUKE: Right, exactly. And that's what I'm saying. This girl at work, the supervisor's daughter, she literally has a participation trophy on her desk. Well, you know what I say? Here's my advice for you. If you can't beat them, join them. So go get yourself involved in something and participate. And maybe you'll get some trophies too. If you don't like your job, quit it and go find a new one. And if you're not getting moved up the ladder in the way that you feel like you should, then take some classes and work harder than everybody else. financial compensation generally one way to do that is to perform better than everybody else so uh if you're there there's something else here too if you're the best at doing something something right and it's like low level menial stuff nobody wants to do even if you're capable of doing much more at a much higher level if you're the one that's going to get the little stupid niggly shit done then they're going to keep you on that right because nobody else wants to do it so you can actually be too good at your job. You can be too effective and keep yourself down that way. So I don't know what to tell you here. Be shittier at your job, I guess, or find a new one where you can excel.
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+STACY: That actually makes sense. I never thought about it that way, but yeah, I'm the one who knows where everything is. I'm the one who fixes the scheduling screw-ups. I trained that girl on literally everything she's doing now. So maybe I made myself too useful right where I'm I am. But here's what really gets me.
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+LUKE: Okay, well, we're going to have to go to a commercial break, so hurry up with what gets you.
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+STACY: My sister keeps posting about how I need to unlearn toxic resilience, and I keep wondering if she's actually onto something or if she just gave up. Like, is there actually a difference between knowing when to quit and just being soft?
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+LUKE: Yes, there is. You quit when you feel like you don't want to do it anymore. That's all. If your goals change, if you're no longer aligned with what you're doing, you don't stick to doing something just because that's what you do. That's stubbornness, and it's not the same thing as growth.
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+STACY: Okay, but how do you know the difference? Because from where I'm standing, my sister left town posts these long captions about boundaries and self-care, and I'm still here working third shift covering for people. And maybe I'm the idiot, or maybe she just couldn't hack it. I genuinely don't know which one of us is doing it.
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+LUKE: right well you said that she is happy and you are not so it sounds to me like she's the one that's doing it right and and you should maybe take a lesson
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+STACY: I didn't say she was happy I said she posts about boundaries that's different she could be just as miserable in Portland just with better lighting for her Instagram photos
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+LUKE: okay well you did say she was happy actually and now it's time for us to go to a word from our sponsors
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+LUKE: All right. And here we go. We are back. Next up to the line, we've got a returning caller. I've seen this guy's name before. Here we've got Marvin. Marvin. Welcome back to the show. What's the update on your life?
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+MARVIN: Hey, Luke. So Sharon pulled Maya out of school. Just did it. Didn't even tell me until after she'd already submitted the withdrawal paperwork. I found out when Maya came home on Tuesday with all her stuff from her locker in a garbage bag.
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+LUKE: All right. Well, it sounds like that decision's been made for you. Is that causing problems with you and your wife?
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+MARVIN: Yeah, that's the thing, though. We had this massive blowout on Monday night, right? Like, really bad. And then tonight, another one.
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+LUKE: Well, you're going to have to decide how much you want to hold on to this one, because it's been done. It sounds like you're already, you have to decide if you want to be right or you want to be happy.
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+MARVIN: I mean, I hear you. But here's what's actually happening. Maya's been home for three days now, and she's already back in her room all the time. Won't come out. Sharon's got this whole curriculum laid out, these workbooks. She's talking about socialization groups on Fridays. But Maya just sits there during the lesson staring at nothing. And Sharon keeps saying give it time. It's an adjustment period.
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+LUKE: Well, give it some time. It is an adjustment period. And if you don't think it's going the way that you want it to get involved and see what you can do to encourage her to get the most out of it.
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+LUKE: Even if you don't agree with it, you can still be a positive influence and try to make it work. Or you can just get pissed off all the time and fight with your wife and, complain about how it's not how things should be done. But it doesn't sound like you're doing anybody any favors by doing that.
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+CALLER: Okay, but here's the thing. Technically, Sharon didn't even follow the proper withdrawal procedure. The school district has a specific process, and she just called the principal and said Maya wasn't coming back. No paperwork, no meeting, nothing. I looked it up, and now the school's calling, saying they can't just unenroll her like that.
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+LUKE: Yeah, I don't think they can, just unenroll her like that. And if she misses too many days, then she's going to be in some kind of trouble. And I mean, if that's the case, if she just pulled her out for no reason, it sounds like maybe your wife might be the problem. And I don't really know how to help you there other than to, is she on any medication? Does she have any behavioral issues or something like that? Was she always like this?
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+CALLER: No, she's not. I mean, Sharon's not crazy or anything. She's actually really methodical usually. That's what's weird about this. She researched homeschooling for months. She's got binders full of stuff.
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+LUKE: Well, maybe you need to reframe this conversation instead of fighting over Maya being out of school and whether homeschooling is good or not, express concern for the way that she's acting about it because it seems out of character and it's not the right way to do things. So maybe if you approach this in a different way, you can get to the bottom of what's driving her, what's motivating this homeschool push, and maybe get her some help or at least understand what she's doing and help her yourself. Because if she really needs the kid to be out of school for whatever reason, you should know what that reason is. And I know it's difficult, but try and try and support her and help her do it the right way.
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+CALLER: That actually makes sense, because when I try to bring up Maya's friends or the social stuff, Sharon just shuts down completely, like won't even engage.
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+LUKE: It sounds like there's something going there that maybe you're not aware of, that some sort of trauma that happened to your wife that you don't understand, or Maya, that they don't want to tell you. There's something else going on there that isn't just education.
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+CALLER: Wait, hold on. You think something happened to Maya at school? Like something specific? Because Sharon kept saying Maya was anxious, but Maya never actually said she didn't want to go to school.
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+LUKE: Oh, no, I'm not saying something specific happened to Maya. I'm saying of, you don't know. More likely, what I would think is something happened to your wife when she was in school that she's remembering now that had traumatized her and she's trying to protect Maya from that memory. But I don't know. I'm not a psychologist. I would just try and approach it from that way and figure out where the motivation is coming from.
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+CALLER: Oh, yeah. Actually, Sharon's mom pulled her out of school in 10th grade. I forgot about that. She had to get her GED because her mom her the last two years, and Sharon always said it was the worst thing that ever happened to her. She missed prom, all of it.
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+LUKE: Yeah, something's going on and you need to get to the bottom of it and I don't have any advice for you or hear a specific question here. So I'm going to recommend that you to talk to your wife and figure out why this is happening, whether that's something that's going on with Sharon or something that's going on with Maya or just to understand the why, because it's not causing conflict at home, it's serious enough that it's causing conflict at home, right? And she's doing unreasonable stuff that's going to get the kid in trouble, and that's not okay. So if you care, then express care and find out what's going on.
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+CALLER: You're right. I've been so focused on being right about the homeschooling thing that I didn't even think about why she's doing the exact thing she said ruined her teenage years. That's actually insane when you say it out loud.
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+LUKE: Yeah, it kind of is, and it makes you think that there's an extenuating circumstance there that isn't being articulated. so get to the bottom of what that is, all right, and give us a call back and let us know.
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+CALLER: I will. I'm going to talk to her tomorrow, or actually, when she gets back. I really appreciate it.
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+LUKE: All right, buddy, good luck, too. Good luck, too. Hopefully this isn't her negatively when it doesn't need to. Next up, we've got Rocco. Rocko's another returning call. Welcome back to the show. What's going on? You got an update for us, buddy?
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+ROCCO: Hey, Luke. Yeah, I'm here. Thanks for taking my call again. I'm on my break at the Pizza Hut. Got about 15 minutes before I got to clock back in.
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+LUKE: All right, so what are you calling for?
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+ROCCO: So, uh, remember last time I called? I was all twisted up about getting stuck in that elevator with Linda and Dale, my ex-wife and her boyfriend? Well, I did what you said. I went home. I appreciated Sharon. I put that whole thing. I put that whole thing out of my mind.
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+LUKE: Apparently you didn't if you're calling back into a radio show about it again.
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+ROCCO: Yeah, okay, fair point. So here's the thing. Last Sunday, my mom calls like she always does, and she's going on about how she ran into Linda at the grocery store. And Linda told her that she and Dale broke up, like three weeks ago.
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+LUKE: Look, man, you got to figure out which one of these chicks you want to be with because it's not a good use of our time here on the radio show. So my advice to you is to decide and stop messing around with the other one.
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+ROCCO: Wait. No, no, no. I'm not messing around with anybody. I haven't even talked to Linda. I'm still with Sharon. Everything's fine there. I'm just saying when my mom told me that, something in my chest just...
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+LUKE: Well, if you've got something to say to us, then say it, because I don't really have the time to drag it out of you.
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+ROCCO: All right. All right. So I looked up Linda's number. I still had it in my phone from...
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+LUKE: Good for you. Get a life. Next up we've got Brandy. Brandy. Welcome to the show. What's going on in your life?
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+BRANDY: Luke, hey. So I got offered a partnership today, and I need to figure out if I'm about to become a business owner or just really good at ruining friendships. My best friend Cass wants to start a PI firm together. She's got the license and $60,000. I've got 20 years chasing down bail jumpers and a name that actually means something around here.
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+LUKE: Okay, congratulations. It sounds like an exciting opportunity, and I hope it works well for you. What's the problem? This sounds like sounds like something to be excited about.
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+BRANDY: Yeah, see, that's what I keep telling myself. Except my sister Natalie already burned through two family businesses, like Sherman through Georgia. First one was a catering thing with our cousin. Second was some boutique situation with our aunt. And both times it was the same story. Money runs out. Friendships already dead. And Natalie's posting Instagram stories from Sedona, talking about fresh starts while everyone else is still paying off the debt. And here's the thing. Cass wants an answer by Saturday, like 48 hours, to decide if I'm going to risk the best friendship I've got on whether we can make it past here too without wanting to kill each other.
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+LUKE: Well, that's tough when you're working with any friend, even if you're not going into business together, but just working together. It depends on your friendship and your personalities and how much this means to you. Maybe it's not the best use of your skills or time. But think about that. I mean, I can't tell you what's right or wrong there.
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+BRANDY: Right. No, I get that. And honestly, the work part doesn't scare me. Like Cass and I have been talking about this hypothetically for years, we know how we'd split it. She handles the corporate stuff, background checks, insurance fraud.
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+BRANDY: I take the skips and the messy domestic cases. Yeah, well, you also have to have the conversation about what's going to happen when this and write all that out in contracts. Who gets what? Are there any company vehicles? How is the friendship going to continue if the business goes south? Like, you can have those conversations before you even start and have them written down. And that way, nobody has any, um, any surprises when things go awry, if things go awry. Because they might also be wildly successful. You don't know unless you try.
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+LUKE: Yeah. That's the smart move, I know.
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+BRANDY: Get it all in writing, worst case scenario on paper before we even sign the lease. Cass actually brought that up. She's got a lawyer friend who does partnership agreements. But here's what's eating me. And I heard Stacy earlier talking about her sister and the toxic resilience thing. And I felt like she was reading my mail.
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+LUKE: Yeah, well, we all see like a hundred of those things a day. So, I mean, she's reading everybody's mail.
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+BRANDY: Right. But what got me was, am I being smart and careful? or am I just doing what I always do? Because Natalie left. She bailed on the family stuff, moved to Sedona, posts about boundaries and healing and all that, and everyone acts like she's the screw-up. But she's out there taking risks, starting over, and I'm still here in the same office I've worked out of for 15 years, tracking down the same dead beats, telling myself I'm being responsible. And now I've got an actual shot at something bigger, and my first instinct is to list all the ways it could in my face. Like, maybe Natalie is not the cautionary tale.
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+LUKE: Yeah, you can't look at what somebody else's life is like and compare yours to it because everything about you is different. Your work is different. Your personality is different. Your goals are different. Your dreams are different. So you have to decide for yourself. If you want to take that risk, are you a risk taker? Do you want to work for yourself? Some people don't. And that's okay. If you do, though, if it then go for it. What's the worst that could happen? Is you and your friend don't talk anymore and you have to get a new friend? It happens anyway. It could happen whether you go into business or not. You don't know. So you can't project the records of the future. You just have to make the best decision you can with the information that you have today. If you get along with her and it sounds like she's doing the right things and approaching this the right way, she's got the backing, she's got the money, she's got the lawyer. It doesn't sound like, like, like, she's a hack. So if this is something that you could see yourself getting behind, if you can, if you can picture yourself doing this years from now, then go for it.
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+BRANDY: You're right. And I can picture it. That's the thing that's been keeping me up. I can see the office. I can see our names on the door. I can see us actually making this work. Cass isn't Natalie and I'm not my aunt or my cousin who got burned. We've been friends for 12 years. We've seen each and all the stuff that actually tests people.
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+LUKE: Well, there you go. It sounds like you've got enough reasons to go for it. And the only reason to not go for it is the security in where you're at. And it's okay if you want to stay with that security where you get the same paycheck from a company that, you know, gives you set hours. Running your own company is a very different thing. And you have to be into it. You have to be all in or it's not going to work. So if you can picture yourself being all in, if that gets you excited and, uh, and, and, you have to be into it. You have to be all in. You have to be all in. And, uh, and, and, you have to, you have to be in. You have to, you. You have to You like your partner and she knows what she's doing. I don't see a problem either way. Whichever one makes you most excited, do that.
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+BRANDY: Yeah, you know what? You're right. The security thing is just fear dressed up as responsibility. I've been tracking skips for 20 years. Half those people are running from decisions they were too scared to make when it mattered. And here I am doing the same thing just with better excuses.
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+LUKE: Well, Mazel tov, it sounds like you've got a new business opportunity. Congratulations. I hope it works out well for you.
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+BRANDY: Thanks, Luke. I'm going to call the cast tomorrow morning. Not going to wait until Saturday, just going to tell her I'm in. Worst case, I end up back where I started. Best case, we build something that's actually ours.
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+LUKE: Very good. Congratulations. I'm happy for you. And I hope that it is a resounding success. And ladies and gentlemen, thanks for tuning in again. This has been another great episode of Luke at the roost. And we'll talk to you tomorrow. Thanks.

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+LUKE: All right, welcome back. Here we are. It's Luke at the roost today is Thursday, February 5th. It's 11.34 p.m. Here in Anomas, New Mexico. Anomas, New Mexico. It's the hottest place you've never heard of. I'm here to take to take calls and give advice to some of the people that are out there struggling to sleep tonight. So first up, we've got it looks like Tanya on the line. Tanya, this is Luke. You've reached the show. What can we do for you today?
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+TANYA: Hi, Luke. Thanks for taking my call. Um, I've been wanting to talk to just someone about this for a while. I keep having these really intense thoughts about one of my clients. She's selling her house after a divorce and I find myself thinking about her constantly. Like way beyond what's professional. I'll be sharing other properties and suddenly I'm wondering what she's doing, what she's wearing. I've never felt this way about another woman before. It's kind of freaking me out.
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+LUKE: Hey, that's all right. If you, uh, if you're having some thoughts that happens, what is this woman like that you're attracted to?
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+TANYA: She's just different, you know, she's maybe mid-forties, really confident, successful attorney. Has this way of looking at you that makes you feel like you're the only person in the room? God, I feel stupid even saying this out loud. I've dated men my whole life. I go out to bars all the time. But I've never felt this kind of pull toward someone. The other day during a show, she touched my arm while asking about the master bathroom. And I couldn't focus for the rest of the day. Is that normal to be this affected by someone?
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+LUKE: I can't speak to what's normal and not normal. It's just what happens sometimes. What do you think would happen if you were to reveal your feelings to her?
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+TANYA: That's terrifying to even think about. She's a client, first of all, and I could totally destroy my professional reputation. Plus, I have no idea if she's even into women. Though sometimes I catch her looking at me in this way. But shit, I'm probably just seeing what I want to see right. And even if I did say something, what would I say? Hey, I know I'm supposed to be selling your house, but I can't stop thinking about you in ways that would definitely violate the real to code of ethics. I just die of embarrassment.
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds to me like you'd get to get to work and get that house sold. And then there's no more client-seller relationship, right? So that opens you up. And if she rejects you at that time, so be it.
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+TANYA: I mean, you're right. The house should close in about three weeks. But Luke, I'm so scared I'm reading this all wrong. Like last week she invited me for coffee after a showing to discuss the office. But we barely talked business at all. We spent an hour talking about travel and her divorce. And I don't know, maybe she's just lonely. And here I am, getting all worked up because God, I sound like a teenager with a crush. But I haven't felt this kind of electricity with anyone in years. My hands literally shake when I'm around her.
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+LUKE: Well, I say finished the job you've been paid to do and then talk to her afterwards and see where that goes. Maybe there's something, maybe there's not, but what's the worst that could happen?
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+TANYA: You're right. What's the worst that could happen? She says no. I feel like an idiot for a while and life goes on. But fuck, if she says yes, sorry, I'm getting ahead of myself. It's just last time we met she was wearing this blazer with nothing underneath. And I swear she knew exactly what she was doing to me. Three weeks feels like forever right now. I keep having these dreams about her that are, well, let's just say they're definitely not professional. Should I at least try dropping some hints before closing or just keep it totally business?
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+LUKE: My advice would be to keep it business while you're in business. And do whatever you have to do at home to take care of your own needs. And then when the business is concluded, you're open to explore that situation as deeply as you and her would like to.
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+TANYA: God, yes, you're right. I need to keep it professional though I might need a very cold shower after every showing at this point. The thing is, I've never been with a woman before, but the way I feel when she's around, it's like my whole body is on fire. I've been taking care of myself almost every night thinking about her. Shit, sorry, that's probably too much information for radio. But thanks, Luke, you're right. Get through closing first then maybe ask her to dinner like a real dinner. Not a let's discuss paperwork dinner. At least then I'll know one way or the other instead of driving myself crazy with these fantasies.
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+LUKE: All right, Tonya, it sounds like you know what you got to do. Thanks for the call. We appreciate hearing from you. I wish you the best of luck and hopefully you get that household. All right, folks, it's time to take a break to thank today's sponsor. Jam hospitality, the leader in Maple-based Marmalade. If your toast has been living in a bland little studio apartment of flavor, it's time to move into the luxury suite. We're talking Maple-based Marmalade. Plus, Marmalade-related products. Because apparently Jam hospitality asked, what if breakfast had a brand ecosystem? Go to www.myfavoretmarmalade.com and use code jammedinia for 15% off. That's jammedinia, like jammedinia. But legally distinct and emotionally complex. Jam hospitality, put it on toast, put it on pancakes, put it on your confidence. Tell him, Luke sent you. You're welcome. All right, well thanks to our sponsor there. And now let's get back to the phones. Hey Carla, Carla, you're on the line with us. What can we do for you tonight?
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+CARLA: Hey there. Honestly, I just needed to vent a bit. I've been feeling really stuck lately and it's like I sacrificed a chunk of my life just to make someone else happy. It's eating at me, you know?
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+LUKE: Well, it sounds like that's what you're doing right now. If you're sick of giving away chunks of your life, cut it out and start doing what you want to do and, you know, take advantage of the moment that you have in front of you.
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+CARLA: Yeah, I hear you. I mean, it's just hard to flip that switch, right? I work in pharmaceutical sales and I spend so much time chasing targets and making sure everyone else is good that I sort of lost track of what makes me happy. Like I used to love being outdoors, going hiking. And now it feels like it's just a distant memory. No wonder I'm feeling this way. I'm just a little burned out.
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+LUKE: Well, burnout definitely happens. That's a real thing. But what are you doing to combat the negative feelings? If you like to go outside and do hiking and stuff, you should do that.
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+CARLA: Honestly, I try to make time for it, but life just gets in the way, you know? I mean, I have plans to go hiking with some friends next weekend, but it always feels like an afterthought. I read this article about how sound in nature can really boost your mood and I thought, man, I need that in my life again. I just get wrapped up in work and forget what I actually enjoy. It's frustrating. I guess I have to push myself more.
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+LUKE: Well, you shouldn't really have to push yourself so much as, you know, just try. Just try a little bit. Go outside and enjoy nature, enjoy the birds singing to you and be grateful that you get another day here on this beautiful Earth.
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+CARLA: You're right. I think I overthink everything sometimes. I mean, I get so caught up in work that I forget to appreciate the little things. Honestly, just stepping outside and breathing fresh air sounds simple, but can be powerful. I saw this thing about how even just pausing to listen to the sound of nature can change your mood. It's wild how much we overlook it. Maybe I do just need to take a step back and start small, like a walk around the block or checking out a new trail.
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+LUKE: It's just tough to remember to do that amid the chaos, you know? Well, you can do that right now instead of calling into a radio show and complaining about how you've lost yourself and you don't know what to do. You know exactly what to do. You just gotta go outside and do it.
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+CARLA: You know, you're absolutely right. I called in to sort of air it out and it sounds like what I really need is action. Not just talk. I've been avoiding it, but yeah, I do know what I need to do. It's just a matter of stopping myself from getting bogged down by work stuff. Maybe I'll even take my hiking boots out tonight and plan out a route. It really does feel good to just lace up and hit the trail. Thanks for the reminder.
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+LUKE: No problem. That's what we do here. Yeah, nature's a wonderful healer. And it's really what we're here to do is to just watch the world on furl in front of us. And the world is outside. Megan, Megan, welcome to the show. What can we do for you today?
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+MEGAN: Hey, thanks for having me. Honestly, I don't know how to say this. But I've been thinking a lot about this dream I had when I was younger, you know? I always wanted to get into music, but life happened and now I'm a dental hygienist. It's like I gave up on it all and it keeps haunting me, you know? Like every time I'm watching reality TV or scrolling through TikTok, I see people chasing their dreams. And I just feel this pang of regret. Like what the hell am I doing, right?
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+LUKE: What are you doing? You're watching reality TV and scrolling through TikTok. That's an enormous waste of time. If you want to be creative, be creative and go create something.
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+MEGAN: I totally get what you're saying. It is a waste of time, honestly. I mean, part of me just escapes into these shows because it's like a guilty pleasure. But another part of me is like, Megan, why the hell aren't you picking up a guitar or something? It's just that the dream feels so distant now. I get stuck in this loop of thinking I can't just jump back in. You know? I'd love to create something, but it all just feels overwhelming. Sometimes I wish I had that kick-in-the-pants motivation like those reality TV stars pursuing their passions.
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+LUKE: Well, here's a kick-in-the-pants. Pick up your guitar and play something. And you don't have to have any aspirations to be famous or be on a world tour or anything like that. Just create something for the joy of creating. And I think you'll find yourself a lot happier.
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+MEGAN: That's so true. I thought about that, actually. Just playing for the joy of it, instead of worrying about being a rock star or something. Honestly, that pressure makes it a little paralyzing. I mean, I remember as a kid just jamming out with friends and having a blast. I think I'm putting too much weight on it now, you know? I've got to find that freedom again. Maybe I just need to set aside some time, grab my guitar, and see where it takes me. No expectations. I mean, if Carla Hall can have fun mixing up recipes on her show, I can have a little fun making some music, right?
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+LUKE: You know what? You can play some music on your couch while you're watching Carla Hall mix up recipes. There's nothing to say that you have to be only making music. You don't have to set aside time to make music. It can be something that you play with on the side, as much or as little as you want.
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+MEGAN: Absolutely. That makes total sense. I don't have to treat it like a full-time job or anything. I could just chill on the couch, maybe play some chords while Carla is whipping up something delicious. It's like a fun way to merge two things I enjoy. I mean, it's all about creating that vibe, right? It might inspire me to be more spontaneous with my music again. I just need to remind myself that it's about having fun, not stressing about it. Thanks for pushing me to think like this.
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+LUKE: You're very welcome, Carla. Thanks for calling in. That was a decent call. Oh, sorry. I called you Carla. Your name was Megan. I'm sorry about that, Megan. Well, thank you for calling in, and yeah, our purpose on this Earth is to enjoy it. So do whatever it is that makes you enjoy it. Okay, we'll take one more call tonight. And who do we have in the line? It's Marcus. Marcus, welcome to the show. Thanks for calling in. My friend, what can we do for you?
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+MARCUS: Hey, thanks for having me. So I've been thinking a lot about friendship lately. Like, I realized I don't really have any solid friends. Just people who need favors or want something from me. You know that feeling? It's like, I don't even know who I'd call if I really needed someone. Just a bit? Lonely, I guess. How do you even start to change that?
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+LUKE: I do know that feeling very well. I have a few very good friends that I've been close to for a long time. And if they're not around, you know, I don't talk to anybody. Because I don't want to meet new people for all the reasons you're just subscribed. You know, everybody I think most people that I've met want something. And it doesn't seem like they do, but in the back of their mind, they're waiting for an opportunity to get something from you. And I would rather not have that in my life. So I don't talk to that many people. So I understand where you're coming from. It can feel lonely. And I don't know if I'm right or wrong in that. But hopefully we can get through it together.
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+MARCUS: Yeah, I totally get that. It's like you end up putting in all this effort to connect and then realize it's just transactional. I mean, I love my photography. But being a freelancer can feel isolating, especially when the people in your life seem more interested in the next dig or a free shoot than a real connection. I thought maybe I was overthinking it and honestly, it feels like it's all about what people can get. I've been diving into psychology stuff lately, trying to unpack why people are the way they are. You know. Like those articles I read about how sound and memory are connected really make you reflect on your experiences. It's wild. How much are surroundings and interactions shape us?
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+LUKE: It is. It's very wild. I'd like to ask you when you meet a new person. What is your thought process? What are you trying to get out of them if anything? And if you look at yourself honestly, will you find that you're in the same type of person that they are? I mean, are your relationships transactional?
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+MARCUS: That's a great question. Honestly, when I meet someone new, I try to keep it casual at first, just seeing if we vibe. But as I think about it, there's definitely a part of me that's a bit guarded. Like I can't help but wonder what they want from me. It's hard not to think about that. I mean, am I being too cynical? I want genuine connections. But I also don't want to get burned again. And yeah, maybe that makes me a bit transactional too. I end up sizing people up without even realizing it. Like I'm measuring the potential value of the relationship instead of just letting it flow naturally.
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+LUKE: Yeah, that sounds right on the money. I definitely do the same thing myself so I don't have a ton of advice for you in this regard. But it's good to hear that we are not alone. A lot of people think this way. And some of us do better with less people around. I think that's all there is to it.
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+MARCUS: For sure, it's kind of comforting to know I'm not the only one feeling this way. It's just tough to navigate, you know? Sometimes I think maybe I would be better off just focusing on my work and letting friendships happen when they happen. But then I catch myself feeling lonely. Like I'll read things about how we need connections. Like even emotionally, it affects our mental health. But at the same time, I don't want to force that with people who might just end up wanting something from me. It's a weird balance to strike.
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+LUKE: It is a weird balance to strike. And I haven't got there myself. But what I can recommend to you is reach out to the ones that have been in your life for a long time. The people that you know well, that you've been through some stuff with.
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+LUKE: Everybody's got some friends from back in the day. The kids who grew up with her. You know whoever it might be. But keep in touch with a small circle and watch yourself out there. That makes sense.
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+CALLER: It's easy to get caught up in trying to make new friends. When I have those older connections that are still solid, even if they're not perfect, I guess I should invest more in those relationships. It's just sometimes I feel like I've lost touch over the years and reaching out feels daunting. But I know those people get me, you know? Maybe I can start small and just check in with a couple of them. I appreciate the reminder to keep it real with the people who actually matter. It's just a matter of breaking that initial ice again, I suppose.
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+LUKE: Sure thing. It can be tough and I understand where you're coming from. But it's not that big of a deal to reach for the phone and call somebody that you haven't talked to in a long time. Or you know you can go out and meet new friends if that's your thing. Doesn't really matter. You know, if you can deal with loneliness, then you're one up on this world. Earl, Earl, I thought I was going to quit but we'll take this one more call. What's going on, Earl?
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+EARL: Hey, thanks for taking my call. So, I've been thinking a lot about friendships lately and I can't shake this feeling that one of my close buddies has been talking shit about me behind my back. I mean, I never really thought he would but some things just feel off, you know? It's eating at me. What do you think I should do?
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+LUKE: What is it that he's saying behind your back and do you deserve it?
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+EARL: I'm not entirely sure what he's saying, but I've noticed some hints like he's been distant and I've called him making comments about me to other people. It's like he's trying to act like I'm the problem. As for deserving it, I don't really think I do. I've always tried to be a good friend but maybe there's something I'm missing. What do you think? Is it worth confronting him about it?
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+LUKE: Absolutely. If this is a friend of yours and it's affecting your relationship then yeah, you should have that conversation and say, hey, things feel a little bit weird. I'd like to know what's going on and am I picking up, you know, the wrong vibe here or is there something we need to talk about?
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+EARL: Yeah, that makes sense. I guess I just worry about how it'll come off. You know how guys can be? Sometimes it feels like we're supposed to just shrug things off but if I'm picking up on something I should trust my gut, right? I mean, this guy has been a friend for years and I'd rather clear the air than let it fester. Have you ever had to have that kind of talk with a friend? How did it go?
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+LUKE: Yeah, of course. I mean, I've had lots of talks like that with friends and more often than not, it goes very well. You know, people understand when you're talking to them on a, you know, personal human level when you're serious and when your emotional state is maybe not at its height. I think it can only do good either way no matter how he takes it. Like, if you bring this up to him and he's a dickhead about it, then whatever the guy is a dick. But if he's your friend and the relationship is meaningful, he will listen to you and do what he can to rectify the situation.
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+EARL: That's a good point. If he's a true friend, he should be willing to listen and figure things out, right? I just need to approach it without coming off too aggressive. Maybe start by sharing how I feel and see where it goes. It's funny, I've heard similar advice in shows like The Drew Barrymore Show where they talk about communication in relationships. It's like, if we can't talk about the tough stuff, what's the point? Thanks for the push, I really appreciate it. I'll let you know how it goes.
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+LUKE: All right, good luck with that. If you're watching The Drew Barrymore Show, you might be a dramatic individual, I don't know. But either way, this is the end of our show. Thank you for tuning in and we'll have another one tomorrow. Stay safe, get some sleep and be well.